#lol but she is also my new crush

[ai-meee]

this is an auli’i cravalho appreciation post

- amazing actress

- naturally beautiful

- can SING

- sweet and funny

- is a literal disney princess

- also BI!!!

(but also my age, so is reminding me of how unsuccessful i am)

#aulii cravalho #crush 2022 #the movie #lol but she is also my new crush #I actually love her #knew she was moana but should’ve discovered her sooner #currently obsessed #she’s so beautiful #watch me watch everything she’s in now #crush movie

[red-high-tops]

#>:[ #feels like I'm banging my head against a wall here #this isn't even just about bkdk it's about everyone in this story #I am sick of occhaco constantly being thrown into just a love interest position #she is so much more then that #and other characters moments being taken or completely left out #this story isn't just about being a hero and crushes and shit #it's also about growth and devlopment #it's about getting better and learning new things and truly growing as a person #and if bones can't see that then I'm sorry for all the anime-onlys #you are seriously missing out #anyways sorry I'm a little angry lol #bkdk #bakudeku #mha #bnha

[meownotgood]

also while I'm on the topic of being off topic. this is my beloved durge tav moon. her wizard boyfriend sprays her with water when she tries to bite people

#putting more lore about her in the tags #because I want to rant but I don't want to be annoying #ever since I made her I've just been doing runs with her because I'm attached 😭 #and also I think the storyline for the durge is so cool!!!! #so basically her backstory is like #and don't. laugh... I'm not a dnd fan so I'm not sure what's accurate.... #but I wanted her to be like the white dragonborn durge #so she's not actually a tiefling but meant to be like half human half white dragon #and she's a dragon sorcerer or whatever #so unlike a tiefling she is really. quite cold to the touch #she is chaotic neutral and ends up being redeemed #but once the new patch comes out perhaps I'll do a proper evil run #she has a sort of sorcerer / wizard rivalry with gale but she only argues with him to hide her crush lol #their shipname would be moonweave.... if you.... care.... #oh also I headcanoned that she forgot her name after the nautiloid #she had a name given to her by her foster parents although she never really used it #so moon was the name given to her by her companions #because big. moon shaped eyes #gale reads to her and occasionally casts sleep spells to help her sleep through nightmares.... #I like almost all the endings with gale so I imagine that they settle in waterdeep for a bit but also pick up adventuring again later on #or god gale cures her and makes her his chosen #thank u for listening. and now I will disappear into the depths and take my little brainrot with me

[thebigqueer]

unrelated to that rb but im thinking about it and i dont think piper liking jason was ever a forced heteronormativity thing i think she genuinely liked him

#like i relate to her so much cuz like i also like guys and even though at this point in my life im more attracted to girls ive never #considered my guy crushes as 'not knowing i was queer' i think i genuinely liked them #but also the concept of piper not dealing with her internalized amatonormativity hits sooooo hard like i didnt even think of it like that #the fact she moved on from jason so quick too. not that she needs to always feel sad for him but it had to have been like at max 4 months #which isnt to say people cant move on its just for your ex bf dying that seems so quick to me #her turning to romance again to help her problems because its just what shes always been led to believe #especially as a daughter of aphrodite.... wow many thoughts. want to put her in the microwave #in other news i totally admit as cute as her and shel are it was definitely forced as a way to 'show' she was queer #but she didnt need a girl to show she was queer she could hvae just told it honestly. not everyone who finds out theyre queer is immediatel #in a relationship and you dont always need a relationship to realize youre queer #sorry that post got me thinking about other things lol #piper mclean #riordanverse

[ima-ghost-art]

Because I'm me, here another CATS oc!! So meet Murdock!!

His humans call him Tiger and he came to the junkyard as a spunky Junior as his humans expected him to be an out door cat!

Also fully inspired by this picture

#(I also may or may not have made him to be a MistoJerrie love child 👀) #he also might end up with a sister called Mayhem im not sure xD #hes a little punk boy who DEFINITELY starts a rivalry with tugger #and Tugger is SO close to fighting this kid if it wasnt for Misto and Munkustrap telling him off #and while Alibi is around he has a massive crush on the older queen (she oblivious and just thinks the kitten really likes her magic lol) #cats the musical #cats the musical oc #cats Murdock #this was also such an exuse to use my new pens XD

[bootay-hole]

more of my doodles from school FEATURINGGGGG my ocs that i’ve never talked about and also some random designs i drew bc school is boring 👍

#tay draws #tay posts #tay’s ocs #can u guys tell that the star/heart oc duo are new ocs #i somewhat figured out their designs solely through school doodles LMAO #also i’m planning to work on the moon/sun guys a bit too. they’re pretty cool i thinks #ducktales 2017 #may duck #june duck #ty cloudkicker #now to tag the names of my ocs that i’ll probably never tag again for like a few months #Fawn of the Fauna #Florence of the Flora #Taffy Tizz #<- that’s the one with the sweater vest and curly hair with the two ponytails on each side #i had a dream about her once and decided i had to make her an oc #Laila Brooks #<- angel with the locs #Lilith Avarie #<- demon with the broken horn #also taffy tizz has a crush on the guy in the goggles beside the ty cloudkicker doodle #idk his name yet #he looks like a cleo or a felix or something #i think the guy was like an undercover spy or something and he managed to take something valuable from taffy cause. boy pretty #now that i’m typing this out i’m realising that this is basically the plot of swindle chapter 2 lol #also taffy has two love interests (including this guy) and one of them is a WOMAN!!! we love a bi poly icon #she’s not in these doodles but her name is iris <3 #tay’s art

[taegularities]

mmh...

#y'all am i broken or smth pls guide me through this #why do i find it so hard to have crushes or date or meet someone new #like i instantly panic when someone gives any hints or someone close to me talks about 'knowing' #someone #like my mom told me about a guy she/her friend knows and asked me if id like to meet him #and nothing about him seems wrong but my mind just instantly goes 🚨🚨🚨 like WHY #like i feel it in my throat #also i do not like those 100 rituals that desi parents fall into the moment their kid tells them they like someone #that whole tumult around it and the 'NOW Y'ALL GOTTA MARRY' bs #but it's not just that i rlly dunno what it is about meeting ppl or relationships like i just wanna be alone and #write my shit and live my life yk #but also i want love #LIKE HELP WHYYYYYY #actually i honestly feel like ive written too many stories about romance and ruined reality for myself LOL #but yeah idk.. this makes me anxious but maybe ill still meet him #bc you never know #yk

[eoinmcgonigal]

it's really upsetting me so to get it off my chest i'm gonna confess that the positivity posts i saw yesterday really hurt. i didn't realise that was a thing in this fandom, and i wish it wasn't because those things inevitably leave people feeling left out and like their presence isn't worth anything to the fandom (plus readers, rebloggers and commenters are integral to fandom community but don't usually get a shoutout). i'm already struggling because of this horrible trend towards using threads in discord which renders most of the servers inaccessible to me, i feel extremely isolated and alone and unwanted, but i was doing okay muddling along churning out fic and a few silly polls and posts now and then until yesterday. the fic i posted today just made me feel so sad after i posted it. it was a lovely fic :( but like what is the point. if i'm worth so little i might as well not be here. why put the effort into making things if no one notices. i already feel so lonely it's like i'm being torn in two, posting things now and then brought me comfort but idk what i have now

#i'm in a deleting everything kinda mood #no one remembered me? oh. okay :( #fuckin hurts so much #i want to finish the johnny stuff but i feel so unbearably miserable now and i don't want to spend hogmanay like that #but i also can't bear to leave it unfinished #i wish i'd never scrolled my dash yesterday then i'd never have known about those posts #it brought me so much joy to write and share those fic #absolutely crushing to discover i don't inspire the same joy in the fandom #i was kinda impressed with having written so much i thought it was kinda cool #maybe it's just really fucking annoying idk #sorry just so lonely and upset and the places i find sanctuary are falling to pieces and i'd actually like to die now thanks #so much shit is going on irl you have no idea and i don't have a support network it's terrifying #nothing i do is worth anything #no one wants me #did u no my mother discarded all the photos that had me in them? kid me just. discarded. she took everyone else and threw me out #shit like that hurts i wish i had a new family or friends to chat to as a distraction when shit gets bad #i mean i get discord dm notifications (not server mentions) if anyone dms me but lol guess how often that happens #i get tumblr dm notifications it's been the only place i've talked to anyone for ages so shoutout to those two wonderful people #god i just. want to be included? #i tried #i failed #fuck. #maybe this is goodbye idk i had stuff to finish up/share #and a million more fics i wanted to write #i don't even know if i can face doing tomorrow's johnny fic #i wanted to do the 12 days of christmas too :( #but the fact now exists that i just... wasn't good enough for this fandom :'( #also i can't face the notifications tab #if it's not a Direct Message i won't see it #god there was SO MUCH i wanted to share! there were gifs i was gonna make to share the suffering and gift fic and silly posts

[wikipediary]

Don’t wanna be ‘friends’ (using this term extremely loosely) with this one girl i’m in the same cohort/course with…her belief system + the way she perceives other people and the world is so…i cannot think of a better word so: SHUDDERING. but she’s friends with my circle of cohort/friends so she’ll always be in my circle…?

#she cheated with her ex when her ex already had a new girlfriend and she didn’t feel any remorse at all #she justified her cheating by saying sex is just sex w/her ex & that she wanted her ex’s gf (which she hasn’t even met or known) to feel the #(same things she did hurt; betrayed; cheated on) and i’m like. you’re a fucking cheater? that’s so horrible for you to do? #you don’t even know this girl? she came to be with ur ex in an appropriate way? wdym she deserves to be cheated on because you did… #BY ANOTHER MAN? not even this specific ex? #literally so insane. and she’s like: im going to therapy blah blah blah but clearly you lack the respect and consciousness #me and my friend who listened to her said that she should confess that they cheated with each other to the poor girl but she’s like… #‘not my business’ uhm the fuck it is? you were a third party. and saying that the boy should be the one confessing…uhm WHY NOT U BOTH? #and their relationship (ex and girl) CONTINUED even after the fact and they broke up only recently (early march) and idk if the girl knew #like. truly. i’ve never met someone so incredibly…vile? i guess? what’s a better word for it 😭 #and what’s also so inappropriate about her is that she has like a bf and she keeps droning on about her ex like rent free in her mind #keeps flirting w other men; looking at them and saying she has crushes and all that and want to make a move. like. YOU HAVE A BF? #i don’t wanna be near someone like that. and what’s unfortunate is my close friend is close with her so i’m a ‘friend’ BY association #and that friend of mine also can’t disentangle herself from her bec she’s her first ever friend in uni lmao. so there’s sentimentality there #& we talked abt this w each other; how disappointing it was for her to be like that. and how my friend feels she’s complacent in being okay #with cheating (but she’s not) and i’m like…ugh. #probably one of the worst people i’ve ever met i’m so sorry to say that genuinely. when i’m with her in a grp (i NEVER hang out w her alone) #i feel like my principles r being hijacked and violated and being engulfed by something i’ve kept myself away from lol

[quasieli]

Shoutout to my dumb ass for having a NPC ask a PC "do you want something hard or something good?" and not realizing what that sounded like (he was talking about alcohol)

#Eli Speaks #EWF #good news is she found it charming and it broke the ice #also it was totally in character #he was trying to be nice and ended up being awkward af? perfect lol #also our cleric has admitted to having a crush on my awkward boy and im excited to see where this goes 👀👀

[pepprs]

currently.

#purrs #what if i was experiencing ordeals so mortifying and horrors so horrible i could not talk about them to anyone in full honesty and truth and #transparency not even the dearest people in my life who love me and actively want to support me and listen to me or my tumblr mutuals who #are literally my bestest friends who live in my phone and in some cases outside of it so instead i locked myself in my rapunzel tower and pr #proceeded to cut off my hair and then cut off my dress and then cut off my brain so it could stop perceiving stimuli and reacting to it #despite wanting to get better and thinking it’s getting better and i couldn’t even tell my therapist because he doesn’t get me but it takes #too long to find a new one and i don’t have time and also my tower was getting renovated and also i was a little bug who was getting. #crushed by giant rain drops falling on my shell and bending my antennae so im dizzy and also it’s as almost midnight and i had to be up at a #work awake in 6 hours and ready to fscilitwtbeblike 3 things but i was screaming and howling and pounding on the floor over the dumbest most #normal sjit in the entire world that i couldn’t tell anybody i was struggling over because it would make everybody in the world blow up and #die and explode. what if i had to communicate the horrors through memes and vague posts every single day and that was all that was truly at #my disposal and everyone thougut i was being weird and standoffish and mean but really i was pulsing hurt like a strobe light every second o #of every day. becaus ei think if all of that was true i would simply go to sleep without doing the dishes and redacted redacted redacted red #redacted. and i wish i could. but i can’t. I’m just a little beetle and the rain drops are so huge. lol #delete later #puslng INCOMMUNICABLE hurt *. like morse code. like fire flies. Because literally… 💡💡💡💡💡 #<- girl who has had separation anxiety since the day she was born. but also girl who never texts anyone back. girl who is a hypocrite 🥰

[belladonnafleur]

💌

#grrrrr #not the random ass burst of inspiration that I got #like I genuinely tell myself that im not good at anything bc theres always someone better #but I want to do !! so many things !! #I want to sing more! and act! and play violin! #but now sing more than ever even tho I h8 my voice #bc auditions for musical come soon and I want to be in it #im also just watching a vid of a show that my crush was in and shes so cute!! and scrungly!! #I hate her but it feels like I love her #also I don't think anything is going to go anywhere w new girl #I just want my jacket back lol #I have a paper due tues but bc I forgored I thought it was due thurs #so uh #I have less time than I thought #and a final tomorrow #and an assignment tomorrow night #im doing so good at budgeting my time /s #I don't want to think about school or moving out!! I just want my crush!! #I want her dumb hair and her dumb hands and her dumbass #I want her!!!!! #this is bad for me #my stocks are low #I want her I want to get married and run away #I haven't left my room all day #I see my therapist tomorrow so at least I get to vent all of this out #I go cazy #I want to marry Her (crush) #even tho I know SHE DOESN'T want me #and my every interaction w her solidifies that she doesn't want me #and nothing is going to come out of interactions w girl im sorta friends w/seeing rn

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ay ay ay. now that the soul crushing project is done ive elected to spend the week managing data #which is decidedly more chill than what ive been doing for the last month but also isnt not doing anything and it isnt getting stuff done #for when i have to move. so thats annoying. and ive been drawing again at least but i can feel the escalation in my controlling behavior #so its now very frustrating trying to draw anything. coloring is gonna take a million years rip. #also suddenly everyone wants to b social rn? like tomorrow my boss is organizing a thing with an old lab mate and this weekend a #collaborator is having a retirement party. and next week my lab mates wanna do a trivia night. and i kno that i should go to these things. #and i will try but i really dont want to go to any of it. mostly for driving reasons but also im a husk of a person rn. but the more #devastating thing is that uh next week one of the kids i grew up with is getting married to a rich girl lol. and like we werent that close #bc i was and am such an asocial freak but after the wedding my parents r picking up their new camper and camping their way across the #country with my sisters. and im sure someone probably told me the dates of these things at some point but if u tell me dates i will #instantly forget them. so thats. ya kno. happening over basically the next 2 weeks while i have to kill myself over measurements for a #different study i dont care abt. and like. its fine. ill see them mid may for a different planned trip. it just makes me kinda sad #a product of living halfway across the country i guess. im just inherently more disconnected to everyone. i would suspect thsts semi #intentional subconsciously. u cant b upset abt not being able to connect with ppl if you create enough physical distance that u never see #them in the 1st place. u cant misunderstand me if i make myself absent and unknowable. idk. i was explaining to my mum that i didnt realize #the timeline and she was like. understandable whatever u wanna do! and idk y that upsets me so much. i guess its just that i dont want to b #doing this. its causing me pain but dont kno how to articulate it in a way that makes sense. whatever. my mouth hurts. my lips r so chapped #that the irritation is spread past my lip line. probably doesnt help thst i keep rubbing at it lol. anyway things r still annoying #less soul crushing thsn last week but still frustrating #unrelated

[no-one-hears-me]

not to sound like an evil hater but I looove it when you dislike someone and then everyone else ends up agreeing with you

#this is about a girl I've known for years and never liked #for many reasons but i will summarize #to start she's always acted like she's better than me and acts like talking to me is charity work or whatever #but she chooses to talk to me I would never willingly do that lol #and then eventually she had a weird crush on my older brother. weird bc of an illegal age difference and he had a gf at the time #she also had a bf for part of this. yet she would always flirt with him and also started treating me weird #like she was mad at me for being closer with my brother than she was???? bizarre #ANYWAYS. more recent news #she started dating one of my friends who is a very sweet guy and everything #and then he broke up with her bc she cheated. she says she didn't cheat and he's projecting #dude barely talks to women so idk who he supposedly cheated with. but anyway. she had a new bf like a week later #and thennnn. she posted a pic with her new bf like happy 3 months. a pic of them cuddling on a couch #except the pic said 4 months ago. she was dating my friend at the time. hmmmmmm #she literally posted evidence that she cheated 😭😭😭 but good news! now people are finally agreeing with me that she's terrible #also I recently found out that she blocks men from seeing her story whenever she posts a pic of a bf. who does that #like the whole point of posting your bf is so everyone knows you're taken #but nowww my brother and our mutual friends and whatnot have finally decided to dislike her! which means yayyy I don't have to see her #Sera

[readymades2002]

something difficult about writing/storytelling but only in short disconnected bursts is that writing anything longform is very difficult. there isn't as much time to practice long-term character development or subtlety (implying character instead of immediately clarifying) when its not really meant to go anywhere but a notes app. its a little frustrating...i'd love to do something more longform though. i've considered maybe just doing some short writing scenes in my various original universes a lot recently mostly because i just havent had time to draw anything fancy recently </3 maybe that would be something...

#briefly talked about it with a coworker today bc i mentioned my brother makes music #and she got excited because she paints and she showed me some of her work (beautiful btw!!!) #and said she hopes he pursues music and doesnt get his heart crushed by retail like we do #we still make things but ive been thinking about it...it really is like #i feel like ive had less TIME to make things but ive also developed more interest in my own ideas #and in constructing them on their own terms. its hard to describe and even harder to share because its #not churning out fanart for a response i guess? #i dont know. i do feel more satisfied with what im planning but theres less to share #anyway i promised her i'd show her my art sometime so essentially i have to flee the country now #she does lovely work she paints pictures of pets and it seems so nice. she seems so happy with it! #its like...i love it. im a little jealous of it. i feel so much pressure to Do Something New with my art #try to craft scenes and settings (i think setting is such ann important part of storytelling but i have so much trouble drawing it!) #and try new compositions and poses and just not have everything look the same all the time #its led to a lot of work im proud of but its also hard to create under those expectations... #i wish i could find a niche and settle into it comfortably. i think fun character drawings could be that for me #but its...it frustrates me to post those because it feels like if its easy and i like doing it and how it turns out then im not trying #okay i think im done now. sorry for these rambling introspective posts lately lol im #trying to warm back up to posting so i can use this website again (despite how very very bad it is)... #i want to see my frieeeeeends <//////3 i want to be here without running away <///3

[albatris]

i wonder if my mum would enjoy rental car

#we have surprisingly similar tastes? #like her taste in books is broader than mine for sure but mostly if ive enjoyed something she'll enjoy it #i wonder if that extends to my own writing xD #she was so salty for such a long time that i never let her read my stuff anymore #(hint: i was barely writing for five years bc of chronic mental and physical illness) #i want to impress her lol #i want to be like ''hey check out the start of my new novel!'' and share in the excitement of having #the start of a new novel #and there is a 75% chance she'll be nice but also not an impossible chance she'll say something rude accidentally or not #and my motivation will get crushed lol #idk how my mum would feel about some of the other fucky stuff that goes on in rental car eg fucked up unhealthy relationships #and. quinn #but at least the first couple of nat scenes I'm sure she would hypothetically enjoy unless she thinks my writing sucks now