#lmao why would this happen to me tho

[ihatebnha]

okay we love bakugo being an idiot in love. when you’re BOTH idiots though? top fucking tier

he’s trying but has no idea what he’s doing, and you don’t think he likes you like that so you’re totally oblivious to his advances

imagining his buddies groaning and pulling at their hair watching y’all struggle. like they want so badly to just shove y’all at each other and fucking kiss already but they’re trying to let you guys figure it out yourselves too

kiri does his absolute best to be there for his bro but it’s just…

and mina keeps trying to talk to you about your feelings for bakugo and to go for it! tell him how you feel! and you’re like no way…there’s no way he looks at me in a romantic light. you don’t want to get your heart broken

everyone is so damned frustrated

and i also love the idea of bakugo proposing not long after you guys start dating because he’s been in love with you for so long. after actually being together for a while any doubts he had about it being you are gone

and his buddies are just like you know what? good for them

they’re just so relieved LMAO

OMG, poor Bakugo who think's you'd turn him down LMAO!!!

No, but I can totally imagine the in-between, and the way it all gets even worse when you start doing things that are totally couple's things, but then deny it the second anyone brings it up.

Always standing hip to hip, buying and sharing lunch with each other, having inside jokes and whole conversations nobody else knows about... Bakugo even seems to respond to your texts quicker, which is a feat in and of itself.

Godddddd, and everyone is so mad that you both can't see it despite the fact that it's literally. Already. Happening. "Oh but we just do that cuz we're just friends," Mina's ASS! He's not like that w/ anyone else!!! Just cuz you can't name it doesn't mean it isn't REAL.

You only probably finally come to that realization when you're out together and a whole freaking stranger starts asking about your relationship. It's probably the only way either of you realize, since you've both been so AHHH whenever the squad brought it up... thinking they were making it up just to be nice on your behalf.

BUT ANYWAY, lmfaooooooo Bakugo proposing like five months in GOSH🥺!!! It's actually kinda cute because... he probably doesn't even want or need to get married that quick... just wants you to know that he does intend to marry you eventually. Soon. Whenever you're ready... so you can skip the dating phase and just go straight to the fiancé label.

And though everyone is relieved, it's also funny to think about how you went from denying it all to a promise ring in less than a year. Good lord.

#bakugo #LOOOOL ANON ALL OF THIS #his friends are like told u so!!! and he's denying the whole thing #what do u mean? i always knew this would happen #like... ok but u werent the one who was exclusive w/ someone for 4 years and wouldnt even call them ur gf #he's just ... stfu #lmao why would this happen to me tho #i would never ask someone out hajsdfjkjads GOD #ask #anon #anon thoughts #caitie things

[marikodraws]

equipping Akechi’s tie to fight Shido 👊🚢

#persona 5 #goro akechi #shuake #ren amamiya #akira kurusu #persona 5 spoilers #it's a useless default accessory TO YOU maybe #I however 😢 #I got way too hung up on the design for that necklace #even tho the design of it doesn't matter #i just needed a reason for him to take off his tie lmao #but i wanted it to kinda match robin hood's aesthetic #and in game it's the heavenly necklace #hence wings #but for some reason everything i drew kept looking super yonic? #i was like why is this happening to me lmao #in the group chat at 2 am trying to explain that no i can't just make it a pussy necklace #yeah no i see why you would think that was a positive #we'll save these ones for later maybe #ANYWAY goodnight everyone ❤️ #comics

[keiksy-cake]

Hetalia Poll Results Pt 1: Character Whose House You'd Like To Visit

Finished this one super quickly! Thanks again to the donator who requested! 🥰

As promised, here are the other results for now that I may or may not get to:

Character Who You'd Want To Be Your Boss: Germany (Hima's recc: Germany)

Character Who Would Make The Best Friend: Japan (Hima's recc: Italy)

Character Who You'd Like To Eat With: Italy (Hima's recc: France)

(These next few ones are just by Hima I think)

Whose House You Should Visit: Singapore

Who Would Be A Great Host: India

...Be A Popular Youtuber: America

...Be A Popular Comedian: Spain

...Be The Heaviest Drinker: Russia

...Have Light Feet: Wy

It's also my birthday today so I would appreciate any thanks in the form of happy bday messages ❤️

all collezione pages

[Please note, I’m actually an amateur in Japanese and have to use various resources and translation machines to help me. If you notice a possible mistake or want clarification, please bring it up to me *politely* and not aggressively or hostile.]

#hetalia collezione #hetalia #aph hetalia #hetalia england #aph england #aph japan #aph italy #aph prussia #aph spain #“even the scary things” lmao love Hima's constant shade to Iggy's cooking lol #“a guided diary tour by the character himself would be popular” yes hima PLEASE make it happen 😭 #actual spaniard churros arent that great tho #mexican churros are where it's at 😎 #“I want to annoy him” WHY?! What did he do to you?? 😭 he already suffers enough 😭 #Poland did you write that one? #happy birthday to me ❤️

[andy-clutterbuck]

Happy Valentine's Day

#get you a man who will get you a present even while bleeding profusely #Rick Grimes #Michonne #Richonne #* #rg #yes she's playing with the beard in 2 gifs BUT SHE'S PLAYING WITH THE BEARD IN 2 GIFS #maybe 3 gifs...... #the Santa Beard wins the war #raise your hand if you would have also gotten immediately knocked up #where was the apocalypse valentines day hmmm? ya know there would have been presents #kisses while the other sleeps tho #me soft? who'd have thunk #don't tell anyone #get you a man who will damn near fall out of his seat while driving to hold your hand #actually that's dangerous why u so cute richard #i had too many different moments in mind and didn't write them down so this is what happened lmao #when i was awake at 3am this morning

[hella1975]

i need to read more books and annotate in the margins i need to write more i need to buy jeans that fit me i need to eat more fruit i need to buy good quality headphones i need to get a skincare routine i need to talk to my friends more i need to wash my hair i need to stop treating this inhabitation as a curse. i am tired of punishing the body that has fought me for survival every day for years. i deserve little treats as regularly as possible !!

#more money would also be good but! we are working on it <3 this is a team effort im bored of being in a perpetual bar fight with myself #like sorry i havent answered my texts in months or barely sustain personal hygeine but that bitch (points at mirror) chucked a drink at me #it's okay tho we are in our enemies to lovers arc #just had a really vivid sudden 'i am in this body' moment and let me TELL you when you spend 90% of the time feeling a very #set seperation between your emotional self and physical self that is INCREDIBLY fucking jarring lmao. like oh this is me #the freckles on my fingers are just as much me as my years long loyalty to specifically prawn cocktail pringles. okay #that's cool. cool cool cool that's so cool so everything that's happened to me physically is still me okay cool #coooool cool cool. super cool btw. very angry for myself rn which never happens i normally just get angry at myself #LIKE THIS IS MY BODY! WHY DO I HAVE TO DRINK IT INTO BED AND HURT IT FOR NO REASON! WHY DO I LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH SO MUCH! #'i'll take care of you it's rotten work especially to me especially if it's you i'll do it but christ alive' except it's me and my body #like yeah im not happy about it bossman but we're stuck together. let's get you some nice clothes

[akkivee]

once again thinking about my ideal 3rd drb match up and how it’d stack up with plot beats and so far all i got is

🔴💥⚪️: true hypnosis mic opponents, maybe jakurai ends up on a side for further development to save yotsutsuji and that’s against ichiro’s current goal

🔵💥🟠: haven’t quite figured out why, but rei vs samatoki is the angle i’m thinking about

🟡💥🟣: all plot stakes division vs no stakes division lol idk really but i’m leaning towards a bonds angle or if hypmic wants to be real freaky, the side effects angle 🤔

#this is vee speaking #i still think a new format could happen but idk lol there’s so many unknowns rn #like what’s next specifically lmao #i personally feel it would be a waste not to have jakurai working to finalise development for this potential other true hypnosis mic lol #like they teased him joining chuuoku but then didn’t commit?????? huh?????? #what about his struggle with causing more harm vs saving that one?????? like come on now?? #so here’s me trying to put him back on that track lol #why not sasara vs samatoki you might ask lol and my answer is that’s the poster fight but the real fight is between rei and samatoki lol #samatoki was weirdly interested in rei watching bb vs dh and there’s a panel in showdown battle where samatoki looks…… #he’s very hard to read actually while listening to ichiro #samatoki and rei are paralleling in the block party as individuals moved by ichiro’s ideals #so while i’m not sure if ichiro would be the reason to fight (🎋hahahaha🎋) i think there’s potential for strife #*sighs at bat* why doesn’t kr want to do anything with y’all lmao #if they went the side effects angle it’d be cool to have ramuda the guy whose clones die using the true hypnosis mic #vs kuukou who might be suffering from side effects (and against the guy that caused them tho he’s forgiven ramuda lol) #jyushi’s hypnosis ability to ‘recover’ is genuinely interesting because what is he recovering???? and why haven’t we seen it yet????? #maybe they’re lying in wait lol (delusional) #bonds angle is me grasping at straws lol but here’s how i can get my ideal match ups—

[afniel]

Realizing that I went and wrote a bunch of intentionally aro relationships and my partner was like, "Idk, it seemed like normal relationships to me," and I was like, "I mean yeah it's not that different from ours, I guess, I was kind of going for 45° off from 'normal' romance," and they're like, "Okay, but ours is also pretty much like that," and I'm like, "Yeah, true," and now I'm like, damn hold up, are we both some kinda arospec and THIS is how we figure it out? Because I wrote a long-ass fic about intentionally queer-coded (among other things) robots? Life is weird, man.

Like I've been prone to extreme long-term crushes on a very few (mostly unattainable) people over the years, but I wouldn't have known what to do with them even if they worked out, and cough my ex was not even one of them. I just kind of assumed I was failing to feel a thing I was totally supposed to feel, there, and quite a lot of that relationship emotionally was me going, "Okay, I care like This, but I think I'm supposed to care like That? I'm pretty sure he cares That way. I'm not sure I do, but I mean, there's really only one way*, so maybe I'm just misreading this and actually I do care like That, I'm just bad at it."

*This was me being very incorrect, it turns out. There's all kinds of ways to love someone. It's a very inadequate and nonspecific word.

When I confessed my feelings (which I'd been sitting on for a year) to my partner, their reaction wasn't to be particularly romantic about it. In fact they told me they'd help me move to California if I wanted to. And after I got over my initial confusion of being kissed on the forehead (which is also not super romantic as a gesture and I couldn't decide how to even read that so I kinda skipped over even trying for a while), I was thinking, Awesome, that is a yes. They have promised to assist me with difficult stuff, and said nothing at all about emotions, because that's not a big deal anyway. The important thing is that I can rely on them and vice versa. Cool. We are basically together forever now. Which ended up being true. I just never moved out and now it's like 13 years later, go figure. But that's not what I think actually passes for reciprocating feelings for most people? Worked great for me though.

Anyway I feel like I have accidentally learned something about myself, lol. I guess romance is okay I guess, like it's not repulsive, but seriously, it's WAY more satisfying to me to guess someone else's Quiplash answer because you know they know you would think it's fucking funny, and you do, and because you think it's funny and you're well aware they know your type of humor and you know theirs and that you wouldn't expect them to use "cum" as an answer because that's not usually how they roll, so of course that is the only answer they can possibly give, which is instantly evident to both of you with no conversation whatsoever on the topic. When you got just one brain cell and it's quantum entangled with their just one brain cell so you have a lot of null discussions where nobody has to say anything but it's fully understood anyway, that's The Dream, if you ask me. And like I don't really think that's romantic by the usual definition. You can have that with friends and family, too. But that is what it turns out I prioritize in relationships, which I'm starting to feel like isn't what the majority of people are here for?

TFW it's hard to tell because I've been assuming I'm totally alloromantic so everything I experience must be typical totally alloromantic stuff too, but I'm starting to think it isn't maybe? But how do I even tell, this is like being colorblind, lmao.

#tfw you based a completely ace/aro relationship system off what ends up just being your normal IRL relationship #my partner read Failure To Compile and just went 'so we're coprocessors right' and I said 'yeah basically' #it was apparently not at all subtle to them and why would it be lmao they basically just Know What I'm Thinking #we have a lot of conversations that are just...*several facial expressions and a glance or two* them: 'no.' me: 'OH COME ON' #and yeah that's The Experience. 'what if an entire subculture's relationships were all like that' well it'd be great that's what #and also evidently immediately recognizable to a bunch of arospec readers #making me have to also question some long held assumptions about myself #well that's cool though. I'm always down to understand me better. and hey what a funny way to do it too #what's the point of writing something and trying to get kinda deep with it if you aren't learning from it really #this just means I'm so successful I even got myself somehow #flawless victory #aromantic #arospec #also yes the Quiplash thing happened for real just last night #I said their answer before it was even revealed and they just assumed I had somehow loaded the stream faster than them #because obviously I know what they put right? #I laughed my ass off tho

[bangcakes]

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#personal #..... im just gonna have to be patient NDNDNDNNDD #and tbh im lucky to even be feeling this way. like i never in a million years would think this would happen to me #like JDJDJDJDJJDJD god. idk idk #we defs like. were buds at that dinner. like he was near me the whole time. like i left a lil earlier and he was right behind me NDJDJDJJDJ #got to sit next to each other.... and like. god.... idk this was like movie shit #when i got there...... it was super early okay. i get anxious about being late (and ok i also know he has a tendency to be early) #so i pull into a spot n im waiting there #this car that looked like his pulled into the spot almost in front of me #n im like is that him ????? like wouldnt that be so fucjin funny #then the light in the car goes on and im like OH IT LOOKS LIKE HIM???? but then i was like eh it could be anyone #so im like okay whatever. if its him. he'll get out eventually #so the guy gets out if the car right and LMAO IT WAS HIM AHAHAHAHAHHAHA #so i get out of my car and like theres so many cars going past us so i walk a lil ahead #and then i look back and meet eyes with him n im like #OH SO IT WAS YOU #and he was like. YA. I WAVED AT YOU #and i was like I DIDN'T SEE IT. then we talked about something else #and then i was like..... was the light on when you waved tho #and he was like... i think so???? GOD. LMAO. THIS IS WHY ITS GONNA TAKE US 800000 YEARS #so anyway. its only us two there and we're walking toward the restaurant and im like oh should we go in. n hes like ya #so we do.... and god lmao being there with him... going up to ask for our reservation. i was like WHAT KIND OF DATE SITUATION????? #LIKE IT WASNT. BUT I WAS LIKE DJDJJDJDJDJD OH THIS IS. WHAT ITD FEEL LIKE HUH. GOD. #n e way we had to wait forever for the table n for other ppl to show up. #then when we were finally sat... he was right near me. like not the chair directly in front of me. but tge one adjacent #so i got to talk to him all night !!!@ and like there were some awkward times of silence but JDJDJJD IDK. WE WERE EATING. #and like there were other people at the table too and i didnt wanna just be asking him questions NDJDNDJJDJDJ #n e way. he was cuter and taller than i remembered. he had me dying laughing at some points. i still like him so much NDJDJDJDNJDJD #im in so much trouble......... like will i ever be okay again

[alchemiclee]

been looking in tags for a few days now to see if anyone else found the whole high cloud quintet and related story to be a bit.....poorly written, nonsensical, contradictory, full of plot holes and loose ends, etc. apparently i'm not the only one. (and i'm not even talking about shipping stuff, because any time I saw someone mad about bad writing, someone always replies to be homophobic and laugh about failed ships. weirdos.) it could have been so good but was thrown into the garbage for the most part (IF you noticed all the plot holes and contradiction. if not, then it's a fine enough story tbh. I expect most people to see it on surface level and not read all the little hidden lore bits and try to piece it together like my autistic brain did. which is ok! enjoy it if you liked it and ignore me 😆)

#apparently one of the writers did it on purpose. wont explain here. you can find it elsewhere. but it makes sense now #that's why it fell apart and didnt make sense in the end #ive seem people say anyone mad about it is a shipper and thats why. they use it as an excuse to be homophobes #youre gross get out of thos fandom. im here as someone upset about the story who was very skeptical about any ship theories and focused #more on plot theories and overall friendship and stuff so its not even about shipping you het weirdos!!! #the contradictions and plot holes are bd regrdless of who you ship lmao stop reducing it to that #aure its fine if you ignlre those plot holes. but it happened to be the little plot holes that interested me the most so its obvious to me😅 #cant wait until a talented writer in the fandom rewrites the whole story a lot better and fills in the holes and ties up the end better #please someone do this 😭 #lee text #hsr #i just wanted a close found family who met a tragic end #my idea for a better way to write it is dan feng wanted free from the high elder cycle and yingxing helped him create a new elder #but it went wrong and failed because the preceptors fed him wrong info hopong it woukd destroy dan feng since they hated him #instead it was yingxing that died and dan feng selfishly brought him back somehow and thats why hes immortal and hates dan heng now #they created a monster in the process that made a mess and baiheng died trying to kill it maybe but hit its weak spot #so it was weaked enough for jingliu to slay it #maybe for a plot twist jing yuan somehow knew the preceptors were up to something and didnt stop the two because #they were too stubborn and he knew it would do nothing #we know the dragon heart disappeared so either it ended becoming bailu in the end #or it could be inaide blade bow. another fun possible plot twist. they never explained where it went so it coukd be a n y w h e r e #i had other ideas but i forget now. bht baiheng deserves better as well. just being a plot mechanism to make two dudes be stupid #is kinda bland and boring and wasted her character. she deserves better too!!!! #id write this if i had the time and brain power but ill hope someone else does it instead #OH yeah i forgot a big idea. dan feng and yingxing perhaps try to also kill the arbor and end the abundance and long life/reincarnation #and maybe that was one part that led to it all going wrong or something. since yingxing wanted revenge on the abundance for destroying #his home and family???? and dan feng wanted to escape the cycle? similar wants that worked together snd failed #these are all ideas from past theories i read and my own ideas i came up with all of which are better than what that bad writer did! #these are very incomplete ideas that im sure someone else can write better #lee rambles

[wabblebees]

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#have been attempting to make a self-tape for this audition for DAYS #after a whole helluva lotta bullshit having to do with hunting down a time+space+camera to film with i Finally managed to get some takes #then some weird bullshit with the camera's sd card happened where i wasnt able to pull the files off onto my laptop #FINALLY able to copy the files to my laptop. FINALLY able to access playback (the video camera i borrowed wouldnt let me access its gallery #FINALLY watching them... they all kinda suck so far but thats Fine at least i Have Them yk #get to take 7 and its actually not nearly as terrible as the previous 6!! feelin pretty good abt this one!! dont get hopes too high ofc but #i mean hey this ones acceptable if the last few arent any good either & just in case i cant go thru with my plans for tmrw to do a reshoot #so yk i start to rename the file so i can tell which clip it is! #Whole Laptop Crashes #WAHOO #typed this up to avoid freakin out while carefully rebooting her. bbg dont do this to me #luckily i already saved multiple contingency copies just in case (bc ive already had so many issues i was feelin Extra Cautious) #so i at least dont have to worry about dealing with the sd card bullshit Again. ugh #EDITING TO SAY: SHE LIVES!! laptop is fine after powering back up & files are unscathed!! was able to retitle & keep on truckin no problem #god i hate dealing with video as a medium #*this* is why im a stage performer not a screen actor lmao #fuck this shit. juust gimme a floor and an audience and ill make it worrk #cameras are fickle creatures on-par with printer machines #im rly excitednervous abt this audition tho; only submitted my resume+headshot on a whim & didnt rly think anything would come of it #but they contacted me and asked for a tape!! so im like !!!!! okayy sure id love to send that !!! i just have to face The Horrors first #if i dont get it then thats not the end of the world or anyth; but itd be SO FUCKING COOL if my v first submission landed me my first gig!! #so uhh. pls put out a good thought to the universe for my self-tape landing me the chance to perform in this queer play festival !! #bee speaks #🤞🤞🤞

[throwawayasoiafaccount]

god tywin lannister deserved worse

just remembering elias death and i wanna puke and the way tywin talks about elia and what happened is so damn gross

but rip tommen and myrcella we all know what’s about to happen in the next book :/

the cycle of violence just keeps spinning and damn you tywin for beginning it

(i got a bit crazy in the tags 💀)

#rest in peace elia and rhaenys #i’m one of those crazy ppl who thinks jaqen h’ghar is aegon 💀 #literally lost the teeny tiny amount of credibility i had #anyways i think doran’s in on it and i think rhaegar switched out asharas child for aegon paralleling the baby swap jon does #the pact made in braavos about viserys and dany marriages is a half truth half lie #and arianne being sent to faegon is simply doran testing his heir. if she messes up then whoever’s spying for doran will correct her #gerold dayne knows too much that’s why doran thinks he’s too dangerous #but this would make the dornish plot sooooo much more interesting and would show that no doran hasn’t been doing nothing #it would also automatically make the daynes more important #jaqen (aegon) was in kings landing to kill robert but got caught by varys. syrio was sent to find him. ned cleared out the black cells tho #saving aegon in the process. fun how we’re actually introduced to this character through lyanna starks mini me arya #aegon was able to kill robert with a boar tho so mission accomplished. #now he’s in old town trying to hatch his dragon egg. the stone beast taking flight in danys vision is aegon being symbolically depicted… #..as a spinx #i’m crazy delusional. but ppl who think faegon is actually aegon are even more delusional than me #plus the real aegon being alive fulfills the suns son part of quaithes warnings #i like this theory bc it makes the dorne plot more interesting and it explains whatever is going on with jaqen h’ghar cause he is sus #yes yes i know i’m delusional 💀 i just think it’d be a very interesting twist #kinda hoping no one sees this post at this point bc i know no one will take this theory well lol #i do think this theory can be supported by the text tho #and cerseis throw away line about ned stealing asharas baby would suddenly become peak foreshadowing #barristan comparign dany to ashara would also be peak foreshadowing bc ashara would take the place of gilly in this parallel and she was dis #dishonored by someone at harrenhall. likely aerys and then she turned to a stark probably brandon for comfort #tbh i think it was ashara who lied to brandon about what happened to lyanna. perhaps she was trying to mess with brandon’s wedding and #was trying to get back at rhaegar for humiliating elia at the tourney. i highly doubt it was baelish who lied to brandon cause brandon #has little reason to believe him and no reason to trust him. ashara tho? arthur daynes sister and elias lady in waiting? also his lover? #anyways varys the spider potentially stealing aegon away (if he did take a child it was the false aegon) is there to parallel the others #who ride ice spiders taking crasters sons. tbh i think it was aegon who decided he wanted to train as a faceless man so he could get revenge #on his own terms. and the sea lord of braavos at the time was in on it and helped aegon with his plans #the unveiling coming up is going to be a lot more important than arya just reclaiming her identity. yes im delusional lmao. rant over

[izzy-b-hands]

I really wish blocking someone meant their stuff wouldn’t wind up on your dash at all. Like I understand why it doesn’t, but. still.

Actually, I just need to get better abt checking source urls before I reblog. I try to be mindful, but now and again I Forget and have only myself to blame lmao

#text post #I would love to reblog their art and be supportive in that way at least but tbh #every time I accidentally reblog it I remember checking out their blog and seeing how they talked abt fans that like Izzy and the izcourse #and it's like oh no that's right you hate ppl like me and ur art might be gorg but maybe we just shouldn't interact #they do their thing and I'll be over here doing mine #what really needs to happen is I need to remember to check urls on fandom art to make sure it isn't any of the folks I had to block lmao #but sometimes I get excited bc the art is genuinely lovely and i do like it and think the person is v talented! #and then i forget to check and it's only after scrolling my dash that i see my reblog and the url and go 'oh. fuck. that's right. damnit.' #it's a weird feeling to be like yes I want this person to have fun and make gorgeous art but also it seems #they've made it p clear how they feel abt folks like me and so maybe they would prefer i just fuck off #which i tried to do by blocking!! and yet. here we are #i delete the reblogs whenever this happens so they don't have me in their notes but #i do hope they know their art is lovely and I appreciate their hard work even if we wouldn't otherwise get along with each other #idek why I'm blogging abt this I guess bc I feel like usually it's either or online? like u either hate each other or u don't #but I don't hate the folks who sent shit to me or the folks who condoned it i just wish i had found a way to get along with them instead #as useless a wish as that probably is #and i don't talk abt it a lot but it really bugs the fuck outta me sometimes that we can't just start over and try to interact generally #no messages no trying to be friends just reblog from them if u like and otherwise ignore each other #which has been a thing that's worked fairly okay in other fandoms tho things have happened in others to change how workable it was #but for some reason in this one i feel like im just always walking on eggshells to interact w/anyone bc it feels like everyone is waiting #for someone else to say something they vaguely disagree with and instead of just like. blocking and moving on w/the fandom experience #it turns into a massive mess that even if ur on the fringes of it all you still get pulled into or sent shit and just. #idk it doesn't matter bc ultimately none of this does but dang it the show has been special to me and hits all my special interests #and it's hard to let go and accept that there's no changing how things went and how they are and how this fandom experience for me is often #very fucking lonely even when i'm bursting at the seams to share and to hear from others what they think abt anything and everything w/it #no one is gonna read this tag essay lmao pls scroll on

[astral-catastrophe]

Every once in a while I just ignore the trauma and laugh about all the shit the ex bestie pulled

#The trauma tho lmao #She’s the reason I no longer can wear a headband #I despise most musicals #I hated the thought of romance for years #Anything sparkly would make me hesitate. Along with this specific shade of light blue #Anyone touching my hair or shoulders would yank me back in time and the panic would set in. Her touch. I’m uncomfortable EUGH NO DAMN IT #That split second where you can tell someone is picturing something awful happening to you #That moment of heart crushing silence after being told stuff that’s made up about you #That moment when you can only hysterically laugh because she’s been spreading rumors about you. But those rumors never succeeded #Bc I was too nice for my own dammed good. So she walked all over me #So now when she talks shit #People pause and go. “No. She’s too nice. You’re lying” and. Damn. I really think that’s part of the reason all her relationships fell appa #Bc she couldn’t cope in a healthy way and. Why do I feel bad. She did this to herself #I shouldn’t feel bad #And I shouldn’t miss someone who was shit to me #jays being dumb again

[bahrmp3]

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#personal #now that the new year's has passed I feel like I can talk about it I did not have a good time lmao it started fine I guess? I was going to #play music for the new year but then mum made a comment about me still on laptop so I shut it bc ok fine let's not #then it was down hill from there? like I ignored it and was like let's not make a thing out of it so we are saying what we liked this year #/ what we want to do and mum goes and for my son I want x y z and didn't mention me so joe asks her and for if she has anything to say for #me? any wishes? but she doesn't lmao later on she goes (if only you would say what you want we do not know anything about you) #she didn't even mean it she said just to hurt like I was taking a video of this and lit off frame my face is dropping #later on she goes (and you didn't even say what you wish for us either) as she leaves and later when I'm talking to my brother #and I protest this he goes (welp what can I even say? like I told you before are pretty selfish) and idk what to say I was surprised I #don't think I'm selfish tho? I legit was the one to cook for us and got cake? I try so much but keep being labeled selfish this is the #second time he tells me that in the last two weeks I think and both are unfounded ngl anyway all of this pales in the last thing #so we call dad to say happy new year! Well joe does and I mean ok I was still pretty upset about what happened an hour ago so ofc I wasn't #cheerful when calling dad lmao but like I was saying all the right things anyway? but Joe kept gesturing at me to smile its a phone call #and after the phone call he has like (why are you always so depressed? if I were you and I finally got a laptop I would be flying from joy #why are you always so down? why can't you just be happy?) and I honestly don't know what to say lmao ok so I wasn't flying from joy with #my laptop but idk how to say it here but then like what's worst? being hurt and not a person recognising that you are hurt? and in fact #asking you why aren't you smiling? or idk being too depressed for others?? what's funnier is mum later on was like (don't let anyone words #change you you shouldn't yield to others) in reference to Joe's speech but like hello mama?? not 2 hrs ago??? #anyway so I asked her if I shouldn't be listening to her words then? and she was saying yes with confidence like does she not #see either how she hurts me? how she keeps hurting me voer and over and over??? #God I should have made that pizza and truly be selfish maybe I wouldnt have been hurt like that #tbd

[inkykeiji]

I think Natsuo needs reminding who the BIG brother is around here.

HAHAHAHA i agree anon i agree!!!

#touya-nii would slap him silly for a remark like that LMAO #touya-nii would be like ‘tf you just call me??????????’ #*my* natsuo would never speak to his niisan like that 😤😤😤 #definitely an odd turn of events #tho my bff n i were talking #and we were thinking maybe natsuo just defaults to this #like i can understand why he’s angry #maybe he’s upset that touya didn’t come to him after his accident! maybe he’s HURT that touya didn’t come to him #and it’s manifesting as anger #he’s probably feeling a lot of emotions rn and i know he’s angry that touya became dabi in general #just pissed off that this even happened in the first place and that this was the choice touya made instead of coming to natsuo like he alway #always does #which admittedly is a really selfish way to be feeling BUT welcome to the todorokis am i right or am i right #selfishness runs in their blood it’s like an inherent trait #anyway i’m rambling hehe #i feel u anon #this ask made me giggle!! i love u!!! #pls have a lovely day and stay safe <3 #inky.bb #clari gets mail

[gibbearish]

oh psa but if you're in an industry that checks IDs and the person in front of you is clearly trans, don't make comments about anything on that ID. for instance saying "OMG your middle name's Danielle? that's my name too!!!" to someone 5 feet tall with a full beard is perhaps not the best choice one could make if one didn't want to put a neon glowing sign above that person's head saying "THIS IS A TRANSGENDER" to everyone they're with

#it is p funny tho going out places with cis / nb-and-always-presented-as-agab friends and always getting singles out abt my #id in Some Way and them always being like ??? wtf that was so weird what was up with that #and i have to be the one to be like 'remember that my id has an f on it' and theyre like :0 ....... >:0!!!! #like fuckin. the time i got id'd at goddamn jack in the box???? #she was like 'yeah we have to check it on all orders over $25' which had never happened before and has never happened since because #its fucking jack in the box so every stupid order is over $25 #for important context i was driving and bf in passenger seat was paying so id handed her his card and was way less passing than now #so once we left travis was like yo wtf that was so weird why on earth would they id someone at jack in the box????? #and im like well because i look like this and i handed her a credit card with the name travis on it and people making #up reasons to check trans-looking peoples ids to verify if theyre trans or not is unfortunately not an uncommon occurance #and he was completely floored that that was even a possibility #which like mood when i was doing bev steward literally the only thing i was thinking about on those ids was birthdays #course i was working at a theme park so we had ids from all over the country #and world but nonamericans had passports which are much more consistent than state ids #so id get handed someones id and just be like ugh ok where do they hide it on this one i have 50 people in line i dont have time for this #like why would i be wasting time casually perusing their gender marker yknow i have shit to do #so the fact that there are people who will feel the need to know that so bad that theyll do that is just wild to me and presumably him too #(working there was how we met and he ended up being bars lead then full water park sup after i left the job) #but yeah after he had his 'wait people actually do that?' realization he was just like '....well then good thing it was my card so we had to #give her my id so she'll never get to know for sure‚ get fucked' LMAO #ooh or when me and a friend went to trader joes and bought drinks cause i collect cool drink cans and when the cashier was checking #my id i made a joke to ny friend abt my picture looking like bobby hill and the cashier was like 'GASP dont say that about yourself youre #beautiful!!' which i believe i did have the beard by this point so it was a pretty obvious dig #and the picture super does look like bobby hill by the way like ill show yall if anyone's curious but literally no one irl has disagreed #except this one random woman lmao. but we get out and my friends like ????????? that was so weird #why did she say that????? and im like. well it has an f on it remember #and once again the :0 -> >:0 transformation #like it sucks having it happen but there is smth really funny abt watching friends so inclusive something like that never even #occured to them realize that thats a thing people will do and it just happened right in front of them #shoutout to my roommates friend tho who has worked at a sex shop and weed shop and changed my rewards account name for both to chosen name