#literally UNwell guys

[accidentalautomaton]

poor, disposable michael.

(WOOHOOO I LOVE THE COLORS ON THIS BAD BOY)

#tma #my art #michael shelley #tma michael #the magnus archive fanart #magnus archives #the magnus archives #magpod #digitalart #he makes me so unwell. Literally one of my favorite guys ever #1k #2k #3k #4k

[peachsayshi]

just going to vomit more thoughts on this: 

“do you remember our first kiss?” gojo asks sweetly, cradling your face in his palm so you couldn’t turn away from his tender gaze. his eyes bathe you in sparkling azure, cooling off the heat burning your cheeks from the question. 

“kiss?” you reply with an upturn of your brows, your innocent and confused expression only making him smile affectionately at you. “we’ve...we’ve never...” 

“I was six and you were nine,” he explains, taking another small step to close the tiny fraction of space separating you both, his free hand moves to your hip to rub soft circles against you. “we were all riding our bikes, and I fell flat on my face trying to do a silly little trick. I busted my lip-” 

your knees tremble feeling his breath fan over your skin, your fingers seeking out the fabric of his soft white tee for support to keep yourself standing straight, but your eyes naturally flutter close from the gentle contact he makes. 

“you made sure I was alright before I went home,” he whispers, your heart pounding heavily to the sound of his deep voice as he presses his thumb down against the corner of your parted mouth, “and you gave me a tiny kiss right here” 

#im sobbing over him today you guys #he makes me so unwell #soft satoru my beloved <333 #literally am in shambles #in ruins #gojo x reader #gojo x you #gojo fluff #satoru gojo fluff

[threestripeslider]

Tired: Rise!Splinter is a neglectful and awful father who doesn’t care about his kids >:(

Wired: Rise!Splinter’s negligence comes from a place of deep trauma that he’s carried with him his whole life – losing his mother, having been betrayed by the love of is life, being imprisoned and forced to fight for his life, used as an experiment and subsequently being mutated and losing his whole identity as a person – and while it certainly doesn’t excuse his behavior, there is no doubt that this man loves his sons fiercely despite his own shortcomings and perhaps it is exactly that love and care that causes him to keep his children at arms length in hopes to spare them his family’s cursed legacy that grooms them into martyrs and are thus destined to die young, a sacrifice for the greater good that Splinter is never willing to make even if it means forfeiting the world to the Shredder. Splinter’s journey of fatherhood began by being completely unprepared as a fresh young single father of four young children that depend on him to survive and there is no surprise he’s hit almost every bump there possibly is when raising a child but never in his life has Splinter ever blamed or resented his children in any way – he is not perfect and he’s aware and he tries to do better all because he loves his kids this fucking much bc despite all the shit he’s been through, those kids made him realize that he can try again. to dismiss him as an awful father is a gross mischaracterization of a deeply traumatized man of color who evidently tried his fucking hardest not to pass on the hurt onto his own children while grappling with his own demons and the crushing destiny of his family’s blood line that took away his mother.

#rottmnt #hamato yoshi #hamato splinter #turtle files: meta #guys i am so unwell about him #he's literally so!! i love he!!! #this guy's been to hell and back and yet!! and yet!! here is still!! #HERE IS STILL!! RAISING KIDS!! #HE KNOWS FUCK ALL BUT THEY DEPEND ON HIM AND THAT IS ENOUGH #i need to lie down #i am literally so [starts wailing sobbing crying] #the next omo chapter's gonna be a doozy boys #anyway dont mind me #teh number one splinter defender #KSJSJKBDBKJDBJKF #I JUST FEEL A LOT ABOUT HIM OKAY #as someone who comes from an asian family with generational trauma... #bro. BRO.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

something i've been thinking about:

Wally is set up as a sort of "main character" by the whrp. he's said in the site's description of the show to have introduced the main theme/lesson of the day's episode, and then the rest of the neighbors join him on his escapades. but then we have our first glimpses of everyone's actual dynamics and characters through the audios and you look at Wally and its like

first of all, thats an npc. second, nearly everybody else has severe main character syndrome

but its fascinating how Wally is just kind of... There. he doesnt talk much. he doesnt contribute beyond a couple of lines. its more like he joins the others on their shenanigans. he fades into the background. he's off to the side while everyone else holds conversations & leads the moment

Wally, despite being described as Thee character, is borderline background.

& whats even more interesting, within his individual secret audio files and interactions - he's almost chatty. not only that but the way he talks is more confident and faster paced. he's taking initiative. he can be kinda pushy. when talking to the qa/whrp/Us, he acts more like the character his descriptions portray. he acts more like a person instead of a puppet waiting for his next cue

I cant tell if - when around the neighbors - his tepid milk behavior is a purposeful act or if he's masking. and if he's masking, is it deliberate or involuntary? and in regards to both, why is he acting so different? It could be tied to what he's trying to accomplish. if he's trying to "restore" Welcome Home, it would make sense for him to act as he does around the neighbors - he wouldnt want to clue them in that he knows so much more than he's letting on, would he?

but then that begs another train of thought - what if he isn't acting or masking? if there is a time discrepancy between Wally's interactions with the qa/whrp/Us & the more 'official' audios, that could explain the difference in behavior. we could be getting glimpses into "future" (read: current) Wally, who's had much more time to figure himself out since we can safely assume he started out as a blank slate. we could be seeing a more experienced Wally than the one seen with his friends.

of course that line of thinking loses some merit when considering the 14 "bug" audios. or it could lend to it... if we're seeing a more experienced Wally but his friends are only seeing what he allows them to. it's still him, just... a carefully curated version.

in general it could really tie into the themes of identity and change and being other, to me. when you're so different - or you feel so different - that you can't bring yourself to be your most authentic you around your friends. when you feel like you have to hold back and be who you think they expect you to be, or what would be most palatable. most normal. will they accept you as you really are? there's always the fear and terror that the people you consider closest to you won't. or when you're so scared of change that you'll shove down & lock away parts of yourself so that you can keep things as you are. because once they know you've changed, so will they. and really, do you want to even accept that you've changed? what if that's what scares you most of all - that you're different, you've metamorphosized, you can't go back to the way things were because you yourself are no longer the person you were before. there is no reversing this no matter how much you try or pretend

#its just so fascinating #the whrp: wally's The Guy! #wally (with his friends): the most lukewarm dude ever #then he's alone or alone with home and its like Hi My Name Is Wally Darling & Welcome To Jackass *off-tune guitar riff* #bbg has ✨problems✨ #and like - im giving all of his stuff a re-listen to make sure im not misremembering or completely talking out of my ass #but his phone call? the way his VA is delivering the lines seems So fuckign different than in the shared audios #his tone is flatter. he sounds more sure of his words and himself. he Sounds like he's in control and knows it. #immediately going from that to a shared audio where he puts more inflection in his voice & doesnt talk much #and when he does talk its slow. meandering. his lines are more befitting of his audience surrogate role #which only makes me feel more like he's acting/masking (again: if that time discrepancy does indeed exist) #which - as someone who kinda compulsively masks around Literally Everyone no matter how much i want to Not - it kinda hits hard! #i suspect that he Is masking instead of acting. he's The Most Autism as we all know so it would more than fit #and that could add an extra layer if it's automatic and he can't turn it off. or if he doesn't want to turn it off #but also acting... a misplaced attempt to protect his friends and world? not feeling like he can share his 'true' self? augh #wally darling you make me unwell. i want to dissect you #wh speculation #welcome home speculation #homebogging #and then listening to his little record audios #he starts out talking like he does in the shared audios and then slowly gains confidence until he's speaking more like he does in the call #just. wally not being talkative in the neighborhood to the point where everyone's like 'yeah wally isnt much of a talker' #vs him chatting away to the qa/whrp/Us #of course it could be because he has to carry the entire conversation on his own #But. but. you can still carry a one sided conversation and be hesitant or awkward or um. missing the word rn but short-sentenced #brief? succinct? concise? #wally's fully trying to make conversation with someone he knows can't reply. which is interesting #so many ways to take that. well. three #maybe he doesnt feel listened to in his day to day life / he feels more comfortable and can relax / hes been alone for a long while #anyway there may be more ways to take this but this is all my tiny poppyseed brain can reach atm

[basket-of-loquats]

trying to figure out this guy in my style

[Image description: several sketches of Crosshair from The Bad Batch. End ID.]

#crosshair #tbb #tbb s2 #star wars #the bad batch #clone force 99 #in a constant battle of having no clue what the bad batch looks like #bc it is not what the show says i think #but they still look Different from the regs #so uhhhh yeah im struggling #anyways just binged season 2 this week and im unwell #cant believe i actually like this show now isnt that wild #expect more of this guy in the future im obsessed with him #literally nonstop thinking of him #the clone wars #tbb crosshair #*loqdraws

[skitskatdacat63]

CC: [cheers heard in the background] Yes mate!! You did it!! Yes! That–that is a hell of a–[setup talk] Unbelievable.

FA: Copy, guys. This is for you guys, this is for you. This is for all of you, all of you guys. All of the the factory, everyone. Everyone, this is for you. Everyone [unintelligible], thank you very much.

CC: Well done, mate, I'm well impressed.

#for rosie!!! and anyone else whos never seen this bcs i certainly didnt #to me they sound like theyre gonna cry 😭😭😭 dw me too fr guys #and nando dedicating it to eveyrone is sooooo aoft #okay no offense to max i love him sm but god this radio was way better and way more worth it than his #both this and the dotd im salty abt bcs like okay sure they were battling up there for lead #but not for NEARLY as long as nando was defending #like maybe if it was someones first win sure but i honestly think nando deserves literally all the attention for this race #my dad kept making 'go away' hand motions whenever they showed max or lando instead of our guy 😭😭 #god this team makes me soooooo unwell #bur yeah idk!!! i didnt see anyone post this!!!! #and yeah its 7 hours or so late but IT MADE ME CRY OKAY #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #2023 brazilian gp #we do a little bit of f1

[thevashta-narada]

just realised the captain only let the other ghosts refer to him as captain probably only partially because the war and his rank was everything that mattered to him and also because the last thing he heard before he died was the love of his life saying his name in the most loving and gentle way and he probably wanted to keep that memory and it also probably would feel way too intimate for any of the other ghosts to say his name after that so he just tells them to call him captain.

#screaming crying throwing up #bawling my eyes out rn #capvers #janthony #idk which is actually being used anymore #im so unwell about this show #i literally just realised this while sitting in school and had to not burst out crying about a fictional dead gay guy #im not okay actually #bbc ghosts #just thinking about how none of the ghosts were there for his death so they must have asked his name at some point #and he must have told them to call him captain rather than his name #and then thinking about why he would do that #and then crying #idk if someone already said this but i havent seen it so i thought I'd put it on here #bbc ghosts spoilers

[ivoryratdoggerythethird]

reading dazai, chuuya, age fifteen for the finally and now i'm just mad i didn't read it earlier like

first of all why does this have the best first chapter of all time ever like this french waiter lookin ass nameless grunt looks like he smakes cigars and shotguns with hiroutsu tell me i'm wrong you can't

and chuuya chuuya chuuya chuuya chUUYA OH MY BELOVED i am suddenly personally connected with dazai on a spiritual level because i too would become obsessed with this dude if he stomped on my face. i'm already obsessed without him stomping on my face.

ALSO WHY DOES NO ONE TALK ABOUT THIS WHY IS THE ENTIRE FANDOM SLEEPING ON THESE PANELS

"what's wrong? i'm just on my tippy toes" chuuya sweetie i am going to go fucking FERAL

ballerina chuuya agenda real

also

everyone else go home like i'm sorry i really am. kunikida babe i love you with a gun dazai you look good with one too tachihara you're my baby but like none of you ever use bullets again please your fully grown asses are embarrassing once i've met fifteen year old chuuya catching bullets in his mouth and blowing back a literal kiss of death back at you like look at his hand at the end there, i'm losing my mind

#also the artstyle if fucking GORGEOUS im going to riot #i am so full of emotions rn idk where to unleash them #HE IS EVERYTHING TO ME YOUR HONOR #look how pretty he is #look how BABY he is #smol chuuya hijacking planes and doing pirouettes so true #also the skk implications here as well like wdym this guy took down a whole plane and literally bit bullets before even finishing puberty #is now doing rich girl impressions in falsetto to make your traitor ass laugh after four years of no contact #bsd makes me feel unwell iidek if i can finish this manga without throwing myself into traffic #bsd #nakahara chuuya #dazai chuuya age fifteen #bsd manga #the sigma show #my post #reading bsd 15

[clowningaroundmars]

my absolute fave thing to read in punkflower fics is lovesick puppy hobie brown

cool-as-a-cucumber hobie overthinking miles' every move, leaving lingering touches on him, longing glances thrown his way

certified BAMF hobie hanging by a doorway or window just a second too long before leaving miles

"skinny-hot" hobie refusing to believe someone as ✨️cool✨️ as miles would be into someone like him

badass punk hobie just yearning and pining and practically draping himself all over miles in desperate attempts but then pulling back all scared when anyone even hints that they should get together

god, i need pining lovesick loser hobie like AIR rn 😭

#mine #punkflower #spiderverse #can yall tell i am Not Normal rn #COOL HOT BADASS FUNNY HOBIE JUST!! *clenches fist* JUST!!! just fuckin swooning #like a victorian lady whenever miles does Anything #i mean do yall SEE the way he pays attention to and looks at miles in the movie? #i am unwell. i will never be able to emotionally recover from this #just... god. i love it #hobie brown spider punk just trailing after miles #joking with him and wrapping him up in all of the clothes he can manage to bring #practically screaming silently for miles' attention at every moment #showing off a lil bit when theyre swinging #dont get me wrong hobie is a very very cool guy. when miles isnt there #miles: shows up #hobie: immediately turns into the worlds biggest clumsiest clown to ever exist #miles: smiles #hobie: crashes into 2 walls a telephone pole and falls over a fence #bonus points if miles literally has zero clue the entire time #bc like obviously miles KNOWS hobie is ridiculously hot. this is canon #but SURELY someone like hobie has nooooo interest in him whatsoEVER right guys? …right? ahaha #IDIOTS the both of them #idiots in love #this is a trope i will never tire of ever #also the skinny-hot comment is a reference to the official atsv script #LOOK IT UP IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY #it is filled to brim with homosexuality and plenty of funny ass lines of miles being jealous #but miles my boy. my baby boy #look at me #you need not be jealous of hobie. YOURE the one in the middle of the love triangle NOT GWEN

[onlyplatonicirl]

how long have you been in the utmv fandom

#for me its been since early 2017 #a literal permanent brainrot #SIX FUCKING YEARS #i see all my other friends and mutuals jumping from interest to interest over the period of the year #and im sitting in the same puddle of mud i've been sitting in since age fifteen like #🥺guys nooooo come back haha no #fnaf has been a thing for me since 2015 and im still mentally unwell abt freddy fazbear to date #my interests aren't interests they're permanent life altering Guys that live in my brain Forever and i never don't love them

[kenobicoffee]

Who in their right mind would prefer the twig child that he was to the CAPTIAL M MAN THAT HE IS

#I’m in a such a twin down rn but jake is so #he’s so #guys I’m so unwell #I’m extra emotional cus of my period #Jakedown #HELP #JAKE LANE #JAKE KISZKA #JAKE FUCKING KISZKA #HE IS LITERALLY EVERYTHING

[orionis13]

WHY ARE WE PULLING FROM THE DECK OF MANY THINGS PLS

#orion lb #what a choice #god moonshine AND bev jfc #at least we got superstitious hardwon cannon out of this i can be unwell about this #also moonshine feeling maternal towards bev that’s literally her little guy

[spocks-kaathyra]

"ur repressed" okay well have u even considered that emotions r purposeless and only serve to cause harm to those around u and I have achieved a unique transcendent state beyond them. have u considered that

#joking but like. am I wrong though #yeah no one is able to overcome the inherent human flaw of emotion and anyone who thinks they can is in fact mentally unwell #except for me I'm built different I have actually managed to transcend emotion. this is a good thing and not a problem #I saw my father's anger and my mother's discontent and my brother's self loathing and my friend's yearning. #and I saw how it only made everyone more unhappy. and I decided I would be above them all and never let my emotions rule me. #I was scared of the dark until I realized that fear wasn't useful to feel. so I stopped feeling it #this is a good thing and I am a paragon of mental health I think #mmm alternatively I was made to play mediator in a family of traumatized ppl and learned to repress my emotions to the point of dysfunction #but I prefer to think I'm enlightened and have no problems. this is fine and will not blow up in my face #anyways. just now realizing that this might stem from my childhood. oops #also realizing that I'm probably not aro and I just learned to turn off romantic attraction bc I saw how miserable it made my friend?? #well. I still don't experience romantic attraction. but probably I should and I will if I ever sort out this repression thing. whoopsie #really she was ready to kill herself over some white guy and I looked at that and was like. nope. I'm never stooping to that level #mm might not help that my parents never loved each other and I never had a healthy romantic relationship modeled for me as a child #but still like really like what is the point. of having emotions. they're just not useful #oh hurr durr I'm angry at my friends for talking over a tv show. there is no way to act on this without damaging ppl and relationships #ohh I'm in love with this guy who will never love me back. THERE IS NO PRODUCTIVE WAY TO ACT ON THIS #literally emotions can only be destructive and I'm a better person for opting out of them #there are no downsides to being repressed! I can still feel positive emotions. I'm happy sometimes. sometimes I'm excited. it's fine #guy who is Unpacking Things live on ur dash. sorry #narcissus's echoes #vent

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

got so into my laughingstock feels that i burnt my fuckign toast

#shit was Black #literally was in my kitchen Wailing about them and forgot the bread slices i put in the toaster oven three seconds prior #s'ok i made a new set but oughhhhhh i am still sooooooo so unwell about them.... #OUGHHHHHHH THEMMMMMMM #theyre just... snf.... theyre just two silly goofy guys in love.... #silly goofy fruity fellas and they love each other <3 #SIDE NOTE GINGER SPREAD ON HONEY/BUTTER TOAST ABSOLUTELY FUCKS TRUST ME ON THIS #absolutely unprompted #but yea i was specifically thinking about that fic i have in my head #yall know the one by now. the one i desperately want to write and I SWEAR I WILL EVENTUALLY #but the fuckin... Misunderstanding... it makes me insaneeeee #its the most unhealthy part of their relationship AND THEY ARENT EVEN IN A RELATIONSHIP YET #damn theyre so healthy. theyre so. wails screams howls #but howdy being an oblivious idiot to his own emotions is so important to me #mans is whip smart & quick in every other area #but in this One Subject hes dumb as a rock & that hurts both of them <3 #but it also turns into something they can cry w/ laughter over later #someone asks how they got together. they exchange a look. and burst out howling #full on wheeze-laughing Cannot Form Words #y'see most couples would have some lingering 'i cant believe you did that' and/or guilt #but barn & howdy would just find it hysterical. full on 'remember when you-' 'yeah lmfao' #THEYRE SOOOOOO <3 #yknow if i ever find someone i want to have a partner-esque relationship. i want to have what laughingstock has #i do genuinely believe that howdy might have feelings for barn #but i like to live in the delusional world of my mind where they're Established <3 #grabbing them and slamming them together like a violent 5 yr old playing with dolls #kiss! kiss damn you!

[skitskatdacat63]

no because these are deeply unwell

#tumblr hates me and wont let me post on mobile today( i think ive spammed too much or smth and its cursed me) #so just know im so unwell that ive literally gotten dressed to go out in 10 mins but i had to sit down and pull out my pc to post these #like had to sit down and take ss from tha vid because my fucking god #please tell me guys im not just being delulu right?? like he is more captivating than ususal this wknd right???? #idk. i just dont know how to be a normal person after eveyrthing from today #gonna hnag out w my friend and only be able to think about THIS #HIS EYES ARE SO HAZEL IN THSEEEEE AND HIS STARE IS SO INTENSE??????? #fernando alonso #f1 #formula 1 #catie.rambling.txt

[unsurebisexualcore]

my bisexual ass after watching the ballard of songbirds and snakes:

#SCREAMINF CRYING THROEING UP WRITHING ON THE FLOKR #YALL DONT UNDERSTAND IM uNWELL #tbosas #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #coriolanus snow #lucy gray baird #i can feel my hunger games era coming back at full force 13 year old me is LOSING IT RN GUYS #apologies to the st people who follow me bc the hyperfixation is hyperfixating this is literally my new obsession for the month #HOH MY GODDDDD