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you know the jokes where your friend has a bit, like they committed to a joke where "they committed a crime back in '87" or "and we all know I'm a HUGE ______" or some crazy, outlandish, something or other. The joke is the crazy statement your friend is committing to, you're exasperated/confused at it, and the joke is repeated a couple times. Then you join in, agreeing or repeating the line, but then suddenly "Oh, my god, no, what?" and the joke changes slightly to how they got you to say something weird. it's all in good fun, it's a joke between friends, and it's over in five minutes.

it's a harmless joke, but when taken seriously, I've found that this setup is a really great way to describe me being autistic.

everyone is doing something. saying something. believing something. knowing something. living their lives in a certain way. and you're out of the joke, but you play along, somewhat exasperated. somewhat confused. very confused, actually. but it's fine, you can figure this out. So, you play along, and suddenly "Oh, my god, why would you do/say that?" except this time it's not a joke between friends, these people are actually angry. You tried to play along, but you missed.... something. you're not sure what. maybe you pattern-recognized a little too hard and there isn't even a joke. but now they're looking at you. and you realize you're... different. and maybe they just realized that too.

#likeabpost #autism #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #autistic

[likeabitchylamb]

so instead of the dan and phil fringe icons when are we getting the matching dan and phil eyebrow slits?

#likeabpost #dnp #dan howell #phil lester #dan and phil

[likeabitchylamb]

with the last hour of the 3rd anniversary of destiel, i want to give a big fat kiss on the lips to whoever behind the scenes decided to put the bloody handprint on dean's shoulder after cas took him by the shoulders to shove him aside and protect him. the handprint a mirror image of the burn mark below the jacket. It's just such a good detail. Cas met dean by taking his shoulder and holding him close as he saves him from hell. And Cas says goodbye to dean by taking him by that same shoulder and shoving him aside. And both times, he left a mark.

#likeabpost #spn #destiel #november 5th #nov 5 2020 #dean winchester #castiel #deancas #dean and cas #casdean #happy 3 years destiel #I AM UNWELL #ABOUT THESE GAY MEN #AHHGHGHHGHG

[likeabitchylamb]

I was wondering more about the very interesting choice for the show runners to have the time on the train reflect real life. There are many shows, movies, and books that all decide to have the "adventure dimension" on a different time scale as the real world. Like in Narnia. where irl times freezes, allowing the children to grow into adulthood and then return to their children-selves when they exit the wardrobe. Infinity train doesn't do that. The amount of time that passes on the train is exactly the amount of time that passes in the real world. THAT is very interesting! It got me thinking about the aftermath of being on the infinity train, and the possibilities of that.

There's the inherent angst of people going missing for weeks, months, and even years, and not really being open about where they were. Maybe they try explaining, but since "a magic train took me" is an insane answer to "where did you go for [weeks, months, years]", it ends up just causing arguments. Depending on the circumstances, it could go away. And you time on the train just a Weird Time in your life that only you know about, and your loved ones are sad to think that you won't let them in. Maybe you went missing for years, and in a dramatic twist, the search for you spread across the country. One of those missing children's cases that make True Crime Podcast hosts excited to make a new episode. You're a cold case. Presumed dead. Maybe you try to return home, but find that your family left. they moved, or died, or who knows? How long were you even gone? Do you know? You have no life. In some cases, you grew up on the train. You don't remember how the real world works. You talk to animals, expecting them to respond.

Take this to an even further extreme: do you try to go back? You had friends there, and even a life. Sure, it would be dangerous, but the real world isn't your home anymore. Research on the train leads to dead ends. Nobody knows what you're talking about when you ask about a train that "goes on forever and had magical cars that can have anything in them." Or maybe-

There is a less angsty option, in my mind, where the internet allows people to talk about these things in blog posts and diaries, and as news gets around with stories like "all the child said was a magic train picked them up and they met a talking dog who helped them", more and more people start connecting and talking about the train. Maybe they have a forum. They meet friends. They start this sort of underground group of people who all visited the train because "Finally! Someone Understands Me."

It's just- the aftermath of the train. You go home after seeing all this stuff and what? You're supposed to be NORMAL? No, I refuse. I wouldn't be normal.

#likeabpost #infinity train #this idea won't leave me alone #it's just circulating my mind right now so i typed it out here #it's so interesting to me the aftermath of extraordinary adventures in media #like the return home after the hero's journey #it's going home a fundamentally different person and having experienced things beyond imagination #wondering how someone copes with that

[likeabitchylamb]

"im grabbing my boobs"

#likeabpost #dan howell #phil lester #dan and phil #dnp #danisnotonfire #amazingphil #dnp games #dnp spooky week

[likeabitchylamb]

it's so genuinely interesting to look at my favorite characters in supernatural because it changes so much as the show goes on and each character is different in each season and with each writer. Like, Sam in the early seasons with the demon blood, his brand of daddy issues, his trying to be good but everyone including heaven is telling him he's nothing more than a demon blood-drinking vessel of Lucifer, and he'll sacrifice himself to save the world and stop the apocolapse. oh my god i think about that every five minutes. he's just a long, shaggy-haired, too-tall, and too-kind young man. he sees the best in everyone, and tries to redeem monsters when he can because if he can save them, he can save himself, right? and later on I think about the soulless sam and hallucinating lucifer and the ramifications of being in the cage for so long, and all that so often. but then... idk he has his moments from time to time, but it felt like his character finished and just needed a woman to pair off with because TV character arcs always end with characters marrying, but he didn't even properly get that? he married an off-screen woman after his actual love interest DIED!

then we get dean, who started out as the typical beer-loving cool womanizer dude who loves his family, his car, and hunting things. then he gets broken down as the show goes on into exploring his daddy issues, and it was never something i really fully loved until later on, mostly because the show was always so insistent on keeping his Cool Status at first. then he did and it was always so good. but the show always put a beer back in his hand, a gun in his pocket, and I always left the season feeling like there was more to be explored. he can yell, scream, and cry, but he was never allowed to truly grow from those experiences. he died a hunter, after explicitly showing that was the last thing he wanted.

casiel. oh my god i love castiel. he very quickly became my favorite character above sam with his lack of understanding social queues and his relationship with heaven. ohhhhhh my GOD his relationship with heaven. that scene at the bench where he's begging for clarification and a sign and for god to talk to him????? I'm sobbing. at times i felt like his character's arcs were forced, or his arc was too quick, or off-screen, but that's a by-product of the studio keeping him as a side character so misha had a max number of episodes to show up in. i really hate not seeing "starring: misha collins" because misha really is the heart of the character. just like everyone, but especially misha. he kept castiel around and brought him to life beyond what was expected and that was how it was from day fucking one of his portrayal. oh my god.

also, adam! because his bitterness and spite and hatred always felt So Real. imagine you're him, and your dad travels for his job, but comes to baseball games and he's nice and all. then he disappears and suddenly two men, kinda older than you, show up saying all sorts of crazy shit. they're your father's children from his first marriage before his wife died when they were super young -what?- and his job was hunting monsters -what the fuck?- and you're actually a dark secret in his life and they are fucking pissed cause he was such a shit dad to him -what the FUCK?- oh, and he's dead, killed by a demon -what the actual FUCK- then you get possessed by -get this- the archangel Michael and before you can even begin to properly process that angels exist and the apocolapse is happening because you're still reeling over the fact that your dad was a deadbeat to his two other children who were raised to hunt monsters and your family was like a vacation getaway for him so he can pretend to be normal instead of raising his two other children properly, but you can't think about THAT because oh my god sam took control of lucifer and dragged you and Michael, btw in the same body, down to the hell. but not normal hell, oh no, this is the cage where time is so much faster and you're there for hundreds of years and lucifer is torturing sam and it's awful and you're stuck there with Michael and wow, did he ever say goodbye to his mom (note: i forget if his mom is even alive or talked about, but i assume so) Then you get brought back, and of COURSE YOU HATE EVERYONE!!!

#likeabpost #im not adding everyone im stopping here #so just call it why i like the winchesters except the parents fuck 'em #spn #supernatural #sam winchester #dean winchester #castiel #team free will #tfw #adam spn #adam winchester #idk if he had a different last name sorry adam

[likeabitchylamb]

Things

#likeabpost #dan howell #phil lester #dnp #dan and phil #danandphilgames #dnpgames #screenshot from the new video

[likeabitchylamb]

SPOOKY WEEK IS BACK OH MY GOD LIFE IS GOOD AND HALLELAJUAH

#likeabpost #dan howell #phil lester #dan and phil #dan and phil spooky week #spooky week #dnp #danandphilgames #dnpgames #amazingphil #danisnotonfire

[likeabitchylamb]

DAN VS PHIL DAN VS PHIL DAN VS PHIL

#likeabpost #dan howell #phil lester #danandphil #dnp #danandphilgames #dan vs phil #I USED TO PRAY #I USED TO PRAY FOR TIMES LIKE THESE #WOOOOOOOOOOOO

[likeabitchylamb]

THE HOWLTERS ARE MOVING

AHHHHHHHHH I WILL MISS YOU OWL SLIDE

#likeabpost #dan howell #phil lester #dil howlter #howlter family #dan and phil #danandphilgames #dnp #RIP THE OWL SLIDE #me being dramatic lol

[likeabitchylamb]

THE HATS ARE BACK WOOOOOOO

#likeabpost #dan howell #phil lester #dan and phil #danandphilgames #dnp #dnpgames #amazingphil #danisnotonfire

[likeabitchylamb]

time to rewatch the danandphilgames sims playlist and ignore my responsibilities woohoo!

#likeabpost #dan and phil #dan howell #phil lester #dil howlter #danandphilgames

[likeabitchylamb]

the autism is autism-ing and i am now making rarity-based breeding charts to further help my slow building of my dragon city dragon collection. i want dan and phil to know this is their fault for the sponsored advertisements and I'm supposed to be working on my finals right but it's been about 6 hours and the day is now spent entirely on this stupid excel sheet

#likeabpost #dragon city #mobile games #dan and phil #you FUCKERS #/lh #light hearted

[likeabitchylamb]

so i finally got back to the Quinton Reviews video on Sam and Cat (blame school)

#likeabpost #quinton reviews #sam and cat #video essays #youtube #kool aid man #victorious #iclarly #nsu #? #tbh im just tagging what is in here for my pers tags

[likeabitchylamb]

i have literally never seen a video with a timestamp beyond 24 hours...oh my god Quinton

#likeabpost #quinton reviews #How The Beverly Hillbillies Changed TV #38 HOURS #DEAR GOD #im starting it... #lord help me

[likeabitchylamb]

DAN AND PHIL GAMES IS ALIVE BABY

#likeabpost #dan and phil #dnp #danandphilfames #DIL HOWLTER #HE IS BACK BABY!!! WOOOOO