#like.hm

[acoraxia]

How much of JTTW have you read? Likewise how has it shaped your depictions of the characters?

I finished the Six-Eared Macaque chapter and!

I can't say it's shaped how I view any of the LMK cast? Especially since a lot of the Cast in JTTW isn't in LMK? Like, okay, I personally don't think Tripitaka was a good friend or father-figure to SWK because of his actions while also acknowledging he's a complex character (as is everyone else in the book) — but idk how they're going to handle him in LMK?

Will I like him? Probably not! But that's most likely going to be because of my own personal preference in character, uh, I don't really like much of the cast all too much despite loving seeing them in fics and artwork and everything else

But, uh.. yeah.

I think Sha Wujing is a delight though.

#also #just for ME PERSONALLY #uh #macaque? is? somewhat not my favorite thing to learn about anymore #idk i like.. #twitter ruined him for me #jttw macaqueanyways #i was going to have fun.. and then i didnt... and now im sitting here like.hm. no #lmk macaque my beloved tho i love him a lot he has actual personality and a cool backstory and some twisted fucking morals #what a delight

[sunblazes]

woulsd I want to go to 14+lovejoy concert though.

#like.hm Oh well tbf the merch would be worthit

[yukippe]

Ever since my dad told me when I was 14 that my shaking from stress was me faking it I've been like.hm. are my arms acts shaking and seizing up or can I just stop this whenever

#like if i stop everuthing and press them against the groun and do do anytbing tbey stop so maybe i am faking thsm bit also my arm is #twitchinf and no ones here to see it so am i but am i just faking for myself #i think i might be having a stress breakdown or smth

[glitchdollmemoria]

addiction talk

ohhhhhkay i think i get why the caffeine (+ sugar?) jitters are Doing Something to my brain. ive been doing really well with cutting out weed for my mental health, i actually just hit a month sober from that, but i still get cravings for it sometimes. and it absolutely gave me the jitters, and so i think my brain is going "damn this is familiar and reminds me of recreational drugs can i have more of this" and im just looking at myself like. hey. what the fuck is your problem. i absolutely should not regularly be this intensely caffeinated because i already have heart issues but like.hm. huh. hm. im gonna have to force myself to use a smaller amount of this cold brew mix bc it must be way more caffeinated than most of the stuff i drink. but ALSOOOOO shit man the idea of being this awake at work... idk man!!!! idk. i should really research the negative effects of caffeine to discourage myself from going overboard because i KNOW my brain will latch onto any substance possible and understanding health risks is probably my best coping mechanism against that shit

#weed cw #addiction cw #minors dni #to be clear im not saying im suddenly a caffeine addict im just discussing past experiences n shit yknow #venting

[ratlezbian]

Why does the Simonverse have no lesbians lmao

#like.hm #simonverse #love simon #love victor #I know we have bi rep in both girls and guys but not a SINGLE lesbian #anyways #mine

[shanhelingmoving]

i think cql trans’d my gender dslfkjdskl first time i felt genvy towards someone was. sigh wang yibo

#you know what my guess is......its the not feeling any genvy at white ppl at all & so when i saw chinese actors it was like.hm. #shell.txt #mdzs

[taupewolfy]

apollo justice is both shorter and much longer than expected

#i'm finally up to the last case (just started it) but like.hm how to explain #it's on the ds instead of gba so you can tell they can do more with it (hell the sprites alone) but the fact the very first case #goes for two (?) days instead of the usual one like the original trilogy kinda tells you that #but at the same time the game sticks to the 4 case structure (and from my undersanding kinda bombards you with trucy+apollo 'lore' right - #at the end - like i know they are siblings and i'll get more info on that in this case now) #not planning on playing the 3ds games (aside from the prof layton crossover)

[necropsittacus]

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#inconvenient how like.hm. what are feelings. why do i have to categorize these. #like. i still feel that i do Not experience the construct of romance or romantic feelings. and i do not want to #and if i try to think about the idea of 'dating' or like me having a boyfriend/partner/etc its very weird and awkward and kinda bad #so that repulsion is still there! for which i am glad because its been an important part of my identity #but also the feelings i DO have about persons who shall not be named publicly until i know if that would be acceptable are like #hm. such that i know i do have a differentiated category of emotions #and that and the wants that come with it are. i feel on a gut level that its Different From Romance. #but i dont know *what the difference actually is* beyond me like. rejecting the supremacy of romance(TM) as a political choice yknow #like. i would call this Being In Love. but not romo. just #am i allowed to just want to pledge my love and loyalty and tell people its not romantic feelings if they ask and let the feelings be #what they are #and then like half my models for interpersonal interaction are in this weird Medieval Narrative space that feels defined differently #from the modern conceptiosn #like hm. were i actually living in a 'knight pledged to lord' kind of narrative. *those* are structures i like and that make sense to me #and in that case would what i feel be distinguishable from romance at all? or is it just the actual structures that dont work for me? #what a mess idk #ignore me im just trying to write some stuff out #i know there IS a difference that isnt just 'i dont choose to conceptualize my relationships as romantic' but i also know that #from an outsiders perspective. the last time i felt this way it looked the same as romance #even though in retrospect it wasnt really #and ik back in the 'you have One Special Friend at a time. you would die for them. all your love is for this person' days #i always thought of that friend as just that--'best friend'--and everyone else said crush #and in retrospect neither were quite right? so who knows

[batz]

ok but not 2 sound lame but i rly miss havign th ability 2 get high bc music sounded rlly neat ú_ù

#i might try getting high again but my psychosis is still rlly bad so like.Hm #id probably have 2 have someone around fr the first few times i retry it again just so i can remain somewhat grounded #bc like it rlly helped me w. music HFJSJDDJ #thts litcherally it like i could do music infinitely better bc my synesthesia suddenly gets INCREDIBLY vivid #also drugs bad dont do em kids until ur like at least 18 and ur brain is at least partially developed...frank psa moments #anyway i still have a crap ton of 2 year old weed and the worst part is Legal Government Weed is somehow probably worse DHDJDHDDJ #weed m #drugs m

[wiilted-daisies]

Thoughts ;(

#hmmm why do i gotta have attention every second to b happy #my so: literally give attention to anyone else me: sad whiny noise #like???longing???but also like.hm dont like that #im going to fucking yeet my ass ill go rabid on myself i swear to heck

[beetlebongos]

U ever finally see some icinicc Thing usually a performance n ur like.hm okay

[bucephaly]

Kinda funny ive just been sitting here like.hm i wanna fossilize, i wanna do some cave art that will survive for 10s of thousands of years i wanna exist after im gone

[nihilistwife]

did i tell you guys about the town i went to the downtown st. patrick’s day parade and ended up standing in a cloud of what i realized later was weed smoke while waiting on a lemonade because i was about to die of thirst and it made me so disoriented i had to hold my mom’s shirt while she shopped at home goods later

#im the op #i was like 14 at the time #i just suddenly remembered it and im not sure if it was the combination of the smoke the excessive sun and my mild dehydration #but i got lost on the outside loop of the store aisle so i was like.hm. hm. time to just. cling.

[yukippe]

Ever since my dad told me when I was 14 that my shaking from stress was me faking it I've been like.hm. are my arms acts shaking and seizing up or can I just stop this whenever

#like if i stop everuthing and press them against the groun and do do anytbing tbey stop so maybe i am faking thsm bit also my arm is #twitchinf and no ones here to see it so am i but am i just faking for myself #i think i might be having a stress breakdown or smth

[batz]

hey does anyone know any good tumblr themes? preferably ones that show tags & also dont mess up photo posts fhdkdjd

#my current one sometimes doesnt show photo posts so im like.Hm. #itd be nice if they were redux edits but im desperate fr anything Good tbh fhdjd #frank.txt