#like woof bitch

[c4rr10n]

tea time or w/e if you want some entertainment lol

so last night my roommate and “friend” (by proxy, i suppose) hijacked a conversation i was having with another roommate. i was going to go out of town tonight to see an old family friend i haven’t seen in years, and they were asking about that, to which i explained that due to unfortunate circumstances I wouldn’t be making it, and that I was really bummed about said circumstances (the 6k min surgery thing F) and not getting to see my friend.  anyway, person b, my other roommate, walks in and hijacks the convo. they are going through a breakup (so am i, but to a more intense caliber as we had been living together and essentially married, sharing expenses, she helped mother my cat/child, etc, you get it) and tried to outright state that what he and i are going through are the same. They are NOT. person b is going through a typical break up, I am more or less going through an unofficial divorce with less paperwork and no hearings. My entire life has been destabilized, I lost my housing, my cat lost her mother and is evidently depressed, my financial situation and much of my future plans are in shambles. The only thing still truly completely in my control is my schoolwork right now - and thank god I at least have that and my cat. My now-ex was my end all be all, and she lied to me, withheld crucial information from me, and cheated on me. Because she was afraid of change, afraid of losing me so much she defaulted to illogically and detrimentally protecting herself to the extent of harming me and completely sabotaging our relationship. She and our life together were my everything. Additionally, I only have one friend in this town. My closest friends by distance are three hours away. Person B has many in the immediate vicinity, and also has other partners as they are polyamorous. So, no, our situations are not remotely the same. Their pain is real and I empathize, but their struggle lies in being sad over chinese food because that’s something he and his ex used to do together - my struggles stem from nearly every aspect of my life being evidence that everything I had established for my present and future has been not only uprooted, but all for naught. Not the same. I found it very disrespectful and dismissive among other things, but I am not the type to indulge others in my affairs so their ignorance is on me. So I let it slide. But they kept going on and on about it, forcing the room to be subject to their little petty tragedy.  In an attempt to diffuse and redirect the conversation I shared a story of my own. I said, “If it makes you feel better,” and told the most absurd tale i’ve ever experienced in which i was drugged with delaudid while on xanax and overdosed, and the guy responsible attempted to kidnap me - the proof of which was in that i had to get him to return to where he left me (someone stopped him from taking me, thank fuck) because all my shit was in his truck. and a month later, still suffering the mental and physical aftermath of OD bc no one took me to the hospital and even dissuaded me from doing so the following day - my life came unraveled and it was too much, and especially due to the mental effects of the OD, and I was young and dumb, and well... I tried to end it all. my partner at the time responded by dumping me and fucking my neighbor two days later! i mean, by god LOL. I know there’s a lot to unpack here, but at surface level, it’s a hell of a story. It’s so ridiculous it’s funny. Like truly some deranged soap opera shit. I shared this story because it’s RIDICULOUS. It’s outlandish. Few experiences can hold a candle to just how fucking intense and kooky the story is. It’s like a fucking Shakespeare play lol. Also because I know that because person b had been expecting my friend to dump them, they staged a suicide by eating a bottle and a half of tylenol after my friend had gone back home. My friend had come over to support them because they were going to admit themself to the mental hospital - which I respect. It’s good to know when you need help, and do what you need to to get better and get it together. I respect trying. However, earlier in during that night while my friend was still present, they simply... walked out of the house! And the last time they’d done that was about a year prior - to pull a suicide stunt. They lured my friend out to a bridge, acting as if they intended to jump. It’s important to know at this point that there are numerous ways to ensure a successful suicide in this house, especially because almost everyone here is doing HRT - an embolism will easily take care of the light in your eyes with little to no mess, and sleeping pills to ensure you feel no pain. There are also multiple resources for a hanging, to bleed out in the tub if you want to go out with theatrics and REALLY traumatize your loved ones (since, yknow, inflicting trauma and urgency upon their peers seemed to be an important factor in person b’s suicide plan), to list a few. It was a stunt. Additionally, if you have been following me for long enough, you will know that I lost a very dear friend to suicide nearly two years ago and the toll it took was inexplicable - it literally changed my life forever. So, I do not take such actions lightly. But it’s not my place to put them in theirs, so I keep it to myself.  Returning to the conversation which person b hijacked, they responded by saying that my friend (who is genuinely one of the most upstanding and genuinely kind and passionate and sentimental people I have ever met in my life, and also really has his shit together - lives independently and works for the city helping disadvantaged individuals in community and generally just being accessible to anyone who might need help of any caliber) had done to them what that particular ex had done. It was such a short statement, it happened so quickly, by the time they’d finished saying the words I wasn’t sure they had actually just said them. Why? Because as formerly mentioned, year ago they pulled a similar stunt - staged a suicide attempt - and my friend, against his better judgement - let this event slide, and has regretted it since. While I told him that he had been sitting on his uncertainty for too long, he continued to extend himself time and time again for person b, no matter the toll it took on him. They have continuously exhibited harmful behaviors - mostly to others, but some to themself (most of which include complacency), and in the past few months I have been the one that my friend confided in about how this person had been hurting them. And ofc, I understand and appreciate that my roommate (person b) and i have almost all of the same mental health diagnoses - but frankly I have about 4 years on them and exponentially more life skills. Not boasting here, just stating a fact. They are very irresponsible and immature. This is why my friend broke up with them. As one does - their places in life were just too different and incompatible to the point of dealing harm to my friend. Such situations are often simply a part of life - very normal, very common.  Anyway, so my roommate tried to spin the whole situation differently than it happened, omitted multiple poor and extreme choices of their own, and intentionally implied that my friend (and also the friend of the entire household, and the one who introduced them to the household) had left them because of the suicide. Which... when stated so plainly, is not entirely untrue, but is not entirely true - it is a misleading technical truth. They intentionally obscured the truth to sell a version of the story that painted my friend as “the bad guy,” and themself as having moral high ground. It was never just the suicide attempt, it was never the reason why they felt suicide was an option - to which I can empathize and sympathize. But rather It was all the reasons why not to do such a thing where evident everywhere, and their neglect to all these reasons - including how deeply horrific and painful it was for those of us who care about them. It is also greatly because they never intended to succeed, they intended it as a cry for attention. To say this is inappropriate is a criminal understatement, lol. So when they made this statement, so easily, so quickly - I just... kind of stared at them. They clearly must think I know nothing. Either that or that I’m a fool. Either that or they are such a fool it hasn’t occurred to them that I would reasonably know the details of their relationship, being that I am their now-ex’s best friend and confidant.  So I just said that “unfortunately,” I had business law assignments due at the end of the night I had to attend to. I finished loading up the dishwasher and returned to my room. I let the interaction marinate in my mind.  Now, it’s crucial to know that person B knows next to nothing about me. Honestly, none of these people really know anything about me besides the fact that I am, in general, on the other end of a major break up and that I’m a mortuary sciences student. This is intentional, as I have extreme trust issues, and live by the saying “not my monkeys, not my circus,” and I apply this statement to and fro; you can’t have mine and I don’t want yours unless you are a part of my circus. And exceedingly few are truly a part of my circus. So person B doesn’t know anything I’ve been through, they don’t know how much I know - which is everything - and they don’t know just how far I’ve come. They don’t know that one of my favorite people was found nearly two weeks post mortem on the other end of a rope, that I was initially lied to about the event for social capital, or that the lie was preferable to the reality, or that the entire event sent me into legitimate psychosis and when I came out of it I was almost a completely different person. They don’t know that entirely isolated myself as a response or that I ended up in this town because I was running from that. They don’t know that I didn’t leave my house or speak to anyone - at all - for at least 6 months following discovering said lie. They don’t know that their ex is my best and only true friend and confidant here. They don’t know how nigh inextricably entwined my ex and I were and how devastating this entire process has been for me. I already had deeply affecting trust issues, and this has only impacted them, if not completely officiated a decision to entirely withdraw from other humans. I do not leave my room except to cook, clean the house or myself. They don’t know that I know the vast majority of the contents that make up the person who is their now-ex, and thus the vast a majority of their relationship. They don’t know that my mother used to beat me or that my father was never there to witness it until one day it boiled over and she had me pinned against a wall because she had figured out I was queer while she was in an ill-medicated induced state of psychosis. They don’t know that I struggle with violent intrusive thoughts to such an extent that I have to take medications for it. They don’t know I have a collection of medical equipment, medical textbooks, and a bowie knife in my room and that if they or anyone else were to overstep too much or I snap, I can make them disappear, and that have access to places that will ensure their disappearance is permanent - though such a thing is outlandish and unreasonable, the facts still stand all the same. They don’t know why I wish to engage with the dead, that I find the biological process fascinating and beautiful and the medical processes involved soothing and cathartic. They don’t know that I used to be just like them but worse. They don’t know that after being on both sides of the fence, I am forever painfully aware that surviving a loved one’s suicide is infinitely more painful than surviving your own. They don’t know that I know that if they knew that, they wouldn’t have pulled the suicide stunt, and if they are aware of this, that makes it exponentially worse. They don’t know that I’ve seen far too much I can never unsee, and that I now have no choice but to live with that. They don’t know that I’m ok with that, now, and I’m using the worst I’ve been through to create my best self and life. They can only see the visible aftermath all this left to forever mar my skin.  So yes, it’s an intentional choice to withhold my information from everyone. And in doing so, person B never realizes that I catch them red handed at every opportunity, and how much respect I’ve lost for them in a matter of weeks. That every time they try to manipulate my opinions, they not only fail but are rendering themself vulnerable and more visible to me. They don’t realize how much of them I can see with so little telling - they don’t realize that I know they can’t bare their pain being unknown, and that they know they are pathetic only just enough to lie about their personal situations and events to obscure their nature. They truly have no idea of anything occurring between us. It’s almost funny.

The more I’ve thought about it, the more I’ve realized that they truly have no idea that I was literally the worst person in existence to make such statements to lol. After sleeping on it, I’ve decided that while in turn I have closed myself off from them, and as much as I’d like to tell them off and force them to learn better that I cannot, but most of all it infuriates me to hear them talk about my friend - everyone’s friend - like that. I can’t change them, where they are in life, or their poor coping skills, but I can put enough fear into them to hopefully dissuade them from ever trying to spout such slanderous bullshit again. I will address it with them, I don’t entirely expect them to truly cognate what I tell them but I need to make it clear that if they ever fucking make such a statement in front of me, and lest there be others, I WILL embarrass them in front of everyone in the room. Fucking idiot 

#the actions of some people really do spawn a plethora of shakesspearian bullshit lol #but god last night i was ready fucking take them out of this world lolllllll #like they have no idea they even said or did anything wrong #like woof bitch #also yes i know i'm extremely normal lol #whats new lol

[yourdicc]

#hey girrrl #making vashwood textposts cus im going insane waiting for ep 11 #also insomnia is a bitch #anyways the cliffhangers got me like WOOFF WOOF GRRR #we stay suffering #tristamp #trigun stampede #vash #wolfwood #vashwood #trigun

[going-to-superhell]

Remember practice your bark so when men cat call you you can traumatise them ❤️❤️❤️

#bark bark bitch #the fact I used to imitate my dogs barks as a kid and other dogs so when I bark I sound like a large dog ✨ #daily reminder #bark at men #men are the problem #grrrr bark woof #unintelligible goblin noises #chaoscore #chaotic bastard #cryptidcore #cryptid #feralcore #gremlincore #goblincore #life hacks

[snazzycrown]

I can finally say it.

Bitch was a bitch to draw.

I do love her so goddamn much though- my beloved Rachel. It was probably so hard because I wanted to draw her in a way that my brain agrees with, like how I imagine her while reading Worm.

Took a buncha sketches and one completed reference sheet that I ended up redoing but uh yup here is my gorl :)

#character art #worm parahumans #bitch worm #rachel lindt #worm #parahumans #oh look its the one I wish to hug #the one most likely to punch me if I do #grrr woof woof

[acoraxia]

fuck you

*transfems your macaque*

(for legal reasons this is my personal hc)

#woof loupen #i have been thinking… #and like…. #this bitch he/they sapphic #genderfluid sun themed god x nonbinary moon themed god #and they were sapphics #incredible-

[eraserheadadult]

fr i really love how we finally got a chapter focused on aya feeling awkward&out of place around the like. punks in their 30s mitsuki is always hanging out with. but when she actually talks to them they are all super nice to her its cute ;_;

overarching theme of the series boils down to "preps and goths can be friends".......

#woof #forgot it was sunday somehow and then i was like oh my gd i abandoned my boy. #i feel like i dont have any jokes to make abt this one it was just a nice Character Moment #also footnote ''joe's records'' the cd shop has a name now. good news for minutia bitches like me

[sp0o0kylights]

hey its me from the "wheres the adopt a jock update, im dying" thing. im so sorry for it. i had know idea there even was a storm and it is 100% not ur job to keep us updated bc ur doing us favour by uploading content, im sorry i took that for granted.

im also sorry this apology came late, i felt to chicken to write one innitially, i dont know if i did end up sending u one, but ur reaction to my ask came up in my feed again and i really wanted to apologise once more.

I'm so sorry for those you lost in this horrid storm and I'm so proud of u for pushing through, everyone is and I hope u know that.

I know this apology doesn't make up for anything but I just wanted u to know that I took in what u responded, u were well in ur right to be pissed off, and I now know for future to type my messages in a kinder way so they don't get taken as a ride remark, I hope u know I didn't type what I said to be rude, not that it matters in anyway.

we're all looking out for u and wish u all the best, have a great day

It's all good fam--I honestly had a few of these messages between here and A03, some a lot ruder that yours, and yours just happened to be the first one I saw when I managed to get a few hours with proper access to Tumblr (Ie not on the craptastic app on my phone, which refuses to let me answer asks and crashes when I try lol.)

Thank you for apologizing, it does mean a lot, and it takes a lot of courage to do it.

It's a weird lesson to learn sometimes, that people who don't know you as well won't always know you're joking/your sense of humor, or may not mentally be in a space to fully comprehend it as a light prod instead of a "hey dude where's my content."

I think it's also a good reminder that fandom is a community first. I know there's a lot of discussion centered around how we're sliding into a more content mill like vibe vs that community, and that a lot of us are getting impacted by it a bit--I'll be the first to say I was more touchy even before the trees because I've had a lot more weird, demanding comments lately than I ever used to get. Not just in ST either--I'm seeing it on my older fics, in fandoms that are significantly smaller and typically very drama-less. While my policy normally is to delete and ignore, sometimes it builds (and then two trees almost kill you by collapsing your house and you start biting heads off after being stuck in a hotel with your family for two weeks.)

Anyway, thank you sincerely, for apologizing. It did not go unnoticed <3

#if I ever had to guess who would get fifteen seconds of fame in my family #“my house” wasn't even on my mind and yet here we are #damn things been featured in so many fucking news articles/videos #they did finally condemn it though' #like that was ever in fucking question #I will also say I am much saner living in my own space again and not in a loud ass hotel ontop of my entire family #while trying to work out of my phone #I had to export excel spreadsheets off that bitch #I also JUST got my computer back which is why Im responding to everyone now #I had to purchase a lot of shit like you know #wires #and speakers #and a keyboard lmao #but thankfully my tower itself is fine #god I attended a fucking teams meeting on my phone woof #anyway #ty

[jaynovz]

Luke Arnold did not put his entire psyche and pussy into John Silver to the detriment of his own health for yall to say Silver is a mastermind liar and not a fucking repressed bisexual MESS

#have you SEEN him? #fucking LOOK AT HIM?? #watch the actor act his performance is EXTREMELY layered of Man Desperately Trying to Suppress Weird and Big Emotions about Flint #especially in s2 check my woof woof tag the body language is VERY READABLE #but it doesn't GO AWAY in later seasons it just Shifts #black sails #john silver #he's trying to hide it but it peeks through a LOT #lemme find a post #listen just this Idea I've been seeing over and over that Silver is Always Performing and like... there's no genuine expression #or that he somehow has complete mastery of himself LMAO it just utterly discounts the Actual Text of the show #and the actor's performance #which is... SLOPPY BITCH TRYING REAL HARD TO PERFORM BUT IT DOESN'T WORK LIKE... A LOT #treating Silver like a narrative device can be fun and great but uhhh yall have bought into the legend you got tricked #he's literally just a fucking ptsd ridden mess 30 traumas/snakes in a trenchcoat #My Opinion About This Has Been Well Documented in Fic #but I guess I just lost my mind in the tags blaming this one on Etoile

[crispyjenkins]

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#ya bitch's got covid #managed to avoid it this entire time #but my parents got it again and gave it to me 🥴 #am really worried about the long term effects since im already chronically ill in other ways #blehhhh my sib and i are so fuckin careful outside the house still but my parents just HAD to go to a massive concert #shut up cj #woof like im doing better today than i was yesterday but im PISSED

[frecklystars]

god im so excited for the Barbie movie today. I might be a bit tense while seeing my triggers on screen but honestly I’ve been doing so so so well handling my ptsd the last few weeks and I'm very proud of myself!!!!!

there’s a few triggers I’ve been actively working on reclaiming and I KNOW I’m going to be okay watching the movie bc I am not letting anybody take this from me. I know I’m gonna wanna see it more than once. I even bought myself a cute pink skirt for it ;w;

#I’m gonna wear pink glitter in my hair too for opening night #woof #like i know im gonna be rly tense but i have been doing SO much better than i was just a month ago #if anything ill just be incredibly tense at first. but i genuinely think ill relax more as the movie progresses #bc ive been using grounding techniques for months and ive been working so goddamn hard to reclaim pink #WHICH IS SUCH HUGE PROGRESS FOR ME to think back to january when i couldnt look at pink at ALL #and i think seeing pink literally every single second for 2 hours straight in the barbie movie #is gonna also help my brain be like 'oh hey everything is fine' help it to become desensitized #bc ive been doing exposure therapy and im doing so much better than i was even just one month ago!!!!!!! #barbie is my girlfriend. and ken is my boyfriend. and i have two hands they can hold #god!!! you know how many barbies im gonna kiss!!!!! SO MANY #this is MY movie i have been so fucking excited to see!! its my number one favorite thing ive been looking forward to!!!! #i have wanted to see this! so! fucking! badly! and fuck anybody who tried to ruin that for me #i dont want ptsd to control my life #i feel like im riding a bull and gripping it by the horns while its trying to kick me off while im yelling Not Today Bitch #thats what trying to reclaim triggers feels like #but i can fucking feel it working i can feel myself getting better with some of these triggers i cant believe it #and i think just a year from now most of these triggers wont be severe anymore #which is my goal. i dont even need them to be cured completely i just want to function normally #cannot tell u how fucking unreal it is to have so many triggers that are like. normal everyday stuff #colors. clothes. phrases. transformers. im taking ALL of that shit back #STARTING WITH PINK ONE OF MY FAVORITE GODDAMN COLORS 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 #THE EMOJI LOOKS RED ON DESKTOP BUT THAT IS OKAY.

[hanzajesthanza]

angouleme staying in beauclair with the rest of the company does strike some chord of yearning within me. it's reminiscent of some pleasant childhood memories "back when it was good," (if you're familiar with the sentiment).

of going on a short vacation with family, curious and new to the setting (even if one had been there once before), just looking for fun and totally carefree, no responsibilities... staying in a nice place, to be treated nicely for a while. and lots of free food! (and maybe not, for a while, coming to understand the emotional distress going on behind the curtain)

#c: angouleme #the elbow-high diaries #it's also fun how she really takes to it like a fish to water #cahir: worried about nilfgaard catching him | milva: depressed because of her injuries and loss | regis: nervous about being identified #angouleme: RUNNING AROUND THE PALACE LOOKING FOR SCANDAL #100% she was like come on regis let's explore this bitch and he was like 👉👈 idk im scared and she was like OF WHAT WE LIVE IN A PALACE NOW #we're fucking NOBILITY no one is gonna get on our asses for SHIT #'why not one of the others' 'milva is saying her ribs ache and cahir's busy with the baronesses' #'but but i dont have a shadow' 'its WINTER. NO ONE has a shadow it's so damn overcast' #'and dogs?' 'ill bark right back at them' #it is actually my headcanon that as theyre walking in the street once a dog starts at regis and angouleme woofs at it #literally her creativity to solving problems is unmatched

[hotpinkmoon]

WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT THIS!!!

EVERYONE FUCKING LOOOKKKK

#DEREK CRYING LIKE A LITTLE BITCH #WAKE UP BITCH LICHRENCE GLOWSTICKS IS OUT #STRADE IN A MUZZLE OMLLLLL #DEREK'S YOUNGER BROTHER IS FINE AS HELLLLLL OMGGGG #THAT TONGUE THOOOO #IM GOING BARK BWTKFWOOT WOOF #hpm.talks #GATOBOB IS SERVICING US FOOD AND NOBODY IS EATING ITTTT

[craycraybluejay]

Flashbacks to when birthgiver talked about how she and her brother used to always stand up for/protect each other and little me casually just accepting this as a core value despite never taking anything else any adults said to me as a kid as a core value. Like, yk what your opinions are stupid and useless except this one. Siblings should always protect each other and take care of each other no matter what. Above all else.

#parentify me more why don't ya #except for once it was a role i wanted and even needed to accept #the one caveat i very much did not internalize was 'never protect them from ME or any other abusive adult with direct authority' #like teachers and stuff #not sorry you are the one thing they need protection from #hell will freeze over before i allow any harm to come to a sibling. your schoolmates SHOULD be scared of me. I'll fucking beat their ass if #they try to bully you #woof! bitch. you're messing with someone under my protection and are about to get your face bitten off #tbh its anyone i care about. someone hurts my loved ones they should start praying. #you will die!!!!! don't even fucking look at them wrong!!! i am fucking watching you!! #'aggressive' and 'unstable' pff just say you don't understand love. being the protector has always been my job #the therapist. the punching bag who learned to punch back. the gatekeeper between all that is good and all that intends to hurt it. #i will protect until the day i die because That Is Who I Am. i will do what was not done for me. i will burn the earth to keep harm from #anyone under my protection #delete later #too emotional

[alilpuppyboy]

Not a general nsft post, just me rambling about a lovely young man that I want to fuck!

I want this new guy to rail me so bad. He is all I think about it has been like...a WEEK. Two weeks TOPS since we started talking properly. And my partners are very supportive and indulgent with my massive stupid crush on him but. I am obsessed. I talk to him literally every day for like HOURS. He's so good. He is so sweet and kind and darling and good. He's so nice about me being a puppy too. I want to eat him. I want him to crush me into the sheets and stuff my cunt full and make a mess of me until I can't even think. I want him to collar me So Bad.

#my stuff #me things #nsft #boys #crushes #puppyplay #i WANT HIM. #which he knows i am so vocal #he really enjoys getting me flustered and shy #men will be switches and then proceed to know exactly how to make you a little bottom bitch #god. #i like him so much #he went on a trek up the hill on his property for me. #very gay about it #woof woof.

[byregot]

Specifically there seems to be a bizarre trend on this webbed site to only view issues through like your specific lens of what is Most Important and it leads to some extremely bizzare takes such as “diaper/abdl fetishes are problematic, not because of the pedophilia but because disabled people use adult diapers therefore everyone with this fetish is ableist” which is a very real take I just saw

#woofing barking woofing #same person I went to go block them for being annoying #and the other top post on their blog was #‘disabled people especially need to support plstine. not because of the genocide but bc they’re creating more disabled people’ #< censoring the word jusr so my little bitching posts don’t clog anything important #but I’m just like is that really the only way you can possibly care about this issue #it’s so strange how common of this kind of mindset is

[davemustaine]

shoutout to the owner of the new record shop that opened up that was head over heels when we realized we were both greek and knocked the price off an original press of piece of mind and gave me a bootleg dvd + cd of a greek opera singer from the 50s and 60s

#visited on the way to work. and since i take the train its not like i could put the record in my car so i had to put it in the break room at #my coworker is just like. WHY do you have a whole ass maiden record with you #i wouldnt wanna put it in a car anyways its hot as fuck #woof #whatever. now i have a middle aged greek bffie who has a vintage technics turntable set aside for me so when i have the cash im snapping #that bitch up! #also got two donuts from two different people yesterday. probably one of the better days ive had