Shadow is born at eight years old. He's never been sure why, though later on he's told they need his prototype to emulate a proper life cycle. But when Shadow the ultimate lifeform awakens for the first time, it's at the age of eight.
He later finds out that he had been in creation for about one year. And that when the project began, Maria Robotnik was eight years old.
When Shadow meets Maria Robotnik, she's nine, and he is eight. Maria's blonde hair is cut short, barely reaching down past her jaw. Blue barrettes pin her hair out of her round face. She is wearing a turquoise shirt and blue leggings. It's pretty. Maria Robotnik is pretty.
When she is ten and he is nine, they're practically inseparable. Maria Robotnik is a year older than Shadow, but she says she finds him easy to talk to, even though Shadow often worries that year of difference must feel like ages to her. She tells him, even so, that even if he was less easy to talk to than she promises he is, she'd still love talking to and being around him. He makes life on the ARK so much more interesting, she tells him.
The ARK is the space station Shadow has spent his short life confined to. A small, modest life with Maria- a life full of tests and examinations and experiments. A life full of this ache in his body that swells up deep in his bones, and bubbles under his skin, bursting out like the erupting volcanoes he and Maria have read about in books every time his golden blood is drawn from his veins. As they watch the results intently. Maria makes life on the ARK feel more like living. Down time in her bedroom with the same few songs looping on their shellac phonograph records makes it feel like a real everyday life. Maria's music all sounds the same to Shadow, but it's a pleasant sound. Slightly crackly recordings, slow, melodic violin and swelling piano, old-sounding men with low, slightly slurred voices and women with voices that sound like honey singing slowly, and Shadow can't tell them apart, but Maria Robotnik- who knows the songs by heart- sings along and the words she sings are different, and that's how Shadow tells one familiar, lovestruck melody from another. And it feels like everyday life. It feels like living.
Shadow wonders sometimes if that's the feeling Maria is describing when she says "interesting". If she feels just as confined as he does, like an experiment in a test tube. She knows all the songs on the ARK by heart. She can recite every book in her room front to back and she claims she can recite them backwards, but the one time she'd tried to prove it, she got caught up in a laughing fit at it. Maria acts optimistic, easy to please, but Shadow wonders if she's really just deeply bored, feeling trapped, and seeking some sort of enrichment that Shadow brings her the way she does to him. A sense of normalcy. And that's what she calls "interesting."
She is eleven and he is ten when his suspicions are confirmed. Maria desperately wishes to go down to Earth, but she's confined to the ARK due to her illness. If she could have one wish, well...
I actually don't know if I would use it on that, Maria admits. There are a lot of things I could wish for. Grandfather says he'll find a treatment for my condition as well, so it'd be silly to waste it on that.
This is a hypothetical, Maria, Shadow reminds her. The idea of having one wish to do anything you want is silly in itself.
Maria shrugs, then nods. What do you think you'd wish for, Shadow?
Shadow thinks. There are a lot of things he could wish for, too. To understand his purpose and why he was created. To see Earth as well. For the researchers to find whatever result it is they want from him- the testing hurts, almost constantly, even when it's been a long time since the tests were actually performed. His bones ache, and his body always feels drained of blood. Like if he were to look at his arm right now, despite knowing it has never looked like that, it would be utterly emaciated, tight around frail bones and empty veins.
But one stands above the others in Shadow's head. One thing that has lived between him and Maria their whole lives.
I would wish for the treatment to come right away, Shadow says. So you and I could go down and live on Earth together.
Maria stops. She looks touched, and she gives Shadow a smile, her blue eyes sparkling. Then she giggles.
Then I could use my wish for something else, She says. In that case, I would wish that Earth could be a peaceful place, and come into a good future. Then you and I could go live there together, and experience it to the fullest.
She looks dejected, aware somewhere deep in her chest it won't happen like that. Or, at least, it will be years before it ever does. So Shadow gives her the best smile he can, and says, Maybe that will happen soon.
Maria Robotnik is twelve, and Shadow the Hedgehog is eleven, when Maria is taken away from him.
The ARK is going to be destroyed. Gerald Robotnik has been captured, and they're after Maria and Shadow. Alarms are blaring in Shadow's ears as they run, Maria's hand clasped around his.
Shadow is sealed into an escape pod. He's struggling, pounding on the glass, but it's strong. Despite Shadow's power, he can't get out. They must have made it that way to survive entering the atmosphere.
He pounds and fights to get out, struggling as Maria attempts to work the escape hatch, and then...
Then there's a moment where everything is quiet. Time seems to stand still. A loud bang, and then silence. He sees Maria's eyes widen as the bullet breaks through the skin on her chest, but he doesn't hear her scream. He sees her face twist, and her blue eyes fill with tears, but he doesn't hear a cry of pain.
She begs him, quietly, to fulfill her last wish. For her, and everyone on that planet...
But he has to go alone.
Twelve year old Maria Robotnik collapses into an empty, silent death as she pulls the lever to send Shadow down. And he sees her for one last time.
Her blonde hair, long and reaching past her shoulders, seems to float underneath her blue headband that keeps it out of her gently rounded face. She hits her knees, and her blue dress bounces down to adhere, as does her jacket, a lighter blue like the sky of the Earth he's seen in her books, but now colored a deep crimson around her heart. Her sapphire eyes glimmer for one last second. It's beautiful. Maria is beautiful.
And now she is gone.
Shadow is taken to Earth by armed soldiers in black. Their gear is adorned with the letter G. It makes Shadow think of the professor. He doesn't know where he is. He's surrounded by unfamiliar faces. He wishes the professor, or anyone from the ARK, were here with him.
He wishes Maria were here with him. But Maria is dead. And she will never get to see the Earth.
It's so unfair it makes the young hedgehog physically sick with despair. He spends days crying until he throws up, scratching his skin until it bleeds, all in a useless, desperate expression of grief. His fur is matted in gold stains, and he begins to fear he'll bleed himself to death.
They hold onto him for five years. Five years, he and the professor are imprisoned. Every single one of those almost two thousand days, he feels himself slip further into something dark that eats at his muscles with its sharp teeth, twists his face and his body, pulls the strings in his body to move it for him, and pulls at his brain, pulling, pulling until Shadow begins to lose the mind he once had. Every single one of those two thousand days, he thinks about Maria, and what they did to her.
During those two thousand days, he sees Professor Gerald twice. Once at the beginning, and once at the end.
At the beginning, the professor gives Shadow what he assumes is the equivalent of a blood transfusion, restoring what Shadow had ripped out of his veins. It's like the tests he performed on him on the ARK, tests he'd performed to use Shadow to find a cure for Maria. It was all for Maria, and the thought makes Shadow ill all over again.
At the end, Shadow is five years older, and Professor Gerald is as well. Five years older, and numb with shaking anger at everything around him. He's missing patches of fur where he's torn it out in angry fits. They've kept Shadow captive as a prisoner for so long, and every day he comes closer to maiming these soldiers. tearing their faces off their heads. Shoving his hands through their chest right where they shot Maria. The thoughts are driving him mad, and Shadow, still not old enough to comprehend his own brain, doesn't understand how mourning can do this to a person, and the monster it's turned him into. He's scared. He's scared of it. Scared of the idea of what he wants to do. Scared of the idea of hurting them, and scared of how much he seems to want it.
Until he sees the professor again. It's on a TV screen this time. Gerald is bound to a chair in a prison cell. He tells them how he's turned the ARK into a deadly weapon, something that will destroy the entire Earth, to make everyone feel the pain they put him through when they killed his granddaughter. None of them will be able to stop it, he says. This is what they deserve for taking Maria away.
The video ends with a gunshot, and Shadow screams at the noise as he sees that glimpse of the one other person he knew die right before him at these soldiers' hands once again.
Shadow is locked away. In another glass pod. He doesn't want this, not again. He thrashes, hisses, shouts at them to LET HIM OUT. They don't. He's a weapon to them. A threat. Something that needs to be contained.
The last thought that passes through his head as the frozen pod lulls him into a hypothermic sleep-
They think I'm a dangerous weapon? I'll show them dangerous.
Shadow was born at eight years old. He was never sure why, though many years ago he was told they needed his prototype to emulate a proper life cycle. But when Shadow the ultimate lifeform awoke for the first time, it was at the age of eight.
Fifty years ago, Shadow was put to sleep, in hopes he would be sealed away for good.
When Shadow reawakens for the first time, it's half a century later. He is still sixteen years old. And he's made up his mind.
He's going to make this awful place and everyone on it pay for taking Maria Robotnik away from him.
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