OH MY FUCKING GOD
I JUST WENT TO MY LOCAL HOT TOPIC THAT I'VE BEEN GOING TO FOR LIKE. 5 OR 6 YEARS NOW RIGHT??
I GOT SOME MCR STUFF BECAUSE. OF COURSE. IF YOU'VE SEEN MY RECENT POSTING HABITS YOU KNOW. THE BRAINROT IS REAL
I WAS TALKING WITH THE CASHIER ABOUT THEM BECAUSE HE WAS ALSO A FAN AND HE FUCKING SAYS "you wanna know a fun fact? this is the hot topic the lead singer used to work at! :D"
FUCKING WHAT
GERARD WAY USED TO WORK AT MY LOCAL FUCKING HOT TOPIC?!?
AND AFTER I LEFT I LOOKED IT UP TO MAKE SURE HE WASN'T FUCKING WITH ME AND YEAH. HE WAS RIGHT. WHAT THE FUCK
SORRY FOR THE ALL CAPS THIS IS LIKE. WORLD-SHATTERING INFORMATION TO ME AND HE JUST DROPPED THAT SHIT SO CASUALLY WHAT THE HELL BRO. I NEEDED TO SCREAM ABOUT THIS SOMEWHERE
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there is truly no gut-wrenching betrayal worse than when a creative friendship dissolves and you have to peel back the layers of gaslighting, condescension and passive aggression to uncover how deep the sneering dismissal for your work went with this person. being called a hack to my face would literally have been far kinder than to be equated to a male writer who writes sexual assault for shock value behind my back 🤪
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So, it happened, Mother and Sister finally broke me and I don't want to be involved in any way anymore in their fucking war (not sure if it's a was when only one of them has declared it, but anyway...)
And yes, I am still deeply upset that Mother abused psychologically Sister since she was 7 (we have 6 years of difference and I stopped living regularly at home since I was 14, I was not there to witnessed it) and Mother often manipulated me in reinforcing the abuse with me none the wiser (Sister told me everything only a few years ago), but the point is, I still love my mother and she's the only parent I have left.
I love my sister, nobody is more important in my life than my sister, I would kill and die for her, but she's over 30 now, refusing therapy or direct confront with Mother and I'm tired to be in the middle.
To say it in Italian, Hanno rotto il cazzo (literally, "They broke my dick", English is not very good for this kind of phrases... you're missing out, you know? Translated would be, "I'm sick of their bullshit").
So, Mother wants to drop down unannounced to Sister because she's refusing to answer her calls and also ripped her a new one a couple of weeks ago when Mother was pushing me again? Good, but she will not stay with me and I will not keep her plan a secret.
Sister is angry at Mother for various reasons? I will not coddle her anymore. She either confronts mother or her feelings with therapy but that's enough.
I'm tired. I exhausted by years and years of two neurodivergency never diagnosed or even considered. I'm about to be 40. The future is bleak (especially the environment). I'm single, so I'll probably end up alone if I don't get the energies to go back on the dating scene. I'm not able to keep my house anymore or the discipline to exercise at least once a week.
They either sort their shit out or they don't. I don't care. I'm done.
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severe weather and hail storm/ tornado watch today... :/
you'd think i'd be used to this by now since we get a couple severe storms and tornado watches like this every spring
BUT IT'S FEBRUARY
last year we had such high winds in my area that pieces of everyone's roofs were flying around the neighborhood
i heard a loud scrape and looked out my window and saw a large piece of siding had come off our roof and landed in our neighbor's yard
and then another time (also last year) a MASSIVE tree branch fell right atop our front porch. we literally could not exit out the front of the house because of how big it was! my heart stopped just to hear it come down but by some freaking miracle it didn't even scratch our windows.
first world problems, i know :/ i'm just on edge whenever this happens. the storm isn't expected until 6 pm i believe but it's always so eerie when the sky turns yellow before it starts. i hate it.
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i hate when people tell me i need to forgive and forget. how about i shove a fucking knife through your head.
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sorry to my friends but my phone has been so full of photos of clouds and flowers that all my messaging apps offloaded and stopped working so i deleted them (to make more room for flower&cloud photos) and tbh my phone has been sooo quiet and notif free and i feel so at peace. im getting a nokia and a regular camera after this im done with smart phones that are also evil
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