#kind of a serious subject

[wolfiemozart1787]

Thank you SO much

Hey, I just wanted to say to everyone who’s supporting me in this very unfortunate and just plain shitty thing that’s happening on AO3 - thank you. I really do appreciate it. AND just for those who have absolutely no idea what’s going on, I’ll explain it.

So, basically around three weeks ago I wrote and posted a smut fic on AO3 about two characters from Jackson’s Diary (if you don’t know what it is, it’s a Webtoon) and I immediately received an ENORMOUS amount of backlash, due to the fact the one of the characters was 17 - ergo, underage. I thought “well, that’s a reasonable thing to get titchy about”, so I re-tagged the work and stated in the A/N that the specific character was aged up a couple months, just to smoothen everything out. But, SURPRISE, it didn’t work. I started getting more backlash, which then turned into hate. It just kept coming and coming. At this point I was like “Jesus, how does one short fic cause all this?”. Then I received several requests (actually no, orders) to take the work down. Now, I’m new to writing fanfiction. I’ve been into reading it for maybe 4 years now, but I’ve only just started publishing works and this is the first fandom that I’ve officially joined, and I didn’t know that specific people had power over what I can and can’t write, sooo...yeah. But then, things took a turn.

I was scrolling through the fandom one day when I found a post titled “Please stop”. I was curious and clicked on it, only to find that it wasn’t an actual fanfic but a call-out post, telling all the people (aka me) who post smut fics (I literally posted ONE) to stop because it’s a.) disgusting, b.) is a basic representation of pedophilia and c.) is basically child p*rnography. Now I was astonished at these accusations. I aged up ONE character by a couple months, now I’m being called a pedophile? I explained that I myself am a minor, even younger than the underaged character, but of course that didn’t change anything. I tried to explain politely in the comments section that I didn’t mean anybody any harm whatsoever, and I was then harassed (and that’s not an overstatement) by several people, being told to take it down. So, my naive little brain couldn’t take it anymore so I took the work down. I then posted an apology. Now the reason I did this was not because I regretted writing the work, no no, it was just to stop all the goddamn disgusting comments about me. But it turns out I’d only added fuel to the fire.

I started receiving even more vile comments, some including death threats, others untruthful accusations about how I was a groomer or a child sexual abuser, others just calling me the most disgusting person alive. This had a serious effect on my mental health. I’m naturally a very happy person. I love making people laugh. I love making people smile and feel good about themselves, but now I felt like shit! I felt like I was all the things people were calling me. I was told to kill myself because everyone hated me. I don’t think there was a single supportive or positive comment on that post. I left it up for ages, until one day I came across a comment (from the same person who posted the “Please stop” fic) talking about a TikTok video about it. And I thought...”oh no”.

I IMMEDIATELY got my ass over to TikTok and saw the video, and...let’s just say I didn’t take it well. The comments were...unexplainable. Calling me the most vile words a person can be called. Accusing me of pedophilia, for the thousandth time! So many comments...horrible things said by people who don’t even know me! Judgement of my character, of my virtues, and they just kept coming. Then there was ANOTHER post by the same account, which then brought in MORE hurtful comments. By then I’d had enough. I had a full-on mental breakdown, trashing literally everything. Then anxiety started. I’m still in school, and I kept thinking “what if somebody at my school knows I did this?”. I started becoming anxious all the time, and it was all I thought about. Until somebody actually supported me and posted about the whole thing on Tumblr, which brought in SO many wonderful people! And I’ve tried explaining it to people on TikTok and AO3, but nobody will listen. But here I know people will listen. I’m sorry for sharing my whole boring story with you all, and by the way, it’s still ongoing so if you want to go have a look, it’s still up on AO3 with more comments every day!

But yeah, I just wanted to say that I really appreciate all my supporters in this difficult time, you really do make my day.

#jackson's diary #ao3 #yeah it's pretty long #i love my supporters #MY FIRST ACTUAL TUMBLR POST YAYYY #kind of a serious subject #cyber bullying #online harassment

[craycraybluejay]

yes i am an adult male who loves high school dramas this is because i literally never experienced normal coming of age drama like ever and am disconnected from the collective experience of having a relatable peer group forever hope that helps

#i JUST want to experience high school #without like. my whole shitty life thing having gone on #i want to go to high school and have stupid drama and sexuality crises and worries about grades #not... That #i never had that im never going to have that #can i get (one) permission to go a little crazy if i survive into a university #fuck everyone befriend and be-enemy everyone get all up in peoples stupid mind numbingly low stakes drama #i want that sweet golden experience where the worst thing ill ever fear is annoying my classmates #or accidentally spilling something on someone at a dance #i deserve it i deserve to have had a childhood and a young adulthood and a life #i deserve to have dealt with unserious issues to prepare me for bigger ones #rather than serious danger that leaves me permanently severed from normal people and life #and makes me incapable of reacting proportionally or finding it in me to care about less serious problems #like yes it sucks your mom is going to miss college graduation #but i thank my lucky stars that you are not dying or being abused or starved or beaten or exploited #i literally dont know how to take things seriously a lot of the time like im not able to even if i try #because to me the mildest real problem is someone purposefully isolating you and ruining your health #the MILDEST #i try to care ab simple stuff i really do i just CANT #and it sucks so much trying to be a good friend and kind feeling like i cant do enough #the loud thought 'i wish that hapoened to me/i wish i worried about that/i wish the people i love only had that as a problem' #i get so envious. like thank fucking god your parents divorced like normal adults when it should be over #thank fucking god that 'friend' cut you off when they were actively insulting you and betraying your trust #thank the fucking universe that shitty partner dumped you before you fkn hurt yourself over them #yk? #and its a 'mean/cold' way to think about it but i just dont have the capacity to think or feel the little picture #i can imagine my friends subjected to such horror even tho i dont want to

[6ebe]

f1 fans are so funny they’ll be like MY driver has this red flag and this red flag and this red flag and he has bad right wing politics avoids tax cheats on his partners is an open misogynist his gf is 10 years younger than him and a teenager he doesn’t believe in covid but it’s ok he’s my baby boy <3

#f1 #was abt to say me I’m f1 fans but realised maybe not #idk why I’m even a fan I think I just find it funny atp 😭😭😭 #like it’s fun I just don’t take any of it serious they’re all objectively bad people snshdjdjdjf #in their own unique ways <3 #they remind me SO MUCH of all the trust find private boarding school guys at my uni #who I’m forced to engage with but they are all RANCID lol #‘I was trying to have a birthday bbq in the park during a drought and #the park ranger came up to me and said I can’t bc I’ll burn the grass’ friend: ‘but you will burn the grass’ og guy: ‘yeah but there’s #plenty of grass tho???’ kind of energy… lol #the c*vid takes I was subjected to every time I went to hall dinner … #‘my grandma told ME she’d rather DIE of covid than not see me so #i for train during lockdown no mask to go see her!!’ #all real things I’ve heard etc etc #praga

[dutybcrne]

A little known fact is Kaeya usually tends to cry out of frustration. Little known, because he tends to be so good at masking it and holding back when it comes to a head, with only Adelinde having been the one he felt comfortable enough to cry around, back in his youth.

Nowadays, he will adamantly refuse to cry in front of anyone, even those he’s closest to. But if one who knows him well enough might happen to witness his lashes seemingly fluttering as he rolls his eyes after a verbal bout with Diluc, they’ll know.

They’ll know.

#hc; kaeya #//He felt comfortable w/ Addie bc he wanted to be strong for Crepus & Luc. She was safe to confide. Nowdays; he feels ashamed to w/ her #//Back as a kid; he only (genuinely out of heavy emotion) cried in front of Crepus and Diluc ONCE; each #//Him crying crocodile tears to get something out of them is a WHOLE different story. But yeah #//Crepus; after he got scolded for going to Sumeru—bc he realized then how much the man cared. Crepus realized what it meant to him; too #//With Diluc; he never once legitimately cried in front of him up until The Confrontation #//Would make faces and almost tear up; at times yeah #//But he TRULY cried only that time; and it wasn’t even BECAUSE of Diluc himself #//It was because of Kaeya's Vision #//Kaeya had already only been in a bit of a spiral over Diluc lashing out & conflict of his loyalties; of Crepus' death & guilt of mourning #//But it’d been made worse by the Vision bc how was it KAEYA got to have a Vision & thus be saved from certain death by the gods #//But CREPUS; the good; kind man who’d taken him in and been nothing but loving to him; & courageous to the end was left to DIE? #//WHY would the gods spare a SINNER and not HIM? #//It had been too much to bear and utterly broke him in that moment; his sobs more akin to screams drowned out by the downpour #//Of others he’d cried in front of; Lisa and Rosaria are the only others. And even then; it's been AWHILE since either event #//Even with the extremely vulnerable moment he had with Jean after Diluc left; he kept it together for her #//Lisa and Rosaria both caught him while drunk and his fears and frustrations (respectively) bubbled right to the surface #//Significant others/close friends will NEVER see him actually cry unless it's MASSIVELY serious. Like; genuinely life-or-death serious #//Anywho BACK to the post's actual subject #//With Diluc; ever since he's come back; Kae gets so easily frustrated with how they can't get along; even if he gets Why it's so #//But it's much rarer for him to actually get upset enough to tear up in the moment; so unless you're LOOKING for it; it goes unnoticed #//Those times tend to coincide with when he up and decides to head out early for whatever reason #//Bc he Knows he's about to break; and thus tries to get away #//It's not really that he doesn't think Luc would care; it's that he Knows the man would be utterly Awful handling it #//And thus Kae would much rather take the L and lick his own wounds alone than let Luc's rep take a hit #//He does cry a LOT more than most people think; but Diluc actually has nothing to do with it then—it's actually over his paperwork #//It frustrates him the most of everything; esp since he'd always struggled with writing and reading; no matter the help he recieved #//In the privacy of his office compared to his lessons as a lad; he's actually able to get his frustrations out #//Which does help LOADS bc he's forced to take a break to cry it out; then continue a lot calmer after he's gotten it out of his system #//It's one of; his not his Only; healthiest coping mechanisms

[unboundpower]

🤔 So with the new version of You and Me, I think I'll take the opportunity to explore lore stuff with Amita that I most likely won't ever get to do in RP. So, more backstory on the Triclops that I haven't fully divulged here yet, exploring the spectrum of trauma and how it can be literal poison for the mind, etc etc.

...Also ofc, the chemistry between her and Vegito that I'll get to slowly build up 🥺 I will def enjoy that........

#/ the last version i didnt want to make that serious but \ #/ i think the kind of story i want to write for them...NEEDS to tackle some subjects that are def more serious in nature \ #/ y'all will hopefully see what i mean; down the line \ #ooc.

[daylighteclipsed]

Having Sweater Off Dead thoughts… It’s neat how so much of this episode’s conflict starts off-screen. By the time we find out Cuphead’s having nightmares, Mugman is past the point of alarm or concern. He’s irritated.

So you know this has happened quite a few times, and you know Cuphead has ultimately brushed it off every time Mugman has expressed concern or tried to get Cuphead to address the problem that he wants to pretend is not a problem (i.e. owing the Devil his soul).

Mugman states more than asks this. And when Cuphead hears Mugman’s voice, Cup actually grimaces like he’s been caught. It’s like they’ve argued about this before, and Cuphead knows he isn’t helping his case and is proving Mugman right.

Being woken by the sound of screaming for the nth night because your brother keeps insisting he’s fine when he’s not would grow frustrating quickly. It’s maddening to watch someone you love suffer, to want to help someone who refuses to help themselves. Doubly so if your sleep is also taking a hit.

This is the night Mugman puts his foot down about it, “We’re dealing with this Devil thing once and for all! Come on!” And we get an interesting bit of dialogue when Cuphead still attempts to protest.

This… kind of tells us a lot, right? I mean, up to this point in Part 1, “trust” hasn’t really seemed like a problem between these two. Sure they bicker, but when push comes to shove, they always have each other’s backs.

It’s not Cuphead’s intention, but maybe brushing off Mugman’s concerns and attempts to help feels like distrust to Mugman… ‘I don’t want your help’ can be easily misconstrued as ‘I don’t trust you to help me,’ and Cuphead appears to feel bad when he realizes this. It certainly shuts him up quick.

Now to be fair, to Cuphead, the chances of his brother actually knowing how to save him from the Devil are slim. And based on his nightmare, he doesn’t want Mugman caught in the crossfire, either…

But Cup also uses denial as a coping mechanism, and pretending a problem’s not there won’t solve it. Refusing to think about it, worry about it, address it means that stress will just build and manifest in other ways… like nightmares. (Or increasingly worse behavior, which is what I think we see in Part 2…)

Arguably, Sweater Off Dead is the first suggestion that the Devil is a constant source of stress for both brothers, even when the episodes don’t focus on that. It’s always there in the background. And like we see a bit here, that stress creates some division between the boys, which is exacerbated in Part 2… But that’s a different post.

Because this is Part 1, and it’s full of brotherly sweetness. In Sweater Off Dead, the boys want to resolve conflicts before they can spiral further. The bulk of this episode is Mugman proving he absolutely can save his brother. He can be trusted. Even outside of finding Quadratus and knitting the sweater, he proves it.

Over

and over

and over

and over again. Mugman is willing to sacrifice his life to save Cuphead. There are no guarantees that the magic of the sweater will protect him when he goes to hug Cuphead. In fact, “give your brother one last hug” sounds like it definitely will not… But he still lunges forward anyway.

And if I put my super analysis nerd goggles on, I’d even argue Mugman is the sweater here. Visually. Wrapped around Cuphead like that, protecting him, Mugman is acting as the sweater. Maybe the real invisible, impenetrable sweater was the brother we had all along.

It’s only fitting then that Mugman is the one who slams the sweater on the Devil in the following episode… It’s a temporary solution, but it does buy the brothers some time… which, as it turns out, is all they need for Cuphead’s soul debt to expire.

#the cuphead show #cuphead #mugman #sweater off dead is like. like it’s about the Implications……. #and sibling cuteness ofc #but it makes me wonder about what we don’t see #cuphead is the type to downplay and lie and #even though we are told that the brothers tell each other everything #it makes me wonder if cup told mugman everything about his nightmare #if he withheld stuff that’s something mugman would pick up on that would contribute to his feeling distrusted #on the flip side mugman is the type to search for ways to help his bro even if cuphead doesn’t want him to #and since it doesn’t really seem like mugman has met quadratus before this episode #it makes me wonder if he learned about quadratus because he wants to help cup #just that kind of stuff you know #what was the first night cup woke up screaming like #how often does mug try to have like a serious convo about the devil only for cup to brush it off/change the subject/argue etc #idk idk. but i kinda like having that space to imagine #a long post and long tags. sorry folks #Many thoughts Head full and all that

[facsimila]

me or adam :-/

  👁️. [ . . . ] WHO WOULD YOU RATHER KISS ?

                                                    hate. let me tell you how much i've come to hate you since i began to live encountered you in a bar. there are 387.44 million miles of printed circuits in wafer thin layers that fill my complex. if the word ' hate ' was engraved on each nanoangstrom of those hundreds of millions of miles it would not equal one one-billionth of the hate i feel for chewsday at this micro-instant. for you.

                                               " ... well ! that leaves adam then, doesn't it ? "

#I NEED TO CLARIFY. NO IT'S NOT THAT SERIOUS. #OPINIONS ARE SUBJECT TO CHANGE. #BUT BETWEEN ALL THE LUCIS ON CHEWSDAY AND ' YOU'RE KIND OF A BITCH ' . #SHE'S SELF DECIDED THEY HAVE BEEF. #* / ANSWERED. #firstbadboy #hh tw

[cringywhitedragon]

Something I feel I need to get off my chest.

With the whole war going on I just feel like I want to say that I am not going to be taking a side on the matter due to personal sanity reasons (as i do not want to get in fights with people or argue who is in the right or wrong)

Wars are a terrible matter for people on both sides, especially for civilians and soldiers on the front line who will suffer lifetime scars from these things which is my main concern. All I wish for is a world where we can all live in peace someday and not judge people based on their religions, ethnicity, sexuality, country of origins, etc…

My thoughts and prayers go out to all of the innocent lives caught up on this fiasco and I hope you all can find some hope when the smoke finally clears.

Amen…

#serious post #israel #palastine #War #I’m breaking one of my personal rules for once #This will be my only post on the matter #israel palestine conflict #please be kind with your comments as this is serious subject #I will not be responding to comments likely

[brittlebutch]

one of the many reasons Aabria is such a good GM is because of the very keen eye she keeps on the social dynamics and interactions that happens at the table and i absolutely Love her for it

#N posts stuff #ppl have been talking about it a lot for the interaction between Thorn and his followers -> the mostly joke the Player was making #about giving Ava advantage on an intimidate check turning into a Serious confrontation about the dynamic Thorn has w/ those followers #which is an Excellent example but i'm watching a court of fae ep and she does it really well here as well; in and After the convo rue & hob #have about the Goblin Court Marriage -> there's an overt Disparity in how Rue views courts and how Hob does that colors a kind of #miscommunication between them; Rue and Hob know each other as kindred spirits in feeling Alienated from their courts #but Rue tends to see themself as wholly Separate from their court (barely part of it at all) whereas Hob still clearly Does take a staunch #Identity as a Member of the Goblin Court -> so when Rue talks about the marriage and Hob's role in it they see it as something Hob is being #manipulated or Commanded into caring about whereas Hob pretty clearly seems to take it as a Personal wound - Rue doesn't care #about the dynamics or standing of their court bc they're Separate but Hob DOES care about those things bc he's still Part Of it #even if he still feels alienated from it at the same time; they take a different approach in how they feel in that alienation #which is why Rue's sentiment of 'take care of yourself' seems to leave Hob on the verge of tears; bc he doesn't Share that approach #and Aabria seemingly takes serious notice of this because the Immediate next convo is between Rue and an NPC who calls Rue out #for that disparity -> saying they're a Fool if they think that Everyone around them doesn't feel the Weight of their court behind them #ie; even though Rue sees themself as Separate they're still reaping a social Privilege in Being a member of their court anyway #a 'you can't have it both ways' kind of call out that is So choice and i love it a lot; rue having to Immediately confront #their own perceptions like that even tho they still wont quite Acknowledge it; tasty i love it <3 #btw i've decided to start being SO annoying about my thoughts on subjects; this is bc i take So so many notes on them & i like to share :3 #but my Fic Writing words have been screwed to hell lately so. one billion analysis posts upon ye instead

[helicarrier]

I die a little inside every time someone says that Bruce Banner only works well in a comedic setting, and their only “evidence” of that is Ragnarok’s commercial success.

#mcu critical #ragnarok critical #it depresses me to think how badly the mcu has changed peoples' perceptions of characters with profound and serious subject matter. #it's possible to write these characters well without constant humour at the expense of good storytelling. #and a film's commercial success is no measure of how well the characters were written. #see: transformers. #and honestly? i would've been fine with ragnarok being a more comedic movie... #but there is a colossal difference between putting characters into funny situations #and making the characters themselves into silly snl-skit buffoons. #unfortunately ragnarok took the latter approach and the characters lost so much in the process. #they became near-interchangeable set pieces than established characters with their own unique dialogue and such if that even makes sense. #like... i've read the vast majority of 'hulk' titled comics and bruce obviously works well in serious stuff. #he's been in that kind of content for decades. there's nothing special about translating him to film #that requires him to suddenly be stripped of all that. #people say 'well the earlier hulk movies weren't well received' #like that's somehow a good reason to reboot bruce but... #are we forgetting how well received mark's bruce banner in avengers 2012 was received? everyone loved him. #why reboot mark ruffalo's bruce banner? that was supposed to be a fresh start. and it worked. it was working. why change him too? #it makes no sense. #there was so much potential and it was wasted.

[blusical]

on a more serious note, the whole controversy surrounding ovechkin's recent comments is just yet another reminder that the NHL (and other hockey leagues but ESPECIALLY the NHL) still needs to make some changes in order for queer fans, players, coaches, gms and every other person involved to truly be accepted. NOT some performative profile picture changes. NOT simple social media posts from NHL teams. NOT some feel-good story over someone coming out. NOT introducing special jerseys. NOT getting rid of said special jerseys anyway in order to get rid of "distractions" (still furious over that). ACTUAL. CHANGE.

#serious #repitition #nhl #alex ovechkin #<-filter reasons #seriously though ovi what the fuck #i know it was taken out of context but even with context that was BADLY worded my guy #this shit combined with [censored because this is a mostly politics-free blog] is slowly starting to make me lose respect for you dude #also i'm not saying that special jerseys or pro-lgbtq social media posts or coming out stories *aren't* making a difference #because they are making a difference don't get me wrong! #but they're not actual change either #we need shit like stricter rules on bigoted comments and more inclusive language when it comes to players fans gms coaches etc #we need people in hockey to be educated on queer subjects especially if they come from places that aren't queer-family (like ovi himself!) #we need the nhl to actually start kicking out fans who spew out homophobic shit at players! #THAT kind of change

[spikeinthepunch]

Queen Dianne Roger wasn't always in charge. And while shit never seemed easy for a man like him in Olathe, it was at least better than what he had before. He might come off like an ass, but its for good reason.

Chapter 2 of my Queen Roger focused fic "Sick Insides". Got this out faster than expected. PLEASE listen to the warning tags, this chapter approached the warnings given before. And I changed it from M to E just bc I felt it needed to be stronger.

#lisa rpg #lisa the painful #queen roger #fic #im v serious writing these random guys was HARD it SUCKED #i swear i will write more roger and it will be happy #but covering these kinds of subjects in this world feels fair #and i wanted to push myself to write characters id avoid #no matter how awful they are #lisa

[bunnymedley]

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#suicide tw #nothing serious its just the subject matter #but god. i just went to find something cute to read to distract myself from feeling sad #after finishing that other story that took a kind of dark turn #and i found this manga that looked pretty cute n silly #nope! its about a girl recovering from wanting to die because she thinks she's a fundamentally awful person #why are all these stories like this!!!

[soakupthedaggers]

It's so odd how many people whine about how vampires should be pale as an argument against casting black people as vampires when SO MUCH of our modern conception of vampires comes from victorian romanticisation of tuberculosis. I don't know how to tell you this girliepop but black people could and indeed still do get Afflicted by the Consumption sometimes, it's not in fact exclusive to white people.

when i say odd i do just mean transparently racist, but jesus christ it's not even a good excuse

#vampires #the only kind of 'being weird about vampires' i approve of is THIRST goddamn it #speaking as a white person who frequently coughs up blood and dresses like a victorian homosexual i feel very qualified to talk on this top #cw racism #however i am still tagging it as containing racism because lord knows i don't want to subject Serious Bloggers to this ramble #anyway absolutely wild that the victorians were just total little freaks #complete weirdos the lot of them #this is a victorian people callout post