#just pm anon

[startanewdream]

Hi Mah, I’ve noticed a lot of writers saying their fics aren’t being commented on or reblogged as much as they were before, and that it’s been discouraging. I can’t speak why for everyone but this is my story. I used to comment and reblog everything because I appreciated the hard work everyone put in. I got inspired to write a few fics of my own, hoping I would get the same support or even suggestions on ways I could improve my writing from all the writers I looked up to, but I got nothing. I spent hours and days writing, reading articles, and watching YouTube videos on how to improve your writing, but I never got one comment, like, kudos, or reblog from any of the writers I showed my support to. I started to notice people had their own little friend/support group and would reblog and comment on each other's posts or stories, but not the newer writers unless you were a phenomenal writer. If you weren’t worth their time, then you were unnoticed and not appreciated. It didn’t matter that you wrote long detailed comments on every single chapter of their story and reblogged their stories, hoping it would get more attention to help encourage them. You and one other blogger were the only ones that I got a comment from, and I ended up unfollowing everyone except for you and the other blogger. I stopped writing, deleted my stories on one of my low days, and unfollowed everyone but you and the other blogger. I stayed away from the Harry Potter community for a while. You two are the only ones I will take time out of my day to write comments for. I’ve read other stories, but I don’t comment on theirs unless it's by a new writer. I try to show encouragement and give suggestions in ways I wish I would have gotten them. I just wanted to say thanks, and I've come across some great new writers through your blog. I’ve been absent for a long time, but I’m back now. I hope things have changed and everyone is more supportive of one another. I don’t know if people are hesitant to help other writers but they take 5 minutes out of their day to read their stories and write two lines of encouragement or heck even a pm on ways you think the story could be improved, newbies will appreciate it more than you’ll ever understand. I just think if you want a little love then you need to show a little love too.

Hey, Anon. I went back and forth on how to answer this because yes, I understand it, but also... not?

I really don’t want to sound dismissive; I get it, writing takes time and effort, you put a piece of your heart there, and when people don’t seem to notice it, you take it personally. I've been there as, in a way, all who has ever posted their fan work have been. It’s shitty.

But you cannot control anyone else. If you are writing and posting because you want people to comment and engage; don’t. It will drive you mad, trust me, because there is no bar that will ever suffice. Write for your own joy... and read and review for your own joy.

If you want criticism, ask for it, send a pm to those who answer it. Join a discord. The review section in a fanfic is not the place for it, it would be just rude. And accept that sometimes there is no problem, no reason for why your fic is unnoticed; no one has ever cracked the code for what makes a fic popular, and honestly, I am glad for it. It’s cliche, but true: you are the only one who can write your stories.

Finally, I get the if you want love you need to offer some love, but also... it sounds entitled? Threatening? I am not sure. Fanfics are for free; they are supposed to be fun. When they stop being something that you can enjoy, what is the whole point?

I am sorry you didn’t feel your effort was appreciated. I hope that, despite everything else, you loved giving voice to the characters, crafting a scenario out of nowhere, and spinning words into something that was real and yours. I hope you stick around.

#the first fanfic I ever posted on ao3 got one comment and then nothing #the first fanfic I wrote after 10 years away from fandom got no reviews #i wrote a hundred thousand words and maybe one or two people were following #i got 23 views on each chapter and I was happy for it #and still i get the wish to write something everyone will enjoy #only i've also come to terms with the fact you cannot please everyone #and some people will simply ignore you for no good reason #the same way you will not read everything and you will not enjoy everything #and that's fine #that’s why you need to write first for yourself #and share for the one or two people who will make editing and posting worth it #i appreciate you one and you two person btw #and I am sorry I haven’t engaed much lately #I have felt at odds for a while now #so when it becomes too much I just take a break #because I cannot control anyone else but me :) #this is a messy post #just pm anon

[volumniafox]

Since the only way our fresh government managed to get rid of a literal nazi as a minister was when foreign press started taking notice... It would be a shame if some recent developments gained international attention :-)

#politics #finnish politics #jessikka aro is a finnish journalist who has done some incredible investigative journalism #about the way russia has used mis/disinformation and trolls to influence international politics #and has been the target of several harassment campaigns because of her work #the current smear campaign has been mainly aimed against a particular Iltalehti magazines journalist #who has written about the way our far-right wing party perussuomalaiset/true finns act in ways #that are detrimental to the freedom of press #the parties whose members have been participating in this are kokoomus (our current pm party #and the aforementioned perussuomalaiset #kokoomus has officially condemned these actions #while perussuomalaiset has not #also ill be turning anon off i have absolutely no interest in debating whether or not junnila 'was just joking'

[stuffeddeer]

i came across your blog a few days ago and all i could think of is deerlike/fawnlike darling 😭 someone who’s sensitive and shy, a bit vulnerable !! would go so well with any of the dazais omg

YOURE SO RIGHT imma delve into a few different variations :)

Deludedly obsessed Dazai would view your deer-like traits as something inherently weak. It’s something that makes you sensitive and ill-equipped for the cruel world he grew up in. Since he’s well versed in the cruelties of life, Dazai can make sure you stay safe, right? He takes it up as his job to look after you and keep you safe, remaining close at all times when he can be. If you work in the agency alongside him, he makes sure to pull you onto missions that he’s already leading or will pawn off whatever he’s working on to join yours. He works at the agency, sure, but his job is to look after you. If you find him scary, that's merely because of how many people must have been able to wrong you in the past! It's not like it's hard to, in fact, he could easily— no.

That's why he needs to protect you, to keep you away from people like himself. Oda would want him to help out the poor and defenseless, right? Even if you can't accept that yet, you'll understand in a matter of time. Or you won't, and Dazai will have to take more... drastic measures.

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Dazai who knows his obsession for you is wrong will start out thinking similar things — how easy you would be to manipulate (he hates that that’s his first thought), how much he should make sure to keep you safeguarded and out of harm’s way — but try to put a stop to it. If you work in an office job or something similar, he’ll be sure to remind himself that you’ve made it this far, and it’s not like you’ll be stumbling into trouble any time soon. To keep his mind from unraveling and his obsession and anxieties from worsening, he’ll follow you home after work under the blanketed night sky, reminding himself the whole time that you’re safe. And if anyone tries to harm you? …

He’d have such an urge to just keep you at his home, safe and away from the cruel outside, but he knows that’s wrong; Dazai knows how sad you’d be and while you’d have no way to fight back, he’d feel so guilty watching you break down in front of him. Looking after you is all he wants to do, including emotionally. But maybe feeling a little sad at the beginning is better than someone hurting you…

As much as he tries to fight it, Dazai knows you’d be better off staying by him all the time.

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Manipulative and harsh Dazai who gets some sick joy out of your timid demeanor. He’ll want to crush your spirit, prove that your invulnerability is nothing more than a weakness he intends to exploit. You work in some sort of cozy shop mainly by yourself (ie coffeehouse, flower shop, something cutesy) and it almost makes him sick - how can someone be so sweet and innocent? He wants that for himself and you make it far too easy to obtain. A few kind words and polite smiles and he knows he’s become your favorite customer, even if he never buys anything. He brings you a coffee one day out of the goodness of his heart and Dazai swears he sees hearts in your eyes. He builds up a rapport so quickly and smoothly you don’t notice the red flags (how he always seems to know your schedule, favorite coffee..) and dismiss your co-worker’s worries. There’s no way he could be so rude and flippant with them, it’s not in his nature!

And when you get fired after some anonymous customer continuously claimed you were horribly rude to them, Dazai was there to console you. You find yourself at his place much more often, spending time solely with him as your friends begin to ghost you. As thanks to the man who kept you afloat during all of this, you’d stay and help around Dazai’s apartment, cleaning up and bringing him food… and when he mentioned how lonely it gets, well, what kind of friend would you be if you didn’t stay the night? And the next one. And the next…

Once you’ve all but entirely been kidnapped moved in, Dazai reminds himself that the world out there is cruel. So, if you miss being outside so much, then he’ll gladly bring the harsh world to you.

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Possessive loser Dazai who doesn’t want your vulnerability and (as he views it) “pureness” tainted by someone else, but is happy just watching you stumble from afar. He swoops in during your date with a friend, dragging you out claiming that they were planning on hurting you! He just wants to keep you safe, don’t you understand that? And you do. You so pliantly nod as you thank him, letting out a sigh of relief that Dazai saved you yet again. How do you keep picking these horrible people?

One night, last minute, you went out with a few friends, and Dazai found out the next day. He spent all day avoiding you, angry beyond belief that you could be so stupid! Don’t you know they’re all the same?! He’s just trying to keep you safe! You’re so sensitive, so malleable; the last thing he wants is for some assholes to make you do something you don’t want to (never mind you saying you had fun). You apologize profusely, because of course you do: Dazai is your best friend.

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Port Mafia Dazai whose only basis for relationships comes from Mori and his ability. He knows it’s wrong, right? But when he sees you, so shy and easy to scare, his mind is made up: You are too good for the Mafia. He takes you back to his small shipping container and decides he’d be the one to take care of you, like Mori does with Elise. His paychecks begin to go towards frilly outfits and soft pajamas for his darling, expensive cakes he wants to see you try and the same kind of crayons he saw Elise forcing the Boss to buy a few days ago. You’re well pampered and still so shy and polite, which is why Dazai is so aggravated when you finally ask to feel the sun on your skin once more. He’s sacrificed so much to keep you happy and spoiled, but you still ask for more?…

…He buys you a big house away from Yokohama’s port with big glass walls for you to enjoy the sun.

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I imagine a more work-oriented or apathetic Port Mafia Dazai would be the only rendition that doesn’t treat you like a frail doll. Your vulnerable and shy side is cute, sure, but that can be a skill. He’d send you on missions to lure and attack like Kyouka or undercover, as no one expects such a shy person to be apart of the feared organization. He would spend his time training and mentoring you like Akutagawa, but he wouldn’t be nearly as harsh. You don’t have the ability and skills Akutagawa does, but you still should know basic self defense. Who knows? Maybe one day he’ll wrap you up in bandages and train you to follow in his footsteps.

#anon i dont know if you wanted like. animal hybrid reader or just shy reader so i just gravitated towards the latter! #can be kinda ambiguous ig? anyway #I LOVE ALL DAZAIS!!! #THEY ALL CAN DO WWHATEVER IDC IDC #i included some pm!dazai but i dnt rlly write 4 him so sorry if its bad lol #this got long but i wanted to include many dazais ! #i love himm yall get it #if this isnt what you wanted anon im sorry 😭 im new to taking rqs! #🦌anon #🦌request #possessive loser dazai is aromantic to me btw.. #bungou stray dogs x reader #bungo stray dogs x reader #bsd x reader #bsd scenarios #dazai osamu #dazai x reader #dazai bsd #bsd imagines #bsd x gender neutral reader #dazai imagines #yandere dazai osamu #yandere dazai osamu x reader #yandere dazai x reader #yandere drabble #yandere bungou stray dogs #yandere bsd #yandere bungo stray dogs #yandere bsd x reader #yandere bungo stray dogs x reader

[kaeyx]

i’m not a guy but ik you are so I’m trying to make this ask as gender neutral as possible

pmzai who acts like the stereotypical horny teenage boy, but 10x worse,, in his time in the pm he was not exposed to a lot of female or afab figures in general, so they seem almost like a holy grail to him. to him so much as touching boobs is only a fantasy, until he realized how into him you were. he’s so desperate to feel your body, to touch you, to feel you wrapped around his cock, it’s all he wants. he stares at the ceiling of shipping container as he lays in bed at night, not even jerking off but just thinking about how different and perfect your body is. pmzai is so perverted about it too,, and probably asks really intrusive questions without knowing how bad he sounds. it doesn’t matter if it’s guy, he just wants to touch some tits

-pmzai anon

Honestly I've been rotating this one around in my brain for a WHILE bc just. Yes. (written with a nb/transmasc reader in mind, implying they bind and are on hrt)

First off I would give him my tits after I got top surgery I bet I can convince the surgeon to let me pickle them and take them home.

He doesn't have time for any of that + I don't see as many women in the PM as there should be so yeah, his contact with afab bodies is pretty limited. When he hits teen age his body changes and he starts taking more notice of other people, especially the ones his age. You and Chuuya are prime candidates of course. Chuuya, so lean and lithe, pale and freckled and scarred with hair like fire, who's so effortlessly pretty it's unfair. He's seen Chuuya half naked before, when they swim in the canals or when he gets injured during a mission.

And you, who look... different. The first time Dazai sees you forgo your binder he can't help but stare, until you snap him out of it. It doesn't change anything really, except how he pictures you when he's alone in his container at night. Sometimes when it's especially cold he dreams of you and Chuuya, cuddled up to him and keeping him warm. And he dreams of feeling your soft breasts pressed against his back while you hug him, face pressed against his hair.

He doesn't think about your cock pressing into him anymore, he dreams of your cunt instead. Would it be soft? Tight? Dazai bets it would be divine, but the porn and the trashy romance books haven't helped him at all, he doesn't know what to expect.

And of course asks all sorts of incredibly inappropriate questions. First Mori because of course, and once he has a grasp of all the changes you're going through he goes to you for specifics. Where are you growing hair? Do you have a moustache yet? Is it true you have a dick now? He'd be fascinated by the dick part. Would almost force you to explain it to him and then fantasize about sucking you off, your chubby little cock fitting so perfectly in his mouth.

#asks.answered #dazai.bsd #dazai x reader #dazai smut #pm!dazai #pmzai anon #aaaa sorry you went through the trouble to make it neutral and i just gendered it again #I'm hurting for trans xreader stuff tbh

[baronessblixen]

gillovny reunion!!! i think we all could use sweet news like this one ✨

Yes!! I mean we might not get a picture of them. We probably won't. But it sounds like they will for sure meet up and that alone makes me happy.

#lovely anons #i miss them so much #did they miss each other too? #i love their friendship whatever relationship they have #they're so precious to me #i wouldn't even care if they took a pic with pm and mp in it too #i just wanna see them together again #it has been three years for fuck's sake

[i3utterflyeffect]

Crack ava au, rocket corp is r corp...

i had to consult with google to remember which one that is but...... yeah no that actually sounds legit i think that could be an au. if victim can duplicate themself then why not <3

#i admittedly cannot say much about this on the pm side of things because i am not the pm fan my friend is #but i do like that idea.... it would be neat and also kind of fucking terrifying #i would NOT want to run into a version of primal or ballista that literally killed all of their clones to become the best mercs out there #fuck that shit i'd just turn myself in LSKLKGJSGKDSGL #pitch posts #tommy's stickmen tag #not sure if this is mystic in disguise. last time i accused an anon of being mystic it ended up being someone ENTIRELY different dklgjslkdg #i still think about that incident btw. so fucking funny

[kingofthering]

one thing about me is I'm literally allergic to conflict and unnecessary drama and I will never answer anons who try to disagree with me or be mean about my faves and I don't understand why someone would lose their times in asks that are going to be deleted the moment I read them

#like this is my place to relax and have fun #I get to be delusional about my faves it's the whole point of this website #that tony anon had to be about my tony podium post #and I didn't tag this with anything so you had to be on my blog to see it #which just makes things worse #pms is hitting so I'm over sensitive but let's play nice #what if cheering for tony last year was FUN #and that it was okay to do it WHILE being realistic about acosta getting the title #anyway

[the-teddy-bear-butch]

Hi how are you? Ask game time!

16, 47, 65 & 93?

:)

Hi anon!! I’m doing wonderfully rn! God bless the end of finals and the upcoming summer break. How are you? (Should you feel comfortable enough to reply, of course! I don’t bite :3) Thank you for giving me a chance to ramble :3 um. 16 got long so it’s at the bottom 🥰

47: how well-decorated is your bedroom?

That depends! If you mean well decorated as in how much decoration, yes, lots! Well as in nice/aesthetic um? I like it, but I know my maximalist style can be a Lot for some people LMAO. I have posters and D&D art everywhere, a rainbow carpet, Christmas lights strung through my bookshelf, knick knacks everywhere, etc.

65: do you have a Signature Outfit™?

Oh yes absolutely. Or at least a signature formula: graphic t-shirt under matching button up, jeans or shorts, maybe a cap or beanie. Here’s my favorite button up and jeans just for sillies :3

93: favorite game?

In an every context possible way (board game vs video game vs ttrpg), D&D, hands fucking down. But in terms of video games, I adore the Mass Effect series. No other video game series has made me cry quite so much. Baldur’s Gate 3 is a close second, though I am still in Act 3.

16: is there anyone you're not biologically related to that you consider "family"?

ABSOLUTELY. In fact, why don’t I tag those of them that exist here as an excuse to be a huge fucking sap about it and so you all can go follow them. (Uh. This gets long, so adding a read more thing. I get sappy after 10 pm oopsies)

While I am no longer in the fandom that brought us all together (nor are most of them), I do have to thank that fandom for being what put us all in one place. One beta reading comment left on a fic inspired me to finally pick up D&D again after years of failed campaigns—and we’ve been going strong near a year and a half now. This D&D group is fucking everything to me. These people have been with my through the lowest points of my life and I owe everything to them. Not only are they all talented in art, writing, poetry, and the many things they do, but they are all absolutely incredible people and the best friends I ever could have asked for. One little comment genuinely changed my life.

@daughterofdrearburh is one of the coolest people in the world. She’s smart as a whip, hilarious as fuck, and one of the kindest hearts I’ve ever met. If you get the chance, you should bug her about her novel (I am the number one Starblossom fan) and about her horse, Ginger, who she has made incredible strides with. I admire her a lot. Also about her homebrew/framkensteined together TTRPG she’s running, because it’s a fucking blast!!

@ninthhousesteel was actually the first of the gang that I was mutuals with!! She’s also incredibly funny (probably the most hilarious person I know, seriously they pop out of fucking nowhere with one liners that’ll leave you in stitches). She’s so fucking smart and doing incredible things in engineering (I may not understand it, but I know they’re going to do great things), as well as being a great artist and wonderful writer. Also? Incredible taste in music, frankly. Another thing to bug them about!

@haaawaiianshirt is like. I don’t even know where to start. The best personality ever. She’s funny, outgoing, unbelievably sweet, with just the right amount of bite! She’s like summertime personified, just warm and the best to be around. You can’t help but smile. Add onto that the most delicious art style and an incredible talent for so many different crafts (ask her about crochet beast!!). They’re going to be famous one day for being behind the set design of all your favorite theme parks and theme park rides.

@candle-lion is so COOL. I genuinely look up to her so so so much. Again with the super funny (literally can’t breathe with this group, you will be in stitches). One of the most talented writers I’ve ever had the pleasure of reading, an incredible DM, master at roleplay and making characters you can’t help but fall in love with, as a player or a DM. I admire everything she does in teaching—she is exactly the kind of teacher that our world is in desperate need of. She’s going to change lives, I just know it.

@lavenderlevetan where Emmie is summertime, Eve is autumn. She’s so unbelievably chill, a breath of fresh air to be around, a warm mug of tea of a person, if you catch my drift. She’s so sweet and so smart and sooo wonderful to hang out with, with possibly the most lovely laugh ever. Her writing is immaculate, and god I just LOVE the way she builds characters. You can’t help but be sucked into their inner workings. And yet another incredible artist!!

@suwunnysideup the master storyteller. I have never met someone with such a skill for weaving together stories and characters in such a beautiful web that you can’t help but be starstruck. Seriously, the world building is insane and so in depth, you can see how much they really care. They’re a fucking riot and my best fucking friend. Once again, another insanely talented artist, I need to shake their art like a chew toy. Ask them about carpe diem :3

And last but not least, while not an active PC in our main campaign, the group would not be complete without @avocadosockz . Our resident meme maker, comedian, character arc instigator, beloved guest star NPC, and best audience in the world—while also joining our side campaign as the funniest possible character choice in the world (ask her about Sadie!). Another amazingly supportive person who I appreciate with all of my heart, I love bouncing evil ideas off of her in DMs to enact upon the rest of the party. Excited for our next little scheme >:3

That’s the D&D group covered but I’m not done, if you would believe it. I will take every single chance to be a complete sap about my friends.

More people I met through fandom! I haven’t talked to them as much in recent months, which I’m terribly guilty about, they are all incredible people. @lionydoorin is a wonderful artist and a super sweet person, someone you can always rely on. They’re going to med school and I know they’re going to be fucking amazing in their field. @idyllghost is another rad artist and one of my first really good friends here in Tumblr! He’s so sweet, so funny, and so good at poetry and writing too. An artistic genius in so many ways.

@whiteredrose13 is possibly my oldest internet friend. I think we’re going on?? 5+ years now? Which isn’t much compared to some of y’all, but it’s a lot to me. Rose is one of the kindest, most supportive people in the entire world. She’s so unbelievably patient, listening to me ramble on and on about my D&D campaign and my unfinished writings. Speaking of, because I’m literally surrounded by talent, they are yet another insanely wonderful artist AND writer, with an incredible world and the most lovable OCs ever. Gabe and Ana and their entire family will always live rent free in my brain 🫶

And a special shout-out to the one irl friend who has stuck by me through everything 🫶 Elaina is so kind, so funny, so fucking smart, the best taste in music, one of my favorite people to talk for hours with. I wish we hung out more :,) (Side note, Em I’m realizing the two of you are like two sides of the same coin and would get along so we’ll probably)

If I forgot anyone, know that you are loved in equal measure, I am simply sleepy and functioning on post finals brain fry 🫶

#god #um dont ask me to talk about non blood family after 10 pm #you will activate the sappiest part of my heart and get word vomited at #hey guys I love you so much #you make my life so so so much better #you have changed my life for the better #you’ve probably saved it too #you should go follow all of these people they’re so cool #I should go to sleep now #I literally teared up writing this #idk how to emphasize just how dear you all are to me #in any case uh #hi anon #thank you for the asks :3 #and letting me be a big fucking sap :3 #ask game

[keroronpa]

so you're telling me you sat and drew that splatfest concept, posted it, and saw no issue with it whatsoever

if youd like to elaborate on this thatd be awesome otherwise yeah. plus i had witnesses

#like if theres a genuine problem with it ill take it down but the post wasnt meant to escape my group of friends like at all #edit also oops didnt realize anon was on again thats going off i dont remember turning that back on #anyways anon just pm me if you ever follow up on this

[oifaaa]

are you enjoying watching the uk government collapse again cause if i didn't have a 9am class tomorrow i would be watching the news live with a beer

You know I was beginning to get skeptical thinking maybe liz was gonna hang in there just long enough to outlast that lettuce but after tonight this lettuce might as well call it now

#Ask #Anon #Tho my god if they actually put Boris back in charge #It's actually so depressing #They know if they call a general election rn they'll lose #So they're just gonna bounce the pm spot between them all like a game of volleyball #Which like fuck them

[novadreii]

Someone, please tell me that things get better when they're hard. Tell me that tough times don't last but tough people do. Tell me it's going to be okay. Tell me sike. I am so tired.

#personal #pms preferred #anons too if you're shy #i cannot go into great detail i'm afraid out of respect for people's privacy #i just need a kind word or two from someone i haven't yet overburdened #this site has connected me with the most amazing people over the years #so i shout into the tumblr void for anyone who can spare some bandwidth and a little support #i can offer the same when you need #if you like adhd ramblers who give as much advice as they like to get then thatsa me #<3 #sos #anxiety

[cryingforcrocodiles]

gennnn are you still watching ac? miss u liveblogging about it

yes always. til i die. just with school stuff. alsays the oddest times or jst not in the mood. im watching less football IN GENERAL :( and i have a new ting called a social life... fuckin blasphemy. but yes i will find time n live laugh love milan once again.

#i dont think my gf will appreciate me canceling our date 4 ac milan football 3:45 pm EST #😭😭😭 lowk i woukd just watch with her but She hates watching live sports fr. #so funny lowk #hey babe ik i said i wanted to watch around in a park with you while its cold as shit but im cancelling. ac milan is playing :( #anon asks #ty for ask anon 🙏🏿🩶🩶 #*walk around

[butmakeitgayblog]

Where do you thirsty ass hoes (affectionate) find these ADC crumbs of content and black market workout videos?

Babe Alycia fans have picked her out of the background in a grainy ass phot of like 30 people. Someone called that she'd be in the loo finale because they recognized her laugh in the background of a video one of the cast posted (I'm not finding the vid but it does exist). Like,,, do not test Alycia fans we track a cryptid out here 🥴😂

#anon #pm everyone better at it than me I just catch the main posts usually #some people are dedicated and I appreciate them so much

[anarchy-and-piglins]

Go the fuck to sleep. Your fiction is good but it's not worth missing sleep over 🦝

Can't sleep, must write whump

#/j #I did sleep 7 hours #just from 6 am to 1 pm lol #asks #racoon anon

[skunkg1rll]

🦨💭

#i think maybe he got upset... #because he tried talking to me on anon and i was volatile and didn't appreciate what was said from a stranger #maybe. i am not 100% it was him though i really don't know. but it could've been #OR it was because i was having a mental breakdown #and was also seeing a lot of articles and stuff about men raping their girlfriends #and i was feeling so scared of the world #and i was alone and everything felt so dark #so i spiraled and was just being scared and vented #plus i was having pms which always makes me feel x100 worse #so maybe those posts hurt him? #idk idk.. #i just wish ... i wish he could know that #he is the one i want and trust and love and feel safe and comfortable with him #i *know* that i would be safe with him #i wish he could see inside my brain and heart #but i don't even know what he feels for me because we don't talk about anything like that #he has left me alone to cry and hurt several times now #i just wish he would tell me when why and what i did so i could know #now im alone and dont know and he isn't replying and i wanna die #maybe i hurt him in a way i don't deserve to know. maybe i should've known better? #idk anymore #all i know is that im here begging him to talk to me but he isnt replying and he isnt telling me what i did #and i cant force him #all i can do is keep crying alone and hope i fall asleep

[mayasdeluca]

Istg we better get a good marina sex scene in the 10pm slot I swear if we get every couple except for them I'm gonna be so pissed off. Chances are most of the sex scenes go to ross and Sullivan which no one wants to see more of we had enough of that last season or j*ck bashing his teeth into some other poor girl and helping her ruin her life

I think there's a good chance they get the first one in the premiere. There's a sexual rating for the episode (there was also a closed set when filming that episode) and it doesn't really make sense for any other couple. Ross is still going to be recovering in the hospital I would assume so unless it's like Travis and Eli (literally no one wants that) I feel like it has to be Marina. And it's what they deserve and they should get the first one in the 10 pm time slot because they will certainly deliver! I'm hoping it's after they decide to adopt the baby boy and they 'celebrate'.

#asks #anon #marina in the 10 pm slot is going to serve and they need to just let danielle and stefania do their thing