#just need to vent

[mengjue]

There it is. We have failed as a country yet again. We’re still sticking our heads in the sand and ignoring indigenous Australians as hard as possible. I have nothing but shame for Australia right now. I hope that progress continues for aboriginal rights but it’s sure one giant sprint backward. I hope history tears us to shreds when it looks back on this. The racism, ignorance, and apathy was blatant and disgusting.

#disgusted tbh #just need to vent #Australia is a deeply racist country #voice to parliament #auspol #Australia

[b-i-t-c-h-y-m-u-g-g-l-e]

Romantic sappy shit

Have you ever loved someone so much that just seeing them smile makes your heart feel like it's about to burst? Your happiness multiplies when you see them happy? Especially after things had been tense for so long?

This makes me wanna cry. I don't deserve this care. I'm frankly an evil bitch but he still strokes my now bald head until I fall asleep, helps and encourages me and every time I do an irrelevant little baby accomplishment by myself he smiles so brightly.

I really don't deserve him or anyone for that matter. I'm such a mess. He can only care for me at night which is my roughest times but he still stays up to make me feel better no matter how tired he is.

Great, I'm crying again now. I can't stop crying. I'm so dumb. No wonder I'm dehydrated af. My tears spill every day.

#personal #I'm having one of my crybaby mood swings again #just need to vent

[babacontainsmultitudes]

😔 (covid got worse after getting better) (lungs hurt) (been hard to breathe for the last couple days) (very anxious as a result) (big sigh)

#delete later? #just need to vent #My breathing was a bit better for most of the day today though I was feeling pretty nauseous #:((( but right now not very good #😔😔😔

[blackrosesandwhump]

Ah yes, the part of the afternoon where I simultaneously need to drink a double shot of espresso, take a long nap, and scream

#me right now #personal #not whump #just need to vent

[sarcasticsciencefictionwriter]

Trying to decide which WIPs to put into hibernation and which ones to just slog through and finish.

Theoretically, it's so I feel less pressure and have less work to do. I finished one, but bumped the count back up to 28 (29?) by starting a new one.

However, realistically it's turning into I'm weeding things out to focus on multiple multi-chapter Sanctuary AUs I do NOT need to be writing right now, especially when I already have ones that I need to finish. Ones that I've been working on for nearly a year, in some cases.😅

(Anyway, part of this is due to the fact that I'm now in love with Ranna's character and have at least three stories where she is very major to them)

#it's to the point where i've considered holding a poll to have people #pick the ones i work on #because my dear sibling refuses to #have an opinion when i ask #i don't know i feel down now #that i published the second #pigeon keeper story #because it #didn't make a dent #i still have at least five #installments #most likely seven + #sarcastic rambles #sarcastic talks about writing #fics #just need to vent

[largesunglasses]

This is literally going to be me complaining so just scroll by. I just think I'll feel better if I get it out.

I came in early today because my boss had something she had to do in the morning which was fine. I don't mind. An extra hour of pay I'll take it. Then at like 5:00 our DM sends sends out a message about making sure our software is up to date because they're going to do something tomorrow. So ours is not updated and they say that it'll take about 5 minutes. Well it's taking about 20 minutes for the first one. It's now 7:00. I was supposed to leave it at 6:30ish and I still have two more machines to update. I'm hoping the other two go a little bit smoother than the first and I'm not complaining because it's money but I really wanted to go home and walk and I don't like walking too late because then I'm up all night and I already have trouble sleeping. And this is literally just first world problems I'm complaining about because I feel like it'll make me feel better

#run on sentence queen #just need to vent

[mistresslrigtar]

Today is no better. Still depressed.

I’ve struggled with self-doubt my entire life. One would think by now I would get over it.

At least I just had a good cry so maybe tomorrow will be a positive day and I’ll feel productive.

It’s a beautiful outside and I’ve taken the afternoon off for my mental health. Hopefully, good old vitamin D will give me the recharge I need.

#just need to vent #nothing to worry about #just another day in the life #dealing with depression

[thedyingwriter]

I just really wish someone loved me in lovers kinda way. I'm so sick of telling people I wanna be loved when they ask me what's wrong and just getting back a response like girl you are amazing. We love you. Your parents love you. That's not the point

I just for once in my life want to experience some kind of romantic love. It wouldn't hurt for just one person to actually see me as someone worth loving. Just hold me. Hug me. Kiss me. Someone I can just feel loved around. I'm so sick and tired of feeling so lonely all the damn time.

Just once I want to experience the love books and movies talk about. It's hard and I really can't do this anymore. Just need the pain to stop

#someone please love me #steddie #i wish i could experience the love books talk about #need the pain to stop #just need to vent #lonely #feeling overwhelmed

[jann-the-bean]

I’m at the airport and can’t stop crying 😭

Someone make it stop plzzzzz

#Jann rambles #might delete later #just need to vent #before I cry againnnn #any tips plzzzzz #it shouldn’t be this hard #*sobs*

[averagemastermind]

Can’t believe I re-opened this hellsite just to put this down into words. I did a LOT of fanboying for Rooster Teeth/Achievement Hunter back in the day, and while I haven’t been active in the community for a good long while, still stings a bit to see all this shit coming to light. To summarize though, what did we learn in the past 48-72 hours?

Wage theft is bad

Transphobia is bad

Homophobia is bad

Racism is bad

All of the above things are reprehensible, none of them cancel out or supersede each other, and no one wins when you play the Misery Olympics

Most importantly though,

Corporations aren’t your friends, no matter how public their image is. Bad stuff happens everywhere, and whatever they put on their website, no company is a “family.”

I wanted so desperately to work for Rooster Teeth when I was in college, they were one of the main reasons I got into filmmaking in the first place. Now I just feel like I dodged a bullet moving out to LA instead. Not that there aren’t inherent problems with the film industry in Hollywood, far from it. But at least there’s a union.

Everyone needs to do better. We can all point fingers until our hands fall off but it won’t solve any problems. Fix your broken system. Pay your workers. Take your own advice and Be Kind to each other. You Can Do Better. So be better.

#rooster teeth #achievement hunter #I don’t have a horse in this race #certainly don’t need rt staff to start crying on a podcast because of my post #just need to vent

[justnat15]

Make my people cry and you're on my shit list.

How much I liked you before determines how high on the list you are.

#personal #just need to vent #I have a headache from holding back tears I'm so upset

[josilverdragon]

Re: bookbinding (do not read if you want to listen to self-deprecation and whining and yeah aka don't read unless you want to read a loser or defeatist attitude - thanks)

I've not been very motivated lately and I know I should be happy with what I am able to do but I see such amazing binds and know. . . I am a jack of all trades but master of none. Unless I have the right tools (aka a cricut) or something else, my binds will not be the "OH WOW" kind.

Following IG or seeing the amazing binds that people exclaim over has really killed my own confidence that people would actually want a binding I have done. Especially since the one book (two, actually, I gifted it to two people) didn't garner any sort of response online. Sure they thanked me in DMs but one did say they were going to take pictures and. . . never did. (Not that I am owed anything more than that, and I know life gets in the way.) And then my first (3) attempts at binding this one fic all ended in something I wouldn't want to send anyone.

Anyway, some people have AMAZING binds and I can't believe the creativity it takes. And some people showing their first binds end up having binds that are levels beyond what I'm able to produce in the year or so I started. Yes, I have gotten better. And yes, I am happy with what I have done but seeing so many others do so much better than me just. . . makes me feel like why even bother.

I'll probably come back to it. But. . . not right now.

#personal #whining #ignore #just need to vent #sorry

[eloquentmoon]

omg another vent post where moonie talks about her trauma 😗✌🏻 yeah im sick of me too.

i just want this to be over and i wanna be healed and functional and not an inconsistent zombie just dragging herself through each day. i literally just survive at this point and it's not fun or fresh and it's pissing me off. i only cope through life with daydreaming and escapist media and it's killing me bit by bit. i miss being able to properly engage and communicate and be present in my life. and im trying so hard to get better too. meds and therapy and worksheets and healthy living. but it isn't enough because the baseline stress level of being a working class person in the UK rn is insane. it's impossible to look after yourself. like i just need access to time and money to heal properly. i feel like i do some healing and take steps forward in my recovery but then am burnt out with work and other stuff going on that it's kinda counterproductive. i have to work to survive but i need time to work on myself and i hate this system and how we've set up the way we live and i just can't deal. im getting old and sick and i cba. i once again feel like this is only ever gonna end one way and i don't wanna quit life. but sometimes i really don't see the point.

#dont report me im fine #just need to vent #rant

[sismanaic]

dream.

i used to look up at the stars

And wonder about other worlds and fantastic beasts

until i met you

and you became my stary sky

what i would look up to and daydream about

and as we talked, i thought that you felt the same

but the clouds began to dissipate

and reveal that the stars i saw were actually street lights, far away

not shining back at me

i was never special to you, and in the process of building my starship

i became faded for myself too

so i'll keep my distance, build some walls, burn some others

rediscover the supernova within, even with its newfound cracks

and dream again, look up and wonder - with myself this time.

#poetry #poets on tumblr #notreallytho #just need to vent

[onlythespiteremains]

How is it that my mask constantly grows stronger while the rest of me unravels?

I just want to feel the way that people perceive me to feel. I spent 6 fucking years convincing myself this feeling was gone. I spent so much time drawing people in around me to feel okay and then hurting them. Or driving people away with my inability to answer a simple text or keep a rhythm of communication.

I'm fucking sick of myself. I'm tired of existing and letting my anxiety and my disgusting need to appear like I'm fine and doing well drive how I act and what I do around other people. I'm just surviving. I thought I had stopped and was growing, was living. Some days I was convinced I was. I told her I was. I didn't think it was a lie like the others I told.

I can't be comfortable anymore. I need to be uncomfortable. I need to hurt. I need to learn. I need to grow. I need to be better. I said so many times I would be better and I wasn't. I couldn't. Even for you.

I'm tired. But maybe I deserve it. I'm not who I used to be. I'm so much worse.

#sorry #rant #ignore this #ill delete it in the morning #just need to vent #text

[harlowcomehome]

Y’all ever just be disappointed by people? And not because they are specifically doing something wrong really but because they aren’t there for you in the ways you would be/have been for them?

I don’t expect anyone to be ME but damn, I’ve been there for you through it all and you’re watching me suffer? That’s crazy lol

#imma delete this lol #just need to vent