#just gonna shake things up a little

[possessionisamyth]

i get polls and im absolutely here to expose the tumblr girlies~ reblog as needed if you'd like to expose them too!

#i dont want to get wild stories from this but im prepared #just gonna shake things up a little

[lovesickeros]

☆ thrice the bell tolls

{☆} characters neuvillette {☆} notes cult au, imposter au, villain au, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings minor angst {☆} word count 0.9k

"Get in the water."

There is no trepidation in the voice of the Sovereign as he speaks, only pure contempt that bleeds into the very air until it chills their lungs – there will be no penance here. No redemption. He stands before them with apathetic indifference, and with his hands he shall draw judgement upon sinners without a shred of mercy, so heavy his gaze they cannot move. This land shall become the grave of gods – no, not gods, Archons. Transcendent..and fallible.

Horribly, humanly fallible.

What a cruel thing to be – neither god nor mortal, in the end. Their Authority a stolen, coveted thing, so easily taken in a blaze of fury that singes them to the bone, in winds so harsh it tears the breath from their lungs from the sheer pressure, in the way their hairs stand on end as if lightning shall smite them for their arrogance. Judgement has come for them, in the end, and no plea nor bargain can save them from it's justice – they shall be judged and they shall be sentenced.

"..I was willing to put aside your past transgressions – forgive your thievery of the Authority that is not your own – to see Their vision of harmony come to reality." He speaks with nothing but clarity and calmness that unsettles – as gentle as the serene pond illuminated by gentle sunlight, ducks drifting across its pristine surface and creating faint, brief ripples. Calm as the tide as it recedes from the shoreline. His eyes speak of the tempest – the raging winds and the harsh waves that will crash and break and ravage. There is a fury so turbulent it makes the wind go still, the earth erode and the water recede. "You do not deserve repentance when Their body bears the marks of your transgressions," There will be no mercy. They try to plead, to beg and bargain but they cannot speak – their cries go unheard just as Theirs were ignored. A horrifying irony.

"Self proclaimed Acolytes, all, yet you bathe in Their most divine blood and call yourselves Saints," He breathes in, taps his cane against the hardened earth, and holds his head high as he meets their eyes unflinching. Mercy, they think, for we are innocent – we did not know. "Sinners, to the very last. You tear at the flesh of the most Divine like wild dogs to sate your own hunger, for you know nothing else."

His voice is the toll – it echoes like the ringing of a bell, calling them to the water like a siren. It beckons, it demands, and it will not wait. The water recedes and he stands like a beacon among the shores – a bastion of light where it has been snuffed out.

His eyes witness their sins – heavy a burden he bears as he witnesses that which they must atone for. The cruel hand of an Archon as it spills the Divine blood of the very earth beneath their feet. He sees Their agony, feels it to the last. Every bolt of wind, every jagged rock, every bolt of lightning. Every single one he feels until he weeps – for Them, he weeps.

His left hand renders judgement – guilty. Their transgressions are grave, and no redemption can be found for such horrors they have inflicted upon the mortal vessel of the Divine. They have felt their sorrow, have felt Their pain, and he has found them guilty.

And with his right hand..he enacts justice.

"Let your sins be your anchor – let your sins weigh heavy upon your shoulders so that you may feel a brief flicker of the agony you have inflicted upon Them," He lifts his cane with a solemn resolve, tears staining the scales upon his cheeks. "I shall weep for you, too, for no other shall do so in my stead. Return, wretched beasts, to the earth and let it nourish Them where you did not."

And at his call, the waves devour.

Entire cities, entire nations – those who bear the sin shall drown in it's wake, dragged to the lowest depths where even the sun cannot breach. It takes and takes, claws and tears and rips at the bodies of the damned – it devours the world, impartial and unrelenting in it's judgement.

And Neuvillette alone weeps.

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"Neuvillette? Are you..crying?" Their voices makes him startle back to awareness, the briefest flicker of shame welling up in the empty space of his chest as he wipes away the tears that roll down his cheeks like drops of rain.

"It..appears so. Forgive me, most Divine, it seems I had a brief lapse in focus." He clears his throat, straightens his back, tries to ignore the pit in his stomach as he watches Their lips pull into a smile all too happy. He..he should be happy too, shouldn't he? He should. If They are happy, so should he be. His lips curl into a smile that doesn't feel like it fits on his face, but he delights in the way They smile wider when he does.

They approve, and that's all that matters, isn't it?

"It won't happen again, I assure you."

Their approval is all that matters.

So why does his chest ache so badly? He did as They commanded, he removed the stain upon Teyvat and ensured Their safety.

So why does he feel such sorrow?

The thought gnaws at him like the tides erode at stone, yet he cannot bear to burden his Creator with such..nonsense.

He will bear this weight alone until the day the waves come to claim him, too.

"Shall we visit the gardens today, Divine One?"

#sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #fic tag #genshin cult au #genshin impact cult au #neuvillete #claws my way out of my hiatus again hiiiiiiii #starts gnawing on neuvi and putting him thru the worst things imaginable #basically what if reader was a little fucked up and asked neuvi very nicely 2 do a fontaine on everyone in teyvat :] #only the ppl who didnt hurt reader dont get dissolved #but neuvillette is in the middle of a crisis anyway bc what did he. just do. #local dragon man caught between being loyal 2 his creator and judging the ppl who hurt them and being like What the Fuck #i was gonna make this so much longer but ough.............its fine #maybe ill expand on this idea another time #also like. minor angst is there for a REASON ur favs r DEAD and NEUVI is having a HORRIBLE time just a warning in advance #neuvi looking at villain!reader like a kicked puppy while he drowns like half of teyvat #putting zl and neuvi thru the wringer. they can handle it its fine #what peer pressure (villain reader) does to a man (a 6'4 ft tall sopping wet cat dragon) #need more reader just being a horrible person. they r just a little creature #realistically i would never do this but i do like bullying my favs in fics sooooooooo #difference between neuvi & tsaritsa bc the tsaritsa would be having the time of her LIFE #*extreme over simplification of her character cough cough but #villain reader and tsaritsa is meant 2 go together and FUCK #I MADE IT ABT THE TSARITSA AGAIN #someone bonk me i need 2 be put down #anyway. leaves for like 3 months. comes back randomly just 2 put my fav thru literal actual hell #shakes neuvi around like a dog toy

[bunnihearted]

umm

#i havent had this bad anxiety in like 10 years wth #i have a dentist appt. and it's only a checkup thingy there will be no treatment done #it should be short and quick but im so anxious #im also anxious bc there's almost aways issues w financial aid and stuff 🙃 #and a checkup is almost $100 which is 1/3 of my monthly budget 💀 #so that's the main part that worries me. plus everyone in a dentist's office are so rude </3 #i've tried asking her several times but she is so unclear... i hope i can get like an invoice/bill thing #but yeah everyone are so rude about it and it's just a whole ordeal #so im so anxious for this appt omg #im like shaking a little and my breath feels caught in my chest lol #i dont wanna go but if i dont go now i'll have to pay a fee which is also expensive so like #i have to go but i dont wanna i just wanna cryyyyyy #update: no i did not get an invoice #she was really rude too T-T acting like i was gonna run away and not pay #so yehh... $140 gone from my accountttt i did not think it would cost that much #so .. ummmm #i hope my financial aid worker will reply soon #and i mean omg i hope they will grant me financial aid #otherwise.... i wish i had neven gone wtffff #everyone told me it'd work and this was ok but like ??? #i just hope she replies today or tmrw so i can know #if i have to have given up that mych money then #i wont be able to buy buss tickets to the animal park i wanna go to #or buy those clothes i was gnna buy #or have food the entire month lmao #but i just wanna know what im dealing w i hate not knowing

[hella1975]

are you guys thinking about touya todoroki today because i am

#what if he just wanted to be good what if he burned up and out waiting for his parent to look at him and just LOVE HIM #what if all he ever wanted was that positive affirmation what if he just needed to be treated kindly and was instead #offered only cruelty what if he was a child who didn't need to be strong he just needed to be held #what if raising children to be soldiers regardless of good intention is still a fucked up thing to do #because they're CHILDREN they just want you to be nice to them they don't care about being the strongest #and why does being the strongest matter more than anything else? is that really worth doing all this damage? #is it really worth being so mean? you're supposed to love them why won't you show it #and it haunts him so much he literally BURNS HIMSELF ALIVE OVER IT and no one even comes to watch #and when the rejection finally FINALLY gets through his head and he's forced to accept that he's never gonna get that love #and acknowledgement that he needs so much he doesnt heal from it and choose to be the bigger person #he instead becomes something ugly and mean and messy and awful and he's a sum of all the acts made against him #because he's ANGRY and he doesn't care that he's angry he's shameless and embracing of that rage #because it covers up the hurt and if he has to hurt people in order to avoid his own pain then that's what he'll do #and to the very end he's shouting every bad thing that happened to him refusing to go down quietly about it #refusing to be a good little victim that shakes and cries in a corner and lets things sort themselves out because it NEVER DOES #NO ONE EVER SAVES HIM. NO ONE EVER PROTECTS HIM. WHY WON'T THEY PROTECT HIM #and not a single person acknowledges him. not a single person looks on him with pity #there's no one there to say 'that was shit and you deserved better'. no one. and what did he honestly do that was so bad as to deserve this #he was a child who wanted to be loved. to be good. that's all #touya todoroki #literally feels like his character was created to make me specifically want to blow my brains out el oh el <3

[seventh-district]

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#Seven’s Public Diary #vent post #vent #cw vent post #cw vent #cw health #cw medical #cw medication #cw death #death mention #after nearly 2 weeks of unexplained pain and Symptoms and working myself up into the worst panic attack of my life #i finally caved and went to urgent care :) #it’s not lost on me that the same thing happened a little over a year ago. not bc of the same symptoms but it’s the same fear of dying #smthn smthn if i had a nickel smthn smthn weird that it happened twice. i rlly hope this doesn’t become a pattern #i can picture it now. every spring i walk in and they’re like ‘ugh it’s the neurotic hypochondriac with 4 anxiety disorders again 🙄 #wonder what they think they’re dying of this time!’ #sigh. anyways i’m fine. probably. #the consensus was ‘no you’re Probably not gonna have a stroke and die. you’re just Very stressed and in a lot of pain.’ #got diagnosed with Stressed Guy Syndrome so now i take ✨painkillers✨ and ✨muscle relaxers✨ 🙃 #they wanted me to take a steroid shot too but that felt like overkill. it’s also a big step for me to be willing to take anything at all #not bc i’m scared of getting a shot in the neck i’m just. scared of medication in general. the side effects. the potential for dependency. #it’s only for a week but i’m still uncomfy with it. but it Is nice to be in less pain. tho i have my doubts that it’ll help long term #time will tell. but i still can’t shake the fear of the tiny chance that it Could be more serious. but it’s not big enough for them to test #for it so. just gotta live with the fear. which in turn is making it hard to relax. which is what i’m supposed to be doing. so. #anyways. i Hope the meds work and i don’t end up back there next week spending More money and seeking more treatment #sighhhh i just can’t catch a break these days. it’s Always Something #at least the electricity and internet are back on after the tornado last week. and at least i’m not in much pain for now. silver linings. #sorry to everyone i’ve unintentionally ghosted but it’s been hard to think through the pain and now the meds are making me eepy #hopefully i’ll recover and recharge my social battery sooner than later. bc i do feel v bad abt it #and it’s So nice to sleep without much pain so i’m. taking advantage of that this week. Seven Try To Relax Challenge 2024

[rosicheeks]

What an asshole. I’m so sorry Rosie Hugs 🤗

🤷🏽‍♀️

#oh well #I’m just mad at myself for even entertaining it #hurt me more in the long run #I’ve just never been called shallow before???? #so idk #haven’t been able to shake it #and I genuinely don’t understand where or how he could say that? #whatever buddy #wish you the best #hope reality hits you in the face and you realize you fucked up #I’m one of a kind #and I guarantee you’ll never find anyone like me #(whether that’s a good thing or bad things lmao) #whatever whatever #I’m off to my brothers cause they are throwing a lil bday party for me with my immediate family #gonna try and shrug it off and ignore it #smoking a little bit to try and idk give me a boost? #excited to see my sweet niece though 🥰 #thanks for the hugs lovely 🥰🤗 #ask #anon

[snowyfrostshadows]

Team Bleck can't swipe the Pure Heart if the heroes steal it first, right?

#dumb doodles #master m au #listen; i just have a few thoughts on how the whole Sammer Kingdom thing would go down in my silly little au #i.e. luigi sees the size of the void in this dimension/world/whatever and wants to get out asap #also....i...may have misunderstood the whole. chaos heart-void thing first getting into all this #but it's my super self indulgent au and i make the rules on how that all works #also; if given the choice between a little theft and 100 fights in a row in a death pit who picks the latter over the former? #luigi's just being pragmatic; no he's not gonna meet his partners eyes for this part #no the plan doesn't work; /but/ he did try to shake things up a bit #and i think he should get points for trying to avoid multiple fights while on a time limit

[dandyshucks]

need Guz to hug me tightly for like an hour solid oh my god dhdjdkl I went driving for the first time in over a year and I chewed my lip raw 😭😭

I'm starting to look like a caricature of Anxiety with all these physical symptoms and signs LMAO

#this is so ridiculous fhfjdkdl #i do not like driving fjdkdl i know i should not be on the roads #but unfortunately i have to bc i live rural and also my parents insist i ''just need more practice'' #practice is not going to fix the dissociation 😭😭 practice will not fix the Other Drivers being shitty and scary and reckless fjfkdl #it might make it slightly easier bc i wont have to think as hard about shoulder and mirror checks and roadsigns and speed limits #and where i am located on the road and intersection rules and whatnot #but like... it does not fix that i live in a town (and world lol) where ppl are fucking bonkers on the road #i had someone riding my ass for like a full five minutes. we had only two feet btwn us. MAYBE. IF THAT MUCH. #he was BIG mad that i was going the speed limit #and THERES A POLICE STATION LIKE RIGHT NEAR THAT AREA MY GUY IM NOT GONNA GO OVER THE SPEED LIMIT RIGHT THERE LMAO ???? #also im a rule follower usually so i do tend to go Exactly the speed limit fjfkdl #and maaannn that makes people SO fucking angry dhfjdl its impossible to drive Anywhere without having someone right on ur bumper #its so ridiculous like... that's not helping anyone ??? ur not getting to ur destination faster by riding up on somebodys ass ???? hewwo ??? #ANYWAYS. i drove around the neighborhood and then went up the highway and thru some intersections and then into the main core of town #and then i got my dad to take over from there bc it was lunch hour and the core of town is a lawless land at the best of times #MY NERVES ARE FRIED. i need Guz to act as a weighted blanket or one of those pressure therapy vests for me LOL #im like... shaking fhdjsl that was far more than i thought we were going to do for driving today good lord #IM OKAY THOUGH I SURVIVED I DIDNT EVEN HIT A CURB OR ANYTHING #i think I've only hit a curb once so far in all my times driving and that was on my second time driving on a road i think #so pretty good track record... im a very careful driver fjdkdl i work so hard to be safe and drive smoothly #during my driving test the only thing the test guy had to critique was that i waited at an intersection when i could've gone #but the reason i waited was bc i wasnt sure i could make it across the traffic lane before the oncoming vehicle got to us #so it was like. a safe decision overall but a little too hesitant which can actually be unsafe fjdkdl #AUGH ANYWAYS SORRY FOR RAMBLING SM #driving stresses me out so bad and my lip is all raw now and i have so many physical stress symptoms the past few days fhfjdl #after tonight i should be able to calm down a bit hopefully fhfkdl theres a thing we're going to tonight thats been stressing me out so bad #but after tonight it'll be over and hopefully I can get myself settled down again fjfjdkl #dandy.cmd #vent //

[celestial-toys]

been laying here listening to Lucky by Dermot Kennedy on loop for half an hour while thinking about Everything Stays and crying

#it’s good crying dw i am just. i have so many feelings about this story #Seven’s Celestial Commentary #Everything Stays #writing stuff #i may be stuck in bed struggling to type due to personal reasons but that will Not stop me from cooking up ideas for this fic #there is gonna be so much fucking angst and it’s gonna hurt soooooo good #the more i listen to it the more the possibilities expand #i can easily see Moon and Reader going back and forth between verses vulnerably arguing over Sun #but i can also see it being Sun and Moon getting real and discussingcougharguingover Reader #can’t decide which i like more #god i wish y’all could see this story the way it plays out in my head #next best thing would be to keep writing and sharing the story instead of vagueposting abt future plot points tho wouldn’t it lmao #and GOD don’t even get me fucking STARTED on Two Hearts… #Dermot Kennedy’s music is responsible for yet Another plot point for this story and i can’t even be mad about it. his fucking lyricsss dude #‘and so we jump to the THEATER??? in that SAME OLD TOWN???’ DO WE? FUCK I GUESS WE DO NOW!!! #picture me listening to that song and inspiration hitting me like a truck. diligently taking notes like the lyrics r instructions from God #‘she sees his face?? and HE sees HER as the LIGHTS GO DOWN???’ write that down write that down #‘the life that they should’ve had sat between them that night??’ FUCK Man yeah it sure did!!! #anyways it’s chill i’m chill. i’m very normal about my little stories and their musical inspirations! #and i’ve listened to these songs a very normal amount (translation: they will likely be in my top ten for the 2024 wrapped) #(cut to the scenes playing vividly in my head) ‘Well‚ at least I can always say that I /told/ her!’ #‘I can’t relate to having a heart like that‚ Sun! With all of your wonder and your trust intact…’ #like no i wouldn’t lift the lyrics directly for the song to use as dialogue but FUCk does it work well.. Lucky is such a good script for- #like- a heated conversation between my Relentlessly Positive Sun and my Apathetic Jaded Moon #‘How could our farewell mean as much as our time? Honey‚ I’ll be gone. It’s better if I’m something that you leave behind.’ #‘I used to paint these trees‚ now I just scream at the sky. Honey I was wrong. Guess there’s certain things you never leave behind.’ #*sobbing shaking throwing up clawing at the walls* I Am Normal About These Characters #anyways uh. on an unrelated note how many song lyrics do ya think i can cram into ES before it’s Too Many #gonna have to start getting creative with how i can incorporate more songs in a way that feels natural and not forced #even tho i am forcing it. i am forcing it very much bc i have songs with applicable lyrics and y’all Will read them one way or another

[slimeciclecock]

Forgive me for the person I'll become when Missa releases all his new music <- delusional

#been on a missa kick lately which I've never really shared #been getting reeeeally into some of his music and lowkey getting a crush on him 😳🥰 #and like. who cares if its been a month or smth. im still very obsessed with that stream he did where he showed off music he was working on #like his voice is insanely good and im going crazy like. to this day i still dont know if he plans to release all that or if that was just- #-scrapped music. with how excited he was when showing music i dont think its scrapped? but idk #dont wanna get my hopes up but. gah #also im just gonna come right out and say it. missa sinfonia is fucking hot as hell #he's so insanely hot and attractive and the music makes him hotter and he's so funny and grhgrgjfrh #ive been a little bit a lot obsessed lately. oh my god how are you so damn attractive #ive kinda told myself that if i ever get a partner the first thing i would do is show him missa and make them fall for him like i did #he's like. handsome like a guy from my culture. does that make sense #missa sinfonia has malay guy swag #i think i can say that here yeah. ive spoken my mother tongue language here #sorry im reaching he just reminds me of someone irl. but also. missa is hot asf i need someone to shake hands with me #frickin. schoolgirl crush on a funny mexican youtuber #ive watched more missa videos than i thought i would and its embarrassing how giddy i would get watching like #i am in my 20s but i am resting my chin on my hand like 🥰 #brother I've fallen someone pull me back up i cant do this today

[mantisgodsdomain]

"oh, yeah," we think, "we could probably cross this over into Li nked Uni verse if we actually draw out the canon for long enough, smacking different versions of the same character into each other is always fun especially when it has the potential for massive cultural differences and shit like running into things where the thing that has been forgotten has significance beyond the things that are remembered. Hey, we should probably check the comic in order to comply with the six-month rule, we don't think we ever finished-"

We return from the reference images. We have remembered why we didn't finish looking into the base comic.

#we speak #negative chatter #moving one level of fandomization away from og LU to merely use them as inspiration for bootleg LU with more base game inspiration #we forgot why we had the author blocked. we remember now #we probably wont elaborate further on this because we keep a firm policy of not publically shit talking folk at random #we just kinda got Unexpectedly Sandblasted by them being weird abt furries&otherkin in a random twi light reference post #we are censoring this so it does not go into their tag btw! no one likes random shit talk and this is just us being vaguely pissy #the wording is vague enough that they feel like theyre like. they dont mean to imply they DISLIKE this group #they just find them strange and offputting and they strongly dislike that they project anything onto A Character #as we do not control their life and theres nothing we can do to force them to Not be uncomfortable or act Strange towards a group #all we can really do is like. scrunge up at an attitude we find it VERY difficult to mesh with and go our separate ways #the multitude of takes on these characters and the way that their fandom is so creative about them and produces so many different Ideas #is very fun! and we heavily enjoy reading it sometimes! however we cannot enjoy the base comic #because though we know that the author likely didnt intend it to come off like that and we know accusations of hate would be FAR too strong #we cannot shake the feeling that we are the sort of thing that they would look upon as a deeply offputting aberration #and they merely avoid voicing that out of a mix of manners and a wish to not get into discourse while hundreds of people are watching #so it is best to keep our distance where we don't have to be uncomfortable at the subtle bias that will pervade through all art #and they dont have to get grated against in ways that may negatively impact things from us having little shame in our existence #which is to say theres like a solid chance that the bias is not malicious and is in fact just like. lingering cultural bias type shit #however we arent gonna deal with that and us being a huge obnoxious weirdo might be liable to push them against us via abrasion #being exposed to smth more often can very easily actively push you against that thing by virtue of dislike of the people who like it #and though our individual action may not mean much in the scheme of things it will do less harm to both of us if we back the hell off #give that shit some time to soak without being prodded at too hard and hopefully someone else will be able to open the conversation better #because with bias especially you CANNOT break it down with one or two discussions #and you very much have to have the person with the bias willing to step back and examine that pattern of bias and unravel it #because if you go up at people like “this is WRONG and heres why” theyre far more likely to get defensive and feel attacked #and then double down because they feel attacked and don't want to give in to people who have been Nothing But Rude To Them #its a pattern of thought that can be a real bitch to deal with and we really arent capable of the subtle approach it requires to break thro #anyways. where were we. oh yeah we forgot why we blocked someone and now we're making a tumblr post about it

[jesterguy]

Feeling very wrung out. Like an old sponge that's been used too many times

#trying trying to catch up mentally but i think im gonna wither a little when i try to engage tonight lol #just cant shake the husk of cam today #i did get stuff done and clean the house and even do some ljttke deep cleabing things i dont usually get to #i just feel beat. exhausted

[pepprs]

feeling misery and despair about going back to work btw. im trying to suppress it and i did a good job but the inevitable is inevitable

#purrs #i had like 3 massive breakdowns at the end of the week incl one on friday when i was off. and then i was like ok. i am literally weak and sh #shaking from all of that let me just pretend none of it happened. and i did!!! i pretended so well that i have felt basicslly normal all #weekend. i played a lot of video games and i even went out twice.. once to a chorus concert on campus (which is big bc being on campus ummmm #is deeply agitating to me rn ♥️) and today to home depot w my family to wander around the plants and hear the birds. i am suppressing things #and i know i am but if i don’t think about thst i feel so normal. except now it’s 11:16 on a sunday night and i have work tomorrow. and i #know most of the horrors are over but there are still so many more fucking horrors ahead. saying goodbye to people i love and anniversaries #of things happening including today being the 4 year anniversary of a certain email lol. and i can FEEL the difference. the way my stomach #is in knots bc weekends are only so long (even long ones) and i can only hold back the horrors for a little while. it’s all temporary. augh. #i literally need like a whole month off i think. idk. work stuff has fucked up my mental health beyond belief this year and it’s so sad bc t #this is my dream job but im in so much mental pain and physical exhaustion constantly and they beget themselves and by the end of the week #im miserable. but the semester is about to end. but what if it doesn’t get better bc EVERY single god damn time we talk about how it’s gonna #get better it quite literally gets worse lol 💖 i can’t im not strong enough. coming up on 5 years here and im not fucking strong enough! #but i will heal eventually i think. i just need the horrors to cease for long enough for me to catch my breath (and other redacted things ♥️

[ronanlynchbf]

they should provide financial compensation for ppl who are sensitive to an unbelievable degree.

#being sensitive's actually immensely inconvenient + makes me feel incompetent. literally someone raises their voice at me i start tearing up #had a mini-discussion with my dad abt palestine and i was shaking all over the entire time it's so bad........... #not gonna go into detail bc he busts out the most islamophobic racist things and i don't want to say all that on here but we talked a littl #abt palestine and then a lot abt hamas bc that's at the forefront of every discussion now and uhm. well let's just say he is someone that #thinks reverse racism is real and also interrupts you all the time when he's having a conversation so u know how that went....i wish i'd #made the point i was trying to make come across clearer but he's so rooted in his own beliefs that's like a near impossible feat anyway no #matter how good u are at talking. #r.txt #also i woke up with a nosebleed today (had a nosebleed yesterday AND five days ago) and a pounding pressuring headache so that's gotten me #a little very concerned i'm not gonna lie...............like the headache has been persistent for the past two weeks and kind of feels like #something is pressing on my brain from the inside.. #i wanna look up what might be causing it but i also don't want to because i always start imagining that the worst things they're suggesting #on there are the ones that are true......

[blujaydoodles]

[shaking them around like a tin can full of pennies]

#... I'm not gonna Searchable Tags these ones nobody cares who doesn't already follow me fkdgjhdh #they are all so blorbo. to me #it was really funny to fill out the better/ worse times/ more/ less trauma ones #the characters I'm like 'I think they could stand a little more shake n bake bad times for Narrative Reasons. for Flavor' #and the ones that I'm like 'THEY'VE BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH ACTUALLY I THINK. ONLY GOOD THINGS NOW FOREVER' #aside from elyss the distinction isn't always entirely clear tbh lmao #also I've marked almost all of them down for 'more romance' because I am soft but I only feel strongly about it for like two of them lol #most of them aren't looking for it and don't need it right now I just think it would be what they deserve 😌 #god I'm looking at all these side by side and I think I've really undersold the complexity of a lot of them :'D oops oh well lol #I think Elyss Juniper and Melliwyk are the blorboest with Felix surprisingly high up there for being new and untested #I am! chewing on them!! I am sitting on them like a broody hen. I am pressing them insistently into your hands #my OCs #Elyss #Juniper #Idri #Aubree #Nyssa #Melliwyk #Felix #dungeons and doodles

[jrueships]

NO WAY they're girlfriends 🥰! theyre holding hands! theyre girlfriends 🥰

#ive seen this maxey stance before but not ja being there? with the maxey stance?? #is this photoshopped??? #who cares they get starbies together and kiss #more like maxey gets a cakepop and ja goes to the dunkin donuts next door to get a ice cream shake #none of them like coffee they just go to them thanks to the lgbtq+ compulsion powers of coffee places #girl who wears cute sweaters with a white undershirt underneath #and gets specific-themed outfits during holidays #like wears a pretty pink bow heart earrings pink sweatervest and pink and white skirt on valentines #and always has gum that she keeps in a special little gum pouch that she freely hands out to everyone (ask or not #they are like little ducks to her and she their bread giver #and wakes up on her 2nd alarm set 5 hours before she should actually wake up (sometimes she gets up on her 1st tho! #to slightly curl her hair.. put in that claw grip thing instead of a ponytail #<- maxey #girl who wakes up and stays in bed until the last second on her phone doing nothing #who doesnt make her bed bcs it's gonna get unmade anyways #and doesnt look in the mirror unless it's before an important event #what she looks like is what she looks like if it's bad she can just use sinkwater to pat down the hair frizz #considers herself a gamer but only has the nintendo switch that she has to take breaks from bcs splatoon 3 makes her mad #<- morant #yes these girls are girlfriends and yes they kiss #they infodump to each other on very different subjects and always end enlightened #maxey #ja