#just at some points a little frustrating

[dotswithbrainrot]

There's something I realised about Crystal that might have been obvious but flew over my head the first time I watched.

There were always moments where she was a little frustrating when it came to her laying out her trauma any moment she gets. I realised I wasn't alone on this as I watched the show again with my friends and they reacted the same way. I found myself asking why she's always just trauma dumping the moment she gets the chance to and why she seems to lash out at a lot of people (like that moment where she wants to go to hell with Charles to save Edwin) and end up putting herself in danger. She's also hypocritical at times like the moment when she snaps at Edwin as he compares his trauma to hers.

I was trying to think of why exactly she acted like that and then I got it.

Unlike Edwin and Charles (who are ghosts and have existed for way longer than 16 years to the point they're not really 16 year olds (not the way they look, act or their supernatural age)) Crystal is literally just a 16 year old! Sure she doesn't look like that cause the actress is older but she does act like that! She acts like a very moody teen and it makes sense.

Imagine you lost your memories to a toxic demon ex and basically had to start fresh on your personality with the combo of being a hormonal teen. It's not easy being a teen already but now there's this additional layer.

Ofc Crystal would be hypocritical, ofc she would vent a lot to try and process everything, ofc she would lash out at people for not letting her do what she deems as helpful.

She is just a teen! And honestly I love that writing, because it does show the contrast between the entire gang. They're all supposed to look like teens in story but it all depends on how long they've existed, how emotionally mature they are from the get-go and how trauma affected them.

#to be clear- I have always liked Crystals character #and also remember shes supposed to be 16 #just at some points a little frustrating #at no point have I personally found her annoying #and I havent been a teen in quite a while so it took me a moment to remember #dead boy detectives #dead boy detective agency #crystal palace

[ryllen]

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#HH i WAS just THINKING of drawing yuu visiting his place with a dress after attending the college event with everyone with usual suit get up #and maybe just did a little dance together and have him laughs at the fact she is dressed but actually barefoot; but then ... BUT THEN H #twisted wonderland #twst #sebek zigvolt #twst yuu #twst mc #fanart #i was thinking maybe this is set up by lilia again #but then i want trey senpai sincere *but goofy* compliment on the dress; maybe he helped to pick the dress #anyway that dress is so delicate and beautiful #that website has a lot of good green dresses #he actually suited up tidy just some while ago but he started dismantling himself when he got to be alone out of sadness & frustration #because of what he heard #maybe it was even an official announcement #details detai ls #one can only call her yumimi in several occasions -- or maybe forever if u get to that point of relationship with her #she prefer to be only known as yuu because she thinks the mimi in her name is too cutesy for her #i said this on tags on another post already but just for new people who are looking if u are reading this right now hello #i just wanted to draw yumimi in beautiful dress that was all #it's funny if i just imagine jade elbowing on trey and delivering better compliment for yumimi because jade knows the situation needs it #does it look more like cabbage roll #eeh

[bumblingbabooshka]

Tom & B'Elanna give off closeted gay vibes in that I think if you asked them to describe their ideal woman and man they would respectively describe a swimsuit model (bonus: who's Not Like Other Girls) and the lead in some sort of romantic novel. Nothing even close to a real person. The most generic you can get about straight romantic and sexual attraction.

#B'Elanna would say that OR she'd just name some incredibly basic things that make you sad when you hear them #I can 1000% see a canon scene where B'Elanna is upset about random ensign guy not meeting her standards for a date #and everyone's of course of course of course like 'well YOUR standards aaare a little high B'Elanna' ha ha ha and B'Elanna's like #(she's upset but trying to work to take her mind off it) 'Is it SO hard to find a guy who-' then proceeds to list off basic things #the writers think women want and it's all soft romantic things and Tom's like (bc this is ostensibly a romance scene between them) #'B'Elanna are you serious?' (What???) 'If you went out with a guy like that you'd eat him alive. You need a guy who can keep up with #your-' (I swear to God if you say my temper.) '-Passion.' <- his hands are held defensively in the air and his tone is sarcastic. B'Elanna #is pointing a space wrench or something at him. she quickly pulls away. frustrated and embarrassed. #and everyone's like wow this a very good romantic scene we did that really well I think. #in reality the scene was B'Elanna being upset - Tom making fun of her and ignoring the fact that she's a romantic but in the writer's minds #its Tom being romantic and charming and signaling that he's interested in her

[droodlebug]

Sterling is finally done!!!!! His hair was a pain in the ass but he looks cute and i can't wait to move on to my next oaak project 🥺

#droodles #oc #ocs #sterling #ooak #ooak doll #mh ooak #dollblr #doll #custom doll #custom monster high #he has a lot of point in his outfit where i got sick of sewing and just glued shit together. so dont look Too hard at it #it would be totally removeable had i not glued on his little leg warmers in frustration #or if his pants hadnt decaptitated some of his toes on one foot

[elftwink]

one major difference i have found between service industry work (in my case food service but this is widely applicable to similar jobs) and other public-facing positions is that the job itself is often very similar because people is the same, it's just in service everyone approaches you already thinking they're right and you're a fucking idiot and its their god given right to disrespect you, where in other positions even if they are not nice to you they usually acknowledge that you know more than them on issues pertaining to your job. like the difference in behaviour from people who see you as serving them vs helping them is unreal. i am doing literally the exact same things. customer is always right mentality did irreparable damage to the fabric of society

#good idea generator #i loveee the library front desk everyone is polite and people will just ask you anything #they assume so much knowledge and access to data #ill be like 'just one moment let me look that up in the system' [googles name of school + upcoming events] #also not in a mean way but i never realized until i worked here how little anybody is googling anything #i think its funny and i also love to google things for people so i am perfectly suited to this #and some questions even though they are googleable the issue is more that the person isnt totally sure what theyre asking #but like. the library hours are visible on the home page. and outside the building that you just walked into on a sign #PPL DO NOT READ SIGNS. i knew that from other jobs but good lord people do NOT even GLANCE at signs #ppl would fully walk past like 4 signs about a specific thing and proceed to ask me a q about the thing. after waiting in a line #constantly CONSTANTLY ppl are trying to enter or exit through locked doors. clambering over closed signs to do so #its someones job when the library closes specifically to point out the signs and direct ppl to an open exit #and still often people will get up to the automatic doors and be baffled and confused as to why they dont open #but like even this i dealt w/this at my food service job and it was so frustrating #bc when you had to confront these people they would get MAD AT YOU. furious that they didnt read a sign telling them where to line up #but at the library people are polite and apologetic so you know it's not malice or entitlement ppl are just kind of inattentive #monumental difference tbh i actually love front counter so much people are so fun #and i like it when nobody is actively trying to kill me with their mind while we speak

[rawliverandgoronspice]

You know what I would have loved in an alternate TotK with a more nuanced story and a more nuanced Ganondorf, though? For him to still transform into a dragon, but only after his last boss phase. And then, *as the lore of the game stipulates like three times over* (and then constantly contradicts and ignores even though it was the only thing that had lasting consequences ANYWAY), he actually does lose himself.

Like he's just gonna be an immortal dragon now, letting go of his consciousness and goals but still refusing to be erased. And so you'd have a postgame Hyrule where he's just, chilling in the air alongside Dinraal, Farosh and Naydra, and nobody can do shit about that.

It's just where he is now!

Anyway, I have finished Tears of the Kingdom.

#totk #totk spoilers #ganondorf #like he doesn't even attack you he just gives you passive gloom damage if you get too close #but like wouldn't that be the most passive agressive shit #and by extension the most ganondorf thing to do in that situation #maybe he gets back into bossfight mode during blood moons as a postgame boss fight treat or something #but I don't know I think it could have been both very funny and a little tragic #I think I'll whip out a more nuanced review at some point where I actually talk about what I liked too #but ughhhHHH the narrative part is so frustrating and so hard to ignore

[bhaalsdeepbat]

The tadfools were just SO connected for such a long amount of time that I can't imagine them seeing each other as anything but family after a good run, especially a good Resist Durge run. I think they'd swoop right in for one another like they were siblings if they absolutely needed something.

#bat rambles #processing some planning thoughts cus like #single mom lae'zel who is crushing it but could still use a hand #and finds it more enjoyable when motherhood involves the village all stepping in to help in different ways #little miss “power for the individual at the cost of the strength of the collective” would like #i think motherhood would be fulfilling if it was as nontraditional as githyanki birth gets #enjoying the rearing and comfort but struggling with handling xan when he's being difficult #bc if you were difficult in creche k'liir you put a target on your back #so she doesnt know how to handle how difficult and nonsensical toddlers can be #like she's SO logical and would fight every argument with clear logic but #toddlers do not give a shit #that would be a nightmare for her #wyll and shadowheart would be the top two for dealing with that stage #wyll would be able to play along in a way that he can redirect them #redirection KING #shadowheart is just so playful and patient #she would get frustrated but i think she'd be at a point where she'd just #appreciate even being able to have this moment and commit it to memory #karlach is perfect with all the kids she's the cool aunt #so she encourages the chaos instead of reigning it in #she also would be the one to get them hyped up on sugar and drop them off but not maliciously #astarion would do it maliciously

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

"Cuhut it out- you guys!" "Nu-uh, not until you're all perked up first! You don't want those gym challengers meetin' with an ol' mopey leader, do ya?" "Whitney's right, dear friend. No need to hide that beautiful smile of yours, alright?~"

What it takes to cheer up Johto's beloved ghost boy 👻💕

#some incredibly self-indulgent fluff for my own sake SKJDFSNDFS #Morty was having one of Those days where the weight of his responsibilities as leader and expectations as someone meant to bring back Ho-Oh #-felt a little too heavy to handle (more so than usual) #luckily his best friends (and mayhaps crush of nearly an entire decade) are here to take a stand against his low mood 🤼 #I've been having brainrot of Whitney's dynamics with these two alrighttttt they all deserve to be silly with each other #best wingman award goes to this girlie for putting up with these two's mutual pining antics for years sdkfjskjdfh #the way I see it Morty and Whitney were besties way back before they had even become leaders (with Morty being the older between them) #there were definitely rumors going around between their towns about how they're an item #when the reality is that Whitney's more focused on winning the affections of the other cute girls she hangs out with #while Morty's a repressed gay lad burdened with religious guilt SDJFHUISJDNFS /LH /LH #the second Whitney caught wind of Morty actually developing a crush on someone you just Know she was on his ass Immediately #asking about aaall the details--who he is- what he does- how he dresses- if he could even conceivably pass her standards of how a-- #--fitting partner for her best friend's meant to be #to which an incredibly exasperated Morty struggles to answer because Eusine is just beyond his comprehension /affectionate #when Whitney does eventually get to meet him in person the first time she most certainly takes a jab at his fashion sense SDKJFSDFNS #BUT they do end up getting along a lot better than Morty braced for- which was a huge relief to him #it soon reaches that point where Eusine's secretly asking her for details on the things Morty likes and how to possibly impress him #all the while Morty's asking her for advice on how he could cope with his feelings when he's still unsure on whether they'd be requited #Whitney finds the whole ordeal simultaneously very funny and perhaps one of the most frustrating things imaginable SDKJFSKDNFS #enough of me yapping thouuughhhhhh I should save that for its own post 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️ #pokemon tickle #gym leader morty #morty pokemon #gym leader whitney #whitney pokemon #mystery man eusine #eusine pokemon #eusine #lee!morty #ler!eusine

[ask-the-totally-real-peppino]

Oh all powerful mun please let us see fiends beastie form/silly

(No.

I am not going to show it, and I am not going to answer any more asks like this.)

#ooc post #I know you put the tone indicator on this but I am a little frustrated now #asks like this make me feel forced to spoil something I want to keep secret (even if I know that is not asker's intention) #you guys will see it just please be patient #I am busy and I don't have the time nor spoons to work on any thing related to here right now #speaking of I gotta finish some work so be back at some point later

[anotherpapercut]

working with children really will make you examine your thought processes and emotional reactions like nothing else. I've found myself being so much more thoughtful in my daily life about how I respond to my emotions and environment, as well as the reasoning behind why others behave the way they do

#yesterday i got really frustrated and overwhelmed at one point because this one little girl keeps getting really upset when she cant help me #like shell ask to help and i wont have a task (or ive run out bc shes already helped) shes capable of so i tell her that #and thank her for being thoughtful and helpful. admittedly the first time this happened i was really frustrated w her already #bc she had made a huge mess doing something i told her not to do and then didnt want to clean it up and she only came back #and asked to help because her friend had been helping me. so i was like girl. you didnt even clean up the last mess #but i also had nothing for her to do. anyway she started screaming and hid under a table so then her friend did it sith her just. because. #idk kids will see their friend freaking out and they do it too. and i understand it but my god. i dont deal well with really loud noise #and she did it again yesterday. i let her help me and then i ran out of tasks and she started crying and saying i never let her help #and for some reason there were like 6 other kids in there all wanting to help so then several of them started freaking out #and i could not handle it. i literally told my coworker like im about to cry right now lmao #and later the little girl was like wanting to hug me and talk to me and acting like nothing happened and i found myself wanting to withdraw #like i was feeling like i wanted to avoid her and not speak to her or be cold but i also knew i didnt want to treat her that way #and i took a couple minutes by myself and thought about why i felt that way‚ what the effects of that would be‚ and how the kid felt #and i really just had to remind myself that she was feeling just as many emotions as i was but that shes only had 6 years #to learn how to manage them and deal with them in a productive way. she wasnt trying to upset me. she wasnt trying to make me mad #she was just dealing with her emotions in the only way she knew how. and im an adult and if she can get over it i really need to get over it #long ass tag story sorry

[minnaci]

i truly think some folks on here would rly benefit from sitting with themselves and their willingness to dismiss posts / fics with low interaction count as "flops". like yes i love the Look At My Flop Posts Boy energy we have going but also i have quite frankly never posted a flop in my life bc all of my posts are bangers to ME

#thinkmin! #when i say 'some folks' im not talkin abt moots / friends / followers but more just ppl i have seen in the wild #to everyone reading this tho: every single post is a banger if u label it so in ur mind #ur 100k note shitpost is a BANGER. ur 0 note 150k slowburn fic is a BANGER also can u give me tips on how to write something that long #idk it just makes me sad a little bit to see ppl getting discouraged and putting themselves down and diminishing their work #bc of some Metrics on some App #my qualifications to talk abt this r i have Never posted a flop post in my LIFE and i also have never had a fic get over 1k notes #idk. i know it's easier said than done. in no way am i diminishing fic writers' frustrations w lack of interaction—ive been there too tbh #ig my point is like. all posts r bangers ESP if u put ur time n effort n love into it and it brought u joy

[biblicalhorror]

The most frustrating part of engaging in any of this discourse with pro-Israel people is that they claim there's just something ineffable about "seeing and understanding" how supporting Palestinian liberation is directly calling for the eradication of Jewish people (as if that type of rhetoric isn't exactly how actual antisemitism often manifests in online spaces but that's a topic for another day)

They get through people debunking the "the land belongs to the people of Israel anyway" argument and the "LGBTQ Palestinians are safe in Israel" argument and the "Genocide isn't what's happening here so you should educate yourself" argument and when all of those points are meticulously disproven over and over they still stand with "Well, myself and your Jewish friends see the hate you have in your heart for us" and it truly doesn't matter what you say at that point because even if you yourself are Jewish they will claim that refusing to support the state, government and military of Israel is inherently hateful and bigoted, as if a religious ethnostate is some inherent human right that is being taken away from them. I know many of them are blinded by the relentless propaganda that's been around their whole lives and how hard it is to break free from a belief system that is so tied to your core identity as a human being but it is so frustrating watching people being led straight to the point over and over again and just turning around and refusing to see it.

It's also so frustrating to see people using the momentum of this movement to casually tack on actual antisemitism to these discussions, as if having Jewish people in positions of power is why the US bends over backwards to excuse the actions of Israel and not, yknow, the fact that our government directly benefits from having a military stronghold in the middle east. I've talked to some well-meaning pro-Palestine friends irl who casually use antisemetic talking points because they've ALSO bought into the narrative that Israeli = Jewish and so they blame the actions of Israel and the IDF on Jewish people's "religious values" and ignore the fact that this conflict really has almost nothing to do with religion itself and everything to do with capitalism, imperialism and maintaining the US's status as a so-called "global power".

#dont get me wrong there are lots of people on the pro palestine side who are very much aware of and vigilant against antisemitic rhetoric #but i genuinely worry about some of my non-jewish leftist friends and allies falling down some super shady pipelines because of all of this #i spend a lot of my time on my public facing social media sharing articles and graphics and whatnot about antisemitism #and how careful we need to be when calling out these atrocities and our government's complicity in them #but when one side is genuinely claiming with no evidence or argument that being against colonial occupation is just antisemitism #it makes it so hard to call out actual antisemitism within these spaces bc it delegitimizes antisemitism as a concern #i just want to scream #like. im not even jewish and i vividly remember when we had a special lesson in girl scouts about how wonderful Israel is #and they had us make little mini versions of the israel flag and they told us that israel stood for the safety of the jewish people #and i came home and i told my mom about how cool israel was #and she promptly pulled me out of girl scouts #which at the time felt unfair because she didnt explain why #but also how do you explain the horrors of colonialism and imperialism to your newly zionist 10 year old #anyway the point is that if i as a non-jewish girl scout was exposed to that kind of propaganda #i can only imagine how inescapable it must be for many american jews in the US #and i truly empathize with the amount of unlearning that needs to be done #and how hard it must be to let go of some of these ideas #but that doesnt make it any less frustrating to watch these dynamics play out on such a massive scale #and i hold so much respect for people in white jewish communities re-educating themselves and standing on the right side of history #as well as for all of the people of color and especially American Palestinians standing up and using their voices as much as they do #personal

[mediumsizedpidegon]

thinking about Shang Qinghua as a calamity again...

#svsss #shang qinghua #technically counts as tgcf? #just the idea of sqh dying and coming back is so compelling because in canon he literally just going through the motions. he's given up. #he doesn't WANT to die (from mbj's hand– from cang qiong's fall) but that's all he sees. it's the only end he can imagine to his story. #so the act of getting him to the point where he WANTS to stay– where it doesn't matter that death has come to take him he's not DONE YET is #revolutionary to his character (his ‟character‟– his role as well) in of itself and requires some canon divergence to justify it #and it's INTENSELY interesting to imagine him getting there #Imagine: An Ding is cruel. It is cruel and inefficient and its cruelties only make it more so. Sqh is ‟awarded‟ with the role of Peak Lord #of An Ding (this crown of barbed wire). And sqh doesn't MEAN to change the plot but– it's awful here! It's so awful that it's OFFENSIVE #and before sqh knows it two years have passed and An Ding is a mess of growing pains: of infrastructure torn down and rebuilt #but it's... better. It's hard work. It undeniably sucks and makes sqh cry from frustration all the time! Balancing the fixing of all the #shit his shizun left broken while staying on top of his usual duties is a procession of sleepless nights and little pains. (perhaps sqh has #growing pains too. change is hard for all that it's necessary.) #and then– and THEN! He's on his way to a trade meeting or spying for mbj or something else: it's doesn't matter. #And however the stage is set sqh dies and– sqh's life is finally starting to NOT suck! yqy has been asking for his future plans and sqh has #been answering. qqq found a scrap of a picture book he wrote when he was a senior disciple and demanded he finish it because it #‟had potential to increase literacy‟! He has a second command that he trusts won't stab him at the slightest provocation! His life is busy #and more than a little hellish but it's HIS. He's changed things even he didn't mean to. #An Ding's HIS. he got rid of the assholes and poured so much WORK into the people left and then the people who came later. #All of it boils down to this: it's unfair. it's too soon. it wasn't supposed to happen like this. #and so sqh dies for the second time and screams himself back to existence if not life. #the system cracking beneath his teeth– puppeteer turned to power for the puppet to consume. #(So there is a ghost on An Ding for all that only the ghost knows it.)

[obessivedork]

The more I think about it the more annoyed I am by the amount of Deadwoman Sadmen in Fallout 4. Like @the head writer WHO THE FUCK HURT YOU???? @Todd Howard WHY did you approve SO many of the EXACT SAME character backstory for MULTIPLE characters in ONE GAME??

You know what? I WOULD rather a bitter divorced MacCready who nontheless is looking for a cure for his son because that's still his kid! I'd rather Kellog's wife?/gf? LEFT him because he was a piece of shit merc! Must it have been a wife dying for Deacon to feel bad and change his ways? why not some random community member or or a friend something? Time and time again this series uses women as plot devices rather than as characters and fallout 4 is the worst offender. Not only is it misogyny and showing a severe lack of anyone but the most generic cis white men they could pull off the street to sit in the writer's room but it's So. Lazy. Every. Time!!!!

Sexism aside are they not embarassed with their lack of imagination and hack storytelling?

#don't get me wrong I'm still having fun but like fo3 before it I have to ignore a significant chunk of the... ''storytelling'' of 4. #not an attack on all of the writers in the series or FO4 fans- I'd be throwing stones in a glass house given some of the things I like #But fuck Todd Coward and Fuck the head writer for FO4 specifically he's a hack and he should be fired #I'm assuming Deacon's telling the truth in his story though it IS such an easy cliche fallback narrative he could easily be lying #Like NV isn't innocent and it's one of my favourite things of all time but even my first playthrough when I ment Boone #my reaction was a bored and underwhelmed ''oh... we're doing this? I guess so.'' #at least this dumb trope was used a LITTLE more sparingly because the writers were compotent and made OTHER stories!! #FIND NEW STORIES CHALLENGE #fo4 critical #not going to tag anything else I'm just expressing frustration I'm not here for a fight #I'm just. As a writer if someone pointed out I'd done this I'd be SO embarassed and CHANGE it #also I LOVE Mac and Deacon dearly it's not about them it's about the fucking writing decisions

[smute]

big epiphany you guys. big. huge.

#cliffnotes for context: smute almost finish masters. smute think oh‚ maybe phd not crazy wacko shit‚ maybe i can try #but smute also low self esteem. with any small setback - smute think oh what is point. smute bound to fail #problem is: smute genuine self doubt = smute quotidian frustration #ok normal english now #so thats what i realized today. a lot of the ''small'' things i dream of (financial independence‚ a nice little apartment etc) are #expressions of some low level frustration with my nomadic broke student life #rather than genuine desires. and as dumb or as #duh #obvious as that may sound rn #its actually huge for me that i was able to recognize the difference today #this question of what i will do after i graduate has been haunting me for the past year #and i am now realizing that a lot of my own arguments have nothing to do with what i want #just because they're things i don't currently have doesn't mean they would be fulfilling #and #again. duh. #but like. between this debilitating self doubt and certain external pressures 🤨 it was hard to see the difference #anyway i basically just explored some alternative scenarios today #like specific scenarios. went on indeed found some really good stuff and tried to imagine my life a year from now if i took this or that jo #and the end result was that i fucking hated it. they were all great options on paper but the takeaway was that i would never forgive myself #if i didnt give this a try. if i prioritized some vague notion of independence or this idea of ''settling down'' or whatever the fuck #over the one thing that ive got going for me #like i still don't know if the academic path will be any more fulfilling than some other job #god knows my entire academic career so far has been an insane uphill battle. but it's also been so fucking rewarding. like nothing else #and i also still dont know how genuine this wish is #if it's not maybe still about proving myself to some imaginary authority #but like. how long can you psychoanalyze yourself before your goddamn head explodes #no matter how pure my motivation is im beginning to understand that i dont want this to be the end of the road #and maybe that's enough #&

[chibishortdeath]

I cannot explain how often I think about this part of the Simon’s Quest story. Ough I wanna try to explain every tiny line of this in detail, but I can’t think of words rn aaa, so I’m gonna dump random disjointed thoughts in the tags for now.

I’m putting the links to the English translations of the first two games’ Japanese manuals because their stories are so much cooler than what the western releases got. The second I get everything I can or have thought about this guy together I’m doing in depth story and character analysis for some silly whip man NES games tho—

#castlevania #castlevania games #text post #simon belmont #oahsjfkwuwhflshdjdka #I can’t words rn #and I’m so frustrated about it #like I had multiple points I was gonna make but I just can’t put them down at all for no reason #I should rant about how they mention decay in this one tho— #decay is not fun and would be very horrifying to experience while alive fun fact! #Simon is not doing so great— #the American manual describes is as more of a soul effecting curse but like #slowly rotting alive is so much more horrifying #i imagine that was probably not mentioned in the American release for the same reason why they censored blood in some games tho lol #also the ominous last line in this screenshot #that’s given a little bit more sad implications when the mysterious woman tells him something about courage afterwards #the ‘please remember bitter memories in Transylvania’ at the end of the whole thing #implying that 7 year gap may have been him just avoiding fixing the curse because of the trauma of what happened there #that also implying he was initially gonna give up and die without actually doing anything about this #it’s so interesting that the few insights into Simon as a character that we get are like #he highly doubts that he’ll be as good as his ancestors #and then he gets cursed and his first response is to give up and slowly let it kill him #like WOW those are some important character details for sure #it’s so hard to talk about him without immediately being like ‘oh no poor guy’ #theory posting #kinda not like whole theory but a small piece of speculation material lol