#iwillbefine

[maidenariana]

I really don't want to ruin your feeds full of bright happy holiday cheer. However, I want to be real today. The left photo is me 2 days ago while celebrating the holiday early with my kids. The right photo is after 2 days of once again being left out of family celebrations. This year is especially hard because I have a new nephew I desperately wanted to see on his first Christmas. I miss out due to one family member who can't deal with me being trans or lgbt+ (I still don't know what the actual problem is because he has not spoken to me in over 6 years). The real rub though is that other family members refuse to stand up to him and thereby give some credence to the fact that maybe I should be left out of things. I have alternatives. I was invited to a lovely home today with friends but after two nights of insomnia and feeling the pain of it all, I feel physically ill. I am extremely mentally tough. I do not want to see comments that my mental health is important..etc..etc.. this is about pain and suffering caused by harm being done. It is cause and effect. I will bounce back and be "fine" because I have grown used to this and I am strong and able to find my happiness despite being mistreated and left aside. So many of us get labeled as having mental health issues when it is something else entirely. It is about natural reactions to mistreatment for being a member of the LGBTQ+ community and it is time for that mistreatment to stop. We are continually punished just for being ourselves - by families.. by governments.. by churches. If you host a family get together and you leave someone out to keep the peace because you harbor a bigot then you are making a horrible decision. You are causing harm. No amount of apologies and setting up alternative gatherings can make up for the damage you do by leaving a family member out in the cold on Christmas. Feel free to share this with a family member who is leaving you out of things. Tell them Ms. Ari is watching them. I love you. #mistreatedforbeingme #lgbt #iwillbefine #transvengers #maidenariana #transgender #twitchaffiliate #youtuber #ihaveapatreon #arihasanonlyfans #linksinprofile #instaprofilehasmylinks https://www.instagram.com/p/CX7KISUuK28/?utm_medium=tumblr

#mistreatedforbeingme #lgbt #iwillbefine #transvengers #maidenariana #transgender #twitchaffiliate #youtuber #ihaveapatreon #arihasanonlyfans #linksinprofile #instaprofilehasmylinks

[mblessedsoul]

Confidence is not "They'll like me". Confidence is "I'll be fine if they don't". . . . #selfconfidencequotes #selfconfident #selfconfidenceiskey #dontneedapproval #iwillbefine #strongwithin #strongerinside https://www.instagram.com/p/CMoAZ2JFnaa/?igshid=1vdygqyiivsfq

#selfconfidencequotes #selfconfident #selfconfidenceiskey #dontneedapproval #iwillbefine #strongwithin #strongerinside

[fatalflower]

yup. 

#not having a good day #snow #cold #iwillbefine #ialwaysam #but unfortunately

[palaahyadyam]

WORK IN PROGRESS... Whatever the Most High will may be I will definitely be just fine. His will will always be better than my wants! Read that again! #workinprogress #workingprogress #mosthigh #will #plans #iwillbefine #workhard #playhard #workhardplayhard #workhardstayhumble #inmyownlane #watchmework #watchmegrow #buildinganempire #king #queen #prince #princess #levicrowned (at Philadelphia, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/B_DEtUnHXdc/?igshid=15rrc2vu9jfex

#workinprogress #workingprogress #mosthigh #will #plans #iwillbefine #workhard #playhard #workhardplayhard #workhardstayhumble #inmyownlane #watchmework #watchmegrow #buildinganempire #king #queen #prince #princess #levicrowned

[deedraw]

For the First Time in my Life

For the first time in my life, I understand the need of some people to document and share every little aspect of their lives. I won't, in fact I've told myself I never will.

But it appears the only rules I ever break are my own.

So just this once, I'm going to share a little aspect of my tiny reclusive life to the small collective that finds this hidden corner of the internet. In the coming years I will regret this, but now, it's needed, now... It's Medecine.

Tomorrow I pick a fight. There will be no violence. Tomorrow I take a stand. Cause life will fold like paper. Tomorrow I seek justice. Though only in the sense of protecting injustice. Tomorrow I risk it all... There is no prize.

My stakes aren't as high as any real issue. What I stand to lose, while more than gain, is nothing in the face of the day after. But ultimately... I am just tired of this... This.

#iwillbefine #butmyworldmightnotbe #IMightBeHated

[lovelightharmony-blog]

Time for a #personalupdate the past weeks have been intense. I talked to several people and they all say there is a 95% chance I suffer from #ptsd. Hell I got a post traumatic stress disorder and I might as well own it. I also took active steps into making changes. To clear my head I decided to join a gym. In 3 weeks I have the first appointment with some #mentalhealth expert lady we shall see what the future holds.. I have to admit it was a lot to cope with.. but baby steps are also steps! #fightingptsd #mentalhealthawareness #posttraumaticstressdisorder #iwillbefine #iwillbefierce https://www.instagram.com/p/B4BALipnv5Z/?igshid=ays4wm0ozfec

#personalupdate #ptsd #mentalhealth #fightingptsd #mentalhealthawareness #posttraumaticstressdisorder #iwillbefine #iwillbefierce

[ellychanunchida]

#rowdtla #iwillbefine (at ROW DTLA) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2UwlItJmYRRE6_aaM6JAveQ22xtKpw0gz7srM0/?igshid=121y406melzst

#rowdtla #iwillbefine

[mystoryoflifeandsurviving-blog]

#overcoming #copingup #iwillbefine #newdirection #survivingsexualassault https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz8cpopgDQl/?igshid=1l8fh4turqyt1

#overcoming #copingup #iwillbefine #newdirection #survivingsexualassault

[oceanwildatelier]

Shadow of May @thecrackedamethyst Day 3 How do I treat others and how do I treat myself? Five of Cups and Three of Swords Ouch! Well, both cards speak true. When it comes to friends, I treat them as if they were cups filled to the brim. One jostle from me and out spills the contents and I feel like there is no recovery from it. The cups are still fine, but that precious love I feel they had is all gone. So, I tend to try and walk on eggshells. As for myself, the Three of Swords is very accurate. I tend to treat myself as if I am damaged beyond repair. Despite the fact I always come off as chipper and confident in social settings, I don't care for myself much. I don't like the fact I have to rely on others at times cause I can't drive. I hate the way I look most of the time. I despise the fact I can't seem to get my eating habits under control. My lack of energy when it comes to exercising is shameful. I am just broken. Normally I avoid telling the truth. But might as well since I was called out on it. #shadowofmay #tarotchallenge #day3 #truthhurts #fiveofcups #threeofswords #iwillbefine #smilesallaround

#iwillbefine #smilesallaround #shadowofmay #fiveofcups #tarotchallenge #day3 #threeofswords #truthhurts

[starlighttori]

Hey, did you know

If you're looking for an alien look with your make up, just cry and smear it. Green palettes help really make this pop.

#depression #donottakethisseriously #iwillbefine #justnottoday

[moving-away]

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#imfine #illbefine #imjustuseless #worthless #emptiness #iwillbefine #iwill #... #iwill... #:)

[curlywagg]

Massive bowl of comfort food. Quorn, noodles and sweetcorn in coconut milk and curry spices 😭 #mindfulness #positivethinking #positivethoughts #cbd #iwillbefine #cognativetherapy #anxiety #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness 🍴 #lunch #leafygreens #veganfood #veganofig #veganism #veganfoodisnormalfood #crueltyfree #ethicalvegan 🌸 #thisisme☮ #vegan #wiccan #geek #feminist #bisexual #lovemotherearth #savourthemoment #justbeyourself #blessedbe https://www.instagram.com/p/BqvCMFlA1nc/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1w2dojuvgrr70

#mindfulness #positivethinking #positivethoughts #cbd #iwillbefine #cognativetherapy #anxiety #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #lunch #leafygreens #veganfood #veganofig #veganism #veganfoodisnormalfood #crueltyfree #ethicalvegan #thisisme☮ #vegan #wiccan #geek #feminist #bisexual #lovemotherearth #savourthemoment #justbeyourself #blessedbe

[anoceanofweaknessesandfears]

Oggi finalmente è il giorno del mio dissertation meeting, e ho la stessa ansia di quando ho consegnato la mia prima tesi di laurea. Qualsiasi dei miei due progetti approveranno mi renderà comunque felice, ma voglio rendere i miei professori fieri di me. Auguratemi buona fortuna 🍀 “May the odds be even in my favor” . #dissertation #meeting #dissertationmeeting #dissertationmadness #trinitycollege #trinitycollegedublin #dublin #artsandhumanities #humanities #bookworm #student #anxiety #nervous #iwillbefine #itwillbefine #godofliterature #helpme #lastdayintrinity #girl #mirror #reflection #myself #selfie #goodluck #letsdoit (at Trinity College)

#girl #humanities #itwillbefine #trinitycollegedublin #artsandhumanities #dublin #dissertationmadness #student #dissertation #iwillbefine #bookworm #anxiety #goodluck #trinitycollege #meeting #reflection #godofliterature #helpme #lastdayintrinity #myself #nervous #mirror #letsdoit #selfie #dissertationmeeting

[pebblescorner33]

The last couple of weeks have really got me down. With losing my car, my Id and debit card in a matter of days of each other. Plus not able to get a new car because of my job and needing to get back to work. Getting turned down by every person I have tried to get a car from being of my job, needing a cosigner, and/or down payment which I don't have. And finally, trying to find a "regular" job as well. It's been rough. But I know that I am going to make it... #sometimesyouhavetobelieveinyourself #moretganothersdo #dontdoubtme #sorrynotsorry #iwillbefine (at Mira Mesa, San Diego)

#sorrynotsorry #sometimesyouhavetobelieveinyourself #moretganothersdo #dontdoubtme #iwillbefine

[mariana-duerre]

Every man has his own destiny: the only imperative is to follow it, to accept it, no matter where it leads him. -Henry Miller #sefuelaluz #candles #nite #darktime #thrills #iwillbefine

#thrills #sefuelaluz #candles #nite #iwillbefine #darktime

[dmidagad]

updated: one more day. #hyatt. #hyattregency. #hyattscottsdale. #pleasedontgo. #no. #cantbelieveit. #itwillbehard. #iwillbefine. #onemoreday. #truestory. (at Hyatt Regency Scottsdale Resort and Spa)

#hyattregency #iwillbefine #onemoreday #hyatt #cantbelieveit #no #itwillbehard #hyattscottsdale #truestory #pleasedontgo