#its fandom or random idk lol

[winthingz]

dom winwin 🤭

#its fandom or random idk lol #winwin smut #nct smut #wayv smut #winwin #wayv #nct

[risibledeer]

so you know that feeling when your parents go through your procreate randomly so you don't have time to hide any questionable stuff and its full of fanart of these minecraft youtubers and animes and particularly this one guy who your account is practically a fanpage for, and they look at you weirdly because they have seen a lotta artwork which totally makes sense with context of the videos but seems completely out of left field without it, for example why is there a fish guy holding a book, what is all this blood for, why is there a giant fish lady next to a small ugly guy which you have captioned fish frickers, snails??? plus purple haired guy eating - what is that? what's a coffee jelly? and is that a blond guy in a maid dress? what is the dog-guy doing eating icecream with a blond guy? also why are there references to neck kisses? and also should i be worried about the concerning amount of times you've drawn this one guy in this one single piece of fanart (27 times btw lol) and wow your art is actually kinda good and i didn't know cause the last time you showed me your art was of your underdeveloped oc and bnha which was a year and a half ago. plus if that wasn't weird enough you've got artwork you uploaded to your tumblr signed with your username which you have not told your parents about so now you're worried they're gonna search up your tumblr and maybe see more of the said fanart and even worse your captions but also what have they seen already because i didn't turn of the layers on all my sketches so there's some wild shit on there and also cuss words (yes ik frickers is not exactly the worst cuss word out there, but it is in this economy) and your mom saw you doing your homework on your computer and was like oh are you fanboying again which like wth where did that come from but also mom i've seen some questionable shit on your phone and your dad who isn't exactly familiar with gayish stuff because we're from a pretty conservative country is like oh yeah homophobia bad all of a sudden in the middle of a random conversation about genetics of all things and geezus did i just solve homophobia and also apparently fishphobia in my family with fanart of anime people kissing and minecraft?

*deep breath* yeah....i dunno that feeling either........

draw fanart of anime and minecraft and change the world everybody, one maid dress and fish-person at a time. i love my parents lol

ps i might delete this soon lol

#smallishbeans #is the guy i drew 27 times in one fanart lol #grian #the mending guy #ldshadowlady #is the giant fish lady #saiki k #is the coffee jelly #JIMMY CANONICALLY WEARS A MAID DRESS IN SOS #i promise im not drawing random people in maid dresses #l've inadvertently achieved world peace guys #to be clear i do show my art to my family #but i do like the charcoal fineartsy stuff so its more of that i show than my fanart #so like they know i like to draw and are supportive but they just didn't know i was a fandom-type gal #but hey my dad and mom are too for like different things so idk what i was worried about i love them lol #empires smp #life smp #trafficblr #martyn inthelittlewood #rendog #joel smallishbeans #jimmy solidarity #fanart #hermitcraft #hermitblr #mc sos #minecraft sos

[rexscanonwife]

I'm going on a fliiiiight soon!! Send doodle ideas or something 😂

#jane journals #idk like either self ship stuff or random fandom doodles and such ajrjgk #can be from my romantic or platonics list #or even just like stuff im into!! #i brought my tablet but im probably just gonna be using my sketchbooks lol #its easier to turn ur brain off that way uwu #but yeah AAAAHHHH #gonna be seeing my fam with my partner #im nervous #but...excited for it too 😁 #ive met her parents its time she meet mine and my sisters #im also gonna see my bff which im supes excited for as well!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I think my favorite comments I get on my art are:

It looks like illiterations from a kids book

It's very "shaped"

And people tagging it as watercolor when I actually use pens and alcohol markers (and try desperately to make it look like watercolor haha)

#i also just love when u post something from a random fandom and u get all the fandom related icons and usernames #i think thats v fun. idk im trying to b in my recovery arc lol so thinking positive thoughts #i guess thats easy to do now but im due to lose my mind in the next few days bc it seems more and more like im #v sensitive to hormone changes. im already super tired for no reason. dont make me tired make me hypomanic. i prefer that #its way more fun to be losing my mind in a positive direction. i mean theyre both not great but ya kno #unrelated

[charmac]

PLEASEE POST A NEW CHAPTER OF THE SUGAR DADDY FIC I AM ON MY HANDS AND KNEES 😭😭😭😭😭

Updating All These Nights tonight and then Sugar is next to be updated, promise promise.

#ask #sugar daddy fic #i have been in a writing rut that is known #so i needed to work out some more canon stuff to get the voices back yk? hence updating the other fic first #but also i still feel like the last chapter fell off hard cos i got like no comments #which i know is like 'who cares' but i think i majority switched the style (like for myself) last chapter and i really like it but #if people didnt respond to it #im a little stumped on where to go #(again not in the story but style-wise) #people do not respond to long chapters? people dont respond to the dennis chapters? too much time wasted on sex? idk im #yeah like just a little lost on what people enjoy in the story and what i should gut/cut down on i guess #cos last chapter is hands down my favourite ive written #content wise its close to 6.. #but style-wise i know its so fucking long but i thought it flowed really well and god i love exploring dennis' weird relationship with sex #but to me like only 4 people finished that chapter #to clarify. in my head there are literally only max 10 people who read this thing #and 2 of them are my random friends who arent in this fandom and just want to read what im writing #and neither of them bothered with a 27k chapter.. lol #so im stumped trying to pace the writing and rework how i thought it would go #cos i dont know what people enjoy in the fic!!! and seemingly did not respond to in what i thought was the best chapter so far.. lmfao #sorry you caught me on 30hrs awake and way too much coffee

[hecksupremechips]

A funny, kinda annoying thing I see a lot as someone who’s read my fair share of m/m fanfic is watching women (cuz 99.9% of the writers tend to be women) trying to figure out how guys talk to each other and just making them like. Really gross and weirdly misogynistic for the sake of “authenticity” in male interactions akdjks. Like the guys will just be like “chicks are great, I love fucking them and looking at their fat tits and never calling them again when they get all clingy” and you look at the character saying this and its like Luigi

#the klock keeps ticking #its one thing if the guys youre writing are supposed to be kinda shitty and it gets addressed #but ive just seen it pop up with the most random ass characters lol #like in some ry/min fics i remember one where they were talking and mentioned some woman and ryan was just like ‘yeah what a stupid bitch’ #like AAAAAAAAAA why did you just make him say that he would not fucking say that 😭 #its especially weird given how like i said this pops up in gay fics and trust me gay men can be assholes im aware #but in my experience like idk me and other guys are never just like. haha fucking WOMEN amirite #maybe its cuz im not a complete asshole and i like talking to guys who are also not assholes #in cases where some guy youre talking to does say something misogynistic like. at the very fucking least youll think to yourself #wow this guy is a misogynistic asshole! #idk how to articulate this its just a thing i see a lot and i hate it #unless youre gonna do something with it AND its in character just like. stopppp writing all this misogyny??? #stop it! get some help! #also this isnt me complaining about women writing m/m fics cuz id have nothing without them akdjsk #its just. one of those fandom misogyny things that should stop

[goldiipond]

hate that thing tumblr app does now where trying to post a post with no tags brings up a prompt to add some tags to ‘help people find your post’ and i really hate that it even pops up when you try to save a post to your drafts. like girl its a draft. no one is finding it in there. i might not even find it to be honest

#skye's ramblings #just like. the disconnect between this feature and most the userbase for it to only exist to say 'help people find this!! seek interaction!' #most untagged posts are personal posts/op just saying literally whatever random thought is on their mind. theyre not lookinf for clout #theres a reason i censor popular fandom terms in the tags of my rambles skye tier 2 illness is follower exclusive. i talk a lot <3 #idk i just think its a really funny feature to add to a site where getting popular is widely seen as one of the worst things that can happen #most common thing for someone to do when their post blows up isnt to celebrate the clout its to just delete it/turn off rbs. lol!! #also it pops up when you rb a post without tags too and just. thats not even how that works. come on man #they could mean 'find it' in an organizational sense too but i doubt it and if that is the case um. bmaybe fix your search function first #i dont personally see this window much as you can probably imagine. but it is annoying when im just drafting thoughts to come back to #'ooghhhhh give me tags help people find me' well its cute you think youre special. youare going in the drafts

[caffeinatedopossum]

#i kind of stopped posting because i hated everything i made lol #BUT this pushed me to get better. i think. i hope. idk #im really enjoying art again lately and its nice. i just dont have many people to share that with anymore #a lot of my tiktoks are about mental health or fandoms or just random jokes i think of/funny scenarios that happen #so basically exactly what i post here but in tiktok format

[martybaker]

uhm, hi!

so, I may have read your dreamling post about backpockets and it kinda zapped me in the brain and I wrote a ficlet about it in like 1 hour?

Is it alright if I post it, linking your post and crediting you for the dialogue (I kept all of it, only changed a word or two)?

Do you have an ao3 account? I would love to put you as co-author since you did write all the dialogue!

And, sorry about all the questions but your pronouns are she/her, correct?

Hi :) omg that is so great, i am so happy that it inspired you to write a ficlet! Of course you can post it, i will be delighted to read it!

While I do have an ao3 account, it´s totally cool if you just link the post, i don’t need any other credits 😅

I am so honored that my silly little thoughts are getting attention let alone that they could inspire more lovely works, thank you for letting me know!

(and yes my pronouns are she/her :)

#no really idk if its the fandom or if the tumblr algorithms got better #but i never experienced my random silly thoughts getting such attention so fast #i am astonished and honored and so happy to get to be a part of this fandom #sb-essebi #asks #(funnily enugh my ao3 handle is RobynTheRaven and it has nothing to do with the sandman it has been so since its birth lol #but it’s uhh totally empty…for now at least #let’s see if the dreamling fandom is gonna change that :3 #my ramblings

[candyunicornsateme]

What kind of games do you like?

Ahh okay like in general? I assume types of video games? Well I like rpg games and shit like The Sims. Most of my fav games tend to be single player story games! I'll list a bunch I love though lol

Grew up playing tons of The Sims. The Sims: Bustin' Out (ps2) and The Sims 2 (pc) I've put a billion hours into. I loved the classic Tomb Raiders, and I loved the first 3 MGS games, especially 3. Shadow of the Colossus. The ps2 generation of GTA games -- I was fuckin’ OBSESSED with playing GTA: San Andreas... fuckin' running over pedestrians while listening to the radio playing fuckin' Stone Temple Pilots. LOVED playing Skyrim too, put so much fucking time into that oh my god... Have I thought of AUs with that shit.

Lately I've been mostly playing around with Sims4, mostly building, or The Sims 1. Or I'll play some Stardew Valley for awhile lol... I've been procrastinating on ACNH.... but there's that too lmao.

Or I just watch all the crazy indie horror games on youtube lol. Would you think I’m the type for that? Well I love me that shit.

#ask ambs #anon #i feel guilty answering non-fandom asks so 👉👈 #sorry for the delay #not sure what prompted this but! im open #to answering stuff if there's things yous wanna know #ofc that also goes for any fandom stuff lol #hope I answered right LOL #minds been scattered #ive drafted so many random ass hcs and thoughts but its so slow here?? #stuff isn't going around much even for rlly amazing artists #makes me a bit bummed #but idk i hope in the meantime we can just chat about hcs #and au's and ideas ;v;;; please please

[handsomejack-ingoff]

drooling over the idea of rhys and tim just like. being little assholes together. i bet they people watch out of the massive windows around atlas hq and mock the way some of the people look. theyre assholes. as a treat

#we dont talk about how shitty they are enough #like yall forget how horrible rhys can be sometimes i swear #he took maliwan PoWs and just kinda forgot about them and didnt care if they got tortured or killed by someone that wasnt him #he blew up katagawas ship that more than likely had other people on it #and we know that the zanara at least had a cat cafe iirc #so like. he DID kill a bunch of innocent kitties for a relatively petty form of revenge #sure katagawa was bombing random civ areas first but that doesnt make it okay for rhys to continue to kill innocents after tales #lol. #not to mention in new tales he acts like such an asshole #idk. im just tired of rhys being seen as like pure or wholly pleasant #because hes not. he can be a total prick. i think hes a good person but socially hes still an asshole #he does really good things for the most part #and i think when he does bad shit its justified #mostly #but he can still be an asshole and i still love him #i like it when characters arent perfect beacons of morality. its realistic. it makes them relatable #i mean shit dude handsome jack is one of the most relatable characters to me cmon #anyway. fandom uke disease is the worst in the borderlands fandom im convinced

[astro-iplier]

Random hcs the fandom agrees upon for some reason (fine not everyone does they’re just shared for some reason)

Dr Iplier's name is Edward

Dark's hands are cold

Actor Mark and his pissy pencil mustache

Bim being a cannibal*

Google Yellow's name is Oliver/Ollie

Murderplier's name is Murdock Malarkey

Bim's colour is purple lol bc no one has been assigned the colour purple

For some reason every time Dark is described as hugging someone he puts his hand on the back of their head and thats oddly specific but that makes sense somehow??

Yes yes and Host is Isaac. Wasn’t sure about it being too popular but ik its there*

Wilford being pan specifically. Which just makes sense and anyways he’s gay in wmlw so

Author and his golden eyes

Damien and Celines last name being either Whitacre or Doom*

Googles are literal brothers or kinda found family ig?

Yandere is trans*

Bing being defective*

Yancy is in love with you— *gets shot* guys its in your HEAD PLEASE*

If you can think of any others tell me thankyou

*me personally don’t agree *IDK

#markiplier egos #iswm #ahwm #wkm #headcanons #dr iplier #darkiplier #actor mark #bim trimmer #googleplier #murdock malarkey #yancy ahwm #the host markiplier #danger in fiction #the author markiplier #damien the mayor #celine the seer #wilford warfstache

[cemeterything]

i hope this doesnt come off as rude but i thought you were the one who made the blonde twig michael shelley hc popular 😭 i distinctly remember being into tma and following you at the same time back then and it was only after you reblogged a fanart where he was spindly and claw handed and blonde when the proliferation of this exploded. fandom influencer moment (if its weird to remember back this far its entirely random i just remember being mildly annoyed bc the way he was described id imagined something like hotdogs for fingers not spindly claws)

i did used to enjoy that version of him before i grew out of that mindset and i remember having fanart of him as my icon for a bit (although idk if that one was twinky so much as just. a guy with long hair lol.) but i didn't realise i had such an impact on the fanon version of him. if i did i'm sorry women (tma fans).

#not rude at all lol

[showtoonzfan]

Just want to preface this by saying i love ur analysis sm- u put my exact thoughts into words when i cant verbalise whats wrong with a particular writing decision 🥲🥲

Anyway, smth ive noticed is how... little time vivzie actually spends on writing or characterizing or fleshing out her characters.

Which has to be the weirdest thing so far bc every writer and artist ive met agree that its the best part of making an oc! Its so fun to think of backstories and tie that into their current personality and generally just figuring out random details to get to know your characters!

Like, my ocs are my best friends, i know everything abt them from their trauma and childhoods, to their favourite food and music.

But time and time again she proves that her characters are at best acquaintances... the fandom fleshes out the characters so well and with so much love and care and thought that vivzie herself cant do and its just sad.

Not even mentioning the hundreds of retcons and how characters will just change personality randomly or act out of character which results in the work feeling like a fanfic of itself. (Ironic considering some fanfics have better and more consistent characterisation)

It feels like shes making it up as she goes, instead of having an actual plan. Just shoving random ideas she likes or picks up from the much more creative fandom into the 2 shows without actually stopping and thinking abt the consequences or implications.

Theres so many decisions shes made that irk me so bad... the ideas individually have potential but they either dont fit the show or have to make huge retcons and result in the plot not making any sense.

Also, ngl but she has the worst case of tell dont show ive ever seen my god 😭😭 like... you realise you have to show things instead of just fucking singing it or having a character say it??? Or is that another thing that the fandom has to do so they can convince themselves that the show has good characters??

Atp idk how to salvage the show... i keep finding more and more plotholes and unless i literally turn my brain off and only focus on haha funny dick joke or pwetty colors, these questions keep popping into my head making it a painful unenjoyable experience.

Again, if the fandom has to justify your bad nonsensical hypocritical worldbuilding then you failed. Massively.

Anyway im very sleepy rn just wanted to rant a bit bc im a writer and artist myself and it pisses me off how someone gets their show on the air and still doesnt care abt putting in effort into their plot or characters beyond aesthetics and random ideas that dont go well together...

You’re speaking facts! And it’s honestly like..kinda funny too that people who have their own OC’s can flesh them out and deep dive into their arcs/backstories ect, yet a professional showrunner who’s had these characters for YEARS can’t even give the majority of her characters flaws or quirks, or even consistency, same goes for Helluva Boss.

Viv is a really good example at letting inspired writers know what not to do when making a story and characters so at least they have that lol.

#reply #ask #all facts btw heavily agree #thanks for ranting to me! #vivziepop critical #spindlehorse critical #hazbin hotel critical #anti vivziepop #Hazbin critical

[hiro-doodlez]

LIST OF ENGLISH ACRONYMS AND ABBREVIATIONS (the random letters that people use sometimes)!! FEEL FREE TO USE AS A REF (reference) SHEET!! In alphabetical too!!

Tone indicators at the bottom!

GENERAL:

AFK- away from keyboard

AKA- also known as

ASAP- as soon as possible

ASL- American Sign Language

B4- before

BC- because

BF- boyfriend

BFF- best friends forever

BTW- By the way

BTS- Behind the scenes/back to school / that one band

BRB- be right back

CW: content warning

Cya- see ya

DM- direct message

DW- dont worry

EZPZ- easy peasy

FB- Facebook

FW: flash warning

FAQ- frequently asked questions

FYI- for your information

GF- girl friend

GG- good game

GJ- Good job

GL- good luck

Gnite- good night

GTFO- get the fuck out

GTG- got to go

Gud- good

H8- hate

HBD- happy birthday

Hella- really

HMU- Hit me up

HW- Homework

IDK- I don't know

IDC- I don't care

IG- I guess / instagram

IK- I know

IKR- I know right

K- okay

Lmao- laughing my ass off

Kewl- cool

Kk- okay

Lol- laugh out loud

ILY- I love you

ILYSM- I love you so much

IMO- in my opinion

IRL- in real life

IYKYK- if you know you know

JFC- Jesus fucking chrkst

Jk- just kidding

L8R- later

LMAO- laughing my ass off

LMK-let me know

LOL- laughing out loud

Mkay- mm okay

NE- Any

NE1- anyone

NGL- not gonna lie

NM- Nothing much

NP: no problem

NSFW- not safe for work

NVM- nevermind

NW- no worries

Obv- obviously

OFC- of course

OMW- on my way

OP- original post(er)

OTP- one true pairing

Ova- over

Pic- picture

Pls-please

Plz-please

POV: point of view

Ppl- people

Prolly- probably

QOTD- quote of the day

R- are

RB- reblog

Ref- reference

Rly- really

RN- right now

RP- role play

RPG-role playing game

RT- retweet

Sec- second

SH- self harm

SMH- shaking my head

SMP- survival multiplayer server (Minecraft) / social media platform (?)

S.O- significant other

Sui- suicide

Sus- suspicious

STFU- shut the fuck up

T- testosterone

TBA- to be announced

TBF- to be fair

TBH- to be honest

TF- the fuck

Thnks- thanks

Thx- thanks

TLDR- too long didn't read (usually a summary)

TMRW- tomorrow

TOS- terms of service

TTYL-talk to you later

TW: trigger warning

Vid- video

WTF- what the fuck

WYD- what are you doing?

YOLO- You only live once

YT- YouTube

YW- you're welcome

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If the one youre looking for isnt here, either i forgot or its a fandom! Id suggest looking it up if youre confused!

Extra note: if you see 8 in one of the acronyms, then it usually is used as an “ate” sound. So h8= ate, gr8= great ect.

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TONE INDICATORS:

/aff- affectionate

/c- copypasta

/cb- clickbait (?)

/f- fake

/gen- genuine

/genq- genuine question

/half joking

/ij- inside joke

/j- joking

/lyr- lyrics

/lh- light hearted

/lu- little upset

/neg- negative

/nf- not forced

/nm- not mad

/npa- not passive aggresive

/nsrs- not serious

/p- platonic

/pa- passive aggresive

/pos- positive

/q- quote

/r- romantic

/ref

/s- sarcastic

/srs- serious

/t- teasing

/th- threat

I HOPE THIS HELPS!! and if i forgot to add one feel free to send an ask ^^

#hiro.txt #abbreviations #english help #tone indicators

[starlightdreaming]

Happy(?) Birthday! Pt.1/2

Lucifer x Reader!

Fandom: Hazbin hotel

Content Warning: Angst to comfort, Birthday blues, another vent fic! (mb) Neglected/Abandoned friendship. Also this fic takes place in like a Highschool AU? I guess.

Synopsis: It’s your birthday! Who could possibly forget that?

Further Note: ITS MY BIRTHDAY RAHHH (4/11)

(Insert bday art here idk lol im working on it)

You sighed as you stared out the window on the second floor, head resting under your hand as you leaned into your desk. You watched the birds chirping in the trees, neglecting your work assignment your teacher had given you twenty minutes ago. You never did your work in the first place anyways, you were always doodling or drawing on them, not feeling motivated to do much else.

You heard footsteps approaching you while you were daydreaming, you turn to see your teacher had placed your paperwork down onto your desk, not giving you a glance. You look down at the paper seeing the usual grade you always get, another ‘F’ like anything else. Usually you just don’t turn in any paperwork, you grab your paper from the desk and shoved it in your bag, it already being long forgotten.

You looked out the window again, gray clouds covering the sky, making the day feel all the more duller. Halfway through the day, the bell rang, signaling it was time for lunch. It was the only time you actually enjoyed throughout the day, all your friends and you would hangout together for the good hour of the school day, you grabbed your bag again, putting it against your back, standing up and leaving the classroom. Many kids your age had walked past you, talking to their friends, going to classes and hallways to meet and hang out, the same you were about to do.

You turned in the hallway towards the stairs, following down as the kids flooded every corner of the building. After escaping the staircase you walked down the long hall that passed by the principals office and school library, reaching the cafeteria that held kids as they shouted and ran. The school felt flawed on how many open windows there were, letting random public eyes stare through the schools windows, seeing the many children that were in the facility, it really did bother you but no one seemed to care at all. You put your bag down at one of the small tables in the cafeteria room, walking to the lunch line to get your ‘healthy nutritional meal’ the schools claims them to be.

You scrolled through your phone as you waited, feeling the anxiety gnawing at your body as if the whole school was staring at you. They weren’t obviously but it still felt that way no matter what you did. It was terrible. Your anxiety chipped away when you saw Lucifer walk in the cafeteria, placing his bag next to yours, he saw you waiting in line and waved at you with a cheery smile, you waved back, smiling as well shyly.

He hopped in line with you, not caring what others think. You craved his confidence, confidence that gave you the ability to express yourself without caring or feeling everyone’s judgment upon you. “Happy birthday, Y/n!” He chimed loudly, making your heart sink from the attention you were nothing gathering but you tried your best to brush it off as you tried to keep your focus on your best friend of three years. “Oh, thanks Lulu..” you say nervously, hugging your arm.

“I made you a little something for your birthday but I’ll show you after we get our lunch!” He says excitedly while you both stepped further in the line, grabbing trays and a small milk carton to drink and putting them on your trays, stepping further down the line, getting your meals next, “so what do you plan on doing today?” He asked, looking at you with his ruby red eyes and rosy red cheeks, making your face heat up, “oh, uh.. nothing really..” you say, saddening at the loss of what to do, you felt like it was just a day closer to death and it made you worry.

“Aw don’t worry,” he says nudging you a little, “we can think of something together!” He smiles at you, his fangs showing as he tilted his head. You smiled and looked away, your face feeling more hotter the longer he stared at you.

After you both had got your meals, you both sat down together at the small circular empty table, making you wonder, “where is everyone else?” You asked, looking at Lucifer while he dug in his bag after putting his food down, “oh they’re hanging out with other people today in clubs! Wanted to join em but I didn’t want to leave you here by yourself.” He says as he pulled out a paper, turning to you, “here, I made this for you!” He says, eagerly showing his gift, it was a drawing of you and a bunch of ducks… as if he doodled them out of boredom, “oh, thank you so much Lulu.” You smiled, taking the drawing from him and admiring it with a smile, “it’s really cute.” “yeah? I’m glad!” He says, zipping up his bag and putting it on his back, picking up his tray, “I got to hangout with someone today, we have to discuss our project together but I promise to come back!” He smiles at you comfortingly as your smile faltered, “oh, alright then.” You say as you bring your smile back on your face slightly, trusting he would keep his word.

He left the cafeteria, leaving you alone with no one else. When the year began, your lunch table would be full of your friends, filled with even your friend’s friends, then later over time, your friends started separating in different hang out spots, leaving you here now, alone at your table on your birthday. You sighed as you waited for Lucifer to return, those seconds turned into minutes as time went by, your lunch felt unbearably long as you sat there listening to the other kids around you laughing and smiling, enjoying each others company as they conversed, making you feel all the more lonely. You felt too anxious to try and look for him, wandering the halls while people even gave you a glance in the halls was the last thing you wanted. You wish you could have just been invisible, you think it’s all the better to avoid everyone. Well, it’s not like the opposite is happening to you currently, who would want to even talk to you? You poked at your food, not feeling hungry and definitely not eating whatever the school serves.. it doesn’t even look nutritious or healthy.

You decided to throw your meal away, seeing as Lucifer hadn’t come back yet and lunch was almost over, you still expected him to come, even if he was a little late. He promised. You decided to go on your phone, distracting yourself with the little time there was and not before long; the bell rang.

It seemed like he did forget, even though he promised.

You sighed sadly, slightly betrayed by the trust of that promise, you were going to talk to him about it later.

You opened your bag and took out your binder before you left the cafeteria, staring down at your feet as you held the binder, hugging it. You avoided everyone’s and anyone’s gaze as you walked down the hall, your next class was upstairs, so you had walked up the crowded stairs, feeling your anxiety gnawing you as everyone pushed to go up the steps, when you made it out, you exhaled a breath quietly, not noticing you were holding it. You went to your next classroom door, waiting there as you held your binder, finding comfort in it as if it was like a shield from the world, it wasn’t long before you heard a familiar and loud laugh, you looked up and saw Lucifer with Lilith, he was smiling widely as he walked past you, not even acknowledging or noticing you, your heart sank, it further confirmed that he had actually forgotten about you and it hurt you. You raised your binder up to your face, hiding the tears forming from watching Lucifer happily spend time with someone else rather than you.

To you, Lucifer was your first. In a room full of people, you would choose Lucifer but as you watched Lucifer walk down the hall, looking at Lilith so attentively, you could tell he would never choose you. The thought made you go further into a rabbit hole, if Lucifer was the closest person to you in all the people you have had ever met.. does that mean no one would choose you as their first? You sucked in a breath, feeling your tears start to flow, you immediately wiped them away, your anxiety rising in you again, you were afraid someone would start asking questions or concerns and that would make your crying worse.

The teacher finally opened the door and you walked in first, looking down and using your hair to hide your tears, you sat at a desk that was at the corner of the wall, you turned to it, hiding your reddened face. You quietly sniffled as you used your sweaters sleeves to wipe and clean your face, you tried to distract yourself with something else, trying to stop the tears and thoughts, embarrassed to cry in public. You just wanted to go home and hide in your bed, hide away from the world.

You ignored the teacher as she began to ramble on with her lecture, you picked up your pencil and pulled out a paper from your binder, drawing and doodling to distract yourself. You felt completely blue, you didn’t feel like it was your birthday anymore after seeing Lucifer had forgotten or stopped caring about it anymore, you looked at the drawing he had made you and you were holding onto that sliver of hope that maybe he just didn’t notice you in the hallway and you were just being dramatic, thats all.

You lied to yourself, finding a sliver of comfort in it and that was the whole point. You always lied to comfort yourself, it was a coping mechanism at this point and it was the only comfort you could find in your life currently. When you pulled out the drawing Lucifer had made and saw yourself smiling on the paper, you wish you had felt the same way the drawing had did. You wanted to just have a birthday where you sat at the middle of the table, a cake in front of you lit in candles, you wanted all your friends and family to be surrounding you, singing and telling happy birthday with smiles on their faces, it’s all you wanted for your simple birthday.

Although you couldn’t see it being true to happen, you could just daydream and even draw it the scenario and thats what you did. You drew yourself and all those ‘friends’ you had, it was terribly made but it made you somewhat smile, you felt like you were in the drawing somewhat, like it actually happened and wasn’t just a doodle to cope, it felt surreal.

after one drawing, you drew another, indulging yourself in a fantasy with art, you kept drawing yourself in scenarios of you and characters you had made, blocking out the reality of your classes and school assignments as you were wallowed up in your own world, living in it now.

You had spent the entire day drawing, relieved school was now over for the day, you got the chance to finally look for Lucifer and talk to him, hoping he didn’t just completely forget you like everyone else had.

After going down the hallways, heading toward the front of the school for buses and car pick ups, you saw Lucifer talking with Lilith but that didn’t matter, what mattered was that he would go to your party - if he even remembered.

“Hey Lucifer, are you still going to my party?” you chimed, throwing your anxiety and intrusive thoughts out the window for a moment to ask him that question genuinely. You had spoke rather loudly, alerting people around you but you definitely caught Lucifers attention, when he turned to you, your smile faltered. Lucifer was looking at you and not in a pleasant way either, he looked at you with an estranged look, like as if you were a stranger and was confused as to why you were even inviting him to such an event. It made you step back in surprise from his expression, you looked around you and saw people staring at you, Lilith included and it made your heart sink, your anxiety spiking from the judgmental looks that surrounded you.

You began to panic, seeing all eyes were on you now, you waved at Lucifer, laughing nervously as you wanted to leave the situation quickly, “nevermind, i’ll figure it out!” You say awkwardly before walking out the building rather quickly. You hid at a corner of the school panting, you threw your bag to the side as you leaned against the wall and sat down, hugging yourself as you tried to calm your breathing, your tears falling down your face from the stress of the situation you were in a moment ago.

You wiped your face, hearing your phone in your pocket buzz. It was your mom, she texted you that she was here to pick you up, you felt rather relieved. You didn’t have to endure the bus ride home and you could avoid Lucifer too, you cleaned your face as quickly and perfectly as you could, grabbing your bag as you stood up to text your mom where you were specifically.

After a bit, your tears dried up and your mom drove to the lot, you walked to the car, getting in as you set your beg next to you, looking at your mom with a smile.

It was a comfortable drive, your mom had asked you what you had wanted for your birthday, a cake was included. As you spent time with your momma, you had gotten yourself a laptop, your mother agreeing to pay it for you, you were happy and rather excited to be able to use the new device for your school work (further art projects).

The way home was rather rejuvenating from the dreadful day you had to endure, feeling like no one had wanted to even or care about your day of your birth, your mom had made it all the more better, he sweet smile and a song chimed of your birthday, your family somewhat cared, they cared more than what you had expected, it was much but it was just enough for you to feel better about your day.

You had clicked and messed with your new laptop your mom had gifted you, not caring about the know at your door. You saw your mom was on her way to open it anyways so you didn’t bother as you kept typing in your notes and opening sites as you smiled only for time to stop when you heard a familiar male voice at the door, asking and calling for you, “Y/n is home right? I didn’t see her at the bus stop on the way home like we were supposed to.”

You stood up to go to the front door curiously, your mom smiled as she spoke, “yes, shes right here!” she chimed, turning to you and gesturing you to talk with your friend at the door, you saw the familiar blonde and immediately knew it was Lucifer, you wanted to just close the door but that would make your mom raise concerns you didn’t want her to worry about, “Happy Birthday Y/n.” Lucifer smiled at you, dressed somewhat formally, he was wearing something different than what he wore at school, you smiled nervously as you avoided his gaze, “thanks..” you say as you fiddled with the front door knob, kinda just wanting to hide away in your room now.

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cliffhanger and rushed, mb gang (just wanted to get this posted.)

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