#its called i project so much

[qualityrain]

hi im so normal about them

#*narrator voice* they were not in fact normal about them #im sorry all i can do is shitpost #my art #doodle #doodles #mlbb carmilla #mlbb cecilion #everytime i duo with my friend i bang my head on the wall #they make me feel so ill #mlbb #cecicarm #ew i hate people in love #/j #u can tell how late it is with how trash the quality is #aka the first one i drew at 2am iirc #the second one was at 12am #can u tell my romantic repulsion only takes a break when im tired af #your honour they are my emotional support m/f ship #its called i project so much #i forgot carms mole again but im too lazy to change it so deal with it

[anna-scribbles]

my drawings to accompany @peachcitt's fic for the record for Coup de Foudre, the @adrinettezine!

(special credit to my sister @sha-nwa for marinette's handwriting in the last image)

#fun fact I thought the first image was innocuous enough to include in a slide of examples of my past work that I showed in class #for a project proposal #and I immediately had a friend text me 'anna loves pulling ladybug references into class' 💀 #and I LAUGHED on the zoom call #anyway. go go read the fic its so good I love it so much #(shocking) #ml #miraculous ladybug #my art #adrinette #adrien agreste #marinette dupain cheng #peach

[pansylair]

symbiosis

#ok one more post for the night #made up this creature in 9th grade haha #called a hungi and its a polar omnivore #it was for a project and i think the teacher liked it so much he asked to keep it for an example #good job 14yo me

[09lover]

“ yuzuriha-san, we have matching hats now! ”

#milgram #milgram fanart #milgram project #kotoko yuzuriha #<- technically ITS HER MV SCENE REDRAW. #kotogirl #ill call her that… #i was too lazy for the bg and i also fucked up my layers so um.. haha enjoy… #es’ art journal #this was supposed to be a doodle but GUESS NOT!!! ENJOYED DEEP COVER TOO MUCH MILGRAM WANTS ME DEAD

[cestacruz]

Before i pass out from sleepy disease , have a page of my different AU's arturias (missing the whole of my monster AU but still

Arturia Pendragon my beloved

#my art #fate grand order #artoria pendragon #my aus #the master arturia really isnt even related to the pendragon bloodline but “the once and future king” moment #she and gray Do exist in the same universe which is gray's 13th reason because there was no need for her villlage to do All That #when just 12 years after she was born. someone who is literally just arturia was born #master arturia gets to fight Too Much she wasnt built for this she was built to be gay and an art mayor in uni #art mayor? yes. its called Self Projecting. look it up #if you have questions you can ask but i'll respond later #i still have to draw gray and waver for that one anon im so sorry ive been DYING

[spearxwind]

Something I've been thinking a lot recently after becoming a lot more social and going out is like. How different people really LOOK in general. Or rather, I've always seen it but I've been noticing it more. Different body types, different faces, different features.... etc. Everyone is so different looking.

There isn't a way you could possibly gauge how "beautiful" someone is because everyone is so different, and everyone's perception and preferences are different. Someone who you could consider extremely handsome could have deep seated self image issues, and someone who looks unremarkable to you might be someone's ideal.

I feel like being online and constantly exposed to the same types of faces, especially the type of people who become popular online due to the appearance, they always have the same set of features, same set of body types. It's not inherently bad, people do gravitate towards them because there's beauty standards that certain people fit. But in general exposure to people who look all similar rots the brain. It rots your self image. It distances you from your own community as well.

It bleeds into how people handle their relationships, it brings prejudice to people just based on their appearance, and it sucks so much to actually like, fully consciously REALIZE. Everyone is worthy of love, no matter how they look like (this includes you btw!! Yeah you!!! <3) no matter what the media says. It sounds like something sooo obvious but it really is something that grows roots in your brain given the chance and is hard to pull out.

Feeling like you're in an arms race against your peers to "score" someone who you could pass for an instagram model, instead of finding someone who you truly connect with. Having to deeply justify your partners and friendships to your family as being worth it, when they don't look like celebrities on TV and just look like regular people. (This has been my personal experience for a long time, but I feel like theres probably more people who have gone through the same)

"What will other people think? What will my family think?" is something constantly on my mind whenever I make any friends, and im only recently realizing that it really does not matter what they do think what matters is one's own happiness.

Not sure where I am going with this post I just wanted to write it out for a few days now and I finally did it <3 have a swag day

#thunderclap #words #i just think people should live without the constant pressure of appearances both your own and your peers. its literally brainrot #everyone everywhere is so different there are a thousand faces a thousand bodies a thousand features theres eight billion people on earth #its so terrible that we are always focused on the same ones and call them beautiful when theres so much to people in general #does this make any fucking sense? god im so tired but im feeling this a lot recently. man.......... #my own appearance has been both praised and degraded for years years years and its fucked up my way of perceiving people for my whole life #idk... theres so much nuance to this whole conversation ofc i cant fit it all into one (1) post #like... recently realizing my mom is to blame for like 90% of my body image issues has had me reeling. like hello. #dont get me wrong i love her but damn that family can self project their flaws needlessly on the next generation huh

[panncakes]

listen i would've supported 23.5 no matter how terrible it might've been and i will continue to support it no matter which route it takes; but i am incredibly happy that it starts sweet and gentle and goofy as all queer high school romances deserve to be 🥰

#23.5 the series #23.5 degrees #i adore that altho it is shown that ongsa is having a hard time settling in and finding her place and we are told this has always been #the case for her #it is also immediately shown that there is kindness and friendship and care in this new universe for her if she is able to reach back to #those reaching out to her #i adore that they use slightly unhinged over the top moments to highlight the genuine awkwardness and terror of being a teenage girl #and even more so a queer teenage girl #i have already seen people call out the over the top 'weirdness' as too much #(tho too much is never quite called out as much in male performance bc the threshold for too much is so much lower for women huh) #but that is genuinely how it feels in that moment tho isnt it #everything is so heightened and over the top and everything is the WORST and the BEST #and you are the only outsider even tho you're not #like not to project too much meaning onto the silly little gl romcom #but it feels really genuine even in its silliness and i appreciate that so much #and i have genuine good hope for a quiet small sapphic romcom set in highschool

[good-beans]

I know most of our focus goes (rightfully) to the trial songs, but I genuinely believe Baptism of Fire is equally a masterpiece of meaningful writing and intense vocal acting

Incoming tag rant because I need to yell about this, feel free to yell back

#milgram #fuuta kajiyama #like the other vds have good writing about the character and whatever social issue their crime focuses on #but this one is very pointedly about YOU #its about the audience. its about the milgram project. its about self reflection. its about self-appointed roles. its about you #even if you didnt vote t1 or anything the whole things is calling on you to reflect on your own judgements of others #how you treat people who come off rougher. how you treat people who have made a (bad but) common mistake. #do you also find entertainment in seeing people dragged down and suffering because it would 'serve them right?' #but es always remains in control of the situation. the drama doesnt end with 'and fuuta was right - you guys suck!' #its clarified that situations are different and have nuance. we are reminded to look at things with nuance. #then we are smoothly re-immersed in the story #and then!! the acting itself!!! #arthur lounsbery put his whole fussy into that performance (<- fuuta pussy) and i am in his debt every day for it #in both his vds hes just super expressive and fun to listen to #i dont understand japanese but he packs so much interesting intonation and emotion into every word -- im obsessed listening to him #he nails all the subtle emotions fuuta has: the pouts and outrage as well as underlying fear grief insecurity and immaturity #and then baptism of fire hes just... Wailing #like mahiru has her innocent and pathetic cries of pain in her sweet voice that works for her character but fuutas pain feels much more raw #the way hes practically sobbing at the end -- his voice cracking and screeching throughout -- the whimper of pain #its so unbearably intense!! it hurts!! and its supposed to!! but hes just so raw with it #and dont even get me started on his pained hysteric laughter omg.... #its just. a masterpiece. #i always appreciate the vds but i dont think ive enjoyed/relistened to one as much as this one #okay WAIT im back to add one more thing because im obsessed with ths idea of intentions #specifically in milgram i think the intention behind the murders are very important to consider #so i love love love the huge focus on 'i didnt expect/mean for this to happen' #plus as a general theme in fiction i think its sooo juicy when good intentions get fucked up #so i loved the repetition of that #fuuta is such a special case because he genuinely had no desire or expectation for his victim to die #(maybe kazui too? but he doesn't say so in his vd like fuuta does)

[drabsyo]

hey daph!

#daphne greengrass #hp fanart #hp wlw #slytherin #wow so much has changed in tumblr it's crazy!!! #i've been gone for so long :(( #i read all the anons in my inbox don't worry 🥺 #(except for the rando bots) #i'm going to reply to my anons slowly so i don't spam you guys' dash but feel free to block my tag #drabstuff #my art #i rly came on here after 1 million yrs just to post a daphne greengrass doodle im so sorry 😭😭😭 #its bc my friend sent me this... painful daphmione fic that left me HURTING so thank you for that *coughs* saint *coughs* #and bc i couldn't find any daphne fanart and i was HEARTBROKEN but idk if i drew her right ;u; #the fic is called The Animagus Project by sleepingontheway and it BROKE ME I HAD TO DRAW HER OKAY IM WEAK AND IM SORRY #//gross ugly sobbing

[mikkokomori]

is omari basil still a delinquent

(and side note here id LOVE to hear you ramble all about your Omari au)

Ahem,,,, if it is alright with you then,,,,,, I will talk about my OMARI Basil then,,,,

To answer your question, he was planned to be the delinquent of the group (as per typical swap aus), though over time, I really began to sit down and think about it the more swap aus began to pop up around the fandom. I didn't really like the idea of being a carbon copy of various other omari aus in specific, so during the time I have been absent on here I began to slowly revamp the AU over time. I had to start over with what I originally had in the first place since a lot of the au things in my take on it also had contributions by followers as well!

For Basil, his first concept was initially a delinquent take... but the thing that caused a problem with that was the fact that I had planned for him to also play a sort of "detective" role in this universe, as I had written a short snippet on Basil having caught on to something suspicious going on between the older siblings and Sunny's sudden disappearance.......

Frankly, as much as a delinquent Basil is my darling concept of all concepts, I had to, unfortunately, push it to the side and alter his role in this AU to fit with the revamped look I was going for him... therefore fully integrating him into his "detective" role. In a way though, looking through Mari's perspective, he's sort of a clashing force with her and is equivalent to an antagonist in her own story (but! Keep in mind, Mari in this AU isn't the Mari who you should be sympathizing for.... an unreliable narrator who happens to be a wolf in sheeps clothing....).

As for the emotions, while a lot of people tend to view the emotions being assigned to the characters as their possible role in RW (the happy-go-lucky, the perfect student, the delinquent), for mine I ended up making it were each friend had 2 main emotions.... Basils would be anger and sorrow (Aubrey and Kel tend to have anger as their second emotion, though that is still up for debate! I still have a few things to work out :3). So, in a way you could say that in Headspace they were only ever seen as a one-dimensional character by Mari/Hikkiko, while in the real world, they had a even bigger "mess" of emotions that they all dealt with. In turn, Basil's concept strayed further away from the path of delinquent and more into a path which.... ehehe..... obsession as a concept is such a fun thing to play around with, don't you think?

Just as much as he plays the "investigator", he also is meant to be a parallel of what Mari/Hikkiko is. Obsession has always been a part of his character, and in doing so, you could say I played around with it until I found quite a nice concept with this. Mari/Hikkiko both have a need to keep Sunny around as the perfect brother and therefore paint his Headspace counterpart to their own liking.... while Basil in turn has, on some level, a need to imitate Sunny as closely as he can. Both are a form of obsessions I have given them, and in a way, the only reason Basils is a more "lighter" version of this is because Aubrey, Kel, Hero (sort of), Polly, his grandmother, and Faraway Town as a whole have been there to guide him on a better path. Though his obsession to keep Sunny's memory alive by becoming like him is still there, it's not to say that he doesn't have people to talk some sense into him-- meanwhile Mari does not have that type of support.

Obsession stems from love, at least, in their case. And in the end, it really depends on whether or not they have people who are willing to reel them back into a state of sanity. Basil was, at least in terms of my omari lore, viewed as a delinquent at one point, though he never acted out aggressively towards others unless provoked enough and only ever kept to himself.... eventually the town residents accepted the fact that this was just his way of grieving and treated him with patience and respect, especially with the fact he took it upon himself to go around town and helping around with the little things, though especially with gardening and photography.

it's not to say though, that he doesn't have some... worrying habits. That as in, most of his plants being replaced with tulips and most of the heads of certain plants being chopped off with garden shears, left to rot. While Basil mimics his best friends habits, he isn't exactly the best at fully hiding his feelings and emotions as Sunny was able to. No amount of masquerading will change the fact that once he's laid his sights on you, it'll only be a matter time before he seeks for your head on a silver platter.

#im sure i have much more to say and i probably ended up giving you more information than you can chew at a time but like... #listen..... i've been waiting for so #LONG for someone to ask something regarding the characters for the revamped version #in a way i will say that this omari au is a very personal thing with the way some characterizations come off #(some of the stuff in this au is based off real experiences lol) #and any time it comes to swap aus in general for any fandom #i always take them seriously #if anything. i WILL shit on someone in my head if their swap au doesnt have anything unique to it and its just a roleswap #its why the one swap au im actually paying much mind to is a friends au thats called CHICO #one things for certain; if your swap au doesnt have any creativity put into it i will cast upon shame on you your family your families dog- #jk but. swap aus have always been a passion project thing for me in every fandom i've ever been in and OMORI fandom is. well #lets just say that im the gordon ramsay of swap aus because theres BARELY ANY FUCKING GOOD FOOD AROUND HERE!!!!!! #OMARI AU #A Sisters Mourning AU #omori au #omori basil #omori spoilers #omori #anon asks #miko talks #mikkos ramblings #this also just goes in general for aus #ive always been picky and if theres something i dont like or something doesnt make sense well #im sorry to those who have to watch me get real bitchy with things #aus have always been a therapeutic thing to me and ik not everyone is gonna do what i want to see but even then #if your au is mostly for shipping (that has no relevance to the plot whatsoever) or blatant mischaracterization then you can leave!! #ik im sounding like a shen yuan rn but i have a lot of pent up rage and resentment #if you think you can get away with stuff like this in aus i will hunt you down and pour milk over your heads!!!!!

[kidrunaway]

I've been listening to this violating ass song on repeat and ITS THE FUNNIEST SHIT EVER. I adore it.

#this song is aimed at so many fucking people #its called i hope by jay idk #i project onto markus way too much oopsies #dbh markus #markus dbh #dbh #detroit become human

[worldsquietestjojosfan]

Mingjue's gaze softens.

"Didi. You are confused. You are misinterpreting brotherly love for romantic interest."

Huaisang clenches his firsts and stares down at the floorboards. His expression morphs into one of pain. He draws in a deep breath.

"Da-ge, please sleep with me." Mingjue's body jerks back at his little brother's words. "If I sleep with you, then I'll know for sure what I'm feeling."

#bro doing anything but organizing her code #my brother says i write like i wasnt allowed to go to school #recently my brother had to do a project for school where he had to pick up a new hobby #he didnt do the assignment and at the last day he was like brother im so fucked help me #so i let him use one of my fanfics for the before and told him to use his own fanfic as an after and present that #his professor told him his improvement was incredible #thats all i have to say #theres something so cringe about when i write #ill write it and be like yeah. and then i read over it and die #unironically i actually run away from my fics. i have never once read them again after finishing #like when i draw. i look at it. im like yeah that part is good that part is bad. pretty mid but its ok. #writing? i turn red and hide from the monster i have created #i think my writing could be lethal. like if i read all my fics one after the other id die from cringe poisoning #i regularly look at my old drawings and cry how much ive regressed. but i can look at them. #one time my friend wanted to torture me so he called me to read my fics out loud. i endorse this as an execution method #shit gets me sweating. i have to get normal about this #some words #wip #the second wip actually #the first one is the saber spirit takes over nmj and he fucks nhs on the training grounds infront of everyone. #second one is nmj is like brother you have to stop being a freak this is getting out of hand and nhs is like nuh-uh. but also how'd you kno #on a side note remember my former student that confessed? yeah well #he proposed marriage

[ladybeug]

Alright so

It has been about 24 hours since i finished @peachcitts fanfiction metamorphosis and i spent at least 3 of those hours making a fanmix.

Listen, Im sorry, this is just who I am, Im someone who wants to make a playlist about a specific iteration of ml characters. Especially if there are some grey morals up in there.

read the fic, listen to the fanmix, follow me under the cut thats where the party is

...and by party I mean analytical summary of each song.

I'm about to talk about some of these choices I made in depth, as a treat for myself. An indulgence. I'll keep the fic references high level but there may be some theme/tone spoilers so real talk go read the fic and meet me back here.

@peachcitt I know I tagged you but this will get long you do not have to read it or acknowledge this homage just know I appreciated your story and thought a lot about it.

so.

the whole playlist is meant to be listened to start to finish, its half the tragedy and half the hard work to get your life right side up and the rewards.

I actively tried not to put Cry for Judas on here and i did ANYWAYS

its on so many of my playlists already, I'm loose with this song. But frankly if i could only keep it on one I would keep it on here. I mean I just don't think any other adrien iterations do things just to see how bad they'll make him feel QUITE like this one and i just HAD to have that as the first line of lyrics in the playlist.

I'm just also obsessed with sad and angry, can't learn how to behave?? The tragic acceptance of being unable to be good??

find me a better match. this song had to be on here and it had to be first.

Your Ghost - this might be the only song thats only about Marinette which is a crime because I really connected with her pov but the truth is that this is an adrien fanmix and i need to accept that.

But for real the acceptance but inability to move on in this song is just perfect.

Can't Lose - maybe the angriest song on here? A little angrier than I was going for but I had to keep this one though because, I mean, "I'm thinking I can't move if there isn't somewhere else to go?" like, the, 'sure what im doing is bad but what else IS there' of it, I mean, what can I even say. It had to be on here.

If you only listen to one song on here listen to Animal Mask.

It's a song about partners in a wrestling match written as a metaphor for when John Darnielle's wife was in labor, and its so tender and sweet, and frankly it sounds like it could have been written for metamorphosis for like every single flashback of ladybug and chat noir.

I could quote every line and be like 'this is them' but like, 'hold on,' I cried, 'I'll be right there', pulled your mask down through your hair. they won't see you, not until you want them to. What am I supposed to say?? It moves me deeply I'm having emotional problems please come join me. Every other song on this playlist doesn't matter.

Anyways intermission, while we're here, let me share this experience that I had today with you:

I did then proceed to count, was appropriately ashamed that about 25% of the playlist was mountain goats, and extremely painfully chose to remove 'oceanographer's choice'.

[tangent about Oceanographers Choice vs Haunted House]

As obsessed as I am with going straight from the unbearably tender memory in animal mask to oceanographer's choice, first line: "well, guy in a skeleton costume, walks up to a guy in a superman suit, runs through him with a broadsword", the anxious switch in music, and then straight into a song about a fucked up guy fighting the woman he is still complicatedly in love with.... and he doesn't know how else to be....

oh no, listen, as I typed that I half convinced myself to add it back in again

but I won't because I even more love the transit of animal mask to the shrill and tense line in Haunted House, "I was buried in the summer, all those parties ago", and then a confused and hysterical song about dissociation and loss of control in a world where nobody seems connected to what you're going through. The tone is more ungrounded, and scared, and less resigned. Which matches what I was going for - I tried to avoid songs that were just like... "yeah i'm evil >:) thats my identity"

[end tangent]

Little Pistol I feel like I barely have to justify, but I will say what really sold me is the reference to 'I want what's best for me, and I think I know just what that means'. But then also the slight change in tune at the end? Delicious?

The Run and Go, just read the fic ok

I Wanna Get Better is one that honestly feels like it doesn't fit perfectly but I'm really drawn to a sharp turning point in the playlist from 'bad and spiraling' to 'desperately clawing my way up' which is how reading the fic felt at a certain point, and this song feels like the perfect tonal shift and has the end-of-a-movie screaming conviction that I want. Its also just so good

Do it Anyways might be the second most important song... third most important? on this fanmix. The frantic, panicky music matched with the unwavering conviction to improvement is so unmatched honestly and if we're talking about how hard it is to be your best when you feel your worst, oh my god. Read the fic, listen at 2:44 and meet me back here and there's nothing else I even need to say

Absolute Lithops Effect.... I tricked you, this is also a mountain goats song :) its a cover though so I'm not counting it.

This is one of the most beautiful songs about hope for the future and growth that I know its very important to me. The title of the playlist comes from this song. Here's what you need to know about it:

Lithops are these:

They grow so slowly they don't look like they're growing at all. But they are.

Love Love Love: Ugh don't talk to me about love love love. I'm not going to explain how this connects to the fic. It does, I'm right. There's nothing I can say about this that can't be said better by Mr. Mountain Goats himself:

"The point of the song is, you know, that we are fairly well damaged by the legacy of the Romantic poets--that we think of love as this, you know, thing that is accompanied by strings and it's a force for good, and if something bad happens then that's not love. And the therapeutic tradition that I come from--I used to work in therapy--you know, also says that it's not love if it feels bad. I don't know so much about that. I don't know that the Greeks weren't right. I think they were--that love can eat a path through everything--that it will destroy a lot of things on the way to its own objective, which is just its expression of itself, you know. I mean, my stepfather loved his family, right? Now he mistreated us terribly quite often, but he loved us. And, you know, well, that to me is something worth commenting on in the hopes of undoing a lot of what I perceive as terrible damage in the way people talk about this--love is this benign, comfortable force. It's not that. It's wild, you know?" — NPR interview with Linda Wertheimer, 14 May 2005

Metamorphosis: okay this one I added to make myself laugh but I also stand by it thematically

SUPERBLOOM: Don't we all deserve a little celebration for the hard work we do?

Anyways this is my fanmix, if you read to here I love you and you're welcome for all the mountain goats songs I peeled off of here that I didn't even tell you about. I didn't even put heel turn 2 on here. Whoops ok now i've told you about that one.

#I get into this routine where I start a playlist thinking... this is just for fun #its just for me #i love to have a fanmix it will be a fun project for me to express and create and reinterpret #and organize and sort #and then i spend so long on it and think so hard about each song and the order and the tone #that it becomes a piece of art im attached to and then i want to share it even though its SO NICHE ITS ALWAYS SO NICHE im so sorry to do th #im doing it though #Spotify #anyways thank you for humoring me sorry to everyone #this is so long and uncalled for (except by me im calling so much)

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

hm. worked sucked, and no houses were listed today so: think i'll fuck around and buy a bunch of yarn half on impulse

#text #personal #knitting #yarn #listen!!! #its only HALF on impulse (i need this blue for a project) #the other half is perfectly driscoll/tam-tam colors and its called MONSTER TEETH like come on i gotta #also i lie a LITTLE #there was one (1) house listed #$190k cash only as is no pictures 🙄🙄 #No Thank You #in btw #driscoll #tam-tam #forreal work was an absolute bitch today #allegedly im training my help #zero dividends from this trashfire so far #and its gonne be MONTHS of baby sitting before i see anything helpful #and management is not Managing and i hate that #like fine let me do what i want #but its YOUR JOB to wrangle the rest of the people and their duties actually not mine #im not making management money #im gonna spend so much money this week 💀

[sinfuego]

Do you ever wonder if Kristen Applebees, former cleric and chosen of Helio, ever steps into the sunlight and feels its warmth and security and certainty, and for a moment, thinks of home?

#d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 #a terrible home sure #with an oppressive overbearing rigid idea of love #but the first form of love kristen knew #because it was love #despite what everyone else says #people say that love doesnt hurt like that #that if it was real love it wouldnt be so oppressive #and maybe im projecting my own religous trauma but #it was real. the love ofnthat religion was real. it was conditional and oppressive and horrible but it was real love #thats what made it so especially horrible #the truth that a love so powerful and potentially healing can also be so awful and destructive #i get why people say that it cant be real love #cause its easier to call it evil and believe that something that overpowering and oppressive couldnt have ever cared for you #but they did care for you. they just thought the eay to fix you was to kill you. and thats the awful thing #that someone loved you so much #but in a way that made them believe it would be better if you were dead #or to put it more accurately #it would make you better if you were dead #who knew growing uo gay in a religious conservative place would give you fucking Thoughts

[kithj]

my 2023 year in review:

published the most recent update for tnp in january

started work on hh originally in twine back in march

wrote and published one day hike in april

wrote and published faith in june for neo-twiny jam

refined hh as a novel instead and wrote the first draft between may-august

wrote and published siren's call in september

also started working on blood choke in may and published the prologue & ch1-2 in july, then ch3 in november

i started a few things that i haven't finished but will hopefully finish this year... bleeding heart will definitely be published within the next month for vampjamp.

i guess my hopes for this year will be:

finish bleeding heart in time for vampjamp (this will definitely happen)

finish the blackwater route for tnp and finally move on to ch3

ch4 of blood choke

workshop hell or highwater & decide what direction i want to take it in

start second draft of hh

#i did write a lot this year i guess. lol #just not for any of the projects i should have (tnp) #i cant really say im that proud of anything that i published tho #one day hike was cathartic and felt like the best thing i'd ever written at the time #but really i think it's just cus i actually finished something for once lmfao #i havent reread it and probably won't #i rushed siren's call and also havent reread it since september #i do like what ive done with blood choke. but im disappointed how much i dropped productivity on it after november #tnp took me at least 2 yrs before i started writing this slow #its frustrating how fast it happened with blood choke... #and even more frustrating bc im so excited for what i have planned. i want to be more proud of it #oh well. the time will pass anyways as they say #i really wish i had an office or desk to write at. i feel like i would be so much more motivated & productive #and also if i didnt work my shitty soul-sucking retail job but. lol