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thevampirearcher-md · 2 years
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can we get a part 4 to the exes with feelings please?
A/N: Sure you can, here it is 😉 sorry, for the delay, I had to write it first 😂 I haven't proof-read this so if anything doesn't make sense, me sowwey (I left it open for a last part five and maybe after I wrap it up it can go on ao3?)
whatever, enjoy ✨
6:30
The clock on Denali’s dashboard proudly announces that the time for her to go inside has arrived, but still she lingers - takes a sip from her coffee, turns the volume up on her new favourite song, closes her eyes against the chateau landscape in front of her, trying to reach a level of zen that probably hasn’t been yet achieved.
It’s all because she’s scared to deal with Rosé.
Rosé - who has been so perfect since their first fight that Denali doesn’t know if she should kick herself or the ginger. She wonders if it was never Rosé… What if she’s just bad at communicating? What would have happened if, instead of getting all hot-headed and breaking up with Rosé, she would have told her what was wrong?
Would it have worked out differently?
She breathes in through her nose, crisp and cold morning air that fills her lungs until they’re ready to overflow. She breathes out through her nose, counting. She’s in the right here. She’s in the right and she’s not going to crack, no matter what Rosé pulls today.
A knock on her window startles her. 6:32.
“If I have to be inside right now, so do you,” a cranky Lagoona announces from just outside her car.
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The atmosphere inside is chaos, Jan is frantic, half of the bridesmaids are trudging across the room slowly, like barely awake zombies, the other half are shooting back coffee as if their life depended on it. In the far corner of the room, Rosé is curled up in an armchair, surrounded by tote bags and small suitcases, sleeping with her face tucked between her knees.
Of course, that’s where Denali’s eyes get stuck. Needless to say, Lagoona notices.
“She had a gig last night and she was Jan’s ride here, I don’t think she got any sleep,” she mutters. Denali is saved from responding to that as Jan descends upon them.
“Bring your dresses out and Nicky will steam them, then grab your robes and put them on - we’re going for a full luxury spa fantasy today,” she points to the row of hangers carrying silky robes embroided with J&J. “We’ll get you signed on the make-up and hair sheet… I’ll make sure you’re amongst the first,” Jan winks. “Once you’re done, you can help me wrangle everyone else into shape.”
Denali doesn’t even know what happens. Jan runs all over the place. She and Lagoona and pushed and pulled - stripped of their own clothing and wrestled into the robes, plunked down into twin chairs to have their hair and make-up down. The room is stuffy, almost overcrowded, and the air is saturated in humidity, from both the steamer aggressively attacking their clothing and the industrial quantities of setting spray and hairspray.
“I think it’s time to wake-up sleeping beauty,” Lagoona informs Denali, who doesn’t immediately react. “Earth to Nali,” she tries to elbow her in the ribs, but their chairs are slightly too far apart.
“Oh, you want me to do it?”
“Well, she rather likes looking at your face, I think it will put her in a better mood,” Lagoona shrugs, shutting her eyes to allow the make-up artist to work on her eyeliner.
Denali grunts, rolls her eyes, then complies. It’s Jan’s special day, it’s Jan’s special day, she keeps the mantra going in her head.
Rosé hasn’t moved an inch since Denali arrived, an hour and a half ago. She’s peacefully asleep and in a couple of minutes, she’s going to be painfully sore. Denali starts brushing her hair, from around her shoulders with gentle hands. It’s gotten longer since they’ve broken up, reaching almost all the way to her waist, but its curl still holds its shape against all of the laws of physics.
“Rosie,” Denali says softly, hand brushing against her shoulder. “It’s time to wake up,” she squeezes lightly. “C’mon, Rosie.” Seeing her like this brings back soft memories of mornings not too long ago. Rosé’s eyes open slowly. “C’mon now, Rosie,” Denali murmurs again, hand squeezing her arm.
Rosé smirks. “If this is a dream, don’t wake me,” she muses. Denali’s giggle is interrupted as she’s suddenly pulled forward. Her legs give and she lands in Rosé’s lap.
“I don’t care what you say,” Rosé whispers, now fully awake, judging by the look in her eyes, “this is definitely a dream.” Denali’s whole body has erupted in goosebumps. The robe is short and soft and slippery and, Goddamit, far too loosely tied.
“Time to get ready,” Denali manages to stutter, but her stomach is in knots. She knows that look in Rosé’s eyes - it’s one that has led to many unforgettable nights. Denali gulps.
“Five more minutes,” Rosé smirks, fingers tracing lightly over the robe’s thin material. It feels like she’s getting closer to Denali and her breath hitches. “I need more time to…”
“To what?” Denali finds a last spark of antagonism and she grasps onto it. She loses - she knows the moment she’s said it, the moment a dangerous spark lights up Rosé’s eyes.
“I was only planning on admiring,” the ginger’s eyes feel like laser rays, warming Denali's skin. “But just for that,” Rosé boops her nose, “I’ll do so much more,” her lips brush against Denali’s, soft and airy, but it’s as if a bonfire ignites inside her body. As if all this time that Rosé’s been taunting her, she’s been dousing her in gasoline and this small contact is all that is needed to ignite her.
A gate breaks open and Denali pushes Rosé back against the armchair.
“Oh, I’m gonna like this, too bad it’ll ruin your hair and make up,” Rosé laughs, enjoying Denali’s trance. A door slams open.
“Ruin her hair and make-up after the wedding, you inconsiderate shite,” Lagoona barks at them.
“Oh, I plan to…”
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skitskatdacat63 · 8 months
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And now a matching Fernando :D
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bahoreal · 11 months
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jay's wee guide to editing fics
by popular demand (five likes on a post i made asking if anyone wants this)
please note this is a loose guide of what works for me and is designed to give newbie fic writers an idea of what purpose an edit has. if you don't vibe with it you don't have to follow it. if you have your own preferences please feel free to add them!
first i should say it is important to do an edit before you post your fic. this can apply to any work of writing (some of the QC details I used a lot in the scientific papers i wrote)
an edit can be generally categorised into one of these: update/style check, QC, consistency check, proofread. this can either be done by you (the writer) or by a beta reader
update/style check: there's probably a better word for this kind of edit but I don't know it. This the most in depth and time consuming method of editing and generally done on first drafts. it is an edit done where you're not happy with the work to be published as-is, where you think parts are missing, parts could be updated, parts might be out of sync or not fit with the flow of the piece. when you're doing an update edit, you should be looking for things like:
- did this feel jarring against the rest of the tone
- did i have to read any of the sentences multiple times to figure out what they meant
- do I have enough elements that reflect the theme i'm trying to build, or was the theme too on the nose?
- are my characters behaving in character
- are there any points where a character knows about something before it has been confirmed in the text - is this intentional, or was it a mistake and the character shouldn't know? This is especially important with longer fics, sometimes the timeline can get messy
note for beta readers/if you are using a beta reader: specify whether this edit is meant to be granular to word choice, or about sentence/paragraphs. I have had beta readers that changed every fifth word I wrote because they thought a different word would fit better (which switched my story to their style, which I didn't actually want), and beta readers who would highlight a sentence or a word and go "this doesn't make sense, consider rephrasing" or a paragraph and go "this felt cut short" o.e. (which was very helpful)
QC: quality check. generally refers to formatting, updating to a style guide, etc. When I am doing a QC I look for things like
- grammar issues (non-intentional)
- typos (non-intentional)
- spelling mistakes (non-intentional)
- language consistency, e.g. going between England English and American English (non-intentional)
- formatting errors (e.g. I tend to add three paragraph breaks between new scenes, and I check that that's consistent throughout)
- tense consistency (switching back and forth between tenses when writing can break the reader out of the immersion, if you're in the present then try to stay in the present unless the character is remembering something. Instead of "She has nothing in the house. She went to the shops.", try and stick to one tense, "She has nothing in the house, so she goes to the shops.")
(- in papers/essays this is also the point where you would fix your referencing)
proofread: a final check done on a final draft that combines the QC and consistency checks. If i've copied to ao3 I tend to do this in the ao3 word editor and make sure all my formatting is in, for example italics, which aren't preserved in the copy/paste into the ao3 editor
consistency check: does what it says on the tin. If there are consistency items you want to keep flowing through your story, such as
- a character calling another character by a certain nickname and then progressing to a different nickname as you move through
- names used in internal monologue are consistent throughout, vs. names other characters use in speech (e.g. I wrote a fic from the perspective of an american, who says "couch", but the english characters say "sofa" aloud.)
- was that character holding a glass? where did it go? were they suddenly on the other side of the room?
- are the times/days correct? was it summer one scene and winter the next? if time is referenced, is it passing appropriately? (also ensuring it's non-intentional, unreliable narrators can switch between times as a stylistic choice)
(- in papers/essays this is also the point where I would make sure my claims are substantiated in the references I have used)
The things to look for are non-exhaustive. In my fics, I tend to do one single edit that combines all of these, or one update/style check and then a proofread if it's a long fic. This is because I don't tend to spend a lot of time on fics. with my original works, I tend to do each check individually, with the update/style check first, then a consistency check, then a QC, then the proofread. 4 drafts (at least, sigh)
A beta reader can help with some of these, especially the consistency check and the update/style check - when you read your own work a lot you do tend to miss things. However I cannot stress enough when you are asking a beta reader to look over your work, set your expectations:
tell them which kind of edit you'd like them to do. If you want a QC and you get back a style check it can feel a little insulting
if you want a more thorough edit like a style check or a consistency check then set expectations for the level of edit. If you want to develop your own style of writing, then specify you don't want your beta reader to be too picky over word choices, only calling out if, e.g. words don't make sense in context. If you want a language check (maybe your first language isn't english and you are worried about writing in english) then ask for more detailed notes on your specific word choice. it's entirely up to you, and knowing what is expected of them can make the beta's job easier!
And some things personal to me:
items/advice about how i write my own fic, these are things I look for in the update/style check to ensure the conclusion is built to in a satisfying way
plot themes, and building callbacks: I like to pick a few callbacks for my characters and have them mentioned a few times throughout the story - enough that readers will notice and appreciate the callback, but not too much that it's all the characters talk about. it's a delicate balance and depends on the length of the fic and the themes you choose. for example in the longfic i'm writing I have romcoms as a theme, where the characters bring up their favourite big romcom lines a couple of times, then joke around finding their own when they finally kiss. in my original novel i have one fun theme of one of my characters absolutely loving bread and always eating it whenever there's bread offered, and also a plot related theme of discussion about poison, poison preparation, and contemporary medical diagnoses of poisoning which leads a character to realise [REDACTED] might have been poisoned (these things are unrelated my character does not die of poison bread lmao) sometimes these callback themes can reflect the plot of your fic, or it can be a fun character thing that keeps coming back, or it can reflect how a character has grown from the start of the story
characterisation through your story: I'd suggest figuring out where your character starts, and the growth you want them to go through to make the characterisation more fulfilling. this can just be something specific you want that character to realise, or the character settling into the role they have and realising they enjoy it and fighting back less, or a character striving for something and either getting it or not getting it and deciding whether they even wanted it, etc. sometimes the simpler the fundamental character arc, the better. it can help with linking the character arc to the plot, and figuring out how minor characters are doing in the background of the fic
have fun and enjoy! don't feel obligated to follow my advice exactly or stick rigidly to one of the edit types, having a mix between them is just as useful and sometimes certain items slip from edit to edit! sharing your work is scary, but knowing you've picked up on typos and minor errors before you share can reduce that fear a bit :)
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chibishortdeath · 2 months
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So much happening in the world and in my personal life at once and I am completely unable to do anything about any of it. I am completely exhausted. I need to move out, but I can’t.
I’ve been stuck with a headache for a few months.
#text post#vent post#tw vent#cw vent#I’d say delete later but I don’t ever actually do that anyway#maybe I should go through vents and delete them Al#tbh I’m starting to realize that maybe never being allowed to do anything and never being taught how to do anything as a kid was neglect#it probably also wasn’t normal that I tried to be the ‘easy kid’ and avoid any perceived trouble as much as physically possible#I usually just sit in the furthest part of the house dissociate and try to immediately appear fine if anyone walks in and sees me#idk maybe I should just make that super self indulgent Simon’s Quest comic since it’ll probably be practically vent art anyway#he’s a little bit too relatable for comfort#and man I didn’t even fight Dracula to end up messed up how lame smh 😔#I feel like I would just end up feeling guilty that I’m not doing something else more important though#most of the things I can do right now I can’t without guilt that stops me somewhere through#and that includes trying to rest haha yippie :/#I can’t even draw the blorbo dead about it like it’s past that level of bad#I guess I shouldn’t even suggest doing anything I can’t do too#I don’t even wanna look at my instagram rn I can’t fix any of that either#idk if I should go into any details or not but I literally just can’t change anything#and I know I can’t get better unless I leave but I can’t leave and there’s nowhere to go#even places online are starting to become uninhabitable#we truly live in a time :/#I’m just typing anything I think of as I think of it#tldr ​I am a terrible person who can’t get better because I’m stuck in a terrible situation and everything sucks basically#i’m exhausted#i feel so trapped#it feels like I have no autonomy or effect on the world at all#ugh I’m not explaining anything correctly enough anyway#I guess supper is almost ready and I should stop ranting at nothing#I’m basically just here to try to make it to 29 at least for the silly Simon game reference haha that is so pathetic
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linagram · 1 year
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[ 𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚋𝚊 𝚗𝚊𝚘𝚖𝚒'𝚜 𝚝𝟷 𝚟𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚍𝚛𝚊𝚖𝚊 ] 𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚍𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚌𝚛𝚞𝚎𝚕𝚝𝚢
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naomi's vd is here! i think this one is a little shorter than the other ones? at least it definitely feels like a short one to me.
well, naomi's crime was basically solved on my other blog, so i felt like it wouldn't make sense to try and make it sound more mysterious than it actually is, haha. she's still a very interesting character to me though and i'm excited to see how her trial goes.
(divider link)
(door opens)
(sounds of footsteps)
Miki: I hope we didn't keep you waiting too long..
Naomi: No, no, everything is fine, don't worry about it.
Naomi: I understand that you two are quite busy today, haha. If I recall correctly, you have to extract everyone's songs today, right?
Miki: Y-yes..
Naomi: And I'm only the fourth prisoner. You still have a lot of people to talk to today.
Miki: *nods*
Naomi: Well, do your best then. I'm sure everything will be fine.
Miki: T-thank you so much!
Eiji: *clears his throat*
Eiji: I'm also here, just so you know.
Naomi: Of course. Hello, um..
Naomi: Is it okay if I call you both by your first names? You both are guards, so calling you both "Guard-san" is kind of..
Eiji: Hey, who do you think you are to-
Miki: Yes, that would be so much better!
Naomi: Great. Hello, Eiji-san.
Eiji: (to Miki) What are you doing? She has no right to call us by our first names like that, she's just a prisoner!
Miki: Well, I'm tired of being called "Guard 002" or "Guard-san's assistant" all the time. So yes, I prefer my name better.
Eiji: .. What happened to you?
Miki: Maybe I'm just trying to act more like a guard?
Miki: You can still say her prisoner number and name though. It's your thing, after all.
Eiji: I-I know that..
Naomi: Haha, you two get along so well.
Eiji: So, Prisoner 004, Chiba Naomi.
Eiji: Oh, you also were a teacher before arriving to Milgram.
Naomi: .. Yes, that's right. I was an elementary school teacher, to be more exact.
Miki: That's so cute! To be honest, I can definitely imagine you being a type of person who's good with children.
Naomi: !..
Naomi: Y-yes, a lot of people have told me that..
Eiji: So, an elementary school teacher..
Eiji: Even someone who spent so much time with children still ended up becoming a murderer.
Eiji: There's really no hope for all of you.
Naomi: Yes, I won't deny that I really did murder someone.
Miki: U-um, before we discuss that..
Miki: How about we talk about your life in Milgram?
Naomi: Well.. Sure, why not?
Miki: Do you get along well with other prisoners?
Naomi: Hm, let me think..
Naomi: Other prisoners are very.. interesting people.
Eiji: You mean they're all insane.
Naomi: *laughs* I don't really have a right to judge them for their behavior and for what they've done. I'm just like them, after all.
Naomi: I can't imagine some of them being criminals at all though..
Naomi: Like Yurika-san. She's so kind and gentle!
Naomi: And Aimi-chan. She's such a sweet and polite girl!
Eiji: You haven't mentioned Asahi though.
Eiji: Don't you think it's weird that he's here, since, you know, he's a child?
Naomi: ...
Naomi: Kids can be very cruel too, Eiji-san.
Naomi: Of course, a lot of prisoners here are children. Akio-kun, Aimi-chan, Riku-kun..
Naomi: But.. um.. Asahi-kun definitely seems like the type of child who is not as pure and innocent as you'd expect a child to be.
Eiji: It's like you had to deal with kids like that in the past.
Naomi: You're right.
Naomi: I love kids, I really do, but some of them..
Naomi: .. Can be more evil than any adults.
Naomi: And yes, usually people say that it's okay for children to do horrible things, because again, they're children, they don't understand what they're doing!
Naomi: But that's exactly what makes them so evil.
Naomi: We always say that adults are responsible for what they've done even if they didn't know better, but why do we go easy on children?
Miki: Um.. because they're children?
Naomi: Miki-san, were you ever hurt by a child?
Naomi: And what about you, Eiji-san?
Miki: ...
Eiji: ...
Naomi: Think about it. Refusing to play with someone just because they're "different", making fun of someone for some stupid reason they've just made up, hurting someone and then blaming that person for everything..
Naomi: Children are capable of all those things.
Naomi: I can tell that you two have met children like that before.
Miki: H-how do you know that?..
Naomi: You two are still children in my eyes. I know that a child had to go through something horrible when I look at them.
Naomi: I had to help a lot of my students. Some of them were abused by their own family, some of them were bullied by their classmates, some of them were simply ignored by everyone.
Naomi: And I can tell that you were just like them when you were younger.
Naomi: I'll tell you more, I feel like one of you is still really angry at that child who hurt them in the past, meanwhile the other one..
Naomi: Feels like they were that child who hurt someone very badly when they were younger.
Miki: ...
Eiji: .. Stop it. Let's just talk about your crime already.
Naomi: You're right. Sorry.
Naomi: But before we talk about that.. Can I ask you something?
Naomi: Eiji-san, you want to vote everyone here guilty, right?
Eiji: Haha, how did you know? Was that so obvious?
Eiji: Of course. I hate every single Milgram prisoner.
Naomi: I see. In that case..
Naomi: Can you promise to vote me guilty no matter what?
Miki: .. Huh??
Eiji: Sure, I'd love to!
Miki: No, wait, Chiba-san, what does that mean? Why do you want to be voted guilty?
Naomi: Well.. Because I want someone to tell me that they don't forgive me.
Naomi: I'm sick of it. I know that my crime is unforgivable, but..
Naomi: I've never got punished for it.
Eiji: .. What do you mean by that?
Naomi: My crime.. was seen as something good.
Naomi: Well, not exactly good, but not exactly bad either.
Naomi: Sure, I've never actually told anyone that I was the one who did it, but I just know that people wouldn't say that I'm evil for doing that.
Naomi: They would be okay with that. Even my victim's family would be okay with that.
Naomi: So, please.. Tell me I'm guilty.
Naomi: I will tell you everything you want to know about my crime. Just promise that you won't forgive me like everyone else did.
Eiji: Oh, you don't have to worry about that.
Eiji: Now, about your crime-
(bell rings, machinery sounds)
Miki: No, no, wait! We need more time! We finally can talk to a prisoner who actually wants to tell us everything about their crime, we can't lose that chance!
Eiji: It's okay, we'll learn everything we want to know very soon.
Naomi: But.. Are you sure that video will be enough to judge me properly?
Naomi: What if you decide that I'm innocent after watching it?
Eiji: Well, if that video makes you look sympathetic..
Eiji: It simply means that you actually want to be forgiven.
Naomi: I..
Naomi: I DON'T WANT TO BE FORGIVEN! I DESERVE TO BE PUNISHED! I LITERALLY KILLED A CHILD-
Eiji: Prisoner 004, Naomi, sing your sins!
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songofsunset · 10 months
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On the one hand, I've been in bed sick since Friday. On the other hand, I finished two books this weekend, which is nice?
Lmao I just checked the time stamps and I started Nona The Ninth at 5pm Saturday and finished it at 3am Sunday morning, so that's less than 12 hours start to finish xD
I also finished a reread of Network Effect for like the third time, which is a delight as always
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b4kuch1n · 11 months
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what this fic's gotten to so far is a collection of extremely specific experiences
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linabirb · 6 months
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i will NOT talk about what i think about the current twst event but i still want y'all to know that every time i see any new info about it i just go.
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vargaslovinghours · 1 year
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Gosh I am so in love with the dating sim idea <33
Partially because I'm interested in computer programming and partially because, like, the ✨dynamics✨ man!!
The idea of Scriabin internally struggling between "I don't *hate* this person" and "This person trying to steal Edgar from me >:0" is just asdf-
What type of endings would there be?
Could you befriend one/both and not go as far as dating?
Could you date both?
Also love love love the UI concept art so much like the yarn-themed dialogue box and hearts system is so creative aaa
Sorry if this is a lot of questions just <333 going feral over this concept <33
Haha no no, no problem at all ♪ We’re both on the same page here, I love the design side of games, backend stuff is super fascinating to me ♫ Plus I just super love the idea of them in a Dating Sim ah ♥
It sounds like a whole heap’a your questions are answered in my first post in the Dating Sim tag :D
However, since I have The Most fun imagining what it’d be like to write/play a Vargas Dating Sim, I will take this opportunity to talk about it more lol:
As you can see in the Endings flow chart, yes, there are a bunch of different endings, all based on the ✨dynamics✨ that the Player pursues with each of the Vargases. In my current draft there’s not a way to date both exactly - at least, you can’t date both behind the other’s back, they will always be generally aware of the relationship status the other has with the Player, Scriabin moreso than Edgar, but Scriabin can’t help but gloat and they talk in their own scenes, so Edgar still knows. You can positively pursue both of them though, which leads to its own ending!
(You can keep both of them at ~5 ♥s and under, but that will still culminate in the Neutral Ending; at least one of them has to be at 7+ ♥s to get a different Positive ending; so, yes but no but also yes??)
You can also deepen your relationship with one over the other! Those, of course, lead to the Bad and Worst Endings, who could’ve guessed :3c Those are some of my favourites, because who’s “Bad” ending it is really depends on the perspective - the Bad (Edgar) Ending is one of Scriabin’s better Endings, as far as his manipulation and possessiveness is concerned. It’s definitely a Bad Ending for the Player tho lol
While the Best Ending doesn’t get as messed up as the Bad Endings (I mean - ideally lol), there is still definitely a lot of tumultuous emotions! They have to share the Player with each other, and each other with the Player, at least to better get to know each other! Scriabin isn’t the only one who feels possessive, even in routes where the player gets closer to Edgar there are still a lot of mixed feelings about being away from Scriabin, even as he starts to get more violent. They’re always weird about each other, they’re the ultimate package deal! 💕
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whoredmode · 11 months
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is it ever said that the moment the saints are on the hughes memorial bridge in srtt is because they’re in johnny’s procession? i don’t think i ever heard “procession” said anywhere in-game.
i realize that’s what seems implied because. funeral + cars is pretty easy shorthand for a procession, but they’re driving in the direction of the cemetery, and the funeral home is at the cemetery. so it kinda says to me that they hadn’t even gotten a chance to mourn johnny yet. not even a chance for the actual memorial. also there’s only four cars there and for someone like johnny gat….that procession should’ve been long. so i think they were actually on their way to the memorial itself? the only thing that might contradict that is pierce is driving a hearse, but tbh maybe they’re bringing their own saints-themed hearse.
like i assumed it was a procession for so long but since i’ve been going over stuff for stilwater and steelport, i noticed this and started really thinking about it. unless ofc it is canonically stated somewhere that it was indeed the procession and i just missed it (<- very likely). but honestly it’s even sadder if they were just on their way to the funeral itself, and still had no time to grieve.
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sysig · 8 months
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yuribalisms · 1 year
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I need to uproot my entire life and start from scratch or I’m gonna go insane
#‘haha funny joke post’ excpet…. not really#I’m coming to the realization that I am just Not happy where I am and I don’t think that’s gonna change so long as I’m here#and that’s why I keep spiraling into intense depressive episodes when I haven’t done that since I last lived with my mom#part of it is my job I hate it and it’s draining the life out of me and they’re working me into the ground#I literally can’t even take time off because they don’t allow it until you’ve worked there for a year#but also there’s no BETTER job opportunities here#and I finally decided what I want to go school for but also there’s no schools here that offer it…#the closest one is in my home town four hours away as some sick fucking cosmic joke#and I’m so…. so lonely#I feel so disconnected from literally everyone around me#I know my friends care about me and I’m important to them#but again it’s that sense that I will NEVER be the most important thing in their life someone else will always be that#I mean… I’ve never EVER been the most important person to someone before someone else has always mattered more than I have#which especially sucks when I feel like I only know HOW to be close with someone in an extremely obsessive way#where I would do anything for them but that’s not necessarily returned#but… I just think it would be nice to have a relationship with someone where the entire time I’m like ‘yeah but they would never do x thing#for you because they already have a person they would do that for’#(said person usually being a romantic partner)#and I’m just… tired#I’m tired of it and I want it to stop I want to be somewhere I don’t constantly feel like shit and go through frequent periods I wanna kms#and I think I’m gonna have to move for school anyways so…. So what if I really DID just start over somewhere else#I worry I might end up in the same rut but also I’ll never know if I don’t try#and I’m not happy here I don’t think I WILL be happy here I just want to live with/close to someone where I feel like I’m a priority#and my wants and desires are treated like something just as important as theirs#I dunno… maybe I am just in another really bad depressive episode again but….#I feel like I need to change something to avoid falling back to everything and everyone I normally do#kaz rambles
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isekyaaa · 1 year
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The writer equivalent of trying to figure out if something looks better one pixel to the right or left is trying to figure out if something should be worded, "She was truly happy" or "She truly was happy."
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merriclo · 1 year
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what’s stopping me from taking the “wild’s illiterate” joke and running with it
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tate-lin · 1 year
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Do you know the way seaglass echoes?
He can hear it even in the most tamest of dreams. Broken plates, cracked windshields, hanging tail lights. Even on good days, the warm rays of a rising sun can remind him of jagged cuts and bottles left to rot.
He gets up and breathes through it all.
Most days now, he knows that he made it. On others, it was as if nothing changed at all.
Like he never changed.
The wooden floor still weeps and the glint off glass still burns. Across the bottle’s surface, his reflection and her reflection and their reflection sings. His mother’s heavy figure covers his, and her seaglass fingers reaches out as another bottle descends.
She often said that he inherited the worst of her, her voice rough and cutting. Maybe that’s true, his wife said years later, hands gripping his, But you definitely inherited the best too.
All glass can become seaglass, you know. No matter the ruin, no matter the fine-edged barbs. It just takes time. Decades and decades of it.
As he sits down for dinner, his child’s hand in his, he thinks, I don’t mind the wait. He crouches down to greet his mother and she curls a hand over his. They’re still the same as always. Warm, weathered, smooth. Kind.
A gem formed in the unlikeliest of ways.
He smiles, his mouth a dimpled crescent. “Happy new year, Ma.”
We’ve made it.
Happy lunar new year everyone!! :D
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