#it's just. it gets Tiring y'know?

[daandyli0n]

(discussions of religion)

y’know what? screw it, i’m gonna say it:

yes, i’m a christian

yes, i’m also lgbtq+

it is possible to be both

so you know what? i’m gonna spread a bit of positivity

to the lgbtq+ christians who can’t come out because they are surrounded by Those Christians™

i’m sorry, i honestly feel you, you’re valid, and i really do hope that things will get better for y’all

have a nice day 💖

#lgbtq+ #slight religion vent incoming #just. y'all can tell that this post is Personal huh? #look. i try not to discuss religion too much on here #cause i know that some of y'all probably don't wanna hear about that s**t #can't blame y'all honestly. i get tired of hearing about it a lot too #but this? i feel like there are some people who might need to hear this #to know 'Yeah! there are people out there with those struggles too!' #look. i can't discuss lgbtq+ topics on my streams cause my dad watches them. that and my family is subscribed to my Youtube channel #i can't come out to my family cause i know they won't accept me #they aren't abusive. it's just. i know that they'll judge me for it and all that #going to church on sunday mornings and wednesday nights is a 50/50 shot between it being a Regular Sermon #and something that feels like a personal 'f**k you and f**k your friends' #and heck! even the Regular Sermons might have a Comment™ thrown in there! #I Can't Even Use The Correct Pronouns For One Of My Friends In Front Of My Family. I Have To Misgender Them #it's just. it gets Tiring y'know? #why do y'all think i reblog the occasional post dunking on Those Christians™? it's cause i agree. it sucks #and i'm saying that as a CHRISTIAN #like. i'm willing to admit that Yeah. People In My Religion Suck. Not Gonna Disagree With Y'all There #just. jeez. can people in my religion be Not Horrible. For Five Minutes #Why Do They Think That Other People Just. Don't Like Them? #dear lord #anyway. rant over #hope i could spread some positivity <3 #ranting raving and venting time #<my vent tag that i barely use

[writinggremlin]

How's about a whumpee who desires pain?

A whumpee who wants to be stressed and panicked and hurt. Everything's been too good for too long, and maybe that frustrates them a little bit.

Why do they feel this way? They don't know. All they do know, is that that risky and/or hurtful scenario is looking quite tempting.

If nobody's going to make them worse, they'll do it themself.

#whump #angst #whumpblr #whumpee #caretaker #whump prompt #whump prompts #whump ideas #whump idea #kinda going through it rn ngl. dont really get why. probably just need to sleep. i did stay up super late last night ngl lol #I think i just kinda wanna feel alive y'know? i yearn for the pain of my heart squeezing in my chest. I want a problem. i want pressure. #eh. doesn't matter. like I said- I'm probably just tired. if somebody's seeing this for some reason- I hope you're having a lovely day/night #imma go to sleep now lol. night!

[hood-ex]

My dad was Bruce-ing again today.

Dad: Where are your keys? I'm gonna go put more air in your tire.

Me: I already filled it up this week.

Dad: Oh okay.

Dad goes upstairs for a second and comes back with a bag in his hand.

Dad: Here, take this poncho and put it in your glove compartment. In case you have to pull over in the rain, put it on so other cars can see you.

So then I took my new bright ass orange poncho to my car, bypassing the three water bottles my dad had stuffed in the door pocket as well as the emergency phone battery pack charger he stuffed in another pocket.

#i also have an air compressor in my car. toilet paper. jumper cables. portable jumper cables/battery charger. tool box. #and then my own contribution includes a first aid/emergency kit #honestly surprised he didn't get me a jack to put in there but then again idk how to change my tires so alkdja #no but this man is literally bruce in the ''always be prepared'' type of way. #he literally has a closet dedicated to extra food and toilet paper and soap and tons of other things #we call it his store. ''hey we're out of dishwasher detergent. oh i'll go look for some in dad's store.'' #he also has flashlights Everywhere. i probably have 2-3 in my room bc he's just randomly like ''em take this flashlight.'' #he literally gave me another one like a week ago or something. and y'know what they've actually been handy as fuck when the power goes out #he's also given me a penlight for my purse but i think i need a new one #just whew.

[belethlegwen]

General li'l update

So, things have done anything but slow down for me in the real world. To keep it as vague as possible, there's a chance I'll be losing my job within the next month or so, though we're all currently working on possible solutions to this. Hoping for the best.

I've already done my panicking and preemptive grieving. 18 years in a single career is a hell of a run for someone my age, and if it has to come to an end then I've made at least some peace with that idea.

Still though, working every day to find solutions. To fix things. To keep surviving. It's exhausting, I will not lie. We're doing what we can over here.

There's so, so much good to look forward to this year. These are just bumpy patches of road. And some of the bumpiest roads I've driven on have taken me to the best places I've ever been. I'll be alright. I know I'll be alright. I'll be more than alright, by the time this is all said and done.

Been doing more reading of late, which I've been loving. You all are putting out such amazing work and I love bouncing in to read even if it takes me 3 attempts and a couple of hours to get through a posted chapter. Lovely escapes, all around.

My sister turned me onto a game ("game" kind of seems like an odd word for it but either way) on steam called Spirit City: Lofi Sessions. You customize a character, you have a little room, it plays lofi music at you and you can poke at a few playlists, build soundscapes around it (rain noises, thunder, wind, birds chirping, crackling fire etc etc) while your character mills about in spots doing things as just a beautiful little vibe-generator. You can collect spirit pals to vibe with you. It's just really cozy and nice, I love it. Highly recommend.

It has an optioning for in-app journaling, and I've been meaning to get back into journaling regularly just for the sake of my memory and everything else. That's been a huge boon over the last 2-3 days. It's got a productivity timer, to-do list, daily task/habits tracker.

Anyway, I've been making progress on writing but it's slow, staggered. Hit a bit of a wall last night with some of The Stranding where I wrote 8.5 pages of a scene and then just felt... unhappy with it. I had clearly lost the thread of why I started writing it, and needed to walk away to see if a fresher mind could find a place to rewind to and pivot so I can salvage it, or if I'm just gonna carve the whole thing out and set it in the Cut Scenes doc. The other 20 pages I've got waiting? Fine. Good, even. Proud of those. This one, I'm proud of what I'm writing but again... just feels more like floating aimlessly and bouncing. It was clear I wrote it while heavily distracted or with gaps between focus, so it jumps.

I'll see what I can salvage. Can't promise an update and am avoiding making it feel like I'm 'back on schedule' just to find something I can reduce pressure from in my life for the time being. But: I love you all. The Kudos, the views, the comments, the everything. It means a lot. You're all great.

If I do any generic vent/vibe writing, not necessarily attached to anything, I'll consider sharing it here for y'all. You guys deserve a bit of fun and sunshine <3

Have a great time everyone, love y'all to bits <3

~ Belle

#g/t author #gtauthor #author thoughts #just general rambling #irl update #life update #life is a mess and boy am I too tired to clean #Sometimes you just keep chuggin' until someone tells you aren't actually a train y'know what I mean? #If you do know what I mean please let me know #My brain is scrambled eggs because of all of this #I would like things to slow down plz #A friend of mine at the farmer's market this morning asked me 'what's new?' and I just moaned 'too much'. #I would like Less New #For a little while #Until the next big New Thing #The good one #the one where I get to see my fiancee and take them home with me forever #That's the good shit #Looking forward to that

[front-facing-pokemon]

#whiscash #and i'm back!! y'all wouldn't have seen any interruption since obviously i keep a very long queue for a reason but #i didn't queue up any pokémon for like five days. because i was in california. but i'm back home now and this is the morning after i return #like. i'm queueing this up the morning after i return. it's gonna post like july 20-something'th. idk. but last night (to me writing these #tags) i arrived home at like 1 AM and just immediately collapsed into bed and passed the fuck out bc i was wrecked #and i'm taking the rest of the week off of work. which may or may not actually pan out—i'm probably gonna get antsy and work at least a #little bit but. y'know. i'm tired. obviously. anyway whiscash pond? whiscash has a pond. we all know his pond #i don't know that much about rescue team tbqh. not my favorite pmd game. but he was definitely in it. i think he was actually floating #right above the evolution cave or something. i dunno #but here he is. he's on the blog #a fish with a blog. a blog in a bog. bc his pond?

[zaphodbeeblebroxssecondhead]

queerplatonic johnlock is so important to me i don't think you understand

#like #it's what they have don't deny it #sure i like when they're romantic/sexual a lot #but i have issues and i just need them to be happy and let holmes be aroace #idk man i'm tired #sorry this doesn't make sense #but do you get it? #i want you to get it #i need to have more connection to sherlock holmes than i already do as well y'know #because i don't understand romantic/sexual relationships at all and i want him to be like that as well #idk i should just write fanfic instead of ranting in the tags #they're my boys okay #will protect them until the end of time #sherlock holmes #john watson #johnlock #acd holmes #queerplatonic

[yaz-the-spaz]

I have a new second favorite Zayn and here's reasons #1-∞ why...

first off, for anyone who may have missed it liam participated in Soccer Aid this week and made a new friend with an old name. enter tiktoker & youtuber zaynqf, who makes football content but was clearly fangirling over liam (much like another zayn we know lmao) 😆

...BUT things really popped off when zayn(qf) made a post including a caption with a punny joke about himself and liam (included in the screenshots below)

as they do, fans reacted and the result was...interesting 😏

and then just to make sure what was seemingly being implied by zayn(qf) was crystal clear someone else followed up and...

THEN as if to double down on his chaotic and downright egregious behavior (sir! we were not prepared!) AND add fuel to the already deliciously burning fire, he proceeded to view (and even like) posts from other ziams' stories

there may be even more of these, i'm not sure, but these are just the ones i happened to see (if people have screenshots of more of him creeping on ziam posts please do feel free to send them in so i can add them to this post lol!)

anyways, in conclusion, I have a new second favorite zayn and now you all do too. let's welcome our new surrogate captain of this beautiful ship warmly! 😜🏳️‍🌈

#ziam #ziam proof #soft outings #people know #he is now the second person to soft out them lol #(with consent I'm sure) #anyway #we didn't need more proof that #ziam is real #but #i'm very happy we got it!!! #twas a momentus moment indeed #and we always welcome this sort of chaotic behavior lol #btw #if anyone whose posts were included in this would rather their content not be included (or their name shown) please let me know! #it was late and i just wanted to get this out before i got too tired but i can go back and edit some things out if need be #zaynqf #oh and apparently ziam was trending on twitter earlier too so y'know ziams just stay winning lol 😏

[facetsofthecloset]

i'm sure it's been said but i feel like both Raxtus and Ronodin can be argued as "the only gay kid in the family and consequently shunned/rejected" and it's like. so weird bc Mull is so Mormon he'd probably rather eat his shorts than even acknowledge the possible existence of gays but

i mean. Raxtus literally has a fairy form. he's a fairy dragon.

Ronodin was just emo lol

and they both get so thoroughly rejected and sidelined by their families their whole lives and it turns Raxtus into an awkward but basically decent guy who runs back to the approval of his family once he's performed masculinity/violence enough to be accepted, only to then realize that he's basically just being used and still not fully trusted/accepted and having to betray them to save his real friends

(who sadly are probably actually homophobic but that's ok bc they're not dragon-phobic so that works out for him)

while Ronodin's like "fuck it. chaos and murder then!" and can you really blame him? he spent his entire life trying to conform to the "right" (in this case, Light) way of life, started spending time with the outgroup and learned to question things, then was told he was "too corrupt" to remain in his home

like. the symbolism is right there.

it's so funny, because sure Raxtus isn't a bad guy, but Ronodin definitely is and he pretty much gets sent to a type of hell at the end of Dragonwatch

and while Raxtus gets kind of a happy ending, like, him becoming an effective killer in a war and being accepted by his dad for being Good At Murder in the first Fablehaven series is presented as a happy ending. if Celebrant didn't wind up being the main villain for Dragonwatch, that probably would've been the end of it! gay kid learns how to soldier and is finally accepted by his homophobic family bc he's finally aggressive enough for them to love him

(i mean i have MANY issues with Celebrant being the main villain later and the reasons he's framed as bad but like. that's a separate rant lol)

the queer reading is right there. but also it's very bad and you can tell completely unintentional. or at the very least highly repressed. idk man i don't look into Mull as a personal individual bc i doubt i'll like what i see and i don't care that much but Dragonwatch was SO MUCH MORE MORMON than Fablehaven already was and it's so weird, seeing the fingerprints of it all over.

i feel like he either has a new editor or he's been doing this for long enough and sold enough books that he has the clout to veto changes made by editors or SOMETHING, bc i feel like? he's gotten worse?? and more unfiltered?? that or something happened and he's like. even more religious than before or something idk

like fablehaven was just kinda generic/bland fantasy with some fun ideas for magic items/powers/one sentence character premises, with just a hint of sus Mormon ideology, and then Dragonwatch just went. Full Mormon.

but then there's somehow even more weirdly queer shit. like. he's repressing so hard he's approaching queer from the other side??

idk man i wish this deeply mediocre man's writing wasn't a formative piece of middle school reading, leading to me still giving more of a shit than i really should over questionable children's literature now

#i mean it seems like his wife may or may not have divorced him between the series's so maybe that had something to do with it #i didn't look too deeply into it i just kinda guessed from his about the author blurbs wording changes #also wtf was up with the weird borderline piss/humiliation kink thing in the latest candy shop war book? #like. that was. that was not funny at all if it was meant to be comedic. like the execution was SO BOTCHED if so #and if it wasn't??? it was just????? UNCOMFY??? #sorry i'm tired and kind of delirious and for whatever reason this man's writing's squandered potential still haunts me #like genuinely if i ever publish original fiction there's a good chance it'll be fanfic of this with the serial numbers filed off #like 'MINE I'LL DO IT /RIGHT/ OK GIMME' #fablehaven #dragonwatch #i know ronodin is overrated and like. yeah he's not really a sexyman to me but he IS still compelling as a character #i think he's funny i wanna be his therapist #like stereotypical him lying down on a chaise longue thing #but also i reserve the right to make fun of him so like. not a very ethical therapist lol #get it all out queer boy let's get you to a gay club and find some fairies who WILL accept you #just cool it with the murder and the manipulation a bit y'know

[beanghostprincess]

I like to imagine that after Sanji transitions and they all get new bounty photos, she's like 'oh thank GOD' but when they all finally get to see the new photos. Sanji's is still as much as a Travesty as before.

You may be able to change your gender but you cannot change the bad luck that is Picture Day

I like to think she gets a gorgeous picture for her bounty (even if she's not passing, bc that's stupid and she doesn't owe normative femininity to anybody and she's gorgeous no matter what!) and she looks so good even Nami is a bit jealous but they're all happy for her and the only reason her other bounty posters were shit was that she wasn't being true to herself. And then Zeff sees the wanted poster and hangs it right in the kitchen where everyone can see his daughter <3 And if anybody says something dirty about her he'll just kick their asses!

#i just think she deserves the world and i'm tired of her getting shitty pictures #she looks beautiful end of the story #and also not to be mean but the phrasing here sounded a bit.. weird #like i know what you were trying to say but y'know trans girls who don't pass are still beautiful and y'know- girls #and considering not passing as a cis girl as not being pretty or having a good picture is just awful :( #but i get the joke i just think it would make sanji feel horrible and i don't want that #tbh i feel awful every time that joke is made in canon why would they do that #one piece #black leg sanji #transfem sanji

[blubushie]

Watching Mavis contemplate the idea of herself possibly being on the path to becoming an alcoholic is strangely cathartic after how she treated me for being an alcoholic. I'd say I wouldn't wish the shit I've gone through on my worst enemy, and that's mostly true. I wouldn't wish the shit I've gone through in full on my worst enemy.

So I hope her recovery goes quick. But I also hope it sucks. I hope she gets withdrawals that she recovers from, but I hope she suffers the fevers and the chills and the cramps and the cravings and the agony. I hope she learns a lesson in how she enables and encourages the way society treats the struggling, the less fortunate, the downtrodden, the traumatised, the addicted.

I hope she learns something from this and never speculates or utters another fucking word about anyone else's coping habits or addictions. I hope she learns to stay in her fucking lane and not judge people for the methods they use to cope.

I hope she comes away with the knowledge of what her own medicine tastes like, and I hope it's bitter.

#mavisposting #tacking on that you wouldn't be having cravings for alcohol after only one drink the day before so she's defo lying for sympathy points #so y'know. as always. manipulative #i do genuinely hope she gets better if she is falling into addiction tho (which she's not because she's a liar) #but i also hope it sucks the whole fucking time she's getting better (which she won't because she's a liar) #i hope her withdrawals are short but also the worst thing that's ever happened to her #even if it's just one day of withdrawals. i hope she gets all the shit i coped with for weeks when i went cold turkey #i hope she learns how fucking hard it is and she never says another cruel word to or about addicts of any sort #i don't care if i sound cruel atp. it's 12am. i'm sleepy. i'm tired of the world's cruelty #and i'm especially tired of her woe-is-me manipulative lying bullshit #the utter fucking audacity she has to lie about this shit after everything she said about my alcoholism and drug use #she can get fucked royally actually. fuck her. i don't care. genuinely one of the worst people i've ever met and that's saying something

[clownprince]

every day is just. i open tumblr.app. i see the worst most oversimplified sandpapered nuance-less dc comics take imaginable. i spend several minutes staring at it debating whether it's worth arguing over (it never is). i sigh, shake my head in resignation and close tumblr.app

#imagine how tired i am #i wasn't even a batjokes related cold take this time #i'm used to those at least #what is it w j/son fans and the bizarre attitude that he did absolutely nothing wrong and is entirely innocent and blameless and 100% the #victim (post-resurrection i mean) #like don't get me wrong i adore him he's my baby boy and one of my favorites #but like did you all just collectively forget about the. y'know. severed heads? and other assorted crimes? #fuckin watering it down to huhuhu bruce bad #tearing my hair out you're missing the point you're missing out on the nuance and the tragedy #i'm going to bite . someone #probably deleting this later bc i'm like #clinically conflict avoidant but it's 11 am and i haven't slept yet and I'm just so. irrationally annoyed over this #it's probably the sleep deprivation yeah i shoudl probably go to sleep

[bozepomagaj]

i was 15 when i watched made in abyss as well, finished the 1st season and promptly never touched it again because of what i learned about the author. From what ive seen from koreans they say that the version shown on korean tv is censored (which sounds plausible) which could mean that the weird parts that we skip may be cut out entirely(?dont quote me on that idk) soobin is on thin ice cause the 2nd season is worse and taeyong is in deep shit because i dont think there is any reason why someone should own the manga😟

I'mma preface this by saying I completely get everyone who couldn't stomach this series. It contains a lot of disturbing topics and at the end of the day, it's a horror series, of course not everyone is gonna be able to handle that, and again that's fine. But I can also say that this arc was surprisingly handled with a lot of care, wasn't fetishized nor glorified just... disturbing. Think of Outlast 2 or the ending of Amnesia:Rebirth.

TLDR:

Second season is way more disturbing but not as sexual in nature and Soobin most likely was talking about the fight scenes when saying how cool it was. And if he wasn't then who knows what he was yapping about, don't know him personally so I can't put words into his mouth unless he says something. As for Taeyong, can't defend him at ALL but calling him a p3d0 would still be a bit too much for me.

AND I wanna add after further investigation, Mingi said he didn't even watch it and instead dropped it because it was too much for him, so there's that.

For a more in depth explanation, here you go:

I'm gonna have to explain the lore in order for you all to understand this FULLY, so heres a summary:

The arc introduces us to Vueko, a victim of trafficking who was thrown into the Abyss with the rest of the now villagers because she wasn't deemed as someone useful. So obviously, when she meets Irumyuui, who has been exiled from her village for not being able to give birth at the age of 8, she immediately takes her in. As a victim, she understands her, and the author explains how, through helping Irumyuui, Vueko is able to heal her own trauma and heal Irumyuui as well. It's extremely well written, and as a fellow victim, there was something so sweet about seeing someone heal with the help of another. Especially when that someone acted like a mother figure. But of course, this is the Abyss. The point of the Abyss is that despite you thinking there's some light at the end of the tunnel, there isn't. Wazukyan takes that away, and Irumyuuis wish backfires (think of it like the wishes in Madoka, you get what you want but at a cost), and she gets turned into a horrible monster. But despite everything, she's happy because to her, she's fulfilled her purpose.

This is the part that I could discuss for hours because to me, it was commentary on how young girls even nowadayas are convinced by others that 'they have to find a man one day' and how having no kids is looked down upon. Especially in 3rd world countries. I could write an entire essay, but we're not here to do that.

I can tell you immediately that none of this was fetishized nor glorified in an yway, it's just supposed to make you feel absolutely empty because again, author is really trying to push that "oh you think you got the good end of the stick? Think again!" The manga if FILLED with situations like this, from Rico's origins to Nanachis arc, the subplot of this entire manga is 'how far are you willing to go to survive?'. Think of it like Fire Punch. Disturbing? Yeah, I mean, even I had to drop it once they began talking about trafficking women. Once again, I am comparing it to Madoka Magica but far more gruesome. Nothing explicit was shown, Irumyuui's private parts were never exposed, and her giving birth was also never shown. Her transformation WAS shown, but it's your basic body horror, like in most Junji Ito works.

SO, obviously if you're not a fan of the horror/seinen genre this is deeply disturbing and fucked but after seeing games like Outlast 2 and Amnesia: Rebirth, I wasn't as disturbed PERSONALLY. Again, recommending this publicly might've not been the smartest idea because you really do have to be into the horror genre to be able to handle topics like that. Even I just had to sit in silence for a couple hours after reading that backstory cuz damn, it hits you right in the feels. And most of the manga past that part just has badass fight scenes and when people praise it, they usually talk about that. From what I saw it was well animated and lots of clips were shared on tiktok, twitter etc. So there's a big chance he was talking about that.

(Examples of why people were hyping it up, even non-fans who had no idea about the series were going crazy because of this fight scene)

Now as for Taeyong... see now the reason I didn't mention him in the original post is because of that specific thing. I love the series and have come across physical copies of the manga but I know damn well I'm not buying cuz I don't wanna be seen supporting the author, purely out of spite. And saying 'oh well maybe he didn't know what the author is like'. Unlike some sites, physical copies DO include the extra chapters which contain stuff like this:

Totally unnecessary, not relevant to the plot and while some say it was added as a "haha funny joke" c'mon now. Let's use our brains. Now, would I call him a p3d0? Absolutely not. Would he be weird for this? To me, yeah. For anyone reading this, it's up for you to decide. I'm only here to answer questions about the series because I see people saying random stuff and making it seem FAR more worse just cuz they saw a couple tags.

#soobin #mingi #woozi #taeyong #made in abyss #ateez #seventeen #txt #tomorrow x together #y'know I'mma act like this is a positive thing cuz I get to infodump about a series #AGAIN not defending the author or anything like that #just tired of people overexaggerating the anime and acting like people are actual criminals for watching an anime that is btw on netflix

[olessan-lokenosse]

It's my 9 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Oh god my dragons are NINE years old

Happy birthday Vanya your age increasingly fits your Old Boss Lady vibes

#I've still got a WIP big art for her but god I am so tired lately like permanently burned out #I wanted it done by today but circumstances y'know #it's a big piece that'll take 10+ hours so I don't want to rush it just to meet a date #9 year tumblrversary #tumblr milestone #lokenosse talks #tumblr anniversary #not gonna tag this for the site anniversary bc that would get in the way of the ACTUAL anniversary lol #flight rising #fr #vanyalinde #I need to gene up my random progen he's STILL ONLY HALF GENED

[brown-little-robin]

hmmmm what if I. skipped class 'cause I'm not feeling good

#could I go to class withoug putting anyone else in danger? yeah #but I would be miserable #and getting anything good done would be a long shot #I feel bad about my record in studio so far— last semester I did SO much more work on my projects and I did SO many extra sculptures #but this semester I'm more tired #and y'know what I have my whole life to do ceramics it's not just this semester #and I was already planning to skip my other class so that's ok #if I stay home I can do laundry... catch up on my capstone project which I'm behind on... yeah this sounds good

[lobotomyladylives]

the thought of having to quit kratom for good is legitimately making me cry lol. my hair has always been thin to begin with so if it keeps falling out like this I'll be practically bald. but literally no substance that I can easily get makes me feel as good as kratom does. the total lack of anxiety + the physical euphoria is insane. I don't wanna stop )))):

well. I think before I give up entirely I'm gonna see if reducing the frequency works, or switching to extracts in small doses. I also wanna try kava & phenibut

#ive accepted the fact that im a substance abuser by nature the idea is to just abuse ones that are gonna harm me the least y'know #weed was that for awhile then kratom but now im running low on options #thank god i didnt inherit the rest of my families adoration of booze or itd be over for me #its just mid to me like ill drink occasionally but its only fun for like a half hr then i just get tired & feel like shit

[c1nn4-bunny]

Woagh what? Biblically accurate Cecil?

Hello Jon. Apologies for the deception: I'm not actually a rabbit/deer void thing.

Doing a teeny tiny little... thing (not really a study, just a test) on. My actual appearance because. Idk, I've been liking it a lot more recently. (<- got called sir on the bus twice today. felt good.)

Also yes that IS meant to be a wolf shirt, I bought it when I was 13 okay, let a tboy live— (the fact it still fits is proof I haven't grown at all)

And now for the list of every character/person my girlfriend says my average white boy ass looks like /hj

Secondary piece for reference

Cashew (Blush Blush): Yeah I can't deny this one. I'm a standard average sized blondish-brunette white boy, it's unfortunately uncanny... and also the college thing too I guess.

Kim (Omori): ... I don't get this one. I really don't. Maybe hoodie era? Otherwise it's just the glasses.

Wheatley (Portal): No Comment.

Martin (TMA): But I apparently also sound like Jon? [confused cryptid radio show host noises]

Whatever THESE mean

No seriously what do these mean—

Mari wants me to add this one: "you look like a youth pastor."

anyway feel free to add onto this list (/J)

#c1nn4bunny.png #i have no tags to add to this since its just. me #not even my sona just me. #absolutely earth shattering that im NOT an shapeshifting void roseboy irl right? sorry u _ u #my hair is sunbleached so uh. thats why its darker towards the roots #havent died it in a while. #last time was entirely blue ... the dark ages /j #on a note: drawing my gap has honestly made me a lot more comfortable with it #its not like I hated it. i was entirely neutral and if anything annoyed at people trying to get me to do cosmetic procedures to 'fix' it #(spoiler: they wouldn't anyway) but like. normalising it for myself. its cute and adds a bit of uniqueness to me I think. :] #already draw my random scars and specific darker freckles so why not the gap too y'know? #helps to feel comfier in my own skin :3 #also this was colour picked EXACTLY from a pic I took of myself specifically for this. same pose too. #anyway back to drawing myself as a silly bunny thang in every other context specificallyselfshippingiamsosorrymybrainisinfestedrn #lmao wait also elaborating on the 'looks constantly worried' point #I was on the bus a month ago and this guy asked if I was alright. I apparently look constantly on the verge of a panic attack. wonderful. #rbf? no no. i have rff (resting fear face) #there's one other guy I could add a 'oh shit I kinda look like him oh no thats awkward' to but I'd have to change the image for wheatley— #*dyed. im. tired okay