#it's a struggle

[sir-ballister-boldheart]

Constantly hovering between the headcanons of "Orphan Ballister" versus "Ballister with his big loving desi family who adopt Ambrosius on the spot"

#it's a struggle #nimona #ballister boldheart #lol #ambrosius goldenloin #goldenheart #ballister x ambrosius #original post #nd stevenson #nimona movie #desi tumblr #desiblr #desi tag #desi #ambrosius x ballister #riz ahmed #eugene lee yang

[lovelyh3arts]

I love Tokio Hotel so much!! They're in my mind 24/7. Like, it's an actual struggle you guys don't understand!! I just scroll on social media all day and just look at updates on them.

#tokio hotel #bill kaulitz #tom kaulitz #georg listing #gustav schäfer #it's a struggle #actually obsessed with this #hyperfixation #☆‧₊˚ fixating ✩ #current hyperfixation

[likeafantasy]

#britney spears #britney #personal #britneygifs #my flawless queen #Y'ALL #i've been through it #my laptop kicked the bucket #i'm making gifs between a chromebook #and an old dell that won't connect to wifi #it's a struggle #i hope these look ok #lost all my psds #and everything #will get back into my others soon #i hope

[fem0ral-artery]

If Vaughn Borderlands has a million fans I am one of them

If Vaughn Borderlands has 5 fans I am one of them

If Vaughn Borderlands has 1 fan that one is me

If Vaughn Borderlands has no fans I'm no longer alive

If the world is against Vaughn Borderlands I'm against the entire world

Till my last breath I'll support Vaughn Borderlands

#my art #borderlands #tales from the borderlands #tftbl #borderlands 3 #vaughn the money man #i am really not making a lot of art lately #it's a struggle #vaughn border lands 😁😁😁😁😁😁 #he's good i think #That one bit from tales where he confronts rhys about that party was kind of uhm... #nobody can understand him the way i can #send him to mickeys dick smasher !!!!!!!!!!! (lovingly)

[trinkettes]

hi I'd like to join the kremy fanclub

#things I enjoy drawing: little alligator guys #things I don't enjoy drawing: top hats #it's a struggle #once upon a witchlight #kremy lecroux

[groan-taire]

Time to introduce my 7th step when will I stop

Alix R Bell

Villain name: Omen

Occupation: Hero Hunter

#fhr #sidestep #my art #alix r bell #fhr sidestep #with my other steps featuring as the background characters #actually got a murderstep now #it's a struggle #they're a little unhinged but no one suspects them #also suppose I have to do the others too after starting with Nr 7 #gotta jump on the comic book cover bandwagon #fallen hero #fallen hero sidestep #my fake comicbook covers

[jessicas-pi]

me: work on fic!

brain: draw picture

me: work on fic!!

brain: go read book

me: WORK ON FIC!!!

brain: MAKE INCCORECT QUOTE!!!

#It's A Struggle #jessica's writing nonsense

[cangrellesteponme]

happy dadbastian week to those who celebrate

#it's a struggle #let it be known that i write 'ciel' in my outlines and i have to replace it every time #kuroshitsuji

[poirot]

Listen to them, the children of the night. What music they make!

#paleedit #paleresource #paletmblr #halloween #vampire #vampires #mythology #mythedit #halloween aesthetic #tusermare #userund0miels #i never know whom to tag #because I don't want to annoy people agdhsja #it's a struggle #mine #mine gif #mine myth #this took me *way* too long to make agsha #do I like how it turned out #well idk man idk #asgdshaj

[mothmoira]

i know we as a fandom talk about how annabeth liked percy since she was 12, but i don't think we're giving enough credit to the fact that she was a TEENAGE GIRL WITH A CRUSH during a literal WAR for FOUR YEARS!! our girl is a SURVIVOR for multiple reasons 😭

#and now it's a blonde boy #sweetheart i have been down that path #it's a struggle #annabeth chase #percy jackson #pjo #percabeth #rick riordan #leah jeffries #walker scobell

[skyloftian-nutcase]

I posted a sketch of Abel being happy so now I guess the tax must be paid and he must have angst again

It didn't take long for the excitement to wear off.

The outburst started gently, at least. Link wandered anxiously, hands held out in front of him as if he were going to grab something or play with something, and then he wrung them nervously. He sniffled, eyes widening and watering.

"Link?" Abel prompted, putting the last of his armor on his bed.

And that was all it took. Abel stared in alarm as his little boy burst into tears, catching the attention of their roommate, Norri, who flinched.

“I want to go home,” Link cried.

Abel knelt down to be at eye level with the boy, trying to settle him quickly. “Link, we can’t go home.”

“But I want to go home!”

“I know,” Abel acknowledged, putting his hands on the little one’s shoulders. Link’s eyes were puffy now, his face red as he stood there and sobbed. “I know you do. But we can’t go home. We have to stay here.”

“I want Mama!”

Abel’s heart clenched. For a moment he couldn’t speak, emotions drowning his voice, but Link’s wails pierced through the fog, and he felt the hair on the back of his neck stand up as Norri began to look agitated.

Quickly picking his boy up, he hastened outside, pressing Link’s face to his shoulder both to wipe his tears and try to muffle his cries as he whispered again, “Link, calm down. We can’t go home. I told you we would be here a while.”

It was ridiculous to assume a four-year-old would truly understand his words when he had explained the trip and he knew it. It was foolish to think this was going to be fine. But he had hoped… after running into the king himself had managed to not be disastrous, and after Link had spent two days wandering without incident, he’d hoped it would be all right.

Link cried louder, legs wiggling as he started to progress to a full-on meltdown. Abel held on to him helplessly. Tilieth always had more patience for these moments, always knew how to soothe their child when he himself didn’t know how to do so. Abel was of no use in this situation – he expressed his emotions so differently, so quietly in comparison to that of a child. He tried to remember what his sisters did, but Ama always focused outward on their younger sister, and he’d never really figured out how to calm Shola down so much as just argue with her. So he… had no experience in this.

“Link,” Abel said helplessly as he finally made it outside to avoid causing a ruckus in the palace. “Link, settle down. We can’t go home; you have to accept that.”

No matter what words Abel chose, Link wouldn’t accept that. He repeated his displeasure continuously, so much so that Abel was afraid he’d wake all of Zora’s Domain. He tried to hide in a corner somewhere, climbing one of the passageways that twirled around the Domain, ignoring the damp chill that began to settle through his light undertunic and trousers. Link didn’t seem to notice it, though he felt the little boy’s fingers steadily turn to icicles.

Frustration started to pull at him. He couldn’t calm his child, he couldn’t get him to be quiet, he was screaming in his ear—it wasn’t as if Abel himself didn’t want to see Tilieth, as if he weren’t worrying about his wife who was on death’s door with illness—

Abel, stop. He’s a child.

And? He’d stared at his dead father’s face, smelled the stench of rotting flesh despite the perfumes liberally poured around him, all when he was a child. He’d watched it kill his mother slowly for two years before she finally joined him.

You were eight at that point. He’s four. He doesn’t understand and you know that.

The frustration grew, though, despite his arguments, despite him knowing that his boy couldn’t help this. Perhaps it was just because he was angry at himself for even thinking about this, for ever suggesting and fighting for bringing a four-year-old child to a diplomatic mission, for having to shoulder the responsibility of the entire family while his wife was dying—

Abel bit his lip until it bled, trying to ignore the sobs coming from his son. Instead, he held him tightly, rocking back and forth, out of words, out of patience, out of emotions, out of everything. His repeated whispers devolved into hushes, offering what little comfort he could. It didn’t feel like nearly enough. It never felt like enough.

Link cried himself into exhaustion, his wailing finally settling into hiccups, and Abel released a full breath, having been rigid as a board for what felt like an hour. Slowly, hesitantly, he started making his way back to the central part of the Domain, thankful for the lack of people in the area, but hesitated before going to the palace. He himself was too full of emotions and energy now, and he knew he couldn’t sleep. Instead, he tucked Link more closely to the center of his chest, head right under his chin, and continued to sway back and forth with a light bounce to his knees. He wandered aimlessly, mind helplessly full of cotton and unable to process words anymore, before he found himself in front of the statue of Hylia.

It was a small statue, carved in the luminous stones of the area, giving it an ethereal glow. Some aquatic plant was adorning her head like a crown. It was lopsided, like a child had placed it there and wasn’t quite tall enough to get it right.

Abel slid to the ground, back against the railing behind him, Link held ever so closely. The boy was limp with exhaustion, asleep and warm in the embrace. Abel shivered.

He had no words to offer in a prayer. Instead, he just stared. Hylia smiled serenely back.

Abel stayed there, in a strange trance, overwhelmed and underwhelmed, energized and exhausted, until the sun started to reflect on the sparkling stones.

#writing #chronicles of the domain #poor abel #IN MY DEFENSE #I was listening to sweet nostalgic harry potter music #and then the song 'harry in winter' played #and WHY is a song with such a simple title SO MELANCHOLY OK I CANNOT HELP WHAT THIS DID TO MY BRAIN #abel #breath of the wild link #botw link #it's a struggle #poor Link just doesn't understand #he's never been away from home like this for so long #abel is at his wit's end and alone #someone give him a hug please

[maxsix]

So you know how Park Seonghwa is a Xtina Aguilera song? Well Mingi is a Britney song. He is Sometimes and Toxic at the same time. He is Boys and I'm not a girl...at the same time. Now Wooyoung, he is Avril Lavigne: messy, wild, moody but brilliant. He's definitely What The Hell with a side of Fall To Pieces. But Breakaway is his Sagittarius theme song. He is That Girl, we ALL know that girl. If you don't know a girl like that, that girl is you. Good luck Choi San.

#i'm having a Mingi era #it's a struggle #my favourite pop girl for my favourite kpop boy #what did you all expect #wooyoung is relatable tbh #but he is one messy girl #you could say he is Complicated #i'm the wooyoung of the group #this is probably why i have such a soft spot for him

[hel7l7]

I don’t want you to know how it feels

#art #looks kinda vintage #lmao #vent art #venting #they quit selling the journals that I used #so #it's a struggle

[gramophoneturtle]

Update/Pinned Post

Welcome to my art archive. I've posted a lot about my OCs, TWEWY, Persona 5, Xenoblade X and in other fandoms.

Unfortunately due to recent-ish changes on Tumblr I no longer feel comfortable posting here much or at all. I'll keep my blog up for the foreseeable future or maybe even forever because of how Tumblr stores data. I'd rather have the link back to the source.

Or if the other sites explode in the meantime.

This has nothing to do with the date sadly. I'm just at my limit.

Here's where you can find me:

Pillowfort: gramophoneturtle. The most artist respected place and a decent long form blogging place.

Neocities: I'm currently developing an art archive on neocities over here. This will be THE archive place, one day! With RSS, one day!

Bluesky: gramophoneturtle. Twitter replacement. I don't trust it but it's meshing with me more than mastodon. Stream announcements are here b/c I ran out of energy for crossposting.

cohost: gramophoneturtle. I don't trust it'll stay but it has both a draft system & can save alt text on draft edits. Wild stuff to praise but when porting art out of Tumblr, it's helpful to have new drafts.

Twitch & YouTube: I stream weekly on Twitch and store VODs on both. Twitch has all my VODs and YouTube has VODs from Fall 2023 and onwards.

More details, pros and cons about each site below for those who are curious. Thanks for sticking around and reading.

Pillowfort

It's user funded and transparent about the breakdown of funds

They're against generative AI. Their reinforcement came out around the time Tumblr's not-really-against-it stance came out. This is huge to me.

They're working on a PWA of the site so it will have a way to function like a smartphone app

Image post options aren't great but you aren't limited to 4 (unlike cohost - kinda, and Bluesky)

Alt text gets eaten if you edit a post currently which is awful. (Tumblr used to do this.) Alt text isn't an option for picture type posts but is for text posts with pictures. But hey at least you can include alt text!

Communities are nice for fandoms and stuff. You can search by tags but you don't follow tags, you join/watch communities.

They have funding for the next 6 months past any month that was fully funded. So as of April 1, 2024, funding should last until (the end?) of October if they were to not get any more donations/subscriptions from now on. Basically, they have a 6 month buffer and so far for 2024 they've been keeping it and maintaining their monthly funding goals

Neocities

Home page URL should not change but artwork URLs might

The artwork section is inspired by Tumblr's archive page/system. I don't think I want it to be exactly like it (might be a limitation of static pages re: tag filtering) but I want to try and partially make it

Artwork on there have been nightshaded and glazed. I would like to reglaze some pieces that are too glazed for my liking, now that I have a better computer for it (so it doesn't take forever). That's why not a lot of art is on there yet

I might go into detail about how I automated some of the web dev stuff to make my life easier on my my main blog. In summary: I'm using 11ty (eleventy), generating pages from data and templates, using github for version control and github actions for updating the site automatically

Bluesky:

Feeds are cool. I've found and made (through SkyFeed) a lot of Feeds. Feeds can look for text in posts and alt text, and/or specific tags. Can filter out reblogs or replies. Can work off of user lists. Can include/exclude specific posts - like Twitter Moments. There's a lot of flexibility and filtering.

Feeds can lookback anywhere from 25 hours to 1 week when not looking at one user. So when pulling from many users, you could just get the latest updates. For one user (say your own gallery of whatever) you're allowed to go back to the beginning, it can be your art gallery. And then people can just follow that feed so you don't have to worry about your art getting buried if people just want to follow your art

There's a setting you can turn on to warn and prevent you from posting until you add alt text. I love this. Especially since, like Twitter, you can't go back and edit a post

Forcing ALT text has the added bonus of leaving it last so I can double check tags and text in case I accidentally hit the post button before I'm ready

Twitch

There is art. And VTuber stuff. And life updates. Art/project updates. Lots of OC talk. Like I wish I could post more about Null considering how much stuff I've spoken about them on stream but freaking time! And energy.

YouTube

Used to do more Timelapses but stopped because laptop was not having fun with it. Now that I have a new computer it might be better!

Also has Twitch VODs because I want another place to back up VODs since local recordings take up a lot of space. And I can mark Chapters(/Moments?) timestamps to find stuff again.

Special thank you to those that made it all the way down here!

So what is the blog for now? Archiving, mainly, as I said at the beginning. I might link to my neocities page in maybe art updates or to pillowfort. And I might need a place to fall back to if the other sites don't last. I know bluesky and cohost are not much better/probably not better in other ways so I know that posting on them probably won't be good long term.

But that's why I'm working on the art archive site on the side. I'll always have a safe and controlled place where I can have all my art and details and stuff. It's gonna take a while and it's challenging but it's what I feel like I gotta do now.

I'm just so tired.

#update #tumblr #pillowfort #neocities #bluesky #cohost #twitch #youtube #text #social media #blog update #the like...guilt...or betrayal of sharing my creations on a site that has caused enough harm that i just Mentally Can't anymore #it's a struggle #again: i don't think bluesky and cohost are better #...i have a feeling april 1st is a poor day to post an update like this but i just need to post this while i'm ready to

[fruityedge05]

having pcos is such an experience because i can never tell if it's just normal ovulation pain, a cyst, or fucking appendicitis

#pcos #pcosawareness #it's a struggle #like wtf

[kelcolrite]

Being a creator and having ADHD means thinking about one thing all day every day until you finish the current project your on and then not being able to think about ANYTHING for days after

#adhd #adhd problems #hyperfixation #executive dysfunction #content creator #writers on tumblr #autism #it's a struggle