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moenmomentsthemoe-en · 3 months

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#tomorrow.....................#delete later #vent #more vent in tags (it gets heavy sorry)#it is like 4am and ik theres a rule that you should never trust what you feel about your life after 3am but i feel like this 24/7 WAHA #mann i #im so fucking scared that im not a good person or friend or anything im trying so hard #i dont know why i feel hurt by things i shouldnt feel hurt by and i dont know why i keep failing to do the things i want to do or #god it probably isnt right for me to vent. i think? i dont know honestly i dont know anything #i dont know anything #i have such amazing friends and people around me theyre good people #im so tired and am so very tempted to just delete this blog delete my socials and disappear off earth or just live as a husk by ignoring al #my emotions and incapabilities and stop bothering everyone #everything is so so confusing and everything has gone to shit around me but the people around me arent at fault theyre good people #it has to be that im not trying hard enough #god i have no idea if im a good person. i dont know if a good person has this much trouble and dumbassery #i am. an adult. 18. adult. i have to be #god i wish i could have an adult to help me out but its just. its just me. its a problem i made and surely only i can figure it out

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istanbulite · 11 months

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my vision of Astoria MC is this sweet young charming woman in vintage expensive clothes who s hardworking and bakes for her coworkers and is always there 15 minutes before her shift starts but also does 'experimental drugs' in the bathroom as 'medicine' and is a complete complete mess, has been admitted to a mental hospital more than once bc she kept claiming suffering great pains the titan poisoning ofc it was kept from her, killed an ancient creature in a fit of rage - she doesn't remember, fucked her boss' lover just because (Ares) to say Alex was crestfallen is an understatement but they still stopped Aphrodite from demolishing her oof (couldn't stop the cursing tho)

this pretty much

#im thinking her in clothes like Joan @ Mad Men #with a high bun and heels and all.... she keeps smoking under the no smoking here sign and hades is like.. i cant believe I'm gonna fuck he #aphrodite: u dont have to #hades: i am going to #afk mc #astoria mc #its a great danger raiisng a titan as a human u see... ts not her fault getting visions and such #lovestruck voltage #lovestruck #astoria: fate's kiss #astoria #astoria fate's kiss #honestly i imagine she s using all sorts of drugs like...... u know that post.. eating random pills i found on the gas station ground ..her #in her vuitton heels at 3am #her emotions too big for her godsdamn body what can u do #su.txt #oc: eos

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jrueships · 11 months

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i have actually never seen hello kitty BUT!!! i did play some Nintendo ds game of hello kitty where this stupid fuck kept challenging me to a race and i dusted his bitchass everytime until i hit a tree. i think it was a deer or something

#I DONT KNOW WHAT ANY OF THESE LITTLE THINGS ARE !!!#except for hello kitty #but i heard that one u gave me is very iconic so ty #i am Addicted to watching people drink boba #i have never had coffee or boba and dont plan to since i already struggle with drinking too much pop #BUT I HAVE BEEN AMENDING THAT WITH THE DRAIN GANG OF WATER #so i dont need any more distractions #BUT!!! there is just something about pretty drinks that i love staring at #whenever im bored i just look up boba on tiktok #OR MATCHA #dont say tea after that or 3 will kill you #OOO AND THE PURPLE ONE I LOVE THE PASTEL OF THE PURPLE ONE #i just love pastel colors #i think the bobas look so shiny and cute!!! i love the roundness! the smoothness!!#getting number 1 pleasantly surprises me but also kinda not??? idk #like idk why im so pleasantly surprised like i can SEE IT #i pose just like her after commenting the most unasked for demand of a man at 3am #it's true it's real #i do that!!#ted tumbunity things

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valandherweekofwonders · 1 year

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i really need a hug i feel so scared and alone

#but its 3am no ones awake or able to help i just have to try and sleep i cant do anything about any of this right now #but oh my god i really wish i was able to hug someone just to feel like im not alone in these feelings #something is so wrong with me idk what it is though am i really burnt out? am i actually just having a breakdown? is it something physical?#i dont know i don't know i don't feel peace just anxiety!!!!

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papus-clown-enclosure · 1 year

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Finally got around to redressing my Ginger doll and putting her hair back in pigtails, i love her sm she is now displayed on some random stand i had up. Also got around to redressing my double of Zooey that i had gotten idk how long ago, i had to wash her hair, and i decided to give her diff shoes and Harley's jeans. Idk i just wasnt to big of a fan of her skirt matching her skin tone. And now she sits near me.

Also did dishes, and am back to trying to do some hw.

I feel slightly productive today.

Damn i wonder if i'll have time to wash a diff doll.

#i have so much hw/class work #papuka rambles #only took a very short nap this morning maybe less than 30 #bc i had woken up at 1 something am and then stayed up #i did do some hw #and i tried to sleep after eating earlier today but i couldn't #so now im like now what #i mean i could do the laundry but im in a slightly tired and 'paranoid' idk what to call it not mood like headspace #like what i would usually feel at 3am back when i used to feel like that past 2am and maybe #was lowkey scared of sleeping by myself like a wee bit #anyways i have my monster i didnt drink yesterday #i really dont know how to describe it #like indont actively feel anxious #but the head feels a tiny bit odd #the silence isnt helping #i hate that this area is so fucking silent like i cant even hear the landscape(?)/maintaince workers today #its missing our shitty old apt hours where there was some sort of noise at all hours basically

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undercooked-spaghetti · 1 year

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Why is coming up for the title of a story LITERALLY the hardest part of posting a fanfic?

Ideas? Fine. Putting the words together to make it happen in a satisying way? Do-able. Adding in little details and scenes that you never planned but make it work out so much more? DOWN FOR THAT SHIT!

But omg it kills me that I just struggle with a name for that shit. I even GET using lyrics now as titles for a vibe, but even that fails me a lot because sometimes I can't even think of anything that fits.

I just want to post my stuff GO!

#fanfics #fanfiction #ao3 #writing #text post #what do you mean i cant just leave my fic untitled?#DONT YOU KNOW WHO I AM???#im the lil freak up at 3am unable to sleep and writing in the dark #i finally found the courage to release my scrawling into the wild #DONT DO THIS TO MEEEEEE

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rawr-frog · 19 days

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Me at 3am in the morning:

*sigh* fun right?

*credit to makeitmeme.com for helping me make this*

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mountalodiel · 2 months

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i have GOT to rewatch rope the hit movie rope. NOW!

#rine.txt #it's almost 3am i am not doing that. but i must see ROPE #realistically i shld watch more hitchcocks because what else am i gonna do with this film degree if not be a little annoying and #pretentious about it. but i dont need to ive seen ROPE!#just kidding ill do it one day. Some other time. yoy know. Distant future. 2042

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hyperexplosion · 8 months

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#been so depressed im so tired #vent dont dm or reply #today might be the only somewhat good day i had minus the times a friend dragged me into calls to play sims #but besides that i been sleeping nonstop #i didnt even know halloween was next week i have no xostume i dont hsve the money #best friend cant go anyways so i didnt rly care #i tried mske myself talk to more than two people but so hard #its so so hard when j feel like a bother #i also get rwndom moods of sggression and i fucking hate it #i set my phone down when i get in them though so doing better with rhat #anywyas its almost 3am i should try snd sleeo before 5am again #why do i stay up late anyways #im alone #why dont i hst sleel #probably cause i sleep durjnf the day LOL #my family memebr is in jail for 19 years #i miss my cat that died two years ago im so pathetic #fankly member in jail i dont even xare for them and i dont even know if i believe them or what idk #cant rly talk about it here but idk how to feel #like am i sad? am i mad? do i not care? i jsut feel numb #and i get going people isnt botherinf them but everyone else has soemthing foing on so its like i stsy seay #and i deleted hellopet i thought it would help me change my ciews on someone but it hasnt #i cancelled halloween plans #i fell so behind on my etsy and resin im so sad #but i csnt even do that i struggle making more or keeping the ones i already have so LOL #im also tired of people lying ro me im so fucking tired of it #i wish it was actually easy to ask someone hang out with me #but i think of the times it went to shit when i try streamin a gamand get ditched #also i wish i wasnt so fucking nervous to stream stuff or watch yourube videos with people like obly person im bot is my best friend but he #idk he always just ask me also to strean games so i know he enjos it and hsving fun

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flaynbestgirl · 8 months

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ive seen a few times in previous years that a lot of fans of translated japanese media would like more direct translations with fewer edits made and "no localisation" and to an extent this could be seen as professional translators being out of touch with what it is their audience wants from their translations

but in my experience its actually more likely to be fans who dont speak japanese and/or have no idea about translation theory or practice and who are just talking out of their asses without understanding the full implications of what theyre asking for

#i am talking about f*re -mblem #but this can apply to others #now. i am never going to argue that official translations are inherently superior to others OR that theyre always perfect #but ive seen so many people fucking nitpick and complain about translations not being word for word and thus no being accurate #bitch if the whole game was word for word you would get so fucking tired of trying to parse it SO FAST #and blaming changes obviously made by editors or others further along in the process on the translators #even tho theyre errors or changes that no competent translator would make unless it was like 3am and theyd been working 10 hrs straight #there are legitimate complaints to be made dgmw - god dont i know it ask anyone i complain all the time - but its honestly 60:40 #or maybe even 70:30 bitching to legitimate concerns raised in my experience #idk what it is about fans of japanese media that makes them think their opinion about a translation is worth anything when they #1. do not know the source language and/or 2. do not know anything about translation theory #this shit is hard bruv and be grateful to your translators cus lord knows you wouldnt be able to read/watch/play whatever it is without them #kath shouts into the void #why tf isnt this tag ever saving??? like i know i dont make posts as much as i used to but wtf

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faroresson · 1 year

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The age old connundrum of "Am I procrastinating this project because I've suddenly decided I dont want to do it or are one of my basic needs not currently met"

#faron speaks #i have no idea honestly.... aside from i know ive slept because ive been doing that on and off since 3am #am i hungry? am i dorty? am i thirsty? am i socially low and or drained? idk!#what i do know is i WANT to do my commission work but i also dont want to draw and this does not bode well for my aspirations of artistry

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 1 year

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if nobody got me i know autoheart got me

#sailor song 🤝 hungover in the city of dust #<< songs that affect me so very deeply every time i listen to them /neg /affectionate #feelin moody dark and heavy theres no feeling in my left arm resonance is far away #try to complicate my thinking am i falling am i sinking powder in my fingernail #<< lyrics that fucking DESTROY me !!!!!!!!!#anyway update btw if you even care etc. made it off the bathroom floor i am now. in bed #loki kept crying @ me and i felt bad and now he is. laying across my legs #dare i say. esa behavior (he is not actually trained for that but. sometimes it feels like he is)#ughghggghhhhghgh #i need to. do something #i need 2 not think abt tomorrow. dont wanna sleep. also im afraid if i stay up i will Text Her #which is something i have NOT thought about doing in. god almost 5 years?#like. not even after i kept getting all of her tiktoks on my fyp. not even after i saw all those videos of her on new years.#and like. logic brain. i KNOW its a garbage idea i dont even know what i would even want to SAY #i just. wanna sit in her living room again at 3am watching cartoons and eating microwave pancakes and writing shitty fanfic together #rhgrhhhgrrrghghhhghhhh. head in hands #anyway dont look at me im . going thru it #delete later

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kittyhazelnut · 1 year

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my clinical location for this week (which is different than most weeks) is 38 minutes away according to google maps but it's also in orange which means it's less than that when it's not snowing but it won't tell me what it is on a normal day so how early do I have to wake up because if I actually have to leave my house at 5:30 in the fucking morning I'm gonna kms

#WHY #WHAT THE FUCK #IF IT'S ACTUALLY OVER HALF AN HOUR IM GONNA CRY #I DON'T DO MORNINGS #I WORK MY 3PM TO 11PM/3AM SHIFTS FOR A REASON #I DONT WANT TO WAKE UP AT FIVE IN THE FUCKING MORNING #GOD #I HATE MY LIFE #it's not my problem until Tuesday but at the same time it's supposed to snow all day tomorrow too so how the fuck am i #supposed to know how early i actually need to wake up/leave #what are the odds ill be sleeping in my car for ten minutes when i get there

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kjclfaller · 2 years

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he's so immature somebody stop him somebody deck him