#it’s fine I’m gonna go to bed now.

[greykolla-art]

I’ve been so inspired by @bananadramaaa lately!

Their human Alastor and Mimsy comics drive me insane!

I’m realising how cool their relationship is: it’s giving sibling energy!👌👌👌

just two pals looking out for each other while they murder!

#grey art #hazbin hotel comic #hazbin hotel #alastor #mimzy #hazbin mimzy #human alastor #human mimzy #20’s serial killers baby! #I have no idea what mimzy really got up to but I’m guessing it wasn’t nice #grey doodled instead of sleeping arg! #it’s fine I’m gonna go to bed now.

[lilacevans]

it’s amazing how men can just ruin everything

#literally just by existing #like at what point do i say that’s enough #like how many times do you have to repeat that what’s happening is nothing do with them and yet they’re still like #but what did i do #lol nothing i’m going through something i don’t have to share every detail with you #i don’t understand it #how do they make everything about themselves #please i just want one good one #please #one that will just go okay ur upset and i did nothing and you want your space cool #not try and start a fucking argument and follow you around like a lost puppy #fuck offfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff #like i’ve lost all motivation now #he’s just taken it #and just as i was about to start and open up my laptop #he wants to come to bed #after spending the few hours i had downstairs with my laptop trying to cause an argument and distracting me #and if i go okay i’m gonna go back down then so i can do want i wanna do #it’ll be omg why do u never wanna spend time with me #WE LIVE TOGETHER #WE ARE TOGETHER 24/7 #all the timeeeeeee #but it’s fine when he wants to waste all his days on fucking warcraft #fuck offffff

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

Me, yesterday, 5:30 PM: wow I’m honestly doing so great at my adult tasks; I’ve gotten some homework done, I went grocery shopping, my laundry is almost dry. I spent so many spoons and I barely feel tired! Maybe I’m finally fully recovering from burnout!

Me, yesterday, 6:00 PM: oh.

#turns out that I was not drawing from an unlimited spoon supply when I spent spoons so fast #and instead was overdrawing #because at 5:59 I thought ‘oh you know I’m a bit tired I should lay down’ #and then spent almost six hours in Nap Hell as I laid down too tired to get up and take my sleep meds #but also not really sleeping consistently. like dozing except I didn’t want to. #woke up ~11:50 and apparently sent some very misspelled messages to my friends #took sleep meds. and then passed out until morning. #so… I’ve learned something here. such as ‘even if you feel fine. you know you’re spending too many spoons. slow down.’ #I’m gonna try to go to bed early tonight too #and just. rest. bc I know Thursday is going to be a lot for me bc of my ASL class. #just gotta get these labs done first #the exhaustion is partially also my fault bc instead of going to bed after getting home from the airport #I did in fact go straight to DND and played until midnight because DND is Monday nights now. #but in my defense. I had napped on the plane. so I didn’t feel v tired. #but yeah I shouldn’t have done that bc that meant I was operating on a Significant Sleep Deficit yesterday and still had a lot of tasks #that absolutely could not wait. I needed food bc I didn’t have any in the house and needed laundry bc all my wearable clothes were dirty. #and I’d been in class since 9:30AM and went straight to the store from my last class and then straight to laundry after putting away grifos #and STILL FORGOT TO GET GAS #it’s fine I’ll get some today after chemistry or smth on the way home

[arthur-r]

what’s really embarrassing is my roommate on the phone with his mom saying “yeah i’ve been getting really sloppy i haven’t cleaned in a week it’s terrible” and my side of the room is just like that. all of the time. and i feel guilty but he also hasn’t ever said anything to my face he moved my stuff some at the beginning of the year but has never talked to me about it and i’m also so fucking ill that i just cant really handle adding that to my list while trying to also not fail school. so here i am being a terrible person i guess. did i tell you guys about turtle-person. have i showed my bracelets. i’m gonna go to sleep but in the morning i need to show my bracelets

#help i have work tomorrow. i also feel sick and strange. wish me luck #the sun was around today which was incredible but also i think it gave me too much mental energy #cause for the first time in forever i had the brightness of spirit to go for a walk. but that’s not the same as having the blood flow for it #so i think i overexerted myself cause of being finally happy and mentally energized i forgot about being physically disabled #i also had to explain POTS to somebody today and she was literally like ‘oh is that the thing where you need to have salt’ and NO like #i do have a really high salt intake to cope with POTS. but that’s not the fucking thing yknow?? like no that’s not what the thing i have is #it has nothing to do with salt. salt is a fun little coincidence that it can help with water retention which in turn helps with POTS #and it raises blood pressure is i think the other reason? but anyway idk i would honestly rather she just not know about it than have like #that very particular tiktok version of it like i am so glad for internet knowledge being spread and stuff and i mean. i guess even the posts #that i’m about to complain about are good for making people feel like they’re not alone. so maybe it’s fine. but i was going to complain of #the videos that are like ‘‘that one POTS friend’’ and it’s just like. salty food. instead of like. having to sit down?? BEING FATIGUED?? #and like whatever. whatEVER but i wish it wasn’t getting conflated with one particular little way of treating it. even though i use that way #i don’t have needs-a-lot-of-salt-disease. like that’s not the point. that’s not the issue. it’s not a salt deficiency. salt just helps #and it doesn’t FIX it. it just helps. that’s all #ANYWAY EVERYTHING IS FINE. i feel sick though. but i’m gonna sleep and i’ll be fine #i miss before i had a job cause then i could sleep all day if i skipped class and it would be really nice. but now i have a job i would be #missing on my responsibilities for. and I don’t actually have accommodations. but im gonna sleep i’ll be fine #and library book cart is actually so rollator. like as far as being able to walk the library situation is such a win #anyway i’m gonna go to sleep now. but yeah idk i’m sick and a mess what else is new. but i have something whatever i’m good theres something #unrequited love for life or something like that. ok im gonna go to bed sorry for being weird and strange all the time!!!! #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[victory-cookies]

my dad is too busy to make his halloweeen costume this year but since he is the boss he feels the need to go all out on a theme appropriate costume so long story short he is paying me $20/hr to sew it for him

#do I have time for this? No! #But for $20/hr I’ll fit it in there #I’ve done most of it in the past three hours and then I probably have another hour of work to go so yippee $80!! #and now I have to go do all of my homework in the next like. hour! #bc I really need to go to bed bc I have to go to campus v early! #to hand in an art project bc it’s due on my day off! #I’m also gonna pop into work to print so shit out so it’s fine ig #but like. hhhhh it’s gonna be another king day tomorrow #it’s just me and my froggy ita bag against the world

[bisexualbuckleyy]

i think i just managed to write an entire make out scene that has like two entire lines about kissing. this fic is really just an excuse to do a character study of liam dunbar and i should stop pretending it’s anything else

#it’s the enemies with benefits to lovers one btw #which is the only thiam fic i’m actively working on #i have two other ideas for ones but i’m finishing this one first #we’re up to 12.6k now btw #i have problems #also i need to go to bed it’s almost 3 am #i’m gonna read what i wrote tonight in the morning and it’s gonna suck but it’s fine #also please send me asks about this fic i want to talk about it #my roommate is definitely getting tired of me constantly talking about it to them #thiam #thiam fic #teen wolf #teen wolf fic #theo raeken #liam dunbar

[harrylights]

5:40am and i still have not slept 🤙🏻

#idk WHY #my brain has only become progressively more overactive and i am now a ball of anxiety about almost everything #scared shitless that my gf is gonna break up w me for literally no reason #like literally things are fine. nothing has happened at all #everything is annoying tf outta me and i hate it #i took my meds on time!! i tried to go to bed at like 10:30!! but it’s felt like no time has passed at all #i’m only mildly tired rn #considering just drinking caffeine soon and getting my cleaning done early and making myself stay up until it’s night again #so i don’t start this stupid fucking cycle of staying up til 6 and sleeping til like 3pm i HATE IT #fffffffffff #anyway #loving life rn #rowyn rambles

[vampirebutterflies]

listen ‘ere boy there is a voice in ur head telling u ur fine and you don’t need to go to therapy tomorrow and that voice is a f u c k i n g liar don’t listen to it boy don’t fuckin’ listen to that rat ass bastard it does NOT have ur best interests at heart

#vent in tags etc etc #aim losing my mind over here #it’s fine #see the thing is I’m so deeply lacking in like. the emotions edition of object permanence. I can have a massively heartbreaking reaction to #smth and then once I’m out of that moment and even slightly distracted it’s like nothing ever happened ?? #so like yk I was nearly [radio static noises] over talking to my therapist abt the young csa thing and I’m meant to be starting emdr tomorr #tomorrow* except like for the past two weeks I’ve overall been fine regarding that?? instead it’s the ed and other traumas flaring up so ?? #idk how Specific emdr is I honestly don’t know much about it yet but like yk now I’m wondering if I should delay starting that in favour of #talking about the other badtimes tm rearing their heads atm. todays in particular was unexpected it happened this morning and it’s only just #like. hit me and started biting and it’s ?? also dumb cuz like on one hand I’m pretty okay but on the other hand the other half of my brain #is spiralling hysterically to the point where I’m very glad I’m already in bed and like I know [redacted] won’t help but it’s like my brain #is just so lost about how to hold these things and what to do at all so it’s just pulling out the bad coping mechanism and insistently #thrusting it in my lap and waving its arms like it wasn’t even That Bad tm of a situation today but it Was some very specific factors which #are holding hands with Other specific factors and then The Location Of The Events is just #yea okay maybe I will talk to her abt this / these things instead if I can #ah the joys of heavy personal responsibility at a very young age and the severe guilt that gets bred from that and the fantastic experience #of things being so far out of your control and almost destined to fail and the absolute wonder of The Actual Person(s) To Blame Having No #Consequences For Their Actions and ending up feeling like you failed and you’re a complete fraud cuz no good you do will make up for that #one situation and yeah okay I’m gonna go sleep #ugh

[kidrat]

…Renarin in his thirties… 😳 kaladin in his thirties obviously. Obviously. MOASH in his thirties………..,

#we are so lucky #these men r gonna age like fine wine #and we get to be around for it #:’) #I’m. gonna go to bed now #stormlight

[goldenhypen]

hi i’m still awake 🤩

#don’t question it 🥹 #i’m going to sleep soon tho #or at least am gonna try 🥹 #me and my family decided to watch a thriller series at 2 am and now that i’m going to bed iM SO SCARED #I DONT WANT SOME GUY TO COME AT ME WHILE IM SLEEPING PLS THATS ALL I ASK- #but it’s fine 🥹 #i’m fine 🥹 #🥹🥹🥹🥹 #em speaks

[raraeavesmoriendi]

“how are you rae” I am a ridiculous drunk bitch who maybe shook their ass like they were possessed and scared everyone around them but otherwise I’m doing okay, how are y’all

#and then rarae says #it’s fine I’m fine #gonna go to bed now so I stop bothering people

[apathyfairy]

i’m not even kidding everytime i experience any sort of joy whatsoever something bad happens it’s like in friends when phoebe was killing people everytime she went to the dentist but for real

#speaking of dentists. lmao. #first of all i have a broken wisdom tooth that i’ve been putting off removing for 2 years now but i have all of them #tonight i was actually in an ok mood like it’s early i was gonna go to bed early and just relax #but i was like hm maybe i want to trying doing something new with my hair so i was fucking around with that and listening to music #and just being fine! like contentness which is v rare. anyway i was like ok i’m gonna start taking better care of my teeth #so back to wisdom teeth the one on my bottom right didn’t fully come out so it gets like plaque on it so i got a small child toothbrush #to really get in there and brush it yeah tmi i guess but in front of that wisdom tooth i have a temprorary filling #from 1 year ago bc this one dumbass dentist i went to well actually i went there as a kid but she’s terrible but i needed a filling fast so #i went there last year. anyway she put a temp in and said ok come back in 6 months and i didn’t because i wasnt gonna go to her anymore #and i couldn’t go to my good dentist bc he told me to remove my wisdoms and i didn’t lmao. anyway long story short i was brushing that #wisdom bitch really good and a chunk of my temp filling tooth broke off. not the filling of course but my real tooth and i’m like ok. #so god isnt real for real then. like. the reason i put all this fucking shit off is bc i don’t have money and now i fucking have to go fix #it so i’m 100% fucked i’ll never move out from my abusive gr*ndmothers house and i’m just completely fucked i’m so upset. #anyway hope i die in my sleep tonight #*temporary. if i die tonight i don’t want u guys thinking i can’t spell temporary i’m just fucking upset #it’s literally gonna be thousands isnt it like. i don’t even fucking know if they CAN fix it and who has thousands of dollars not fucking me #idk i have literally no idea what i’m supposed to do now

[in-a-slanted-outhouse]

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#i think i might be having a nervous breakdown #i dont think there will ever be a good time to have one but this week is a very bad week for me to have one #so uh idk what im doing tbh #im not going to school tomorrow #friday? who knows #i havent been in all week #it started with me being sick and now im still sick but also feeling like complete and utter shit #i havent done half the things im supposed to do #and it should be fine in that regard because my mum told me shell email people for me to ask for extensions #but theres one thing due next week which is an official deadline which cannot be moved #and its piece of work that i can only to in school because i dont have the technology or software at home #technically im not allowed to do it at home but thats besides the point #I’m actually terrified of that deadline rn its making me feel physically sick #ive been writing a second chapter for pull on my strings recently #and thats literally the only thing thats holding me together #being able to do that and enjoy it although progress is slow is all i have rn tbh #so i dont think im gonna meet all the fic deadlines i set for myself which im totally fine with its just one of those things #ive gone to bed but i havent taken any of the medication i was supposed to #its been five days and i still dont have my prescription #(i was only first prescribed it last week so im not being affected by that its just annoying because i guess that could help me) #i havent started useing the cream the doctor gave me yet but it has only been a week #so yeah im really stressed out about everything #i didnt shower today and i barely ate anything proper until dinner #i did eat but it wasnt anything that substantial #i just feel like my life is falling apart a bit #i think i have therapy next week but im not sure #i hope i do #yall dont have to worry too much about me i guess screaming into the void helps and i like being honest with people about where im at #louie says shit #tw vent

[munamania]

had a good talk with myself in the shower <3

#pep talk therapy talk etc etc. im gonna be fine #abby talks #now i’m gonna take my cold medicine and get as much work done as i can until the sleepy takes over #and then go to bed to get up for 🤢 work tmrw morning 🤢

[kuiinncedes]

oh so true daylight savings akdbcbhdhdhd

#me looking at the time earlier like we’ll fuck guess i’m STILL going to sleep at like 3 considering i wanna get some work done still before #getting ready for bed and then looking at the time now expecting to see 2 but it’s still 1 so true 🤩 lmfao rip i’ll probably end up sleeping #at 3 anyway ;-; shhdbdbxhh it’s fine lol #lemme GET OFF MY PHONE MAYBE lol and do this exam review shit 😭 #i rly thought i was gonna catch up on sleep after like the first midterm week and then #here i am pretty much not going to sleep before 2 anymore ddbchdbdbs #when will it stop who knows #but it’s also just my aversion/procrastination of sleep bc i’d rather do anything else lmfao #jeanne talks

[heartbreakfeelsogood]

#i do not want to work tomorrow i want to lay in bed and be sad #i’m really realizing how miserable of a person i am i am always fucking Sad and when i do feel happy i cry when it’s over #and i can’t even resemble a human being without medication and i know that’s fine but i’m still always sad. it doesn’t go away #i feel like nobody deserves to have me weighing them down like i’ve cried in front of people three times this week and i know it’s fine #but i feel so fucking guilty about it and i feel guilty about everything i feel like i’m doing nothing right and i’m not dealing with thing #right and i’m not living right and i feel like it must be so fucking difficult to love me and i don’t know how people do it #i don’t even feel capable of asking for. any sort of love ever #i feel like i don’t deserve like anything. i feel like nobody actually wants to do things for me lol #every single dsy i’m like wow i want to be held and every single dsy i feel bad even asking for a hug from someone #when i need reassurance i’m afraid to ask because what if i’m just being annoying and overbearing and too much Bad #i never feel like too much good. only bad. #i know a lot of these shitty thoughts are just because i’ve been unmedicated (meds will be ready tomorrow lol) but it just like #it sucks to know medication just kinda hides these thoughts better and that deep down i feel like this because i don’t want to #i feel like everyone in my life doesn’t deserve someone who doubts everything all the time #i think my mother deserved a stronger daughter and i think my friends deserve someone that’s not always breaking and i just don’t feel Good #i don’t know why anyone keeps me around #sometimes i feel selfish for sticking around and that sounds so awful and i’m not gonna act on it but i just feel like a waste of a person #the last week has been so good and now i’m just a fucking mess and i feel so fucking guilty about that :) #i feel like no matter what i always just default to miserable #i don’t feel like i’m doing enough at all #i’m struggling in school i don’t work enough i can barely take care of myself #like i wouldn’t even properly take care of myself if taylor wasn’t helping me i feel so guilty about that all the time #i feel so guilty for even thinking any of this right now and i’m trying to remind myself that i’m unmedicated and i’ve had a long day #and my best fucking friend just went back home and i’m allowed to be sad about that but i just. feel like i’m making excuses i guess #it’s not immoral to be sad but maybe when i’m wanting to die all the time i’m the problem. idk #anyway i’m gonna go to sleep and i’m gonna try to convince myself tomorrow will be better #sndnsksjkakejdkalwosjhdkwosjdjsk. i will be fine