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bellehalla · 2 years

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this post is a sincerely not/sincerely yours by saintobio support group.

here we mourn and grieve over the lost treasure for it slipped through our fingers. thank you for all the angst, the joy, the pain, the anger. you served us well.

sincerely,

every sn!/sy! YN out there

#Sincerely not #sincerely yours #saintobio #saint #satoru gojo #gojo x reader #gojo x you #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #gojo fanfic #we'll miss you #it really breaks my heart im not kidding #this hurts more than my own breakup #this story took angst to another level and left us #actual pain #saintgojo #bellehalla ficrev

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orcelito · 4 months

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Ok. Real question. How many people Actually have believed in Santa? Bc I never did, mostly bc my dad never bothered with the entire pretense, so the whole concept is just. Really fucking strange to me

Putting an actual poll bc I feel like I'm losing my mind a bit thinking about how apparently widespread it is. Like. It's just so... weird? Why is this the thing people have popularized? It makes no sense.

#speculation nation #polls #like ok my dad's an atheist raised by jewish parents so xmas has never really been a religious sort of holiday to me #we celebrate it bc it's fun to give gifts and spend time with family #but that's... it.#all the lore and mythos of xmas is just so weird to me #like baby jesus etc etc but now here comes saint nicholas with the steel chair! (breaking into your house to eat your cookies #and leave presents Only for the rich kids! why only the rich ones? uhmmm Dont worry about it!)#genuinely speaking my dad's worked at ups my whole life so growing up he'd say he (and the rest of his coworkers) were the real santas #said as a joke mostly bc theyre the ones Actually delivering the packages #but i took it to heart. told people at school that my dad was the Real santa.#no one believed me lol which i found quite frustrating.#but yeah i have never once in my entire life believed in Santa #and im content with that. it seems like such a stupid thing i will be honest.#'what about the magic of christmas' what about the poor kids who dont get gifts & feel abandoned by this all-powerful man?#in fact why do we Want kids to not think it's their parents giving gifts? they cant thank the right people if we trick them.#it's a convoluted setup that makes absolutely 0 sense to me #trust me christmas had more than enough 'magic' for me as a kid just bc of all the cool lights and all the free gifts #dont need some mythological man who can travel the globe in one night and is a professional in B&E #makes no sense for Real.#there was a time with my ex step siblings where me n my sister were told not to spoil the fun for them #so i had to pretend like santa existed as they opened presents marked from him #and even back then i was just thinking 'this is So Dumb'#this is an anti santa zone i guess. me and myself hate the popularized version of this strange strange belief system.

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spikrock · 6 months

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A CHANGE OF HEART. one of my favorites. i love this episode SO MUCH!!!! for one: the songs are all great. the queens music video....taffy tango (the song that invented gay people fr)... i love the dancing in the tweedle's song where theyre climbing on the construction thingy....and then the last ones just catchy. but also!!!!!!! the episode is just sweet!!!!!!!! alice giving the queen a valentine just cus she likes her :((( dont even get me started on the queen not believing her at first :(((((( like its just so....RAAAH..... im crying man.....dont do this to me...,.,.,.,., if you like someone, say it with plyyyywoooood!

#“im not falling for THAT old line...” “im looking for where she wrote 'just kidding'!” WHO HURT YOU #i always feel sort of silly for admitting the sad bits in this show hit me really hard #there a few times that are like. damn!!!! like when hatter moves away or a bunch of rabbit episodes like its just aghhh #but the queen's ones esp are so sad to me #we're coming up on the christmas episode which always breaks my heart i WILL be going insane over it when we get to that one #alice in wonderland #adventures in wonderland #wonderland watchthrough #my art

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dizzybizz · 5 months

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uyou dont underastand the.

the potential

ininia being adopted by garuga and atuarto you sdont get it it would be so

like

the thought of like

i mnot okay

ok wait this is a note i wrote in august:

do you think galga and atuarto will like

adopt ininia.

its just

cause

i

what if

they like

do?

and she tries to reverse the memory wiping

and like

😭😭😭😭

its a wishful thought

and im not sure

but like

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i do really like the flicker of regret ininia shows.

she feels bad about it

she just cant admit to herself

but she felt bad seeing the aftermath, how the person closest to galga suffers

and

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can u imagine them as a little family

like i do wonder

if atuarto will find out that ininia is a brimhat and reason for galgas memory wipe

and how hed react

knowing she is just a small child

but like is she

who knows

but he thinks shes a child

and theres someone pulling the strings in the background

and i wonder if he would want to help

he seems like a kind soul

would he try to step in

and get her away from restis

ok no hold up have a look in the tags too i put too much in there whoops

#do you see the visiom #ive been thinking about this since ch66 came out #the #i ??? like #i cant put my thoughts into words at all but you get it right #DONT MIND HOW WEIRDLY SEGMENTED THE NOTE SECTION IS #THATS JUST HOW MY NOTES GO OKAY 😭😭😭#witch hat atelier #idk if theyve showed up again since whenever i last left off.... ch70 something somewhere #witch hat atelier spoilers #anyways they break my heart #like shes jsut a kid and she gets to see the consequences of her actions in that chapter and it has to really sink in and shes just like i #omfg weeeeeh 😭💔#and she gets to experience first hand just how caring and kind garuga is and she has to live with the fact that she ruined this mans life #im normal i swear #dont know if any of this rambling makes sense at all #i just. im really interested in the three of them and how their stories r gonna go and aguhhhg #i wont rlly be upset at all if they dont end up as some weird little family cus if and when g&a find out ininia was behind the memy wipe #like theyre completely justified in not wanting anything to do with her and all but also i think with witch hats theme of like. treating ki #s with respect and care and all that jazz and with the two of them being caring and auhgh #yknow ??#yknow???#help me please i help+?#i am so incredibly normal #ive had a shit day lemme have this word vomit moment alr

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quiltedlovers · 8 months

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finally watched heartstopper because one of the part time kids from when i worked at the bakery really wanted me to for the longest time and i was feeling sentimental. i don’t think i have ever wished so strongly to have had a piece of media as a teenager + have never felt so much gratitude that kids get to have it now

#‘it’s corny’ is such a lame and wilfully obtuse criticism #charlie and nick are 14 and 15 when it starts!!!! kids that age are more than allowed to be corny!!!!!#as the actors have said it’s an optimistic and idealized in some ways version of reality #but it’s so grounded in reality!!! especially from the viewpoint of the age group of the characters #I also think even in the brief beginning of charlie’s storyline with anorexia and self harm the portrayal is already so much healthier and #safer for a show geared towards an audience who statistically has mental health struggles more often #than 13 reasons why for example #i wish to god that show had never gotten made #also YEAH DUDE it’s so normal for 15 year olds to not drink or do drugs or even know where to get drugs #and to not be ready for sex!!!!!!!!!#also A REALISTIC PORTRAL OF LESBIAN TEENAGERS !!!! THAT IS SO CUTE AND SWEET #anyway im. looking into masters of information programs #thinking about being a librarian just has me emotional about recent censorship and book bans surrounding queer literature #really and truly breaks my heart that heart stopper the graphic novels are on those lists #heartstopper

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oldestenemy · 10 months

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scion update: I have literally opened the wiz central page for Dead Leaves so many times to check dialogue to make sure i'm putting events in the correct order that my browser has added it to my new tab "pinned" menu.

Also I beat darkmoor yesterday and may have cried about it a little, it's fine. I'm good. I am incredibly normal about this game.

#wizard101 #i am not immune to sylvia and malistaire #for the spiral. for my brother. and even for you wizard. even for you.#i am going to have to find some way of breaking all your hearts about the death kids being present for this #anyways. the final 'we will not meet again' i am. i'm fine im good im not teary eyed #also the cinematic? again? I just???? as someone who stopped playing for a long while while arc 2 was still being put out and like #was only really used to that one little section at the end of DS #the cinematics wiz has done for later content have been so good #they're so good and they hit so well #still tapping. less murder.#lark is still playing funky wizard game from their childhood #anyways the scion series is going very well very good super great

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milkweedman · 2 years

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Terrible rushed picture on the way to work this morning but look at this bag i crocheted for my not-really-boss-but-she-is-in-charge-of-many-things-but-not-me-specifically-as-far-as-i-can-tell. She was super excited by all my bags i kept bringing and always complimented them and said she wished we had time for me to teach her to crochet, and i am just so unused to the relentlessly nice compliments that i ended up crocheting her a bag. You cant really see it but it has a white base as well. And its the closest i could get to rainbow colors (she is, as far as i can tell, the type of Ally TM who puts rainbows on everything), so it seemed a safe color scheme. Anyway when i gave it to her today she was speechless for a few seconds and then started punching the air

So, seems like a successful gift

#shes great #i feel like if id known her when i was a teenager i would have decided she was my mom lol #as it is im just generally delighted by her #crochet #grocery bag #rest of my day was unbelievably bad and tomorrow will probably be worse but this was a high point #also got to paint a little plate ! i did strawberries on it #dont know how itll turn out until its fired and it might be a while till i get it back sadly #but it was really nice #im trying to focus on the nice parts of my day bc if i dont manage to unclench my jaw soon i think i might break a tooth #couldnt sleep last night either bc i could not get any of my muscles to relax. to an insane degree #anyway. strawberry plate. and it has little hearts on it and i painted the rim to kind of look like rays of sun in the sky #i havent really done any non textile or musical art in years but the stuff ive tossed together for kids in arts and crafts #has been surprisingly good and fun and made me want to pick up painting or drawing again #havent yet bc horribly busy but my last day is tomorrow. so

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savage-rhi · 1 month

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Oh dude! You care for noodles (sneks)?!! Please let me hear about them and your other herps!

Sure thing!

I have two hognose snakes. Lucifer (Lulu) and Hades, respectfully. Lucifer is an albino, and Hades is allegedly a regular morph, although I am confident he has some conda genes.

Apep is my Kenyan (or Egyptian) sand boa. He's just a worm. Seriously. Radiates worm energy all the time.

Crowley is my mexican black king snake. He's twice the length of my arm and is super friendly. Probably one of the most polite snakes I've ever had experience with next to Lucifer (for a snake, Lulu is very affectionate...don't go near him when it's mating season). Crowley has also been an ambassador animal when I've worked at schools. He's great with kiddos. Has a preference for girl folk (he'll wrap himself up in a little ball or around their arm, boy folk he just stares and lets them pet him).

...I also have lizards and a frog!

I have 3 leopard geckos. Gwee, Vito, and Treeko. Vito is a male and he's an albino (his colors are like pink lemonade). Gwee is a female and she's turning 14 this year (my first reptile btw! she's the sweetest little old lady), and Treeko is one of the two hatchlings that came from Gwee and Vito's clutch of eggs. Her brother Newt belongs to one of my good friends who has a reptile collection.

I have a bearded dragon named Remmy. He's a strong independent lizard and he needs no man, but he's cool with people petting him.

Hammond (Hammy) is my frilled neck lizard (my baby dilophosaurus haha). Named after John Hammond from Jurassic Park. He's super friendly. Poor fella is getting over a respiratory infection because we lost power for a few days, and with it being winter, he got sick. He's on the mend though! (and thank shit spring is around the corner).

Jormungandr (Jormmy) he's my glass lizard (legless). Jormmy was wild caught, and one of my peeps that worked at this pet shop didn't think it was right. Plus he was sitting there in his tank for god knows how long because not a lot of people in my area know how to take care of unique lizards, so bud pulled some strings and I took Jormmy home as a rescue. I've had him for five years. He's still aggressive toward people (can't blame him) but he's gotten better around me.

And then there's Winston, my dumpy tree frog. He's a polite gentleman. Loves chilling on my hand.

I have a lot of kids...😂

Each of them has their own unique persona and I appreciate and love them for that. I can't imagine not having reptiles in some capacity in my life.

#thanks for asking nonny #i like gushing about the kiddos #lmao #I've had other beardies and snakes in the past that have passed away that I miss terribly as well #usual culprit was either they were predisposed due to faulty genes or previous persons didn't take good care of them #im more picky about where i get my critters from considering the losses and emotional investment #when i have job security again i really want to upgrade jormmys tank he's due for a pent house #same with crowley tbh #if i can't find work within the next few months i have to consider rehoming some of my kids and this has been breaking my heart #im trying not to think like that but still #anyway off tangent #thanks again for asking about them hon

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lecliss · 4 months

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Wait while I'm here lemme say something that's been on my mind for like 2 weeks at least. So, Yahiko was alive when Obito first came to Ame and talked to Nagato. The canonical ages of Obito and Nagato in shippuden are 31 and 35 respectively. So the ame orphans are all 4 years older than Obito. Considering Yahiko died at 15, the oldest Obito could be when meeting Nagato is..... 11. When did Obito have his death scare and meet Madara before leaving for Ame??? When he was 13. Sooooo... unless I somehow got something wrong, and please correct me if I did, Kishimoto is once again a hack fraud.

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bylertruther · 2 years

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do u ever think about the fact that when mike is hurting he goes and hugs his mom but he doesn't tell her anything. just seeks physical comfort to make up for the lack of closeness bc it's infinitely safer that way and makes them feel close enough to him tht they won't ask questions. and then when ur done thinking about that do you ever then think about the fact that, judging by what we've seen on the show only, mike and el don't ever talk. they spent most of their relationship just making out in her room and annoying hop. and when mike Did have an issue (s3 when hop threatens him) instead of talking to el about it he lies n seeks help from lucas instead. and when he does try to talk to her in the store later on he just can't do it. he can't get his words out and when he does he's just being the most confusing person ever by skirting around it and therefore not actually saying anything at all before the conversation is unceremoniously dropped and forgotten entirely. and then when they do finally talk for real in s4 it's the same thing but worse. el opens up and continues the conversation HE started but he just shuts down once it gets real and honest and about HIM. he doesn't tell her how he feels and can't understand how she feels and doesn't take any accountability for the things he's done either. just deflects, deflects, deflects until they're no longer talking about him. do u ever think about how mike copes by seeking physical comfort so that he doesn't have to talk about how he feels or what he's going through. AND THEN do u ever consider the fact tht when it comes to the person he does actually love in that way he's unashamedly more than willing to talk n be honest about how he feels and what he's done without even being prompted to, but he can't handle actually touching him anymore. because then it's too much. it's too real, too close. it's too much to let himself be known and seen and touched all by the same person. it's too much for will to give and want to give him the same love and attention mike's been giving him since the beginning. to be whole and true with someone else and still found worthy. to be held so intimately and truly. he can comfort and bring himself to put a hand on will when he needs it most, but to have that want and love reciprocated in earnest and what that would mean for him is just too much. do u ever think abt tht or am i the only one going crazy about this aha x 🥲

#mine #mike #byler #mike makes me feel fucking insane like will is my baby boy my heart n soul my pride n joy #BUT MIKE? GRRRRRRRRR HE MAKES ME FEEL FUCKING FERAL FOR REAL FOR REAL #people think that will hides but will lives his life out in the open #he isn't afraid to love and be loved #he knows and has suffered the consequences but he does it anyway #but mike.. mike hides and hides and hides #he hides in plain sight! he hides so well that no one even knows he's hiding!#and while will may notice some things (like how he knows wht mike is feeling or thinking without him having to say it)#he still doesn't manage to see the whole picture n what it is tht mike keeps behind the curtain #bc mike is just too fucking good at it #he grew up in a home where no one says what they feel or what they think #he grew up in a home where the one that breaks the silence is the one that's punished #im putting him under a microscope im putting him in an mri machine im putting him in a jar and shaking it #i just. michael wheeler u crazy bitch..... i lov u so bad u fascinating specimen u #he used to be able to put his arm around will n drag him around n now he can jus barely touch his shoulder #will tries to hug him n he initially goes to do it back before he reels it in bc it's too much. theyre not kids anymore n it took living #without will there for him to realize wht that really meant #i jus. GOD!!!!!!

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dirt-str1der · 1 year

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Love the thought of kiryu losing nishikiyamas lighter fucking instantly after he gave it to him. Like he leaves it in the car and nishiki is nice enough to re-gift it to him when they meet up again and then two weeks after that whole fiasco kiryu loses it again and nishiki just buys him those cheap packs of like fifty plastic lighters because this is why they cant have nice things and he hates (loves) him so much

#Yakuza loveblog #like as sweet as it is to have kiryu hold on to that thing forecer (his lighter now) i think he really has a problem with commitment. its #not like he doesnt treasure it. he just does a lot of backflips and jumping around and things inevitably fall out of his pockets #i believe in my heart that kiryu is always losing shit and taking nishikis without permission and breaking it sometimes. like yknow #younger brother behaviour. thats why nishikis always hounding him because hes suffered greatly from kiryus whims #his whimsicality. his ability to wander literally everywhere. i think kiryu played truant in school a lot #like very early on he knew it wasnt for him so hed stalk the streets in his school uniform and climb up or under fences and rip up his skirt #and knees and then when he meets up with nishiki and yumi again hes like hey wanna come lepak in this abandoned building i found ? and theyd #be like YEAH !!!! and bring yuko along too because i love her and she should get to cut her arm open on a rusty metal screw and have to be #sent to the hospital as little girls are prone to doing. i love talking about kiryu in his school uniform god .. i really ... like i just #know he would use it to its fullest like i have a very clear image in my minds eye of kiryu as a kid all covered in dirt from climbing into #gardens and dusty old buildings morning to afternoon and carrying cool rocks around in his skirt and when he gathers them all in a pile he #just dusts off his skirt and its literally still covered in dirt and mud and dust but he does not give a shit. like it would literally be #ripped up the back because hes always sliding down concrete slopes and banisters and im sure hes cut his leg open before and just bled.#all over his nice boue uniform and then limped home and soaked it in a bucket to wear tomorrow. like i see kiryu with a lot of free time and #he never does homework and is failing all his classes by choice because he alrrady knows what he wants to do. like hes only failing because #he doesnt show up for exams and hes literally the bad boy that the girls always ask nishiki to introduce them to like omg is kazuko your #sister ?? can you give her this letter ... and nishiki opens it and reads it first and its a love letter and he just gives it to kiryu like #there are hot girls in your area who want you desperately and kiryus like oh. neat. im skipping school again tomorrow btw do not tell oyasan

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freebooter4ever · 9 months

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I never know what to write in a bereavement card so im just going with images and hoping the message gets across :(

#Im still just like...in shock? Like with grandpa we kinda knew #We had time to grieve even while it was happening #But this still doesnt really feel real #The person closest to him was obviously my cousin #I just...you arent supposed to lose your dad that early you know?#Your dad is supposed to be there to be grandpa and spoil your kids rotten :(#she will never get that and it breaks my heart #Journal shit

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girl-bateman · 1 year

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Midlife crisis by proxy? Is that a thing ? My mom is turning 50 and I feel like crying hysterically everyday because time is slipping away so fast and we're all dying and what happened to the dreams she had ?? Will she still have time? Do I have time left for my dreams ? Is it already over? Do we die happy? Do we die alone?

#no ok but actually i have been very very very stressed and cry-y about it #i saw a pic of her from when i was a kid and she looked younger and now im worried shes gonna die and leave me alone in this world #thinking abt her death is the only thing that makes me insantly cry #i really think id be lost and alone #i love my family but shes the only one i know i can depend on #i know i act like a kid sometimes with her #have her phrase my emails or go over my spelling mistakes or what not #and i know i know i know sometimes i depend on her for things i shouldnt or dont have to #but i think in a way were both making up for lost time #me for the childhood i cant recall #and her for those long years i spent hating her #its nice to need each other i think #but it will break my heart when i dont have here there with me #and i know 50 isnt old old but its.. idk #and yes i did start crying writing this post bc like i said nothing triggers the waterworks like the thought of my mom dying

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teruel-a-witch · 2 years

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#have i just spent hours making silly text post memes to distract myself from the fact #that my mum is having a major surgery ....in Siberia....#maaaybe #i don't know when exactly and there's a 4 hour time difference so im just here like 😬#so instead of sleeping i just spent 3 hours making/looking for matching screencaps #for the text post meme #i couldn't make anything serious right now so light hearted stuff it it #also im not done yet lol i still have to actually make them #idk when i will sleep but i imagine i'll have something ready to post in an hour or so #katya rambles #waiting is the worst always #don't break your arm while in siberia kids do not recommend #can you believe they made her wait 12 days in the hospital with a compound humerus fracture before actually scheduling a surgery #i've been fuming for days #sometimes with free healthcare you really get what you pay for #anyway back to memes

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mihai-florescu · 1 year

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Ok so in the ariadne story we learn himeru knows a lot of military related trivia... Well he could just be a history nerd (cute), but i wouldnt cast off the "priest trained him like a child soldier" possibility either...

#kid himeru on break after learning how to detonate a bomb or some shit sipping on some cola and reading dante's inferno...#im really loving this story #oh if it gets mentioned somewhere else why himeru has military knowledge lmk #anyway. history major literarure minor graduate himeru real in my heart

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elegyofthemoon · 1 year

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i'm thinking about the sunchildren again bc enkanomiya ost is my go-to study music.

Like Ion for example was someone who was inept with telling people's fortunes, but on his grave, it's written "he failed to predict his own short life." Tbh, based on the one conversation we get to have with his Sunshadow, where he tells us that many people of Enkanomiya have such poor luck so he chooses to lie to them instead, I feel that Ion must have known about his death. He doesn't know the context of it or why this is the case, but in that short span of life, he may have just wanted to make people happy, even if it meant lying about their fortunes.

Or Rikoru who was manipulated to believe Aberaku was trying to kill him when it was the one who manipulated him that would be the cause of his death. Aberaku was trying to speak up against the Jibashiri using a child as a puppethead over the rest of Enkanomiya, but of course, the Jibashiri would jail him and tell Rikoru that Aberaku was wrong and that he's just trying to threaten Rikoru. Plus, Rikoru being the first sunchild -- it makes me wonder how did the Jibashiri manage him first, setting a basis of how to treat the Sunchildren before tending to the others. I just wish that there was more information regarding the Jibashiri to understand them more.

#will probably come back to this later to ramble more i just really love the sunchildren #im just sad bc idk anyone else who loves them the way i do #my heart breaks everytime i go through my notes and remember finding the kids to talk to #and then just...#bc up to that point EVERYONE around enkanomiya including hteir caretaker clymene #all agreed that the sunchildren were bad - they pinned all the bad things that happened on the sunchildren #even though THEY WERE BEING MANIPULATED BY THE JIBASHIRI #like where is the argument against the jibashiri? ig its easier to blame a kid than an authority figure who could kill you in an instant #but ... that makes me really sad #ion is probably one of my faves mostly because he reminds me of two of my ocs - sheila and estrella #like i wonder how much these kids are told of the past sunchildren before they come to power #did ion know that the past sunchildren used to be so deeply hated?#i think we only know the first and last sunchildren - rikoru and orepeusu respectively #so ion wouldve/may have heard of the hatred the people held for their power #WHICH MAKES THE WHOLE 'I WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY' IDEA HURT ALL THE MORE....#snow speaks #enkanomiya #yeah....i just....i wish i could talk more about it.... make ideas w someone #i have other peoples fics to help me but ow ow ow ow ow ow ow #also im pretty sure i read most of the ones i had saved.... so now im out

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