#it hurts man

[time-woods]

This small interaction in episode 2 will not leave my brain I need to dissect it and ramble or else I’ll pop

Frame of reference: this is where Aziraphale tells Crowley what drink he wants,

so he gets his attention while trying to spot somewhere to sit obviously not thinking to much of it (he also only turns twice in this moment to look at Crowley, having his main focus being on the seating- thats just Aziraphale for you though) but the way that Crowley looks back at him just makes him seem taken aback by the small gesture of physical touch. Not in a negative way, he doesn’t say anything and kinda just lingers for a moment looking and Aziraphale before getting their drinks. I don’t know how to explain it but this small moment along with details in body language from the whole series just makes these characters so fun to watch, even in the small things they can be so devastatingly human despite their denial,

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #? #aziraphale #crowley #they are so painfully in love but don’t realize that’s what it is #it hurts man #why can’t the old gay cosmic entities be happy #i’m so normal #I’m so fucking un-normal

[nanfrost]

A Schneider Scene Analysis: Her decision to do what she did at the end of Chapter 2.

For those that need a little refresher or well, a reminder to what happened at the end of chapter 2: Schneider decided to do a little pro gamer move and stare into Vertin's eyes as she vanishes into thin air.

An incredibly traumatic and heartbreaking scene definitely, and it left me in pain for days later.

But recently, someone actually asked me something that I find that to be an interesting question to answer; that being why did Schneider decided to do what she did at the end, likely knowing how traumatic doing something like that to Vertin.

For those who have always been curious to know this, or have been given an interest now that I brought this topic up, welcome! I will be giving my own interpretation of Schneider's character and the lead up to her ultimate decision to do what she did. Hope you will enjoy!

For us to be able to fully understand the context of this scene, we need to properly understand Schneider as a character first.

Schneider was someone who grew up in a large yet incredibly poor family, and aside from being the least cared for, she is also the most left out of that family; the one that never seemed to be remembered or fit in.

She shared no religious belief like they do, not the fragility and gentleness of her sisters, nor a soft heart that can take any beating given to them and still continue to struggle under the weight of the world like they do.

In other words, she was like an outsider, who besides name, didn't resembled any of her siblings or parents.

And yet, she still cared for them, more so than one probably should given the circumstances and the treatment one receives had they been in her shoes.

Schneider loved her family, cared for them, and did everything in her power to give them a life they could be at peace with. To give them a life they can be truly satisfied with living, and die with relief in their hearts.

In other words, Schneider had always been a selfless individual. A girl who will give up everything about herself to pursue happiness for those she cares for, never asking for a reward for herself. 

And we see that with Vertin as well, we see how this selflessness is reflected through her actions and words with Vertin and subsequently after her influence on her. Because Vertin absolutely did change her for the better, although, "change" might not be the right word here.

Instead, Vertin opened Schneider's heart, a heart that had long since closed off to everyone that isn't her family. A heart that is far more kind and caring than it lets on, a heart that when given the chance and the right opportunity, will flourish under the sun and blossom into something beautiful.

And we see that clearly later on once she was safely freed from Manus clutches. 

Schneider could have very well run off with Marian, to take the girl with her in a desperate search for their family again. To maybe have a final reunion before they were sifted away by the Storm. She had no real reason to keep risking her neck for these strangers, these people who she really only knew for hours, let alone a day. 

And yet she did, because Vertin had made Schneider believe again.

Vertin had ignited Schneider's desire to help, to be kind to strangers, to offer her assistance even when she gains really nothing from it. Yes, in a way, she would be helping Vertin as well, but she didn't need to be so forward and casual with it, she didn't need to be so buddy buddy and joking with Sonetto after their last interaction was pure hostility towards each other.

And yet she is, because Schneider wants to be kind, wants to be open about her mind and feelings, to not inherently distrust everyone around her anymore simply because she doesn't know them. To give herself and them a chance to connect with one another, to work together in a goal that is purely altruistic of them all. 

Because Schneider had always been selfless, and now she was given the right chance to show that selflessness to those around her.

As we move on to the final few scenes of chapter 2, we continue to see this selflessness of her, reflecting in her suggestion to ask for everyone's wishes. A suggestion that prioritizes everyone's well-being and desires beyond herself.

Yet during it, we get a small scene with her and Vertin, a scene that hints towards the finale of the arc itself. 

For as much as Schneider is selfless, she does have a desire to want something for herself. A desire buried deeply under years and years of constantly giving herself away to those she cared for, never truly being given the chance to be expressed outwardly. 

But for now, it remains only a hint of that desire, as we move on to the next scene, the scene where this hint only further grows. 

Vertin asked for Schneider's wish, something that even the girl herself seemed surprised by. Either because she truly didn't expect that someone would ask her such a thing, or she thought that nobody would notice her enough to do so. 

And here, Schneider lets herself indulge just a little more. To wish for something she never thought she had the capacity to ask for, to crave for; until now.

Schneider wishes for Vertin to not forget her.

An odd wish, a strange one, but most of all, it was a selfish wish. A wish made that will only benefit Schneider alone, a far-cry of what she has been like this entire time.

And yet, even with that wish, there was a clear restraint in her desire. Schneider had kept her identity of being a pure-blooded human a complete secret from Vertin and everyone else, because she didn't want to concern them with her troubles. To not let them worry over someone like her when there were others that deserve it more than Schneider. 

Even when she was asking for something for herself, Schneider kept this thought in mind, fully intending to bring this secret with her till the end. To not worry Vertin or the others until she finally departs from this world, her only desire is that Vertin will remember her at least, even for just a little while.

Now we move on to the final scene of the chapter, and the conclusion to Schneider's character; and also the culmination of all these scenes finally coming into play to create a finale that just hurts. 

Because Schneider had always been a selfless girl, someone who would sacrifice herself if it meant that others that she cared for would live. A girl who will bury all her secrets, all her lies and all her desires to her grave if it meant she could grant the people around her no burden from herself.

Yet even a girl like her still desires to be loved, to desire affection, to desire compassion from someone they loved. 

In the end, Schneider had kept up her front, she continued to be that selfless girl for Marian to the very end. But when her last real family disappeared in front of her eyes, leaving nothing but her clothes, a dam broke, and Schneider couldn't bear to hold it anymore.

And so she leaps into Vertin's arms, pleading for the girl to hold her. Because at the end of her life, Schneider just wants to be held by someone who cared for her, who acknowledged her as the young girl that she is; a girl who loves everyone around her, and received none back, and not the killer she had become.

In the end, Schneider let herself be selfish, the only and last time she could ever be given a chance to be. And yet even at the end, you can still see the immediate regret of her selfishness, she must have known just how badly this might hurt Vertin. Had Schneider survived, it will be a regret she will solely hold in her heart.

Yet at that moment, Schneider just chose to not think about it, to just let herself be held and be embraced by the last person she knew and had grown to care and love. To be held by someone who found her to matter. To just let herself be selfish, knowing the consequences of it. 

In the end, what she finally did was a heartbreaking and painful and a horribly traumatic move to pull on Vertin, yet at this point, after all that, can you really blame her for it? 

For a girl who had given up so much and gained so little back, is it really worth it to blame her for just wanting to feel like she mattered in her final moments, and to at least go out not having to lie to herself or to others, even if it would hurt them? To just let herself be selfish for the only last time in her life.

To die not being Schneider, but just Yelena Greco, a girl who finally found someone to love her.

#reverse 1999 #r1999 #re1999 #vertin #schneider #verneider #vertin x schneider #writing #angst #depression #god I love Schneider so much #it hurts man #schneider is so precious #don't forget her #character writing #character analysis

[pasteilian]

Blue exorcist as a series has a sore spot with me because they have some grade A shipping material But all I ever see is fan content of the brothers fucking each other

Bon and rin are RIGHT there and you’re drawing the siblings fucking??? I need a moment—

Like look at these two

Can’t have SHIT in this house

this always happens especially when the siblings are twins if you got twins in a show just know incest is in your fandoms future

#pastries babbles💌 #blue exorcist #it hurts man #bon x rin was my crazy brains waves back in the day

[edenfenixblogs]

Moment of light: just saw an Instagram acquaintance repost an Alice Walker quote and I sent them an article on her antisemitism. And they listened! And said they were so disappointed to learn about these views! I was so relieved. Also thanks for your excellent and very taxing work as an educator right now.

Signed, a non-Jew DISGUSTED with leftist hypocrisy.

Omg!!! This is nice to hear. I, too, am horrified and upset by Alice Walker’s views. She is one of many people whose work I deeply respect, but with whom I cannot engage safely. And it breaks my heart.

I’m just clarifying because I’m not excited that people are turning on Alice Walker. I’m relieved because people are choosing to live Jews more than they love a Jew hater. It’s a very rare choice for someone to make and I’m grateful for every person who does it.

#ask me stuff #antisemitism #alice walker #it hurts man #thanks for telling me

[localravenclaw]

Trying to get hype from friends who have already moved on from your hyperfixation feels like Simba trying to wake Mufasa after the stampede.

#it hurts man #idk why i bother #personal #txt

[irregularbillcipher]

there is nothing that i personally enjoy more than the idea of the men in olathe having vague pre-flash connections to each other that they have no real way of knowing or remembering anymore

like nern’s wife was the overly chatty receptionist at terry’s cardiologist, but nern and terry have never realized that they're talking about the same woman when they tell stories of their pre-flash life around the campfire. birdie was friendly with olan’s wife because one of the hoyt girls was the same grade as joey, and they were pals, but birdie isn't lucid enough to remember the last name of his kid's friend, and olan never talks about his wife and kids and wasn't involved enough to have known the names of his daughters' friends, so they have no idea. geese has taught a handful of the younger party members, and the kids/younger siblings of some of the party members, but nobody who knew geese as "mr. thompson" is really gonna make that connection nowadays, and hell if geese is gonna say anything. a bunch of the guys went through ajeet's tollbooth every day on the way to work, but it was such a nothing interaction that they don't really remember him, and he doesn't really remember them, beyond a vague "he's got a familiar face" type feeling. fly and garth used to get into heated internet arguments over anime without ever knowing they lived in the same town IRL and their spirited discussions are always cut short by the other guys before they can place how familiar this back and forth feels

just tiny, tiny things that barely matter in the grand scheme of things, like "you were my neighbor and we never talked but the walls were thin so i always heard your old records" or "our sisters were friends but now they're both dead so we have no way of knowing" or "your favorite coworker was my wife but she’s not around to remember it." possible connections and even possible comfort, (being able to look back on some normal memories, having someone else remember a lost loved one,) but neither person having the context or being stable enough to realize or remember

#this is basically copy-pasted from an old twitter thread of mine so if you saw it there no you didn't #lisa rpg #lisa the painful #olathians pre-flash lives devastate me #and like... statistically some of them must have some connections #the idea that some of these guys might have known each other in a vague sense before the world ended #but the world is so fucked now and so many people are gone that they have no way of ever knowing... #it hurts man

[starrzies]

★Hug [Canineformers AU]★

I am very normal about these two <3

Decided to take a break form owed art to work on my favs! Have no idea what spurred this. (That's a lie. My shitty mood and desperate longing caused this LMFAO.)

Honestly, I REALLY need to edit their designs, they are LACKING IMO. I have plans to do that eventually. Hopefully.

Anyways, here are the dudes.

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#starrz-art #digital art #art #digital artist #canineformers #transformers #transformers au #canineformers au #wolfformers #maccadam #rodimus #rodiclash #thunderrod #thunderclash #rodimus prime #mtmte #lost light #idw1 #transformers idw #starrz-fanart #god damn I can NOT stop drawing them </3 #It hurts man #I want to be hugged like this SOBS

[cluelessbees]

Friendly reminder that Will was the one who created Castle Byers (drew it and built it)

And he’s was the one who ended up destroying it

#:’D #byler #will byers #it hurts man

[selfshipping-haven]

i forgot to share these pictures. he's honestly so expressive i love him...he's so cocky and so caring at the same time??? who does he think he is???? with his pretty hair and cute nose and voice that physically calms me down????

#the fact that one of my favorite anakin episodes is the last we see from him #it hurts man #to know him is to love him #to love him....is to know him #okay i'm showing off my sci fi nerd enough i'll stop #self ship #self shipping #selfship #selfshipping #f/o

[dat2ndaccount97]

Broke up with my GF earlier.

I did the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life earlier, I broke up with my Girlfriend of 4+ Years. The TL;DR is a lot of stuff has been building up over time and an argument we had last night kinda was the straw the broke the camel's back. Like I thought I understood her and we understood each other but I guess we maybe didn't.

She's an amazing person, but it felt like she was never there for me sometimes because she was always busy with work or her phone was dead or other reasons. So we didn't get to talk as much as we should. Which hurts in a long distance relationship. Esp. since we never got to see each other IRL because I don't have my license and she never had a car (& was super busy with work), & every time we tired to Meet IRL it NEVER worked out. My mom being shitty and transphobic is a reason for one of those times.

But me breaking things off with her just hurt way more than I thought it would. I was mad & upset at her last night when I made the decision to end things, but actually going through with it felt like jamming a knife into my heart. That I was throwing away the one good thing I had in my life. It doesn't help that it feels like my life is in a rut RN.

Also IDK if I can even be friends w/ her anymore since a lot of the problems with our relationship would still be present (such as not being able to converse often), on top of how bad this all hurts. I don't wanna loose her but I can't deal with this kind of relationship with all of the Life BS & mental health issues I have Right now.

It also double sucks since i'm now at 2 of 2 Relationships where I couldn't physically be with the person I love, the first because she wasn't real, and the 2nd I already described why. It all just hurts right now and I want this pain to stop. I'm not thinking of hurting myself or anything I just feel dead inside right now.

#Life Update #I broke up with my GF #It hurts man #Personal Update #everything feels horrible RN

[draemers]

having issues continuing to read the apothecary diaries after the epilogue of volume 5. it’s so conflicting because i don’t want to say the book is a romance but the fact that the author gives us treats at the end of every book by always concluding with a jinshi and maomao scene really contrasts to the dev. of their relationship - i can see the author making a commentary on women and power, how maomao thought best to handle a situation that was causing danger for her without harming herself or her station, but i don’t think you can have both that commentary AND to continue this playful relationship between her and jinshi. it’s so contrastive and i don’t think they could develop feelings after this anyway. aghhhhh

#idk i should continue reading it without hope for them #sucks but #ughhhh #i wanna know what happens but #it hurts man #the apothecary diaries #the apothecary diaries spoilers #the apothecary diaries volume 5 #cat complains

[angst-is-love-angst-is-life]

Why am I crying, while writing my own fic?? tf this isn't fair--

#my posts #it hurts man #it hurts #fic shit #writing #fanfiction writing #trophy fic

[kessuburd]

Here I am, standing on a sidewalk huddling away from the rain while I wait for an appointment, trying hard not to weep over the thought of Carolina parakeets

#personal #it hurts man

[audhdazai]

i know sigma will live but imagine sigma dying anyways. imagine how painful it would be for dazai to find out that sigma died, knowing that he put his life on the line to save One person as promised and it wasn't enough. he can't keep odasaku's promise no matter how Hard he tries to do something that he considers is the greatest good

#bsd #bsd manga #bsd manga spoilers #dazai osamu #bsd dazai #it hurts man

[weirdo09]

i don’t think y’all understand what it’s really like being of african diaspora descent

#cade’s things #cade’s thoughts 💭 #mostly for nonblack people #cause the way y’all’s people have been exploiting us and our bodies the way we talk the way we dress our languages n dialects #for y’all to go “black people don’t have a culture it’s American culture !!!!” #“only white people have culture !!!!” #do you know how damaging that is to a black person’s self esteem #having us think that we’re nothing MAKES us want to stick together because we can only depend on ourselves n our people #like it’s not that hard to say you like black culture and the feeling of being black but you will NEVER know the traumas the pain and suffe #ing we go through because of people like that and our “allies” #it just sickens me #like it’s US black history month but it just feels like no one cares yk ? #not saying that palestine is less than us but like in the real world unaffected by palestine and its genocide #it’s just like every year it gets worse and worse #hearing people who look like me being discriminated and killed daily in different countries and the one i live in #it hurts man

[hidingoutbackstage]

It sucks it rlly does that the ONE time we see Sally try to do something that is actually selfless for the good of her child (which, granted, she’s unable to actually go through with bc of her ptsd) THAT is when tragedy strikes, THAT is when she loses him and loses any sense of control over her and her son’s lives and freedom and any semblance of the mask she’d been wearing in front of John this whole time is ripped off her when Hank rips off her wig and calls her Sally Reed. The guilt must be killing her

#sid rants #barry spoilers #barry hbo #IT HURTS MAN #also i don’t think sally and john could’ve fought those guys off or ran even if they tried #but to sally she HAS to blame herself right?