#it feels like good closure. and all.

[uncanny-tranny]

Something I realized (which was obvious to me subconsciously) is that... The family that vehemently didn't accept me when I first came out but now do accept me are still the same family that I am most unwilling to be open about things I feel protective over.

I remember that my dad reacted so poorly, not to my coming out, but to my transition specifically that my therapist was the one to ask if I wanted to put it on my file that I wanted nothing to ever be shared with him about my health after I broke down multiple times due to my anxiety that I would never transition. While there are and were protections for me, I was incredibly fearful at the time because I was a minor, and I was so worried that he would have prevented my transition that I couldn't have said for certain what (if any) lengths he would have gone to to prevent that.

He's grown a lot as a person, and made some commendable strides. But he didn't find out from me when I medically transitioned the second I turned eighteen, and I think that's among the things that truly made him realize the scope of the issue.

I'm not here to guilt trip parents, guardians, or other members responsible for the care of the children or teens or young adults in their care.... but this is a cautionary tale. You aren't saving the people in your care when you do this, you simply reinforce an idea that you will never care for them, never want them as they are, would rather them be shoved away.

When you give people reasons to be secretive, they will behave secretively. When you give people reasons to doubt their safety around you, they will become sneaky, defensive, and withdrawn. When you give people reasons to doubt that you value their life, they will believe that you don't care if they live or not.

#queer #lgbt #lgbtq #ally advice #transphobia #transphobia tw #i always feel the need to preface that i have a rebuilt relationship with my dad specifically... #...but that my experiences with them have served to me in many ways to illustrate... well... what NOT to do if you are in his situation #i do still grieve that my relationship with him looks very scarred and that it took a long time to get to where he is now #but i recognize that in many ways this is a product of the world and culture we live in and that he lived in #in a world he grew up gay was used as a slur. would i expect that trans people would be treated better? #and he was responsible for how he reacted but also... it's nuanced as to why he reacted so poorly #and i want people to AVOID being like he did if they EVER want a decent relationship with the other person #i want this to be a cautionary tale and that my ending is unique. not all of us are even ABLE to repair a relationship that was THAT broken #some of us die trying. some of us never get closure. some of us are in active danger because of those reactions #and that's the more common reality i have found. most other queer people have no-contact with families who pulled the shit my dad had... #...and that's - frankly - a good idea in 99.9% of cases. i will never judge someone for the way they go about dealing with that #i'm just emphasizing that i am unique in the sense that i was able to somewhat repair that

[maxphilippa]

i think that the major misinterpretation that people have with taco is that she didn't get attached to mic because of her sad face in the end wanted to show regret because "she hurted her friend". like. no, she wasn't sad because she regretted what she did. she was sad because she's alone again, but she knows very well at the end that she had it coming. the reason as to why taco was so desperate of wanting mic to tell her that she did gain something is because. she SAW pickle in mic, but of course their situation is very different. "Oh but Taco couldn't have done what she did to Mic to Pickle, Mic was fully aware" but she did do that. Mic herself says it. That is pretty much what II is telling you. Taco isn't a good friend, and is not exactly a good person either. Mic was aware that Taco was/is a bad person, but Mic's nature makes her believe in whoever acknowledges her. Taco made Mic feel like she needed her, just the way she made Pickle feel back in s1.

she didn't really change thanks to mic. her faces of "regret" aren't her actually lamenting all of the stuff she did to microphone, but rather just her realizing that she proved what everyone said about her as a result. i will give it to that she might've tried to change, but not because of mic. she wanted to win the prize so she could prove others wrong on her being a loser and a coward, by being a loser and a coward. if anything, mic made her realize that she hasn't changed. she pretty much just ruined everything for everyone who saw her as a friend, and for herself.

taco's whole arc is constantly just downgraded to questionable takes and listen. i do agree that she is heavily flawed as a character. she is morally gray, but ii doesn't portray her as a good person with good intentions, nor she should be really be treated as if she was. neither she had those good intentions with mic at all, i mean, their "friendship" pretty much started because of taco wanting the prize money, taking a part of microphone's prize if she made mic won, you know, an offer. she would get the prize and mic would get recognition. but everyone seems to forget that probably, the main reason as to why she's doing all of this, is because she does regret how she acted on s1. she doesn't exactly regret doing all of that to microphone, and even if she does, it's for the wrong reasons. (that's because she did the exact same thing to you know, pickle, her once best friend, the only person she truly ever cared about)

people do tend to forget that taco keeps sending letters to pickle, and that's often just used for pickle angst and making it his only character trait, but. it's not that. it's the fact that taco keeps on writing those letters, despite fully knowing that she did hurt pickle because of her actions. taco's biggest flaw is that she can't accept that she has ruined everything and wants so desperately to be back on pickle's life because she ended up caring about him deeply as a person. as a friend. but she was never there at all, either.

taco can't seem to understand that she has hurted people badly. sure, she seemed like a "friend" to microphone, and you can argue whatever you want but a fact is that taco IS smart, and she knew that the only way to possibly keep mic by her side is pretending to want to be better, you know, the same way she pretended to be just a odd fella so pickle and her could remain together and have an advance at the game. she played with both of them. because both pickle and mic believed in her but were just used by her for the game.

however, taco does seem to regret the way everything went during-post s1. you can see how she yearns for another chance and is saddened about not getting it, but that's not only for comedic purposes, but that's because the writing is telling you that she won't get a second chance. at least not here.

what i want people to understand is that, yes, taco is a complex character, however trying to sugarcoat what she did is pretty much missing the point of her writing as a whole. she isn't a good person neither was she a good friend. she hasn't grown because she was never able to let go of something that she thinks that she can fix with some words and a prize. she thinks that she can still fix her friendship with pickle, she thinks that she can clear her name (even if she was the one who tainted it), but she only ended up proving knife right. she proved everyone right. she hasn't changed. a morally gray character is that. they're not exactly fully bad or fully good, but it's taco's actions that speak a lot. words are cheap, and taco's title is "The Liar", and that says a lot, because she kept on lying to microphone and to pickle on both of their games. she won't heal unless she lets go.

and i want to be clear here: i do think that taco can go through redemption. i do think that taco can become a better person, but not in the way people portray her to do so. because it just pretty much goes against what her arc has settled in for us, and the other arcs that were involved in hers as well.

taco's arc is meant to be somewhat a parallel with nickel's in a way. hell, even with knife's arc if anything. she treats knife as a simple bully, but when she saw that he became smarter and way more emotionally aware than what she had expected, she felt attacked by that, because he was stable. he became a better person and he was rubbing that on her, and it made her feelings of anger way worse regarding him, but it is true. knife is pretty much everything that taco wants to be, but here's the thing that made them so different:

knife stayed. taco didn't stay.

knife is accepted by everyone in the hotel because meanwhile he hasn't explicitly said that he had a change of heart, he has shown it through actions and a big difference too is that he was there for pickle, even if they weren't close in s1, and taco is on the woods because deep down she is aware that she can't go back. not if she doesn't have something to offer as an direct apology, but here's the problem. whether or not she got the prize, she still wouldn't get forgiven by anyone due to what she said that day.

again. her problem is not being able to let go and to accept when she has messed up badly. she has been lying to everyone but she has also been lying to herself as a whole. she can't keep on doing this because it's just hurting everyone and herself. keeping grudges and holding onto past friendships that were doomed to fall is just hurting her. she is not on the state to keep on trying, she wasn't at all ever.

taco's arc most likely will have closure on a way that fits her character, and i feel like that would be with her letting go of inanimate insanity as a whole and of what she can't fix anymore. her trying to find herself after years of lying to everyone and to herself. she's not a good person. but she can become one. only if she knows what she did was wrong and that her second chance isn't there, and never will be, and if she recognizes that meanwhile she did that damage, she can still become a better person. just not there.

pickle and mic don't owe her anything, especially pickle. taco does owe them an apology, but they won't accept that. the least she could do is to accept their wishes, understand that she needs to leave them and grow to be a better person. maybe, if she does that, she would actually heal.

she doesn't need anyone to fix her. she needs to fix herself.

#inanimate insanity #ii #inanimate insanity invitational #ii 2 #ii 3 #inanimate insanity taco #inanimate insanity microphone #inanimate insanity knife #inanimate insanity pickle #and no. this isn't to bring ship discourse or anything. get that away from my character analysis. #i feel like taco is a really interesting character. it is pretty sad that even if she's popular people don't get her #“she's a complex fem character” yes she is. however you are pretty much missing the point. a character regardless of the gender can do bad- #-things and have a good intention/or a way to try to make up for that in their actions. however she is a case where she can't get closure w #-ith anyone because of the way she is written/the way she was given that complexity. she won't get closure with anyone in the cast at all #because they won't really forgive her since she kept on lying and using them as puppets. she had a change of heart. sure #but that doesn't erase all the pain she has caused #i genuinely do hope she gets her eventual closure by letting go. she does deserve to be okay but not with the cast. #i feel like the best way to put is. she had a good wish (wanting to become friends with pickle and showing that she changed) #with bad intentions and bad actions (using mic to get the prize + lying to her + other bad stuff she has done to the contestants such as h #-arming them without a motive/just because.) #max does analysis

[goemon-fan]

fujigoe

#this will likely be the last of my recent twcfm posts #but i did love goemon's (and fujiko's) depictions/relationships #all goemon wants is a friend like him since he feels so alone in the world #but he fell in love with a person who doesn't exist #and he keeps setting himself up for failure by hoping for fujiko to change into the woman he thought she was #only to end up more lonely since before meeting fujiko (the ending of twcfm “resolves” their relationship but it felt wrapped up too soon) #also i'm specifically thinking of the scene where they're on the beach and goemon interprets her actions as having been good and honest for #once only to end up disappointed when she hadn't changed for the better to be more in line with his values #as for fujiko she got closure from her trauma but her relationship with goemon went nowhere #she was too traumatized to understand that goemon was trustworty and genuinely did love her unlike all the other men in her life so far #but it was interesting to see her being comfortable “alone” after she dealt with her trauma as well as her new outlook on life #but i still feel bad for goemon; he deserved better and all he wanted was for someone to want/love him and make him feel he belongs #lupin iii #lupin the third #lupin the 3rd #goemon ishikawa xiii #goemon #fujiko mine #twcfm #the woman called fujiko mine #fujigoe

[puriel-reblogs]

“QUIET, GENTLE AND ROMANTIC” MY ASS, WE SHOULD’VE ASKED FOR WHO SPECIFICALLY

#EAT UP INEFFABLE BEUROCRACY SHIPPERS WHILST WE AZIRACROW SHIPPERS FEAST ON OUR POISOINED SCRAPS #WE HAVE BEEN DECEIVED /j obvs #I wish I was able to see all the shocked phases all around the world as they react to episode 6 #crowley #good omens #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #good omens 2 #You are not okay #I am not okay :DD I’m glad we can come to an agreement #Amazing job Neil Gaiman #legend says if you listen close you’ll hear the pained wails and cries of those who have watched good omens season 2….. #but nil ending just feel like a strong bait for a season 3 #cause what sane person WOULDNT want closure to an ending like that-

[fortune-maiden]

I know we are not supposed to be rooting for Derrick (or anyone in Penelope's family really)

but he has such pretty eyes

Especially when he's frowning ;w;

#villains are destined to die #i can't help it he has a character design that hits all of my likes T_T #in all seriousness though i do like all of the Eckharts for different reasons #Reynold after the attic scene where he has a moment of realization and does start to truly look out for Penny #and his hatred of her was understandable - he was 14 years old his little sister was missing a lookalike was brought in to be his new siste #and the lookalike prays that the og sister is never found/is already dead #that is a very good reason to become resentful! #meanwhile the duke is just neglectful. and knows he's neglectful and tries to (originally) make up for it #by letting Penny buy what she wants and run wild #but once he's forced to also come to terms with how he's been treating his daughter #you start to see that he's well aware of how he's messed up and he does actually really care about Penny as a daughter #and striving to do better #(i get the feeling that unlike Derrick he genuinely did not know the details of the incident with Emily) #meanwhile Derrick is..... Derrick. i love him but i also want to stab him #but the really biggest tragedy of it all is the isekai element #where the heroine finds out that while Penny's family was awful to her they are not as awful as her own #and are capable of treating her the way an adopted daughter should have been treated #but Penelope will never receive those affections and the heroine will never get this kind of closure from her own family

[redphienix]

I love you Kiryu, I love you Akiyama, I love you Saejima, I love you Majima, I love you Shinada, I love you Haruka, I love you story about people becoming better through the relationships they forge, I love you display of both the joys and sorrows of life and delightful display of the human heart, I love you Nugget, I love you zany mini-games, I love you narrative about the strength we give each other and how those bonds change us, I love you Yakuza video game series

#my posts #Yakuza #Rgg #In regards to yakuza I've been in a bit of a downer mood because I keep wishing 6 wasn't like that- ignoring all of yakuza #foregoing giving us closure on all these beloved characters or the overall story of growth the series had #and instead being an advertisement for the dragon engine and some disappointing undertones of resentment from new-writer-guy #BUT- it was pretty fun to play through- and the series as a whole has given me so damn much #so much love- joy- fun- laughs- tears- so it's lame that my post-game thoughts on 6 left me feeling disappointed so heavily when I could- #instead be left with joy at the rest of Yakuza- what a fuckin' good series #Yakuza is so many fucking things- SO MANY- so many that I dwelled on like 3 ideas for this post and yet as I type this I could add 50 more #Fucking brilliant

[samwpmarleau]

Anyway James Tartt should rot in hell and making Jamie’s ending be forgiving and reuniting with the man who orchestrated his rape at 14, inflicted an additional decade of child abuse on top of it, and has shown no signs whatsoever of even acknowledging that let alone atoning for it is a horror story, not heartwarming

How is this even a discussion

#oh and lest we forget - he assaulted and tried to MURDER BEARD #like??????? #jamie reaching out to his dad? sure. i'd say that's in-character #he never got closure and still has that little-boy craving of his father's elusive affection #but presenting that as a GOOD thing? as the RIGHT thing? #as though jamie's suffering is his own fault because he harbored ill feelings towards his abuser? #as though jamie's mom is just bitter and cold-hearted and ted is the one who knows best? #fuck all the way off with that shit #jamie tartt #james tartt #ted lasso #tl

[werentloyaltome]

I want to make an actual edit with it but here’s my crosshunt playlist

#crosshunt #it’s in chronological order from the betrayal -> back to friends -> to lovers (?) #thousand eyes is a tone setting prologue #plainsong is to act as a bookend to cold’s intro #‘i was cold as I mouthed the words… your name like ice into my heart’ -> #“’it’s so cold it’s the cold like you were dead… sometimes you make me feel like I’m living at the edge of the world’ #i tried to keep the songs tonally similar to one another ik if you’re not familiar with TS then it’ll seem jarring but it all makes sense #within da plot of the playlist…. #hurricane is the midpoint and signals the beginning of the end aka eventual reconciliation #also I’m your man into cardigan is just too good especially if you listen with a fade #posing for cars is the penultimate track. giving an ambiguous sense of closure. will they won’t they type of thing. #plainsong closes them out and answers that question. for me at least. #crosshair’s the cocky sob who says it’s just the way he smiles #crosshair #hunter tbb

[phantom-does-a-thing]

It’s almost worse knowing they hurt me unintentionally because I don’t have any right to hate them. It was an accident, they didn’t know, but still I have breakdowns at the mention of them and they don’t even know.

#I haven’t talked to them in months #and by god I don’t want to talk to them again #because it hurts So Bad #and I’m not even in the right to hate them bc they didn’t do it on purpose #I’d rather them do it on purpose because then I could hate them #because I’m angry and upset and I had a panic attack last night about it #this person who probably doesn’t even think about me for a second #and they’re constantly in my mind making me feel like crap #that’s not fair #I hope my name is never in their thoughts again and I hope they always wonder why I stopped talking to them #I wanted closure before but it’s too late for that because it’s been long enough that #wtf would I even say? #you hurt me. you abandoned me? but I’m the one that stopped talking #it felt like you abandoned me and I didn’t have the energy to keep up a one sided talk #when I know there were people who would talk to me #I know you’re busy. but at least something would be nice #I’m needy. and clingy. and I KNOW that #but still. it hurts because it’s like everything I always get left behind and they’re the PRIME example of that #I don’t even know why they hurt me so bad #maybe it was because it was someone I trusted completely #someone that I was closest to above all else above everyone else #I trusted them. I loved them. we talked about getting to meet up one day #but I hope that when they come up here I am Long Gone and they never think of me again #I trusted them enough they knew my state. I trusted them with parts of myself I barely trusted anyone else with #and the absence hurt like hell #and there wasn’t even one big event to break it off #just a slow deterioration in anxiety and stress that sometimes bubbled up in a message #but I always kneecapped the conversation because never was a good time to have it #and then just no more messages #I should block them. but I don’t want to ruin all the messages we had

[clambuoyance]

hello /waves shyly/ i am the anon who recommended red as a timkon song, and i just want to tell you too that i think The Lucky One by taylor swift too fits naive, just-out-of-the-test-tube, teen celeb kon sooooo well!! esp the last verse of the song where it goes "and they still tell the legend of how you disappeared / how you took the money and your dignity / and got the hell out" > parallels his decision to go live with the kents in smallville and completely change his image as well.

i like to think the image change (while we all lament t-shirt kon sometimes) was necessary for kon to truly examine who he wanted to be. and it only grew after he died and came back (re: adventure comics 2009 where he makes lists of what would superman/lex do). and idk i just feel like this song encapsulates that!!

rambling aside, i love your art, and your song reccs on IG too! thank you for always sharing your timkon/kon-el brainrot with us <3

Oh my god love this songs vibes it’s very “getting disillusioned with fame” vibes

Also I big agree! Kon in smallville just…the vibes are too good. I guess I’d prefer it if they changed his haircut at least. But It’s very fitting for 2000s I guess. I also like how some artists draw tshirt Kon tbh (Francis manapul, Marcus to), but I can’t get behind how the artist for tt03 draws him tbh…And design wise, i wished they at least let him keep some accessories…and then let him transition into a new style that’s somewhat punk but something new and different too? In my head, that era of Kon in the 2009-2011 comics should have led to someone who was more sure in himself. Not insecure and not falsely confident like when he was younger, but like healthily confident if that makes sense…

Like this was just a doodle for what my version of tshirt kon would be like

Also random, i could literally rant for hours about how superboy’s written in both the 90s and 2000s bc both have good and bad, i have traits I prefer in one vs the other etc etc, but while in the 2000s he gives more…”macho” or “serious” Vibes based on appearance—I feel like he’s still pretty snarky at times, and surprisingly emotional and soft still? Sorry that was a random ramble. Kon in smallville is just vibes if u get it u get it

#I could get Into it #but I won’t #like yes tshirt Kon has very different vibes BUT personality wise I feel like there’s more similarities than ppl realize #or that in the 90s kon actually was getting less and less confident and matured as his solo went on #BUT tshirt Kon chould have never replaced the importance of ttk to Kon #but also kon being malewife vibes is way better than him flirting crudely all the time #and 90s superboy is funnier but tshirt #kon has this Sad boy swag idk #I’m literally rambling idk what I’m saying ignore me PLEASE #tldr both eras have good n bad but my brain likes to take my fave parts and combine them into my idealized characterization and he lives in #a lil bubble where the reboot never happened and his arc in smallville reached the closure n conclusion it deserved #but he’s a comic book character so he is fated to never having resolved arcs or consistent characterization #alas #someone should let him kiss a boy tho I think he needs something to be awoken in him #okay bye . #ty for the ask sorry for my crazy ramble #clam answers #dc #kon el #kontent #song tag

[unicornofgt]

alright, i have come to the decision i am keeping this blog up as an archive and leaving the gt tumblr community for the foreseeable future.

when i made my post about chamomile-g-tea’s damaging treatment of my story, gtms, my goal was to acknowledge the situation so i could hopefully move forward and restore gtms/my blog as mine again, without her influence. and while i anticipated backlash, some of the responses were just...downright disturbing. lots of comments echoed a victim-blaming sentiment that i am responsible for the emotional and creative damage done to me by another person because ‘why didn’t you just say no or tell her to stop?’ not only does this ignore the several attempts i did make to express discomfort and set boundaries—which were not respected—but even if i didn’t manage to express a ‘no’, that doesn’t make what happened ok; it doesn’t erase the year of crippling pressure and guilt i lived with and still struggle to shake daily. realizing that so many people in this community think otherwise is just...disturbing. it’s disturbing. that’s the only word i can think to use.

the response to all this does not make me feel safe being here—that’s what this situation has unfortunately showed me: that the audience i hoped to allow to view my reclaiming process would also contain the same crowd who make me feel so unsafe—and why the fuck would i let those people see something as personal as that? why would i let them see anything? it’s made me understand i can’t continue to heal myself and my writing if i am posting it for other people, especially harmful people. and even though it turned out this way, i’m glad i gave it a shot; that i made that post as an effort to see if it was even possible or worth it to restore this space—even if the answer was no! absolutely fucking not!—because it saved me from even more time spent sharing my work with people who do not respect me as a person or a creator. i’m glad i tried, however much it sucked, because it allowed me to understand: it is not just one person in this community i feel unsafe with, but a solid percentage of the community at large that i just cannot healthily engage with, and no amount of blocking will fix that.

but of course this is not the only situation that showed me this community’s true colors—the dismissive or outright aggressive response to the calling out of racism in our tropes has also been deeply disturbing. to clarify, there is no problem in identifying with and finding comfort or catharsis in problematic tropes such as the pet trope, but there is a problem with using that comfort to make others feel unsafe and speak over people of color. and the solution to this trope problem is very simple—generally apply critical thinking skills to the media you enjoy, and tag your shit properly (dead dove, particularly when the giant owner/abuser doesn’t face consequences and/or if the abused/abuser fall in ‘love’—dead dove is not actually currently used in this community, that’s the problem). but rather than taking this as an opportunity to listen and improve, it was instead used as a chance to lash out at and make clear that poc are not welcome in this community and come secondary to the feelings of white creators and readers.

over the last few years, this community has fostered and been exposed for bigotry such as terfs, ableists, racists, etc, and especially in the current political era, this is no longer a community i want to share my work with or even just lurk in. and i know on the surface this community seems progressive, but take a better look and you’ll find members of the community doing and saying…questionable things, or keeping quiet and enabling their friends who do and say questionable things because they would rather be passive and polite than be genuinely kind and compassionate through active accountability.

of course this is the risk you take interacting with any person ever—but it’s especially taxing to look around at such a small, close knit community you know is riddled with these problems and wonder if the people making innocent posts are actually harmful; if they prioritize their comfort over the safety of marginalized people, if they even see you as a full person, and for me, personally—if they are willing to overlook consent to blame you for your trauma and defend the person who inflicted it. it’s taxing to explain basic basic concepts to strangers over and over in a place that prides itself on being a safe space, where people just have fun and mentally escape from irl hardships. it’s taxing to ride out shitty, hateful treatment when you are just simply one person (voluntarily providing free services btw) with only so much energy and fucks to give. it is not worth the strain it puts on you as a person, nor is it your responsibility to sit there and accept it, and i am not the only creator in this community who feels this way. we are fucking tired.

quite simply, this is not a community i feel comfortable participating in or sharing anything with. and that’s a shame, because there are wonderful, creative and caring people here who i have enjoyed sharing this space with, and maybe someday i’ll give this community another chance, but currently it’s just not worth the time of day. and i want to make it clear: my leaving is not simply because of just one person or just one situation—that i could handle—it is the community itself that is the root problem; that continues to be harmful, in multiple contexts—that is the reason why i and several other creators are leaving for greener pastures and more enjoyable communities—or just simply for a fucking moment’s worth of peace, because lord knows you won’t find it here.

#i considered making this post just ‘yea i feel unsafe here i’m leaving’ #but i did want to post a clear explanation for mutuals still here n the ppl who come across my blog in the future #instead of leaving it to speculation and guess work #so i wrote a fucking essay lmao #but there are more personal details i didn’t go into bc they’re distressing and some of y’all are straight awful<3 #however i will say you are not inside anyone else’s head if they say they feel unsafe it is not for you to question that #anyways privileges to myself and my writing are officially revoked #when i’m ready to share writing it’ll be with close friends in private #and maybe eventually on another site like ao3 but if that happens it won’t be for a while #and if i do post gtms there it will prolly be v different from the version here bc it’ll be the restored and improved version #i hate the version on this site<3 #for now i just need to get back into the swing of things bc rn it is. so hard to Think at all #i’ll also be doing things on my fandom account i am just leaving this community bc good lord #if you told me a month ago i’d be leaving this community i’d have been devastated but now? #having seen sm of this community’s true colors one after another? #i don’t give a fuck now #the only thing i feel is relief #the community i thought i was apart of does not exist and it made me physically sick to realize and experience that reality #for all its problems i did not think so MUCH of the gt community was this vile #i’ve run this blog for years and closing this chapter just brings me closure and peace #and to those of y’all who are alright n still here: good fucken luck lmfao wish y’all the best dealing w this shitshow #gt community #giant/tiny #gt #g/t #sfw g/t #gtms #gt mech suits

[multeasers]

[ b52 ]  how would they describe themselves in as few words as possible? @/Toji 🤭

🐝  *  ―  𝑪𝑶𝑪𝑲𝑻𝑨𝑰𝑳 𝑸𝑼𝑰𝒁. ( send one or multiple of these to learn a little more about my muse(s). )

He's the type of guy you'd have to press to do it, and if you manage to not annoy the ever living hell out of him in the process, he'd likely describe himself as a man too tired for anything, but still does shit anyway . If you do annoy him, though, he'll likely just give one-word answers : Diligent . Stubborn . Prideful . That sorta thing .

If you managed to get the real answer out of him, though, he'd describe himself as too fucked up . He's a man too fucked up who fucked up too much . He's desperate . He's remorseful . But he's also wholly selfish, and knows that what he wants he'll probably never get because of that, and of course much more . Again, he's a man who fucked up a lot .

If you really enforce limiting his words, though, and were still getting a legitimate answer, he'd just describe himself as sorry .

#mailbox : letter answered #known mailer : scintillate-stars #💔 ( blog lore ) #i'd tag meta but :p #the way i tend to describe him though is a man who very much just wants his kids back in his life #and to have an opportunity for either some closure on it for them or just . a chance to fuckin fix it #it's the one damn thing in his life he wants to fix and it's the one thing in his life that has him describing himself in the ways #i answered above #the other shit he does beyond that is simply habitual and comforting because he'll only do shit he already knows #though now it's just . not at all good always but he can't help that it isn't because all the good shit he had all disappeared #at one point you might've been able to hear him describe himself as changing . #that he was a man striving for change because he found better in life #but now . well . #he's just sorry #can't exactly say that in a few words though and literally none of this answer is a few words but #i have many things to say is all (￣y~￣)╭ #also none of this is at all to describe how he feels about like . everything in his life . like #he doesn't regret or feel sorry about all the shit abt gojou and getou and riko #he's family-oriented in the sense that he wants his family to actually be a damn family . #<- megs and miki i mean . since his wives are dead and there's no way in shit he's talkin' about the zen'in's ever #that's why he'd describe himself as selfish though :p he knows having a family likely isn't a reality for him now #let me stop talking though clearly i can't get prompts saying y'all want a few words AKLSDFMS #i swear i don't intentionally go against it it's just hard for me to stop myself 😭😭

[chiritori]

it would be pretty cool if my brain could be normal for 1 (one) second

#i am so tired of being sad & upset over this but it just won’t stop #like i just want to understand why they’re doing this! what did i do wrong? i thought we were friends! #every time they watch my instagram story while continuing to ignore my text it’s like the wound reopens #like hello? why are u watching my story if ur ignoring me? do they not realize how hurtful that is? #do they not realize how hurtful all of this is? #i really thought they were a good person but if they’re the type to ghost their friends for no good reason clearly i thought wrong #and part of me is like. still in denial about it #like i feel like there has to be a better explanation than ‘i don’t like you and i want you to leave me alone’ #or ‘i don’t give a shit about you and your feelings’ #like there has to be another explanation! there has to be! #i really need to bring this up to my friend who i met them through cause she’s the only one who can maybe provide me w some clarity here #cause the lack of closure is actually driving me mental. it’s like there’s been a raincloud over my head for the past 6 days #vent

[dramarants]

going through the 20th century girl tag to move on and appreciate all the great moments only to find out ppl would rather yijin died than not end up with heedo

#20th century girl #twenty five twenty one #20th century girl spoilers #spoilers #maybe I'm in a weird mood but I can't scroll any more asldkfj #I get why ppl say the movie did it better: pacing + showing aftermath + believable #even though the sadder ending was a surprise they set us up for it and have proper closure to the characters #and while I still have some gripes (what happened to the brother how did woonho diedoes the squad not stay in touch where are they all now) #overall it was solid #but idk if 25 21 pulled a 'he died' I'd be so pissed - it's lazy and thoughtless and not marrying your first love is realistic #their final scenes together were soooo good it's just the reason for parting was unbelievable & present day scenes left us with more qs #but to be like 'yijin and heedo were soulmates and their breakup is unthinkable so... #'instead of growing and moving ahead after all his struggles to establish himself and support his family he should just DIE' #like this 20th c girl ending is so much more heartbreaking imo sldkfjasdlldgfkj #watching him smile at sunrise all hopeful for a future with you he'll never have 22 years later is SO MUCH WORSE #idk I'm glad bora is shown smiling and cherishing what they had rather than mourning (tho she has every right too) but it still doesn't... #...feel like closure to me. but there really is no good parting when it comes to death huh #show me people can treasure their youth and still find happiness and fulfillment in unexpected ways down the line!! #there's a beautiful piece of 90s nostalgia media still waiting in the wings for us I just know it #just don't know how much I can take my heart being ripped to shreds in the meantime 😅 #ranting

[ayakashibackstreet]

You know what, joining that Discord show club was a great idea, like half of my favourite PKC folks are there. And is there anything more wholesome than someone going '1!! hey, I remember that dog!! she's adorable, I'm glad she's doing well!' about a little pixel friend they made for you years ago?

#someone also said they liked one of my older petz that I got from a member of the Polish Petz community back in the day #and we went on to reminiscent about how the community used to be back then #honestly? in a way that talk is the closest thing I'll ever get to closure in regards to what happened with the PKC #and I think that with that I can actually try and move on #even though it's pretty damn tough when a niche site that's been around since you were born just...... falls apart due to technical issues #but I've done it before. SHiR felt like it would never go away too after all #and I was there with PTI practically since the very beginning and until the very end #anyways the Petz community is still so vibrant and cool #it hurts but it'll heal. It somehow hurts way more now that I'm an adult though. #maybe because now the Polish Petz community basically /has/ no home? and I've known some of those people since I was 11? #still.... all good things must come an end and I can accept it. I feel I'm slowly getting closer to that point. #maybe I'll slowly warm up to the concept of using my RKC account ahahaha.... the RKC people were always really nice after all #the Petz community at large won't die anytime soon I don't think. Most of us have been here for at least 10 years after all. #a huge chunk of them for 20+ years #again. some people have been here longer than I've been alive #it's not something that can entirely disappear

[mayonaka-sunshine]

i love that elizabeth signs her messages with "Sincerely yours, forevermore, Elizabeth" its just. so cute

#elizabeth i love u.......... god #the fact that??? she literally LEAVES THE VELVET ROOM AFTER THE EVENTS OF P3 (something we NEVER SEE ANOTHER ATTENDANT DO) #/because/ she cares for minato so much that she WANTS TO FIND A WAY TO SAVE HIM THUS STARTING HER OWN FUCKING FOOLS JOURNEY #that she just. Leaves. and as far as we know is still just kinda. out there. trying to find a way to save him. #like she shows up in arena+arena ultimax and thats where we learn she's off doin her own thing bc she wants to save minmin #also it makes p3d feel so... sad? to me. like. elizabeth is just having a good time :) having fun :) but bc the VelRo exists outside of #normal time and space. i like to imagine its not P3-Era Elizabeth but P5+ Era Elizabeth. so its Elizabeth seeing Minato for a final time #seeing him alive and happy with his friends and knowing that /that/ is what she is trying to save. i think she'd find some sorta closure in #it at least. even though i know she's never gonna give up. i hope we see her again some day. her story has a LOT of potential after all #she's a very unique character. she leaves her post as a VelRo attendant. she is on her own fool's journey. it'd be fun to have a game w/ he #ANYWAY. #vani plays p3re