#is this what believing in your ability to perceive reality feels like?

[katyspersonal]

It is still hard to believe.. yet at the same time, everything makes too much sense.

Ever since I saw how much he seemed to hate me and wish ill on me and be in genuine agreement that I was a danger for society for ableist reasons, I've been doubtful. Maybe I was in the wrong, after all? Maybe I did cause harm with my words, after all? Why else would someone act this way? Because being scared and perceiving me as someone harmful from how I sounded at my worst is still harm. Negative emotions sap the HP, I am aware of that. Not to mention that apparently turned out he mentioned being afraid to interact with people that interacted with ME.

But when I got crashed with the reveal that, in fact, he never saw me as a human being to BEGIN with, but only as a name in "heretics" list, everything fell back into place. I've never been happier to get back to square fucking uno. Mic was right about that type of people being just NPCs all along. He saw something many years before I did, and I was right to chase that white rabbit.

All that vitriol, all that ill will, ditching people that as much as were kind to me felt so personal. I was convinced, CONVINCED that I HAD to have done something bad to him, even if collateraly, to evoke this. And yet, apparently, it is okay in the eyes of those sorry Choirlings to treat people this way mindlessly and spread hateful fear-mongerish propaganda under guise of "awareness" without bothering to learn whether it is justified . People just... can do this shit carelessly and tell you that they do not want to know you as a person, which by effect means they don't want to know whether they were fair to you or not. Internet does something with people. At the very least, I was genuinely concerned that I might have hurt him, and it was a reasonable conclusion from how he reacted. But, no. People just throw words, actions and posts carelessly. They don't care how it effects the person or whether it would change a darn thing about the world to the better or whether the claims are ever true. Of course it "was not personal", because they don't see me as a person. Or even themselves.

"This is what queer people do" no, this is what cultists that are hostile to the "outsiders" do. And the fact that he told these words to another queer person should be even more telling. I can feel Mic laughing in my head, even if we parted the ways for months now on very negative terms. His mistake was simply in deciding to respond to those people in kind. But learning that I was correct in looking at him and thinking "this is what happens with people that "communities" grind and toss away like trash". He was a trans man and yet his own "community" denied him his own identity for failing to follow the rules and imposed ways to look at things or even at his own body and mind. This is why I do not turn to "communities": people within them are so paranoid that they start eating their own. When there is a suspicion that one of them is a bad apple, the bastards start interrogating and honestly dip into extremely private matters without any decency. And not even baring one's entire life and soul guarantees being saved. I was not guilty for understanding such a simple thing, it were my enemies who lacked common sense. And I should have never doubted my perception only because I got concerned about a single Choir boy. But no one can understand how liberating it feels for me, a person with lifelong story of being gaslighted, abused, brainwashed and manipulated to finally be confident about my perception. I am still yet to deal with anger, I have been extremely irritable and disturbed ever since that exchange. I even got into a fight at workplace. I know WHY I am so angry.... I am not mad at anyone, but hyperactive because my mental hardware is being rewritten. Erased, destroyed, and created again, but finally with a crucial change. But it should be the first step to my healing. To my independence. I don't need Mic to see things. I don't need "community" to see things. I don't need Kris, I don't need my abusive stepdad. This is what finally seeing things without anyone's help feels like, and I want to nurture and improve this ability. I've realized, at last, that I am not as stupid and confused about world and people as I always thought. The confidence in my ability to make choices. The knowledge that I have nothing to apologize for (except for being rude and hostile, and it is not damning, everyone reacts differently when scared).

But also this is why I don't want to end up hating the whole world. As long as THIS is the state of identity-based communities, there will be people that get thrown out of them for being "misfits". Identically homeless people keep increasing in numbers, and they should stay this way. Because if we were to make our own community, we'd just start yet another vicious cycle. Because humans are evil, and this evil comes through social organizing. We must walk our own ways and maybe communicate and make small friends groups at best- just like individual Hunters scattered across the game, or covenants too small to be communities. To Hell with the Choir boys, they don't deserve me shedding a single tear over them if they don't even bother to acknowledge me as an individual. DEFINITELY to Hell with Alfred and Logarius (you know who they are if you followed since summer). And also to Hell with that lunatic, even if meeting him was so, so rewarding in the end. No one deserves me humbling up and doubting myself and crying for them. No one, no one, no one....

#personal #/vent #people #I just can't explain this feeling #but I can say that ever since that exchange I am looking at everything a bit differently #I've started to notice things I haven't been noticing #is this what believing in your ability to perceive reality feels like? #that none of this stress anxiety and despair was in vain #it is indeed is never personal. they dont see you as a person. #they dont even see THEMSELVES as people. just as their labels. #I am not here for it no matter where my identity search leads me and this is a promise.

[nayatarot777]

how does your family view you? • pick-a-card

*please remember that this is your family’s perception of you. it might not be how you perceive yourself.

• pile one •

overall, i see a very positive and empowering perception that your family has of you.

first of all, they know that you’re intuitive af. clairvoyant specifically. you can see through situations and people clearly. aspects of things that they themselves perhaps miss. they feel like you can’t be lied to or tricked, so for a lot of you, your family doesn’t worry about you being naive within your friendships, relationships, and life in general. you’re not easily fooled.

there’s something about your anger too. they might see you rebuild yourself after experiencing destruction in your life - especially if someone has betrayed you or fucked you over. it seems as though you use that anger to rebirth yourself into a more “upgraded” version of yourself. you learn lessons quickly and seem to not make the same mistakes again. and thanks to your increase in awareness after these tower moments, these newfound experiences are added to your internal library of knowledge for your intuition to pick up on if similar people or situations are presented to you yet again.

you know your own power, so your family sees you as the person who dares to possess dreams and aspirations for yourself that not many others in your family would have the courage to put trust into achieving. and they know that your rebirths are motivated by what you see for yourself and your life in the future. they feel like you have a very good self esteem - or at least a high level of trust in yourself and your abilities. they feel as though you have a figurative crown on your head. if your parents are very successful people (whether that’s due to their career, building their lives from little to nothing - especially if they’re immigrants and worked hard to build the life that they have) then they believe that you’re someone who will continue on their legacy of success in your own way. i’m hearing that they don’t worry about where you’re gonna end up in life because the trust in yourself puts trust in them that you’ll build a legacy of your own.

they also see you as very head-strong. someone who controls and leads your life in whatever way you want to. you don’t seem to take no for an answer, nor pause your journey in the face of obstacles. there’s a lot of drive that you have when it comes to determining what your world looks like according to your vision. there’s something untameable about you. almost like you don’t listen to anyone. you trust that you know what’s best for you so you’re the ruler of your own kingdom with your clear vision.

despite all of your seemingly extravagant or unconventional dreams, your family believes that you’re extremely grounded in reality. you have a great balance of living within your internal world as well as the physical world. in stressful moments of life, you can balance out your emotions and view things practically. you have a good head on your shoulders and you listen to what comes from your heart space. what you actually feel in all of its authenticity and honesty.

your family also believes that you’re extremely body confident. whether this is because you take care of your body through exercise and eating well, or because you dress however the fuck you want to. the way that you dress could be a style that shows off your body for a lot of you. your family sees your self love and your self worth through this.

significant numbers: 12, 13, 28, 24, 15, 21

astrological placements/aspects: pisces/neptune, scorpio/pluto, aries/mars, taurus/venus

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• pile two •

your family views you as someone who has already undergone or who is undergoing some type of powerful personal growth within yourself. this could be related to listening to yourself and your own intuition. your family may feel like you feel as though you can’t trust them, despite trying to for so long. but for some of you, they can tell that you’ve finally decided to listen to yourself and see them for who they truly are. they can see sadness in your eyes or in your face whenever they look at you. there’s a feeling of betrayal here - from them towards you - that they recognise.

they view you as someone who feels detached from them. they could try to show you love but they can tell that you feel uncomfortable whenever they do. they’d describe the familial “love” between you and them as strange or unfamiliar to you. this “love” could’ve come after they realised that you were growing more distant from them as a last attempt at keeping you close to them. but again, they know that you know the truth about them and so the feeling of awkwardness during these attempts at trying to show affection towards you is mutually felt. they feel like you don’t want their love. like you’d rather just be left alone by them. these family members may be very energetically draining and this is how you protect your energy from them. and there’s also a feeling of this love being forced. not genuine. it’s fake or forced out of them for a lot of you and you can see that.

they might also be aware of some body image issues that you have. or this might just be their perception of you - especially if you have any body modifications like tattoos and piercings that they don’t approve of. they view this as “mutilation” of your body. i’m also seeing them view you as someone who’s very protective over your body with the clothing that you wear. based on the way that you completely cover up or your oversized clothing. so if you do have any body image issues, they might’ve picked up on them based on that observation. at least you dress like this around them. you might be uncomfortable wearing certain things around your family because they always have some comments to make about your body. but i am sensing some shame about your body for some of you. i’m seeing that for a lot of you, your family feels like you don’t treat your body like a temple. if these are the same people who’d make negative, nitpicking comments about your body then idk wtf they expect. that might’ve been their goal tbh (for those of you with malignant ass, jealous ass family members who want you to feel like shit about the way that you look).

for others of you, it’s the opposite and your family feels like you dress “too revealingly” in public or maybe online in your social media posts. for a minority of you, your family knows about your online sex work (or this is an assumption that they’ve made about you). but for some of you, there’s something about your family feeling like you’re too naked in the public eye. this could also be metaphorical, meaning that your family may feel like you’re well-known by people but i don’t get a good energy from this (from their perspective anyway). they may feel like you’re known for something that’s not a positive thing to be known for. or like you’re just vulnerable in the public eye.

they view you as someone who takes the time to take steps forward in your life. and they may feel like you’re waiting on divine timing to make moves in your life. but some of your family members view this as you just being lost and “behind” in life in some way. like your head is just up in the clouds and like you don’t really know where you’re headed in life. they don’t understand moving forward when you feel like you should be moving.

they know that you have a lot of childhood trauma to unpack. and they feel like your heart is blocked or locked because of it. for some of you, your family would like to figure out how to unlock it but i feel like they feel as though there’s not much that they can do. you may have been a very angry child, and i feel like you’re not necessarily an angry person now but your family can tell that you’re suppressing a lot. and that in order to unlock your heart (your feelings), you’re going to have to let out a lot of anger and resentment first.

significant numbers: 41, 27, 2, 18, 24, 35

astrological placements/aspects: chiron, venus in scorpio/8th house, venus conjunct chiron (particularly in the 4th house/conjunct the ic), taurus, lilith in taurus/2nd house, aquarius/uranus, lilith in 11th house/aquarius, pisces/neptune, mercury in pisces, chiron in 4th house, chiron in 5th house, aries/mars in 5th house, sun in aries, pluto in 1st house, scorpio rising, chiron in aries, chiron aspect mars (mainly conjunct)

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• pile three •

your family view you as someone who prefers to be alone. even if you know that there are people around you who love and care for you, you still prefer to be by yourself. and some of them can tell that it’s because you only feel comfortable enough to be vulnerable with yourself.

they also might view you as quite messy too, whether this is your bedroom or your home in general. but there’s a lack of energy that they witness you having that’s the root cause of this.

despite all of this, they view you as someone who’s very accepting of your solitude that you use for the sake of finding peace. you could be very meditative or very peaceful by yourself within your own energy. and they feel as though, whenever they bother you in your alone time, you become very defensive and repel them. some of you may struggle with depression, but it’s not depression that you want help with. not from them at least.

this energy is vastly different to how they viewed you before. maybe compared to when you were a child. because there was some type of sudden shift in your energy towards them that resulted in you being very isolated and repellent towards them.

they either feel like they don’t know you after this shift or they feel like you don’t really know yourself. someone in your family in particular feels like you’re forgetting who you are who where you came from. maybe even who you came from. they feel like you wear a mask around them. as if there’s always a detachment between you and them. kind of similar to pile two.

i’m getting a lot of “black sheep” energy from you guys. like your family just doesn’t understand you but they know that you’re not really interested in being involved with family gatherings or interactions. if you believe that they do know that you know who you are very well, they view you as someone who hides who you truly are from them. and if you’ve always been singled out or you’ve just always felt different to everyone around you then it makes sense.

they view you as someone who’s at peace with yourself though. just not at peace when being around them. this could make them deeply sad and upset as there’s an energy of them not being able to quite pinpoint why this is the way it is. unlike in pile two. pile two’s family we’re outwardly toxic. but for you guys, i feel like your family just don’t understand you. maybe they never really tried to make an effort to. but whatever the culprit of the reasons behind your familial connections, there are a lot of unknown things that your family feels like they don’t know or understand about you.

significant numbers: 17, 9, 17, 6, 22, 10 - look up the angel number 1717 for an extra message

astrological placements/aspects: pisces, leo, pluto in 5th house, (heavy) scorpio, lilith in 4th house, pluto in 4th house, strong sun-pluto aspects, connection between cancer + scorpio/pluto placements

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[eamour]

daydreaming and imagining

when it comes to manifesting, people like to either daydream or imagine their desires which does sound like pretty much the same. nevertheless — it's not. daydreaming does not equal imagining, vice versa.

daydreaming

meaning · thinking of your desire

to daydream replaces the term "thinking of your desire". when you are daydreaming, you occupy a state of mind where you view yourself as well as your desire separated from each other. you could also say that you only pass through your desired state without truly embodying it and end up going back to your old dwelling state (wavering). you don't claim to have your desire, nor do you declare yourself to be in possession of it. you feel distant to it, almost as if it's impossible, unrealistic or illogical to achieve. you are desiring, aware of wanting your desire, craving and longing for the feeling, making you experience the lack of it. you feel uneasy about how your current reality looks like as you are waiting for some sort of movement or shift. you are dissatisfied about the present moment and view your manifestation as a target you need to aim for, perceiving it as a goal to attain. internally, you know that your desire hasn't been realised yet and wonder how it could possibly materialise. you analyse and examine your outer world a lot, judging it by its looks. you often ask yourself if your desires are ever gonna unfold. thus, you rely on the evidence of your senses, using the 3D as a tool to validate you. by waiting for its confirmation that you ask for so desperately, you automatically assign meaning and also power to the outer world. you let the physical world determine and dictate your mental world. by doing so, you give away control, but still continue to feel responsible and guilty. you repeatedly spiral, wondering what you could be doing wrong, not having full faith or trust in yourself. you don't quite believe in yourself and tend to give in. you endure the 3D as best as you can but often times, you consider your desire to be out of reach. you dream of the mere possibility and depend on the next moment you feel a motivational boost. frequently, you start to doubt, feeling uncertain and unsure about your ability to manifest. you find yourself feeling incapable and scare away from seemingly "big" wishes and wants. you feel needy, irritated and confused. you fight feeling resistant or pressured towards how you want your life to be like. you are afraid that you might never manifest your desired life.

imagining

meaning · thinking from your desire

to imagine can be used as a synonym for "thinking from your desire". as the term says, when you imagine your desires, you think from the point of view where you have them already. you experience them and live life from having whatever it is that you desire. you occupy the state of your wish being fulfilled, knowing and accepting that what you want already exists within you. you understand that nothing can exist outside of you and that life happens from you, so you trust yourself, believe in your capabilities and have faith in the law. you feel calm, confident and content as you are fulfilling your inner self, leaving the outer world as it is. you don't feel the need or the urge to change or control the 3D. there is simply no need for you to stress, worry or struggle. you understand that everything is yours, creation is finished and it all exists already. all you do is step into the state of having and being, living in the end where you got it all. you are one with your desire, you are connected to it as well as all the other contents of your reality. your desire has now become a part of you and you are free to chill, relax and to surrender. you have full trust that your desire will and has to unfold exactly how you want it and don't disturb your inner peace by overanalysing or unnecessary questioning. you don't need to rely on external proof, making your state of being depend on the outer world. you are the owner of your desire, the owner of your reality and stay unbothered by any physical circumstance. you are unaffected by anything that isn't favourable for you and refuse to be led on or negatively influenced. you remain living in your imagination, declaring it to be your one and only reality. whenever you desire something, you know that you don't go outside of yourself, searching for what is already within you. anything you could possibly seek, exists in your mind.

with love, ella.

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[libraincarnate]

astrology notes: 9 🐰𖤣𖥧.𖡼.⚘

quick note: i'm absolutely not an astrologer. these are just a collection of some observations, thoughts, theories, and personal experiences. above all this is just for fun. lastly, these may or may not apply to you but you might find something to be true about your friends, family, or lover. enjoy!

𓍊𓋼𓍊 i feel like aries & sag mars are the types to do extreme sports like skateboarding, surfing, mountain climbing, snowboarding, bungee jumping, bmx, etc.

𓋼𓍊 moon conjunct/trine/sextile neptune: those with these aspects may be good actors or have some of the qualities & abilities needed for good acting. i feel like they know how to fake cry. they could purposely & easily evoke a memory or experience that triggers an emotional response. there’s this ability to manipulate their feelings but also the feelings of others. the ability to couple their emotional intelligence & creativity and combine them with reality & illusion. they make it believable. with that being said they can also be good liars too. and remember neptune is associated with tv/film.

^ moon-mercury aspects is another aspect that i feel is beneficial for acting because actors also needs to convey emotion with their words & it needs to sound convincing. it should make sense and be in accord with their facial and physical expressions, it needs to fit the script. especially for voice acting.

𓍊𓋼𓍊 geminis & virgos: do yourself a favor and tidy up the notes in your notes app. it’ll declutter your mind, phone, and to-do list lol. plus it may be fun for the virgos who like to organize. perhaps gemini too. i wouldn’t say gems like to organize and arrange things like virgo but it may be mentally stimulating for them kind of like a puzzle, figuring where to put what.

𓋼𓍊 sag, capricorn, aries, scorpio, and aquarius are some of the most straightforward and direct individuals. they’re honest and if they hold back their words then it’s for your sake. may have an “it’s not how you say it but it’s what you say that matters” mindset. they may be perceived as harsh or as assholes because of how candid they can be. plus they’re super sarcastic (except aries, in my opinion).

𓍊𓋼𓍊 your big 3 making harsh aspects to each other: hard to be yourself or accept yourself for who you are. doesn’t mean you don’t like yourself or your personality but beneath it all there may be a part of you that finds it difficult to feel comfortable with the real you as a whole.

this doesn’t need to be discouraging. having difficult placements, aspects, etc. doesn’t equal inaction on your part. you still have control over yourself & you can make changes, improvements. sort out your strengths/weaknesses according to your big 3 & try finding a balance between them, figuring out ways to make them work together. take the difficulties/challenges & turn then into a greater sense of confidence and personal power.

𓋼𓍊 taurus/libra absolutely hate being rushed but libras are also big on manners so they respect punctuality.

𓍊𓋼𓍊 moon in the 10th house: may be in a position where you explain/express your feelings to the public. whether it be as an artist or maybe you have a large following on social media, you connect to your followers on an emotional level, or you’re just open with your emotions & speak about it publicly. of course some moon signs are more reserved but if you have a gemini moon or moon at 3°, 15°, or 27° you might end up saying more than you’d like.

𓋼𓍊 venus-jupiter aspects: these natives probably gamble or make bets often. playing the lottery, watching/playing poker, betting on sports, going to the casino, etc. both venus & jupiter are associated with wealth, jupiter with favorable opportunities & expansion, and venus (more so taurus) is associated with monetary possessions.

𓍊𓋼𓍊 7th house ruler in the 12th house: your lover, future spouse, enemies, or people you should/shouldn’t connect with may be revealed to you in your dreams.

𓋼𓍊 if sun-moon aspects can reveal things about your parents’ relationship (like sun square moon may indicate divorce, incompatibility, etc.), mercury-venus/mars aspects may reveal things about your relationship with your siblings.

mercury (hermes & ruler of the 3rd house) is associated with siblings.

venus (aphrodite) represents females and feminine relationships, or the sister in this case.

mars (ares) represents males and masculine relationships, or the brother in this case.

no or few aspects between mercury-venus/mars may behave like an empty third house meaning there isn’t really much of a relationship or not a strong one. it may not be a prominent relationship in your life. you guys may be cool with each other and have each other's backs but there isn’t that close sibling bond. of course if you have 3rd house placements but no or few mercury-venus/mars aspects, or vice versa, results vary & there may be a relationship.

harmonious aspects = possibly/likely a harmonious relationship with your sibling(s).

disharmonious aspects = possibly/likely a disharmonious relationship with your sibling(s).

a conjunction may go either way.

𓍊𓋼𓍊 12th house placements may belittle their suffering and traumatic experiences. they may be detached from those experiences even though they have clearly affected them and their lives. plus, with the 12th house being mysterious there is a lack of understanding. there’s a lack of structure. things feel amorphous & difficult to grasp so it’s pushed aside to the subconscious. for these reasons it may be difficult for them to thoroughly heal from those experiences. but the healing is definitely possible & i wish that for all of you. here's an extra heart for you guys ♥︎.

𓋼𓍊 retrograde planets in your birth chart: the house in which those retrograde planets fall may show you the things or areas of life you struggle with accepting. you might not want to do things that are related to the themes of that house, they may make you uncomfortable. there’s friction, a bit of fear, reluctance, or insecurity.

for example,

saturn retrograde in the 5th house - difficulty accepting pleasure and failure, extra pressure to be productive instead of having fun, uncomfortable with expressing yourself, maybe you don’t get a long with children well and don’t want any of your own.

neptune retrograde in the 1st house - a lack of self-awareness, confusion about who you are, difficulty accepting the way you look, uncomfortable with introspection. fear of the new, shying away from leadership positions or taking initiative.

pluto retrograde in the 12th house - a fear of the unknown or the dark, difficulty accepting your dark side, your past & obsessing over it, discomfort in solitude, resisting & battling restriction.

mercury retrograde in the 10th house - fear of public speaking/stage fright, confusion regarding your career, difficulty executing your plans, discomfort with accepting fame or popularity, insecure with making long-term goals, constantly making changes, shunning responsibility.

mars retrograde in the 7th house - difficulty establishing relationships, fear of commitment, shying away from marriage, a lack of confidence when connecting to others, discomfort with being vulnerable.

𓍊𓋼𓍊 your moon persona chart can give you a deeper understanding of how you navigate your emotions & how you handle emotions in general, not just yours. also, you may relate to the placement of chiron in your moon persona chart more than its placement in your natal chart. it can reveal another layer of some of your deepest emotional wounds. you might look at this chart and think "oh, that makes sense."

𓋼𓍊 jupiter retrograde in the 8th house (synastry): 8th house person may find the jupiter person untrustworthy. stolen opportunity, theft in general, ruining credit, negatively affecting finances. jupiter person may be a source of pain & suffering to the 8th house person.

𓍊𓋼𓍊 exposing my fellow air signs here: when it comes to air signs geminis have been called liars/2 faced, libras have been called a gossip/people pleaser, aquarius have been said to have a god complex.

but when is someone gunna talk about how aquarius also can play victim and they always have an excuse??? if gems are good at lying on the spot, aquarius is good at making excuses. lol if scorpios (not an air sign, i know) would rather die than say sorry, aquarius would rather die than accept blame. surely if there’s a god complex then one of the greatest offenses to an aquarius is being accused of some wrong doing, pointing out their flaws. after all, how can a god commit error or be flawed?

libras can lowkey be all bark and no bite. they can talk about you behind your back but they also tend to avoid confrontation.

& because geminis are so curious they can be so damn nosy it’s unbelievable lmfao

𓋼𓍊 leo has great leadership qualities and they know how to use those qualities to guide themselves. they have a good sense of direction, they attract opportunity like a magnet but they also know how to create it too. they let no opportunity go to waste and they know how to maximize the opportunities that are available to them.

𓍊𓋼𓍊 i've seen some astro observations say that virgos tend to really like cats. but how many of you virgos have some kind of bird as one of your favorite animals? it's a pattern i've been starting to notice an i'd like further confirmation. 

if you read this until the end i hope you enjoyed it & thank you so much for reading. ♥︎♥︎♥︎, those hearts are for you.

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[elysiansparadise]

hii i adoreee your writing style. you’re truly one of my favourite astrologers 🥹 i was wondering about your interpretation on sun in 10h? i hope you have a lovely day 🥹💗

Hello love, thank you so much for your words. 💗

Sun in the 10th house

These natives radiate a lot of light, energy and power, they tend to be the focus of attention in many situations even if they do not look for it, they also tend to be greatly admired either for some talent, a quality of their physique or for their personality. Many people tend to think that they are somewhat unapproachable or perceive them as somewhat distant/focused on their own issues, but the reality is that they can be very kind. They are very hard-working, ambitious people and they try to make it clear that they are sure of their value as a person, their abilities and potential. What people sometimes don't see is that these natives also tend to doubt these aspects of themselves, but they try not to show it to other people. They can enjoy a good reputation and can even gain a lot of prestige through their career, they are usually well regarded by people. If Pluto or Neptune make tense aspects to the Sun, the native is likely to attract people who become obsessed with them or who envy them. They tend to be very dedicated to meeting their goals and can set high standards for themselves, they can put a lot of pressure on themselves to do something productive, not waste time or do things well. They are very upright and honest people who like to do the right thing and can be a role model for many people, since it is easy for them to inspire and motivate others. There is a sunshine quality in them, which makes them brighten or improve the vibes.

This placement favors the popularity and good reception of people, especially bosses, people with more experience or older people, who will see a lot of potential in the native and will motivate them. They tend to be people with a lot of charisma and a unique sense of humor, they can please others easily. Some of them may come across as sassy, ​​very dominant and self-centered [especially if it’s aspecting Mars] but they are people whose hearts overflow with generosity and thoughtfulness. These people have the ability to give the impression they intend to give, they show themselves authentically but still reserving some things for themselves. There are many people who may believe they know the native perfectly, but the reality is that they only scratch the surface. They are very independent people since they are young, because life has taught them to take care of themselves, and many of them, although independent and fierce when it comes to facing the turbulence of life, when they love a lot they can bring out this protective side and warmth. Deep down they have the desire to be supported and protected.

These natives opt for long-term plans, relationships or projects, and they hate ephemeral things that waste their time, as it is something they deeply value. Despite their disciplined and responsible nature, they like to make their work or tasks fun. Some of them were able to grow up with the idea that only by achieving things or doing something can they feel that they are worth it, but one of their lessons in this life is to become aware that by the mere fact of existing they deserve to be loved and respected. The relationship with the father can be complex, because being in this house tells us of two extremes, or a supportive father who, although not very expressive, was attentive to them, we also have a possible father who is emotionally and/or physically absent or who focused a lot in his work and responsibilities. These natives are very trustworthy people who like to be there for those they love in times of crisis, they support unconditionally, they do not easily give up and they do not hesitate once they make a decision.

#sun #astrology #sun in the 10th house #sun in the 10th #10th house #natal chart #birth chart #astro observation #astro note #sun in the 10h #sun in 10h #sun in astrology

[multiversegod]

Self Concept: The Ultimate Foundation to Everything

If you want an easy life, reality shifting, and manifestation journey I definitely recommend everyone to work on your self concept. While it is true that it isn't necessary to have a good self concept in order to manifest, dedicating time and energy on your self concept definitely guarantees you an easier time with everything surrounding your life. Self concept isn't only about feeling like a bad bitch, although it is a part of it, it dictates every single aspect of your life. Everything and everyone is you pushed out, which means that everything stems from yourself. As Neville Goddard once said: "Change your conception of yourself and you will automatically change the world in which you live. Do not try to change people; they are only messengers telling you who you are. Revalue yourself and they will confirm the change."

Having a good self concept is about knowing that you are the creator of your reality, and having absolute confidence within your manifestation and reality shifting abilities. Everything and everyone else is simply a reaction on how you perceive yourself, as either the creator of your reality, or the victim of your reality. You are the operant power of your reality, the sooner you understand this the easier your life, manifestation, and reality shifting journey it will be. When you have a good self concept, you also have full faith and trust that imagination/consciousness/the 4D (aka the mind) is what creates your reality, and is the only real reality. The 3D is an illusion that simply reflects your 4D reality. You stop seeking confirmation from outer sources of the 3D and questioning where your desires are. You'd simply return to your inner world of your imagination for confirmation that you already have your desires/are at your DR. You know that creation is finished, it is done, there's nothing else you need to do as you already have your desire/are at your DR right now. Time isn't real, everything and anything you can think of already exists in your 4D/imagination/consciousness. All you need to do is give it to yourself in your imagination. Manifestation and reality shifting is always instant, you already have your desire/are at your DR the moment you want it. Another thing that happens when you have a good self concept, is you stop putting other people and methods (including the void state) on a pedestal, you put yourself on the pedestal. After all, if you knew you were the creator of your reality, why would you question what method to use to manifest or reality shift? In regards to the void state, it is simply another method within you, it's not an outer source that you need to reach or achieve. You are the creator who ultimately gives the void state the power, not the other way around. With a good self concept, you would understand this and not put importance on the void state and focus on fulfilling yourself in your imagination, the only real reality within you where you already have your desires/are at your DR right now. You would also never take no for an answer, and be brazenly impudent that you have your desires/are at your DR right now, no matter what the 3D shows you.

In my opinion, states and self concept go hand in hand. When you have a good self concept, you instantly shift to the state of the wish fulfilled effortlessly and stay there. The state of the wish fulfilled is where you know you have your desires/are at your DR so there's nothing else you need to do to achieve it. Sounds familiar with having a good self concept?

In order to cultivate a good self concept, there are different things you can do. You can create your own subliminal with affirmations focused on having a good self concept, such as being the creator of your reality, a master manifestor/master reality shifter, knowing/believing/having faith in your manifestation/shifting abilities as the creator of your reality, etc. @mysticbewitched has a good post on how to create your own subliminal. You can also affirm to yourself that you are the creator/God/operant power of your reality and have a perfect self concept. You can also visualise yourself having a good self concept however that would look like to you. You can also simply decide and feel (accept) that you have a perfect self concept, and are the creator of your reality. Simply bask in the acceptance that you are the creator of your reality. It doesn't need to be for minutes it can just be a few seconds of the quiet inner knowing that you are the creator of your reality. How do you feel afterwards? Relieved? Happy? Content? Nothing? All of these feelings are natural. You can use SATS or the lullaby method for a perfect self concept too. Then, persist no matter what. Persist on listening to your subliminal, affirming, visualising, or simply feeling as much as you want to. It's okay and normal to struggle with belief, but this is why persistence is so important. Persistence no matter what guarantees your success and starts to build the faith, acceptance, and knowing within yourself that you are the creator of your reality and confidence within your manifestation/reality shifting abilities.

#self concept #neville goddard #law of assumption #loassumption #manifestation #manifesting #reality shifting #shifting #shiftblr

[celestetarot]

What about you scares other people

Hey! Welcome to this pick a card, remember to take what resonates and leave what doesn't as this reading is for several people.

Pile 1 - Seven of Wands

You have a fierce and competitive spirit that may intimidate others. You are not one to back down from a challenge or shy away from confrontation, which can make people feel uneasy around you. Your determination and refusal to compromise on your values can come across as stubbornness to some, making them feel like they cannot reason with you. Furthermore, you may be seen as a threat to others who feel like you are encroaching on their territory. Your ambitions and willingness to take risks can be perceived as a challenge to others who are comfortable with the status quo. They may feel like you are trying to take their place or disrupt the balance, which can make them feel threatened and defensive. Overall, you are someone who is not afraid to assert yourself and fight for what you believe in, but this can also come at a cost of making others feel uneasy or challenged.

Pile 2 - Six of Cups

Others may find you naive or overly sentimental, which can make them question your judgment or ability to handle challenging situations. You may have a tendency to look back to the past or romanticize it, which can make it difficult for others to relate to you on a practical level. Some may see you as being too idealistic or out of touch with reality, which can be a source of discomfort or unease. Additionally, you may be perceived as emotionally needy or clingy by others. You may have a strong desire for emotional connections and a fear of being alone, which can come across as being too dependent on others. This can be intimidating or uncomfortable for some people, who may feel like they are being suffocated by your need for attention and affection. While your desire for emotional intimacy is understandable, it's important to be aware of how it may be perceived by others and find a healthy balance that respects their boundaries.

Pile 3 - King of Wands

Others may find you intimidating or overwhelming due to your strong leadership qualities and assertive nature. You have a natural ability to inspire and motivate others, but this can also come across as being domineering or controlling. Your confidence and passion for your goals may make others feel like they are not up to your standards or that they cannot keep up with your pace. Furthermore, you may be perceived as reckless or impulsive by others. Your tendency to take risks and act on your instincts without much consideration for consequences can be unsettling for some, who may feel like you are not being responsible or taking their concerns into account.

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[astrojulia]

PAC - Becoming your Best Self

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How to pick a pile

When you have different cards to choose from in pile 1,2,3… look at each of those cards. Wait until someone reminds you of a memory. Perhaps a character’s outfit resembles one of your own. It is this pile that has its message. What if they all remind me of something? Go for the one with the strongest memory, one might look like her earring but another might be the favorite candy you got from your grandma when you vacationed at her house. But what if none reminds me of something? Take a deep breath and wait a little longer, without charging yourself or creating worries. Relax, some will awaken some memory in you, I promise! .

Pile 1 - Key

(The Rain - The Sleep - The Illusion - The Glow - The Power)

Your best version is productive and expansive, capable of helping others reach their own best versions. When you're in a good state, you're a fun and playful person who enjoys going out and having a good laugh.

Today, in order to become your best version, what you need to do is rest, rest, and sleep. Honestly, there's no big secret. You need to press the pause button, let the movie stop for a while, grab a snack, and then resume watching the movie... but this movie represents a task you have at hand. I understand it's something that worries and saddens you, but it won't get better if you continue in that state.

You need to reconnect with the things that are important to you but that you've lost touch with. Visualize what you want and don't simply believe that it will happen one day if fate allows. Often, fate doesn't care about us, and we have to make things happen. To take care of yourself and become your best version today, think like your best version (yes, it may sound like a cliché from a coach, but it holds true here).

You must leave behind the small past triumphs because, as I mentioned, they are just small. They don't represent the best you've had, and better times are ahead, or perhaps, good times are already happening but you're not fully experiencing them—they merely remain as memories. Don't believe that you won't be able to laugh and have fun like you used to in the old days.

To regain your authenticity and true self, you will need courage and strength. The power to achieve this lies within you, but you're afraid of being judged for your childlike preferences. Remember, your best version is personal to you—it might be perceived as irresponsible and childish by others, but that doesn't matter. Don't be afraid to reveal yourself as someone who is delicate, fun-loving, and even clownish. The reality is this: people will judge you regardless of what you do.

Pile 2 - Violin

(The Light - The Flower - The Loop - The Song - The Fly)

Your best version is grandiose and radiates brilliance. You're a natural leader who possesses the ability to communicate and touch people's hearts. You understand that everyone has an inner radiance that simply needs to be recognized. The best version of you believes in the inherent goodness of the world and its people, recognizing that they are often just confused. You are a person filled with hope for humanity.

To become your best version today, it is important to relax more and engage in your hobbies, especially dancing. Currently, you are under significant stress, feeling chained and in need of liberation. These chains are both mental and physical. I'm not naive enough to claim that everything is someone else's fault, as the environment we live in plays a role. However, you can alleviate some of the mental and emotional burdens by incorporating more fun into your life.

To care for yourself in your present state, establishing a routine is essential. Create a plan and commit to following it. Write down day by day how your routine will unfold, what activities you will engage in. At the end of each day, reflect on how it went and strive to adhere to this plan for at least three months, ideally until the end of the year.

You must let go of your envy towards others and your inclination to emulate their paths in an attempt to achieve the same results. You are a unique being, and as we have witnessed in your best version, you are a star that illuminates everyone around you. Trust me, your radiance is exceptional, so cease attempting to shine like others.

To embody your most authentic self, take risks, soar higher, be versatile, and show up. Do not fear the judgment of others or tread the path of others out of fear of failure. You possess wings and know how to fly. Present yourself to the world as you truly are—an enlightened, artistic individual with a compassionate heart.

Pile 3 - Lock

(The Time - The Dark - The Snow - The Little - The Shield)

Your best self is wise, recognizing that everything has its own timing and that time is a universal law. Healing takes time, and although it varies for each individual, it eventually passes for everyone. You are a reserved and self-assured person, understanding that you are different from others, and that's why you seek different experiences to feel complete and happy.

In order for this to happen, it's important to maintain a level of reserve. Recognize that we all have our secrets and difficulties, and therefore, you should refrain from judging others. Face your own challenges independently, without relying on others. The value you possess should come from within, rather than being dependent on external validation. Your path is not that of a hero, but rather that of a heroine.

Take some time to cool off. If you are from the northern hemisphere, you may already be encountering snow, so embrace it and have fun with it. Embrace the part of you that may be colder, more distant, and perhaps even icy. You don't always have to wear a smile on your face. Embrace your serene and calm nature. Don't be swayed when others suggest that you need to open up more. To be honest, you don't need to—being yourself is already enough.

You must let go of the impression that you are insignificant and easily trampled upon if you are not one hundred percent kind to everyone. Remember, your personality is your own, and your life belongs to you. People will talk about you, whether it's good or bad, regardless of what you do. Strive to be polite and respectful toward others, but don't diminish your worth for anyone.

To embrace your most authentic self, take a moment to pause and reflect on who you truly are. Embrace your boundaries, protect yourself, and nurture yourself. You often extend kindness, time, affection, and empathy to others, while neglecting your own needs. Stop being overly critical of yourself, thinking that you need to do more or be better. It's okay to strive for growth, but remember that self-improvement should stem from self-love, not from fear of your own reflection.

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[blakeswritingimagines]

Dating Yandere Harwin Strong Would Include:

He is often someone's first and only love. He takes the love for his beloved very seriously and does everything in his power to ensure your happiness and safety. This can cause him to be overprotective, possessive, and potentially even obsessive. He's always looking out for you and may not hesitate to eliminate anyone or anything that interferes with your relationship. However, he does have a softer side and is capable of expressing love in a less extreme way once he's sure that you are truly his.

He would become more and more slowly obsessed with you as more time passes, willing to go to drastic measures to maintain control over you and ensure that you do in fact love him and no one else. This could involve everything from acting out in jealousy towards any other potential suitors or loved ones, to outright stalking and manipulating you, to maintain a relationship with you. He would be completely devoted to you and your happiness, to the point of being possessive and controlling.

He often has a unique ability to make you feel a mixture of fear and fascination. He's aware of the impact that his actions have and enjoys the feeling of power it gives him. He may even use his power over you to manipulate you into doing what he wants. However, despite being very dedicated to his beloved, his feelings for you are still genuine and it's important to him that you are happy.

He may also be prone to stalking, and even violence. He may go to extreme lengths to prove his love, including acts of terrorism, assault, and even murder. He can't stand to see you looking at or talking to anyone else. He also has a tendency to be overly controlling, dictating what you do, where you go, and even who you spend time with. He can't help himself and must have you all to himself.

As a knight with a yandere-like personality, his job and relationships often overlap. He may find himself taking extreme measures to protect you from any perceived threat, even if that threat only exists in his own mind. This can put him in direct conflict with those that may have authority over him, and can even lead to him breaking the laws of the land that he swore to uphold.

There is a good chance that Rhaenyra would get jealous over Harwin's relationship with you, her jealousy would come from the fear that she would lose him to another person, and the anxiety of not being the focus of his attention. She might try to undermine you in subtle or not-so-subtle ways, or even go out of her way to try to keep you both apart.

Yandere Strong would be incredibly loyal to you, and would go to any lengths to protect you and make you happy. His protectiveness and devotion could be seen as endearing, but it could also become toxic and obsessive. If he feels that his love is threatened, he could become violent and destructive. If he feels that his love is being neglected, he could become manipulative and controlling. Overall, Yandere Strong would be a complicated character, with his loyal and loving side at odds with his jealous and psychotic side.

Harwin would likely be very volatile and unpredictable, with his emotions easily sending him into fits of jealousy and rage. He might be easily triggered by seemingly trivial things, like a text from his significant other's ex, or seeing you spending time with someone else. This volatility could cause him to lash out, either at you or those around him, with potentially serious consequences.

He would likely have a distorted view of reality, seeing you as being just his and him alone. He might even go so far as to believe that your love is the only real love, and anyone else who tries to court you is merely an obstacle to be eliminated. This level of obsession could lead to dangerous, even fatal, results, both for those close to him, and himself, if he is not careful.

He might also be very insecure and anxious, always worried that you will leave him or choose someone else. This constant fear and anxiety could cause him to be controlling and manipulative, trying to keep his love as close and dependent on him as possible. If his fear and anxiety are unchecked, they could lead him to violent and obsessive behavior, ultimately destroying his own relationship with you.

Harwin might have difficulty expressing his feelings in a healthy way. Instead, he might resort to extreme and excessive displays of emotion, like rage or jealousy, in an effort to get your attention and affection. He might also have difficulty handling his feelings of anxiety and insecurity, leading him to over-analyse and overthink the smallest things. This could lead him to act out and create conflict in his relationship, as he lashes out and tries to control the situation.

His love would be intense and obsessive. He would go to great lengths to ensure that his love was safe, his feelings reciprocated, and his rival(s) eliminated. He would shower you with affection, gifts, and attention, but be extremely possessive and jealous, and would react sharply (possibly violently) to any who threatened to get in the way of his affection.

His primary tool in showing he cares as a Yandere is constant attention. He would want his love to feel like you are the center of his world, and he is constantly doing everything he can to make you happy. This is where possessiveness really comes into play, as he would not like you to associate with anyone else, and will make sure you know it.

He lives and breathes for his darling. You are his only focus in life and everything he does is for you. He wants his darling to be happy and safe, but he also wants you to be his. He may go to great lengths to keep you safe, even going as far as killing or harming anyone that is perceived as a threat to them. However, despite the danger and crazy obsessive nature of a yandere, deep down all they want is for their darling to be happy and loved.

If the person who he is attracted to is highborn and influential, then his obsession will only increase. It could be seen as a challenge to his authority over his darling and he might have to do something drastic to ensure that the situation is resolved in his favor.

Some of his favorite kinks include role playing, voyeurism, dominance and submission, spanking, bondage and edging.

He also has a particular kink for teasing his partner, often playing a teasing game called "cat and mouse" where he keeps you begging and wanting more.

He also enjoys include dirty talk, light choking, outdoor sex, blindfolds, restraints and orgasm denial.

He is also a big fan of toys, and he finds it exciting to explore various types and styles of toys with you, even going as far as to let you use them on him.

Light bondage, breathplay and humiliation, and he also enjoys experimenting with other fetishes and kinks, like light pain and sensation play done to both him and you.

#harwin breakbones #sir harwin #ser harwin x reader #harwin strong #house of the dragon #tw yandere #yandere #yandere harwin strong

[commsroom]

to me, the question of whether hera would want a body is first and foremost a question of autonomy and ability. she has an internal self-image, i think it's meaningful that the most pivotal moments in her character arc take place in spaces where she can be perceived the way she perceives herself and interact with others in a (relatively) equal and physical capacity, and that's worth considering. but i don't think it's about how she looks, or even who she is - and i think she's the same person either way; she's equally human without a body, and having a body wouldn't make her lived experience as an AI magically disappear - so much as it's about how she would want to live.

like most things with hera, i'm looking at this through a dual lens of disability and transness, both perspectives from which the body - and particularly disconnect from the body - is a concern. the body as the mechanism by which she's able to interact with the world; understanding her physical isolation as a product of her disability, the body as a disability aid. the body as it relates to disability, in constant negotiation. the body as an expression of medical transition, of self-determination, of choice. as a statement of how she wants to be seen, how she wants to navigate the world, and at the same time reckoning with the inevitable gap between an idealized self-image and a lived reality, especially after a long time spent believing that self-image could never be visible to anyone else.

it's critical to me that it should never imply hera's disability is 'fixed' by having a body, only that it enables her to interact with the world in ways she otherwise couldn't. her fears about returning to earth are about safety and ability; the form she exists in dictates the life she's allowed to lead and has allowed people to invade her privacy and make choices for her. dysphoria and disability both contribute to disembodiment - in an increasingly digitized world, the type of alienation that feels like your life can only exist in a virtual space... maybe there's something about the concept of AI embodiment, in particular as it relates to hera, that appeals to me because of what it challenges about what makes a 'real woman.' when it's about perception, about how others see her and how she might observe / be impacted by how she's treated differently, even subconsciously. it's about feeling more present in her life and interfacing with the world. but it's not in itself a becoming; it doesn't change how she's been shaped by her history or who she is as a person.

i think it comes back to the 'big picture' as a central antagonistic force in wolf 359, and how - in that context, in this story - it adds a weight to this hypothetical choice. hera is everywhere, and she's never really anywhere. she's got access to more knowledge than most people could imagine, but it's all theoretical or highly situational; she doesn't have the same life experiences as her peers. she has the capacity to understand that 'big picture' better than most people, but whatever greater portion of the universe she understands is nothing next to infinity and meaningless without connection and context. it's interesting to me that hera is one of the most self-focused and introspective people on the show. her loyalties and decisions are absolute, personal, emotionally driven. she's lonely; she always feels physically away from the others. she misremembers herself sitting at the table with the rest of the crew. she imagines what the ocean is like. there's nothing to say that hera having a body is the only solution for that, but i like what it represents, and i honestly believe it'd make her happier than the alternatives. if there's something to a symbolically narrowed focus that allows for a more solid sense of self... that maybe the way to make something of such a big, big universe is to find a tiny portion of it that's yours and hold onto it tight.

#wolf 359 #w359 #hera wolf 359 #idk. processing something. as always i have more to say but it's impossible to communicate all at once #it's a meaningful idea to me and i think there's a LOT more that can be done with it thematically than just. the assumption of normalcy #so much of hera's existence is about feeling trapped and that's only going to get worse on earth and within these two contexts #that's something i really feel for. especially with. mmm. #i don't like the idea that who hera is is tied to the way she exists because it seems to weirdly reinforce her own misconception #that there can never be another life for her. #and all of these things are specific to hera and to the themes of wolf 359 and NOT about AI characters in general #in other stories there are other considerations. #the best argument i can make against it is that she says getting visuals from one place is weird and she doesn't like it. but that's #a totally different situation where it's a further limitation of her ability without a trade off. it's a different consideration i think #when it allows her more freedom. to go somewhere and be completely alone by herself. to feel like she has more control and more privacy #to be able to hug her friends. or feel the rain. it would be one thing if she felt content existing 'differently' #but she... doesn't. canonically she doesn't. and i think that has to be taken into account. #i think you can tell a meaningful and positive story about disability without giving her physical form on earth too #but i think it has to be considered that those are limitations for her and that the way she exists feels isolating to her. #idk. a lot of the suggestions people come up with feel like they're coming from a place of compromise that i don't think is necessary #there are plenty of ways that having a body would be difficult for hera and i guess it's hopeful to me to think #maybe she'd still find it worth it.

[weird-fish-thingy]

i hope you selfshippers don't mind me posting about reality shifting recently

Though however im going to introduce shifting here as best as i can and explain a bit

This post is specially for selfshippers who wish to have connection with their F/O's and they are sad their F/O's aren't real

Also, if you guys suffer with schizophrenia or delusional thoughts this post may be probably triggering, feel free to move away, and i hope i didn't trigger you by now <3

And if you simply didn't like what i explained, that's understandable and fine to have a different perspective, feel free to move away from this post, don't try to correct me, i believe this world is infinite everything is possible so i don't accept hates or trying to prove me wrong, just move on

i saw some selfshippers who really wish they could see their F/O's (aka fictional others), and some who wish their F/O could feel their love, and many probably practice lucid dreaming or they cling to character ai to feel connection with their F/O's

The great news is your F/O's are not fictional, they can be real, they may be fictional in here, but they are real in parallel universes and you can see them, if you believe in it

We live in a 3D dimensional world which our consciousness only can perceive the limited laws in this world we are in and only sense phsycal beings but we aren't only tied to this

The universe is in fact bigger than just this 3D

we all have the ability to move our consciousness in different worlds, and any worlds, any possibilities are infinite, which means you can shift your consciousness in anything you create in your mind , just be in anywhere you simply desire

Just like how manifestion works, anything is possible and it can be achieved

it also counts with seeing your "fictional" lovers for real and being in any worlds you want

and to shift realities, for beginners there is many methods to start with to shift you can google them or explore shifting community to find what you're comfortable with to achieve the reality you want to manifest

I would like to explain more but it will be very long so i highly suggest you to research about it, there may be many that spread misinformations but don't worry you will eventually figure it out, and i apologize for being unable to explain more

i believe shifting reddit and shifting amino are good places to explore, shiftblr (the community in Tumblr) as well

i understand if you're very shocked and you have struggles believing this but be patient with yourself progressing this information we all had been shocked to first learn shifting

Also, if i did say anything wrong here, shifters, feel free to correct me in comments

And again, if you didn't like shifting and believe it to be incorrect, it's okay, i respect your beliefs, you may selfiship however you want

#cw delusion #self shipping #self ship #f/o #self ship community #fictional other #imagine your f/o #s/i x f/o #f/o x s/i #shifting realities #reality shifting #shiftblr #shifting #shifters #shifting antis dni

[parentsday]

I once saw someone say that after Parents Day (the episode, not you), they never really touched on Max’s familial situation again. And while I agree that episodes like With Friends Like These could have paid a little lip service to it (why David just sent Max back home to what he knew were neglectful parents is beyond me, maybe he didn’t think there was anything he could do about it?), it feels to me like one of those things where once you know about it, you start seeing the character in a whole new light. Like you see what Max does in older and newer episodes and you rationalize it as “Oh, I see, he acts that way because his parents neglect him. Stuff like him not knowing how to swim or having a teddy bear when he’s theoretically too old for one.

i agree with you on many of your points and disagree heavily on the use of them you make later on. to start off max is an incredibly dear character to me, like painfully so. if i had the chance to i would love to dissect his head like one of a frog in a lab and see what makes his brain tick in ways it does, and of course one of the reasons is the abstract emotional state of mind any victim like him would have. one that sometimes gets more kafkaesque the longer i stare at him. so please bear in mind that i love the subtext his character possesses, i just can’t always rely on it to explain anything.

if you know me you know i like to complain about this shows writing, not out of hate for it but rather out of love for the material and what it started off as and has ability to be still (stuff like heavier writing that holds narrative weight, david being an asshole, the whole harrison thing that is lost to time now etc etc). whenever i watch this show with someone i usually opt to rewatch several earlier episodes after we finish parents day. it gets praised a lot but i don’t often see people mention how well it recontextualizes a lot of stuff previously shown to us, not only for max but other cast members too. a lot of the problems that stem from this is the fact that most other characters whose issues were presented to us in this episode are strawman connected to their family by the writers in a way that laters on allows for progress without relying on mention or presence of their parental figures (proper examples of this are preston, ered, nerris, somewhat harrison). max doesn’t get that simply by the virtue of the fact that his issues cannot exist in a vacuum and are inherently connected to his family. max’s parents haunting all of the narrative surrounding him has enough psychoanalytical subtext for it to traumatize several men and leave freud rolling in his grave, so i believe that you cannot in good faith progress his character without mentioning them or their actions or lack thereof towards him once or twice. that’s pretty much why i think that the topic of his abuse has not been brought up in a meaningful way since parents day. from where i stand i view abuse as one of the focus themes in this show, so poor treatment of it is very obvious to pin point to me as it usually drags most characters down with it the less it is respected in a way it should be.

like i said, the way the show recontextualizes max’s behavior leaves way for interpretation of the viewer on the way why he is the way he is, it’s easy for us to understand why he can’t swim or why he can’t fathom the idea of moving on and letting go on several occasions. the thing is in a perfect world we don’t have to do all of this. it can be attributed to good writing for making the audience be able to perceive any part of the characters psyche without the authors help, but in reality it’s lazy to expect everyone to treat the characters from a watsonian perspective and view their every move as a meta reference towards their trauma when not everyone cares enough to do so. the writer referencing child abuse and not adding onto it aside from the mention of its existence is exploitative of the viewers personal care for the character, it’s bad writing. you obviously can interpret what max does as a result of neglect (and you should!) with the power of subtext, implications and critical thinking, but what you also should think about is what does it tell you about his character aside from the fact that he is neglected. do we ever find out something new about his home situation or do scenes like these give us any discussion inside the show about the fact that he is still actively a victim of neglect? (the answer is most always gonna be no, maybe just always)

tldr; stuff like child abuse is heavy, writing it is hard and treating it the way rooster teeth does is not only poor writing but also disrespectful to the very real human trauma they are inserting into their show on more than one occasion

i would also love to discuss the david stuff you brought up and why him acting towards max and others in a way that he does in recent seasons is a long standing issue rather than a new problem but thats genuinely a conversation for another day as this post is already long enough as it is. thank you for the ask :3c

#i want to make a tag for these #camp camp meta analysis #that will work #camp camp #max cc

[sexyandhedonistic]

Neville Goddard lecture summaries

⚜️⋮ Consciousness is the Only Reality

⚜️   God is man's consciousness, his awareness, his I AMness.

The definition of God’s name JODHEVAUHE:

JOD: the hand that builds within your world, what creates

HE: a window or an eye

VAU: a nail

HE: another window/eye

JOD is your I AMness, out of this awareness all states of awareness come. HE is your imagination and your ability to perceive. You imagine or perceive something which seems to be other than Self. VAU, your ability to feel yourself to be that which you desire to be, As you feel you are it, you become aware of being it

To walk as though you were what you want to be is to take your desire out of the imaginary world and put the VAU upon it. You have completed the drama of creation. I am aware of something. Then I become aware of actually being that of which I was aware.

Lastly, HE, another eye. This one represents the visible objective world which will only ever demonstrate to you that which you are conscious of being You do nothing about the objective world; it always molds itself in harmony with that which you are conscious of being.

I added this in because it’s like a little formula:

JOD + HE + VAU + HE = God

Your I AMness + your imagination + your ability to feel the fulfillment of your desire + your consciousness out pictured = the fruition of your manifestation

You are conscious of being, aren't you? Certainly you are. You are also conscious of something that is other than yourself: the room, the furniture, the people. You may become selective now. Maybe you do not want to be other than what you are, or to own what you see. But you have the capacity to feel what it would be like were you now other than what you are. As you assume that you are that which you want to be, you have completed the name of God or the JOD HE VAU HE. The final result, the objectification of your assumption, is not your concern. It will come into View automatically as you assume the consciousness of being it.

The son of God’s name reads as JODHEVAUSHINAYIN

SHIN: a tooth. This tooth symbolizes consumption, or destruction. I must have within me the power to consume that which I now dislike. 

I, in my ignorance, brought to birth certain things I now dislike and would like to leave behind me. Were there not within me the flames that would consume it, I would be condemned forever to live in a world of all my mistakes. But there is a SHIN, or flame, within the name of the Son, which allows that Son to become detached from states He formerly expressed within the world.

To have the power of creation means to be able to conceive and then become that which you conceive. To have the power of destruction is to be able to eradicate what you no longer wish to be conscious of. Combined, you can bring forward the desirable and leave behind the undesirable. If you can create, you can also deteriorate.

Man is incapable of seeing other than the contents of his own consciousness. If I now become detached in consciousness from this room by turning my attention away from it, then, I am no longer conscious of it… It can only live within my objective world if I keep it alive within my consciousness… But I would not like to keep alive within my world all of my mistakes. So I, in my infinite mercy gave to myself, when I became man, the power to become detached from these things that I, in my ignorance, brought to birth in my world.

⚜️   When you pray believe that you have received, and you shall receive.

Praying = manifesting. Ask and you shall receive. If you assume it is yours, so shall be. Accept your desires as a fact and they will become a fact. Very straightforward! Once you believe that your prayer (intention to manifest) has been (will be) answered, you no longer covet your desires. In fact, they’re no longer your desires because to label something as a desire is to imply that you are conscious of the fact that it is not yet in your possession. 

When satisfaction is yours, you no longer hunger for it. If the hunger persists you did not explode the idea within you, you did not actually succeed in becoming conscious of being that which you wanted to be. There was still that thirst when you came out of the deep. If I can feel that I am that which but a few seconds ago I knew I was not, but desired to be, then I am no longer hungry to be it. I am no longer thirsty because I feel satisfied in that state. Then something shrinks within me, not physically but in my feeling, in my consciousness, for that is the creativeness of man… When a man prays successfully he believes that he is already that which he desired to be, therefore he cannot continue desiring to be that which he is already conscious of being. At the moment of satisfaction, physical and psychological, something goes out which in time bears witness to man's creative power.

Suppose I want security. I cannot get it by knowing people who have it. I cannot get it by pulling strings. I must become conscious of being secure. Let us say I want to be healthy. Pills will not do it. Diet or climate will not do it. I must become conscious of being healthy by assuming the feeling of being healthy.

⚜️   Make elsewhere here and then now imagine that your objective is so close that you can feel it.

Although you believe yourself to be confined to the evidence of your five senses, you can believe anything in regardless of time and space. You do not depend on sight, but rather you depend on your mind to materialize what it is that you want. If you dream of vacationing in Greece but your senses tell you that you are elsewhere, you shut them out by closing your eyes. Allow yourself to dwell in the thought of being in Greece right now until your mind is consumed with that thought. When you do, you’ll feel it so real at this very moment that when you open your eyes you’d be shocked to see that you aren’t there.

All of your senses bear witness to the fact that you are here in this room. Everything tells you that you are here, but perhaps you do not want to be here. You can apply this toward any objective. The room in which you are seated at any time -- the environment in which you are placed, this is your rough or sensibly known world… Simply remove your attention from the region of sensation which at this moment is the room round about you, and you concentrate your attention on that which you want to put in its place, that which you want to make real. In concentrating on your objective, the secret is to bring it here.

If your desire is to be beautiful, you do the same. Whoever it is that you want to be at this very moment, assume that that is you right now. Shut out the 3D and ponder the idea of being your ideal self until it feels real to you. After that, know that it is done.

Take the idea that you want to embody, and assume that you are already it. Lose yourself in feeling this assumption is solidly real. As you give it this sense of reality, you have given it the blessing which belongs to the objective world, and you do not have to aid its birth any more than you have to aid the birth of a child or a seed you plant in the ground… Your present environment vanishes, all the circumstances of life change and make way for the coming of that to which you have given your life. As you walk, knowing that you are what you wanted to be, you objectify it without the assistance of another.

You remain faithful to this subjective reality and you do not take back from it the power of birth. You gave it the right of birth and it is going to become objective within this world of yours.

⚜️   A complete transformation of consciousness rubs out all evidence that anything other than this ever existed in the world.

Neville speaks here about leaving the old story, your previous state of consciousness, behind. You completely forget about what you were once conscious of that it doesn't even occupy space in your mind. When you appropriate a new state of consciousness, you let go of everything you previously accepted matter-of-factly, since you are now conscious of otherwise. If your goal is to manifest wealth, you cannot even give credence to the idea of ever being poor.

You so completely rub out poverty in your mind's eye that there is nothing in this world you can point to and claim, that is where I left it.

⚜️   Everything comes from within, not from without.

It all starts with YOU. Circumstances do not matter. It doesn’t matter how difficult the predicament or how optimistic the goal. Whatever it is, you can achieve it. Your desire is symbolized as a mountain that you may believe to be challenging to climb, but when you begin to see yourself as someone who’s already at the summit (you change your conception of self), you know that you’re all you need to bring your desires into being. 

I can by simply feeling that I am what I want to be transform myself into the likeness of that which I am assuming I am; I know now that I am all that it takes to scale this mountain… When I feel that I am what I want to be I cannot suppress the joy that comes with that feeling. I must always contemplate my objective until I get the feeling of satisfaction.

Your conception of self, how you see yourself in relation to the world and how you see the world in relation to you, is the blueprint of your reality. How you carry yourself as well as the experiences that you have you will always be portrayed in correspondence to your self concept.

I do nothing to make it visible in my world;  men, women, children, the whole vast world round about me, come bearing witness. They come to testify that I am what I have assumed myself to be, and am sustaining within myself. When my world conforms to my assumption the prophecy is fulfilled. If I now know what I want to be, and assume that I am it, and walk as though I were, I become it and becoming it I so completely die to my former concept of self that I cannot point to any place in this world and say: that is where my former self is buried. I so completely died that I defy posterity to ever find where I buried my old self. 

⚜️   You cannot put new wine in old bottles or new patches on old garments.

Leave behind your old conception of self. Whoever you once thought you were, who you no longer want to be, let that person stay in the past. When you step into a newer version of you, do not bring along fragments of the old you. Let the dead bury the dead. Remain faithful to your new conception of self that you can’t even imagine ever being the old you. It does not matter if your reason or the world around you denies it. Don’t look back and don’t concern yourself with the how or the when. As far as you’re concerned, you are now the person that you desire to be, who possesses what you desire to possess and who does what you desire to do.

Knowing this law by which a man transforms himself, I assume that I am what I want to be and walk in the assumption that it is done. In becoming it, the old man dies and all that was related to that former concept of self dies with it. You cannot take any part of the old man into the new man. You must be a new being completely.

You have dominion if, as you walk the earth, you know that your consciousness is God, the one and only reality. You become aware of something you would like to express or possess. You have the ability to feel that you are and possess that which but a moment before was imaginary. The final result, the embodying of your assumption, is completely outside of the offices of a three-dimensional mind. It comes to birth in a way that no man knows.

#first post post return wooooo #lecture summaries

[venusvxen]

New Epiphany?

I’ve been thinking lately in terms of us not being human (at our core) and what that means.. I think a lot of the resistance we have towards manifesting comes from feeling like our desires are something we are trying to conjure up and trying to make.. and creation is finished didnt rlly hit me until i realized that.. there is a version of you.. somewhere out there in the quantum field.. w a real heartbeat who is living and breathing and has your desire…

understanding that you are essentially just tapping into consciousness and different forms of yourself has helped me not live in desire as much? bc even if the 3d shows me opposite…. you know that… there is a REAL HUMAN version of yourself with this desire…. how can the 3d tell THEM they don’t have what they want? and you’ve already decided that that’s who you are… so you have what you want…

understanding that we live in an infinite multiverse without infinite versions of ourselves also makes things like jealousy and envy trivial. bc everything you want is yours for the taking. maybe not in this reality but there’s a version of you in another who possesses it. so if you have everything you want at your disposal why would you be hateful towards someone else?

it’s almost like you can never ever truly lack. because there is some version of yourself somewhere in the quantum field who possesses what it is you desire. and because you are not a human being but instead the ruler of all states.. you have the ability to shift state to state to be (in imagination) who it is you want to be in that very moment….. no need to harm others to get what you want. no need to work tirelessly with no recognition.. no need to lie steal or cheat.. all states exist within you because you are not a human being but instead a reality shifter.. and all possible timelines of reality are yours for the taking..

the reality shifter perspective is so important because i will catch myself in a bad train of thought at times and almost mentally suck myself out of it…. and i sit with myself in a little mental void and just place myself where i want to be… really understanding this means that we shift thousands of times a day we just don’t realize it….

i think things start making sense once you reallg.. REALLY sit w the fact that you are not a human being but instead a spirit having a human experience…. if you could wake up tomorrow in a completely different body then why do you believe your desire is impossible to attain just because the 3D says different.. you already have it… it already happened the way you said it would bc there is a version of you who experienced it in that exact timeline.. the 3d isn’t real bc your 3d self does not possess thoughts of its own… it’s instead like a mouthpiece and the one doing the talking is the inner man…

I think the reason why we (myself included) perceive things as failure when it doesn’t manifest is bc we want it to happen to our outer external self not realizing that our outer self can never have that if it makes sense…. like we are reality shifting…. every reality has an archetype for that version of you. expecting Person A to have the things Person B has doesn’t make sense bc they cannot overlap…. Instead you can just acknowledge that you are ALREADY person B and stop looking for the change in the outer world… does that make sense? i hope that makes sense…..

#loa blog #loassumption #loass #shifting states #reality shifting #4d reality #shiftblr #loablr

[anantaru]

Hi! Long time lurker here with some words of wisdom if you will. Gonna apologize in advance if it's too cutthroat, but know it's not directed at you with malice.

It's not your responsibility to cater to every person on the internet. It's not your responsibility to curate an image that makes other people accept you. All you can do is be yourself (whether that be actually you or your internet persona if you have one) to the best of your abilities. At the end of the day, who gives a fuck if someone is triggered by some offhanded comment? You kinda just have to think, "Sorry you experienced some unpleasant things, but I don't know you or your history."

Not your monkey, not your circus.

The issue with the internet today is that too many people are so fucking sensitive about context and self-imposed perceptions. Too many people have a victim complex with a snowflake mentality and it makes me want to blow my brains out everytime someone has a freaking melt down over something so little and once again self-perceived. To be honest, you shouldn't even have to apologize, but it's kind that you did.

From this moment onwards, I want you and anyone else who may read this to remember that it's literally not your responsibility to make anyone comfortable on your little corner of the internet. It's yours, post whatever the fuck you want. Anyone who attacks you is just a fuckin loser who can't cope with navigating life like an adult, or staying in a kids place if they're a minor.

I'm tired of seeing all this unnecessary discourse like we're a bunch of highschoolers or even worse, middle schoolers, jesus fucking christ. On that note, I hope you feel better, I'll be rooting for you from now until you decide to leave. Thanks for all of your hard work, and try not to let the bullshit bother you so much.

hello! 💕 i wasn't planning on answering any asks regarding this situation anymore but this ask really woke me up. i for one, totally agree with you and i have always had this mindset as well, like there's been plenty of times where i would scroll through social media and something would catch me off guard or even trigger me (which happens so rarely), but honestly guys, i don't care when this happens lmao, i just kept scrolling and forget about it in two minutes like i have so much on my mind in real life with my profession, i do not need something online to force itself into my peace and it's the internet, you will stumble upon something that might upset you.

I believe if you are on any social media site, you cannot expect everything to go according to plan, even considering you take the necessary steps and block certain tags (for example on tumblr) it can very much happen that you will still be exposed to it. at some point you have to realize that this world is not accustomed to you, nothing is, wether in real life nor online, you have to accept that there will always be different views and opinions that will piss you off or not align with you, make you mad or sad, but what you should never do in this situation is send hate or make it seem like a person is this awful individual.

you are not a good person if you bully people, and even if you show us all the awful things you had to go through in your real life, it is not an apology to bully people and you can attempt to make us feel bad, but i don't have sympathy for bullies, even if you were bullied yourself, especially then you should know how it feels like.

again anon, thank you so much! 💕 i was really questioning on how to behave on this blog anymore, it's a huge blog and i have found it to be a little overwhelming, but then I remember that my readers are the sweetest people out there and I know I have the best little corner on the internet here, with them by my side 💕 you really brought me back to reality, thank you nonnie.

#˚✩彡 anon' #꒰୨ 𖤐 ୧꒱ answered'

[pochapal]

would you be able to briefly explain the meta stuff in the homestuck epilogues? i've never read any hs, but i'd be interested to know for myself how close you are in comparing it to umineko since you keep bringing it up.

caveat for mega massive homestuck epilogues spoilers (also caveat that this post got way too long) but basically my thinking on all this is as follows:

the whole of the homestuck epilogues are "meta" but to track it through the plot, a bunch of characters in the homestuck epilogues begin to undergo a process they refer to as "reaching the ultimate self" (debatable) which the text itself defines as an individual growing aware of the existence of their various alternate selves across timelines/canons. since the epilogues/homestuck^2 continuity died before we got any concrete answers a lot of this is more interpretation than fact, but essentially this leads to a kind of existence where your consciousness is placed on a level "above" that of your canonical reality, allowing you to see it as the story it is.

within the context of the homestuck epilogues this happens to two people that we know of, with a suspected third. the opening acts of the story cover rose lalonde's ascendancy to this state, which manifests as a series of visions of alternative realities and a growing awareness of what is/isn't canonical to homestuck (one other major feature of the homestuck epilogues in particular is that the characters and world are now at least one degree separated from canon itself - there's a lot of stuff in here about fanfic presentation/ooc tropes and the like). throughout the half of the story where they stay moored to canon (known as "meat"), rose's condition worsens as she turns to dirk strider for solace. about a third of the way through this epilogue the two have an extended conversation about textuality and puppetry and your place as a passive/active agent in the narrative fabric which ends with this bombshell cliffhanger:

the reveal here is that, at least for the duration of the epilogues' narrative, dirk strider has been in the driver's seat of the story and has been manipulating/nudging things according to his overarching goal of keeping the story "relevant" even though homestuck's main narrative ended years ago (homestuck itself features a great number of villains hijacking/rewriting homestuck at various points for their own ends so this is not without precedent) (this is also most likely an intertextual shoutout/callback to seminal fanfiction detective pony, which shares basically all of the dna of the epilogues in a truncated form done years earlier as an extended response to a short-lived bit in homestuck itself) (if you also look closely there are shade's of 999's "he knew because i knew" present too) (there are many layers to this).

in order to do all this, dirk has seized a great degree of control of the narrative engine driving the epilogues' reality. he is able to dominate how we perceive things by literally painting over the story in his own text color and voice and is able to put thoughts in people's heads and words in their own mouths - that said, there is a limitation to this ability, where even though dirk-as-narrator could do whatever he wants, in order for any of this to Matter everything he makes everyone do must always be believably within character for them to do, even if it lies at the more extreme end of their characterization (see a later chapter in the epilogues where there's an emotionally charged breakup/confession between himself and jake english with whom he has a storied and volatile romantic history with - dirk wants jake to do things one way, but jake himself thinks/feels in another and thus this tension underpins the scene).

throughout the plot, dirk brute force narrates certain events, manipulating characters and outcomes in his favor (he ensures john egbert, who has the ability to alter canon irrespective of the rules of the text, is killed off and unable to interfere. dirk also rigs an election for a whole other slew of reasons that are tangentially relevant). his driving motive, despite the overt villainous posturing, is a deep love for his friends and a deep fear that all face a fate worse than oblivion without an active and engaging story to inhabit. if that destroys the happy ending of homestuck, then so be it.

meanwhile, in the other half of the story (titled "candy"), these machinations do not go unnoticed. calliope, or to be more specific the version of calliope who ascended to godhood and then ghosthood and defeated the main villain of homestuck by absorbing him and all of his metanarrative poisoning into a literal black hole that is also a metaphorical stand-in for "fanon", grows aware that in one world there is one person who is disrupting the narrative peace of postcanon for his own selfish ends, thereby threatening to permanently rupture the eternal harmony such a state of being should have entitled their entire reality to. this itself is a bare-faced lie as candy goes to painstaking lengths to show the terrible consequences that come from the characters abandoning canon and complacently accepting their lot in a world that "doesn't matter" - this includes greatest hits such as "everyone gets married and has kids young, then epic divorces each other, then descends into a series of increasingly absurd and abusive relationships, and oh whoops somebody did a fascism and now there's a planetwide war being fought".

so. while the world of candy is falling to shit, calliope is behind the scenes working things to try and break out of her self-imposed impassible black hole in order to return to canon and put a stop to dirk's antics. it is heavily implied that she's been tipping the narrative scales in order to escalate things in the candy timeline to the point of chaotic absurdity in order to make it the most relevant point in fanon and thus a beacon for lord english's body to end up (there are many other dubious factors at play here, such as an incessant need to keep everything under her aegis for their own good and a drive to transform everything into a fanfiction-esque """utopia"""). the plan is to use the remnants of english/canon to break free of fanon and confront dirk somewhere beyond canon (this is where the story's chronology ends so we never got a concrete answer to what that'll look like).

one key thing here is that unlike dirk who saw fit to paint the town orange in his narrative dominion, calliope controls candy with a much more subtle touch, preferring to fall so far back into the narrative that it's almost impossible to say whether these absurd things everyone is doing is something they would have done on their own terms or something calliope is making them do (not helped of course by the fact that candy is dominated by well-known fandom tropes that help to distort the reader's perspective on what these characters "should" be like). this is by design - a lot of her philosophy is that the most effective story is one in which the speaker is as unseen as possible although one can never have a story without a speaker, nor a speaker without an agenda. see the following (NOTE: if you're looking at this sans context, calliope in this chapter is possessing the body of jade harley in order to use her as a conduit/vessel so that she can be physically present on this plane of reality, hence the dialogue tag. aradia is just aradia):

so. dirk seizes control of meat through a brute-force attack where you can only notice his narrative imprint and nothing else, and calliope dominates the narrative through an all-encompassing subtlety where it's impossible to tell where the story ends and calliope begins. a hostile first person narrative versus a hostile third-person omniscient narrative.

this culminates in a back-and-forth between the two where both try to assert their contradictory version of events as the "true" narrative, engaging in a yes-and squabble as they build upon and refute what the other is saying in order to come out on top.

there's a lot of questions of narrative "truth" here, of which version of events gets to be assigned "real" and how that assignment happens. is it the most logically compelling story? or the most emotionally resonant one? this is further explored in a subplot with character roxy lalonde, who undergoes two separate trans character arcs in each timeline with different outcomes (in meat a 23-year-old roxy embraces his identity as transmasculine, and in candy a 39-year-old roxy reflects on how her relationship to motherhood and her relationship to gender do not cancel one another out). but basically the crux of the homestuck epilogues is who gets to be the one to tell a story, and why? and what happens when irreconcilable accounts fight each other for the position of the One True Narrative Version Of Events?

the epilogues give a lot of questions on this front with very few answers (the only real answer is "read everything in its entirety and try your hardest to truly understand what is being told to you, and then you as a reader have the responsibility to decide and construct the final meaning for yourself") which i suppose is par for the course for a text of this nature.

(for further reading/consideration on this post-canon dilemma, also check out godfeels and the 3.1 epilogue which wrestles with these same concepts on an adjacent axis - particularly good stuff about the role of reader response and audience interpretation in here!)

(for even further reading/a way sillier plug also check out my own fic omelette route which is my personal thematic extension and understanding of everything the epilogues left behind and also a whole bunch of other things too long to get into in a brief self-promo lmao)

to bring this waaaaaay back to my umineko discussion points, this dirk/calliope/narrative thing is essentially the baseline with which i am examining umineko's narrative quirks. i don't necessarily think there'll be any 1:1 correlation with this specific brand of narration nonsense but i think this is a useful framework in general for thinking about stories about stories and how people intersect with their own narratives.

for umineko in particular i'm interested in the "course-correction" part of the epilogues and how the narrators show their hands most when things risk not going their way (see the third screenshot for the best example). i don't think anything'll be this over but what is "his finger tenses up and the gun doesn't fire" if not a more extreme version of "this mystery wasn't worth thinking about any more, so everybody left the crime scene as it was"?

if there's no "free will" in a story, then it ceases to be a compelling story at all. this rings true even outside of crazy metafiction stuff. if there isn't any evidence of the actors in the script, well, *acting*, then what's the point of telling your story as a story? there has to be that element of unpredictability and uncertainty to prove the thing you're constructing is alive and matters, even if that runs the risk of throwing your own plans off the rails (another way to frame all this the metaphor of the plot "getting away" from the author in the process of writing).

the narrator in umineko may not appreciate the way that battler is constantly threatening to undermine their carefully-plotted mystery narrative, but if battler just danced to their tune all the time then this isn't a story or a mystery but instead a one-person puppetshow using "real" human beings as the marionettes. a compliant battler ceases to be battler but instead a narrator using battler to sate their own whims, a story without an audience, etc etc etc.

but that balancing act is hard. you need to tell your story and you need the people in your story to act in all the right ways without accidentally transforming you narrative efforts into yet another meaningless diatribe. it needs to be meaningful. it needs to be more than navel-gazing for its own sake.

even outside of the meta stuff you see this with the culprits of the in-universe Witch Narrative. genji/kinzo et al could very easily brute force the family at gunpoint to play along with the story of beatrice and the supernatural, but threat alone isn't enough to grant something "existence". the deeper truths will remain buried without that organic spark of belief, without that chance for the other characters to contribute in their own way to the collective narrative. it's important that eva as a collaborator still makes everything about her steadfast belief that natsuhi's complicit in a coverup conspiracy instead of just robotically affirming "this is demonic beatrice is real and definitely exists". eva and natsuhi don't need to be at each other's throats to create the illusion of a witch killing people, but them being able to do so in proximity of the witch narrative validates the truths of their beliefs and the "truth" of beatrice's existence. it makes it more real to the other family members and to us.

this is very much the same dilemma as the homestuck epilogues. you as a narrator have an agenda, but you also need the people around you to augment that in a convincing and compelling way. you are not just seeking out a truth, you are telling a story. the homestuck epilogues are a story. umineko is a story. a story requires a narrator, characters, and an audience that cares about what is being presented to them. i've brought it up before, but in this way meat/candy and detective/romantic as dichotomies serve very similar purposes when it comes to narrative-building philosophy. you have to approach this dialectically if you are to produce something with any value.

so, in summary: the homestuck epilogues are driven by the tension inherent to filtering "reality" through a narrative lens and how to reconcile the unpredictability of real people with drive to have your message be heard. umineko, as a mystery presented through self-conscious narrative construction, can be understood through similar terms even if the two texts aren't necessarily directly related in this manner. there is a tension of control and truth when it comes to telling a story of your own, and on many levels both stories are about finding a way to reconcile this tension within their respective storytelling "languages".

meaning cannot be found in isolation. a story needs more than one moving part. juggling things beyond your control is simultaneously the most impossible and necessary thing you need to do in order to build a narrative that matters, be it piloting your reality back into canonicity or infusing an island with the legend of an ancient and powerful witch. it's all the same thing in the end.

#beagremlin #umineko #homestuck epilogues #long post #i know you said 'brief' but i think it's impossible to explain any of this with any sense of brevity lmao