#in less than half the grades

[finnslay]

I'm so confused with tomorrow

there's a soccer game. I don't know where I go. Only certain kids can go to the media center. You have to have a 504 or IEP. I have a 504. But I don't wanna go to the media center... I wanna be able to sit and watch a soccer game with my friends and partner and make jokes and be freezing on the bleachers and complain about how I should've just not come because this day is pointless

The media center isn't gonna help anyway. I don't understand anything that's happening I'm gonna freak out. The soccer game...well...at least I know what's going on..

I just wanna be like the other highschoolers...I don't want to need special accommodations. I don't want to go into the "backup plan" for the kids who can't handle it...

I'm just gonna he alone when I freak out and they'll all try to help in the wrong way and it's gonna get worse and I'm gonna wanna die before going back to school...it's gonna make me hate myself even more and then im just gonna be miserable all weekend

Because it basically shows in my face that I can't be normal. I can't do fun things like other teens. I just have to sit in another room while the world goes on without me. They don't know how miserable that can make a person feel.

When I do freak out, they're gonna make it worse. Because they think they know how my brain works but they don't. None of them do... I hate when they follow something because "protocol" or some bullshit...because last time they did they tried to drag me into a wheelchair. It's terrifying...

It. Doesn't. Help.

And I don't even know what my 504 plan is...I don't know how it works. Nobody told me.

So basically. They're really fucking good at making someone feel worthless...

#why is it like that #someone shouldve told me what a 5p4 was #if its for me why not tell me ehats on the fucking plan #instead of just shving me into a new place #with 10 times the kid #in less than half the grades #and maybe tell me how its gonna work #instead of just letting me #“figure it out” #because that makrs me hate myself more than i already do.... #amd itakes me think that my brain eill never be good enough for them.... #i should just... #get pushed to the side #and stored away #with all the other broken parts

[itstimeforstarwars]

My diary when I was a teenager: I am so angry and this is where I put my rage about how the world is ending and how mad I am about it and how much I hate politicians and the school board

My diary now: here is a recounting of what I did today as well as how I feel about some of the news from today, so that in twenty years when everyone is lying about how the 2020s went I have proof that I'm not insane.

#chit chat #it really hasn't changed much except that I am now writing about the context of the wider world #because so much of my teenage diary was 'i am so mad about what's going on in the world!!! how can they do this!!!' #and older me is like 'hm. what WAS? going on in the world?' and then i have to go look up the news for that day #which feels harder to do now than it did back then #so now im adding context so that when im forty i can be like 'yeah! how could they let this happen!' in solidarity with my younger self #also my grandmother worked at a museum for twenty years so now im actively trying to be helpful to whoever ends up with these things #cuz i won't have kids to pass them onto but some random archivist might think they’re interesting #I've been heavily inspired by dykes to watch out for and how like half the strips are just responding to the news #lol #sometimes i wish i could be less fucking weird but unfortunately i have been Like This since at least the seventh grade #i took one elective journalism class and it was all over for me

[chewtoyboytoy]

"Hey looking at your grades, there's a chance you might not pass. While this is ultimately up to your mentor-" I KNOW. THANKS. kisses and hugs just give me the fail so I can restart the term pls

#im actually a little hopeful that i will pass #cause while im not the top student in the class.. im definitely above the middle of the road #and the one person above me is literally already in the industry #part of me is hoping that shes just a tough grader bc she knows lower grades makes u eligible for tutoring #but also if i fail i wont be surprised #as much as i hate the loss of time and money. i wouldnt hate retaking the term #cause ive learned a LOT since the beginning #even redoing the first assignment now im able to redo it MILES better than i did three months ago #and in less than half the time as well #so taking an extra three months to really solidify my understanding of body mechanics wouldnt hurt #but also. money.....

[ereh-emanresu-tresni]

People who dislike jazz bc "I listen to music like math it's supposed to have complexly balanced rhythmic/harmonic patterns I can know and follow, but when you start randomly scatting and dropping beats it just throws cacophonic wrenches in those and offends the delicate sensibilities of my refined aural palate :c" are such a particularly tedious strain of pretentious oh my god

#the superficial appeal to intellectualism while actually being militantly anti-intellectual if you think about that for half a second #is insane. at best closed-mindes and more often than not just thinly-veiled racism whether conscious or subconscious #relying on the implication that music following the Classical European framework is somehow more 'objectively mathematical' #and thus objectively better than the music frameworks of other cultures #and on top of that it also betrays a painfully simplistic and narrow understanding of math and the fucked up chaos that can go on in it too #lowkey feels like a similar (though ofc much less severely consequential) spirit as '(my 4th grade) biology says there's only 2 genders 😡'

[clandestinegardenias]

I go to my IUD checkup appointment, a little nervous cause it hurt so fucking bad when they put it in, and the intake nurse is a woman I met at a Christmas party and exchanged numbers with to hang out sometime.

[Me, desperately trying not to loudly state MY VAGINA FEELS PERFECTLY NORMAL]: ...HIIii. How. How's it going? Good, goooOOood, I'm good. GRAET. Feelin'...good.

#my soul was trying SO hard to leave my body #she had to do a depression screening too it was AWFUL #i'm trying to make FRIENDS with this woman and here she is like “how often do you feel like you're an abject failure?” #and I'm smiling so big my cheeks hurt eyes wide like a deer in headlights like “LESS THAN HALF OF THE DAYS.” #was i too weird does she still like me did i get a good grade in gynecology patient

[iron-niffler]

not me sitting at my desk staring off into space wistfully thinking about what im going to do on december 19 at 11am after my last final as if i don't have ten assignments to do, a paper to write, two exams next week and 3-4 finals to study for

#help #def gonna buy myself a milkshake and some snacks when it's over then just nab an empty classroom and play video games for hours #thinking about winter break on the horizon is literally the one thing getting me through this final stretch stg #that and those mountain dew fruit flavored energy drinks #ofc my dad was asking if i wanted to get a job over break #like i would consider it but my break is 2.5 weeks long #yes the theater would probably take me back but it took me like a week and a half to start bc paperwork #haha im to busy to be unmotivated but too stressed to get to work #just looking at differential equations is making my head spin much less SOLVING them #why did my school decide that five days (counting the weekend) was enough for thanksgiving break #my elementary school siblings had more time off than i did ffs #how much longer can i tell myself just x more days #how much longer till i just...lose it #wrote myself a long ass to do list for now till break then had to take a several hour long break to calm dowb #and now im more stressed bc im more behind and fml #im too stupid for engineering #still holding myself to my high school standards which are just impossible to reach in uni #like when im doing high school shit i barely studied and always got above an 80 #now im just...average #like literally half my grades are at the class average #feels like im fighting tooth and nail for C's but oh well that's just mechanical engineering ig #it's just months of “just gotta get through this exam” over and over till a two week break then it's time to do it all over again

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

biggest pet peeve is when i show someone my art and they decide to give their own input like “oh if i were you i would change this” and “i think you should’ve done this or that” like. who asked? i’m showing it to you because i’m proud of it idc if you think it’s trash because i “should’ve put more detail into the this aspect so that blah blah blah” don’t care + didn’t ask

#just something that aggregates me #esp bc this person (older sibling) seems to believe that they have more authority over it bc they’re older #like. dude. i know you *used to* draw but i literally have more experience since you dropped it years ago #plus they have a bit of a complex where they think that ‘more realistic’ = better #like. that’s not how the world works i can draw cartoons as much as i wish and i’ll still have skill #just bc some of my art doesn’t looks as realistic as you’d like doesn’t mean that it’s bad #like some of my more cartoon-ish work will have hours of work composing and formatting the style #esp when i’m feeling meticulous about line work #going off a bit on this person ig. they’re not that bad. the whole ‘realistic = better’ thing is v low key but i can tell #it stems from growing up together and both of us drawing #so there was always a bit of competition to be better and the difference is that i always get what i want and will work for it #like drawing in all of my free time. obsessively really. you do not want to know how many old sketchbooks i have #and they don’t put effort into things like i do. even though they think they’re a bit superior they drew less than half the time i did #though if we’re being honest i think it’s an extension of their inferiority complex which stems from the fact that i’m younger #but was always better at things than them (school mostly. like. started college at 15/16ish and skipped sooo many grades) #and bc of that i was more praised/more highly regarded (when i wasn’t acting batshit and being a menace) #though tbh they’re probably a more stable person than me u don’t have to choose artistic realism to be better #only one of us will be able to survive in the real world and it isn’t me lol #sorry for like. analyzing my sibling’s behavior in the tags. my bad #but tbh i could write essays dissecting their behavior. they’re easy to read to me. everything about them is easy to figure out

[pinkpeccary]

another ta is being super obnoxious about the homeworks and i am resisting the urge to respond to his message of "would you mind updating the solution to problem 12 to [technically more accurate but significantly more confusing and difficult explanation]?" by just saying "i mind" and then turning off notifications.

#ta drama #he said he's not taking off points for it but will be commenting the correct solution and like. #the solutions we write are literally just for the graders (who are all in this chat) i don't think i need to rewrite his dumb explanation #also i shared the solution over a week ago and half the submissions have been graded already #it's literally not worth it to change it and im not going to #im probably just going to ignore it which is kinda shitty since he tagged me directly in the message #but that feels less aggressive than publically telling him i think that's stupid and im not doing it #anyways there are only seven of us and two of the other TAs are Impossible to work with #hands down worst part of the job #ollie talks

[stormclaws]

i remember i was telling my friends how when i went in for my initial sleep specialist appointment they took a look at the back of my throat to see how closed my airway was and i got a 3. which i though oh thats not that bad! 3 out of 5 is just above half!

and then its actually 3 out of 4, so i made a joke about getting a good grade in sleep apnea, something both normal to want and possible to achieve

SO TURNS OUT!! my sleep study results came in and they rate severity in events/hour, with an event being 10+ seconds of not breathing. 5-15 is mild, 15-30 is moderate, and 30+ is severe and i ranked a solid 42 events/hour so not only did i get a good grade, i got extra credit and they gave me a free cpap machine out of it

#tempest.txt #ive been using it for like a week and a half and have been getting less than 1 events per hour each night #so yeah. i continue to get good grades in sleep apnea!!! #in starting to have some more energy now #im not anywhere near 100 yet but im closer than before!!!

[justgotpunched]

saying fuck it we ball after completing exactly two out of my 16 tasks planned for the weekend knowing I am about to either learn half a semseter of material in one night or die in school tomorrow

I will be calling this the academic experience

#oh to be an ib student with half a dollar and procastination issues #ib #also I had to hear arthur lester fucking doe in my headphones while speedrunning an essay #an experience dare I say #but wish me luck #i have no idea while im taking bio but at least less studying than physics even tho physics was much more fun #i better get good grades out of this #ibo #school #academia #chaotic academia #maybe I should get better scheduling skills #i say knowing I probably wont

[alliluyevas]

anybody else fantasize over which books they would pair together if they were perchance an English professor or running some type of oddball book club. Anyway my secret genius pairing is the sound and the fury and a confederacy of dunces.

#i just think they would be such a fun match. #i actually read both of them during my senior year in high school but it was my second time reading confederacy and first reading SATF #SATF was for school confederacy was not #i actually read my moms copy of confederacy when I was in sixth grade lmfao and I probably understood less than half of it but I loved it

[roguestorm]

hello. batman’s backstory makes no fucking sense. thank you.

#m.txt #I’m trying to figure out how he can have both his law degree and his several years of studying under the great masters #and still be batman before he’s 30. spoiler alert: he can’t. #plenty of versions don’t have the law degree but it’s one of those things that i learned early on and have always taken for granted #bruce IS a yale man it makes perfect sense #i do understand the argument that Bruce only has an ivy degree bc dc couldn’t imagine someone that smart without a college degree #and i think if you don’t have it that’s fine it’s not gonna ruin the character #but for me he’s always gonna have it #one thing we can do is move part of his world tour to before he graduates high school #starting when he’s thirteen he just takes off for months at a time #(a la tim in the robin mini) #he shows up to his fancy boarding school less than half the time but his grades are excellent #years later he’s like ‘dick you must go to Gotham academy i have such fond memories of it’ #and all the old teachers are like memories from when?? you were never here!! #dick has a much better school attendance record despite the fact that he’s a teen vigilante

[bundlebrent]

You know when I’m complaining about this weeks chapter being 40 pages, having a bunch of info we didn’t cover in class but I need to know for this weeks test, and having 2 additional assignments one of which is supposed to oh probably only take 3 hours maybe my mom could consider being like not completely dismissive of that or just let me bitch for a couple of minutes

Also this is for A 3 CREDIT CLASS

*edit It’s also an Introductory class they expect us to enter the class with only basic knowledge. It has INTRODUCTION in the class title

#I’m 32 pages into the chapter and we covered less than half of this in class like at all #I should not be spending this much time on it #but if I want to get a good grade on this weeks test #and you’re not going to cover these things in class #I have to read this chapter really carefully and take notes on everything #he mentioned off hand he doesn’t need a super professional paper for the probably only 3 hours assignment #which is good because he’s not getting one #and again this is all for a 3 credit class #which she knows because she thought I should do full time school instead of 2/3rds #even tho my job is slowly draining my soul away

[midi4ri0love]

it's easier to accept being unpopular, when you don't hang out with popular kids

#for example #i walked home with some today #and they were like #are you invited? #and i was like #to what? #it was a girls party that i never had even talked to #but she invited more half the grade #and i enjoy social interaction #but its so hard #to iniciate it #i'm so shy #or just autistic #and once i talk to people they instantly like me #but i don't because i'm shy #and my best friend #sometimes doesn't want me to either #she wants me to be unpopular #or atleast less than her #gut feelings

[takeheartlucia]

I have been worryingly lax about my assignments lately.

#got a paper worth 30% of my grade due in less than half an hour and have just decided to take the 10% late mark deduction #have another paper due TOMORROW at 9pm which is worth 35% of my grade (different class) and will probably be submitting that late too #I can't tell if I'm just having really bad pms (cause I do tend to feel more fatigued and procrastinate more but not to this extent usually #or if it's something else but either way I'm decidedly not thrilled

[ashwhowrites]

Requesting for cliche story fuck boy eddie simping over a nerdy girl. Maybe angst in the middle?

Ugh one of my favorite dynamics to write. I hope this is what you wanted and you enjoy it! Thank you for requesting 🫶🏻

⚠️no actual smut but talks of it

She's different

Eddie spent years being made fun of and being insecure. In ways, it helped him build a tough shell and made him stronger. But it also made him void of any feelings. He turned cold-hearted and didn't let anyone get close enough to him to hurt him.

He was still a teenager, and he had his own needs. And when his hair grew out and he dressed in chains and leather, more girls were at his feet than he had ever seen. Most girls were from the hideout, groupies that lived to watch him on stage. They threw themselves at him for a chance to get backstage and be under his touch.

Being in a band was the happiest thing that happened to him and he loved the easy access of girls to choose from. School was hell, but the second he was on stage, he was what all the girls wanted. And no one would take that feeling away from him.

~~~

Eddie was half asleep as he sat in class. His hand on his palm as he felt his eyes grow heavier. He had a late night with a girl's name he didn't remember. He moaned in discomfort as he felt her marks still stinging on his back.

"Hi," a soft voice spoke in front of him. He snapped open his eyes to see a girl in front of him. She had glasses, and her hair was down. She wore a little sweater and a skinny pair of jeans.

"Can I help you?" Eddie yawned

"Um..." She said as she looked around the classroom. Everyone is moving to sit with their partners. "We are partners. Were you listening?" She asked with a little giggle.

Eddie couldn't help but smile as the sound left her lips. He had to admit, for a quiet nerd, she was adorable.

"I was not, but take a seat," he said with a smile. He used his foot to push out the chair next to him. She moved delicately as she put down her books and sat next to him. He smelled her perfume and examined her even closer. She had these big curious eyes, a soft nose, and incredibly pink lips, and her skin looked soft.

"Well..." She began to explain everything he missed. He tried to listen, but he couldn't stop watching as her lips moved to form the words. He nodded along as she continued to talk.

She turned her head to look at him, she felt her face burn as he stared at her with a small smile on his face.

She coughed and removed her eyes from his. "So! Let's start."

~~~

By the third day of working together, Eddie loved saying her name. He loved how sweet it sounded as it left his tongue.

He was shocked to find himself so lost in her. Not that being a nerd was bad, he used to be one. But he never thought of himself being attractive while being a nerd. But God, did she do it well.

He was captivated by how smart she was. Way too smart to be in his class. She was mature and he could tell by the way she spoke with a high vocabulary. She didn't make him feel dumb, which was different. She was sweet and took the time to explain anything he didn't understand.

He was smitten.

~~~

Five days into working together he wanted more. He wanted to see her outside of school, outside of her shell. He wanted to see how she looked in the outside world and how her personality might change. He wondered if she had another side of her. A side that didn't stress about grades and let loose.

"What are you doing tonight?" He asked, not realizing he cut her off as she explained another part of the project. He was too lost in his head as he thought about her.

She closed her mouth and gave her answer a thought.

"Well, it's Friday so nothing." She laughed, "Why do you ask? Are you worried we won't finish? Because we have five minutes and just one last paragraph." She explained as she pushed up her glasses.

"Nah, respectfully, I could care less about this project," he chuckled, "I want to hang out, just the two of us and not focus on the project."

She froze as she looked over at him. His eyes sparkled and the sun shined perfectly on his face.

"Why would you want that?" She nervously asked. She couldn't form a single idea why he would want to hang out with her. She wasn't anywhere near his usual crowd of friends.

"Because I want to get to know you. I was thinking about a date?" He offered. He felt a little nervous and didn't understand why. Asking out girls was something he could do in his sleep, but she had his stomach fluttering and his hands sweaty.

He felt more nervous as he waited for her answer.

"Why not," she smiled. She clicked her pen and grabbed his hand. He flinched a little as the pen tickled his hand as she wrote down her phone number.

"Call me," she smiled as she picked up her stuff. A second later the bell rang and she was gone in a flash.

Eddie bit back his smile as he looked down at his hand. Her number and a little heart written next to it. He jumped out of his seat, a bounce in his step as he walked out.

~

Eddie didn't realize he was causing much of a commotion until Wayne walked into his disaster room.

"Edward, what in the hell are you doing?" Wayne asked as he took in the sight of Eddie's room. Clothes were thrown everywhere, and shoes were missing their pairs.

"I'm trying to find a nice shirt but everything is a band!" Eddie cussed to himself.

Wayne couldn't help the smile that went across his face, "And why do you all of a sudden need a nice shirt?" He was young once, and he knew exactly why his nephew was stressed.

"Don't look at me like that," Eddie groaned as he yanked off his shirt and added it to the no pile.

"What's her name?" Wayne asked, he leaned against the door with his arms crossed.

"Y/N," Eddie sighed, "I asked her out and I have nothing to wear!"

"Looks to me like you have a lot of options," Wayne laughed, "But what if we go get a nice shirt? I'll take you."

Eddie looked at his watch, he had a good few hours before he needed to leave.

"Fine but we don't speak of it," Eddie said as he pointed at Wayne.

Eddie's leg shook in the car as they pulled up to the small strip mall.

"How come you are this nervous?" Wayne asked as he got out of the car. "We share a wall so I know you aren't shy with many girls."

Eddie blushed in embarrassment, and he mumbled an apology.

"She's different, I guess." Eddie shrugged, he walked behind Wayne as they walked into the shop.

~

Eddie stood in front of the mirror as he sprayed on cologne. He used water to pat down his hair, and he ran his hands over his new button-up.

He was nervous but he was excited.

Wayne wished him luck as he walked out the door. Eddie got in his van and headed to the address she gave over the phone. His heart raced when he talked to her for a few seconds. He was not sure what he was going to do when he was with her all night.

Before he knew it he was outside her door and knocking.

"Hi, Eddie," she smiled as she opened the door. "You look very handsome." She was surprised to see him in something else other than a band shirt and ripped jeans.

"Oh, thank you," he smiled, "you look wonderful." His eyes skimmed up and down her body. She wore a simple and casual dress. It was white with little sunflowers. It matched her personality. She wore her glasses and light makeup.

"Thank you," she smiled.

Eddie gestured for her to walk in front of him, they walked to his van and got inside. She listened to his music as he drove to the location of their date. She was nervous. She had never been on a date before and definitely not with a guy like Eddie.

"I hope you like water," Eddie said, Y/N looked out the windshield and saw that there was a little pond. He got out of the van and opened her door. She thanked him as she got out. She waited as he grabbed a basket from his backseat.

He led them down a little hill, his hand holding hers as she wobbled.

Once they made it to the flat ground, he let go of her hand. He reached into the basket and pulled out a blanket. He threw it on the ground and offered her to sit first.

She smiled as she sat down, smoothing down her dress to cover her thighs. Eddie sat next to her and took out a few snacks from the basket.

Within an hour they were talking like they knew each other for years. Eddie was learning so much about her and it made him like her even more. She had an amazing personality and she was funny. She made Eddie laugh so hard that water came out of his nose. Which made her laugh so hard she had to hold her stomach.

She didn't think she had ever been so happy to be with someone.

And for once, Eddie loved getting to know someone.

As another hour passed, Eddie's urgers got the best of him. She was telling a story and he was lost in her eyes. The way the moon shined down on her and the sound of the water, it couldn't get more romantic in his eyes.

Eddie didn't notice he was leaning in until she froze. He looked down at her lips as he closed the space between them. He softly kissed her lips, and his hands reached forward to wrap around her waist.

She was nervous but she kissed him back. Her hands shook as she moved her arms around his neck. She was new to this and she wasn't sure how to kiss him back. But as he kissed her harder, she got the hang of it.

The kiss got heated as he slipped his tongue into her mouth, she shivered and was surprised to hear a moan slip from her throat.

Eddie took the moan as a green light to move forward. His hands moved down to her thighs and began to slip under her dress.

Her lips stopped and she yanked back. Her hands stopped his hands from moving even further.

"Don't be nervous," he whispered, he went to attach his lips to hers again but she turned her head.

"I'm not, It's our first date, Eddie. I don't want to rush anything." She explained honestly.

"It's not rushing. I do this on all my first dates." Eddie shrugged like it wasn't a big deal.

Y/N felt a blow hit her chest. All of his dates? How many has he been on? How many had he brought to this exact spot?

"You're a pig," she scoffed as she shoved him off of her. She stood up.

"Woah, what's going on?" He asked as he stood up. He wasn't aware his fuck boy ways were sneaking out of him.

"Absolutely nothing anymore," she glared, "take me home." She marched to his van without a glance back.

~

The car ride was silent. She didn't speak a word, just stared out the window.

She should have known better.

"Did I do something wrong?" he asked as he pulled up to her house.

"I'll see you Monday." She spat as she got out and slammed his door.

"Y/N!" he yelled after her as he got out. He grabbed her arm and turned her around.

"What did I do?" he asked genuinely.

"I do this on all my dates," she mocked, her voice deep as she repeated his words. "I should have known it was all an act."

The realization smacked him in the face.

"Shit, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to push like that." His eyes were soft as he apologized. "None of it is an act! I really like you and I'm not used to feeling that way. I'm used to something different, you know?"

"Maybe you need to figure out everything you feel, and maybe we can talk when you are ready to face those feelings." She smiled sadly and pecked his cheek. He watched as she walked inside.

~~~

The next night Eddie was all over the place. He performed and ran straight to the bar. He wanted to drink his sorrows away. He had one shot and he blew it. He showed just how washed up he was. He slammed down his shot and called for another.

"Hard night?" A random girl asked as she sat next to him. He turned his head to take in the blonde.

"Yep," he said, slamming down his second shot.

"Let me make you feel better," she whispered into his ear.

~

Eddie sat in the back of his van with the random girl on his lap. Her lips were on his neck, but everything felt wrong.

He wasn't enjoying it, and it wasn't making him forget about her. He tried to close his eyes, but all he saw was her sweet smile as they laughed by the water.

He stopped the girl's hands as they went for his belt.

"I can't do this. I'm sorry," he said, he didn't look at her as he grabbed his shirt and slipped it on.

"Are you serious? Since when?" the girl scoffed

"Have you ever really liked someone? Not like being in love, but in that area where you can see yourself falling in love with them?" He asked, the girl sighed and slipped on her shirt.

"Yeah. Chances are if you can already see yourself falling in love, it'll happen. You stuck in that spot?" She asked

"You know my reputation around here. I fuck and move on. She's different. I asked her out and we had an amazing date, then I fucked it up." He sighed, "Not sure how to fix it."

"Admitting it to yourself is the first step,"

"And the next?" he asked

"You admit it to her."

~~~

Monday morning arrived and Eddie was ready to win her back.

Since the project was finished, she wouldn't be sitting next to him. But that was not going to stop him.

He wrote a little note this morning, asking to meet outside during lunch. He walked in and saw her already sitting at her spot. He took a deep breath and handed the note to her.

She looked up at him but didn't say a word.

Eddie walked back to his desk. All throughout class he kept looking back at her.

~

Eddie waited outside and checked his watch. Lunch started ten minutes ago and she wasn't there. He was nervous he might have messed up too much and that she didn't care to fix it. She probably realized he wasn't worth the hassle or the emotions he caused.

He crunched the flowers in his grip as he looked over his shoulder.

"Hi,"

He heard her soft voice before he saw her. He turned around and smiled as she walked closer.

He was nervous as he handed her the flowers, "these are for you."

"Thanks," she said quietly as she took the flowers from his hands.

"I'm really sorry for acting like a dick. You were right, I needed to figure out everything I felt. I went to the bar and I met someone."

Y/N ignored the pain she felt as she listened.

"My plan was to do what I always did. Sleep with someone until I forgot why I was there in the first place. But I stopped it because it felt wrong. I hated myself for being with her. I kept thinking of you." He stepped closer as he held her hand.

"I was doing the wrong thing and with the wrong person. And it made me realize, that I really like you. And I want my main focus to be just on you. I want you." He looked deep into her eyes. "I would love to have the chance to take you out again. I've never actually been on a date, that was my first real one. I know I fucked up the beautiful night we had, but I really think I can make you feel special."

"I guess there's no harm in giving it a shot." She smiled

Eddie jumped to his feet with excitement.

"Thank you!" he crushed her in a hug as she laughed.

~~~

They had been dating for a month and Eddie was true to his word. She felt more special than ever and it was all because of him.

She felt a little nervous as they walked into the hideout. He was honest about his past here and the reputation he had. But she wanted to be a supportive girlfriend and watch him perform. She had to try to forget about all the girls there and just focus on her man.

"The second I'm done, I will be coming straight to you," he smiled. He leaned in and pressed his lips against hers. She was in a territory where Eddie was never taken, and she wanted to prove herself.

She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him harder. She wasn't shy as she snuck her tongue in his mouth. Her body rocked against his as his hands landed on her ass.

He felt his head spin as she pulled away. His eyes slowly opened as he caught his breath

"What was that?" he asked, his eyes dark as he drank her in

"Good luck kiss," she said with a shrug and smirk

"I'm going to need luck hiding the front of my pants," he teased as he adjusted his tight jeans.

"I'll help you faster," she whispered in his ear. She enjoyed the way he shuddered.

He kept his eyes on her as he walked into the back.

~

She understood why so many girls adored her boyfriend. The way he performed was incredible. It was hard to look anywhere else.

She waited at a table in the back as he wrapped up. His sweaty body came walking towards her but a girl stepped in.

Y/N couldn't hear the conversation but she could tell the girl was flirting by the way she ran her hand up Eddie's arm.

Then another girl came after that one left. And then other.

Y/N felt sick as she watched countless girls walk up and flirt with him. It was a painful reminder of what Eddie's past was.

She was quick to run outside, needed fresh air and to be away from the scene she was stuck watching over and over.

Eddie was quick to push everyone aside and follow her out.

"Hey baby," he said softly, she was leaning against the wall.

"You were amazing!" she praised as she pulled him into a hug. Eddie hugged her back and thanked her. He pulled back but kept his arms around her.

"Want to tell me what happened in there?" Eddie asked

Y/N sighed and looked down at her feet

"I was just a little jealous."

"Why? You are my girlfriend, they've got nothing on you." Eddie explained

Y/N scoffed and unhooked her arms from him.

"They have all had sex with you, Eddie! They've got plenty on me. I mean, I am nothing like those girls."

"Exactly!" Eddie said as he placed his hands on her face. "I don't want you to be anything like them. I want you because you are you. Yes, I've been physical with them, but that is all. There is no connection or emotional ties. It's different with you because I really see myself falling in love with you."

"Really?" she smiled as she looked up at him.

"Of course." He said as he crashed his lips on hers. She moaned as she kissed him back, her hands in his hair.

After a few seconds, she pulled away. Smirking as he chased her lips. She had him right around her finger.

"You know..." she started, her hands slipped down his body and rested on top of his jeans. "Maybe I'll eliminate the one thing they have on me." Her smirk made Eddie shiver in excitement.

"As in sex?" Eddie choked out. His eyes lit up like Christmas as he practically bounced with anticipation.

"Van, now." She said as she turned around and walked towards his fan.

He watched her walk away with a dopey smile on his face.

"YOU COMING?" she yelled as she turned. She walked backward and kept her eyes on him. She laughed as he seemed to snap out of his daydream. He fished out his keys and dropped them on the floor.

"SHIT, I'M COMING!" he screamed as he bent down and grabbed his keys.

She giggled as he ran straight to the van.

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