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Mutuals every time we’re all online this is what we’re doing

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#prev ME!!! I’m ready put me in coach!

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it’s monday i’m in the labyrinth

#I was really hoping it was going that direction and it was

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“I’m not the sailor you are, Francis, never will be. But you will never be fit for command”

So, it’s possibly the lukewarmest of takes to say that neither Crozier nor Franklin are the best of captains. The interesting thing is how their strengths and weaknesses complement each other and the two of them could have been a good team if they had both been able to put their differences aside and work together: Crozier is a shrewd and experienced sailor but cannot connect with the men around him, while Franklin is overconfident in his own abilities but beloved and respected by the entire crew (save Crozier).

I’ve seen a lot of gifsets and meta highlighting Franklin’s failings in comparison to Crozier’s strengths, but not so much giving the other side and showing all the ways in which the series contrasts Crozier’s mishandling of interpersonal situations with Franklin’s social grace. Crozier knows the arctic better than Franklin, but it is Franklin who understands that keeping the men’s spirits up and making them feel like a valued member of a team all working together is a vital part of a captain’s duties. It is clear to the audience that Crozier does care for his men (possibly even more so than Franklin does - Franklin’s decision to move a dying David Young to Erebus was not motivated by what was best for the patient) but this doesn’t stop him from treating them badly and fostering a resentment that eventually leads to mutiny.

“I’m not the sailor you are, Francis, never will be. But you will never be fit for command”. Franklin’s entire speech in episode three is fascinating and astonishingly cruel (far crueler than it would have been had Crozier not interrupted him while he was writing Gore’s eulogy, I think) and hits Crozier so hard because he knows Franklin is right, but this has already gotten far too long so I just want to pick out those two sentences because it encapsulates their conflict so well. Franklin knows he isn’t a strong sailor but he can inspire the men and believes that is what is most important in a commander; while Crozier keeps himself at a distance from his men but believes his sailing experience and acumen is what makes a captain. Not only do they both lack the strengths the other possesses, they don’t value those strengths and so cannot connect from a place of respect and learn from each other, which leaves their relationship as one of the many tragedies of the series.

#brilliant. #the terror

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So your Captain flirted back. What now?

#SCRRRREEEEEAMMMMM I LOVE!!! #James can dish it out but he can't take it #just straight up blue screening 404 brain not found #static only no thots #i need this ficlet NOW #the terror #fitzier

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I am honestly deeply curious about people's preferences from this list. Mostly as I just made one of these and brought it to a potluck and it is gone. Leave your distaste for Midwest cuisine at the door please. Yes, all of it will fluff you up for winter, that's like 63% of the point.

But for real? Which one do you just... almost hate yourself for loving the most?

#DEVILED. EGGS. #i have a friend who loves making weird deviled eggs #like with tea and kimchi and bbq sauce and stuff #he's a mad wizard and they always SLAP #but i will also eat like 10 regular deviled eggs just straight up slurp them down god they're so good

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what the fuck did you expect me to feel when you gripped the back of my head like that and sank your fangs into my neck? Indifference? Disgust? NOT sheer adoration? be serious.

#it's the grip AND the bite #the 'holding you down with impossible strength' of it all

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James flirting with Francis is like a dog chasing its own tail. He wouldn’t know what to do if it worked and Francis actually flirted back

#he’d be all frozen deer-in-headlights style #blink blink bitch #the terror #fitzier

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everyone: what's your goal in life?

me: to write a story so soul snatching, so gut wrenching and so devastatingly beautiful that it leaves you crying at 3am when you have a 8am lecture/shift and it inspires people to write entire essays, to write entire fanfics, mood boards and playlists based on it.

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i think at some point if you make a rpf historical drama show gay enough like via script and actor chemistry you should get a free pass to make them kiss onscreen at least once. the families will understand if theyre real ones

#co-signed

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Are we brothers, Francis?

-> 5/∞ CHARACTER DYNAMICS in The Terror

#i think i hauve scurvy #<- prev SAME #the terror #fitzier

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let’s settle this shit but do NOT reblog if you’re gonna be modest about it like a little BITCH. anyway privilege check tell me which ones apply to you: hot, funny, can dance, can do math, can spell, can drive, can cook

#hot. can dance. can do math. can spell. can drive. can cook. #i'm the whole package except for being funny fjkldsaklj #but like I AM funny to some people my humor is just...subtle and a little off-center

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So I think I forgot to post about it here but I'm knitting my own wedding dress.

#okay but i literally knit this pattern as a shawl for my own wedding!! #super cool to see it adapted to a whole dress #knitting

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my fave greek history story to tell is that of agnodice. like she noticed that women were dying a lot during childbirth so she went to egypt to study medicine in alexandria and was really fucking good but b/c it was illegal for women to be doctors in athens she had to pretend to be a man. and then the other doctors noticed that she was 10x better than them and accused her of seducing and sleeping with the women patients. like they brought her to court for this. and she just looked at them and these charges and stripped in front of everyone like “yeah. im not fucking your wives” and then they got so mad that a woman was better at their jobs then them that they tried to execute her but all her patients came to court and were like “are you fucking serious? she is the reason you have living children and a wife.” so they were shamed into changing the law and that is how women were given the right to practice medicine in athens

#amazing

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we should be getting iced coffee and going to creepy and musty antique stores together why must we be separated by our screens…

#i need this in my life

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cried for the entire hour of my therapy appointment

but it was also so good in a lot of ways. like, there's so much pain, but there's also hope.

#more relationship stuff #and it's just devastatingly hard and complicated #and so much of me trying not to hurt people I love #but also trying to not strangle who I am #I gotta say therapy in the morning works for my schedule but damn #going from that straight into work emails? nearly impossible

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get ready for an exuberant summer

#god i hope so