#imagine thinking you're doing so great at things and surviving well. only to learn you've died and you've died and you've died

[acerikus]

M a n. Thinking about how flowey's determination overpowers clover's in uty and how hes always the one who controls the save file at that point in time. Every time he resets when clover dies, they won't remember it. Every death is just wiped entirely from existence as far as they're concerned, it's like it's their first run and they did all this first try.

If they failed a few times along the way, it must fuck them up so badly when flowey cheerfully tells them how many times they died in the hotland apartment complex.

#clover uty #ut yellow #uty #uty spoilers #<- this guy never stops thinking about flowey ig #xan's thoughts #imagine thinking you're doing so great at things and surviving well. only to learn you've died and you've died and you've died #you don't remember. you can't improve based on memory. how many times did you have to get extremely lucky to be here now? #how many times were you just extremely unlucky on the way? #i wanna hug them so bad

[cherryfennec]

So this was originally supposed to have a kickass artwork of the bros using the power- up and stuff but then I got sick and then I realised Im out of time and here we are so uh hieee everyone and welcome to my post-

Happy MAR10 Day! For the occasion, let's go back to the (not discussed in a long time) Power-Up headcanons. This time I'll focus on the Ice Flower (most of the lore under cut like last time)!

This was surprisingly requested by some (3) people. I'm going to be honest, I barely remembered this one at first. I kinda know how it looks and generally what it does, which will have to be enough to base this entire thing on. With that being said, I did some thinking and here's what I've got:

General headcanons;

This one has difficulty surviving outside of it's original environment. If you want to keep a batch in the house your best bet is to use the fridge/freezer, otherwise it looses both it's blue look and the stored energy. See, the Ice Flower originally wasn't (and still technically isn't) it's own flower species. Let me elaborate:

Nowadays the conditions there are not as harsh, however a rather long time ago travelers heading towards places like the Snow Mountain needed to be both be specially trained and very well equipped to even attempt a climb. A heat source was a big must, and it so happens that it often consisted of Fire Flowers. They'd put some in their coats to keep warm, as well as store a few in the backpack just in case they needed to protect themselves from monsters. When setting camp during their journeys these hikers would use the Power-Ups energy to start fires and cook food. After the flowers were depleted of their energy and entered their hibernation stage (I talked about it in my Fire Flower post), they would be simply thrown away like trash. Waiting for them to recharge was often not beneficial, especially in conditions like this, so there was ultimately no point in keeping them. However like I mentioned before, Fire Flowers are very adaptable, which actually wasn't that known at the time. Instead of wilting, these stubborn plants would try gathering energy like the usual, but since it was very cold and direct sunlight was limited, they decided to collect something else. While not all flowers made it, a few managed to amass the eminating frost and turn it into a new kind of energy which proved to be enough for their survival. With time even their petal colour changed to blueish hues. And thus the Fire Flowers in the area became Ice Flowers and over the years started populating the mountains and snowfields.

The Ice Flower is a multiple use Power-Up in theory but more often than not you'll find yourself without a place to freeze it after using one. If it's not placed in a cold environment during it's hibernation it'll either die or, more uncommonly, simply revert back to being a Fire Flower after a long process.

Mario and Luigi specific headcanons;

While the idea of being able to freeze stuff sounded cool it wasn't very fun to learn.

In Marios case imagine: you're good at something, really, REALLY good at something. Okay great, now imagine being told that your knowledge doesn't matter because now you need to do the opposite of what you've learned. Back with the theme of "elements don't mix", Mario absolutely hated how much effort he needed to put into focusing the newfound energy to barely make a tiny projectile. Even before he got the Firebrand he had enough difficulty with it, so it only got worse from there. This was one of the rare times where learning the bare basics instead of mastering a Power-Up was enough for him.

Luigi didn't really mind. The main complications came more from the vague instructions he received during training rather than his own inability. Suprisingly or not the Thunderhand didn't make this one much of a pain either, I guess anomalies attract eachother. While he doesn't consider this Power-Up as a favourite he still finds it pretty fun that he can freeze and walk on water. Did you know, he used to be pretty good at skating in high school. If you didn't he'll make sure to bring it up at a given occasion. Back to ice powers, he definitely outdoes his brother on this one, even if not by much.

There's probably one more thing I should mention. Despite the contrary belief the Ice Flower does NOT increase ones tolerance to cold temperatures. To be frank it might even decrease it by lowering the bodys natural temperature, making the chances of frostbite higher. And so, they learned it the hard way.

In conclusion, this is more of a situational Power-Up. It's neither easy to find or preserve which can be annoying but despite all this it's hard to deny that it's ultimately a useful tool.

Few bonus headcanons!

I don't know how much sense I conveyed through my broken wording and less than average writing skills but it's not that shabby if I say so myself. Just like last time some details might change in the future but for now that's the general idea that I have considering the Ice Flower. Once again thank you to whoever took the time to read this!

#super mario #mario bros #smb #mario #luigi #myart #mar10 #mar10day #super mario bros #mydesigns

[faithfromanewperspective]

It seems like no coincidence that you sent me an ask right after I had a brooding session that led to me wanting to send you an ask. Here we are 🤭

Mine's unrelated to music and chronic illness though: I wanted to get your view on what being Australian is to you. Who are we? What are we? I've been having this identity crisis all my life because my ancestors are immigrants from everywhere, with different cultures, and I feel like I don't belong here despite how the land has also shaped me into who I am.

Sometimes I think at the core of the culture of Australia is loneliness/isolation and I also wanted to know your take on that too.

Hope you're well, lovely 💛💛💛

ooh. wow. hmm. i'm... not doing great as you can probably tell by the time at which i'm posting this. but i surprisingly have a lot of thoughts about this.

for me, it's a connection to one of the oldest lands there is--i've studied a lot of geology, i've had to for my degree, and because of the lack of volcanic activity for so long our land, everything about it, is real old, and that's something i have a lot of respect and reverence for. i've also been drawn to Indigenous culture and Indigenous land stewardship for the longest time: the community, the spirituality, the sense of survival and justice, the shared resources, the storytelling, the art, the connection to the land. i'm not the least bit indigenous to anywhere really so i don't really know why, but you've made me realise something writing this, i should start to go seek that out a bit more and find community and stuff in it, it might be part of what i'm longing for.

diversity and a loss and reconstruction of identity is i also think part of it too. we are so diverse, aussies are from everywhere, from those who were born to a long line of stewards of this great land, to all those who came to it from everywhere: all parts of europe, asia, new zealand--everyone's family has a story of how they came here and why, of a brand new start for one generation, and everyone after having to go through putting together the fragments and figuring out who they are, reinventing it as they face new things compared to what any of their ancestors ever have. in a way it's about deciding again and again to rediscover your home culture/s and figure out how to fit them into a context of diversity, find your people or bring a new tradition to your people, but also take tradition lightly in terms of it has to fit around survival in harsh conditions, it always does, practical comes first which I'll get into but i'd say part of it is navigating the patchwork of cultures and realising yours is never going to be everyone but also no one can take it away from you, realising that because they try, but ultimately no one who does that will ever succeed. not even the colonisers who generations down have made us forget a lot of our Indigenous culture and feel empty as a result; if you're here on this land you've got some responsibility to care for it and every generation longs for something we don't quite have: this is where it's so useful to have other cultures around, because we need to learn from each other. we do so much better when we do. (alternatively, say you grew up in sydney without saying you grew up in sydney. it's a whole world there if you haven't experienced it).

but I would say that not only loneliness and isolation but also loss of identity are core to being Australian. questioning it and finding it again, being nothing like you ever imagined. there's a lot of generational trauma written into this land that's going to take quite a while to recover. we've all left it behind in the past, we've more often than not experienced some degree of violence in doing that be it from colonisation and the way the cities we have now (aussies are drawn to cities, the stats show us as one of the most urbanised places in the world, no matter what the stereotypes are) being Not Born Of Indigenous Input to violence of poverty and being driven to crime then shipped halfway across the world away from loved ones, to violence of displacement from other lands from poverty or war or overpopulation. we're all kind of unmoored even though many don't ever show it, we're all coming from a place of having lost that deep connection to self and either trying to find it or not bothering and I think it does really show in the way we connect to each other, the way we connect to the land, the misunderstanding and exploitation and often trying to be something we're not.

but i'd also say our strength is in our survival. we're good at coming together in natural disasters, we're often really creative when it comes to getting by, we're hard working, we know we're entitled to nothing. it comes when you've lived in conditions like ours: poor soil, harsh weather--be it drought or too much rain, we've been there, we've seen it, every year and every season is like we jump to a different climate zone, our agriculture isn't suited to our climate or our soil and our cities aren't planned but we get by anyway. we're hardworking and humble and when you put an aussie in another country and another setting you really see that. and we do it like it's nothing and still think it's nothing and don't understand compliments on it, we're self-deprecating like that. survival happens if we all do well enough to get by, independence leads to interdependence, and as a result we don't like people who take too much and we want those who are struggling to succeed. we aren't all like that, sure, but you see someone trying to get ahead and getting up themselves because of it? they won't last long as an aussie. community can and will ostracise them and no one's gonna feel bad. we hate our politicians but we have them anyway. we don't let them get too big-headed, we know they will, we have artists specifically employed to make fun of them. we're not perfect at this but they're older white men (problem) we don't feel bad about bullying them even if it'd be more productive to have a diverse group of people--but then we might actually feel bad about bullying them so that won't do. politics are for show anyway to get along with other countries. aussies don't care about anything we can't see with our own eyes and touch with our own hands, preferably holding a shovel or too-big set of tongs. 'she'll be right, mate' we say but really we just don't want to deal with it. why would we when getting by for ourselves is hard enough? don't talk about abstract concepts. but behind the survival if you break into that part of our minds that longs to be seen and cared for, you might have gotten our attention even though we will never admit that kind of vulnerability (it's why so many of us find western models of therapy etc so confusing. we're hardened folk)

there's a lot of negative but we kind of live with it i guess? we don't pretend it isn't the case. and sometimes we do something good. aussies invented permaculture, for example. i'm sure there are other things right there but i can't call them to mind right now. do you know what permaculture is? go have a look into it. it's one of my favourite things. in a more academic sense we invented water sensitive urban design and biodiversity sensitive urban design as well. and we needed to from a place of survival. it's the beauty of it, it's authentic and when it's there on the ground we can touch it so it's real and other countries can then see what we do and implement it themselves. with these things having popped up in recent years i think we're in a stage of transition as a nation, we're still a patchwork of confused cultural threads trying and failing at being european with our education and agriculture models--we haven't grown into ourselves yet. we haven't realised the potential of all the cultures we have to inspire something better. we still get a bit scared of each other. we still haven't figured out who we are--and personally, looking back at my family, generations of immigrants whose children become immigrants to somewhere else, i feel like there is a lot to discover that i have no idea how to find. how to internalise. my ancestors come from all over the world, and no one has had to pull together such a diverse range of ancestral and found cultural influences until me (i should give myself credit for that. and also not just talk about it but actually do it). and then when it comes to things like religion we're skeptical but also just long to be loved. and we'll take what gives that if we don't have to talk about it, but we won't take what limits us, and i feel like we're still figuring out how to lose tradition and hierarchy while keeping the heart of all the faith traditions we have here. another thing i should investigate. because we're still trying to be someone else i think, and it's not working. so to sum it up i think we're a whole lot of unfounded potential and messy sort-of functionality. no one does it like we do. not even us.

but this is coming from someone who is strangely really connected to everyone, like it's a bit of a weird talent and a little bit hippie (but aussies are hippies too, even though the hardened country folk would never admit it and the city folk don't have time for it and that leaves the label to tasmanians and northern rivers/byron coast folk who the rest of us associate it with). like i can connect with anyone for better or worse, and i do, i can't stop myself, but it's also tiring. who needs the autonomy and freedom of the bush and the novelty and connection and opportunity of our biggest cities. i'm well suited to my career i guess, but not so much self care! and yet. the reason i know how to survive is that it's handed down from ancestors from literally everywhere. we've all brought that and faced this harsh land in the last century, and now it's up to me to do that in a modern setting with modern problems like overpopulation and biodiversity loss.

and i'll also admit a lot of my conceptulisation comes from i am australian by the seekers. i generally sing/play the song without the third verse (or whichever one is about the war) because i find that in this moment in time it's not actually the biggest thing in aussie history that shaped us--it's more a global thing we were dragged into and we do better to leave it and instead think about ancient history, about the people who came with colonisation who weren't all bad individually though they were forced into a bad situation and became many of our ancestors, about the land as a living thing with a spirit, and about the things we create.

otherwise if you're looking for something that more captures what i think you might relate to being australian and some of the generational trauma you see around you that's so woven into our country if not your immigrant family who are trying to fit in but haven't yet specifically there's bloodline by luke hemmings. you know, because at the moment i can't shut up about him or his music.

anyway, do yourself a favour (heck, do me a favour) and get out of that country town of a suburb you live in. it's very insular, possibly one of the most insular places i've seen in this land and i've been to a lot of country towns and urban precincts. we love walkable cities but we yearn for more, more enrichment in the enclosure, and so literally, get on a train and go somewhere, anywhere, and notice things. notice how they do things there. and let me know if it feels good to do that. I will mail you a go card with money on it if that's what you need. go find yourself

#australia rep #australian culture #australia #tasmanic #<-why is that tag here? i don't control it #song recs #music recs #personal mental health tag #permaculture #water sensitive urban design #biodiversity sensitive urban design #decolonise #decolonisation #inspo #just throwing tags at your ask for future reference. ignore them

[wildcatofgreen]

((here we go! lets try to wrap it up here kid, you asked a loaded question first time. i dont think i was ready to explore my in-universe consequences on canon like that.))

What the fuck is going onnnnn.

"Uhm. Okay. Uhm.

"You know everything, right? Do ya know what'll happen durin' that rematch on Tuesday?"

((I... Don't Know.))

"Oh what the fuck--"

((im serious!!! dont hurt me i kind of cant get hurt easily.

((you're dealing with a lot, right? youve still got a lot of stress on your back from various events and now certain friends have become a bit of a sore subject for you, right?))

". . ."

((without certain things happening to further push you along a certain path there's. not much i can say about it without it happening already. you dont have all the information. you dont have a real gameplan going in to the fight. you still dont know what he's doing, really. you havent learned anything yet.

((yooooou still have time to, don't get me wrong!!!

((but if youre not pushed in the right direction...))

". . .

"Then how the fuck do I get pushed in that direction???"

((i dont know, girl. that's what it all comes down to, right? you getting pushed in that direction in the first place.

((but im not exactly sure what you need, either. this shit aint binary--there's no switch to turn on or off that lets you develop the necessary skills and knowledge that lets you do what you want to do.

((i dont want the worst case scenario to happen just as much as you dont. you need a break. youre barely surviving as is right now--and i know this because im the girl that's writing you. you're not okay in any sense of the word and wow id hate to spell this out not only for you but for everyone reading this right now but hell if it wasnt obvious before then its hella fucking obvious now.))

". . .

"Fuck."

She sits on the floor, bringing her knees close to her chest.

"This... This ain't how I expected this 'ta go."

((you and me both.

((over halfway, carol. c'mon, ask me an easy one and then we can say our goodbyes.))

"Uhm... "What comes of this whole... Sony an' Lyli thingie?"

((i said something EASY, you TWERP))

". . . !!!!!!"

((listen, okay, i do not have a good answer for you there at all. to uh, put it simply and not confuse you further--lilac's her own person. and so is sonar. i cant just tell you what's going to happen there--not that i'd want to--because like ((...i dont have ''free range'' over them, so to speak. ((you're set in stone. and by the looks of it theyre also set in stone. as long as lilac keeps suffering in her little silence and sonar's there as a support for both you and her--probably--then i cant imagine anything changing from the set path y'all have.))

"...Lyli's what."

((shit. me and my big mouth.

((WHATEVER NONE OF THIS IS CANON ANYWAY SO YOU'RE NOT GONNA REMEMBER ANY OF IT AND IT'LL BE FINE HA HA.))

". . ."

((just... have faith, right? it's what you've been doing thus far. why stop now?

((everyone'll be fine.

((okay, we dont have much time left to talk. ((remember sonar's song. remember how much lyli loves you. remember all the friends and family you have by your side.

((a little birdie told me something once.

((''That unlike some, Carol didn't have to face it all at once, that the people around were, fortunately understanding enough to grant her this small solace...''

((it's a lot right now. i know it is. and not everything looks great, coming out on the other side.

((but you can do it. you can make it!!!! i know you can, girl.

((and after all of this, you'll be able to relax for a bit.

((keep going. have faith. dont give up. that's the best i can say about any of this.))

She did not have any confidence in this entity's words, funnily enough.

Everything she said felt like it was making things worse.

"Y-Yeah. Okay. "Thanks."

((...

((right. well! i gotta get to fixing this stupid wall.

((good luck out there carol. im rooting for ya))

And all she would do is nod.

#carol's cruisings #catmun speaks #noncanon stuff #that. was heavy. #i did not think in the year of our lord and savior [CURRENT YEAR] id give my own character a pep talk #and proceed to fail at said pep talk #its... its not canon! so itll be fine #but god damn that kind of fucking sucks doesnt it

[aimzicr]

(i haven't updated the fic in a while but stream of consciousness is a hell of a thing--)

i see you and you're brave and you're thoughtful and you don't judge me for my failures and my fear (like my husband, you remind me of my husband, the wound is fresh but I think I am seeing him everywhere, in my grief I look at you and I think I might be falling for you) and for a little while you need me. I learn i can step up and i can help you and I think, because you've not had anyone help you in a long time, you fall a little bit in love with me too.

i meet you and you're strong and you're determined and you have the same eyes and jaw and you walk the same path my husband did, and when you put yourself in harm's way in front of me I panic, i scream (I imagine my husband dying needlessly all over again, and I press my hands against the glass and scream until you get back up again.) you survive. you give me a gift against the harshness of the world, you wish me well. I walk away because that is what the world demands, and I wonder if you ever think of me when you recover.

when i see you again, i help you where i can. we save some lives. we make a difference. we find a bit of piece in this ragged shithole of a world. when you tell me you love me, I tell you 'I'm sorry, I'm still in love with my husband', and you agree that it is still too soon but you will stay with me, build a better world with me. and i love you all the more for it.

when i see you again, i need your strength by my side. when I see you again, you need my sense of justice (though it takes some time to admit it, to understand why you need it). You learn to look beyond the law of steel and to see your own heart, and you tell me that no-one has ever made an impact like I have. it has been time enough for a wake, for a healing, so i trust my fragile heart to your care and make a tentative promise, fearing i will fail. And then I do fail, and you have no need for my heart any longer.

I rebuilt a castle and saved a nation with you. And for you, I faced a tyrant and bared my teeth at his steel until he turned away in cowardice. are neither enough, when I was one of the cogs in the machine that made the world a graveyard? my husband lies dead beneath the earth. i fell in love with you, and with you, and i tried to be better. but my crimes are too great, and my failures against you too much. you left together, one kindly with promises to stay in touch, and one in silence with no wish to look me in the eye.

neither of you were meant to be with me. but you're good for each other. kindness and strength, compassion and discipline, the dreams and the means, you are a perfect match for each other and will change the world for the better. you deserve to be happy, and you'll be happy together.

and maybe, one day, because of the love you have, I will not feel like i deserve only dust and ash for my failures.

#my writing #work in progress

[yelenayena]

Love Game part 1

Pairing: Yelena x fem!reader

Genre: Lemon, non!AU

A/N: This is my very first fanfic. Sorry if it's bad, but I hope you like and enjoy reading this story. The period in this story is after Pixis visited Yelena to talk abt that she met Eren secretly. I'm poor at grammar, and this is the first story I have written in English, so I’m sorry if they're a lot of mistakes I made in my writing. Feel free to give me some advice in English so I can learn and write better in the future 💜

Summary: You live in the same house as Yelena in Paradis as a maid. You adore Yelena, but you thought she wasn't attracted to you at all. The day after she talked with Pixis on the balcony, she eventually talks to you and tries to tease you.

Warning: Smut, +18!!

Imagine if you work as a maid in the house where Yelena lived in Paradis. Idk guys, but my head is full of imagination, picturing Yelena having an affair with a cute maid. I think it’ll be a naughty sweet story for Yelena to have fun with her maid, with you, when she lived in the great house as her prison cell. So let's begin the story!

It’s been a while since you were working as a servant in the great house, especially to watch over a special prisoner, Yelena. Of course, this job was recommended by the Garrison Commander, Dot Pixis, and you took this offer because the salary is worth it.

The house is on the outskirts of the Trost District. It's a beautiful country house with nice scenery, but the atmosphere isn't as beautiful as the place. It’s always bitterly cold and rigid, with several military soldiers who hold a gun in their arms to guard the house.

One time you cleaned the window, you were talking to yourself that you were admiring the view outside the window. You didn't realize her presence behind your back. She then replied to your words and said, “the panorama may be nice, but it doesn't mean anything if I was kept in custody. It feels like I chained to the guard here,” she walked away and left you in that room. It was the first words she has ever said to you.

You know she’s an outsider. You know she came from far away, a place where your people call it as ‘enemies of the Eldian’. You heard the rumors about her, some say she's an enemy, some say she's an ally. That’s why her movements were extremely restricted and she was guarded by soldiers strictly.

After working in that house for months and keeping an eye on her, you no longer cared about the rumors. Instead, you put an interest in her. Who can ignore the big-beauty-badass queen who has 6’7” in height? Her presence had a strong impact on you, but you can only admire her from a distance. You are just a servant, and she doesn't seem attracted to you.

The day after you saw Yelena talked to Pixis on the balcony. It’s still early in the morning, and you're ready to clean the house. You entered the living room, you found her sitting on the ladderback chair near the window. You were surprised she was inside the room, she leaned against her chin while she was seeing the view out there. She barely talks to you, even when you smiled at her, she barely smiles back. You don't really mind her conduct, you just want to focus on your work. But sometimes, you feel so sorry for her because she looks so lonely, you also wonder what she was thinking about.

You didn't say anything to her but tidy up the books on the table immediately in the living room. One of the things you already know about her is, she likes to read books. You place the books on the bookshelf, then you clean up the table with a napkin.

“I wonder why a young and beautiful girl like you want to do a dirty job like that.” You heard the voice, and it came from her mouth. You widened your eyes, you were shocked because she talked to you so suddenly.

You turned your body to stare at her, “what you said dirty work, I say it's a noble work,” you replied. “I help you to live conveniently in this house."

“With a big salary?” she asked, skepticism painting her tone.

With a surprised look on your face, you sighed and smiled, “well, you're right at the point, but I need to make a lot of money to survive in this cruel world. Now, with all due respect, let me continue my work, Ma’am.” You try to focus on your work again, but you can't help your mind with curiosity, how can she know about the salary, did Pixis tell her? That damned old-baldy man!

“Where do you come from?” she asked you again. Without turning the body, “Trost District is my hometown,” you answered.

“What do you usually do on your day off?” although she asked you several questions, she looked at you expressionlessly. You turn your body again, “are you investigating me?” you asked carefully.

“No. I’m bored and I just need someone to talk to,” she replied quickly. “The guards never answer my question, so maybe you can be my company,” she told you.

You felt an odd vibration on your body after you listened to her last words. You also felt delighted that finally, she wants to talk to you. Later if she can be your comrade, perhaps you can ask her what the world is like outside the wall, something you're very curious about.

“I usually go to my parents’ house to take them out for lunch or dinner, I love having quality time with them,” you replied.

With her big beautiful dark blue eyes, she stared in amazement at you. “That’s weird,” she said.

After you heard her words, you can't hold yourself not to giggle, “I’m sorry for my attitude,” you spoke with great difficulty when you were still giggling. “But your words are very contrary to the facial expression you've shown to me."

“It’s strange. I didn't feel offended by your attitude because you're so cute when giggling,” then she gave you a little smile.

To be continued...

Preview part 2:

Yelena: I always wonder, are you dating someone?

You: N- no.

Yelena: Then mind if I give you a goodnight kiss?

See you tomorrow! :)

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[colour-outside-the-liness]

Hi Colour! How are you doing today? I don't know about doing meaningful things with my life, feel like I've just been surviving this entire time lol. However I am trying to figure it out and working on building the life I want to live and hopefully I will be able contribute to this world in some way.

I don't think I've ever played a game of trivial pursuit. Have never been to a pub either, not like the ones you have in the UK anyway. Just been to very dirty bars where me and my friends used to drink as much as we could afford, shared questionable food that could potentially make us sick the next day and there were no quizzes or games really haha. So your exp sounds way more fun! 😂

I'm glad you're giving the song a chance! Only Spotify knows how many times I've listened to it lol. I reckon Hozier's going to be my artist of the year for 2021. I love attributing works of art to Dani x Jamie, have a whole ass Pinterest board full with images of paintings, poetry, music and anything that I think relates to them really (yeah I know, I have a problem).

I love everything you've said about how Dani, Viola and the lady in the lake are alike, I hadn't really thought about their similarities before, but everything you've said makes perfect sense. I always saw Viola as a narcissist, even her drive to protect her child felt selfish in a way, don't know if you know what I mean. And when she fades away and becomes the lady she's just pure (almost animalistic) instinct while on auto pilot, bc she only remembers rage and abandonment, she takes anything on her path aggressively unless they're a child. So what she sees in Dani is not processed logically, right? It's pure instinct and emotions, so what she recognizes in her when Dani invites her in is the desperate need to protect this child, so she sees her as deserving. Perhaps she also saw in Dani and opportunity to escape this nightmare. Despite all her faults she didn't deserve what happened to her either.

And don't get me wrong, Jamie is so, so strong and solid and she is my favorite mostly bc I identify with her personality more than Dani's. But we know Jamie is all that even before we learn her story, and I feel like it is expected that she'll be the strong and brave one bc she's had to be that her entire life albeit unwillingly. But Dani? We expect her to break at any given point, I mean she is reaching her limit after all that's happened, with all the weight she's carrying. I remember thinking "Jesus, this girl needs help" when I first watched the show hahaha. But she fights every damn time, she doesn't run away and that's why I find her so fascinating. That's why I thought this song was so fitting. Even if Dani would never see herself that way. But it's Jamie's perspective (and fire signs tend to exaggerate everything 😂) so it feels fitting that she thinks so highly of her baby haha. Ugh I just wanted them to stay together forever. 🥺

Omg yes! I love how you refined this idea, good thing you're a writer and I'm not hahaha. And yeah I'm absolutely here for sapphics with weapons like holy shit imagine Jamie fighting with a sword? 🤤 I'm weak. Hahaha would be cool to see them in a pirate AU too! Maybe someone's already done it? Idk. But aaaah I want to see them in every possible universe hahaha. Makes me want to get back into drawing too. 😩

Aww you two sound like you have a lovely bond going on. Your niece sounds like the coolest! I started out drawing anime too when I was a kid and ended up doing graphic design for a living! How did learning how to draw anime style go for you today?

Hey I'm doing great thank you I hope you are too? I know that feeling because I feel like that's how I have made it to 27 just surviving (barely) and taking things one day at a time to get me to this point and hopefully I can contribute in some way even it its just a small way... so I totally get that feeling but I am sure you contribute so much without you even realising it!! Oh it's great but depending on how competitive the people you're playing with are it can get pretty heated... I've been in some heated games of it before because people just refuse to believe I know the answers to some of the questions and they think I've been cheating and have all but demanded I have another question asked instead of the one I got right... and pub quizzes can be fun again depending on the team you're in and how seriously you wanna take it I have been in teams where its been a serious thing and we have all desperately wanted to win and then I've been in teams and we've just had fun with it... all the pubs I go in are dirty bars too but sometimes they have pub quizzes... I have had many nights where I have drank what I can afford... one night me on my roommate went over board though and we ended up spending ALL our money even our taxi fair and we had to walk home in the dark along country roads with hardly any lights to guide us... because of how drunk we were it too us around 3-4 hours and I fell over a road sign and ended up in a ditch... I've had a lot of fun experiences but some really stupid ones as well... your experiences sound great though!! I would love that!! I listened to the song and I loved it so much!! I don't even wanna know what my most listened to artist will be this year... my money is on it being the Six musical soundtrack... probably All You Wanna Do from that musical I'll be surprised if it's anything else. I would love for it to be someone like Hozier, but ever since I have done my Spotify wrapped thing it's always been a musical of some kind that's been my number 1 song / artist haha I love doing the same thing. If I can make something fit Dani x Jamie I will like it doesn't even matter what it is haha... I don't think you have a problem I think that sounds so cool!! I have nothing like that. I just have a head full of random ideas screaming to be let out I agree Viola is definitely selfish and narcissistic and everything she did came from a place of anger and rage over the things that happened to her she fell in love and got married and had a child and saw her sister try and take that from her while she was ill and in the end her sister killed her. Like yeah, I do feel sorry for Perdita with the way she was treated but I do think everything Viola did was out of frustration over what was happening to her. Like you said she acts on auto pilot and only knows rage until it comes to children- because all she knows is she is looking for a child so when she saw Dani so selfless sacrifice herself for a child she saw a little bit of herself in Dani she knows Dani is a good person and she can relate to that protective streak and I think she did see Dani as deserving I definitely agree with everything you've said here. Viola might have had faults and flaws and who doesn't? But I definitely think she had it rough and did deserve better than she was given. I agree, you can tell looking at Jamie that she is strong and brave while Dani comes off as the exact opposite. But I think you see fully how brave they both are when Dani sacrifices herself for Flora and when Jamie offers to keep Dani company and loves her despite knowing she won't be able to love her forever. I love Jamie but definitely relate to Dani's personality more, there are a lot of things Dani does that I see myself in her because I have done those types of things myself and the whole beast in the jungle speech resonates with me so much and every time I watch the last episode and hear that speech I am a crying mess from that point on. It's funny that you thought that about Dani when you first watched it, because me and my sisters got my mum to

watch it and she said the same thing about Dani "she needs help" but then once told me she liked Dani because she reminded her of me that was an interesting conversation to be a part of "Dani needs help... but I like her she's like you." I was like "Thanks?" I agree this song is definitely more how Jamie would see Dani, I think Dani just has a very blasé view of herself, like I don't think she's self conscious or self deprecating in anyway but I think she sort of walks around like "this is me and this is just how I am" where as Jamie just sees Dani for how brave and strong and amazing she is- maybe even if as a fire sign she exaggerates a little bit haha Jamie just thinks Dani is the most amazing person in the world and I just know that Dani saw her the same way!! I really wanted them to be together forever... I am never going to emotionally recover from Bly Manor. Your idea was incredible and I think it would be a great story to read honestly that's the type of thing I live for!! OMG Jamie with a sword is just 🤤 🥵 I am all for sapphics and weapons of any kind!! There's this pirate AU which is absolutely amazing!! I don't know if you've read it or not but iamalekza writes some really great fics!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/28631598/chapters/70179306 ^^ Pirate AU I really wish I could draw I would love to be able to draw scenes from fics I have read and even ones I have written but I just don't have the skill set for that!! I would love to see other fan arts though I think drawing is such an incredible talent to have and I am in awe of anyone that can do it!! Me and my niece have a great bond, she's like a little mini me (despite almost being as tall as me). She is honestly such a cool kid I have a hell of a lot of fun with her- I'm looking after her again tomorrow and I have no idea what we're gonna do but we will figure something out... she's such a good drawer she's only just started doing it at the beginning of the year and she's really progressed with it... I however have not so I am definitely gonna need more practice. That's so cool that you started out doing anime drawing and then ended up going into a career in graphic design. Again that's a talent that I am just in awe of because it's just something I have never been able to do!!

[butterflyinthewell]

Parents often report that learning their child is autistic was the most traumatic thing that ever happened to them. Non-autistic people see autism as a great tragedy, and parents experience continuing disappointment and grief at all stages of the child's and family's life cycle.

But this grief does not stem from the child's autism in itself. It is grief over the loss of the normal child the parents had hoped and expected to have. Parents' attitudes and expectations, and the discrepancies between what parents expect of children at a particular age and their own child's actual development, cause more stress and anguish than the practical complexities of life with an autistic person.

Some amount of grief is natural as parents adjust to the fact that an event and a relationship they've been looking forward to isn't going to materialize. But this grief over a fantasized normal child needs to be separated from the parents' perceptions of the child they do have: the autistic child who needs the support of adult caretakers and who can form very meaningful relationships with those caretakers if given the opportunity. Continuing focus on the child's autism as a source of grief is damaging for both the parents and the child, and precludes the development of an accepting and authentic relationship between them. For their own sake and for the sake of their children, I urge parents to make radical changes in their perceptions of what autism means.

I invite you to look at our autism, and look at your grief, from our perspective:

Autism is not an appendage

Autism isn't something a person has, or a "shell" that a person is trapped inside. There's no normal child hidden behind the autism. Autism is a way of being. It is pervasive; it colors every experience, every sensation, perception, thought, emotion, and encounter, every aspect of existence. It is not possible to separate the autism from the person--and if it were possible, the person you'd have left would not be the same person you started with.

This is important, so take a moment to consider it: Autism is a way of being. It is not possible to separate the person from the autism.

Therefore, when parents say,

I wish my child did not have autism,

what they're really saying is,

I wish the autistic child I have did not exist, and I had a different (non-autistic) child instead.

Read that again. This is what we hear when you mourn over our existence. This is what we hear when you pray for a cure. This is what we know, when you tell us of your fondest hopes and dreams for us: that your greatest wish is that one day we will cease to be, and strangers you can love will move in behind our faces.

Autism is not an impenetrable wall

You try to relate to your autistic child, and the child doesn't respond. He doesn't see you; you can't reach her; there's no getting through. That's the hardest thing to deal with, isn't it? The only thing is, it isn't true.

Look at it again: You try to relate as parent to child, using your own understanding of normal children, your own feelings about parenthood, your own experiences and intuitions about relationships. And the child doesn't respond in any way you can recognize as being part of that system.

That does not mean the child is incapable of relating at all. It only means you're assuming a shared system, a shared understanding of signals and meanings, that the child in fact does not share. It's as if you tried to have an intimate conversation with someone who has no comprehension of your language. Of course the person won't understand what you're talking about, won't respond in the way you expect, and may well find the whole interaction confusing and unpleasant.

It takes more work to communicate with someone whose native language isn't the same as yours. And autism goes deeper than language and culture; autistic people are "foreigners" in any society. You're going to have to give up your assumptions about shared meanings. You're going to have to learn to back up to levels more basic than you've probably thought about before, to translate, and to check to make sure your translations are understood. You're going to have to give up the certainty that comes of being on your own familiar territory, of knowing you're in charge, and let your child teach you a little of her language, guide you a little way into his world.

And the outcome, if you succeed, still will not be a normal parent-child relationship. Your autistic child may learn to talk, may attend regular classes in school, may go to college, drive a car, live independently, have a career--but will never relate to you as other children relate to their parents. Or your autistic child may never speak, may graduate from a self-contained special education classroom to a sheltered activity program or a residential facility, may need lifelong full-time care and supervision--but is not completely beyond your reach. The ways we relate are different. Push for the things your expectations tell you are normal, and you'll find frustration, disappointment, resentment, maybe even rage and hatred. Approach respectfully, without preconceptions, and with openness to learning new things, and you'll find a world you could never have imagined.

Yes, that takes more work than relating to a non-autistic person. But it can be done--unless non-autistic people are far more limited than we are in their capacity to relate. We spend our entire lives doing it. Each of us who does learn to talk to you, each of us who manages to function at all in your society, each of us who manages to reach out and make a connection with you, is operating in alien territory, making contact with alien beings. We spend our entire lives doing this. And then you tell us that we can't relate.

Autism is not death

Granted, autism isn't what most parents expect or look forward to when they anticipate the arrival of a child. What they expect is a child who will be like them, who will share their world and relate to them without requiring intensive on-the-job training in alien contact. Even if their child has some disability other than autism, parents expect to be able to relate to that child on the terms that seem normal to them; and in most cases, even allowing for the limitations of various disabilities, it is possible to form the kind of bond the parents had been looking forward to.

But not when the child is autistic. Much of the grieving parents do is over the non-occurrence of the expected relationship with an expected normal child. This grief is very real, and it needs to be expected and worked through so people can get on with their lives-- but it has nothing to do with autism.

What it comes down to is that you expected something that was tremendously important to you, and you looked forward to it with great joy and excitement, and maybe for a while you thought you actually had it--and then, perhaps gradually, perhaps abruptly, you had to recognize that the thing you looked forward to hasn't happened. It isn't going to happen. No matter how many other, normal children you have, nothing will change the fact that this time, the child you waited and hoped and planned and dreamed for didn't arrive.

This is the same thing that parents experience when a child is stillborn, or when they have their baby to hold for a short time, only to have it die in infancy. It isn't about autism, it's about shattered expectations. I suggest that the best place to address these issues is not in organizations devoted to autism, but in parental bereavement counseling and support groups. In those settings parents learn to come to terms with their loss--not to forget about it, but to let it be in the past, where the grief doesn't hit them in the face every waking moment of their lives. They learn to accept that their child is gone, forever, and won't be coming back. Most importantly, they learn not to take out their grief for the lost child on their surviving children. This is of critical importance when one of those surviving children arrived at t time the child being mourned for died.

You didn't lose a child to autism. You lost a child because the child you waited for never came into existence. That isn't the fault of the autistic child who does exist, and it shouldn't be our burden. We need and deserve families who can see us and value us for ourselves, not families whose vision of us is obscured by the ghosts of children who never lived. Grieve if you must, for your own lost dreams. But don't mourn for us. We are alive. We are real. And we're here waiting for you.

This is what I think autism societies should be about: not mourning for what never was, but exploration of what is. We need you. We need your help and your understanding. Your world is not very open to us, and we won't make it without your strong support. Yes, there is tragedy that comes with autism: not because of what we are, but because of the things that happen to us. Be sad about that, if you want to be sad about something. Better than being sad about it, though, get mad about it--and then do something about it. The tragedy is not that we're here, but that your world has no place for us to be. How can it be otherwise, as long as our own parents are still grieving over having brought us into the world?

Take a look at your autistic child sometime, and take a moment to tell yourself who that child is not. Think to yourself: "This is not my child that I expected and planned for. This is not the child I waited for through all those months of pregnancy and all those hours of labor. This is not the child I made all those plans to share all those experiences with. That child never came. This is not that child." Then go do whatever grieving you have to do--away from the autistic child--and start learning to let go.

After you've started that letting go, come back and look at your autistic child again, and say to yourself: "This is not my child that I expected and planned for. This is an alien child who landed in my life by accident. I don't know who this child is or what it will become. But I know it's a child, stranded in an alien world, without parents of its own kind to care for it. It needs someone to care for it, to teach it, to interpret and to advocate for it. And because this alien child happened to drop into my life, that job is mine if I want it."

If that prospect excites you, then come join us, in strength and determination, in hope and in joy. The adventure of a lifetime is ahead of you.

—Jim Sinclair (Website: Autreat)

#AutismSpeaks #LIUB #LightItUpBlue #AutismAwareness #REDInstead #ScrewBlue #BoycottAutismSpeaks #AutismAcceptance #AcceptanceNOTAwareness #AreYouAwareOfMeNow #LoveNotFear #AllAutistics #ActuallyAutistic April 2, 10pm

#boycottautismspeaks #autismspeaks #autism speaks #AreYouAwareOfMeNow #lightitupblue #autismawareness #autism #redinstead #autism acceptance #actuallyautistic #Autistic people are speaking #it's time to listen

[tortuganorrie]

A navyman and a Good Man

Hello everyone! This post is partly written for an old Tumblr and partly written for Amino. It's basically a long rant about why I think James is a good man and what I like about the character. I'm also rambling about why I believe he did some things he did.  Keep in mind that this is only my opinion and you may have a completely other one. 

Enjoy anyway. 

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James Norrington, some like him, some hate him for various reasons. Personally I love him and I think his character, despite not having that much screentime, is very interesting!

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 ☠COTBP☠

We all have to agree that Norrington is really good at what he does. He played a MAJOR role in clearing Port Royal and the Caribbean from pirates and even is one of the youngest people to achieve his rank. He knows exactly what he does and he works very hard. But wait, aren't we rooting for the pirates in POTC? Of course in the POTC universe we want the pirates to survive but if you view them from the standpoint of normal people in the universe, it's quite understandable you wouldn't really want them around. They steal, they plunder, they attack, pirates aren't paricularily good people and Norrington just does what he thinks is right.

From years of serving in the military and not showing emotion, he isn't exactly good with that, at least in the first movie. A great example is the awkward proposal to Elizabeth. What we learn though is that he really cares for her, he wanted to jump off the fort to save her and was only held back by other soldiers.

When she gets kidnapped he's clearly freaked out by that and truth be told the major reason he sailed after them was probably her. The whole thing actually didn't go with his plan at all. He wanted to continue his life in the military, stay true to his duty and marry the woman he loves so he could have a nice family.

And what does she do? She lies to him, telling him she accepts his proposal if they go after Will, even though she knows she won't marry Norrington anyway. As a person who considers the deleted scenes canon, it gets worse. She tells him that she didn't agree just for William, she tells him she didn't lie and when she calls him a fine man he just seems so happy. Now I'm not trying to show Elizabeth in a bad light here, I love her character and I understand she did it because she loves Will so much. It's just a point I had to make for his character.

Now imagine how it must feel to realise that she loves Will. And still he didn't get angry, he accepted it, for her. Hell, he even let Jack and the Pearl escape before following them because he knew Elizabeth and Will had started to like the pirate. Also I can't fail to mention how he stopped and complimented the sword Will had made, finally after a movie full of people  praising his master instead. I think it's a nice way of casually showing he accepts their love. Wills story evolved around accepting how a pirate can be a good man but sometimes the fans seem to forget that you can be a Navyman and a good man aswell.

"But Jimmy, what about the whole heart of Davy Jones thing?"

Well I'm about to talk about that right now!

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 ☠DMC☠

This movie makes many people dislike James a lot but if you pay attention he had enough reasons to be bitter and sarcastic and steal the heart in the end.

Imagine working very hard for the majority of your life. Imagine giving your whole life to your career and putting as much effort in it as he did. And then a pirate shows up, a pirate who changes everything, a pirate who you just can't catch. And you follow him around the world, you do everything you can and one day, one day you're so close but theres a hurricane coming up but you've become reckless, you finally want to catch the pirate. You sail on.

And then everything is gone. Your rank, your ship, your crew, everything you worked for all along.

Norrington lost so many things that were important to him in that hurricane, even things that were part of his identity. But a thing nobody considers, if the ship was really destroyed, some crewmembers must have died and it was his fault. His fault because he was too stubborn to give up. And he has to live with it. As a person who sails and owns a boat I can confirm that losing a ship you've sailed for a while, isn't great either as Norrington clearly enjoys the sailing part of the Navy life very much. He still wears his uniform, which in a place like Tortuga, full of pirates, where you're known as the famous pirate hunter, isn't a great idea. But it shows how he doesn't want to let go of his old life.

"My story. It's exactly the same as yours, just one chapter behind. I chased a man across the seven seas. The pursuit cost me my crew, my comission, and my life."

James Norrington worked very hard for what he achieved and then suddenly everything was gone. For the angry Tortuga barfight scene, one has to consider that he must have been very drunk. He lost himself and without the boundaries of the Navy, he lets it all out.

Norrington blames Jack for everything that happened and he just wants his life and honor back, things he spent his whole life on building up. Can you really blame him?

James is a smart man. While Elizabeth just blindly trusts Jack, he realises why William is on the Dutchman in the first place. I personally believe he still likes her very much and it angers him more how Jack just lies to get what he wants.

Now that doesn't make it right to give the heart to Beckett, but in that one moment he was so obsessed with regaining his honor and life.

And Norrington thought and acted like a pirate for once. He did what he thought was best for himself. This, of course, doesn't justify anything, it mainly gives a reason. Soon enough he learns that it may not have been the best choice anyway.

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 ☠AWE☠

After becoming Admiral, James quickly realises that giving the heart to Beckett wasn't the greatest idea. He originally was supposed to befriend Davy Jones over their common dislike for Beckett after all! The deleted scene where Beckett decides to kill off Governor Swann is also a good example for how Norrington is starting to question his decisions.

And when he sees Elizabeth, he's really happy that she's alive, but she is angry, she believes he was involved in the killing of her father. Imagine how shocking it must be to learn that a man who was your friend for years is dead, killed by the man who gave you your life back. Despite Elizabeth not believing him, he still stays loyal to her. He frees her and helps her and the crew escape. When she finally believes him, he sarcrifices his life for her.

His last moments are very important to describe his personality. He uses his last energy to stab Davy Jones and even if it didn't do anything, it shows how brave he is and how in reality he just always wanted to do the right thing.

#pirates of the caribbean #potc #james norrington #norrington #jack davenport #pirates #awe #cotbp #dmc

[garbageivereleasedintothevoid]

02-10-20

I felt you needed to see this meme after today. To remind you that I am normally a very closed off open book. And I'm sure you'll figure out what that means but just feel freakin honored because I do not let most people see me cry. The fact that you're my therapist makes exactly no difference to my brain.

Anyway, yeah. That was a lot. For me. Idk. Maybe it wasn't that much but it was a lot for me.

You've seen me casually mention shit that some other people wouldn't be able to say at all. And that's part of the defense. Pretend it doesn't bother you and people respond like it doesn't. And you never have to address it because it seems like it genuinely does not bother you. But it's a ploy. One that... Sara saw through near immediately. She even called me on it a couple times. She was like "Idk what to do for you because you won't open up." And I was just like "I've told you everything." And she just flashed this grin briefly and said "But you haven't opened up." And I was like fuck she's right. And told her so and she gloated just a little tiny bit. She just be like that. Lil shit loves being right. Anyway, that was when I actually started to open up to her. Or at least try to. It didn't work at first. I didn't know how. But I kept trying and she kept encouraging me. Until it eventually happened but that was the only time I've seen her... Low-key lose composure. I broke the absolute fuck DOWN. Like full on lost all control. I... Ended up calling her mommy while sobbing. And I saw this look of horror on her face as I looked up. I had previously not been able to see as I'd been sobbing with tears in my eyes and had my head down. And I just launched into apologizing and freaking out thinking she hated me now. She was honest in her response. She told me she didn't know how to react but that I had no reason to be sorry and that she wasn't mad at me. She didn't seem fully confident as she pulled herself together though. Idk. I think it mostly just shocked her because I'd never reacted that way before and to be fair, it was pretty extreme. But... In the moment, I thought I'd just isolated myself from the only person who seemed to give a goddamn about me at the time. I felt... Like she was the only one who gave a goddamn about me and tbh? I don't think I was wrong. At that time in my life, she was the only one who knew me well enough to give a shit about me as a unique individual. She was the only one who... Stuck around long enough to... Really get to know me. Everyone else gave up on me. And I think at times she was really close but it took her a lot more to get close. She played the long game with me and won me over slowly. Gained my trust, pushed me, encouraged me to do better and be better like she knew I could be.

But she also was willing to learn along the way. She knew what nonbinary was when we first met. And knew what would be considered today to be the absolute basics of how to treat a nonbinary person. But five years ago that was close to as much knowledge as you could reasonably expect any cishet person to ever have and it wasn't common by any means. But she learned. And she learned quickly. And somehow, some people do not want to acknowledge that part that she played in my life. Some people think I should just accept my station and not push for better. Some people don't truly understand that they might be happy with their place but others aren't as privileged. And yes, having been physically beaten by your ex is fucking awful and nobody should have to have dealt with that but that doesn't mean you understand everything. And neither does a social work degree. I don't fit her idea of someone who's been abused and she doesn't like that. I wasn't abused by a partner and the physical abuse was... Not as prevalent as every other kind. The sexual abuse was a big thing but... Idk. Rn I am not focusing on that very much and I'm grateful for that because if I was, I'm certain it wouldn't go well. The thing I talk about most was the emotional abuse and manipulation as well as the neglect. When I wasn't being told I would get laughed at for wearing emo stuff to school, I was being told my medical condition wasn't bad and I was just looking for attention. I was called a whiner for expressing any pain. And I am not saying I was perfect. But I was a child. I should have been taken seriously and I for damn sure should have been taught the basic skills that one needs to survive. I was told to just pick thing up little by little each day but like? What does that entail? I'd ask for individual steps and be looked at like I was lying. I was consistently treated like filth you scrape off the bottom of your shoe. I didn't ask to be born. I didn't ask to be kept. I didn't ask for any of this. I was handed a shit hand and now I'm making the best of it. But without Sara, I would have never been able to make what I have of myself. She understood me. She saw my pain and validated it and showed me that I wasn't alone in this and proved that she had my back. She proved to me that I could trust her. And. She. Rooted. For. Me. When I was struggling to make it through the hardest parts she was there, urging me onwards with encouraging words. She never tossed me a "Oh, just get over yourself." Or anything like that. She was on my fucking side and she proved that. Beyond a reasonable doubt, she proved that she was trustworthy and behind me every step of the way. She sacrificed and risked for me and the fact that anyone would express disdain for her being credited pisses me off. What was Sarah Wolf doing when I was breaking down over losing all my things in 2016? Blaming me, that's what. What was she doing when I applied for section 8? Telling me it was selfish to apply and that I didn't need it as much as some people so I shouldn't apply. Sara helped me put in the application. She actually pushed me to even do it because I didn't really want to at first. Sara was the driving force behind the best decisions I have made these past few years. Hell, even Yoshi. I made that decision to take him in on my own. But Sara said she thought it was good for me to have an animal. Sarah Wolf said I should listen to Mark and give him away. And now she pretends like it was all her idea when I didn't consult anyone else before making this decision. This was my decision. And Yoshi was one of the absolute best decisions I ever made. Full stop. I made that decision. And one encouraged me to do good while the other tried to guilt trip me for it. Sarah Wolf primarily provided physical needs. And that's great. Totally appreciated. But the advice does not fit my life and I vehemently reject it.

Sara knows me. She spent 20 minutes to an hour a week talking to me about the deepest stuff that Sarah Wolf still has never heard me talk about. Sarah Wolf doesn't know how much I first freaked out when I first had that memory of the rape lodged in my brain. She doesn't know that Grover took some time out of the bar to hug me and tell me he was taking me to Cici's the next day to get my mind off of it. She doesn't know that I wanted to kill myself that night. She doesn't know that Yoshi meowing at me pulled me back from the edge that night. And she certainly doesn't know that imagining Sara's reaction to the news of my death is what gave me resolve to not do it. Because during that time, she was recovering from her spinal surgery. She was out for another month and a half still. And I didn't want her to come back from that to the news that I had killed myself after remembering that I had been violently raped at a very young age by my own father. That's partly what saved me that night. But that alone was what gave me the resolve to stay alive at least until she got back. And when she got back, I ended up telling her... But I had to get a few other things out first. And I said "One more thing and prepare yourself because it's... Really heavy." And she did. And I told her. And there was a moment where time stood still. And she said she didn't know what to say... Kind of stumbled a moment and said that again but added she was here for me and she would do anything she could to support me. And that meant the world to me. I knew she would, too. I knee before I told her. I knew she would be there for me. And she was. She promised and delivered. She never promised anything there was a chance she couldn't deliver. She always told me the truth. She proved time and time again how much she gave a fuck. And I don't respect when people try to doubt her presence in my life as a positive experience.

[elachuz]

are you like... ACTUALLY boss baby kin? :/ because ive been meaning to follow you but youre kin with someone from a kids movie? WTF?

Survival of the fittest.It is the law of the jungle.There is always someone trying to take away what is yours.How do I know?I almost passed me.Tim Templeton...Cease from monkeying around.The hot dogs are cooling.Hot dogs?At least I remember.Very good friend is lunchtime.I was seven ...and at that age, one depends on your imagination.Tim!Our heroe!Relax, Mom and Dad.I got this!HOT SAUCESujtense!Sometimes I rescued my parents.Over there!Other times, they me.- I lose control! - Tim, look out!Tree!I can not hear you well!Slow down, Tim!- Gira, Tim! - Turn!- You got hurt? - I'm fine.See those teeth.There were only three.Los Templeton.And three is the perfect number.Interesting fact.The triangle is the strongest shape in nature.It was the luckiest kid in the world.My parents had a great job!Company working for the world's largest pet:PerriCorp.- Yes, Mr. Francis. - PerriCorp you need.It is time to act.Working in an area called Marketing ...in throwing new products.Although my parents worked very hard ...always they reserved enough for me.Three stories, five hugs and my special song, okay?Done deal.Blackbird singing in the dead of nightTake these broken wings and learn to flyAll your lifeOnly expect this moment to take flightHey, Tim, how about having a little brother?No thanks. So I'm fine.Life was good. It was perfect.But go falling asleep ...something my parents said made me think.Where do babies come from?FAMILYFAMILYFAMILYFAMILYMANAGEMEN WELCOME TO MANAGEMEN A HEAD IN DIAPERSThe day he arrived my brother began like any other ...but I did not imagine ...that my life would never be the same.Wake up, shorty! They are 7 amWake up, shorty!Good day, Maguin!What great adventure is waiting for you today?Yes!My parents always said I had a very active imagination.But I remember clearly ...the baby came to us in a taxi.What?Oye!Tim, look who came!Say hello to your new baby.To me what?Little brother.I had a million questions.Who is that guy? What is he doing here?Why the suit?Why are you so fat? Why do I look like?Do you know karate? What's going on?Over there?- Good. - Good.From the beginning, she is yelling at everyone ...He gave them orders.You want this?Something was obvious. He was the boss.Shamelessly he puts his office in the middle of the house.He organized together.- Called? - Want to Mr. Squeaky?Many, many boards.Even in the middle of the night.I woke up, I woke up!- We're coming! - It did not take!If things were not done to your satisfaction ... immediatelyHe had a tantrum.- What about the bottle? - Give him his bottle!Had everyone eating out of his pudgy hands.Everyone except me.- Nappy! - Bottle!- Nappy! - Bottle!Dad, I can not sleep!Already. Me neither.The baby needs a lot of attention now.OK, good bye.- But ... - Quiet.Daddy is here. Daddy is here.What about me?Year: 2057.The alferes T-Rex and I investigated a hostile alien invasion.It's much worse than we thought.Mom, is naked!I'm naked!Say "naked".No!Who is the baby Mommy? You're the baby Mommy?No, it's the burly dad, right?One of us should go to the convention pets.In Las Vegas.- You know what? See you. - No no. See you.You need a break.- I'll take the baby and you ... - Let the baby decide.Who do you want to stay with you? Is Dad or Mom?A papi?He loves his mom.Well, we need to talk!In private.- Clear. - On what, champ?Sobre el B-E-B--S.Without "that", Tim.That came out of nowhere!Do not we know it!We can not trust him.Calma, is just a baby.Really? Am I the only one here who thinks that guy has something weird?- Oh, I got it. - Still serves.Tim?Look at him! Bring a suit!I know, is not a tenderness? It's like a little man.Always carrying a briefcase!Would anyone else you think?I do not know, a little strange?You were wearing a Borreguita everywhere.Borreguita has nothing to do!Every baby is different, Tim.And each one is special.It is is taking over the whole house!You're taking over the house?Of course. Of course.Believe me, one day know better this little ...and then you're going to want with all my heart.Like us.With all my heart?Never.Hello!It's time for my three stories, hugs and five special song!How about a story?Three hugs and my special song?Is it only my special song?Mom?Dad?Hey.Do not they're going to wrap?On Monday I give Mr. Francis!Do not Cry! Do not Cry...Hello?Hello? No, ma'am yet.No, not excuses.Yes ma'am, I know you've been here a long time.Believe me, I feel as if carrying a lifetime.I'm already making progress with parents.The usual procedure: sleep deprivation, hunger strikes.They are very confused.I have them eating out of my hand.They do everything for me.It's hilarious.But I think the boy suspected something.No. I got this.I know how important this mission for the company.Mission?Believe me, lady, I'm the baby for the job.Hands up, evil baby!Gas! Butts! Caca!I deal with the NI-N-O.You can talk!No, really talk. I heard you!All right. I can talk.Let's see if you listen.Get me a double espresso ...and looking for a good sushi place nearby.Would kill for a spicy tuna roll.And buy something for you.Who you are?Let's just say I'm the boss.The boss? You're a baby! Diaper use.You know who else wears a diaper?Astronauts and racing drivers.It is efficient, Templeton.The average child spends about 45 hours a year on the potty.I'm the boss. I do not have much free time.Well, you're not my boss.- Yeah I'm your boss. - Do not.- yes. - Not.- Yes! - Not!- yes. - Not!- yes. - Not!Yes. Yes.Yes. Yes.I arrived first.Wait for Mom and Dad to know.Oh yeah? Do you think you would choose instead of me?With your history?You dont know nothing about me.Yea that you want, right? Let's see.Templeton, Timothy. Second name...I am sorry.Leslie!- mediocre grades. - How you know too much?Can not you ride a bike without training wheels?Even the bears know how to ride a bike without training wheels, Leslie.You have 7 years.Seven and a half.Nap! What were you saying?I have seven and a half years.Exact! You are old.It is time to make way for the next generation.So the world works.you would not ask your parents an old toy.Borreguita?Everyone wants the fashion.Destroys. Destroys.- Borreguita! - I have new batteries.Five!Mom and Dad did not even know you.They worship Me!Oh yeah? You have the account, child.There is a limited amount of love.It's how are you accounts.You used to have all the love of your parents.All your time. All his attention.You were all accounts.But then I came along.Babies require a lot of time.They need much attention. They receive all the love.We could share.Obviously you not studied Economics.Look, Templeton, do not give numbers.There is not enough love for both.Not enough accounts.And suddenly, there is no room for Tim.Tim no longer fits.Oh no! And Tim?So silence. Get out of my way.Or there will be downsizing.They can not fire you from your own family.Or if?Wake up, shorty! They are 7 amAwake, Dwarf ...!For what?Stand up for a nutritious breakfast!They are 7 amWhat happens, Timothy?Does that made you sad little man?I'll throw a curse on him!It wont happen!No case, Maguin.He has deceived mom and dad.If they knew what I know, would not let him stay.Maybe your parents will need to open your eyes.With a great curse!Not pass!Yes. Should I open their eyes ...With proof!That I need evidence!Reveal your dark magic!Testing testing.Testing testing.Maybe they can return it!And their money back.We can buy an inflatable house!Good luck, Tim! They are 8:45 amNinja.Ninja.Ninja.Ninja.Babies everywhere! They spread.Mom! Dad! What's going on?It's an invasion!It's game day!What a good photo.It is a meeting, and you're not going to attend.Come on.We'll see.Thank you for coming on such short notice.Well, before you start ...CHILD IS LISTENING?Yes sir!- Clear! - Affirmative!Jimbo, generates interference.Oye!- Babies are in crisis! - Oh no!- That bad! - What a horror!What's going on?It is easier to demonstrate them. Teddy, please.We will give a show!Here we go!Jimbo, lights.You see, no longer babies receive as much love as before.Why? Do we misbehave?No, Staci.But I tell you who yes.Here is our mortal enemy. The puppies!Do not! That's the problem.The puppies? What is going on with them?Along the history...people have babies loved more than anything in the world.We have always been indispensable ...number one on any wish list.The cubs were pure accessories.But everything changed when the puppies started to leave ...with new design models.Each lovelier than the last.You remember the labradoodle?Does the peekapoo?Does the chiweenie? Try to speak without smiling.Impossible. Do not waste your time.We all laughed shar pei.And now the number one in China.- Oh no! - How terrible!- Horrendous! - Yes.And things get worse.Francis Francis, director of Perricorp, gave this announcement.Teddy, running video.Everything goes in a while ...to present the most adorable puppy ever.Whatever launch at the convention in Las Vegas pet!Attention, Planet!It will sweep away the competition!- How good! - No, Jimbo.Nothing of "how well"! We are the competition!This is war.Puppies are winning, we are losing babies.Thank you, Teddy.And if the new puppy is so cute as we fear ...It could be the end of the baby business.That bad!Bad news!What are we going to do?My job is to figure out what ...to BebCorp can stop it.And you will help me.- Genius! - tops!You're still the best, boss!How good!How good.Well, all parents work in PerriCorp.Have you learned something from them?- Yes sir! - Clear!Great. What, Triplets?- A - B.- C. - D.No, what have you learned about the new puppy?Yes, puppy!No, Jumbo! Puppies are bad.Staci, read the notes.I do not know how to read. What does it say?This is my team?A burly, a lot of activists and doodler?- Exactly! - Affirmative!Well said.- Yes! - Good, BB!I have you!Leave that cookie. They are for those serving missions.- We want another show! - No, Teddy. Do not.- A hug? - No more shows!Boss?- There is enough love. - Go to sleep!Goodnight.- Boss! - Boss!- What? - Parents!It's like they have a small board.- Is not it adorable? - Who wants dessert?Heavens, how humiliating.Heavens, how humiliating.Wait for mom and dad to hear this.Hey, Templeton, what have you got there?Nothing.Give me that tape.Never!Mom! Dad! Here!- Hey, Timmy! - Hello! Anyway...Flower Power!You can not escape the law, bobo.Put the belt. Let's move on!Run Run Run.What? Hears!Run Run Run.Catch, catch, catch.Yes!How good!Let me go, small ...Look! At last the children get along.How good.Sayonara!They want to play?Let's play.No!Rescue the Boss! Rescue the Boss!- Get him! - I am going!- I am going! - I am going!You're fried, Mr. Baby!Upa, upa!Who wants...?Cheese sticks!Mom Dad! I have evidence!Can not you go downstairs?Nothing can stop me!Mom! Dad! Where are they?Hello?Where have all gone?Mom Dad! The baby can talk!Do not tell me.Wait, how ...?Give me that tape. Timmy.O Borreguita get hurt, do you see?No!What do you say, Borreguita? You want a nose ring?Not my style, but who am I to judge?And one eyebrow? I think too, Borreguita.How you will look at a job interview?Basta!The recording, Timmy! Or I will pe-da-zos.Do not! Let her go!- Let her go you! - Let her go you!- Tape! - Give me a Borreguita!Oops! Too far.Templeton! Be reasonable.We can be reasonable, right? What do you do?You'd have you wanted since you arrived!We can drink a little juices and speak!It happened when the little juices.No, Templeton. You would not dare.Adiosito, baby! You are fired!What do you do?Nothing.My evidence!Tim! I want an explanation!Yes, an explanation.I did not go! It's the fault of the baby.Blame the baby?It is true! You can speak.Everyone can speak. They have a meeting.They say something about puppies.It's a conspiracy of babies!Timothy Leslie Templeton!We are very disappointed.- No, we're upset with you! - Yes, annoying.- Annoying? - You need a punishment!- You're punished! - Yes, punished!- Two Three!- Three days? - Weeks!Weeks! Three weeks!Three eternities!Punished?You're staying at home with your little brother ...until they learn to get along.Genial.It was my first time behind bars.Prison.The confinement.Punished for life.The minutes turned into hours, hours into days.Everyone has their breaking point.This was mine.The blackbird sings silent night- Take these broken wings and learn to fly. - Hey, that's my song.All your lifeOnly expect this moment to take flightNot for nothing, dwarf.Maybe I can help.The blackbird singing in the dead of night!Please, you take these broken wings and learn to fly!Fly, you fools!Thank you, Maguin.But it's not the same.If only I could reach my magic knife.We could escape from this prison.Templeton!Templeton, we must speak.Get out of here.Blackbird singing in the dead of nightBasta!It's my song, not yours.My parents wrote just for me.Really? Your parents are Lennon and McCartney?No, Ted and Janice.I do not even know their names!Robrmelos try.You stole everything!You should be in jail!Look, it's time to put aside our differences.Been ...?No!Where it is Human Resources when you need them?Take it.I do not want your filthy money.I told you not to get in my way.I can not! You are in my house.I do not want to be here...Like you do not want to be here.So why do you torture me?The truth is that I am not an ordinary baby.Do not tell me.I have a mission from heaven.Are you the child Jesus?Yes. I am the baby Jesus.No!I'm a middle manager of the company.The company? What company?Look.Take it. This explains everything.What do you want me to do with that?- I want you to suck. - Suck it you!It's not for you.I Do not suck!- Suck it. - I do not know where you've been!The important thing is not where you've been, but where will take.You do not want to know?Where do babies really come from?Hickey. Pacifier. Bibi.Bubu. Bobo. Baba.Chupetn. Sniffer. Muffler.It has many names.But their power will let you know the truth.Faster!Mom!Where we are?Welcome to BebCorp!I can not believe it.- Thank you. - What?Quiet. They can not see us or hear us.- Are we something like virtual? - Yes.- You mean you will not feel? - Do not.- Not this? Nothing.Karate!Do not make a fool of myself, Templeton. I can see you.So here babies come from?What did you think? Tra that the stork.The fairies?No, my parents told me that ...What?No. Yuck.Yeah, I figured it was not.I can not believe my parents did not tell this.If they knew where babies come from, they would not have one.Like the hot dogs, by the way.Upa!And how come I do not remember this place?Yes, you remembered.When normal babies take away the pacifier ...BebCorp forget.And how is it that you're not normal?Some of us, the best ...we selected for ...For the greatest honor.Being senior management.Here, Templeton, all the action.Naptime in Sector G.Does this place is for babies operated?Yes.My dad says: "Those who can, do things"."Those who do not supervise".Your dad is a hippie.What happens when they grow up?We do not grow.We drink a top-secret formula that makes us be babies forever.To work! The hour of the formula is over!We are in crisis!Do not they know that we are in crisis?Who is she?He's my boss. The great Chief Baby.And why is she screaming?You see this graph?It looks like a giant cake.It represents all the love in the world.- I love cake. - Who does not?- Of Apple. - Yes.- No, Cherry! - Perfect!- pumpkin, no. - All right.It is a plant.The point is that slice of the puppies grows more and more.Be're stealing our love!As you stole me.Exactly.And if this continues ...may not leave enough pie for babies.Nothing pie?Nothing cake.So my mission is to find out what is this new puppy.Are you on a spy mission? Great!Yes! Great! And if ... When you succeed ...I will be a legend in BebCorp.As the Super Big Chief Baby, Baby Head Mega ...Huge Head Baby ...and the.That's a very fat baby.No, she's the Big Chief Baby Gorda ...He is the Big Boss Baby Fat Super Colossal.He was the youngest CEO Infante in the history of the company.It was? What happened to him?He retired, years ago.But I still try to do justice to his legend.In each situation, I wonder ..."Q-H-E-G-J-B-G-S-C?""What would the Big Boss Super Colossal Baby Fat?"Is all you get? Your picture on the wall?Come here!Will I get a promotion.The corner office ...with bacinica privada.Genial.So when you finish you coming back here?D -E. I -N -M -E -D -I -A -T -O T - I-M.I'm not a family man. My place is behind a desk.- Amazing! - Is that right?What?I swear I will fasten his diaper on the wall!Do we have news Little Chief Baby?The one who sent the Templeton?- I do not know. - You are fired!Oh no.They are all fired!Pet Convention is in two days.If you do not get answers ...You're fired, retired!- Bye! - the visit is over.Why he shouted the Big Chief Baby Bossy?Demands results.Pet The convention is in two days and I have nothing!It's her! Do not answer!Siesta stress!If I do not find out what it is that new puppy, and soon ...not only I will not get a promotion ...They could fire me!Hey, easy.Surely there are other great baby jobs, right?Meanwhile, two days go so fast.Better start packing.What?You do not understand, Templeton.If I get fired, I will remove the formula.I will become a normal baby ...and I live here with you forever.- Do not! - Yes!And I promise ...every morning when you wake up ...I'll be there.Every night at dinner ...I'll be there.On every birthday party ...I'll be there.Each Christmas!I'll be thereYear after year after year.We grow old together.You and I...we will be brothers.Always.- No. No, this is terrible! - I know.- Can not be. - But if it is!- You can not stay! - Do not!- Do not panic! - It is right!I know, but we need to fix this.We must ensure that you do not get fired.Both?Both.I'll help you...just to get rid of you.Done deal?Done deal.Not to see you again.Ditto.Now to work.Come on, come on, come on.With effect!No no.There is nothing about a new puppy.You are not going to work?I'm very busy delegating.Knock short!When we find the file ...What will we do?To send ninjas baby?Something better.I will write the perfect memo.- Pum! - Pum!Wait. What is a memo?A memo is something you write to inform people.Is that your plan? Is writing a report read?How boring.No, Templeton.What are memos for important things.A memo can bring people.A memo can be a call to arms ...a manifesto, a poem.A memo can change the world.Whoops! When you explain so ...still it sounds boring.You'll learn, kid.You will learn.Just a moment. That's!What? What thing?Watch this. "Day take your child to work".Why?Because it's great!It's disgusting.Do not you see? We can enter PerriCorp!And find out what the new puppy!It's no use.You are punishment.Your parents do not take us anywhere.You're right. They believe that hate us."Hate" is a strong word.Correct, but strong.We must convince them that we are truly brothers.Clear.We ...Detestamos?No.We please!No. Let us ...What what what...What what what...Who, who, who ...No.Forget this. You do not mean ...We want.Vomiting a cut and I drew it.- Here comes the little train! - Do not.Nothing train!Stop the train! Do not! It seems digested food!Who's there? I have a racket!What's going on here?I feed the baby.We observe.Good.Good.There's your train.I have not seen sailor. Not even it's Friday!Come on, you're going to put this thing!Are you going to force? You can not, bratty.- What have you done to me? - Enough!- Come back here! - Do not!Do not even dream about it.You!Tim, what are you doing here?Oh no.What is this scandal?Is not it adorable?Also I have one for you! All aboard!What?What a pity.Cheese!Smile for the camera.You make me feel weak.- You have tickles? - With me it does not work.- Here? - I do not feel anything.Anda everyone has a weakness."I do not think I fit, 'said Gretel."Come, look at this."I could go myself.""And then, Hansel and Gretel ..."They pushed the old baked."And the wicked witch burned to death."Lets see if I understand.It is a story about cannibalism and burn people alive.Yes.No wonder kids are so confused!Get along is exhausting.Same here, Tim.You should see your face in that picture.You were ...No it tickles me.Once a corporate retreat. Strange things happen there.What? Do not you ever had tickled? Not even your parents?I am sorry. I forgot it.You did not have parents, right?Tim, I look like a baby ...but I was born an adult.I can not imagine not being a child.Did you miss all your childhood?Never you had someone who loved you?You can not miss what you never had.Wake up, shorty!Hey, Tim. Wake up, champ.- What? - The sun has risen.Something happens? I am fired?No, you're late to work.What?It is the day to bring children to work. And you're my son.You are officially descastigado.- Seriously? - Seriously.The baby can come too?I dont see why not.Yes! Yes Yes Yes!Yes!I would go so excited.Look, my shovel.How good.All right, gentlemen. Welcome to PerriCorp!Great! It is incredible!Y Tim, mira!There's a pool of dogs!What toilet.Champion, do you want a picture with Pete PerriCorp?No thanks. It might scare the baby.Well thought.Dad and I have to work.Would you like to join us and spend time with us?Let your brother in the PerriZona ...to hang out with you.With me?We know that we could be with you as much as before.So what do you think?No thanks.I prefer to spend some time with the baby.- Cute. - How cute.You clear your goal, Templeton.We discover what the new puppy and go home.Stay in the PerriZona, yes?Yes bye.There must be the record of the new puppy!We not achieve through that door.Through that door, no.The dog door.And how we dodged the guard?No no no. Forget this.No!Sticky gunk pants.What a nice Perri ...!How good!Children.Gatea!On all fours!I never had humiliated me so much!Hear!Catch it!What am I doing?Oh no!Yes!What a good dog.No. Do not bite.Timothy Templeton, ninja de oficina.- Here. - What did you find?You should be here.NO CLOSER NOT ALLOW CHILDRENWe begs her to enter.Go.Yes it is a lot of paperwork.I thought the puppies were shattered everything.This is giving me afraid.I come for your soul.Do not do that!Wait!There is!The file!You see? I told you!No. I've seen this somewhere.We must seek to be replaced.True. Another record.Yes! Weighing the same.So we put in the same position.- That despite the same. - You said it.I know I already said. Hey, you hit me twice!Make it three. Wait!I think I saw one.Manila folder, pressed edges.As 1.5 kilos. No, 1.4.Try this.Wait!It's already perfect.Yes!I think we should run.I know, but it's fascinating.I want to see how it ends.I also.Well, it did not end well.FELL!What?What...?Thanks for dropping here, kids.Francis Francis?I see you've met my older brother, Eugene.A man of few words.No, indeed.Do you wear the mask again, please?What is all this?Surprise!A pacifier BebCorp? Where did you get it?Do not you recognize me?Maybe when I was young.Super Colossal Big Boss Baby?He is he? And it's you?Although older and wrinkled.That is not right.No. You were my hero!How did you end up here?You know what I do to children who ask many questions about me?Eugenio!I read my record!And I baked cookies!Eugenio, my chair.Well, it all started in BebCorp ...a long long time ago.I was a senior executive ...I was going straight to the top.Everybody loved me!They gave me a promotion, luxury office!Even my own ...!Bacinica personal?I had it all.But one day...I discovered something terrible.It was growing.The formula did not work anymore.It turned out to be lactose intolerant.- Do not! - Yes!I had to appear before the board.What is "vindictive" board?Older babies heads in the world.I thought you loved me.But I was replaced with someone new.Someone younger.That's horrible.Suddenly, she had all the love ...all the attention.You know what it feels like, huh, Tim?It hurts, does not it?Yes. Yes it hurts.And then what happened?Well...I got fired!And I took my special formula.Then I was sent here to live with!- Family! - Oh, no, Francis!BebCorp betrayed me!And I can finally take revenge!With the Eternal Puppy!That's it?No no.Imagine a puppy that never grows.A puppy puppy that remains forever.When you launch my Cubs Eternos in every corner of the world ...They are so adorable ...Cute!No one will want a baby ever, ever again.The end of BebCorp!Please.A puppy that never grows? It is impossible!Or not?It was, until you brought me the essential ingredient.My secret formula.It's mine! It's mine!It's all mine.No!They brought me just what I needed to destroy BebCorp!- Do not! - Yes!They fell straight into my trap!- Do not get away with it! - Yes, we're going to ...What? To accuse?Who will tell, Tim? To your parents?And children?They should stay in PerriZona.The two go with me to Las Vegas.So do not meddle.I would not want that removed.They never leave us alone.Really?Wait for the expert know ...PerriCorp in child care.Oh no.- Do not be nervous. - It's just one day.Back very soon.In addition, they will be in good hands.So is!Eugenia is almost perfect in every way.No.Please do not go with him. Francis Francis tries ...Believe me ...Eugenia will not take your eyes off your children.Not for a second.That reassures me.Now they see.And now, no.Adiosito!To the airport!It's over. I'm fried.What do we do, Templeton?What do we do?To go to the airport to arrest Francis Francis!Before the plane takes off!Yes! But how do we avoid the evil nanny?Well, we could do something.Hey, it is not that serious.You're good?What happens?Do not look at me!Oh no!Without the formula, I become a normal baby!You know, Gugu gaga. All the matter!Oh no!Gross!I'm a time bomb baby!I'll become a helpless baby vomits and makes poops!Wait. That gives me an idea.What? What thing?I have had many nannies ...and all are afraid of one thing.Well, the secret to frying butter ...It is a touch of margarita.Hey, Miss Macho!The baby! I think he's sick!You have to do something!How awful!- Templeton! - Delicioso!Gross! WE entered the mouth!Me too!I think I'm going to vomit!Bucitum!An hour Lacks the plane takes off!Use the bike.The bike?I dont know...Let's move on!- Wait! - What?Where are you going? Templeton!Always wear a helmet.Adiosito, head loo!We're not going to achieve!Staci!Staci, responde!Ay, enough!- Are you you, boss? - Code Red!I WILL pursues a murderous nanny! Gather the team!Done, boss.- Hello. - Hello.- Hello! - Code Red!Aware!code red. I repeat ...Code Red!What do you do? Get moving!It's against the law!Take, I pay the fine!Come on!I think we lost!No, we did not lost.Flower Power!Very well done!It broke!Run Run Run.Run Run Run.Tim, faster!I can not!If you can!You can, Templeton. The view to the front.I said eyes front!Turn up the ass! Pedaling raring!If you do not win the day, the day you win you.Good!My wheels! I can not stand without training wheels!What you think you can or you can not, it's true.What are you talking about?The road to success is not a straight line, Templeton ...but a bumpy ride ...like a ship at sea.And you're the captain!Let taming a turbulent sea!I'm the captain who tames the sea!Good!Tree! I'm going to crash!If you aim to fail, always triumph.- What? - Do not point to failure!! I'm getting there! Whatever I'm doing it!When success is a habit ...everything is downhill.Look!They are there! Mom Dad!Train!Detente!What do you do?- We will make it. - I do not have a phrase for this!You did!Do not! We did it.And your wheels coaches.Make way!Baby on Board!Hold your diaper!Get down and cover!Whoa, dude!Depth review in both.They are there! Mom Dad!Not so fast!Oh no.Templeton!- Hears! - Sorry!Where are you?Oh no!No again!Not now!What...?No no no!Quick!I think I ate $ 1.75.Excuse me, with permission. Mom! Dad!Quick! Move!We will lose the plane!- Do not! - I warned!Wait!- Do not! - Do not.Mom! Dad! Stop!No!No no no.They left.I failed.It would have reached my parents if I had not come back for you!What? We had arrived with plenty of time!If thou wilt walk in bike like a normal kid!We can not stop the launch.Does matters? My parents are in danger!I care! BebCorp will go bankrupt!It's the only thing you're talking about!I do not even know what being part of a family!And you do not know what it is to have a job!You do not know anything about hugs, stories, or special songs!Please! Stop acting like a baby.You are a baby!Recant.My life was perfect until you came!Believe me, the feeling is mutual. I wish I'd met you not!Would not you were born!Where are you going?Good!Blackbird singing in the dead of nightTake these broken wings and learn to flyAll your lifeOnly expect this moment to take flightTimothy Templeton, please take the courtesy phone.Timothy Leslie Templeton, please take the courtesy phone.Leslie.Hello?It's me. Do not hang. Tim!Tim, I was born. I was hired.What do you mean?BebCorp is the only home I've ever known.You're right, I do not know what is ...being part of a family.But I do care.Really?Yes.And the only way to save is to stop both Francis Francis.Yes.I can not do it without you, Tim.I need you.- If we make a good team. - Do not.I literally did not reach the knobs.True.Neglected, Tim.Let's save your parents.And your company.But how do we go to Las Vegas?We need a miracle.Follow that Elvis!Why?Where there is Elvis, there Vegas!There's another one!And other!They are everywhere!Tim, there's our flight!And there goes our ticket!Hey! Don't be cruel!I am sorry!- Oh thanks! - Oh, baby!Many thanks.Hi.Hi.Input please.Just a moment.It was stolen!Imitates a un imitator of Elvis?Get him!Alto!The ghost of Elvis!We need seats!Quick, over here!What is this place?This, Templeton, is first class.Why it is empty?No one can afford it.That's why it's so wonderful.Hello! Ross captain speaking.Ladies and gentlemen, and economy class.Fasten seat belts. Let's take off.What's the matter, Templeton?My parents always hold hands when we took off.Actions are a shambles today.Ladies and gentlemen, Captain Ross again.You see, I turned off the seat belt sign.What are you two doing here?We are the children of Captain Ross.He sat us here.So they want to bring them something?Whatever?Whatever.Good. Francis Francis.You'll never kidnap the parents of Tim Turto.Please, I wish it were that easy.What is your plan?You will not write a memo, do you?No.Hey, you say you did not have children, right?And if you try?- No I can not. - It's fun!Takes, you get into character.I dont know. I feel silly!You! Dile algo cruel.Okay, okay.So you study at a community college, right?I dont know.Keep going!And you dare to ask me a bonus now?Ves?You're getting into the role.I can not believe it.Your exit interview is over!That was good.And who was he?- Captain! - What?En garde!Hard!There it goes!Watch your rear!- Taking! - Dodge, blocks and attacks!It sounds like a law firm!Nice try! Attention!You are fired!And here is your final settlement. Ha!Wait! You must not end with "Ha!"No?You must finish with "Argh!"It is understood! Argh!Excellent!Thank you. I just got carried away.Ladies and gentlemen, and tourist class ...to the left of the plane ...you will see that we approach the fabulous Las Vegas.Land in sight!That's right, comrade.Goodbye dad! Thank you!- You're welcome. What? - Let's move on.- Go to Heartbreak Hotel? - I'm going to Heartbreak Hotel.- I also! - I also!I also!We have to get to the convention center!Do we take a taxi?Ray! And I spent all my travel expenses. That's better.Perfect.Excuse me, ladies.Could you take us home?Jimmy is sick and needs an expensive medicine.Where do they live, honey?In the convention center.Bye sweetheart!Have fun at your party!Girls love babies.People do not know Long Island iced tea.How to find my parents here?Tim!Over there.Well, where is PerriCorp?PerriCorp, PerriCorp, PerriCorp...AHA! Here it is. I found it!But how...?Hey, where did you get?Not again!Please! I need you!I came back! I came back!What's going on?So is.Let's launch a new puppy on every continent!In each country!We're going to take over the world one heart at a time!- Tim, are there! - Mom Dad!Imagine a puppy that never grows ...and never gets old.A puppy that is small forever.I present all you are going to love in life:The Eternal Puppy!Mom?No mires, Templeton!Hears! What are you doing here?Mom Dad!What are you doing here?What do Tim and baby here?What do all of us here, really?What's happening here?You got my parents!We are here for them.Go for them!They go their Eternal Puppy!We must go behind the scenes.Over there!Run!Quick, quick, quick!Left Right! Left Right!Yes!Gas. Butts. Caca.Look at all that formula!What a way to launch a product.Oh no!He put them under rocket!Elvis has left the building!Mom Dad!I'm going!Well said! Come on, Tim! Run Run!Launch started.I'll throw my Cubs Eternos and there is nothing they can do!No!BebCorp stole all my love ...and now I'm going to get.You should understand me.You'd replaced, like me!Do not! I'm not like you!Brat!Let go of our parents! Her parents! Parents!Yes!You could have had the love of your parents just for you!But no!You ruined it!Let that baby you give orders.He does not work for me.We are partners!I do not tickle.Hears! And the baby?Everyone is ticklish!My ears!Basta!Brats!Nothing can stop my revenge.Neither you nor anyone!BebCorp over!I won! Ha!You're wrong!You should never end with "Ja"!- True! - What?You should end up with ...Argh!En garde!You are fired!And here's your severance!Take that, you bastard!Argh!One minute and counting.- Help! - Help us!Tim! What are you doing?No!Mom, Dad, I'm coming!It's you?Relax folks, dads! I got this!- You're good? - Is the baby okay?Yes, the baby is fine.Who said that?It was me!The baby is fine.It does not open!What's going on?Just a moment!Oye.I know how to move my parents.- How? - Using the puppies!Upa.Upa need.What if you become a baby again?I'll be fine. Well well.Good!I'll be fine.Hold your diaper!We move!Why do we move?Mom and Dad, Hold on!Thirty seconds.Oh no! Wait!Resist!Quick, Tim! Take your parents ...from here.You need to jump!You can, it's a cinch!Do not! I have no bread! Jump!Do not Cry. I am sorry. Please do not cry!Twenty seconds.Fifteen seconds.Blackbird singing in the dead of nightTake these broken wings and learn to flyAll your lifeOnly expect this moment to take flight- Three ... - I have you!Two one.Takeoff!Yes!Hey, are you still there?Dog!What happened? We won?- We won! - We won?- We won! We won! - We won! Yes!Siesta victory!Whatever ruined everything!It's not fair! It's not fair!That is not right.Now If you are going to pay!Oh yeah? Well Mess with someone your own size!What?Eugenio! Bjame!You heard me? I'm your boss!This time educate well.Sure it will be fine.Tim, what happens?Mom, Dad, wait!Yes!- Tim? - Tim!Tim! You're good?We are ok.Saved us.You are our hero.And a great big brother.We love many both.What the two?With all my heart.Let's go home.How I look?Excellent.Team, good work.Staci, this letter will let you enter the school you choose.- Kinder garden? - So is.And if there's something else ...Increase?Staci, you have no salary.- Many billion! - Eight!- Tricycle! - Roller skates!- Sweet? - Palettes!Done deal.You're the best boss in the world.should not always follow the guidelines of the company, huh?It's okay to think for themselves.- No sir! - Never!Bad idea!That's the attitude!- True! - Certainly, sir!- You are big! - The best!Shot, fortachn.You earned it.You want to hug me, right?I'll miss you too. Yes.- Yeah, yeah. - Everything will be fine, burly.Good...you did.No. We did.By the way, congratulations on your promotion.Luxury office, private potty. All that.Hey, you too.Your parents have to yourself.What will I tell my parents when you leave?Neglected.BebCorp has a protocol for these situations.It will be as if he had not been born.I almost forget it!I can not believe it! Borreguita!- The you fixed it! - Yes.It was like new. It is very strong.Well, we have what we wanted.Everyone wins.I think I ...Yes.Well, keep studying.Actually, I have no choice.Yes it's correct.- Bye, Tim. - Bye.Yeah right.He went as suddenly as it came.Bye.At last, my life was perfect again.Forget the baby.Forget babyUpsi!Sorry, big guy.Surprise!OUR HEROE!Hurray!You've been promoted!Do you want to forget the baby?No thanks. That's OK.Very good.Argh.Baby Dear Boss:I do not usually write a lot ...but now I know that the memos are very important.Although I did not study economics ...I learned to share in kindergarten.And if there is enough love for both ...then I give you all mine.I would like to offer you a job.It is very heavy ...and there will be no salary.But the good thing is that you never get fired.And I promise something.Every morning when you wake up, I'll be there.Every night at dinner, I'll be there.On every birthday, every Christmas ...I'll be there.Year after year after year.We grow together.And you and I will always be ...brothers.Always.FAMILYWake up, dwarf. They are 7 amWhat's the point, Maguin?Because they are 7 amI have one mission and you do the hard stool.Nothing happens, dwarf.Sometimes, I also confused me.Especially during the summer time.Overtaking, delay.There is no calendars in the realm of magicians!There is no spring, there is only darkness and winter!I'm not confused, Maguin.It is strange.Tim, look who came!It's your new ...Little brother!You arrived! Yes you get!Careful, careful.Volviste!Saluda a Theodore Lindsey Templeton.Lindsey?Cosquillitas! Cosquillitas!Take this.So that's my story.Our history.Luckily for me and my brother, I had a happy ending.Is it a true story, Daddy?Well, honey, that's how I remember it.- But you know what I discovered? - What?There is a lot for everyone.Also for me?Especially for you.Ask your Uncle Ted.Hello, I knew that you'll have a little sister.I wanted a horse.Takes, small. Buy a horse.I'm proud of you, Leslie.Ditto, Lindsey.Hello, little sister.Argh!All right, kids.Bedtime.Please, Mom. Just a little more.It's okay.Awaken, dwarves. It's time to go.Go live your life of farmers.Ya vyanse!

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Happy endo-versary to me! I hope you enjoyed the disturbing image above.

At 27, I've had endo for ten years. And here I am to impart my infinite wisdom unto you all. Not really but I will tell you why I'm back at square one, waiting for a referral to gynae and I could feel shit but I don't.

And here's why! Actually, there's lots of reasons why. The first is that I'm getting better at accepting the cyclical nature of chronic illness (and life in general). There's a start but no known end and that is uncomfortable to sit with. Knowing that this will be with you for the rest of your life, the uncertainty around how bad it will get and what aspects of your life it will effect is daunting to the say the least, but what I hold onto is the fact that I have handled it before and I can handle it again. And maybe I'll handle it terribly! Who cares, it's hard. It will get worse again and it will get better again. It is near impossible for people who don't have chronic or reccurent illnesses to understand the immense strength and vulnerability that comes with dealing with the same shit over and over and over. It's soul crushing at times, but I've learned that you can literally always rebuild yourself. You might not the same but who says that's a bad thing? Probably only you and the unrealistic expectations you set yourself - be soft with yourself and give in to being a sick lil thing sometimes.

These are my good day mantras though. If you know me even vaguely you will know that I'm just not that optimistic on a daily basis and positivity culture makes me rage. I do a lot of raging. But on my absolute worse days, what gets me through is the thought that my story can be valuable to someone. My experience can help others, practically and emotionally, and the reason I'm so sure of that is because the stories, advice and the sense of solidarity I get from other chronically ill bbz is what keeps me going. I often write about the negatives of this stupid, confusing, life ruining, ridiculous disease and I am well within my right to, but it's helped me discover strength that I didn't know I had ten years ago and has, ultimately, shaped who I am. And I like who I am, so that's nice.

When I think back to the scared 18 yr old whose world had been turned upside down by pain and humiliating symptoms and investigations, I realise how much I could've used someone like me (future me, are you still with me?🤔) to say YOU'RE DOING GREAT HUN. Tell your bf sex hurts and your back hurts and your bowels have turned on you and you've never seen so much blood in your knickers and you can't stop crying and if he doesn't wanna hear it - dump him cos you don't have to have the extra burden of a partner who doesn't understand or doesn't want to.

After ten years I can truly say I carry very little shame around my bodily functions (or malfunctions) and I think that is remarkable progress. We've had period positivity, the wonders of Livia, Mooncups come back from the 1900's (but much prettier), period poverty schemes, trans men like the amazing @iamkej speak out about how periods are far too gendered and we've had REAL RED BLOOD IN A PERIOD ADVERT. I'm sounding like a real liberal feminist here but sometimes you have to appreciate the small victories. Although at times the grief surrounding this illness overwhelms me, things like this help me imagine the next ten years and give me a moment of hope, and anyone who has experienced the lows of chronic illness will know how necessary those moments are to survive this.