#im writing just cuz i can lol

[dr3lls]

He’s a killer

   today was a very cold and windy day. all day, since the moment you woke up, you’ve felt...off. it was’t anything you were too worried about since you are a very paranoid person naturally, so you just shrug it off as the usual paranoia.

  going to your classes at your university was always the same thing in your small town. however, today while you were walking to your university, something was telling you not to go to your classes today. you rarely get that gut feeling, and usually it’s always right, so you listened to it. 

   turning back to walk towards your home, you could feel the stare of someone on your back. you definitely decided to walk faster to your home after feeling the stare.

   getting back in your house, you immediately lock all the locks in the house and make sure your windows are secure. triple checking every lock in the house, you grab two knives for self defense and walk towards your room.

   what you were not expecting was a man with green hair to be sitting on your bed, as if he owned the house!

   you were startled for a second, until you regained yourself and immediately shouted at the man, not surprising him in the slightest.

  “oh, shut it will you? you fucking brat. this is all your fault, you know? i didn’t want to do this, but you forced my hand today,” the mysterious man said to you, as you held out one of the knives at the man.

   “what do you want? leave me alone, or i’ll call the cops and have them arrest you!!!” 

   it went silent for at least 20 seconds, the only sound being both of your breathing. his slowly getting heavier, internally terrifying you.

   then he lunged at you and the last thing you saw was a tiny figure standing beside your body, which slowly loses consciousness and the stranger holding a...pencil?

   “you forced my hand, y/n. now you will suffer the consequences when you awake.”

   ---

i’m literally just writing drabbles instead of sleeping (which i should really be doing..)

i’ll actually write a yandere rohan fic soon, just wanted to get these thoughts and drabbles out while i have the motivation to write and post :D <3

-drells.

#yandere x reader #yandere jjba #yandere rohan #drabble #rohan x reader #jjba #jojos bizarre adventure #self insert lol #im writing just cuz i can lol

[undermycoat]

The first time Jamie stays over at Roy’s, they haven’t been together long, if you could call whatever it is that they have going on ‘together’ — it’s more like a series, a hotchpotch of bad decisions, Jamie pushing Roy, Roy pushing back, but then accidentally pushing so hard that Jamie falls into the nearest bed and, because he refuses to let Roy one-up him, manages to take Roy with him.

And sometimes they push and shove near a toilet stall. Or an alleyway. Or an empty supply closet. There’d even been that time where they happened to be right next to the door of the boot room, and it was one of the rare moments Will fucking Kitman hadn’t been in there already.

Needless to say, it feels very much like crossing some relationship-threshold when Roy rasps, “Yours or mine?” against the warm skin of Jamie’s throat and Jamie whines out, “Yours.”

It’s not, but it feels more damning than the boot room — definitely more personal, more involved — but still Roy takes him, and when it’s over, Jamie mouthing lazily at his shoulder, sated and sleepy, he doesn’t send him on his way like he knows he should, like he has all those times before.

In the morning, he’s torn from his sleep by a raucous clatter and a sharp gasp. He’s up and rushing to the ensuite before he’s even aware of his wakefulness. But instead of the gory scene he expects, what greets him is a perfectly safe Jamie, clutching a shampoo bottle and some of the shampoo splattered across the floor.

“Fuck’s going on?” Roy snaps, bracing a hand on the doorframe before stretching his leg, soothing the ache that’d started in his knee from his hurry.

Jamie waves the shampoo bottle at him. “You’ve actually got a decent product!”

He thinks he should feel more offended by Jamie’s shock than he does — really, all he feels is something like fond exasperation rising in his chest, up to his throat, threatening to choke him if he lingers on it for too long.

“Yeah,” he finally says slowly, as if speaking to a small child, “I’ve got to take care of my hair, don’t I?” What he doesn’t say is that he learnt that the hard way, but what Jamie doesn’t know won’t hurt him. (But Roy kind of wants to tell him anyway. But he won’t.)

Jamie pauses, looks between him and the bottle a couple times, before nodding. “Good, good,” he sets the shampoo back into the shower, “thought I’d have to teach you.”

Roy stares at him for another second, eyes narrowed, before he pivots and walks away, leaving Jamie to continue his apparent inspection. “Fuck you, Tartt!”

He ignores Jamie’s cheery, “Already done that, haven’t you?” And if his heart squeezes in his chest at the thought of more mornings like this — a fucking lifetime of mornings like this — well, that’s only for him to know.

#maybe this will work its way into a proper fic but idk #cmon now have a little faith in roy #this is a man who notes different shades of black i think he can stand a couple nice smelling shampoos #its just fucked when jamie does it. cuz its jamie. and roy refuses to be normal about him. LOL #royjamie #ted lasso #also im obsessed with will being called Will Kitman #my writing #long post #its literally fine #100

[hecksupremechips]

When I think about Mizuki in aini it’s like, I know something is just so off about her but I have trouble articulating it. It’s really frustrating cuz she was like my favorite character in the first game and when I play the first game I feel like I have a really good idea of who she is as a character. Like she acts strong and and hangs out with people much older than her and has to take on a fuck ton of responsibility but she’s also just a kid she cuddles with a rabbit toy she raises fish in the fridge she can be kinda gullible in the way that kids are and she doesn’t always understand more mature jokes. She acts sassy and hostile towards Date but she’s described as kinda and compassionate by Hitomi and she defends the weak and loves her friends deeply and thinks Aiba is cute. She pokes fun at Date for being grumpy at the shrine and then excitedly holds his hand and drags him over to the offering box to pray for his safety and she gets scared when there’s danger and she hugs Date for comfort but then tries to brush it off because she was taught to feel shame whenever she required basic attention and affection. She was hurt badly by her biological family and finds herself at home with Date despite her fears of him not caring for her. Like she’s a really solid well rounded character with strengths and weaknesses and her story makes me feel every possible emotion known to man

Then I play aini and I was soooo excited to see that Mizuki was gonna be a protagonist and that she had Aiba (its what made me buy the game immediately after finishing the first game lol) and then like. I honestly can’t tell you a damn thing about her character in aini. Like she’s the protagonist for half that game and I can’t think of any particular struggles she has as a character or like any moments where she stands out. It’s like, I know this is Mizuki she has the same basic features of that character but she’s not really given much? And anything new you learn about her is just like, retcons of her already established and well written backstory that just. Really didn’t need to be made and honestly they just kinda do a disservice to her character

Like first off there’s the Bibi twist which. Oof. I have some pretty complicated feelings about Bibi in general like okay. When she appears as the masked woman I was totally on board and thought she was really interesting and I was so prepared for her to be a favorite character her somnium is probably my favorite one in the game. And then she was revealed to be Mizuki. And it was revealed that we were playing as her for half of the B side of the story and we didn’t know it. Like, where to even begin. They stopped writing Bibi as her own character and she pretty much just became Mizuki except idk, she has a bigger grudge against Ryuki and has a heart condition I guess. And like I think it really speaks to how flat Mizuki was in this game if we can play as two completely different characters and have them be indistinguishable. Bibi shouldn’t be anything like Mizuki, they’ve lived completely different lives. And I hate the clone twist like good god I really hate the clone twist because IT ADDS NOTHING TO MIZUKIS CHARACTER OR HER CONFLICT. In fact it like, actively goes against her arc from the first game??? Cuz like half the point of Date and Mizuki’s relationship is there to show that family isn’t what you’re born with, it’s what you make. Both Date and Mizuki feel like their little family can’t exist because they’ve been taught, like most of us have, that biological family is the most important and real and valid way to have a family. You’re supposed to love and respect your biological parents because they MADE you, and Date has to live with the anguish that he can’t be Mizuki’s REAL father because they aren’t blood related. So like, to pull the rug away and go "oh yeah btw I guess Mizuki was adopted lol" it just completely erases what made her story so impactful to most people. And the clone reveal adds nothing like Mizuki doesn’t NEED this at all she wasn’t looking to discover the truth of her backstory because. There wasn’t any truths that needed to be discovered, we already know her deal and so does she. And her having a clone doesn’t really fit with the half to whole theme cuz like, she wasn’t looking for a fucking clone or like a secret sister or anything like that. It’s just stupid it’s so stupid

What Mizuki needed was like, a new actual conflict that required her to overcome challenges and grow as a character. A lot of people, myself included, have complained about how her relationship with Date just isn’t talked about hardly at all, how he went missing for 6 years and they didn’t even get a proper reunion and the game kinda mocks you for wanting one. We dont get any context as to how Mizuki coped during that time like she was completely alone for the most major years of her life she was separated from the one person who was her real family and we don’t know what she felt during all that cuz the game refuses to talk about it. And there isn’t much indication that the adults care about this either, Boss maybe has a soft spot for her but that’s kinda the extent of it, she makes a joke that Date is probably off chilling in a hot spring in Atami so clearly no one is giving Date’s disappearance the weight it deserves. So like, we have this potential thing we could work with here like why is Mizuki a detective now and why does she care about this case? Because her dad was taken by tearer and has been gone for 6 years and she’s been all alone and she wants to find him and find out if he’s even alive and she wants to kick tearers ass cuz he tore (hehe) her family apart. And this can also give her an actual connection to Ryuki too like Ryuki is the one who betrayed Date and knew some shit about tearer and saw what happened to Date and he just never told Mizuki the truth and she’s spent all this time looking for Date so this would be like, pretty major conflict when it all gets revealed. And it actually gives what Ryuki did actual consequences that affect him cuz honestly the fact that no one seems to care that much about Date’s disappearance makes Ryuki’s guilt and depression seem completely fucking useless lol. So here we go, that’s some conflict for Mizuki to have and it gives her a personal connection to the case, we can add more to it but really even this alone is way more than what she’s given in the actual game. And I think just the big problem with her in aini is I think the writers were too afraid to do anything that could ruin her character or cause her to change too much so they just like. Didn’t write anything that could allow her to develop and instead just fucked with already established information about her which. I honestly don’t know how that is seen as better??? In what fucking world. It just feels really pointless to have even made Mizuki a protagonist to begin with since they don’t really do anything with her and lol I think the writers realized this so that’s why like. Ryuki gets all the character conflict but makes lowkey no progress in the case and the real investigation doesn’t happen until the Mizuki side cuz they needed to make up for the fact they didn’t write anything for her alskla

So yeah just to wrap things up, Mizuki just didn’t get to be a character in aini and she wasn’t given any interesting conflict despite how easy it would’ve been cuz the writers were too scared of doing anything with this character that could ruin her but dude. Dont fucking make her the protagonist then if you’re too scared of doing anything with her. Don’t piss me off like that

#aitsf #aini #ai the somnium files #ai the somniun files nirvana initiative #mizuki date #im still working out the kinks for my aini rewrite so i had to RESTRAIN MYSELF from getting into that too much lol #but yeah god like this is a really big problem and like its hard to talk about the fact that mizuki wasnt given any real conflict and was #basically just a cardboard cutout of a character this whole game #without it sounding like idk. complaining about the fact that shes a girl and just automatically writing her story off as bad #because shes a girl and just being really misogynistic cuz ive definitely seen that with her and its like AAAGHHH #i agree that shes not written good but its not cuz women are inherently boring and stupid dipshit #i think we can argue that her story is bad because of misogyny if we wanted to cuz id say its a factor #but yeah its just really frustrating cuz like ive played this game THOROUGHLY very thoroughly and still cant tell you much about mizuki #uh anyways i hate the clone twist i will never not hate it i was so ready to be a bibi stan i was so let down 😭

[fyncherly]

A text I sent my friend as I spiraled (haha jk) over vampolitics regarding vague plotlines about a multi-chapter suckening fic that diverges after episode 4 and explores an au in which Edward's plotline doesn't play out quite like it did and there's other plays for power alongside his own and what if some key events still happened but, like, a little to the left and within the context of this slightly altered version (an au if you will) and what if the twins and Gref went with Arthur to London and found more and what about that guy Uncle Lazarus huh something up with him and what if the twins leaned more into their royal status and did something with it (or tried to in a more concerted effort) and Mary Davis will be there (mirror Mary sorry this is after ep 4) and obviously Vex & Viv and what if there's a touch more domesticity cuz I'm a fool for that and what if Gref realizes he's been manipulated and they have to confront this and it's messy and awful and necessary and there's layers guys layers and what if I just speculate and make up lore for the stuff that will probably be answered in season 2 anyway hm and what if and what if—

#listen #do i have a plethora of wips #yah #and do i have a freaking clue about anything at any given moment #nah #but the urge to make this fic starting just after episode 4 but slightly to the left and #kinda like if you watched the Suckening through your friend's prescription glasses while wearing your own contacts #is encapsulating like i just want to go a lil off the rails here and write a “well if this happened this is how it'd go down” sort of thing #of fanfic ya know and i wonder if anyone else would care about this #sometimes i wonder if im fandoming wrong lol why do i do this #i'm already on my relisten to prepare for this and guys i have some suspicions regarding Uncle Lazarus #he distracted me with his silly voice and pheasant talk #but something's off here #and i'm going to explore that in my fic because it's called fanfiction for a reason #god i wonder what would happen if i put this much effort and enthusiasm into creating original things #anyheehoo gonna start writing it today probably maybe #also not a set in stone thing but... what if i made illustrations for each chapter #just a thought... a musing of mine... a whimsical pondering #fuck being into both writing and drawing my life would be so much easier if i was only interested one #oh also ships??? genuinely dunno if that'll be a thing but if there's interesttttttt i'd love to hear what people may want to see?? #if i do end up writing this and all CUZ WE CAN DO WHAT WE WAAAANT #kudos to you and a pat on the head if you read all the way down here i love you #jrwi suckening #jrwi: the suckening #jrwi the suckening fanfic

[bootlegfrank]

I've been wondering if I could turn that dream I had about Scar into a fic... Teehee.

#who do the people ship with scar tell me #cuz i dont know if i have the constitution to write my first x reader fic i dont think i can stomach it #i dont just wanna be like 'hello tumblr heres a wet dream i had about your favourite youtuber' this blog isnt about me #its the type of thing thats meant to go on ao3 ykno so i gotta figure this out #also it was a nightmare actually #nightmare and wet dream in one kind of hilarious in hindsight #i dont think i wanna stick to the original worldbuilding tbh lol #oh my god my rambling im sorry #goodtimeswithscar #.nsft #irl stuff

[itstimeforstarwars]

My diary when I was a teenager: I am so angry and this is where I put my rage about how the world is ending and how mad I am about it and how much I hate politicians and the school board

My diary now: here is a recounting of what I did today as well as how I feel about some of the news from today, so that in twenty years when everyone is lying about how the 2020s went I have proof that I'm not insane.

#chit chat #it really hasn't changed much except that I am now writing about the context of the wider world #because so much of my teenage diary was 'i am so mad about what's going on in the world!!! how can they do this!!!' #and older me is like 'hm. what WAS? going on in the world?' and then i have to go look up the news for that day #which feels harder to do now than it did back then #so now im adding context so that when im forty i can be like 'yeah! how could they let this happen!' in solidarity with my younger self #also my grandmother worked at a museum for twenty years so now im actively trying to be helpful to whoever ends up with these things #cuz i won't have kids to pass them onto but some random archivist might think they’re interesting #I've been heavily inspired by dykes to watch out for and how like half the strips are just responding to the news #lol #sometimes i wish i could be less fucking weird but unfortunately i have been Like This since at least the seventh grade #i took one elective journalism class and it was all over for me

[brine-in-my-eyes]

Yeah it's a McRebs comic sprinkled with Charles Rebelivin lore (Fifi is the name of his mom who had died during her service)

I think it looks good tbh. just dunno if im in the mood to fibish it 😭😭😭😭😭

#i actually haven't been in the mood to draw hv au content #mainly becuz i like wander over yonder now #but i still do like them #i like my oc x canon ship #its the only reason im still writing n drawing tbh so i can make them all cute together #i also haven't posted hv au stuff cuz idk who cares for it anymore #sooooooo lol gonna take this opportunity to just post my oc x canon into the au #i rlly haven't posted alot of art but i prommy it is being made i just don't bother 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #rambles #Henry Ventriloquest au #charles rebelivin #Scott McCoolsvile #theyre celebrating all souls day ) #henry stickmin au #thsc au #berenmon art #my art #ok ok #sleepy time now #zzzzzz

[strangledlullaby]

a strangled red hc i have is that steven and mikes parents are not present because they travel a lot to other regions for their jobs and as a result mike chose to not become a pokemon trainer when he was younger because he didnt want to leave steven alone (then when steven becomes a pokemon trainer he suggests that mike could come with him since he does feel a bit bad about mike missing out on it initially)

#pokepasta #strangled red #strangled red mike #strangled red steven #its still headcanon when its basically just my own version of the strangled red story where i am stretching 'canon' like putty right #and their current fate? who knows lol mikes an adult by the time strangled reds events begin so theyd jst b living on their own probably #tbh both started kind of late when the minimum age you can become a trainer is 10-11 #but other games some of the trainers are 14 so whatevr. in strangled red whats Canon-canon is messed with anyways #i actually did want to write smth related to this hc (the one the post is about not my tag rambling) #it was kind of a mike pov of him growing up trying to be a good brother leading up to. You Know #but i kind of ran out of steam and havent had the spoons to come back to it cuz immm not a writing pro <3 #me when i want to make strangled red content so bad but im not good at making thecontent

[starlit-hopes-and-dreams]

Happy STS, Anna!

On a scale from aphantasia to complete movie, how well can you picture things you're writing? Is there any difference to when you're just the reader?

Happy STS, Elli <3

I'm all the way over on the aphantasia side *sad face*

Every now and then I'll get something like a flash vision of a scene, but that's really rare.

Mostly, if I try to visualize something, it's like... your bedroom at night, completely pitch-black. You know where things are but you can't see them.

The only difference when I'm the reader is that I'm not trying to actively blindly visualize something so I can describe it. I can just read the words and enjoy the story. Sometimes I'll get confused over a description and try to think about it, but for the most part I can just be like, that sounds pretty, and move on. Cuz I'm not gonna see it :')

#starlit asks #sts ask #i-can-even-burn-salad #im so jealous of all these movie people for real #lol my husband found out I couldn't see stuff when I read last year and he was just flabbergasted #asked why i read all these books if I can't see anything #*shrug* #cuz i like the story the words tell? #also i think writing fantasy as a writer with aphantasia is just. a special level of hell. LOL

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

ok ok so you know how my life has majorly revolved around my pain since july & how that has been extremely difficult :) well lately I find myself getting up later than I want to & making my bed as badly as I possibly can & getting out of the house after noon when I planned to get out in the morning & walking to the library when it’s sunny & sitting there for hours & the whole time I’m most concerned with writing & that it’s incredible what I’m doing, it’s a little paradise

#you know how I hoped September would be kind to me well it delivered #I actually didn’t realize how mentally poorly I was doing until I got out of it ! #like oooooof it’s like a chronic pain veil #& to be very honest it’s because I’m physically better so I cannot blame myself and I don’t lol bc there will be a time when that happens #<< again #I mean better loosely I just mean I haven’t had 8/10 pain every day for weeks LOLLL #but it’s really quiet and beautiful & im grateful !!! like yay I can still create ! #I’m not thinking abt my pain 95% of the day now it’s probably about 40%? 50? so a lot but I’m literally not every single thought LOL #sometimes it’s even like 20! not even cuz anything is getting better bc it’s not but I will take it even if idk why!!! #(& by nothing is getting better I mean meaningfully better but I have been blessed with some good days lately which I had none #of all summer) #I say this bc every day I wake up and immediately think OH GOD MY PAIN which is so valid bc it’s awful in the morning getting up is like #falling into a black hole Lol but also while that thought is still there I also thought #wow I’m so excited to write today I’m so excited to see what Jeremiah does #HE IS THE NARRATOR OF HEALING #also like SOOO PRIVILEGED to be able to do this like I also wanted to say that! #anyway update for u since I know I have shared the Despair but none of the beauty yet lol #lots of love chronic illness/pain bbs <3

[blueparadis]

hi. just poppin' to say that I'll be back around the 2nd week of July even tho my exams will be done by the first week. i really can't wait to be back and write again. i miss writing, i miss it like crazy ( so crazy that i eventually gave in and started writing a ran fic. it won't leave my mind till I wrote it. anyways....) but I'm a little afraid to post or continue sharing or even write l like i used to before; since ai going at par with it. it's just makes me sad,,,,

#paradistalks #i was looking forward to comms cuz i need to save money to buy a tab for myself #but ai really kills my enthuuuu #idk how long will i be able to continue writing at this rate #im so sad over this #oh btw i locked all my fics in ao3 and you can read it if you are an ao3 user ( sorry but ao3 scrapping really scared me lol ) #i could not delete my works from ao3 or my ao3 account it would have solved my problems better but i just couldn't (: #there was this one thing that made me feel okay ( validated )and now it can be done with ai. woah great #also i'm so sorry to put all these in dash #now a days it feels like i'm coming here just to complain #sad.sad.sad. everything is just so sad !!!! #tw vent #tagging just in case

[kxllerblond]

reading book? too much effort. sitting down and writing replies?? can't focus.

youtube rabbit hole of in-depth Barbie history and architectural design of dream houses and playsets? i got all da focus in da world baybeee!

#barbie has always been an Interest especially in adult years since i more or less refrained from being #a hardcore barbie enjoyer because ykno not to gender talk on a tues but i rejected just about everything typically femme because i did not #want to be seen as femme or fully femme from a young age #so even if i really liked barbies i distanced myself from them pretty fast :'( #so now i think im compensating by like. instead of buying them for myself because i dont really want to collect. i just like lmao #obsessively info dive and watch commercial compilations and shit kdjfgdg #anyway did you know barbie has two younger siblings besides her main three that were actually her youngest ones #tutti and todd and they havent been seen since the late 90s? like theyre recognized in terms of history but in terms of #barbie lore and canon theyve been completely retconned out cuz theyve never shown up in sets or movies or anything #did you also know they were made of a bendable soft plastic as opposed to hard and the wires were prone to poking through and stabbing kids #and that the plastic stored like shit and if you put them (soft plastic) on your other dolls (hard) they would literally #melt into each other?? :) #barbie also has lots of cousins just got mentioned briefly and then annihilated from technical canon lol #oooh and then there's also Blaine who is an ex bf of barbie that was made specifically to date her briefly during a sort of campaign #barbie broke up with ken and got with blaine but ofc she got back with ken and after that blaine was never seen nor mentioned again. he deA #anyway happy tuesday im gonna eat my soup and try and break out of this info consuming trance so i can wrITE #oHOH and last silly trivia being barbie has lots of canon relatives that havent been retconned or anything BUT they've also never been made #into dolls. off the top of my head i think some of these include like uhhh her mom and dad and some aunts and shit #tho i think these are either just mentioned in passing or from the barbie movies or some in books

[hecksupremechips]

A funny, kinda annoying thing I see a lot as someone who’s read my fair share of m/m fanfic is watching women (cuz 99.9% of the writers tend to be women) trying to figure out how guys talk to each other and just making them like. Really gross and weirdly misogynistic for the sake of “authenticity” in male interactions akdjks. Like the guys will just be like “chicks are great, I love fucking them and looking at their fat tits and never calling them again when they get all clingy” and you look at the character saying this and its like Luigi

#the klock keeps ticking #its one thing if the guys youre writing are supposed to be kinda shitty and it gets addressed #but ive just seen it pop up with the most random ass characters lol #like in some ry/min fics i remember one where they were talking and mentioned some woman and ryan was just like ‘yeah what a stupid bitch’ #like AAAAAAAAAA why did you just make him say that he would not fucking say that 😭 #its especially weird given how like i said this pops up in gay fics and trust me gay men can be assholes im aware #but in my experience like idk me and other guys are never just like. haha fucking WOMEN amirite #maybe its cuz im not a complete asshole and i like talking to guys who are also not assholes #in cases where some guy youre talking to does say something misogynistic like. at the very fucking least youll think to yourself #wow this guy is a misogynistic asshole! #idk how to articulate this its just a thing i see a lot and i hate it #unless youre gonna do something with it AND its in character just like. stopppp writing all this misogyny??? #stop it! get some help! #also this isnt me complaining about women writing m/m fics cuz id have nothing without them akdjsk #its just. one of those fandom misogyny things that should stop

[mirrortouchedsea]

The sound of the rain filled the chapel as Tatsumi Kazehaya limped to the altar. Services had ended hours ago and no light entered through the stained glass windows. His feet were burning but it almost didn’t matter as he lowered his knees to the floor and bowed his head.

“Our Father, who art in heaven,” he began, throat closing up around the words. His voice was soft but full of conviction. “Hallowed be thy name.”

He closed his eyes and ran his tongue over his lips. “Thy kingdom come, thy will be done” he whispered, his knees burning at the contact with the floor. He’d certainly have blisters later. “On Earth as it is in Heaven.”

Heaven. Tatsumi was certain now, if he hadn’t been before, that he would not be seeing Heaven after his death, if he would ever die at all.

“Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our tresspasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.” He could feel the bile rising in his throat, blood dripping from his hands clasped in front of him. He begged for forgiveness to an entity he knew wasn’t listening.

“Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.” Everything was on fire now, his skin felt like it wanted to slip off at any moment.

He muttered a final Amen before standing back up and staring at the altar again, the images of Jesus and Mary were distorted to him now, and yet he couldn’t help but smile fondly as he walked back out of the church. As much as he’d love to stay more, to dust off the altar and clean it up, there wasn’t really a point as flames engulfed the building, more of them emerging from his footsteps as he walked away.

#shay writes #tatsumi kazehaya #not gonna maintag it beyond his character tag cuz its just like #a warm up from this morning i did while waiting on my laundry #and now im waiting on my wifi and im gonna nap as soon as i hit post for this lol #its supposed to be vampire tatsun but you can interpret it however you want #his unholy vampiric nature fighting against the holiness of the church culminating in flames #i have more thoughts on this piece specifically but im tired and on my phone so.

[melting-morning-blues]

the fuwa naki yua dynamic is so good like they’re so good for each other and their shared experiences and unspoken but mutual understandings can be nurtured into this healthy relationship where all of them just. just support and take care of one another???:!3!2

like naki and yua helping fuwa when his self-destructive tendencies get the better of him, fuwa and naki assuring/urging yua in their own ways that it’s okay for her to take a break, fuwa and yua being there to listen to and support naki when the prospect of being able to lead their own life and make their own decisions still overwhelm them, all three of them leaning on one another as they slowly heal their trauma and scars together……..

and then you have naki telling all those bad aruto-level puns they store in their database while fuwa just dies laughing and yua questions her life choices, fuwa showing up at the a.i.m.s office unannounced (and definitely unauthorised) to make sure yua and naki aren’t overworking themselves (naki would  point out that humagears are capable of working without experiencing fatigue like humans do, but fuwa would argue that it’s still not good for them to keep working without a break. yua would go, “says you,” and fuwa would complain that they’re ganging up on him), and yua bringing them all to the amusement park to just wind down and relax and enjoy the peace they all oh-so deserve (fuwa still screams while riding the attractions there, naki learns that they feel a sense of accomplishment when they win prizes for fuwa and yua from the mini-game booths due to their crazy accurate aiming)!!!

this show and their dynamic has a chokehold on me, can you tell

#[ mio talks aloud: ] #[ mio writes: ] #[ mindworks: ] #kamen rider zero one #kamen rider naki #fuwa isamu #yaiba yua #and it doesn't have to be inherently romantic #platonic love needs some Love too ahaha get it #(im sorry) #also they can be so chaotic when you put them together lol #i just like imagining that with everything they've experienced #they just trust and feel secure with one another #is that too much to ask for?? #i;m insane and going crazy #anyways i'm all for the fuwa naki yua agenda cuz they do not get enough love

[monsterbisexual]

listening to this at work this morning cuz i just remembered s2 will be coming at some point n i cant wait to be not normal abt it. also i hope the score for next season goes as hard as the s1 score does cuz like dudeeeeee!!!!!

the composer + costume designer were such mvp's!!!

#p #im excited n nervous alshsksj #like season 1 was soooooo good. like everything was so. man #acting writing (as mentioned before costume design + music Oh n the sets n stuff) etc #i should rly rewatch before s2 starts whenever that is. if i can survive it lajdkf #thought abt it cuz in my dream last night 3 of the main characters were randomly in some show my mom was watching?? alsjdk #not just the actors even lol. anyway