#im tired and never wanna draw again

[toohighonair]

One Day Left / Залишився Один День

#omori #omori fanart #fanart #my art #украрт #укртумбочка #оморі #omori art #omori aubrey #omori sunny #omori kel #omori basil #omori mari #omori hero #this took so long to make #im tired and never wanna draw again #i love this game so much

[n0bluev]

redraw(ish) link

Um. Actually, ☝️, Geto is fun. (No offense but skill issue, Gojo. (☝️.))

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Very random impromptu god gojo AU thingy ??? I got the idea 5 seconds before drawing this (: brain empty….!! big eyes !!!eyes… GOJO? Gojo has eyes…- "BIG" eyes……..,'God' coded? Lets go with that.) and only thought a little while drawing so theres not much lol

But uhm.; So gojo is a young god ™ (around 20yo, typical gojo.) but despite that, he’s been overpowering other gods who have been there for thousands of years since the moment he was born (breaking the balance of the world as he does) so thats fun -- gods are immortal but he "doesnt count" yet right? his existence is an insult to the rest of the world. ‘Elders dont like him’ (that goes both for old gods AND old worshipers.) [<—aka ‼️OVERPOWERED YOUNGSTER OLD PEOPLE DONT LIKE ✅ (CHECK!) VERY GOJO!]

Theres a worship system thing going on in this AU ; A lot of people are very religious and follow these gods and whatnot (but there are probably groups that reject this lifestyle, or that sought out taboo methods instead, staying away from places where strict laws rule) [hashtag insert worldbuilding] —— GETO (born same year as « gojo ») HAS BEEN BROUGHT UP IN THIS SYSTEM SINCE A RELATIVELY YOUNG AGE AND IS FULLY EDUCATED ABOUT THE MANNERS AND RITUALS HE SHOULD DO AND BLABLABLA. Theres a hierarchy in the church/cult thing so theres higher ups for him to dislike while politely kissing ass (amen). Idk what he thinks of the gods (it’s between him being a model worshiper that truly has faith in them & him secretly having something against them for some reason, only believing in his own gatekeep girlbossness or something¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

EITHER WAY. he goes to meet gojo at some point. Probably because he has been asked to. Maybe the story is about (/or at least starts with) elders ™ deciding they want to find ways to control / restrain gojo (idk), leading to satosugu eventually teaming up to say fuck that.

Something something geto being « favoured by a god [gojo] » thus having a definite place in this world and gojo feeling like geto’s existence « grounds him » and gives him proper meaning in what to use his strength for and whatnot. Whatever (i doubt im going to write this so im not gonna elaborate lol sorry (i love me some character psychology but 💤💤)) Something something they are a destined cosmic pair your honour. Hashtag soulmates in every universe including this one HAh

Kind of an afterthought but: Gojo adopting megumi is definitely canon here too so 👍👍👍👍 (megumi is probably human but idk, as long as theyre wholesome im sold <3<3) SO LIKE, SOME PLOT HAS TO HAPPEN TO MAKE THEM FAMILY YKNOW - but deal with that yourself 😌(💤) (unless i come back to this idea with some deranged brainrot i didnt ask for + the will to create & share it✌️)

(Ps i decided gojo can change size so he can be human sized (oooo sneaky!), but ‼️‼️he can also be pocket size‼️‼️(i think thats the most important to note thank you v much), hes not stuck on giant mode yay :D)

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Everythings so sketchy haha, BUT GETO YOUR HONOUR! ah…no earring on this screenshot tho mybad

#not rly rendered :/ got tired before i got there (might draw another similar thing later with more care tho) #eye thing -- but yeah id prefer a drawing where i went to the extreme (this isnt it) #I WANNA DO BIG BIG GODLY EYES YKNOW? *sighh* later #呪術廻戦 #jjk au #jjk #jjk fanart #satosugu #gojo #geto #satosugu fanart #stsg fanart #stsg #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen fanart #nhoblu narration #i guess pft #gojo satoru fanart #gojo satoru #geto suguru fanart #gojo fanart #geto fanart #geto suguru #ugh im never tagging all that again - never

[skaluli]

wasnt gonna post this until i was happy with it but that was weeks ago and its either i post it now or medic dies in the files

#artluli #tf2 #team fortress 2 #yeah i had no idea what to do for the background which was one of the factors of why i never finished it #actually wanted to do a “finished piece” for once but it just never happened #another factor was the fact i dont know how to really draw medic yet #wanna do him justice before i post him “”“”officially“”“” but i dont know when ill actually get good at drawing in general and him #the shading is very random #i didnt know what to do with it either so i kinda just threw paint on a wall hoping something would work but it didnt #i dont know #i dont like this that much and wish i could somehow fix it but i cant and im very tired #still sorry for no new art #like i said previously i havent drawn in weeks #life is life #hopefully when i post art again its worth your time lul

[robotsafari]

i had a dream where these two hung out

#beep boop you want fries with that #guilty gear #dgs #millia #iris watson #the great ace attorney #iris is my daughter and i care her very much but i never wanna draw her ever again oh my god. #gah. .what a white woman wednesday amiright (did absolutely nothing today) #im so eepy tire.... zzz..

[frootbyethefoot]

everything i love and cherish is done with my hands and there aren't enough hours in the day for me to do everything :(

#sorry. school is kicking my ass right now #and i'm still knee deep in the worst artblock to ever artblock #i've never had to. find time to draw before? #i've just always been doodling and drawing and creating #and im just. too busy right now #idk. im sad. i wanna draw again. and i want it to look good #im just so tired

[hybridkilljoys]

I know people say youre never too old to improve your art but hoh boy does it suck when burnout has made it impossible to improve as an artist as much as you wanted to in the past ten years and now im slowly accepting im going to feel like a mediocre artist forever :')

#And yeah my art is Ok #better than it was before but like #i am just so disappointed i havent improved as much as i wanted and also having a narcissist father who for years has discouraged my art #journey and he isnt subtle about thinking its a waste and how i should find a better career that gets me money faster #But my guy i am so fucking burnout and just not the brightest of people i am not fit for anything But art #and if i cant succeed in this field literally what is left for me #work some shitty retail job until i die? #literally worst fear #it also sucks bc being stuck in two soul sucking food service jobs in my late teens and early twenties made #trying to improve my art nearly impossible bc i was always so tired and so burnout and ive still felt like this even after quitting idk #point it ive tried but i havent tried enough but i dont have the energy to try more but if i dont try more im just going to keep being #a mediocre artist in my eyes and will never accomplish anything memorable #idk #i forgot where i was going w this but ig im just tired of feeling stagnant as an artist and not having the strength to fix it #Im just tired dude i wanna enjoy drawing again but everything feels like a chore

[zenithpng]

hm.

#feeling like. all around bad. and idk why really #i just dont want to do anything. i want to rot. everything is hard. #why does everything feel like a chore!! i love playing minecraft and sewing and drawing and writing but it all feels Bad rn #and on top of that i dont even wanna talk to my partner for some reason. i love them a lot but my brain keeps going 'you should just never #speak to them again. because why the fuck not.' and i dont know why. #(riot if you see this it is not about you) #but. idk. i just wanna have a breakdown but i dont wanna have it alone but also. i dont have anyone irl. #i should text ms v and meet with her probably. she would let me hug her. she would understand. #on top of all the emotional and social bs ive also got my perpetual family issues to deal with and im. so tired. #i want to move away somehow #but even dorms might not be possible because i fucked up my grades as i usually do. great job jet. #idk i just wish i could be mentally well and have friends and parents that weren't shit #sigh #a guy can dream! #delete later

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#i experience an emense amount of guilt ovet not being able to focus on work. go into the lab and run into a lab mate and hes like #u leave Thursday? why tf r u here? and that makes me feel a lil better lol #ive just being data entering all day. that takes so fucking long. and then helping an undergrad #exept my code was out of date so i was like welp i can only get u this far bc i did not write this code. i do not work with the #supercomputer on a regular enough basis. and i gave my 30 days notice today so ill be working remotely until the 18th #i probably should have done it way before but like ive still got so much to do i might as well get paid for doing it #the undergrad was like id probably work to the end bc i feel lost when im not working and i was like. bro. im so fucking brunt out that ppl #around me r like yo r u ok? theres a thing as too much work. dont cross that line. snd ill still probably work to the end bc i dont wanna #have to do it on top of other shit. but god. in a few days i never have to go back in that building again #sometimes having to be in that lab would make me feel physically ill i thibk just bc i have so much stress associated with standing at that #lab bench but woof i will not miss it. its not great. the ppl r nice but like the institution kinda sucks. but i probably #wasnt the best fit for the school. i only cane out here for my advisor and on that front i have no regrets #god im so tired tho. just make it Thursday already so my parents can b helping me move >~< lets fucking goooooo #srry for not posting much drawing wise. i prob wont b able to for a while as i transition across the country lol #also. a note to myself. i should get a proper sketchbook so i can actually draw out ideas and store them in a place. that would b convenient #god. its so hot 😖 let me leave #unrelated

[godsofthepillowtalk]

in the house tonight

#gods of the pillowtalk #shitpost #comic #webcomics #incites violence offscreen #havent drawn anything in awhile and part of the whole thing is partly bc i have fucking carpal tunnel im going to kms the shit BURNS #luckily we might go to a PT sometime but idk if it could be this week or the next #but im tired already cause i wanna play video games in peace or just generally fuckin write on my phone #but nooooo my nerves decided to go GET FUCKED #ugh #anyway heres to hoping i draw a'dhabake get really angry again #mans willl beat rex to the floor but rex will never get hurt from it #oc #ocs #original character

[touyatodorokigf]

I miss drawing so bad

#like actual full pieces #not just my little sketches #I do those quite a lot #or try to #but I just miss like the process of it all #rendering and stuff #if u could even call it that w my art but idk #yeah I just feel like I am in such a creative block lately #and I think it’s mostly because I have been very busy #like I had a tiny break after finals were done and then things started happening again #and i have such an issue with like ajsjsksjsk #If I do something or a couple of things one day I won’t do the things for MYSELF on that day #if that makes sense #so I’ll just be like wow im so tired let me relax #instead of like writing or drawing or doing something creative #but I never wanna force that shit because then it’s not fun #and then what’s the point then u know #idk I am just a little bummed about it and have been lately but #I will deal!!!! I will get out of the funk eventually #the next couple of days start to slow down for me so hopefully I have a chance to write #or like have a moment where I feel like I actually WANT to be creative #omg this got so long bye ajshsksjsk if u read this far I’m so sorry and also I’m kissing ur forehead and I love u

[flamboyant-king]

Hey gu ys

play b ug fabl es

#Sorry ive been dead. Ive started a nother job maybe second job because i still wanna make donuts #i feel so bad. Ive been feeling bad. Ive lost my ambition to draw. Im stuck. No inspiration or dreams anymore #I feel because im going to be stuck in a cycle of being in a job never that ive dreamed i should give up my passion #I know i know it can be a side thing and i know i just started actually working but #Ive been beaten down so much my hopes and strength really is leaving me #Im so tired. Im so old. I want someone or a parallel self to make the things i can never do #Make the comics the games the art that would bring me joy and happiness #Its too much effort for a shell of an egg like myself #But hey i started playing games again and reading webcomics and the freetime at work can let me watch shows #Drawing…i dont know anymore.. i never was anything special or having a will #Ive ran out of energy in general to be who i was. All i am now is tired. I miss wiwi #That aside play this game. Its fun charming and cute heeho. I did make sketches for the characters #But i cant bring myself to post art anymore. Maybe someday. But not…now…

[mbat]

man of course im gonna end up remembering my scrapped fantasy hlvrai ask blog idea i had back in 2020 right as im trying to sleep

i literally had a whole vague story and i believe drew almost every ref and had a few characters expressions done but it was so much work lmao. i am still pretty proud of it all even though it never went live. maybe i could make it a thing still but in writing only form shrug

i rly did have a few hlvrai au ideas that never came to light more than as ideas with some info attached. shout out as well to my hallmark movie au between gordon and benry 💀

#i also had a hanahaki au with the whole story planned out but it was never meant to be written cause it was basically a retelling of #hlvrai itself but a little different he he he #also i was not very strictly following the rules of hanahaki in it lol #obv i had the college demon au which was the only one that came alive at least a little with a short 20k wip #oh man i also had like one or two where benry tried to befriend gordon after hlvrai but under a different face and name #I HAD SO MANY HLVRAI AUS #im so tired i wanna sleep why is my brain reminding me of this #waaaa its cause i was thinking about facebook and how my icon on there is gorgon tommy from the fantasy au #i drew gorgon tommy a few times lmao #my post #hlvrai #half life vr but the ai is self aware #hlvrai au #i should draw them all again. my little fantasy men

[hecksupremechips]

Ooooooghhhhhhhhh stressed 🥺

#dont wanna see family tomorrow and im sleeping saur bad lately i couldnt sleep last night and then had a typical fever dream #which gave me a really cute idea for a movie so im gonna keep it in my pocket #but it was one of those things where its like it says a whole lot about me and my trauma and its stressful #um um um and also im juggling all these different things like im sewing im trying to finally write im trying to draw again #while feeling like im failing at it all and then like i still gotta find fuckinnnnn job i neeeeeed money #this time of year is always really hard for me i hate when its warm again i hate easter and i hate knowing that summer is coming #aaghhhh rn im ticking and stimming really bad and im having trouble breathing hnnghhh #and im very sweaty lol i always get so sweaty when i dont sleep good i dont get it #also i think im just horrible like the one person i wanna talk to probably is getting tired of my constant life crisis and how needy i am #and theyre probably off being better without me there and im just a burden and then my therapist idk about him #i dont feel like hes really giving me anything like when i talk about how stressed and unsafe i am hes like you gotta find a way to cope #and he doesnt really tell me how exactly i should do that like mate thats why im here i need the help you cant just listen to me panic and #go ‘wow you need to fix that’ ughhhh and i think hes mad at me because i dont think he believes me anymore when i say im in an abusive #situation and that ive been controlled my whole life by everyone and i have never felt safe #and its just like ughhh like i feel like no one believes me anymore and theyre all fed up with my bullshit incompetence and constant #bellyaching and im a horrible friend and a liar and probably just being dramatic as fuck making myself believe im being abused when in #reality im the abuser the ungrateful brat who treats his family like shit and cant trust them even though they seem so perfect to everyone #and im so stupid and toxic for trying to run away and for being scared to death here #thats how its feeling anyway idk everyone is just. weird and im losing my grip on reality and cant tell whats real anymore

[nerice]

good evening i am. angry but also don't have the wrist stamina to get into it

#elia txts #it just sucks!!!!!! that my job is Doing Nothing and waiting for my body to Heal #FOR ANOTHER 3 MONTHS AT LEAST #i must under no circumstances overdo it even when i start feeling better even in march #i should not write all night or draw a lot it will be so much Easing Back Into It and Not Fuck It All Up Again #but im sick and tired!!!!!!!! two full years pissed into the void #and i won't even be able to throw myself back into passions with my whole heart #like i cannot get over losing two actual years of my life i am so extremely antisocial abt it too #bc before this irl fri*ndshit was taking up so much of my time & i agonized over it and i just like #shouldn't have should've just dropped it then id have never gotten into g3nshin id have quit my job much earlier #i would have actually been able to enjoy japan. it fucking HAUNTS ME #ventpost lol dl but like #i fell behind. everything got away from me. & now i have to wait more and be gentle and patient w myself i wanna bite my own head off #GOD. release me from this hell #i want to draw so badly i don't wanna get 10 pathetic minutes a day at best #i wanna get an art spark and not put it in a box i want to be consumed again & pour hours into it fuelled by energy drink unafraid #reading books is all i can do at the moment but even that is miserable bc i don't have the typing ability for my vocab lists #i can't write notes and summaries even when things are interesting. i cannot look at japanese without crying bc i miss kanji #& believe in recovery now!! (on good days anyway) but this aching void of loss and grief and time wasted will it ever go away :(

[screwoffdotnet]

hungry . sleepy. coold. head hurts. 1 million final projects. no star trek. death may be approaching soon i fear

#txt #college is so funny #cus evek tho im kinda inclined to be stressed about everything #im not because i LIKE my other classes #even if im a bit tired i like what im gonna do #its literally jist this class that makes me wanna die like i just wanna get out of here and as soon as im done i feel great literally #like omg everywhere else im like yayy yay i love work i love to work #THIS CLASS? oh brother i never wanna work again #at.least in my next class. drawing class. i get to turn my brain odf #and st least today i get to go earlier than usual #so thats good

[afternines]

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#im so selfaware it hurts cause i know im being ridiculous rn but i cant stop crying over the same two things #genuinely so miserable about not having a boyfriend or just like . anyone who loves me unconditionally and who i love unconditionally and #who i can hold hands with and i can kiss and hug and. Yeah #kinda got tired of crying over it cause maybe i just need to take action myself so i got onto bumble n tinder but im so . socially inept it #makes me wanna throw up #every time i match with someone i just wanna disappear n never speak to them its so fucking humiliating #im texting this one guy now but i think thats gonna die down at some point and ill just delete both dating apps i think . it makes me feel #so stupid like wtf am i doing. #the other thing i keep crying over is my art and its so stupid too like why am i throwing a tantrum 😹😹😹😹😹 #deactivated my art account on twitter and packed up my drawing tablet . im afraid ill kiII myself if i try and fail to draw again #i just cant physically do it #no matter what i try it just doesnt fucking work #and its depressing because i dont know who i am!!!!!! i dont know anything about my own identity!!!!!! but art has always been the one thing #in my identity i was quite sure over and now its just. Gone. just like that #feeling like i lost someone dear to me. i dont know what to do i dont know what to dooooo #the two things i crave most in life (to love and be lived #and to create freely) have been ripped from my hands and i feel so fuvking empty #i dont actually wanna kiII myself. so i am alive but without these two i feel like ive already died #i feel so lost and it fucking hurttyttssss