#im throwing her in the trash

[seirosu]

get yourself a muse that makes you go feral . like , girl . ✨ you are thousands of years late to your therapist appointment . you need to sit on the time-out chair . rhea, honey , please go touch grass . ✨ godspeed .

#ooc tbt. #tbd #rhea makes me feel so normal #im throwing her in the trash #anyways im fine #we're fine #its all okay #literally wounded myself thinking about rhea

[musubiki]

danmarch 🐉💎

#honkai star rail #dan heng #march 7th #danmarch #fanart #hsr #what else do i tag. i have no idea #anyway. im breaking my VERY LONG oc art streak to post my one(1) contribution to star rail #i care them very much #ive been playing this game so religiously and they have not left my team #tragic past(emo) vs tragic past(girly pop) #theres NO WAY with marchs very teenage girl mind that she does not have a crush on the hot cool mysterious yet caring dragon guy #who stays in the room right next to her #and the fact that he teases her so much........ #the whole ass belabog quest he throws in little harmless march roasts every so often #he fucking CARE her #i bets shes like a filipino mom with that camera. every oppertunity (picture!!!!) #and dan heng gets dragged into it #he is honing his photography skills against his will #any nice place? shes like (lemme pose can you get a photo of me?) #dan heng just sighs #they bond over silently judging stelle rummaging through the garbage #cast each other that best friend glance as half her body is sticking out of a trash bin #i like to think you see them hanging out on the train together #with dan heng reading some obscure 8th century book on civilization pattern and development #and march is humming and putting stickers and aesthetic shit in her scrapbook #taping a piece of antimatter legion loot in the middle of a page #and with bubbly handwriting (we beat some bad guys today!!! <333 so fun!!)

[trashcreatyre]

His ass is NOT listening

#discord hates this image #i keep remembering hes in my home and then i must bully her #i have to bully her every time i remember #like throwing it n shit lol #dw im not totally mean to him all the time #when im not bullying her it get hang out with his boyfriend bc ofc #mephiles the dark #great eastern entertainment plushies #sonic plushies #mephiles plush #trash rambles #shitpost #sonic shitpost

[rpfisfine]

managed to finish my cigarette before the lady who cleans the sidewalk with a huge broom reached my exact location #achievement but then the trolley driver didn’t notice me entering the trolley and closed the doors right into my head #loss

#whenever I see her sweeping up cigarette butts from the ground im always like im sorry …… that wasn’t me …. #I always throw them in the trash 💔 #mp

[hairydykecunt]

the only things on my mind this week has been ‘i wanna kiss i wanna kiss i wanna kiss i wanna kiss’ and ‘OMG I LOVE MY CAT SM I HOPE I CAN KEEP HER ^_^’

here r more pictures !!!!! and a really funny gif of her lol she had catnip Probably for the first time (i assume?) and she was KNOCKED out after… eepy girl

#kitty talks #i can get her checked for anything friday and then in like a few weeks-months i can know if she doesnt belong to anybody and i can adopt her #i really hope so….. lately i’be iust been feeling good despite feeling bad. and its so weird. cat has done a lot mental health wise #and im definitely gonna start being cleaner and not have depressive episodes where i give up on sorting my things and throwing ny trash away #i hooe everythings gonna be okay. and i hope this cat is healthy. and i hope we have lots of fun together #and i hope i do kiss #i cant believe i have to he him her in a cis way at the vet… they dont know its gender like i do….

[lycanqueer]

i am actually Really Good at Projects as long as i have the ability to manage my own damn self while also being accountable to someone else. the balance is so delicate but when its right? ohh it's so good.

#i'm not sure if i've mentioned it here or not but i'm helping a woman move out of the house that used to be her mom's #so it's a lot of sorting through years and years of Stuff figuring out what to donate or sell or throw away #then doing what needs to be done with it. hauling clothes and stuff to the thrift store and collecting the trash and throwing it out #not to mention photographing and listing items for sale #so like im so busy but it's so satisfying #and i'm getting paid for it so that's also nice lol

[shadowmoses]

i am spending entirely too much money rn but it's okay cuz my plan this year is to get ALL my treats in January and spend the rest of the year living exactly like a cloistered medieval monk

#will not backfire im sure #it just so happens a lot of stuff is happening last minute WHHDHA we were gonna get Monty later but her owner was like hey. #we will throw her in the trash if u don't pick her up now. #and pre-orders for Mie Mie are ending soon and she's so cute... #and the anime con I thought had died is apparently coming back. and before all this i found a rly discounted Whisper of Stars #so it's just bad timing #AND THE CAR TROUBLES but that ones okay she was due and she's been budgeted in #idk why im telling tumblr abt my finances. heyyy wanna hear about my doll addiction

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#my brother sending me photos of my entire family spending the holiday together w no commentary whatsoever #makes me foam at the fucking mouth bc its crystal fucking clear that literally anything i say will be gauged for reaction&judged on a scale #of 'is she over it? has she finally come to her senses? is she still throwing this fit?' #&yet somehow im the one in the wrong even though standing on my principles has cost me fucking everything #but sure yeah its my parents who still get to spend time w everyone who are really the victims here. #i get to choose between having no family&letting trash back into my life but They are the ones whose hurt Really matters here. #glad they all got to spend christmas together. #glad that after everything i had to do in my life for their fucking family they all get to do family vacays now #bc apparently i am the one struggling the most financially in the family right now #a fact that tears my soul apart in ways i cannot even describe. #there are so many different types of fury warring in me right now lmao. i love the holidays season. i hate the holiday season. #photos of my parents smiling feel like my own personal ghosts of christmas past. #its like i can hear the screaming&shit breaking&hands being thrown all over the fucking place like its all happening in the other room. ♡ #who wouldve thought my mom smiling would give me ptsd flashbacks lmao.

[custer-mp3]

nuclear hot take here but if you have a personal mental list of all the 1000 Reasons You Would Never Date A Person With Any Sort Of Disability not only prepared & thought out & READY TO GO but also you feel the need to trot it out & SUBJECT DISABLED PEOPLE TO IT no matter how many times they tell you to stop and actually physically move away from you to get away from it meanwhile you just keep following them to tell them all the reasons why you, personally, believe they deserve to die alone & unloved cuz they're like sooooo disgusting & sooooooooo incompatible with your PRISTINE ABLED LIFESTYLE

a), you don't also get to brag that you're a good person to anyone who'll listen &

b). you're not beating the eugenics allegations

#i am abt to boil one of my coworkers in oil yes thanks for asking #it's the one who throws a tantrum every shift cuz we figured out she was '''''''running the trash'''''' to hook up w the violently racist #one by the dumpsters where her bf won't know yes #TRULY ARE ANY OF US SHOCKED #this was like almost eight hours ago & im still so mad i cant sleep lmao

[doctorguilty]

It's so dehumanizing living here 🥲 I'm the oldest of my siblings and yet I am treated like I'm a child, even moreso than my 13 year old brother. I am 30 fucking years old. I file taxes. I have a college degree, for fucks sake. It means nothing.

(It's the rampant ableism. That's what it is btw. They view me differently than everyone else in my family. It's terrible.)

#seth speaks #my grandpa wanted my sister to go out of her way and stay over to help him. take trash to the dump. #because apparently I'd somehow be so incapable of. throwing garbage out it wasnt even worth asking me #there's no rhyme or reason theres nothing ive said or done or ever refused to do that would suggest i wouldn't be able to do that #its just assumed. its just default. im useless my brain is too messed up #to throw garbage away!! of all things! #how about you take me to the dump and leave me since you already treat me like trash #neg

[florida3exclamationpoints]

And THIS is why I'm the mom friend at concerts and lowkey have my friends roll their eyes at me bc im like dude we need water. We're going to get water now. No you cannot have a coke instead of water. No you cannot have food instead of water. We can complain about the prices of water but we are going to get water. Shut up you're not getting soda.

#like. my friend at tampa did get a coke and i tried to tell her to get water #but she had had a good amount while we were in line #but we went to 5sos together and she tried to get soda again #and i straight up did not allow it #also my mom brought more water than we could drink before the doors opened at tampa #so i started handing out bottles to other people waiting outside #and my mom was like 'aw that's so nice' and i was like bro im not gonna throw full water bottles in the trash while theres people out here #who i KNOW are not drinking enough water

[bicon-crange]

THAT NEURODIVERGENT IN SCHOOL POST IS FUCKING ME UP SO BAD IM RETHINKING MY WHOLE LIFE.

why. like why why. WHY am i so impossible to get rid of. im having like. vivid flashbacks to this kid in high school that my god i think i was just BOTHERING. like he was so explicit like "do not touch me. i hate you. i hate being around you." and i would just be like Haha Thats SO Funny I'm going to poke your arm now. :] like just. was NOT born understanding boundaries at all and also just. not understanding anything.

#HOW DID I EVER NOT GET THROWN OFF A BUILDING #also flashback to when one of my high school friends kept punching me and i was like 'hey. stop that or im going to punch you back.' and #she didnt so i socked her in the stomach and that was TOO FAR and that whole group stopped talking to me #like im. i. how have i ever gotten any friends ever. #like just got told TODAY that one of my old friends was probably a bad one bc I DIDNT KNOW THAT. TAKING A BOOK OUT OF SOMEONES HAND #AND THROWING IT IN THE TRASH WHENEVER YOU TRY TO READ IT... WAS NOT A SILLY GOOFY FRIEND THING #SHE DID THAT WHENEVER I READ A BOOK SHE DIDNT LIKE #bro. how did i. how am i LIVING. #gripping my head in my FUCKING hands today #SO MANY DIFFERENT PEOPLE WERE LIKE FUCK OFF LEAVE ME ALONE AND I JUST. looped my little arm in theirs and was like haha Ok Bestie :] #AND I JUST NEVER LEFT THEM ALONE. FOR YEARS!!! HELPPPP

[six-of-ravens]

annnnd reported my upstairs neighbour for sweeping garbage onto my balcony. as soon as I called up to ask her to stop she started doing it LOUDER, so uh, yeah no bitch you can have the $200 fine.

#this just drives me insane #she totally understands that everything she sweeps off her balcony goes onto the ones below her or onto the greenspace below #she's just fucking lazy #like seriously how much longer does it take to sweep everything into a dustpan and throw it in the trash!! #im in a bitchy mood today. she's lucky i didn't bite her head off

[healingheartdogs]

Going to have a fucking panic attack because for two years I've been isolating, for two years I've avoided leaving the house, for two years I've had no social life or any real contact with other people, for two years I did everything right and got vaxxed and always wore a mask, for two years I have been living extremely cautiously terrified of getting a virus that has about a 50/50 chance of making me even more permanently disabled and unable to survive in this society than I already am if it doesn't kill me outright and I just fucking tested positive for covid

Nothing fucking matters and life is a joke

#Selene was throwing up and dealing with severe stomach pain all night #called her mom to ask for advice and her mom told us that her boyfriend just fucking tested positive #her boyfriend that lives at her house where our mail currently gets delivered #now we both have covid #i already hated this man but now i want to strangle him #i was so careful its not fucking fair #i havent even left the house since we picked up eevee like not even once #we've been exclusively doing grocery pick up and shit to stay safe and turning down every social event #but because we cant get mail at our current address we got exposed anyway because of this dumbass trash heap of a man #i want to scream at the top of my lungs #like no joke im really scared #my immune system's track record is not great

[bo0zey]

manic mixed depressive episode on my bday is so fun especially when ur going on 2 days no sleep n have a 12hr shift starting at the asscrack of dawn in 6hrs

#idk if i want to sleep like i do but i don’t i just keep walking in circles n staring off blankly #also bursted into tears for no reason bc i missed my mom and remembered how much i hate my fucking birthday #was in the middle of a borderline argument w my family then just zoned out n glanced at the time and tears welled #6:13??? #then i pretended to go to the bathroom to hide my tears from my dad cuz he would’ve yelled at me if i went to my room w/o saying anything #so there i am crying like a pathetic loser on the toilet trying to suppress n swallow down ugly sobs #and there i am crying in my dumpster fire of a room on the floor #i literally go the entire year without crying abt her but every time december hits i always get into this weird funk #and idk why it’s still happening it’s been 7 years #i think my subconscious mind is influencing my body to release the trauma stored inside it bc i was never allowed to grieve her properly #so now in blips of time leading up to my birthday and the next day of her passing i’m 15 turning 16 again #i wish i didn’t have to work tomorrow so i could go visit her at her grave instead like i never go to the cemetery but i really want to #i guess i can go on her actual death day but i don’t want to go with my dad and brothers i just want to be alone #they don’t understand the feeling of losing your mom and best friend on your 16th bday #they don’t understand what it’s like carrying all this guilt and trauma and holding her hand and feeling her hand go limp at my words #i told her it was okay she could let go i would take care of my brothers and protect them from my father and i would be strong for everyone #meanwhile i’m listening to my dad n my aunt throwing all her clothes in trash bags upstairs #i didn’t even get to pick out what clothes i wanted to keep of hers im so angry my dad refused to let any of us miss her #“i miss mom-‘ ‘she’s dead get over it!’ #i got over it alright but then this time of year rolls around and i’m under it all again #i miss her so much i wonder if she’d be proud of me i wonder what it would be like to feel her hand in mine again #ooos im crying again lol #im so pathetic i’m literally 23 in less than 30 minutes why am i behaving like a crybaby child #23:33 when i was typing that btw n 333 is my angel/life path number lol #i wanna saw my arm off but i won’t #i debated staring an iv on myself instead but i’m too drained i just want lay down n cry lol #pathetic loser crybaby girl can’t function can’t shut up making everyone uncomfortable with her sadnes n tears stupid stupid stupid #drown in them and die nobody here loves you anymore nobody cares you’re the problem always the problem #i can’t remember if my mom loved me or not everyone says she did but i forgot what it feels like #i wish i never told her it was okay to let go i lied to her i said i’d be okay but here i am manic depressive

[bitterblight]

i possess the face of a guy who knows street names & public transport

#why am i always the person people ask for directions 😭 #like literally throwing the trash out in my pjs and a car pulls up like excuse me do you know this street? :) and im like 🧍🏻‍♂️ #yes i've lived here for 16 years no idk wtf you're talking about #I WASN'T EVEN THE ONLY PERSON THROWING OUT TRASH THERE WAS ANOTHER LADY THERE ASK HER 😭 #anyway they asked for the only street i know bc g*ogle maps keeps changing it's name to our street and vice versa <3 #also EVERY time i take the tram someone asks if it goes to a specific place like. girly idk please there's like 20 other people here #another time someone asked WHILE I WAS DRIVING like stopped their car (they were in front of me) and started waving their hand #like obvi i went to pass them.. got places 2 be.. and they stopped me to ask for a street again 😭