#im so. fucking. hungry.

[lucasthecoffeshopguy]

haven't been able to cook something rlly good or eat my favorite foods in the way that I like them recently and it's doing horrors for my mental health. I would honestly settle for Kraft mac n cheese and dino nuggies rn (I don't like Kraft brand mac n cheese and much prefer homemade but that's ridiculously expensive and dino nuggies are fine I guess but I prefer something crisper like popcorn chicken or McDonald's nuggets)

#i want spaghetti and homemade meat sauce #i want lovingly made enchiladas #i want thick grilled burgers with crisp and bright lettuce #freshly fried wings in buffalo sauce #pulled pork sandwiches #hashbrowns and chicken fried steak and biscuits and gravy #freshly baked pineapple upside down cake #cheerios with frozen blueberries #bleu cheese and celery sticks #sharp and sweet coke with wet burritos and mexican rice and refried beans #tortilla chips and guac #hot fries that are almost soggy with grease and generously battered and fried fish #mashed potatoes and slowly braised beef with a thick gravy #cheese and carbs and meat and veg #im so. fucking. hungry. #and every time i look in the pantry or the fridge to cook something i can't come up with anything #we have no spices no pasta no cheese no nothing #cuz apparently even pepper is too fucking expensive #im gonna die #im gonna literally die #anyways would like to mention that this is all being caused by a new insurance that has been slowly draining every cent from this family #also my bones hurt im gonna scream and rip someone's face off and fucking eat it #even tho it sounds gross im just rlly mad

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[illputdownmyrootswhenimdead]

strawbebbie………. 🍓 blubberrie…….. 🫐 oraneg……… 🍊 peeache…….. 🍑

#i just woke up and im hungry for FUIT but i don’t have any and can’t eat it anyway :( #it’s so fucked up i love the taste of fruit but my mouth and stomach do not. crying so loud #dove talks

[medicalunprofessional]

dump of some recent scribbles

ibispaint ui jumpscare

#psychonauts #trainofthought #sasha nein #caligosto loboto #crispin whytehead #(WITH A KNIFE. HE HAS A KNIFE. angerous) #holy bajeezus is that the milkman #hes fuckin grilling…… #the milkman #<— actualyl rlly proudnpf thay doodle…. #i loboto allowed to slay... oh lord. #im soo fucking hungry #its so hot over here i hate north carolina #also listen to kraftwerk thx

[monikamarkovova]

oOoO acient mold menace man oOoO

also some other stuff i managed to bring out from my head and hands with this catalist of a man

#my art #hermitcraft #i guess #hc x empires #cubfan #cubfan135 #gtwscar #goodtimeswithscar #xisuma #joe hills #im so fucking hungry rn dude #theres so much one thought about cuz of him but once it comes to actually writing it into words #man

[cynicallyneutral]

sploonsuke

#sasuke #uchiha sasuke #splatoon #splatoom style #maybe ikd skfjdjjfjff] #i slept for 2 hours and woke up fsr #and couldnt fuckjng sleep again i fuckin #hate this sleep pattern so much #goooodofjidfjfjjgijfijffj #my art #naruto’s boyfriend #also painting like this feels kinda therapeutic #idek if i spelled that right but i have no respect for this language #im so hungry #ahahhahahha fuck

[mimir97477906]

#ouuguhh gootbye . .. .... #this is .probably my last sims art erm.yea #PROBABLY ☝️ #idk #this is not ment to be taken as suggestive by thr way but you do you whatever interpret it however you want its out in the wild already #the sims 2 #sims #ts2 fanart #nervous subject #pascal curious #ts2 #strangetown premades #ts2 premades #tycho curious #ok enoug god im so hungry i could fuck up an apple rifh now

[whambamvam]

I feel like this is an accurate representation of my current mental state

#lockwood and co #lockwood #lucy carlyle #don’t forget my man #george karim #the only third wheel ever #locklyle #please i love this show so much #netflix please #stop being a money hungry capitalist piece of shit for two seconds and listen to my pleas #i want a fucking season two #i beg you #i implore #take my first born child #i’ll do anything #don’t leave it on that stupid cliffhanger #please i don’t even like romance but i need to sea lockwood and lucy get together #PLEASE #IM GOING INSANE #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[medichamcham]

not sure why i drew this??

#orbitshipping #drawing #fucking prehistoric ass drawing... good fucking lord #grown ass men gaming. what are they playing. #why did i put so much effort rendering the fucking pizza... now im hungry :/

[ovaryacted]

Where are the Leon Kennedy fics like damn…where did y’all go? THIS BITCH EMPTY!!

Nobody mention that I’m literally at fault cause where are my fics LMFAOOOOOOO.

#ཐི♡ཋྀ nic’s nonsense #PLEASEEEE #IM HUNGRY AS FUCK LIKE DAMN #I miss my favs so bad #I’m talking like I don’t have most writers blocked LMFAOOOO

[who-the-fuck-knows-blog]

the second con learned the show was gay he put his whole pussy into making izzy visibly besotted with ed and 13 year old girl jealous of stede and im so grateful.

#honestly not even sure if dj intended izzy to be queer????? #either way con fucking did LOL #con the second he has the POSSIBILITY of being queer in a role: i’m sooo beyond in #hey actually can con play albin in la cage aux folles can we have that im begging at this point hed kill in that role. the amt of crying?? #yeah #izzy hands #ofmd #coughing because im so shocked ppl. QUEER PEOPLE didnt see that was his motivation #oh well we cant ALL be brilliant #<-directed not at ppl who didnt think much about it but rather people who INSISTED he wasnt/was just posessive of blackbeard/power hungry

[leafyyygreensss]

MmmMmMmm

H U M M U S

#hummus #its so fucking yummy #i refuse to eat anything else #please this is all i want #im so hungry #nom nom nom #all for me #okay you can have a lil #meme #shitpost

[turtleblogatlast]

Leo not escaping the Prison Dimension and just becoming reluctant vitriolic roommates with the Krang is so morbidly funny to me.

Krang out here despising Leo’s whole existence but refusing to let him die since then he’d be alone.

Leo out here having an eternity to work on his quips and insults because damn it’s not like he can fight the Krang in any other way so he may as well make use of his words.

#rottmnt #rottmnt leo #rottmnt krang #rottmnt headcanons #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #like listen #krang: IT’S ALL YOUR FAULT IM HERE- also did you clean area 8 #Leo: it’s your own damn fault you bubblegum fuck and yeah I cleaned it #krang: you wretched pest I hate your existence also thanks #Leo: you and me both buddy! and yeah np #I’ve seen the concept around a few times and it’s just so interesting #the prison dimension in general is SO interesting #I personally love the idea that it keeps those that inhabit it in a state of suspension #in that their bodies cannot age or grow or get hungry or anything #but they can get hurt #and can die but ONLY by other inhabitants

[ayumiz-yumiz]

#little tease #sexy belly #kawaii #so hot 🔥🔥🔥 #ass tease #beauty #cutie w a bootie #daddy’s babygirl #sexy tease #hot as fuck #i need dick #im hungry #lovely breasts #sexy breast #submisive and breedable #perfect breast #sexy peachy bum 🍑 #perfect butt #spank my ass #grab my ass #lick my ass

[opens-up-4-nobody]

God. The thing abt the uchiha is that. Yes. It was fucked up that no one trusted them and they got pushed further and further from the village center. However. They were also a clan of ninja cops with fucked up magical eyes that they supercharge by getting horrifically traumatized. So like. I also would not fucking trust them.

#like maybe its just that ive been too influenced my senju propaganda but i just think the uchiha as a clan kinda fucking suck #at least by the time we get to sasuke's dad leading things. they seemed fine when madara joined with the village #so its just that the resentment at feeling pushed out has risin by then. and maybe im not remembering things right but like Tobirama #made them the cops right? and they got pissed that they weren't given any political power but like u get so much fucking power as the polic #? and also it just seems like the worst fucking idea to put that all on one clan. like THE WORST job u could give to 1 clan of fucked up #eyeball freaks. and i can never tell if they r legitimately being prejudiced against but like they kida have good reason not to trust them #bc they were legit gonna overthrow the government. so like where did it start? i just kinda feel like they think theyre entitled to power #but r also intentionally standoffish to outsiders. but again maybe im just biased bc i dont like Sasukes dad and the nameless uchiha so muc #ugh. its too messy and its all built on the back of what may or may not have been a slight against them. and the rift just kept getting #wider. i mean knowing Tobirama it was probably a slight... but idk im not power hungry enough to understand y they got so mad abt it #konoha. the village in which everyone sucks and the children suffer. #naruto ramblings #naruto

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

headcanon that scorpius was a sick child and was in and out of hospital constantly, perhaps related to astoria's blood curse but not directly. his immune system isnt very strong, and everytime he gets sick they're terrified that it's the blood curse but also whatever else it could be, because it's always so sudden and so intense and they call healers over to the house who recommend this delirious feverish 4 year old is hospitalised immediately, and you'd think it'd get easier to some extent because they'd be used to it, but everytime they feel like this is it, this is the time he'll walk in to the hospital and not walk out again

#this headcanon has no purpose im just thinking of scorpius in bed like a sickly victorian child with scarlet fever or something #asking if he'll make it to sunrise lmfao #so then he hates hospitals with a passion #my friend from school was in them constantly he was even a make a wish kid and he can not fucking stand the places so #headcanon scorpius becomes a healer anyway lmao #im sick and this is how im coping by putting baby scorp in hospital lmfao #it just made draco that little bit more protective #lucius made an insensitive comment about it once and draco was ready to throw hands #this headcanon doesnt really go anywhere ive just decided scorpius was a sick child #he has sick child energy lmfao #he still knows some of his doctors/healers because he was there so frequently #just imaging lil scorp in a hospital bed and draco and astoria are sleeping in the room on like uncomfortable chairs and the fever finally #breaks and hes like uh daddy im hungry and its like 4am but draco couldnt care less cause scorp hasnt been able to eat anything for days #let alone ask for food directly and baby scorp is wondering why his parents are acting so damn weird just cause he asked for some toast #but once hes grown up whenever he gets sick its on such a lower level than what it used to be when he was a kid because his immune system #got better that he struggles to gauge when other people would usually stop trying to do daily activities and albus has to start wrestling #scorpius back to bed instead of going to class cause scorpius really youre practically dying and hes like pfff you wanna see dying? use tha #timeturner one more time and go back to see me at literally any point between 2 and 10 i am FINE #(he absolutely was not fine) #scorpius malfoy #albus potter #draco malfoy #hpcc #scorbus #this is so many tags im so sorry