#im so upset rn for real

[barry2018-2023]

ten more episodes of kendall roy and then what? what do I with the rest of my fucking life?

#I NEED HIM FOREVER I LOVE U ALIVE GIRL #im so upset rn for real #i am grieving

[visenyaism]

the communist playthrough being about how love and community solidarity and dreaming of a utopia is so fundamentally human that you can hope that maybe one day it might transcend material reality while the moralist playthrough is about humanism being so fundamentally inhuman that it destroys time itself..... history as cyclical and inescapable but your choices still matter because one day the future might happen versus history refracted over itself into an inevitability imposed upon you forever!!!!

#disco elysium #im a inframaterialist for real. under proper revolutionary conditions you can read each others thoughts #having so much fun in my enclosure rn #i assume the fascist playthrough is about history as a past you can never return to bc it never existed? #havent done that one it would make kim upset with me

[b1mbodoll]

repeating “jealousy is a disease get well soon bitch” in my head every time i block rude anons and delete hatemail so i can try to brush it off but i am not ur strongest soldier so can you all stop being mean 🩷 please

#♡.gabi barks #im okay i prommy (im crying rn) #like omg seriously what did i do!!!!! i dont do anything but mind my fucking business!!!! and talk to my precious little friends!!!!!! but #apparently i cant even do that bc no matter what i always get meanies in my inbox 🤞 #like im seriously not doing anything i just came back and im already receiving asks telling me to kms and deactivate like do yall realize #im a person too.. like im literally real and i have feelings and im not a complete ditz #like what is so hard about treating people with kindness!!!! #ive spent all morning blocking mean anons and deleting asks and trying to brush off the mean words i see and receive and it hurts!!!! #im just a girl #if u send hate or tslk meanly to or about me im assuming ur a LEWSER and have no life bc i dont even do anything fr!!!!! im coolin!!!!! #i was gonna post this with the jealousy is a disease get well soon girl meme but i couldnt find it #anyway im fine!!!! (as im actively texting my therapist) #no bc im so upset and so angry WHAT AM I DOING WRONG #what am i doing to deserve this like please give me a valid answer so i can fix it im so tired of being sad and mistreated and bullied :( #i know i promised i was gna try to be more active but my little heart is so heavy and sad

[enden-k]

im sorry to hear people are stomping all over your boundaries, big props to you for sticking up for yourself and putting your foot down. I hope you're doing ok (/gen)

on another, hopefully happier note, i noticed your info post mentions that you self ship! I'd love to hear about your favourite self ships if you're comfortable talking about them some time?

i actually never did or had interest in this but then haitham waltzed in so hes the first and only one (this whole thing flusters me so its smth i indulge in for myself in private by reading or daydreaming or sometimes i babble and ramble about him very in depth)

(most hkvthm things i draw is just me going 'wish that was me' and drawing it LMFAO)

ohh also same w kaveh but in a slightly different way than haitham (theyre both the only ones) i want them to hold hands. i want them to hold my hands. there

#i dont feel attraction to ppl irl mostly bc im just not comfortable around ppl #and the ones i am are my friends and theres obv no romantic attraction #so when i saw haitham and learned more and mroe of him and how he and i share so many traits and ideas and things it was #instant comfort and the feeling of being understood #that its like #if he was real i would seek out his warmth and presence instead of getting away frm it like with my ex partners when it was too much for me #knowing that he would understand me therefore knowing how to handle me without making me uncomfortable or upset #uhh so basically. he made me realize all i want is just someone who perfetly understands me and knows how to treat me #when to come close and when to give me space #perfectly knowing me and reading me #i cant speak and in the rare moments i am able to im often struggling to form my thoughts into sentences that make sense #so he would still understand and put together that garbled mess and know exactly what i mean #not misunderstanding and acusing me of things or tones i never said or used #ppl and things messed me up quite a bit in the past that im having trouble w lots of things unless im alone #only when im alone i feel truly comfortable and safe bc nothing can hurt or upset me but even then you kinda realize in some moments that #you actually want someone with you but it has to be smn you trust and who knows you inside out and all that #i dont have anyone like that and idk if i ever will but rn this character is jsut rotating in my head giving me these things i crave and #thats enough #sorry that was a lot of gay rambling there but yea idk if it sounds stupid or nah but my #mental health issues got way better and balanced ever since haitham so he really #grounds me and gives me strength and comfort to deal with things i would have be unable to do in the past year #bc even if i dont have smn who truly knows and understands me #inside me there is someone #reply #tags tbd #in case i get embarrassed LMFAO

[zouisexo]

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#ok i will say smth abt it bc im a little pissed hehe #and verito is not answering my texts so now u all have to hear it #im not self absorbed enough to believe i know what's best for phoebe or if she planned it or not or whatever #the way she announced it seems she's pretty excited so good for her #but honestly some of the takes i've seen on here... #people in their middle/late 20s calling this 19 year old girl an idiot #saying that she must not know the difference between her vagina and her urethra #that louis must be soo disappointed and that he didn't pay and expensive school for her to get pregnant (????????) #do u guys hear yourselves what the actual fuck #ofc teen pregnancy is an issue worldwide but is this really the hill you're gonna die on?? that it's all the girl's fault bc she's stupid?? #u sound like a 50 yo congressman wtf is the actual matter with you #people i've seen joking about how long until her bf leaves her... #i literally encourage u to seek help it is not normal to lack empathy in this way and to be so cruel to a person who has #literally done nothing to you #also louis can pay for whatever school he likes he still doesn't have the right to decide over his little sister's body?? do u guys #hear yourselves be so real with me rn #also how do u even know he's upset?? #tfw some of u think u know louis.. it's insane #i literally am in shock at some of the things i had to read today #i really hope you are not in any field where people come to you for help #especially girls especially young girls #you guys are insane lmao #that's all <33 #shut up laura

[nestavadavat]

Hey tumblirnas daily reminder not to base your entire sense of self around another person because when you lose them you lose yourself too!!! (Vent in tags)

#im very much trying to be a big boy rn #but its very difficult #so much of my life centered around this person and now thats not something i can healthily enage in #and thats okay! #learning to move on is something i need to learn and have struggled with before #this will me good for me #< said through clenched teeth white knuckling the sink #i am upset but if im being for real #its my own fault #she didn't mean to lead me on #i lead myself on by not being clear with my intents #and thats sonething i need to work on #next time ill do better #in the future ill be more mindful of my own feelings #personal post #vent

[nordicbananas]

i wanna bite someone's head off :/

#*cough my mother cough* #reminding my why i have mommy issues frfr #im in a deep state of fear rn because if im called for i won't be able to hear it then mother shall get upset at me #bleh. #i don't think people are real anymore #I don't know. *anything* anymore #but hey I'm doing well now :D #I just know that she could never be like this #she could never lol #I'm so excited for when I can get out of here. #<3 #AND THEN ILL GO AROUND THE WORLD AND HUG ALL OF MY MOOTS MWAH MWAH COME HEREEEE <3333

[poems-of-a-lover]

being the only single friend during the summer when everyones going out with their partners and spending time together is just. ugh. im so tired kasjfhskjdf im so tired

#this isnt even a real vent like im fine tonight i just thought abt it and i kinda went. hm. #im so. i hate it. #idk im too tired to be actually upset rn but ill get there one day

[cicidraws]

feeling like a very unique type of sick tbh

dry cough, malaise, weird throat feeling but not sore throat all together

but like, thats it, and theres no fever

#i swear to god if i have covid again im gonna be real upset #i can smell and taste still so idk #blughh i dont wanna deal with this i dont see anyone #this only started after this past weekend when i seen my baby sister over ;m; no one said anything abt being sick either i #hate this so much #im glad im not sick with anything else but i really dont wanna feel this rn and not be sure yknow? #with colds i know im sick bc ill get stuffy #andim not at all #the cough is annoying but its not as frequent as covid was #but the overall nasty sick feeling i think is the most unnerving and uncomfortable

[catboytb]

crying sobbing weeping they killed saw AND death pacts ufe :(

#tpot #tpot 4 spoilers #im actually so upset rn for real #praying lightning nd remote don't get eliminated 🙏🙏 please vote for them

[simonstamenovic]

adolin is taken im killing myself. I was gonna make a dfrent post that will be in the tags now I guess

#outgoing transmission #genuinely upset about this /: lol fuck discord for Real #anyway the keeper + void parts of my brain would love nothing more than to #be a mystery and never share or talk however the General Overarching brain js riddled w so much a dhd that its like. near impossible to #obey that. which is annoying. even now talking abt it is like nobody needs to know that but like its coming from inside #shut up lol im telling on youuu (my brain) idiot #uts like a gemstone in there. facets or whatever #anyway may be weird bc im not equipped ro handle this ill meltdown but im like not keeper or void rn #i dont exactly feel like 'me' but im startkng to think there is no 'me' or rhat its #idfk complicated. my memory is fine but my identity is fucked so bad lol #'identity' singular is like patently wrong to me its sickening i cant be one identity im not its gross #us this thing on xo i make sense lol help me obi etc rc genuinely tho i feel s bit crazy hehe

[kendallroygf]

convinced only maybe 5 of you understand kendall btw

#the kendall roy tag is a war zone for real. kendall’s worse than logan… be for fucking real. LIKE ? #he’s a terrible prick obviously but this is so obviously him grieving. like his anger isn’t coming from the same place logan’s did. like at #all. he’s upset and insecure and grieving. like with rava and jess he was being horrible because it’s the idea of the people he cares about #leaving him? he’s so deathly scared of rejection and the idea that he’s doing the wrong thing so he acts out like it’s an internal battle #with himself bc he Needs to keep logan alive (the grieving process) but it’s working to alienate all the #people closest to him. like he’s not doing well at all rn. he’s so fucked up. #also all the people saying that haha he’s logan now🤪 like how long do you seriously think he can facilitate that. like he’s NOT logan . i #feel as though that’s the point . he was comfortable with the world / i’m sorry you’re not made for it. #like there will come a point when he can no longer facilitate emulating his dad and he’ll fucking crash bc him doing this is like. him #grieving in the worst way possible. #anyway. idc anymore im so sick of ppl talking on him like. you understand nothing #obv not justification for him being a prick. he’s a misogynistic racist prick but im sooo sick of there being such a particular empathy for #roman and then you have the most basic unnuanced takes for kendall. okay anyway sparkle on or whatever #p

[snazum]

I wish I could love openly, express it, but it feels like others don’t care? I’ve always been in a shadow and it feels pretty obvious now. I’m probably the problem though? Idk. I know I downplay my sad stuff when I dont mean to, but do I do it with the happy stuff too?

I just want to be teased bout my crush and love life. But it, doesn’t really happen? Teasing is my love language or whatever, thats why I tease others. Maybe I’m missing the signs of other peoples love language towards me? But, its like nothing?

Maybe I’m actually insane and this is all in my head and i’m making a big deal out of nothing. I honestly have no idea what I’m talking about. I know words and put them together but I don’t know feelings. I feel like everything I feel and do and say is an act.

#snazum talks #snazum vents #i guess #im not upset? #im not really anything #i know my crush is real #it has to be #i cant be fake #am i fake? #do i not experience emotions #i do i explode with them #but is it all an act #fucking hell im driving myself up a wall #i sound crazy #i dont really feel anything rn though lol #it sounds like i feel so much rn but i feel nothing

[fdrsamericanflagduckfloaty]

Ça va, mon ami?

... Oui?

#🐝 #'?' as in 'maybe???? sorta??? idk' type '?' #okay sorry rant in the tags #does that make sense? #i would say okay but. . rn im just chilling #but my emotions flip flop as easy as flipping a coin #one moment ill be hella sad and upset and then the next it'll be like it never happened #like oh. i was sad?? yeah alr cool ANYWAYS time to watch my favorite actor #happy?? good times??? one wrong word or sentence boom im sad #but then that goes and its like okay well thats over time to be laughing and happy #so yknow i can never say yes because right now i cant recall the last 10 minutes #does that mean im just on autopilot??? maybe. #does that mean my brain is on power-saving low-usage mode??? yes. #yknow i just. i just. my emotions change so smoothly its kinda concerning? #i can go from being in the dumps to just 'eh im good' so quickly its as if it never happened #i just dont process anything longer than 20 minutes. 21 minutes? yeah watch me simping for one of the main 3 i like acting like i wasnt sad #yeah so im just. im just on low energy no-real-attention-needed mode rn mon ami #rewatching a tv show ive watched 30 times. music. dark room. my irl/online bestie/platonic marriage partner isnt on #i mean its just low vibration buzzing brain hours rn

[peppermintbutch]

God it's kind of stupid maybe to be this devastated abt a really old dog dying but. It's been over a week and still every few days it hits me and I just want to cry and cry 👍

#im not even rly upset that he died like it's normal and natural it's just that I wasn't there at the end and I'll never get to see him again #and like half the time my brain can't really grasp the fact that he's gone forever and I just feel like :-/ #and then I remember it's Real and i feel so so bad #i think im also getting my period so maybe that's why my feelings are going extra crazy rn 👍 t in two months huzzaa #anyway im trying not to surpress these feelings completely while also continuing having a life and doing nice and annoying things

[perilegs]

went to the comment section of a video game woman and saw that people kill her because she can't be romanced. i've got no words

#can't remember the last time ive felt so disgusted #i keep forgetting that video games in general are a space full of the nastiest horrible human beings #like. are they hearing themselves. like yea sure its a videogame and not real but. why do you think you needed to do that #this is exactly why i never look at any game content outside of tumblr and friends im actually upset #like. that happens in real life. to actual real life women. why do you want to use fantasy escapism to kill women #had to vent about this a bit bc jfc #im at work rn and might actually need to go to the bathroom to cry about this