#im not in the discord i dont know things

[possiblytracker]

been dead for a few days what the fuck happened with artfight

#EMBEZZLEMENT ?????? #i mean i feel Slightly less bad about running out of steam spectacularly but what the fuck #im not in the discord i dont know things

[puppyeared]

the shyest creature on earth dreams of art streaming

#i know it sounds like im giving every reason why i SHOULDNT do it but i really wanna learn how to someday #i dont really have the space or privacy for it rn though since i live at home with 3 other ppl plus i have school to focus on ugh #ive been able to stream my art in discord calls but i havent done it in so long and the atmosphere is a little different #not bad different though. its fun to draw ppls conversations out and make shitposts. and i like any kind of attention heh #i also use procreate so its hard to stream frm my ipad but im looking into a lighting adapter to HDMI cable to project on my monitor #part of my urge to start a twitch might also be because i wanna learn how to make and rig a little avatar and use cute frames #and id love to play some ambience music while i draw and just. idk. listen to ppl talk..? but im lacking in audience engagement #since i suck at responding and public speaking and prefer to do things quietly. i just like being observed like im on national geographic #yapping #doodles #sona #puppysona #my art #myart

[dailydegurechaff]

Today's Daily Degurechaff is… more discord emotes

#weiss looks like such a fucking bottom im sorry i dont know what happened #meanwhile erich is wearing his glasses over his bangs wtf #he looks too cool doing the anime glasses shine thing he needs to look pathetic what is this #dailydegurechaff #youjo senki #the saga of tanya the evil #tanya von degurechaff #visha #weiss #grantz #lergen #discord emotes #it bothers me this post isn’t symmetrical #while I did make a 6th one to even it out it is also a stupid reference that will get me yelled at #(it already has)

[hollypies]

I lied. Death time

#art #help how do i anatomy #have a nice death #have a nice death art #yeahh i dunno. just felt like drawing himb. #been playing the game a bit. i got addicted so ive had to put it down for now. or at least limit my hours. #the have a nice death discord is super cool tho. specially if you need help with sometjing #useful because its got a lot smaller fanbase than others so i go to them if i need help with something #uhm. ive just been in a bit of a . decline lately? dunno what it is lol. been burnt out #ill be fine dw ! it happens sometimes. judt need to figure out whats bothering me cuz even im not sure #probably just me feeling obligated to draw only like. three things for my art blog instead of. yknow. doing what i want #which is completely my fault but i know people dont like my other art ad much as hk or sky. it. bums me out #which again!! is on me! im so glad people like that art i! i just need to get out of the mindset. its hard though #i guess posting this is breaking the cycle a bit huh #hehe

[sollucets]

guys i am trying Really hard not to have public opinions about of this morning... pray for me

#i work really hard not to do that. genuinely. every single time i reblog a meta or post my own opinion or write more serious tags #it is Vetted #i keep these things to my friends & my discord & such on purpose because. because. it's better for everyone #but im hanging on by a thread today i guess :') #for now.... just.... people need to remember that when youre debating fiction like this #the characters are fictional but the people listening aren't #and you can cause real fucking harm by talking about demographics the way people have been #rowan chatter #(if i see someone fucking say ray can't love again i'm going to kill. it's directly to murder i will be committing crimes) #(AND if i see another implication that he should've had to get sent to prison it'll be arson also) #fuck you all you dont get to have ray anymore. im taking him he's in my pocket now #do people even know how rehab & therapy fucking WORK #okay. okay. okay okk okokokkok mission failed a little #but we're far enough down in the tags now. reblogs are off. don't eat me

[pinacoladamatata]

eating my popcorn watching all this drama go down irt the larian discord server

#like i never joined but the whole discord community relationship thing fascinates me from a psych perspective #like in a miller exp or stanford prison exp way #i am aware of the irony of this coming from a blog on tumblr where i act stupid on purpose #but i do think the entire larian discord has been incredibly unprofessional both from larian's employees and the moderators/support team #but. this isn't a hospital where i. like. care. this is my silly blog where i post dumb shit and wow are you guys seeing this? #like im am just trying to imagine. like if my hospital had an 'official discord' where staff interacted w the public like that #i cant. actually. because i've fired people for taking pics in clinic. this shit is wild #like no one seems to really know whats going on and some ppl are claiming larian hate modders/1 or 2 modders specifically #while others are like. no they dont; it just sucks having to reverse engineer the script extender etc #and then there's the google doc thing of like thousands of screenshots of the discord mod chat which i WISH i had the time to study #it makes me realize how little i know about the whole online moderater lifestyle thing that happens on discord and reddit etc #anyway im curious and nosey always so this is interesting to me #and the drama of it all takes my mind of other horrible things for a bit

[doomed-era]

ok so I found this after doing some research last night

URBOSA???

URBOSA GIRL THATS

(im aware that the yiga survive aoc just fyi)

#yiga clan #age of calamity #i made this joke on discord last night I just think its funny #also disturbing as heck but #look I know this is a common fantasy trope like ooh yeah go kill the evil cult oooOoOOo #its still. #look i am all for war crimes urbosa #but man neither the devs or the fandom think abt the implications of this </3 #like the truth is they are a unique ethnic group at this point. they have been split off from the sheikah tribe for thousands of years #we know they were in hiding for a long period of time. ppl dont usually join them. #do you know what this means???? #well it could mean a bunch of things but the only other alternative I can think of besides that the yiga #would either Definitely have children + elders who would be killed by an attack on the hideout #is the yiga are just capturing and brainwashing ppl to join them. im not sure which is worse #but either way we'd be killing innocent people! #unless theyre all immortal? but What. #loz

[gobstoppr]

and btw im in my hater arc rn. as time goes on the more i find a lot of 'fandom' stuff insufferable (i like art n stuff. just the way that fandom refits every media to fit a single mold and set of boring archetypes is exhausting.)

i just get really easily annoyed lately. and have been unfollowing people on a whim a lot. its not personal i promise

#fandom culture has made me actively dislike shit i was fixated on a year ago. looking at your ninja turtles #its not even like what they were doing were particularly offensive it was just exhaustingly boring #im sorry i just really dont care about ur 2 million fics about leo being a sadboy. or one million seperated aus. #theres definetly a part of the whole situation in general which has been me coming to terms with my own internalized misogny #actively re-examining my tendencys to gravity towards male characters #idk maybe its making me dislike art more. but idk. ive always analyzed why i react certain ways to certain things. this isnt new for me #anywaays. i had been following a bunch of ninja turtle blogs and they sorta kept messing around with shows like ninjago too #and at some point i was just like. i dont know if these shows are actually that good guys. i think youjust like shows for little boys #and fandoms tend to shaft female chars so it sure helps that their casts are 98% male . #maybe theyre not your blorbo maybe theyre just Guy McAverageMan. thats not inherently bad but you have to consider it. #guys rottmnt is isnt even that good . its not that good ok. its alright/pretty good. and the movie does a few neat things #i feel like ive become one of those people that turn 18 and then immediately go 'minors dni'. im not there yet but i just. #we're watching kids shows. its ok . you can say it. #you may have noticed ive been reblogging a lot of dungeon meshi stuff. i read it all over the past week. #but here's the thing. i thought it was mid/good for like 70% of it. #i think its got some really really cool worldbuilding ideas and stuff #but i think a lot of the writing was sorta. uninteresting to me. #my discord friends have been raving over izutsumi for months. #but i found her presence in the story to be weird and underdeveloped. she felt out of place and her introduction felt clumsy #i felt when the story was ramping up the manga got a lot better. because again theres some rlly cool ideas at play #all the shit with the lion? incredible. the way all the infighting led to more problems bc the elves refuse to explain anything? rlly good. #marcille landing in power? reallly good shit. (i still thought it was a lil undercooked still tho) #i cant stop thinking about laios in that climax scene. i think he shouldve been feral a lot more often #uhh. i got distracted. fandom bad and annoying. #saw a post talking about marcille realizing izutsumi is only 17 and then describing how 'omg shes a mom now' and i wanted to throw up #im done. i swear. im done talking for real. aagh #text

[namari-hime-moved]

posting about my epic guide website for vocaloid song series namari hime again. Yippie!!!

#posting again mostly because i accidentally deleted my other post................ #umm anyway THE WEBBED SITE #currently most up to date guide in english (flex emoji) #the only other decent guide is from (checks notes) 2018 so this is a lot more up to date #and that says a lot cause theres like ZERO namari hime guides #something something im doing my part 🫡 #i put a lot of work into the site!!! tbh most of the html kicked my ass #i dont know if i really explain things well um. send me an email if i did bad #ALSO SEND ME AN EMAIL IF YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THE NOVELS #goddamn language barrier..... #ANYWAY SOME SHOUTOUTS!!! #HUGE HUGE THANKS TO THE NAMARI HIME DISCORD SERVER FOR HELPING ME DIG UP THE OLD PAGES FROM THE ARC JORMU SITE #THANKS TO MY BUDDY OAKLEY FOR SOME HTML HELP #AND THANKS TO THE RUSSIAN WIKI PEOPLE I DONT KNOW WHERE ID BE INFO-WISE WITHOUT THEM #anyway. LOOK AT MY SITE BOY!!!!! #mel talks #namari hime #vocaloid

[dhmis-autism]

SORRY. JUST REALIZED I ORIGINALLY SKETCHED THE STUFF FROM THAT LAST WIP POST IN. MARCH.

GODDDD...

#I GUESS MY WRIST FUCKING UP PUT ME FURTHER BACK THAN I THOUGHT #but also like. i was JUST talking about it in chat. i have a comic about the Three Of Them that i wrote in a frenzy in FEBUARY. #by the time i rewrote the dialogue and figured out the ending it was SEVEN FUCKING PAGES. SOLID. #OF JUST SCRIPT. #I STILL HAVENT EVEN FINISHED SKETCHING IT. YOU GUYS ARE NOT SEEING THAT SHIT UNTIL 2024 #sometimes an idea of them will grasp me and i will just write the script out in the middle of the night #I realistically. dont even know if you guys are gonna like my scripted stuff. #the first scripted thing i wrote was a yellow&duck comic that im STILL SKETCHING BACKGROUNDS ON #i could be really bad at writing for them. i could totally not get them at all. #but hey! #we'll see when we see I guess #BUT YEAH UH. SORRY FOR LITERALLY ALL I POST BEING WIPS NOWADAYS I AM JUST WORKING ON LIKE 5 DIFFERENT DRAWINGS AT ONCE #STILL TRYING TO GET MY SPRING STUFF DONE. AND ITS ALMOST FALL. SO :] #I JUST CARE SO MUCH ABT THOSE PUPPETS DAWG I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS FOR THEM #I HAVE!!! EVEN MORE DRAWINGS THAT I JUST HAVENT SHARED!!! bc i either made them for something real specific in the discord #or bc theyre phone doodles and i dont think theyre that great. or bc i made them just for a friend and thats like. theirs now kjdhkjdfhs #a lotta times once i finish drawing smth for a friend ill just never post it bft. so its just like. for that one thing and nothing else #ANYWAYS HAPPY 3 AM IM FORCING MYSELF TO GO TO BED #AND I STILL HAVE THE ANIMATIONS #AND THE FANART FOR LIKE 5 FICS I WANNA DO #OHHH GOD CMONNN BRO IM NEVER FINISHING ANYTHING #my postings

[apyrisol]

finally got my new computer and made the move to firefox. there's only 4 things i liked more with opera gx so far and those are: 1) getting to have a wallpaper for a new tab 2) getting to see if any of the people i follow on twitch are live by just glancing to the sidebar (this one's not too bad but i did catch a lot of streams this way since twitch hates giving me notifs) 3) i could close all my tabs but the browser wouldn't close because of the gx corner and, 4) the gx corner. i like free games. a lot but hey if anyone's got good recommendations for ways i can replace these functions through extensions or whatever i'll gladly take em. im glad to not be using a chromium based browser anymore and really really don't wanna switch back

#soltalk #opera gx #opera #firefox #mozilla #mozilla firefox #browser #browsers #web browsers #chromium #browser extension #i feel like an instagrammer putting all these tags. i rly do just want to know if there r alternatives tho so tags help people see that lol #i'll even take like. a website that does what gx corner did #all i used it for was the free games anyways. ill just bookmark it or pin it or something #one thing im very much loving is the tab pickup thing #and the fact that there are some similar features to opera like the reopening all tabs if you close the window setting #or the shortcuts which i use instead of bookmarks bc i dont like bookmarks #could not tell you why #oya i also miss having discord in the sidebar but i didnt use that as much

[simcardiac-arrested]

OHHHHH MY GOD COMING OFF ANON BECAUSE !??!?!? SCPSL MENTIOn!!?!??!? you are the ONLY person i've EVER seen that mentioned that game in being similar to lethal company ohhhh my god oh my god i used to be so crazy autism over that game Okay. okay. oh my godddd I LOVE(D) SCPSL SO MUCH and it makes me so so so happy to see a game like it get so popular!!! i love lethal company!!! and i love the creatures and the randomly generated facilities and the PROXIMITY chat and the lore (sigurd adn desmond<3) and i love that ALL MY FRIENDS CAN AND DO PLAY ITTT ^__^ its like 14 year old me got blessed by the autism fairy joy and beauty to the world

i don’t know how to say this in a way that wont make me sound like i shouldnt be allowed in public spaces so i’ll just go ahead and say it. I have 200 hours in scpsl

#i havent played it in like 2 or 3 years because one day #it just stopped working on win7. But i got win10 now so theoretically i could play it again. but do i want to #it’s not that it’s a bad game! like i said i’ve had a lot of fun with it. just like lethal company it has some truly #hilarious and truly scary moments #however i can remember a few times where it was just not fun ….. maybe it was the players or the unfair balance or wjatever. But well #i did love it. i love scp and getting to play an scp game for free was life changing to me. IT WAS SO FUN!! #AND I HAD THE MOST BLISSFUL GAMING EXPERIENCE BECAUSE I HAD A BUG WITH MY GAME WHERE I COULDNT HEAR ANYONE AND NO ONE COULD HEAR ME #Probably pissed off my teammates numerous times but well . At least got to exclusively vc with my friends on discord #i think the thing with lethal company (and by extension amogus which is also smth i associate lc with) is that you can play it exclusively #with your buddies. you dont have to join some random ass lobby with random ass people just because the game needs 20 players. U can just #have actual fun. because yes proxy vc is a fun feature for a game but i am seriously grateful that scpsl was bugged for me #i’ve played a lot of ‘shooter’ games (or just games similar to genre) and like Sure im used to people being jerks in game chat or something #but there’s a difference between game chat and straigjt up vc ….. so yeah. i know that it’s barely scpsl’s fault but i just felt like sayin #all that. Blinks #where am i . what am i talking about #sorry for the weird not quite rant about scpsl BUT YES i do think lethal company is quite similar to it. And like if that game was fun again #not to mention the creatures!!! like. coilhead? 173 but well it’s a common trope. eyeless dog? literally 939. A MASK THAT POSSESSES YOU? #DUDE . THIS IS 035 . BRACKEN? okay that’s like 096 but a little to the left #all they need to do now is add a 049 adjacent creature Or perhaps an evil ai computer that locks you in the building or makes landmines #explode on their own. i dont even know. zeekeers hire me #and yeah i love the rng of it all because it makes for a uniquely hilarious/terrifying experience each time. Something it sucks so bad and #you get a facility with like 1 door which is locked. but that too is funny. to me lc isnt about winning it’s about dying in the funniest way #sigmund and desmond lore is also rly good <3 i hope it gets expanded upon. Would love to see some more worldbuilding stuff like WHATHAPPENED #cramswering #anyway. it has been years since i played scpsl and i know tjat they did a bunch of updates and added a bunch of scps . So i dont know if the #game is better or worse now. and i dont know if i want to find out…. what if my game becomes unbugged and i hear people #now THAT’S real horror game material if you ask me

[lycanthian]

i need to fuckign explode

#i need to talk tohim i need to talk to him i need to talk to him i need to tlak to him but i caaaaaaaaaaaaaaant bc im too scared of that lol #it was on my mind two months ago it was on my mind a month ago and its on my mind now and it is driving me insane #bjt k dont want to say what it is because thats a can of worms of potential for people to Know i dont want #so glad the guy in question is locked out of tumblr and the other guy involved barely looks at tumblr #only fucking place i can get this thought out even vaguely #i need to talk to both of them bt i cant because i feel like i will die trying to. heart attack on the spot #as much as i dont want him to i hope he gets a notif for this and asks me sbout it #even though theres no way hed knownim specificslly talking abt him #bc at leas that way it spares me the fucking nightmare kf bringing it up to someone #and its like. objectively not s problem #if i just used my words and talked it out it would be done so fast.but the problem is even though i talk to both of them so much #the thought of talking to them abt this specific thing scares me so bad that #i think if i sent a text about it i would close discord snd not open it for 2 years #sighghhggggghhghgghhhggh ive been rlly good abt not venting on tumblr lately bc i didnt like doing it in the first plsce but #there is literally nowhere else for me to complain about this in a spacethat i am comfortable complaining sbt it in #that does not include one of the affected guys #lycan howls

[aropride2]

we have gottttt to start shaming people for saying shit like "fuck the police includes the identity/fandom/whatever police" like 😭 regardless of ur opinions on exclusionism or fandom discourse u have to be able to acknowledge that those are not even close to actual real life cops

#text #just my opinion ✌️ #also inb4 someone misinterprets this YES OBVIOUSLY PEOPLE WHO POLICE PPLS IDENTITIES ARE ASSHOLES #& it can have real life harmful consequences #but i just dont think it is on the same level as the state sanctioned violence committed daily and the enforcement of corrupt #policies that cops get paid and congratulated to engage in and etc. i cant possibly list all the things wrong with cops in tumblr tags sorr #youre gonna have to read a book for that one. POINT IS exclusionism and identity discourse absolutely does have lasting real life effects o #people even if it only takes place online (and sometimes is not in fact confined to the internet only). #but cops are like . an institution thatYOU GET WHAT I MEAN IM NOT EXPLAINING THIS ANY MORE #also if u put someone like. kicking u from a discord server for talking abt weird ships on the same level as the atrocities committed #by Actual Real Life Cops i dont even know what to say to u. 😭 get offline and read a fucking book. PLEASE. #discourse

[bulletsfrank]

me when running away from everyone makes me end up all alone:

#i dont have any irl friends anymore theyre all gone with my old discord and its been too long to go back #i lost myself over the summer in ways i can never explain.. i dont know where i am if im being honest #drinking is worsening it all #i feel so insane.. genuinely.. i cant stop getting into my own head and letting it all happen #its just me and teddy #im too scared to leave the house for longer than a few hours anymore #i cant handle people looking at .e #me. i cant handle talking. i cant handle daily tasks of anything. even these days moving feels too hard #i keep finding myself face down floating in the river #and when i turn my body over #my face isnt rotten #it isnt bloated at all. #... its just me and i look young and like i died two minutes ago #then i snap out and im making dinner #and im someone else. somewhere else forever #im so alone but id rather it right now. no one knows how bad it is. intentionally. i never tell anyone #because what would they do? #the only thing i ever learned was to run away and hide. i cant stop thinking i need to keep doing it #i just want everyone to be rid of me so i keep running and running and running

[eliias-bouchard]

SIGH.

#JUDGEMENTKAT POSTS #HMM #JKAT POSTS #SURE. #I WANT TO TALK TO OUR MUTUALS BUT I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO TALK ABOUT #THE LYNX IS GETTING CATHOLIC ABOUT APLATONICISM SO I CANT TALK TO IT #TALKING TO MUTUALS ALSO MEANS SETTING UP AN ENTIRE FUCKING DISCORD SERVER SO I CAN HAVE PK AND PROXY #AND HONESTLY I THINK IT'D BE AWKWARD! MOST OF OUR MUTUALS PROBABLY EITHER DONT KNOW WE'RE A SYSTEM OR #ARENT PREPARED TO DEAL WITH TALKING TO A HEADMATE #AND WE HAVE SOME SYSTEM MUTUALS BUT WE'VE NEVER SPOKEN TO THEM AND THERES. THE ISSUES(TM). #AT THE SAME TIME IF THE SIREN IS GETTING CATHOLIC ABOUT APLATONICISM I (EUGH) DONT WANT TO MAKE HOLYS ISSUES WORSE #THEN AGAIN ITS REALLY NOT MY FAULT IF ENDLESS WANTS TO GET CATHOLIC ABOUT THINGS MIST DIDNT EVEN DO #AND ITS ALMOST 1AM. IM GOING TO BE OUT OF FRONT SOON BECAUSE CIRCE WILL WANT TO GO TO BED AND DO HIS THING. #SO WHAT DOES IT FUCKING MATTER ANYWAY.