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raindropwindow · 7 months
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Book series that get u all scrambled up
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I'm not going anywhere, for the record.
I haven't been posting for quite a long time, and I know it's gotten slow. But I'm still here! Updates are slow, but they are coming. Believe me, I'm not leaving this place for a longggg time. I have so many asks to answer, so many wips to post, and I'm still going to finish A Little Kindness. I'm sticking around, and it's staying that way for a good while.
The Owl House that has given me friendships and inspiration I never would've had otherwise. I owe a lot to this show, to Dana Terrace, and everyone who worked on it. I can't find myself to mourn it, only wave it goodbye and say thank you. And the people I've met through this show have been so overwhelmingly kind, I can't feel nothing but bittersweet. All good things gotta end eventually, y'know? It was an amazing ride while it was here, but that doesn't mean I'm leaving anytime soon.
Happy finale, everybody.
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quinn-pop · 9 months
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how does it feel to be half of yourself
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good-beanswrites · 5 months
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Imagine the awkwardness if in that Mikoto Prank Show ask however, if no one but Es and Jackalope were in on it… And they somehow got everyone’s crimes perfectly right.
LMAO 💀💀💀
Jackalope and Es are in on it, and they don’t even need to guess them -- the machine can be legit! As any good businessmen, they put this newfound life-changing technology to good use: reality TV. They get a hold of 10 random people, planning on editing and splicing the videos to make up some crazy stories about crime and guilt and see how people react. They chose an range of people that might feel guilt over something -- they assume doctors feel bad for losing patients even though they did their best, or policemen regret the people they can't save, or chronically online people feel responsible for things they're connected to -- but that's all.
They get to Haruka’s interrogation and Es comes back to the team going, “hey, did you guys watch the video? Crazy that this guy killed animals, huh.” Then Yuno’s rolls around and they go “shit I never would have thought she was the type for that, now she’s overthinking her abortion…” Then Fuuta. “What are the chances that so many people feel incredibly guilty over someone else’s death? Does everyone feel a secret responsibility for something that happened indirectly?” Then Muu. “Okay that was pretty direct. How did we find these people? Should we contact anyone about this? No? Okay.” Shidou. “?????” By the time they get to Mahiru’s interrogation and she readily admits to murder they’re like “yeah okay, I had a feeling.”
The funniest part is, Mikoto is the team's only hopeful case! From the very beginning, they hear him talking around the prison and everyone breathes a long sigh of relief. “Finally! A normal, not-murdery guy! Our show is saved! We have someone real to prank!” … And then.
(Slightly off-topic but I’ve always wanted to write a comedy normal au in which Es befriends the cast in different areas of their life; Amane is transferred to their school after her incident, Mahiru works in a nearby store, Shidou works at their local clinic, etc.) One by one they get close enough to Es to really trust them, and each confess to being involved with a death that was either indirect or very well covered up. The first few times it’s a beautiful moment of trust and vulnerability, but after like five confessions Es is sitting there like “seriously?? How does this keep happening????”)
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waterfallofspace · 4 months
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A Word-Filled Update
that no one's asking forrrr~
Sooooo, hiya~ ^^
Realized I kinda dropped out without much word, and wanted to give a lil update to anyone who may care, (and specifically to all the unfilled requests that have been sat in my inbox for months now T~T)
Dropping it under a cut because it gets quite long~ but I'll also TL;DR it with: been a bit burnt out, trying to get back into this, I apologize for all the unanswered asks, and I will be trying to get to the ones I can, but I'll be focusing more on trying to enjoy the process of making content~ Thank you to anyone who's stuck around <3
(Tw for brief mention of mental health/neurodivergencies~ nothing in depth or dark, but just incase anyone wants to avoid that <3)
Nothing serious has been going on, mostly just burn out and a bit of drama in main friend group, combined with free time just being a lot more limited recently~ (not a bad thing, most of it is because I'm getting to talk more with friends I've gotten closer to this past year~)
That said, I've been trying to get back into content, making it, reblogging it, etc, without letting it become all-consuming. I find, with the way my brain works, mostly to do to some wonderful neurodivergent tendencies, I tend to fall heavily into 'all of nothing' mentality.
This shows up in my day to day life, (ie: can't wash the dishes for weeks until I suddenly do them all in one day) and I've definitely noticed it with content creation. Need to write and finish a story in one go, record a wav as fast as possible, always afraid I'll lose that motivation.
But honestly? I love making content on here! And I'm not a huge blog, nor do I care if I am (at least trying not to, if I'm being painfully honest~) but I genuinely love making content. Whether it's just for me, a request that I am hoping one specific person will enjoy, or a story I write with a community in mind, I just love creating~
So, I'm trying to ease my way back into this! Bit by bit, let it be fun, and enjoyable, with less internal pressure to produce as much as I can, as fast as I can, and make it be perfect.
I won't lie and say 'numbers don't matter to me', if I'm honest, they do. But I'm learning more and more how to let it be about the content, and to just enjoy the process~ (and if people like it, that'll be a wonderful bonus!~)
Wooo this is getting so long, I apologize sincerely! Last thing, something I've mentioned a few times previously but never really let myself get into... requests~
I'm so honoured that people care about my content enough to have asked for things, and getting any ask, request, praise, ask lists, heck even just a 'hi!' is honestly the best part of this blog for me!
Buuuut, I definitely worked myself into burn-out before with a "every request needs to be filled and fast" mentality, that led to just... not filling any.
So! I'm going back through my inbox, and deleting some older ones that I don't have a clear vision/motivation for. I apologize to anyone who requested them, though by now it's possible they're long gone~ But I think this will help me not only start enjoying the creation process without feeling so overwhelmed, but also start actually getting more content made~
There are definitely a bunch that I still adore, and am thrilled to get to test out, but if there's one you remember sending, and you really want to see it completed, please feel free to send another ask saying what it is you want done, and I'll see if I can get that going <3
And if you've stuck it out to the end here- uh hi! ^^ I'm sorry this is so long, I'm such a words person, but I appreciate you so much, not just for any support you've offered, but just bothering to read this <3 I genuinely didn't expect most to make it this far, so thank you so deeply <3 and I hope to see you guys around as I start reblogging stuff more!~
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frecklystars · 2 months
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GOD!!!!! 😭😭💓💗💖💓💓💞💞💕💟💝💘💝💝💞💗💘💝💟💓💗💞💕💟💝💘💓💖💓💕💕
#I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE MAKES ME SO SO SO HAPPY 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#love notes#💕♬♪ ♡ I fall more in love with you every day (Blue) Valentine - ̗̀💙💌🍦 ̖́-#love that every Ryan character has just become another bf to make me feel safe and loved#I have come so far from where I was one year ago#i love that i can self ship with this guy and im like YES he loves me he protects me he would never hurt me#its hard to feel that way 24/7 but i feel that way at least half of the time now#and thats all that matters is that im getting better even if its fluctuating and messy. i AM getting better#because i know one year ago today i would not have been able to self ship with any characters whatsoever#Dean isn't even a villain or a serial killer or whatever he's just some dude. just some guy in a jacket.#but back then i just could not for the life of me feel safe with anyone bc the abuse was so fresh#and just. thank god i am at a point where i can ship with some characters now. even when it's so goddamn HARD#its at least HAPPENING. y'know. like. i am healing even if it's so fucking SLOW going#the fact that i can look at this 5 second scene and feel a burst of love in my heart#and think to myself 'yeah yeah he loves me so much he'd hold me through my nightmares too'#that's. huge. compared to a year ago where i just. could not.#it hasn't even been a year since i cut my abuser from my life yet and im already making little progress#even if it's. so. minuscule. there is progress happening just bc of the passing of time#and the fact that Barbie came into my life exactly when it was supposed to and Ryan's been in all these movies i can focus on#it all worked out like the stars were aligned perfectly for me to meet these F/Os and for them to heal me#i don't think that's coincidence or accident or anything. i think that's some... universal or spiritual thing#like something out there is looking out for me even if it's just the galaxy itself#these characters were meant for me and i was planned to meet them and for them to heal me#slowly one day at a time. ANYWAY. WAHHH. HUGGING AND KISSING DEAN PEREIRA MY SILLY BOYFRIEND
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zexonyte · 29 days
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yeah i made him a fish lookin thang whatcha gonna do about it
#mother series#giegue#earthbound beginnings#yeah im proud of this so im putting it on tumblr too. hiii mother times server how yall doing#ignore that he doesnt have a back leg i tried but it looked kinda weird and cramped#anyways i gave giegue gill things and a more fish-esque appearance because i hc his species is aquatic#like they come from an oceanic? aquatic? unsure. well its a planet that is almost entirely water im talkin subnautica levels of sea#that's why he had that capsule orb thing in mother 1. he needs it to live and the weird engine-esque things at his side are like purifiers#making sure the liquid is suitable. not too focused on much else (why bother when you're a super powerful psychic) but isn't exactly fragil#like the material is flexible and rubbery even. you hit it and it bounces back a good amount#we don't really get an explanation for why earth itself was chosen to get invaded. at least i don't remember if there was one sorry 😭 BUT#i hc also that the reason giegue's species decided to invade here specifically was because of territory. i mean we've got a lot of water#maybe they took george and maria to test humanity in a sense. if they reacted positively to an alien child mayybe they wouldnt have needed#to straight up eradicate humanity maybe this time we wont need to fight too much. would be inconvenient to waste firepower on these#simple creatures. they're not even that smart. can't even use our epic brain powers lol (aged real well)#once again they aint found him yet but when they do they gon be surprised#anyways its like 4 in the morning i cant keep doing this. thanks for reading my brainworms over a game ive never played 🤙
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jabberwockprince · 6 months
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since we're all having fun talking about theories and headcanons before the game drops. one thing that i do want for missing link, that is mostly wishful thinking on my part, is a reveal for kairi being a descendant of the player
this is based on their parallels of being shooting stars later found washed up on a beach from the new missing link trailer, plus that one moment from KH1 where kairi's grandma tells her about the age of the fairytales and nothing else lmfao
and i want that so badly because. it would be so fucking ironic and poetic to have kairi be a direct descendant of the one person that raised and cared so much for xehanort. the player, whose memories of ephemer and skuld and chirithy and everyone else influenced xehanort into starting his whole ass spiral and descent into darkness
only for her (and sora) to be the ones to get xehanort to stop in the end. ending a cycle of sorts. for her to be haunted by the memory of xehanort, the same way xehanort was "haunted" by the memory of the player's past life
PLUS. i want it to SPECIFICALLY recontextualize kairi's inheritance of the keyblade from BBS. because kairi's reason to wield a keyblade being nothing more than an "accident" feels like such a disservice to her AND aqua??
if they could recontextualize xehanort into whole new depths in dark road, i dont see why they couldn't reframe that moment as kairi reclaiming a dormant power, her own heritage that her bloodline forgot for centuries, since knowledge about keyblades and wielders began to fade out over time to the point where people who KNEW about them thought they were evil. makes sense that as the age of fairytales is left FORGOTTEN, no one can remember how to summon a keyblade, let alone the knowledge to create one from someone's heart. but having a strong heart (one of the requisites for bequeathing ceremonies) and being in direct contact with a keyblade, could just. help jog the memory a bit
and show that yeah. kairi deserves to wield a keyblade because she has a strong heart, and because this was her heritage that was taken away from her when the worlds began to drift away from each other and so on. not because of an accident
everytime chance, fate and destiny are brought up in the saga to explain why something. happened the way it did. it carries so much weight and so many events that led to That Point. but kairi's inheritance as of right now was just. yeah, an accident. no ceremony at all AND I JUST THINK SHE DESERVES RLLY COOL THINGS OKAY
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ithinkinggenshin · 2 years
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In their clutches care
Fandom: Genshin Impact, I'm more dangerous than you
Characters: Kujou Sara, Ren Pingsheng
Pairings: Kujou Sara x Fem!Reader x Ren Pingsheng
Warnings: Smut, rape/noncon elements, drugs, implied stalking, loss of virginity, double penetration, blood, breeding kink, prostitution, flogging, bdsm, painful sex, somnophilia, nipple toture, girl with penis, mind break, sub!reader, asphyxiation, humiliation, degradation, creampie, anal sex, vomit, vagianal sex, blowjobs, threesome, stockkhom syndrome, sex toys, video taping/camming. 
Word count:  7,159
Synopsis: 3 days worth of smut because SOMEONE (*cough* @kujousgf *cough cough*) decided to give me brainrot.
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Rumors were everywhere in your college. But one of the few that stuck out to you was about the girl who sat next to you in your history class, Sara. Her stoicism made her seem unapproachable and intimidating. People would say that she was bad news, that she had multiple strikes on her record for beating people up and all her exes said she was crazy. She also hung out with Ren, one of the most notorious dealers at your school. An extremely shady person all around, from her business to what she did in her free time to how she managed to get all A’s in her classes without ever attending them.
Sara and Ren would often be found talking quietly in the halls or library. They’d stare at other students, Sara with a passive, almost killer face, and Ren with a nice smile but wicked eyes. How you managed to fall in with them, well… it happened too fast for you to say.
You would occasionally greet her in class, but most of your interactions occurred because you had been forced to talk to Sara for partner discussions. One day, she approached you to work together on a duo project, and while you wanted to work with one of your other friends the way she talked about you being partners made it seem like you didn’t have a choice, not that it mattered as your friend avoided you after hearing that you were working with her. 
Sara texted you to figure out a day that worked, and you two made plans to meet in the library that evening. As soon as you finished the conversation, however, you realized ‘I never gave her my number. How’d she get it?’ The thought gave you an uneasy feeling, but you decided to chalk it up to the fact that maybe she had asked one of your friends. 
You found yourself in the library with her, but she sat way too close for comfort and was quite touchy. You tried to politely ask her to back off a bit, but she ignored your requests. She eventually proposed that since you two (you specifically) couldn’t focus, you both ought to go to your dorm. You tried to say no, using every excuse in the book, but when Sara had an answer for every one of them, you eventually relented. (How does she know your schedule? How does she know your roommate and their schedule? How does she know which room you’re in?) Sara is practically pulling you toward your dorm building as you get more and more suspicious of her. You two get inside and she immediately starts looking through your stuff. You try again to ask her how she knows all these things about you, while also trying to get her to stop, (you fail). You relent and try to ignore the fact that Sara is about to find your underwear drawer (pervert) and just try to keep her in the corner of your eye to make sure she doesn’t steal anything. She doesn’t seem to, but she does start talking out of the blue. 
“I’ve had my eye on you for a long time. Ever since you sat next to me at the beginning of the semester. I know you’ve heard the rumors about me but you still sit there, even say hi to me. You’re cute. Naive. I like you. Ren likes you too. Speaking of, she and I made a deal. You’re involved so come on.” 
She grabs your bag, and you have to run out the door after her. You don’t catch up to her until you’re outside, but once you do you put your foot down. “Sara, stop. I’m not okay with all of this. We’ve barely talked and you act like we’re close! I’m not even your friend. It was bad enough you manipulated me into letting you into my dorm room only to go through all of my stuff! But now you’re involving me in some sort of shady deal between you and Ren? I didn’t ask to be a part of that. I’m not coming with you. Give me my stuff and leave me alone or I’ll report you for harassment.” 
“Hmph.”
“So this is her?” A new voice. “You’re even cuter up close. Glad you two could make it.”
You didn’t realize how far you’d walked. Sara kept walking away from you even as you berated with her. Now here you are at the entrance to another building, one that you’ve never been inside (and didn’t even know existed), with Ren. The two share a look and suddenly Ren is pulling you into the building with her. Sara follows behind you, cutting off the exit (and blocking your escape path).
Ren drags you upstairs into a dark room. The blackout curtains and dim, flickering lamp in the corner makes you nervous. The room reeks of weed and given the unmarked bags and boxes in the corner, you imagine this is Ren's ‘base’ of sorts where she does all her deals. You really are in the lion's den. 
You want to leave, but Sara shoves you in further when you try to take a step back. Ren smiles and speaks, “You’re a virgin right? No experience with sex? What am I saying? Clearly, you are. You’re so sweet and innocent. We can all tell by those wide eyes. Probably never even seen a blunt before, I bet. Haha. Adorable.” She pinches your cheek and only smiles wider as you try to bat her hand away.
“So here’s what’s gonna happen. We’re gonna get you high out of your mind. Pop your cherry and fuck you till you can’t walk. And then you’re gonna be a grateful little bitch and let us use you to get off for the rest of the night. Deal? Do this and I won’t charge you for what you smoke.”
None of this is fair and you want to go home. But Sara's already shoving her hands up your shirt and Ren is cupping your lower half. 
“Good girl."
Lips press against yours. Another pair latch onto your neck and you feel them sucking on your skin. Teeth follow. You’re bleeding. Your bottom lip. Your neck. They’re devouring you. You squeak and whimper. Rough hands pull your bra down and grope your naked breasts. Clawed hands palm your ass and cup your pussy. They’re everywhere. You don’t know how to handle it all. You feel hot all over. You’re running out of breath. You want to push them away but your arms are awkwardly caught between all of your bodies and you pushing them only seems to make them push back even harder, getting you even more stuck. 
When Sara finally breaks the kiss you suck in a big breath and feel a wave of relief as she pulls her hands from under your shirt. Only to grab your collar on opposite sides and rip your shirt in half. Fuck. She’s strong. And now you’re half-naked. Your arms fly up to cover your chest, face burning red. Sara catches your wrists fast though and uses one hand to hold both above your head. She goes back to kissing you and fondling your breast with one hand. Why do you feel something poking your stomach? Fuck you feel like a slut. So vulnerable. Can’t move your arms. Only able to flail in her grip and that only seems to push you closer to either her hand tweaking your nipple or Ren who slaps your ass once she gets your pants and underwear off you. Fuuuuuck. You’re naked in front of two strangers. Two women who have you here against your will. You’d leave if you could. But you no longer have a shirt and are entirely at their mercy. (you’re trapped. You’re not letting them have their way with you. No way. Not even if all of this is making you feel good in ways you never have before. Nope. Not at all). 
Sara’s practically holding you in the air by your wrists. You’re standing on your tiptoes to be able to touch the ground. Ren mutters that it’s cute you’re so short. Perfect height to be kidnapped by them. You can’t respond and even if you could, you don’t think you'd know how to. 
Suddenly, Sara lets go and you stumble as you try to regain your footing. Only for Ren to pick you up (fuck she’s strong too) and throw you on the mattress on the floor in the corner of the room. She quickly pounces on you and takes her turn to give you a searing kiss. 
Sara’s in the background, you hear the flicker of a lighter and she takes a deep breath. Another flame turns on and you hear glass clink. “Ready to have your world rocked baby?” Ren asks you. You don’t have time to answer before she’s got a hand around your neck and is digging her nails into the sides as she pulls you up into a sitting position. Sara holds the end of the bong up to your mouth and pinches your nose closed. Fuck. You’re doing this, whether you want to or not. You breathe in and cough. Ren chuckles and massages your throat. You take another breath. Time seems to slow down. You giggle and the room feels much brighter than it did before. Ren and Sara share a smile. They have you take another two hits before finishing the rest off themselves. Languidly kissing and blowing smoke in each other’s face. You stare at them. They’re so pretty. They turn to you. They each put a hand on your chest and push you back. You flop on the mattress and feel the same hands go wandering all over your body. You’re their toy. They toy with you. Spread your pussy lips and run acrylic nails along your slit. Pinch and flick your clit. Pull on your nipples till you arch your back to relieve some of the tension. You love it.
Their hands are cool compared to your overheating body. Their nails imply danger but you only smile. It doesn’t even matter. It’ll feel good anyway. They will make you feel good. 
Your mind seems to flow right out of you. 
Ahhhh~
Ren chuckles and smiles down at you. You’re so adorable. She just wants to eat you. Sara also smiles. She bends down so her chest presses against your thighs and her lips wrap around your clit. 
Fuck!
You’re cumming already. Pathetic little thing. How does it feel? Your first-ever orgasm. You were wet before, now you're leaking cum on Ren's already dirty sheets. Your initiation for them is complete. You came for the two most infamous girls in your college after they trapped you in a building and got you high. You were so easy. So pliable. Did you want this to happen? You seemed to be asking for it. And now you're begging for more. Saying how good it felt and that you love them both. Hah… such a cute little dolly for them to play with. You've spoiled them, really. Too bad they're known for breaking being rough with their toys.
Ren slips another finger into you and starts thrusting faster. You're still sensitive from your last orgasm so you try to push your legs together but it feels like you're moving through mud. Your actions are in slow motion. Sara laughs at your struggling and attempts at coordination. She's been fisting herself while she sucked on your clit. Now it's time to pay her back. She tightly grips the roots of your hair and moves your head so you're looking at her. Your mouth slightly agape. Sara leans down and licks the drool off your cheek and up to the corner of your mouth. She then spits it back in and then quickly mounts your head. She grips the roots of your hair tightly and while clear-headed you would be crying out in pain, the current you just pushes your head up to meet her hand, focusing on and loving her touch. 
Sara growls a warning at you, “No teeth greenie. Or I’ll pull 'em out.” You make a whining noise, you never did like the dentist, but… Sara’s not a dentist? Or is she? That’d be amazing. No wonder the other students are scared of her. 
Your thoughts are all over the place, bouncing around your head like gas particles trying to escape. You’re only pulled back to reality when Sara uses her other hand to squeeze your cheeks to make you open your mouth. She sinks lower and just one ball seems to fill your mouth, your jaw stretches and aches to accommodate both. But when you run your tongue along the skin and hum into them, Sara makes the best noise you’ve ever heard. You want to hear it again. So you keep going. Sucking. Licking. Even swallowing seems to make her happy. Anything to make Sara happy. Her dick goes from somewhat resting on your face to stiffly sticking up. She’s almost in pain with how hard she is. Time to cut this short.
Ren meanwhile enjoys the scene. She fingers your tight pussy with one finger, lightly scraping against your walls with her long acrylic nails, and occasionally pulling it out to taste you and admire how clean your inside walls are. Not for long. She presses two fingers together and eases them into your cunt. Your fuzzy mind state makes you lack any motor skills to resist. Your legs only slightly raise before you feel they’re too heavy, and you let them fall back on the bed confused as to why you tried moving them in the first place, only to repeat the cycle when you’re reminded of the pleasurable painful stretch caused by Ren’s two fingers. 
She gets to the bottom of her fingers, knuckles pressed against your entrance. God, she wants to shove her whole fist inside of you. One step at a time. She wiggles them around. She can feel your womb entrance pressed against her nail tips. God, you really are a pathetic baby. Cunt so tight and small, it hasn't been stretched out by any other girls or even toys. You saved yourself for them, didn’t you? 
Ren starts moving her fingers. In and out. Open and close. You keen against Sara, who now has her cock down your throat, at the sensation. Sara moans loudly and tells Ren to keep doing that. She obliges. Quickening her pace she rubs against your insides and stabs pokes your womb entrance with every thrust. You gush around her fingers again but this time she doesn't stop. Instead going further by using her other hand to play with your clit, flicking and pinching it. 
This time, your legs manage to make it further than an inch off the bed as you flail them around (poor baby’s so uncoordinated) trying to get Ren to stop. “Too much! Too much!” Ren laughs. Hopefully, you’re not crying about this because the night is just getting started. 
Ren’s thrusts get much rougher very quickly. She adds a third finger. She curls her fingers to stretch you out (even more!), and in doing so she tears at your inner walls causing you to bleed. 
When she pulls out after making you cum again she grabs Sara's arm to get her attention. Shoving her fingers in her partner’s mouth so she can taste your iron and sweetness. Sara’s eyes roll to the back of her head. Fuck. That’s it.
She’s had her cock down your throat this whole time, managing to cum once down it. Your constant gagging and whining around it quickly pushes her over the edge. If it wasn’t for the weed, you’d have quickly spewed it all up. Instead, you swallow it down and feel oddly sticky afterward. You can’t say you hate it. Sara’s cum is salty, and you’re slowly gaining a taste for it. You let your tongue hang out as you rest your head to the side, catching your breath. Ren thinks you’re adorable, already looking like you’ve gone 12 rounds and been used by a whole fraternity of guys. But this is nothing. They’re going to have you gaping and ruined by the morning light. It’s far from over, and you soon realize this fact as you feel Sara’s bulbous tip prod your entrance. 
“Sara noooooo~ It’s- yuh- you’re not gonna fit!”
She slaps your thigh, “I’ll fucking make it fit, doll. What good are you as my toy if I can’t use your holes?” She thrusts in after saying that and nearly collapses on top of you. Fuuuuuuck you’re so tight around her. Your slick mixes with your spit but even with all the lube, Sara is slow to bottom out. Maybe it’s because she too can’t move as fast in her hazy state, but she blames the fact that you’re such a tight bitch that she can barely move, not that she’s complaining.
Her tip kisses your womb entrance just as Ren’s nails did but this time there’s much more contact. (And Sara has a whole nother two inches she hasn’t even gotten inside yet!) You’re clawing at Ren, who’s sitting on your face above you, making her lick her asshole and she tweaks your nipples. 
You’re going insane with all of the stimulation. Your insides clamp down and flutter around Sara’s cock, which is splitting you open. Your breath is being stolen as Ren leans more of her weight on your chest and covers your mouth and nose with her ass. You can only move your arms and even then not very well. You’re being drowned in their love lust for you. 
Sara relishes the feeling of her dick being squeezed by her new cocksleeve. She languidly thrusts in and out of you. She doesn’t even care what else is going on. Doesn’t notice Ren starts smearing her juices on your face. Sare just focuses on your walls that collapse the moment she pulls out, only to be forced back open again and again. She cum inside of you. She’d be embarrassed for cumming almost as quickly as you did if she wasn’t enjoying herself so much, quickly picking up the pace after spurting ropes of cum inside you. She’s still so hard. She needs more. Fuck and if your pussy is this tight now, imagining how tight your ass will be, makes Sara squeeze your cheeks with her hands, fingers digging into the fat. 
Ren has pulled out her phone, taking pictures of your face, smeared in cum and pupils blown wide. Recording your muffled moans under her pussy and your unfettered screams as Sara pounds you. Digging bruises in your skin with her hands. Speaking of… Ren gets off you and disappears beyond your eyesight. You whine at the loss of contact, having been enjoying her weight on you. Making you feel trapped secure. You don’t want her to leave you.
Sara manages to pull your attention back to her when she cums in you again. Fuck you better not be on any birth control. Doesn’t matter either way. She’ll make sure you’re knocked up by the end of the night. But for now… Sara pulls out of your cunt and admires the way your hole gapes. It hasn’t even been that long and your hole has been stretched to fit her cock perfectly, still tight but not nearly as much as before. Good. She’s well on her way to ruining you. Ren will do the rest when she brings out her myriad of toys later. Right now, Sara brings her cock back up to your lips, letting it slap on your pink cheeks a few times before shoving it in your mouth for you to clean. Fuuuuck. Your throat is so nice around her. Poor thing still has such an intense gag reflex and yet can’t do anything about the massive cock blocking her airway. 
“Breathe through your nose. I don’t care if you pass out but Ren will be disappointed if you aren’t awake when she comes back.”
You don’t want Ren to be disappointed with you. You obey. Sara chuckles, you really are a pathetic little people-pleaser aren’t you? God, you’d make such a good whore. Let anybody use your holes. Sara and Ren could pimp you out for $10 a fuck. $15 if the user wants to cum inside. 
Sara groans and cums down your throat. She’s pulled out yet you’re still coughing and choking on all of her cum, doing your best to swallow every last drop. Good bitch. 
You’re given no relief though as Sara quickly cuts off your airways again (both your nose and mouth this time) when she sits on your face. Her plump, strong ass blocking your sight. Sara spreads her cheeks with her hands and you get a good view of her puckered asshole. 
“Stop staring. I saw you tongue fucking Ren while I was pumping a baby into your womb. Now it’s my turn. You’re here to please me, so get that baby tongue to work. I know you can.” 
You briefly consider the idea that maybe you had gotten pregnant. You were too distracted by everything else to realize that that could be the case. You smile. A baby between you and Sara would be so cute! 
Mph!
Your thoughts are cut short as Sara plants her ass on your face. Her hole right up against your mouth. Right. Right. You kiss her puckered ring and stick your tongue out, giving an experimental lick before doing your best to force it inside her ass. 
How are you supposed to do this?! It’s so tight. Your tongue barely makes it an inch before you feel like you can’t push it any further. Still, you’re a good girl so you keep trying. Sara rewards you with a nice, loud moan. God, you’re a natural. Why didn’t they do this sooner? She’s in love with how your tongue is so small yet fat inside her asshole. She bets if she clenched it would cut off the blood circulation to your cute muscle. Hopefully, you like the taste. She isn’t getting off you till you make her cum. God... You’re doing so well. Experimenting with moving your tongue around, pressing inside her inner walls, taking it out, and pushing it back in. Sara loves it. 
Her moans echo through the room and into Ren’s ears as she rummages through her closet to find- Aha! Got them. 
Ren pulls out a big box and carries it over to where you and Sara are. Smiling and pulling out her phone again to take a few more pictures before turning her attention back to the box. The lid comes off and inside are the toys that Sara had thought about before. All sorts of things that would push the line between pleasure and pain. Perfect. 
Ren starts with the suction tubes that attach to your nipples. Ah cold! You think but you can’t see what’s going on. You moan into Sara as you feel… whatever it is twist and force your nipples to erect even higher. You don’t think you can take it. Your chest hurts. Whatever is on you, it's so tight! 
Ren and Sara share a smile. You’re moaning and crying out underneath Sara, who delivers a slap to your chest, just above the sucker, and reminds you of what you’re supposed to be doing. You feel like you can’t focus on Sara with these tubes on you! But… maybe Sara’s trying to help? Yes, that has to be it. You dive back into her. Tongue returning to her ass with more vigor, this will help. This will help. 
Ren attaches her phone to a short tripod and sets it to record you. She should’ve done that when they started, people would’ve paid so much to see them take your virginity. Ah well, hindsight. She focuses on putting you into more gear to make you a better showgirl. You can still make her money yet. 
She attaches a third sucker to your little clit after giving it a flick. She’s gonna make it look like you have a baby, two-inch dick by the time she pulls the sucker off you. She twists until she hears you crying under Sara nodding when they make eye contact. Poor baby is finally shedding tears. She’s going to lick them up. Collect them in a vial. They’ll be her holy water. 
Now… the best part. Ren goes to her box. Butt plugs and dildos. Ones that are inhuman in size. Ones that’ll ruin you beyond all measure. Leave you gaping. Pussy stretched out enough to take two cocks in it at the same time. Hell, she could pour wine on it and shove the bottle inside by the time she’s done with you. Maybe that’ll be the finisher. A good bottle of wine as the sun rises and you cry on the mattress, out of tears and voice practically gone. Shit. That’ll be the perfect end to this all.
Ren first gets a douche and slides the tube into your asshole, squeezing the bulb to squirt water inside, letting it fill you up all the way to your rectum, and then sliding it out to let it all flush out of you. This is the only part of you that’s clean at this point. Ren is about to put the douche away when she has another idea. Yes… she fills you up with water again before quickly grabbing the next toy. She slides the large balls beads into your ass, successfully plugging you up and making it impossible for the water to escape. (Unless her new fucktoy manages to stretch her hole even bigger somehow). It’s perfect. The large balls and water plug you up and make you feel so full. Bloated and unstable. Like you’re both too tense and wound up but also ready to fall apart at any given moment. Ready to let it all come gushing out of you. What’s even better is that this toy can vibrate. Ren holds off on turning the feature on. She’s going to surprise you. But now quite literally the biggest part.
Ren picks a 13-inch, glass, ribbed, “draconian punisher” dildo with a handle on the end. She reaches inside your pussy, scraping out Sara's cum and slathering it onto the phallic object. When she thinks there’s enough lube, Ren presses the tip against your entrance. She pauses to watch as Sara cries out, cumming all over your stomach. Consider them both impressed. People typically can’t make Sara cum from just tongue fucking her asshole. You really are a special little slut, aren’t you? 
But now you have nothing to distract you. Nothing blocking your eyes from looking at the massive dick Ren is about to shove in you. Nonono it won’t fit. No way. You cry more. You’re coming down from your high. You feel the weight of what’s happened crushing you, worse than how it felt when they were on top of you, suffocating you. You don’t even have time to process it all before you feel yourself being torn apart. Split in half. The cold glass forces you wide open. Fuckfuckfuck. You’re positive you’re bleeding. If your hymen hadn’t been ripped by Sara, then it sure as hell was destroyed by this. You think you’re dying. The bumps on the dildo give you no room to adjust. Inconsistently pushing your walls. Forcing you to stretch and collapse around them. The bulbous tip pushes against your G-spot and then some. You’re full. Filled up and yet Ren keeps pushing. It won't fit. It won't fit! You told her this but she keeps pushing. You feel more alive than ever. You feel like you’re dying. Sara is filming you. Oh god. Your life is being ruined by these two girls. Everyone was right. 
FUCK
Ren slides the dildo out and slams it back in you. Nononono She does it again. And again. And again. She hammers the cock in and out of your pussy. You're blubbering and crying. Begging her to stop. But it’s no use. Sara is fisting herself next to you. She’s getting off on your cries. Gonna cum all over you again. 
Ren is relentless. You’re accommodating the glass. With each thrust more and more of it fits inside you. You feel the pounding at the top of your head. You feel like she might as well be shoving a pole to the top of your throat. Your heart is pounding, adrenaline coursing through you, making you keep up. You’re too focused on the overwhelming feeling of being tortured by the suckers and anal beads and dildo. You hear a click. 
AHHHHHHH
The- the beads. They vibrate?! Oh god, you feel water leaking out of your ass. It’s swirling around inside you. The thrusts of the dildo shakes your whole form. The vibrating buzzes your insides. The suction on your most sensitive spots keeps your blood trapped and only serves to channel the sensations to the tips of your clit and nipples. 
SMACK
Sara brings down a riding crop on your abdomen. She does it again. Again, again, again. Just like Ren, she’s relentless. They seem to be in time with each other, purposefully slamming into you opposite one another. Ren pulls out and Sara brings the crop down, then Sara lifts and Ren shoves the cock inside you. 
Without your high, the room is much darker and the spots in your vision only serve to further your blindness. It’s terrible. It heightens the rest of your senses. You’re too aware of your voice giving out and your dried tear streaks. Eyes bloodshot and aching, even when you squeeze your lids shut. You just want all of this to be over. 
You hate to admit it, but it’s starting to feel good. Everything is somehow meshing into a lewd symphony. Harmonizing with one another and bringing you to the edge. You clench and gush hard around the giant phallus. You clench so hard Ren has to stop, she even takes her hand off the dildo to get her phone to get a closer view and you end up pushing the cock out of you, still cumming. 
Sara rips off the suckers and you squirt again. (or maybe you never stopped). She brings the crop down on your nipples that have doubled the size, pink and puffy. She’s merciless. Welts left in her wake. They litter your entire abdomen, crossing over each other, by the time she’s decided to be done. 
Ren, in the meantime, has brought the dildo up to your face. You’re expected to lick it clean. Only now do you get a clear view of how large the thing inside of you was. You do kitten licks all over it. The bumps pressing against your tongue. She pushes the tip into your mouth and now your mouth gets a chance to experience what your cunt just went through. You try to speak around the toy. 
Ren’s eyes narrow. “Oh? She can still talk? She’s still thinking in proper sentences? Guess she hasn’t had enough yet.” She pushes the cock to the back of your throat and holds it there. You gag and cry. Ren turns her head toward Sara and the two make out. They don’t stop to breathe for a long time. You in the meanwhile pass out after choking and struggling to breathe around the glass toy. 
Ren giggles at your unconscious form. A shame. She was just about to pull the cock out of your mouth, she swears. Oh well. You can have a rest. 
“I’m surprised she made it this long.” 
“Me too. I was sure she would’ve passed out choking on your cock. She really is a special girl.”
“And you say I don’t have any taste. I brought us the most amazing toy yet.”
“You did, darling.” They share another kiss. “I suppose I should reward you. Mm?”
“Hmph. Why don’t we just finish our plan? Then we can talk about more.”
“Good idea.” 
Ren reaches over and fishes out a normal-sized, vibrating dildo. Sara’s eyes light up in excitement. Your gaping hole and stretched lips look so enticing to them. 
Once again, Ren gathers your slick and lathers them onto the fresh dildo, Sara pumps herself in the meantime. When everything is ready, Sara punches her cock deep inside you and Ren follows suit with her own toy. Double stuffed in one hole. Sara loves the feeling of her against Ren. She can even feel the beads in your ass make small bumps against her cock. Fuck it’s all so good. She can’t help herself. Sara thrusts inside you and Ren matches her. 
Again, they hit you at opposite times. Sara thrusts in and Ren pulls out, and vice versa. You make tiny whimpering and moaning noises. Your whole body seems to react to them, each thrust causing ripples to shake your unconscious, boneless body. Your head falling and rolling back and forth. Your tits bouncing and jiggling. Your hair and makeup are ruined, smeared, and all over the place. 
They use you like this for a while. Sara cums once inside you and then again all over your body. Ren laughs at the sight. She smears some around to write out the word ‘WHORE’ and takes another picture before licking up whatever is left of Sara’s cum on the tips of her fingers. 
You don’t know what’s happening. In your subconscious, you feel like you’re being shaken by an earthquake. But an earthquake wouldn’t be happening inside you. Not… down there. What’s happening? Are you on a ship? Are you being carried? Are you dead? You can’t tell. Your mind shifts from one abstract scene to the next trying to comprehend what’s going on. And then suddenly, it all stops. You return to darkness and rest. Sighing in relief. 
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You wake up to being shaken again. You can’t help the muffled groan that comes out of you as you feel like the wind is being knocked out of you with each hit. You try to get your eyes to adjust and see the room around you but you’re only met with darkness. It takes you a minute to realize you’ve got a blindfold of some kind on. You’re being pushed so hard you can barely stop your head from jerking back and forth, you know this has been happening a while because you feel like your neck- no whole body was in a car crash with the amount it throbs, your neck sore from whiplash. You try to close your mouth, lick your lips, anything and find you're blocked by a rubber ball in your mouth. You can’t spit it out. Your jaw aches. You swear you’ve been aware of the fact that your forearms are strictly bound, tight above your head this whole time but trying to move them so you can do… anything, really serves to cement this in your brain. You try to squeeze your way out of the leather and fail. Miserably. The edges of it only bite into your soft skin more. You lightly squirm and twist trying to get out, only to be brought into further despair when you realize your ankles are in leather cuffs as well. You’re unable to close your legs, no matter how much you writhe and tug. 
You give up on struggling quickly as your whole body hurts to move and you’re still being jostled around by someone thrusting into your ass, the slap of their skin against yours is all you hear. Until a laugh rings out above you (to the left of you? You have no idea). At first, you don’t even recognize the voice.
“Start making those cute sounds of yours, baby. You’ve got three thousand viewers watching. You don’t want to disappoint them.” 
Right. Ren. and Sara must be the one fucking your ass. You groan again, only this time out of exhaustion. 
You’re suddenly wide awake as you scream behind the gag when you feel a hard paddle come down on your already bruised skin. 
“Yes! Good girl~ Just like that.” 
Ren smacks you again. She’s beating you up in front of thousands of people, and you’re helpless to stop her. You can hear chimes coming from her phone. Are… are all of those notifications coming from the people watching you? 
You feel like you don’t even have the capacity to be humiliated anymore. Too braindead because of these two girls. 
Ren giggles. “Oh yeah. You know that at least half of the people watching are students on campus right? I bet even some of our professors are enjoying the sight of you.”
Okay, so you do have it in you to be embarrassed. God, what are they all thinking? They must think you’re such a slut. A whore. What if someone asks you about it later? What if your teachers comment! Oh, your life is ruined.
Sara stops and you feel her cock swell inside your ass. She erupts and smiles. Your ass is stretched a bit wider and there’s more room for her cum to spread. More space to fill you up. She grabs a large butt plug with a fuzzy tail dangling off of it and quickly replaces her cock with it. You feel full. You want to puke. You wonder if you have, your memory of the night is fuzzy. You’re too focused on how everything feels right now. Your thoughts being that everything hurts and you want to crawl into a hole and die. 
Ren finally stops beating you with the paddle. You make a noise of relief around the gag. You’re surprised and blinded when she rips the blindfold off and the gag out of your mouth. You make a pathetic noise and quickly shut your mouth, wetting your lips, and trying to relax your jaw. You’re blinking rapidly trying to adjust to the poorly lit room. It doesn’t help that Ren is standing over you, camera in your face.
“Say hi to all your fans, baby.” She gets a fantastic shot of you, really capturing the level of despair you’ve fallen into. And when you say nothing, she slaps your cheek hard enough to leave a red mark. “Don’t be a brat. You should be grateful they all decided to spend the last three hours watching you. The least you can do is give them a smile.” 
THREE HOURS?! 
Ren pulls your hair so you’re forced to sit up as much as you can, your arms stretching behind. You cry out for her to stop. Shake your head in her grip but that only serves to make her tighten her grip on your roots and hurt you even more. “You know what we want. Be a good whore already. It’ll make your life a lot easier.”
You force a smile, squeezing your eyes shut so you don’t have to look at the camera anymore. They really did it. They really have been using you all night. They say the people watching have been doing so for… ugh you're gonna be sick… three hours. But how long were you out even before that? What did they do to you? Your insides are burning. The only relief you get is the cum plugged up inside you. Only semi-soothing your inner walls. You don’t even want to think about possibly being pregnant. There are too many bad things that are going to come out of this. You can’t be bothered right now to worry about them. You don’t even think you’re properly processing all of this right now. Your brain was fucked out of your head. 
Ren can’t stop smiling. You don’t even know how long she sat there, getting different angles of your dazed expression. She can see the cogs in your head turning, slowly churning through all the cum they’ve plugged up in you. It’s adorable that you’re still trying so hard. 
“Common kitten, meow for them. Say, ‘thank you for popping my cherry and making me a big girl! And for showing everyone how much of a slut I am!.’
“...n-nuh”
SMACK
You’re whipped to the side and end up in the perfect position for hurling your guts off the side of the mattress. 
What comes out of you shouldn’t be a surprise, but it’s far grosser than you care to admit. You squeeze your eyes shut so you don’t have to look at it, but have the urge to vomit again when the stench of it all hits your nose.
“Ew…”
Ren and Sara share a look. Looks like the fun is over. Sara straps the gag back into your mouth, sets the blindfold in place, and unlocks a few of your cuffs. She lifts you up and carries you out. Winding through the halls and finally dumping you onto the floor in the empty lobby. They really must not have cared about this building. There weren’t any carpets or much furniture for that matter. Ren follows, carefully blocking the camera and making sure no one knows where you came from. She finally points it back at you and tells everyone that they’re welcome to come pay you a visit, never directly telling anyone where you all are. She gets one last shot of your pathetic, resigned form before turning off the camera. 
“This was fun, baby. Maybe we’ll hit you up again sometime.”
You curl in on yourself. 
Ren laughs. “Oh my god. You didn’t actually think we were gonna leave you here for people to come find, did you? Haha, we really did break the pathetic brain of yours. Were you excited to be used by a bunch of strangers?” She lets out another laugh and grabs your face, you can feel her breath on your nose. “Don’t worry. We don’t let people touch what’s ours. You’re coming home with us. We’ll keep training you. You’ve come so far from the virgin you were last night. It’d be a shame to let your whorish nature go to waste. Even if we do decide to be selfish and keep you entirely to ourselves, you’d still be useful around the house.”
You hear a zipper and some rustling before feeling your body leave the ground. You’re set down again in what you assume to be a large bag.
“Welcome to your new life baby. We’re gonna have so much fun. We’ll take good care of you.”
The zipper closes the bag. Everything goes quiet. You’re being carried away. To your new life. 
Your eyelids droop. You fall asleep knowing that there's no point in resisting. They've got you in their clutches. There's no escape. 
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taeyungie · 1 year
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hi ♡ i guess i'm back? 🥹
here's a little life update! i think you guys deserve it after my absence that lasted longer than even i expected it to last ;( i am very sorry about that. i miss everyone here and bangtan so much, you have no idea. the reason for all that is that for the past months i have been going through a lot of things and changes in my life. there were good and bad things happening, time flies extra fast, days melt into one and i didn't even notice the past half a year pass. although i think my absence was unavoidable in these circumstances i just thought that you guys deserve to know what's been up with me for the past months haha i have received a lot messages and reminders that people remember about me and that they miss me and i just want to send all of you my biggest apologies for leaving you for so long with no response, as well as all my love and gratitude! 🥺 i think i've been always fairly transparent on here so if anyone wanted to know more I'll leave some more details in the tags but basically I just hope that soon i will be able to become more active again and respond to messages ❤️❤️❤️ i hope everyone is doing great 🥰
#honestly... it was yoongi's comeback that made it happen. that made me have motivation to come back. i didnt expect it but here we are LOL#because for the past months i have been struggling a lot and i almost lost all the connections with my friends family and bangtan#i lost all my feelings and thoughts#i didnt miss anyone i didnt want to do anything i didnt want to be anywhere. i was completely submerged into my own head#i still am. it didnt exactly get better but.. its just yoongis impact jasbhdjdjd he made me remeber a lot#in october last year i developed a very agressive eating disorder and its gotten a lot worse at the begging of this year#and it has taken everything from me. it sucked me dry and still continues to do so. it made my mental health so much worse on every level#but im still here and thats what matters in the end right ❤️#from the good things - after long unfortunate and very stressful job hunting i finally got a stable job 🥰 and i continue my uni so far#that's why i was absent here most of the time. i decided to focus on my life and on trying to change something and to fight a little more#after jin's enlistment announcement... it was a wake up call for me#and maybe soon i will be back on track but im taking things slow. especially that its not easy for me at all#but i just wanted you to know that theres been a lot happening here so ❤️ im not just getting bored of tumblr and bts haha#i never stopped following the fandom i never turned off my notifications from media i never stopped looking up what they're up to each day#i just didnt have time and motivation to be active. because of my health i wanted to be quiet and away from eveyone and everything :/#even from my comfort people and activities#that sounds sad but. it's alright so please don't worry about me ❤️ I'm holding on just fine. got used to some things ❤️ trying to heal#so yeah i think thats that haha i think its enough and all basically#it may seem like very little but my life has always been very slow when it comes to big actions haha#anyway. love you all so much ❤️ thank you for not forgetting about me ❤️#soon i will try to answer some mesdages from my inbox. please wait for me just a little bit more ❤️ im very overworked right now#but im so sorry that you have to wait so long ❤️
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faeymouse · 10 months
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You ever have one of those fandoms where you’ve never really interacted with or gotten to know it better, but something deep in your soul is like, “Yeah I’d probably go feral for this if I gave it a chance.”
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taegularities · 11 months
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hope you're all liking the epilogue and that you enjoyed the whole series in general. thank you for giving it so much love and support. can't wait to share more 🤍
#i'll be completely honest#you guys n the love you give are the reason why i'm still here#bc there are days and weeks when i.... don'tenjoytumblranymore#it's not bc of interaction or anything bc my god you guys talk to me so much ily :(#but tumblr has changed... the bts fandom has changed. the dash is literally EMPTY#it feels so different from when i joined back early 2021... everyone was so happy and loud back then#and so enthusiastic about writing too... like i still fkn love writing all i write#but the level of excitement about writing has changed.. it's why i try to take it slower these days#my god i used to have a schedule lmao could never today 💀#but yeah idk... sometimes im like... this isn't fun anymore and maybe it's time to give up#but that's exactly when y'all come thru and say something SUPER SWEET and i'm like.. wait ykw#i love this space.. it's still comfort and warmth#so yeah thank you for giving me hope and keeping me here you mean so much to me#the platform changes and sucks sometimes but you guys remain here and are as fucking kind as ever and#make this little community irreplaceable#i love you#and yeah. i just needed to get this off my chest bc it has been on my mind for rlly long#especially since those community labels butchered and changed interaction :/ like i just know the c&f family could've been#a lot bigger if not for the label on pt1.. could've really been one of the biggest stories around here but lol it is what it is !! the love#is overwhelming as it is so thank you <3#okay that's way too long pls ignore me bye#tdl???
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polaraffect · 3 months
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current state of politics really got me swerving wildly between "yes I want to present as a man" and "oh god is this even worth it maybe I'm not even really trans" and it's bringing me to my limit
#damien.txt#sorry its like 5 am and i havent slept and wanna vent so. here inam#i really do be having a wild time bc ill have like. weeks at a time where ill be like. wait a second. what if im not trans actually#okay well. never in a 'im 100% not trans' way but in a 'maybe i shouldnt transition' way#and then ill have a day where i wake up and go. oh. i think that feeling is just coming from fear about. the current state of trans issues#because oh my FUCKING GOD am i scared like 24/7 bc of that shit#and so like. then im like. maybe i really am like. actually transmasc. fr. bc i like. literally have been feeling it my whole life.#and then i wake up a couple weeks later back at the beginning like hmm....... but..... what if....#and im so tired of not knowing!! it's fucking exhausting questioning what the fuck is happening w me every 2 seconds#and im being dramatic abt it but idk. i think its a symptom of neurodivergence or something bc im like. so so scared abt being trans atm#at a level that is. certainly unhealthy.#and it really feels like something that is inhibiting me from doing things in life which is like. upsetting y'know!#but at the same time. the concept of going thru life as my birth gender is... bad. sort of inconceivable at this point.#and this is particularly hard bc like. really going back and forth on making decisions abt taking T. bc when i get in these spirals#abt maybe not being trans. i get the urge to not take it. but like. i cant fluctuate w a medicine like that that much!#but at the same time when i go back to being like oh yeah transmasc... my brain is like cool. take T again. so. fuck me i guess.#idk man. im just like. i just want to live my life without being perceived by others actually#my true gender is no one's business <3 thanks#i am. tired.
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brattybottomdyke · 3 months
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i really want to get more tattoos and there’s a couple that i’ve been thinking about for a while but i just can’t find an artist 😭
any NYC mutuals have any recs? im not in the city but i could get there relatively easily and im really itching for another
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yuukimiyas · 4 months
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ଘ(੭ˊ꒳​ˋ)੭✧ happy new years my loves!! i am so so SO beyond grateful to have had the pleasure of growing my lil city & was able to meet all of you!! whether we interact only briefly or on the daily just know i appreciate & adore every single one of you more than words can possibly describe ໒꒰ྀིㅅ´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა i wouldn’t be half the person i am if it weren’t for you guys <33 & im so proud to say that i have made some amazing forever friends (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)⁾⁾⁾ ik this yr wasn’t easy & it def had its struggles but everyday you continued to show up & be your v best self & i am so proud of you <33 i just know you’re going to continue to do even MORE amazing things!! ໒꒰ྀི∩˃ ᵕ ˂∩꒱ྀི১ 2024 is our yr!! <33 i am kissin your noses so gently as the ball drops!! mwah!!
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hella1975 · 1 year
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bagged a trial shift at a new pub just for my manager to immediately put on facebook if anyone wants an extra shift on wednesday. he knows what im doing
#he said GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE RN#lmfaoooo the notif came through literally as i put the phone down i was like 😳😳😳#like that 'CONNOR' tiktok audio like no king im not doing anythinggg haha wdym#anyway im a bit annoyed that the first place to get back to me from my applications was this one#bc im pretty sure their pay is still minimum wage and also my cousin worked a trial shift there once#and not only did they not pay him but they also never called him back or even emailed to politely turn him down#literally just used him for free labour and that was that#word of warning from a very tired waitress if ur thinking about starting: always take trial shifts with a pinch of salt#if the trial shift is longer than 2 hours they really really should be paying you and if they dont the odds are you got mugged off#also the woman on the phone after i said i worked at the place i currently work at was like 'and do you still work there?' SHE KNOWS#and when i said yes she was like 'would you be willing to leave?' HOW CAN I BE TWO-TIMING BOTH OF YOU RN#LYING TO ONE JOB ABOUT SEEKING ANOTHER JOB LYING TO THE NEW JOB ABOUT LEAVING THE OLD ONE COME ON NOW#IM NOT BUILT FOR THESE LAYERS#but yeah summary here is i have a shift at my actual place on wednesday (thank god i havent had work in over a fucking WEEK)#and i have a trial shift at a new place where i'll most likely be offered a job. life is picking up#ALSO i have enough money to change my america flights bc basically something came up with that and i need to change my return flight#and i was originally rlly worried bc the change cost was £161 and that piled onto my current no-shifts stress was Not Fun#but ive been working a lot for my mum and i got paid for the shifts i HAVE done and it all kinda fell together anyway#the way everything is sorting itself today within the same HOUR yet ive been stressing about these things for days now#hella goes home#hella slaves to capitalism
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