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Well... hello there!

Been kinda in and out lately (thanks burnout and busyness haha)~ but I made this... slideshow for my vanilla friend that I recently told about the kink, and well, figured someone on here might get a kick outta it~

It features a bunch of snzkink related memes at the end, most of which are not credited, so I am not claiming ownership of those, just included them for a bit of humour with him after this whole thing~

Anyways sticking it under the cut if anyone wants to look through it, honestly it's a bit informative, a bit funny, and generally I just figured maybe someone might find it interesting, or humorous, so here ya go!

#waterfallrambles #not sure what else to tag this as tbh hahaha #snzblr #maybe that one?? #overall this is probably not very good or anything #its just a little introduction for him because he was curious #and i enjoy making slideshows #so here it is!!! if anyone bothers to look at it feel free to tell me what you think haha~ #or just scroll on- either way all good~

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A Word-Filled Update

that no one's asking forrrr~

Sooooo, hiya~ ^^

Realized I kinda dropped out without much word, and wanted to give a lil update to anyone who may care, (and specifically to all the unfilled requests that have been sat in my inbox for months now T~T)

Dropping it under a cut because it gets quite long~ but I'll also TL;DR it with: been a bit burnt out, trying to get back into this, I apologize for all the unanswered asks, and I will be trying to get to the ones I can, but I'll be focusing more on trying to enjoy the process of making content~ Thank you to anyone who's stuck around <3

(Tw for brief mention of mental health/neurodivergencies~ nothing in depth or dark, but just incase anyone wants to avoid that <3)

Nothing serious has been going on, mostly just burn out and a bit of drama in main friend group, combined with free time just being a lot more limited recently~ (not a bad thing, most of it is because I'm getting to talk more with friends I've gotten closer to this past year~)

That said, I've been trying to get back into content, making it, reblogging it, etc, without letting it become all-consuming. I find, with the way my brain works, mostly to do to some wonderful neurodivergent tendencies, I tend to fall heavily into 'all of nothing' mentality.

This shows up in my day to day life, (ie: can't wash the dishes for weeks until I suddenly do them all in one day) and I've definitely noticed it with content creation. Need to write and finish a story in one go, record a wav as fast as possible, always afraid I'll lose that motivation.

But honestly? I love making content on here! And I'm not a huge blog, nor do I care if I am (at least trying not to, if I'm being painfully honest~) but I genuinely love making content. Whether it's just for me, a request that I am hoping one specific person will enjoy, or a story I write with a community in mind, I just love creating~

So, I'm trying to ease my way back into this! Bit by bit, let it be fun, and enjoyable, with less internal pressure to produce as much as I can, as fast as I can, and make it be perfect.

I won't lie and say 'numbers don't matter to me', if I'm honest, they do. But I'm learning more and more how to let it be about the content, and to just enjoy the process~ (and if people like it, that'll be a wonderful bonus!~)

Wooo this is getting so long, I apologize sincerely! Last thing, something I've mentioned a few times previously but never really let myself get into... requests~

I'm so honoured that people care about my content enough to have asked for things, and getting any ask, request, praise, ask lists, heck even just a 'hi!' is honestly the best part of this blog for me!

Buuuut, I definitely worked myself into burn-out before with a "every request needs to be filled and fast" mentality, that led to just... not filling any.

So! I'm going back through my inbox, and deleting some older ones that I don't have a clear vision/motivation for. I apologize to anyone who requested them, though by now it's possible they're long gone~ But I think this will help me not only start enjoying the creation process without feeling so overwhelmed, but also start actually getting more content made~

There are definitely a bunch that I still adore, and am thrilled to get to test out, but if there's one you remember sending, and you really want to see it completed, please feel free to send another ask saying what it is you want done, and I'll see if I can get that going <3

And if you've stuck it out to the end here- uh hi! ^^ I'm sorry this is so long, I'm such a words person, but I appreciate you so much, not just for any support you've offered, but just bothering to read this <3 I genuinely didn't expect most to make it this far, so thank you so deeply <3 and I hope to see you guys around as I start reblogging stuff more!~

#waterfalltalks #waterfallrambles #more like waterfallparagraphs im so sorry hahaha #been thinking about making this for awhile- but always felt so anxious??? #idk why specifically... maybe cause i cant be short to save my life #or maybe because it feels like ive left it too long?? been promising so much and never fulfilling #but i am gonna try!! not to fulfill everything but- to start enjoying it again #i worry this comes off like i have an ego... i really dont haha~ i dont expect anyone to really interact with my blog or care #it was always meant to be for ME- and i just hoped to create things ID enjoy and that #if anyone else enjoyed it too that i could start giving back to the community thats given me so much content ive adored #anyways this is a LONNNGGG post and so are these tags hahaha~ #using this blog as a journal again i think! but its mine! so okay! im gonna let myself! #gonna add here too that i might be reblogging with shorter tags for a bit- i promise its not cause im not excited!!! #just trying to make it the least overwhelming situation so i can start really getting back into ENJOYING it~ #thank you to anyone who read this far and a huge thank you to all my friends from here and anyone who stuck around <3 #i appreciate and love you all so dearly <333 #not snz

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Anyone else ever just... so burnt out/unfocused, couldn't imagine writing anything if you tried, but then... then...

The Hyperfixation Hits

and suddenly there's a google doc open and you've written 500 words of albeit, probably nonsense before you even stop to blink?

Or is that just me~

#waterfallrambles #i dont actually- know what happened #i just.... i still feel burnt out but then my m/agnus a/rchives hyperfixation hit back again in full force #and suddenly that prompt i had sitting in a google doc is lookin REAL nice #500 words and i havent even gotten to the part where the sn**** will start to happen yet #no promises if/when this will be finished or posted (just incase anyone is wondering haha) #but if i keep going at this rate i might have my first actual fic in like weeks #has it been months?? it might have been months #man idk guys bad brain is strong but gremlin brain is stronger

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So I've been watching D/emon S/layer with my friends, slow going but we're just about to start the swordsmith village arc, but uh...

Yeah I caught the bug and just read through 161 chapters in one sitting. (had to stop since i ran out of s/honen jump chapters, will read the final 45ish tomorrow once chapters refresh) andddddddd I'm a little insane about some new bois <3

#waterfallrambles #hello i am having FEELINGS about lil guys #some of which i know i shouldnt but i cant help it #cough d/ouma cough cough #theyre just- i just- yeah anyways i make no promises but there might be content in the future if anyone cares

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Hi! I was wondering if you had any more V/NC snz or h/c ideas/thoughts? 👀

One of my favorite scenarios for them is that I feel like they’re set up really well for coming down with a cold in the rain/snow! It was. Definitely on my mind when they spent so long in the snow in part 2 lol. Very very soft for the image of Van or N/oe getting sick in cold weather and the other giving them their jacket. Vampire constitution is also an interesting area—N/oe teasing a sick V about human frailty or Van/itas complaining to a sick N/oe that he’s supposed to be stronger. I feel like these two clowns would end up getting each other sick and then one of the girls would have to step in and take care of them both lmao.

Vampire scenarios also work really well here like if one of the vampires is drinking blood from one of the others, but they’re wearing a new perfume/cologne that irritates the vampire’s nose. Perfumes are often concentrated on the neck and/or wrist, which are exactly the places we’ve seen vampires feed from most often in this anime… the proximity could make their reaction even worse, maybe causing them to sneeze helplessly against the other’s neck/wrist?

Van/itas begrudgingly giving a sick N/oe some of his blood (not straight from the vein of course, from a separate container) to help him recover faster so they can get on with their mission and certainly not because he cares about him in the slightest or anything like that.

That scene (or a similar one) where Do/mi binds V, but he needs to sneeze from whatever cause and it gets stuck. She might decide to have a little more fun playing with him since she has the chance,,, maybe even using a feather from a masquerade mask/costume or a quill?

Hello! So I uh... I saw this when it first came in, and I intended to answer fast but... honestly just kept coming back and reading it~ You have so many good ideas here!~ (also been on a little 'not motivated' kick, so been a lot less active~)

In order to not flood the feed, I'll stick my answers under a cut!~ But I'll say here, genuinely... that last one... I'm a little dizzy from now much I adore that >///< now get ready for some rambling! (V/anitas No C/arte Spoilers Under Cut!!)

ALRIGHT~ Now that the readmore's out of the way, let's get into this.

Firstly, the!! snow!!! I'm not a super heavy whump/general sickness person but... fevered Vanitas...? A little out of breath~ I so completely agree that if one goes down, so does the other. Noe catches something and Vanitas quarantines him to a hotel room. Vanitas only enters the room once. Vanitas is sick as a dog the next day <3 (he complains the ENTIRE time, but... hey... weirdly enough, now that he's sick... seems the 'stay AWAY from me' has faded into a light 'mmmmpf. fine.' weird how that works~)

And the girls taking care of themmmm! Even if both aren't sick, I can totally see one calling the 'other's girl' like "come get this IDIOT to take his STUPID medicine!!" (or in Noe's case, "Hey... so I don't think he's gonna let me give him the- I said give me a mINUTE pleAse! The medicine... he uh- tried to bite me last time I tried-")

Or, alternatively, the girls trying to watch over their sick boys, just to realize the only way to actually get anything done without constant nagging, complaining, and moping, is to let the idiots be together. Funny, given how adamant they were just the other day that they 'never wanted to be in the same room again'. And yet, the only time they'll sleep is when the other's safely in the same room.

And then the perfume... lord knows I've thought about that- I'm definitely more of a Vanitas girlie but uh... Noe could use a little suffering too <3 And then the girls?? ugh- just so many possibilities. And, selfishly because, ~Vanitas Girlie~ the idea of him mocking Noe mercilessly for having a fit from the person's perfume, just to succumb to a few stifles of his own from mere proximity. And, ofc, Noe would never find humour in that. (aka: he laughed, and Vanitas punched him~)

And uh... that last one... yeah nothing more to be said than I still in fact lose my actual genuine mind any time I think about it~ Vanitas, always in control, smug, arrogant, being knocked down a peg... and by Domi...? Ahahaha~ Let's just say yes <3

As a gift for making it this far, have a Vanitas~ (I did say this would be long-)

Now onto some of my own hcs or thoughts~ Pulling out the google doc again hehe~ let's do this bullet point style, then throw a few scenarios I had considered on at the end~

Vanitas:

★ Tells Noe (or most anyone) to shut up if he gets blessed

★ Regardless, will pout if he doesn't get blessed (including if he just told them to stop)

★ Enjoys most blessings, despite pretending he doesn't, but French ones will always make him blush a little~ (Noe mostly goes for a classic English, Domi figures out first that the French gets Vanitas, she debates telling Noe for about 3 days)

★ Has allergies <3 Hates, and I do mean hates that he has allergies

★ Wants to fit in with the rich crowd, but he's very sensitive to their strong perfumes and colognes, sometimes feels like he's allergic to nobility itself

★ Usually prepared, whether that's medication, avoiding settings, or setting his will in place to get through without a single symptom presenting itself

★ Despite all this, he almost never has tissues on him. Doesn't believe in handkerchiefs for anything but watering eyes or dabbing at blood, and even if he does use them, they're a 'one-and-done' deal in his mind

★ Allergic to certain types of flowers, but put him in a setting with enough of them and you'll get a reaction (aka: Waterfall wishes that scene had an allergic twist, and you know what? in my mind it does <3)

★ Not actually that prone to sickness, but when he goes down he goes down hard (and Noe will always catch it too, despite how careful they both try to be)

★ Will somehow play up every single symptom for attention, and also feign ignorance when presented with any genuine concern. A mixture of "I'b dyigggg-" and "I'b fide, shud ub." At the same time. And yes, this does get unbelievably irritating, and honestly... that's kinda the point </3

★ Cannot stand having a fever around other people, which is part of the reason he hates getting sick so often. He's quite prone to them~

Noe:

☆ Compulsive blesser, and this applies to himself as well. The only time he might miss a blessing is if he's offering an 'excuse me' instead

☆ Yes, he even blesses in the midst of battle, much to Vanitas's utter infuriation (and being around him so much, Vanitas has slipped up a few times and offered his own blessing. Noe adores this, Vanitas despises it~)

☆ Doesn't have an actual allergies (which pisses Vanitas off) but does have a few vampire-specific sensitives, as well as... I kinda love the idea of like- if he's reading a memory where someone felt certain... sensations... he feels them too?~

☆ While he doesn't have allergies, he does get sick quite often. Which Vanitas finds utterly insufferable, similiar to anything this poor man does <3 because you're a VaMpIre?!?! How are you this WEAk???

☆ Noe will always get sick if Vanitas does, but the opposite doesn't apply. While it's more than likely Vanitas will catch it too, there have been a few cases he doesn't. Noe however? Poor lad has not evaded a single illness one of his friends has befallen

☆ While he's not allergic, his nose is still sensitive, especially to touch. Feathers, flowers, even just a finger, all will work wonders when gently brushed against his delicate bridge or flaring nostrils~

☆ He's fairly similar to Vanitas in the illness department, at least in of that he will complain, a bit of a whining mess, but will still insist on coming along to every adventure

☆ Where he differes is that he won't deny any of the symptoms, and will openly admit how unwell he feels, just refuses that to be a valid reason not to join

☆ He's quite clingy when feeling unwell, and was genuinely surprised to find how much attention Vanitas will, albeit begrudengly, give him

☆ Domi has a specific gesture she does when he feels unwell, running her hands along his hair, down this cheeks, along his neck, and up the bridge of his nose. She learned it from Louis. Vanitas sees her doing it one night, and notices the way neither of them can quite seem to meet the other's eye. He never says a word, but the next time Noe's down with a vicious fever, he's surprised to feel the same familiar touch, despite Domi being far away on business. They never speak of it

☆ Canonically he has trouble sleeping if he isn't holding onto something, so... ofc this means that he's prone to waking up with a fit into his pillow, or whatever unfortunate victim he's currently clinging onto when sick~

A Few Scenarios:

✦ The flower scene, but Vanitas is a bit more allergic than he'd like to admit. Who will be the first to notice? Or, will he be be able to hide it at all? There's more important things to focus on, for all of them, and yet... maybe this is the perfect change to take care of something they can fix~

✦ The Day Noe Found Out About Vanitas's Perfume Allergy: aka, they attend a fancy party, but Noe notices Vanitas often sneaking off. More than that, he's acting weird. Quieter than usual. Noe confronts him, and Vanitas brushes it off, but... are- are his shoulders shaking? Is he... crying..?? Nope, turns out he's sneezing, these... little squeaks that seem to be doing nothing to satiate the ever-growing tickle. Jeez, even Noe's eyes are watering at this point. Time for a little intervention

✦ Noe gets sick for the first time, and Vanitas learns that his bodyguard may need a little guarding of his own. (Cue some chaos, some caretaking, and some comfort. Turns out Vanitas isn't as cold as he may come acrross, at least, not when he's certain Noe won't remember it in the morning~)

✦ Every. Single. Time. Noe. Sneeze. It. Scares. Vanitas. And you know what? Maybe it's time for a little payback. (aka: Vanitas tries to induce Noe, figuring if he has to be freaked out, and embarrassed, well... he should get to have some fun too. Backfires splendidly, turns out even when he's the cause, the volume is still enough to make Vanitas jump. Cue some playfully annoyed banter~)

Aaaaand if you made it to the end of this, well... sorry for the essay, but I hope this was worth the wait!! And that you can enjoy at least some of it~ I've not been in the writing mindset lately, but I do hope to get around to these boys someday, they just... they need some sneeziness, they just do <3

#waterfallasks #waterfall snzarios #waterfall snzcanons #waterfallrambles #by god i put so MANY words in this ahahaha #I'm?? so sorry?? ackhgak~ #but hopefully it's welcome!! god i need to rewatch this show now ahaha~

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Do you think the way some of us feel when someone says "Bless you" when you're coughing/hiccupping (etc) is the same way people feel when someone says "good girl/boy" for doing a task correctly?

Like that uncomfortable 'try to be a normal human being about this situation because they don't mean anything/understand what they've done'

#waterfallrambles #might delete this later because its just such a random/dumb thought but #my friend was complaining that older men say 'good girl' to her in a casual way of praise #and shes like.... n-no... please no.... #and then in call i coughed and someone went “bless you!” and i felt my soul leave my body #and idk guys it just feels like the same thing as she described- #feel free to tell me if you agree!! Or if i'm just nuts- haha~

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lil waterfall life update~ (not snz, hope that's okay <3)

Finally moved into my own apartment!!~

First time living on my own, and while things will still be a bit hectic for a couple weeks of settling in/friend flying in to visit, soon things should calm down and I'll have my own space~~

I'm absolutely ecstatic for this, for a variety of reasons, but mostly having a space that's all mine!!~

#waterfallrambles #it still feels slightly unreal hahaha #literally making this post the minute after my mother left me alone here for the first time #so ive JUST moved in #im just ajdsiokgjlmhj AHHH!!! ^-^ #anyways this means hopefully soon ill be able to start getting back into making content~~~ #(and maybe even ordering.... the powder itself...) #(was always too scared to do that in my parents house hahaha~) #ANYWAYS hope its ok to put this here im just so excited hehe~ #feel free to ignore <3

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Oddly specific thoughts time~

Walking around during a summer night. It's still light enough that you can make your way around, warm enough to be comfortable, but without the sweltering heat. It's peaceful, and private, and it would be the perfect way to relax. If it wasn't for the nagging itch beginning to spread down your throat. Unfortunately, the lack of heat does not equal a lack of pollen.

So now you're walking around, fingers gripped against your nose. It's the middle of the night, what if you wake someone by sneezing?!

All you gotta do- hn'chh! is make it- en'chxt! home before- dnxchh! b- before... hH'ETCHHUH-!

#waterfallrambles #waterfall snzarios #welcome to 'way too specific and ridiculous thoughts that live in my head' #personally i love nighttime walks #they feel so peaceful and free #but im ALWAYS thinking about not being too loud #and while THIS situation hasn't occurred #it's been on my mind~~

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lil waterfall rant you can completely ignore~

I hate when you've been working on something for days, and you feel like it's going well, putting in a lot of effort...

then you sit back and look at it and go huh. this is awful.

buuuuuuut you can't stop doing it now because you've wasted days, so you just need to keep trying to finish it despite knowing you can't make it good enough for your own standards, let alone anyone elses~

le sighhhhhh perfectionism things

#waterfallrants #waterfallrambles #feel free to ignore this im just having a ~time~ #may delete later but rn im just ventin a lil #hope thats forgivable <3

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Finally managed to order a copy of Stormbringer!!!!

Won't arrive till like... April 16, but given I couldn't find it at all before, that's a timeline I can be thrilled about!!~

#waterfallrambles #more like waterfall SCREECHES I'm so excited you have no idea #finally!!! FINALLY!!! gonna understand chuuya's backstory!!! #and meet some characters ive heard so much about #im honestly just sitting here internally screeching because!!! AHHHH!!!! #only took like almost a year but once the store restocked i bought it INSTANTLY #cant wait to have it on my shelves ToT #not snz

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random lil chaos thoughts- thinking about how sometimes people say "oh that sneeze doesn't match you at all!" or "wow you can really hear their voice in that"

Thinking about a group of friends playing a game (or some sort of game show-), where one person at a time is selected, and then a collection of sneezes is played, and people have to guess which sneeze belongs to that person.

Or, alternatively, each participant submits their sneeze, gets the whole collection, and must assign each one to a person~

#waterfall snzarios #i think sort of??? #anyways this is just something i thoguht about #might write it with a lil ensemble from an anime but like- #idk its kinda weird and insane and chaotic but i also kinda love it???? #waterfallrambles #anyways this is just a lil chaos thought im throwing out into the void haha~

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Okay so I just started watching L/ife L/essons with U/ramichi O/niisan... and this show is so good.

Like it's hilarious, so well done with adult humour/pessimistic views, but mixed with this upbeat children's show vibe (since that's where they work)~

Anyways I'm posting this because there's been a CANON ------ for my favourite character and uh... I might have to write something about it because I'm starting to get insane about this show.

ALSO ADDING ON CANONICALLY: "I heard he's caught a fever easily ever since he was a little kid." and.... yes <3

#waterfallrambles #not entirely sure why im posting it here #honestly i think its so that when i do write this show there was some sort of warning #just- HE GETS SICK GUYS!!! and its only one snz but hes SICK #and my GOD i was expecting this to just be a 'haha funny' type of show but im feeling #feelings. for these guys. specifically one of them like no promises im gonna write anything SOON #(or at all because im pretty sure ONLY i would be interested in it) #but like i am having the ~Thots TM~ so im putting this here #feel free to ignore it hahaha~

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Little mostly positive waterfall ramble/rant under the cut~ (warning, I do swear a lil haha~ and feel free to ignore ofc!~)

Finally got the dumb panic-induced false confidence nerve to tell one of my only two in-person (well, one province over, but USED to be in person till earlier this year) friends about The Kink. I've told a handful of internet friends before, but never an actual real life friend I might have to see in person one day.

He actually took it really well, my other irl friend (of 15 years, his girlfriend, known him only about 3-4) would not want to know, we just don't have that type of relationship, she doesn't have that comfort level, but me and him have always been able to have deep and honest talks~

I was. Honestly scared out of my fucking mind. We were in call, but I typed the messsage and then IMMEDIATELY deafened until he read it, but once I got back we had a good talk, he asked a few questions, we made a few jokes, and overall the mood didn't change at all.

I'm honestly always so worried people will think I'm getting off to them sn--zing every time... or anyone else who does... which, ofc, just isn't how it works, but he didn't even consider that. (and made a few joking-yet-honest comments that even if I did get off to him snzing, he wouldn't honestly care. Which knowing him, is completely true~)

Anyways, this is a bit of a random/personal thing to post, but I've been so deeply ashamed of this part of me for so long, and then only recently started feeling more comfortable, and I've been toying/struggling with the idea of telling him for almost a year now, so to finally do it, and get such a good response... honestly it just feels so good. I don't think anything's gonna change in our dynamic, or get weird in any way, and that fills me with so much relief. (and yes, he knows I have a tumblr, but he promised not to search for it thank GOD)

#waterfallrants #waterfallrambles #waterfallpersonal #thats not a tag but now it is! because this is my blog! and i can do! what i want! #actively using it as a journal at this point but you know what i dont care #im out of my mind right now- literally just got off call my heart is POUNDING #but he took it so well and was like 'oh- that's it??' #the only time he was like 'woah what thats a bit weird' was when i told him how long ive felt this way (since lil child) #but otherwise he was so supportive (in his own 'makes jokes about it but gives genuine comfort with them' way) #and honestly it feels. so refreshing?? that now he.... i guess TRULY knows me?? like- knows this side of me. knows ME me #idk guys please feel free to ignore this honestly might even delete it later idk but im just kinda exhausted in a good way #it was a good talk (liek we always have) and im honestly not sure why i was even so worried in the first place ToT

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WIP List

A lil WIP list to keep track of projects~ If you've requested anything and you want to know if I'm working on it, or have seen it, or just want to see what projects might be upcoming, here's the list for that!

(It's not a guarantee I'll finish everything on this list, but if there's ever a certain project you really want to see, feel free to shoot me an ask or message and just say 'hey! I'd like to see this!' and I'll see what I can do)

Requests (think 2k or less words):

Mushitarou for Poni (outlined)

Anyone I'd Like (Akutagawa) for Anon (slight outline)

List of Prompts/Requests for/from Poni

Soukoku (Chuuya) for Anon

Kyu <3 for Poni!!!!

A selection of requests for Soukoku from Anon

Yuji for Anon

Fyodor (feat. Dazai) for Anon

Other Fics (think 3k or over words):

Buddy Daddies 3/3 Completion (outlined)

(request) Mushitarou feat. Poe and Ranpo for Poni (outlined)

(request) Tamaki feat. Mirio and Aizawa for Anon

The Tissue Saga - BSD thingy inspired by dms (slight outline)

Soukoku Angst + Snz because I want to (outline)

Prompted by -this post- Soukoku thing (started!)

Mushi/Ranpo/Poe idea/post suggestion from Poni (outlined)

Mushiran/poe idea/post suggestion for Poni (slight outline)

Chuuya + Akutagawa (ft Mori) lil thing (slight outline)

Hotwings Prompts To Flush Out

lil lurker Dazai prompt

Wavs/Art (still quite new to these~):

Shinsou Wav (Script Writing In Progress)

Dazai Wav Request for Anon

Geto/Gojo Wav Request for Anon

Pro Hero Deku Wav Request For Anon

Megumi (adult) Wav Request For Anon

Teasing Partner Wav (rough, ROUGH recording, might scrap)

Collection Of Digital Art Ideas

Personal Projects: (Mostly just for me but I may post them if I get the motivation/interest hahaha~)

Angsty TDDK thing with minimal snz (started)

A Fyodor (+ Sigma) idea I'm not quite sure how/what to do with

Creating/Playing with my OC's (ongoing)

A & B Scenario Ask that I'd like to either wav or write~

#waterfallrambles #updated to be a little 'keeping track' thing #so im removing the tags but comments will remain from the original #will i get to all of it? maybe #but i'll definitely try to get to as much as i can~

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BSD Spoilers (for new episode AND manga)

I'm.... I can't.... this is..... I.... BUT!??!?!?!

1)- They had better not go off the manga for the next episode. I mean.... they have to??? THEY HAVE TO?!?!? But they don't, we do have one chapter left, but it's so recent they'd have to be animating as we speak? Which I guess they can do....

2)- I didn't think they'd.... catch up so fast.... god I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready to see that oh my fucking god are you serious???? ARE YOU SERIOUS- I can't do it.

3)- The voice acting in this was... heartbreakingly amazing. Dazai's switch from low and in control to the scream of pain, and back again to try and convince Chuuya- my heart!?! Fyodor having the breakdown, and then Sigma when he reads everything.

4)- The ANIMATION was beautiful as well. It captured everything I needed it to and so much that I somewhat wish it hadn't. Dazai's body... shaking with each.... the frames where he GOT shot... 'Chuuya, come to your senses. Our fate will not end in a place like this'. The way they got his expressions....

5)- Stone me if you will, but I'm a dub enjoyer. I just am. It's easier for me to get into the story when I don't have to read the words to know what's happening. And besides that, I adore Kaiji's voice. All the dub VA's are gonna be great but... hearing Kaiji do.... that part... is gonna end me forever.

6)- The Aya 'father!' moment really tore at my heart more than I thought it would. I'm already emotional (and WAS already emotional) but that hit so deep.

All in all I am in tears and I don't think I'll ever recover. Please I am begging you Asagiri, I NEED DAZAI TO LIVE!!! I'm not gonna put all the theories, Poni wrote those out wonderfully and I'll reblog that in a minute but I am gonna say that if this is how Soukoku ends. If this is the pain that Chuuya will have to carry with him.... I'll actually never be okay again.

Time to go watch edits that make me question my sanity even more than I already am <3

#waterfallrambles #bsd spoilers #bungou stray dogs spoilers #not snz #i actually cant do this guys i just watched that with my own eyes and i dont know how to breathe anymore #i have chills and tears and i feel feverish from that like i dont know #how do people exist??? how do people 'consume a heartbreaking media and keep existing' #nothing will ever be okay again <3

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omg just got my first bot goin straight into messages and uh- yeah not super fond of that!

but also the... the amount of emojis, and the way they use this small-big text... it's literally so funny to me. at least it's obvious they're a bot!! but still feel a little ick about it haha (picture under readmore bc the emojis are sending me)

#waterfallrambles #literally like babe what you arent even following me #but im very glad they're OBVIOUSLY a bot so i can delete #but the choice. of emojis. the black hearts??? gotta respect that #love me some black hearts. and the purple and blue? like strong choices #and the 'you here' in the SAME message pfffffff