#im just so tired of it

[notimeforlaugh]

please no discourse no more, guys!

just kiss each other on the lips already and get over it!

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #im just so tired of it #lets just hold hands and hug and maybe kiss #like we all enjoy the server #lets also enjoy each others company and make it a pleasent experience for one another #(and maybe kiss)

[nudibutch]

im back and less pissed off. but anon is still off. so yall better not act stupid.

#im just so tired of it

[djemsostylist]

Okay, so controversial opinion, but the Peter Jackson Lord of the Rings movies were absolutely terrible. Particularly as adaptations. Like, completely butchered characters and theme in every way that mattered. But they also played a huge role in my childhood/teens, and it makes me feel some type of way.

Like many, I was young when the LotR movies came out, and like many, they fill me with warm feelings of nostalgia. I still feel something when I hear the Breaking of the Fellowship, I still feel soft when I hear Concerning Hobbits. I still love Arwen's dresses, and the Ride of the Rohirrim still gives me a rush. That Jackson pulled off something previously thought undoable goes without saying. And many of the elements were fantastic. The costumes, most of the armor, many of the set pieces, the music. Watching Fellowship will always make me feel warm.

But that doesn't excuse the fact that, no matter how warm and safe those movies make you feel, they were terrible adaptations. The mere fact that they didn't include the Scouring of the Shire shows that they completely misinterpreted the entire theme and purpose of the story. Add to that making Aragorn and Gandalf the main characters (they gave Aragorn this entirely weird and unnecessary story arc because he didn't really have one in the books, which is like yeah, because he is not the main character and we are already at the end of his story), the fact that they spent the entirety of the Two Towers on Helm's Deep and the way they turned most of the "creeping horror" scenes into "let's drop 80 billion skulls from the ceiling bc it's spooky right" and I'd argue it's hard to disagree that the films pretty much butchered LotR.

Now, bear in mind that I'm not saying you shouldn't like them. I suspect that most people who love them do so for two reason (or both)--either they bring up warm memories of a younger you experiencing the joy of a beloved story come to life on screen and the viewing of them now evokes warm feelings, or it was baby's first fantasy (like the absolutely atrocious Game of Thrones for many a modern watcher) and it was just like wow. Whatever the reason, liking the movies isn't inherently a bad thing. As I've said many a time before--just because you like a bad thing doesn't make it a character flaw against you. But, and this is important, even Tolkien would agree that the Jackson movies were terrible adaptations--and we know this from letters written before his death, where he literally (and perhaps somewhat presciently) described scenes and adaptation choices he disagreed with (many of which mirror choices Jackson made verbatim--for example, he describes one script he read with the Weathertop scene (a near exact replica of Jackson's, only many, many years before) and how it completely butchers the tone and feeling he was trying to evoke. He also says that if pressed for time, removing Helm's Deep would be acceptable, bc it's sort of a skippable battle that could likely just be mentioned in passing to focus on the parts that matter.)

So whether or not you like the trilogy is sort of irrelevant. Your liking of it doesn't mean it was good. And to be clear, I still enjoy watching watching. I found most of his choices (casting, costuming, music) to be solid (though there are a few casting headscratchers) but his characterization is mostly awful, as are his changes. But I would never claim "this feels like Tolkien" because it fundamentally does not. Just read Book 1 of Lord of the Rings, and the difference is already astounding, tonally. And that is to say nothing of the way the themes of the story are sort of universally thrown aside.

But lately the primary comments I have seen from people who ~loved~ Rings of Power are three-fold: either people are haters bc they miss the PJ version of Middle-Earth, people are haters because they are racist incel men, or that haters don't matter bc the good Sir John Tolkien himself would have cried in rapturous glee to see his works so loving captured and beautifully rendered onscreen. And they are all wrong.

Look, are there racists who hate it? I mean yeah I have no doubt, but I'll also say that as someone who has been following this disaster from the get go, I find far more people talking about evil racists than...actual racist remarks. I'm not saying they don't exist (those sort of people certainly do) but I also think it was a way of shutting down haters "people only hate bc they are racist". Are there people who are disappointed that they didn't deep fake Young Huge Weaving a la Tony Stark and make him play younger Elrond whilst hiring a virtually unchanged Cate Blanchett to reprise her role while they flitted around in long wigs and velvet gowns? I'm almost certain.

But by and large, I think people who are "haters" are haters bc either it was crappily done, or are haters because, and this is important, it's not Tolkien. It's a fanfic of a fanfic, and a poorly done one at that. It's an AU if Middle Earth was a DnD land.

Rings of Power (love it or hate) is an abysmal adaptation of Tolkien. And it's not just because they don't have rights to 98% of what they need to make this story viable, it's because once again, they fundamentally do not understand the underlying theme and vibes of Tolkien. Galadriel not being a Commander is important. The Hobbits (I know they are Harfoots, fuck off, they should be Fallowhides anyway per the source material they actually do have the rights to) are not. Gandalf if not even a minor player, Celeborn is a major one. Sauron isn't a spooky serial killer haunting their dreams (although given they have no rights to Annatar I guess Steve the gym rat serial killer was the best choice). Elves keeping humans in permanent open air prison camps for generations never happened. Elrond would not have been dismissed from any council for not being a lord (given, you know, his parentage), Gil-Galad could never have even offered Galadriel a chance to the return to the homeland, and Findrod died in defense of Beren. Also, you know, the second age wasn't about funny sit-com dwarves (a truly bizarre interpretation that everyone loves but I can't figure out where it comes from since Tolkien dwarves are not even close to being comedic buffoons), bird's nest wearing hobbit types, and weirdly blond Elrond being an architect and gal pals with his future mother in law.

So you can like it, it can make you feel all warm and fuzzy and yadda yadda, but please, for the love of god, stop trying to claim it feels like Tolkien. "Oh they used flowerly language" okay, so did Spartacus but I'm not out here claiming that Claudius Glaber made me think about Fingolfin. This is not, and will never be Tolkien. This is an antithesis of quite literally everything he would have imagined for this. Stop trying to justify liking it with fabricated claims. If you like it, like it, but lying to yourself helps no one. I've said this before (and I realize the irony coming on the heels of a post entirely about justifying why I hate something but you know)--not everything has to be justified. Maybe you watched RoP and it made your heart tingle. Maybe you watched it and made you want to vomit. (The latter seems more likely). But Tolkien it aint, and I think that people have a right to feel justifiably upset at what they did to the material, to the fact that this show is clearly a part of a larger Hollywood thinktank designed to print money and generate talking points, and worry about the long term impact on public perception of Tolkien. Because, and again, perhaps this is a controversial opinion, but the vast majority of people are going to know Tolkien via the movies, not the books. I literally know someone who was doing a podcast about their favorite stories and did an entire episode about Lord of the Rings, but only the movies because they had never been able to get through the books. That is a problem because while the books will always be there, public perception and knowledge of them will always be superseded by the alternate public perception. The Jackson Trilogy is proof of that.

#tolkien #rings of power #lord of the rings #lotr #im just so tired of it #and the constant never ending circle of 'stop being negative' no fuck off #the world is literally full of shit generic crap stories written by what i can only assume is an AI designed to spit out hits #and not create stories #it doesn't need another one with tolkien slapped on the name to appeal to audiences that last experienced real theatrical joy 20 years ago #when howard shore made you cry over hobbits

[butchbroodygay]

I guess we all knew it was coming but warrior nun has been cancelled and I don't think I'll recover anytime soon, godspeed dykes until the next one :')

#warrior nun #avatrice #all jokes aside im actually devastated #like truly #i cant even think about it because im so close to crying over this which feels stupid #im so glad that we got them and theyre still some of my favourite characters ever #i just wish we had more time with them #like what does a wlw led show have to do to be renewed #we set records #do twitter campaigns #all for shows with 0 promo #but its never enough #im just so tired of it

[takeyourhands]

maybe its because at least 85% of my suicidal thoughts within the past few years have been specifically centered around it, but personally i find the concept of "the instant you turn eighteen you must let go of all the f/o's who were your age otherwise you are a terrible and disgusting person" a very difficult one to digest.

#i think my yearly birthday meltdown is going to kick in #a whole month later but this shits inevitable for me #the closer i get to adulthood the more simultaneously numb to and horrified by the idea i become #like #god. #you want me to give up my donnie? after hes provided 4 fucking years of safety and security for me? #or miku? or katsuki? or silver? #i just dont know what to do #and when i dont know what to do i get sad #and when i get too sad i can get very bad thoughts #sometimes i feel like my f/os are the only things i can go to #and certain faves are genuinely irreplaceable #i do not have enough fingers to count the amount of times ive seriously considered just. ending it. when i hit eighteen. #and i feel like no one gets that #bc like #the one side is ppl who are adults and started self shipping as adults or minors who end up only shipping with adult characters #and then the other side is fucking. actual freaks and p*dophiles #theres no where i feel like i ''fit in'' or would feel safe being in #god #im just so tired of it #so so tired #i dont know what to do anymore #i dont want to do this anymore #i just want it to stop #vent #vent tw #suicide mention tw #suicide tw

[geeses]

It is truly a sick disturbing joke that I'm allergic to stress

#mast cell activation syndrome #tfw you get anaphylaxis on top of your panic attack that you had because you are in so much physical pain #its fine #im okay #im just so tired of it

[stripesysheaven]

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#suicide mention #suicide tw #chronic pain bad today #worst it’s been in years #im just so tired of it #every time it seems slightly better it always comes back and gets way worse #knowing that it’s going to be like this for the rest of my life #until i die #im so fucking tired #like what’s the fucking point of it #living a life like this #im exhausted #it’s almost worse mentally #the thought of this never going away #couldn’t sleep at all last night bc of it #isn’t helping my mood rn #i know im annoying the people in my life all the time talking about it #i don’t want to be that person that can’t shut up about annoying shit #i just wanna die and get it over with #fuck #tags #my posts

[im-not-a-monster]

considered asking for.tomorrow off but I have Friday off for con and Monday for holiday and I haven't done any fucking work this week so I didn't

#// i fwel like fucking shit like we're all gonna die and no one is going to do anytbing about it #oh thise.kids wrre in tezas of course that hapepned to them. oh the victims were poor or brown or black or queer or #they live in a red state or a shitty neighborhood or wr cant do ANYTHIGN avout GU ns or wh it e suprem a cy or big ots or anythibg #meanwhile on every side we get fucking 'well our country has gu ns and we dont kill everyobe' and #im just so tired of it

[links-abbiegen]

I dont get the fixation gamers have with graphics. Like if a game doesnt look hyper realistic, have 60 fps, raytracing and all that shit its suddenly bad?? Like, really feeling that one sonic meme with the worse graphics rn

#.txt #video games #gaming #Tbh I blame this on people like asmongold #always yapping about how “unplayable” hyper optimised games are #im just so tired of it

[cheruib]

just a girl’s night routine

#just finished step 2. gonna sleep sooooooo well tonight.. im so tired 😴

[discoveryinthedark]

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#im just so tired of it #all of it

[whoisthisguyandwhyishehere]

Man i really hate being a gay trans man

#im so tired honestly #im just so tired of it #cw vent account #cw vent #vent

[randomositycat]

I need a low stress environment SO BADLY right now

NO STRESS

#living with and being forced to raise kids that are NOT YOURS is insanity #why are you the child coming to me the sister when your mother IS RIGHT THERE #im literally not anyone mom #im so tired of playing mother #im tired of being responsible for these kids in any way other than me taking them out and being their guardian #im not babysitting your children's #i live here #leave me the fuck alone #if you need them watched over hire a damn babysitter #i just needed a place to stay because theres no way i can afford to live anywhere #im just so tired of it #so so so tired im tired of my mom treating me like a second parent #when i have told her time and time again i DONT WANT TO #the only reason i do is because all they do is scream at each other and nothing gets fixed and it makes it HELL to live here #i dont want to stand by and watch two children become insufferable idiot adults #all because my mom wont go look for answers on how to raise children #im so mad i could fucking cry

[redabeliz]

I always forget I live in a majority republican, white, racist town and attempt to make friends. 8 times out of 10 I have an interaction that ends with a person saying they're definitely totally completely not any -ist or -phobic followed by an excuse of why they were currently saying gross things such as "I just get mean when I'm tired, it doesn't mean anything."

And every single time, I burst out laughing at the absurdity, and they become very much not tired and incredibly embarrassed or angry at my reaction to the stupidest, somehow most common, excuse these people can give. Then they hit me with the "if I say anything that makes you uncomfortable, just tell me. I have attachment issues and can't stand to lose another friend." Buddy, I've been telling you, and we've spoken twice in two days. A collective 15 whole entire minutes. We are not friends and I do not have the capacity nor capability to make people grow up anymore, especially while being kind to them.

#im just so tired of it #like it was fine when that was my only source of human interaction in the real world back in middle school #but i cant handle that anymore and it just makes me viscerally angry #this specific guys comments and 'jokes' were all completely intentionally racist and misogynistic i get angry just thinking abt it now #didnt matter how much i said how stupid and disgusting the comments were they continued and acted angry when i didnt tell them why #is real life interaction even worth it anymore unless i move

[tawaifeddiediaz]

you know what boils my blood.

over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."

i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.

but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.

today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.

the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.

so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.

#zee rambles #this isn't to guilt trip anyone #but im so so tired of people coming in and just refusing testing because they want to see grandma or whatever #and on top of that people are avoiding vaccinations and all that too?? #we all lived through the pandemic - everyone saw how many people unfortunately passed away from it #now because of vaccinations and some amount of herd immunity we're finding milder cases in healthy people #but that doesn't mean its gone #that doesn't mean it doesn't have long-term repercussions even in healthy people and that doesn't mean people aren't still dying from it #honestly i just needed a lil rant #and if this helps at least one person??? im all for it #also i can't sleep so here we are spilling thoughts into the voidddd

[forestofsprites]

i'm such a friend lover. i genuinely believe that my friends are the coolest funniest loveliest most ridiculously joyous people out there! im biased as hell!! i think theyre all rad! and the universe just so happened to slip all these beloved people into my orbit! and vice versa!! wtf!

#hey guys . im so tired #i just spent a few hours catching up on a show with my beloved friend after months n months . and i feel healed #so healed #i love friends #i love you all #& i love teleparty for allowing these little moments of delight #goodnight :")))) sending little beams of warmth at us all #thoughts