#im getting closer to done

[sotwk]

I stayed up from 1am to 5am, eking out a romantic scene, inch by inch, on my phone.

In the cold light of the work day, I regret nothing. (Until I start dozing off at noon.)

Because the stuff my brain cooks up in the dead of the night slaps!

#sotwk rambles #writing update #im getting closer to done #buzzing in my own hype and excitement #sotwk fic: taken #writer stuff #fanfic #fanfiction #fanfic writing

[wigglepiggle]

flashbacks to when I thought veluza was a paradox barraskewda then i got to the water gym and the gym leader kept yelling LEAPING VELUZA!!! and I didn't understand how he knew what it was and then he sent one out and I was more confused

#anyways im playing scarlet again #im getting closer to done #2 gym and star badges and 1 herb #left #actually maybe 3 gym badges idk i gotta check #yeah 3 i remember #ice ghost and psychic i think #hyper voice #pokemon #pokemon sv

[delicourse]

fall but blue

#jolyne cujoh #jojo's bizarre adventure #stone ocean #jjba #deliart #a simpler palette i think. i like it a lot actually #ALSO was gonna try to post this version inbetween other artworks but im posting it now so it dont look like i posted once an #d immediately bailed. gone for months #im just still in color palette adjustment purgatory #but new artwork will have a bird yayyy #i wanna be more productive but all ive done is sleep. so much #im gonna have to literally Seek Help. i swear if its vitamin deficiency im gonna be embarrassedddd #like oohhhhh im one centimeter closer to the polar circle i cant get enough vit d anymoreeee oghhhh my body is decayingg. Cringe!

[t1koy-roll]

Parallel

#spiderman across the spiderverse #okay gamers i kinda fell into a brief bout of insanity over atsv subtext #for anyone that actually knows about superior spiderman: do you. do you get what im talking about. #i cant be the only one who thinks that everything that miguel has done is actually closer to otto than miguel. #atsv #across the spiderverse #spiderman into the spiderverse #spiderman #spiderverse #spiderman 2099 #miguel o'hara #superior spider man #otto octavius #peter b parker #my art

[torsamors]

Harry Kim x Voyager and ‘Home’

quote sources + notes under the cut

Chelsea Dingman, from "Psychogeography," published in The Los Angeles Review / Longing Poem by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe / James Baldwin, Giovanni's Room / Joy Harjo, from “We Must Call a Meeting,” In Mad Love and War / James Baldwin, Giovanni’s Room / Joan Bauer - Almost Home / James Baldwin, Giovanni’s Room / Clementine von Radics, ‘Courtney Love Prays To Oregon / Samuel Beckett, Waiting for Godot / Fatimah Asghar, from “How'd Your Parents Die Again?” / Naguib Mahfouz / Louise Glück, The Triumph of Achilles / Brandon Melendez, ‘How to Write Heisenberg’s Uncertainty Principle into a Promise to Return Home

Purple highlight refers to Non-Sequitur, pink refers to Favorite Son, Yellow refers to Deadlock, green refers to Emanations and red refers to Timeless.

#voyager #star trek #harry kim #star trek voyager #web weaving #timeless #non sequitur #so. hi. can we all talk about harry’s home becoming voyager and the farther along we get in the series the closer he gets to having to leave #this home. voyager is like. his origin story hes always trying to get back…. #voy #st #parallels #** #i feel so normal abt him<3 (lying im lyingggg) #im in early s5 rn so like who knows what im missing these were just the eps n scenes i thought to look into #maybe i will add or do a part two once the shows done. #anyway rory you were so right abt harry kim i Get It Now

[g0nefischin]

Fallen down

#my art #my utmv art #westerntale #western au #undertale au #I havent uploaded any westerntale stuff in ages #I got busy but ive been working on it a little bit behind the scenes #Im getting closer to being done with the biggest ref sheet ever omg #think i may finish half of it and upload that and work on the rest later #also undertale yellow came out and i just heard about it and it sounds amazing #Im still a little new to undertale au stuff so i wasnt aware of the demo that was allready around #my wishes for western undertale stuff have been answered #I want to finish the ref sheet before i play it but im definitely gonna check it out #ive seen a few of the characters from fan stuff and it looks RAD AS HELL #so once i finish this all up ill check it out #utmv

[m-kyunie]

"The supposedly sealed memories of a miniature garden"

#dgm #d.gray-man #alma karma #kanda yuu #okay im going to word vomit my concept abt this apologies in advance #anyw ik Wisely gives the opportunity to mind-read/access memories like we see in the 3rd exorcist arc #but i think Road wldve been another interesting choice. i rlly like the concept of dream n its used a lot in that arc #we see a lot fo Kanda's original life within his dreams and illusions which is Road's specialty #just like constructing this false reality idk I've talked abt the idea of Kanda being put to sleep many times before but never properly #inspection style like idk maybe they still look like kids running in this like. perfect place that illusion of the word that Alma read abou #Allen waddling through a lake's worth of lotus with Road instead of the labs! #idk...........some parts are so deep he falls in and those r pockets of memories u know bc i still want that #and the deeper and closer he gets the water gets murky and red #u know bc im cool and love cheesy symbolism #I want Allen to bargain with Alma and Alma to just be like. sweet and charming and laugh it off until Allen gets to the root of the problem #WAIT U KNOW IN LIKE SAILOR MOON WHEN THE SCOUTS DIE (that is not a spoiler i promise) and they're wrapped in thorns? #I wanna draw that w Kanda....deep under the water #but he has to want to wake up from that dream. I'm playing off the fact that Allen had to punch him to snap him outta it #anyway....im done its okay

[rubidimum]

im trying to think of more aus for the bees/wr/rwby but i can't decide so thought id make a poll

#rwby #blake belladonna #yang xiao long #ruby rose rwby #bumbleby #whiterose #im still working on a cowboy au comic but its getting closer to being done #digital art #weiss schnee

[newspecies]

HI this is my thousand word ramble about Rocky and his relationship with other characters and my thoughts in general. I'm normal about Lackadaisy I promise.

Calvin

Calvin and Rocky are cousins that grew up together, with Rocky being 5 years older. The mini comics all make it seem like he spent most of his time there and later he says “it was home more than home was.” (Lackadaisy Breakdown). The cousins wrote to each other while Rocky was traveling around and Calvin kept them all inside a box instead of throwing them away. Aunt Nina tells Rocky "[Calvin]'s the only one in all o’ creation who'd follow you" (Lackadaisy Somersault) so they're clearly extremely close. Calvin lies to his mother several times to keep Rocky out of trouble, even when it's about something illegal. Despite his moral compass and the fact that he almost went into law enforcement, he's working with Lackadaisy and regularly shooting at people presumably just because Rocky wants him to (and because Ivy's there... but in the beginning it was for Rocky). They strike me as having more of a sibling relationship than a cousin one due to growing up so close.

Aunt Nina

Nina does not have a very high opinion of Rocky and she makes this very clear. She trusts him not to get Calvin into too much trouble but she doesn't let him stick around when he stops by. He’s under no illusions that he’s welcome at her house (Lackadaisy Somersault) and he tells Ivy that “[his face]’s only abided in small doses” at Nina’s house. He starts telling Ivy there was a small family tragedy and "it had an author... and with already ink-stained hands, i signed my name on it" which means that something bad happened and he either was to blame or took the blame and that is the reason he left Missouri, "so time could dull my fresh reminder face." (Lackadaisy Breakdown). My guess is that this family tragedy had something to do with his mother because his father was alive at least a little bit after he left because he was sending letters and stopped (Lackadaisy Correspondence) his mother is only mentioned once, in Lackadaisy Breakdown, described as “chasing Red Death” Red Death is not a real sickness and its instead from Edgar Allen Poe’s The Masque of the Red Death. This could mean that his mother had some sort of bloody sickness. My guess is tuberculosis. It was one of the biggest causes of death in the early 1900’s and one of its most well known symptoms is coughing up blood. Sorry this is supposed to be about Nina and I kind of went off the rails there. Anyway I don’t think Nina hates Rocky at all; she still does his laundry and lets him visit and lets him drag Calvin around. But she doesn’t trust him and makes sure he knows that.

Mitzi

Some people seem to think Rocky has a crush on Mitzi, and him threatening Wick certainly gives the impression but I heavily disagree and I think he sees her more as a mother figure. He clearly looks up to her and seeks her approval constantly; he goes out while extremely injured and hiding that injury from her (Lackadaisy Deliria) presumably because he realizes that the pig farmers' attack on Lackadaisy was his fault and he really wants to fix it. His behavior towards Wick strikes me more as a child really not wanting a step parent. As the audience, I know that Wick is basically incapable of evil (he has killed once and it was a duck and it still haunts him) and Mitzi is the one taking advantage of their relationship, but from Rocky's perspective Mitzi is just an innocent widow looking for companionship and Wick is a weird rich sleazeball. I honestly don't think Rocky is aware of Mitzi's own sleaziness, and if he is he’s ignoring it to the best of his ability. but Mitzi likes having Rocky around. Every time she's upset over something and Rocky starts joking around she immediately starts smiling more (Lackadaisy Proposition, Lackadaisy Haggersnash). She’s undeniably fond of him, despite his many shenanigans.

Mordecai

Okay this one is a little bit more out there. “But Rotten!” You may argue, “Rocky doesn’t actually know Mordecai! They only interact like once outside the mini comics!” Yes dear reader but consider this: they have so many parallels. They are opposites on the surface; Rocky is silly, Mordecai is serious. But looking closer they have a few things in common. Mainly: TRAINS!!!!!!!!! They both have recurring train motifs and it makes me insane. For Mordecai he met Atlas on a train (Lackadaisy Thaumaturgy), and for Rocky he has a drawing of one on one of the letters he sent to Calvin (Lackadaisy Correspondence) and he said his father worked on the railroad (Lackadaisy Breakdown). In relation to the trains, they both left home at a young age and wrote letters home. They also both seem to have a habit of gaining enemies; when Atlas met Mordecai he was running from people (Lackadaisy Bookkeeper) and Rocky’s… everything makes making enemies extremely easy for him. These two have PARALLELS and I need everyone to know!!!!!

Rocky

This last section is about Rocky himself! First off, to state the obvious: Rocky is extremely impulsive, he doesn’t seem to think about the consequences of his actions whatsoever and it gets him into all sorts of trouble all the time. He’s not oblivious though; in Lackadaisy Posterity he immediately jumps to the conclusion that he ruined something, he just didn’t remember it. Rocky puts on a show of being confident and sure of himself but the moment his walls are torn down in the Posterity and Breakdown pages he’s calling himself a horrible person. He is extremely aware of how other people feel about him; even though his exclamation of “they tolerate me” in Lackadaisy Palaver is framed as a joke, it feels pretty real. A lot of people don’t like Rocky and he knows this. I don’t remember where I was going with this. Just know that I’m obsessed with Rocky and I’m thinking about him always.

In conclusion

#rot.txt #lackadaisy #rocky rickaby #i probably made an extremely embarrassing spelling or grammar mistake somewhere in here. ignore it please? #im so glad im done with this i kept getting distracted and working on this instead of school work #rip my essay for ap lang you kind of suck </3 #aaaanyway. i hope this is slightly comprehensible. im normal about fictional cats i promise. come closer

[good-beanswrites]

I mentioned this in the AO3 comments, but:

What does Fuuta think about how Es treated Amane at the end of her interrogation? (Still not completely sure what happened)

And in trial 2, what does he think now that Kotoko has joined the ranks of "people who have been hit by Es" while he has not? (And Amane, if she didn't already count)

Yessss thank you :3 I always enjoy LCSyS questions (even if I take forever to reply to comments and things LMAO) Though, some details apply outside of the au too

Well. I don’t know if it really needs to be said for Fuuta, but yeah, he is pissed 😅 Even if she wasn’t directly hit, he would be just as riled up that she was treated so roughly. (Ah, I’m once again tempted to write up my mv machine post, but) basically I picture the machine itself locking the prisoner in place with sudden restraints. There were reactions of shock and fear, as if it were affecting them immediately,  and prisoners like Fuuta and Muu would definitely run from it if they could. So I believe that moment in Amane’s first interrogation is just Es standing over her and rubbing it in. There’s no direct harm, but the fact that they are so smug about her helplessness is just as psychologically painful. 

I don’t know if Amane would really go into detail about her interrogation (the others who were hit seem the type to come right out and say it), but she mentions it during the trial hiatus debriefing. Fuuta is furious: “why didn’t you say something sooner?? I would have kicked their ass right then and there!” His outburst is the very reason she doesn’t tell him that she was hit in T2. She knows he’ll get himself into more trouble, and she feels pressured to bear it on her own. She ends up pulling him aside and telling him during the second hiatus. He has to tone down his explosion a bit to focus on comforting her more than cursing Es. Though I don’t know exactly what will happen, the knowledge that she was hit drives him to stand by her side in T3 and defend her every chance he gets, affecting whatever changes we already are getting hints of.

He feels equally upset when Kotoko mentions getting hit, and Kotoko's nonchalance allows him to do a full rant. She doesn’t seem that phased, and admits it makes sense they would have an extreme reaction to her violence. She says that she deserved it, and Fuuta of all people stumbles over his words to tell her that she didn’t – violence does not deserve more violence. (He’s learning, folks!) In the privacy of his own thoughts, the poor guy is mortified. He would be grateful if he didn't keep comparing himself with the others who didn't get hit. “Do I look as fragile and girly as Yuno, Muu, and Mahiru?” “Do they not see me as a threat?” “Do they pity me or something?” He makes up his mind to be a big, manly threat in T3 and be taken seriously enough to get hit. (He can only learn so much at a time, folks.)

#milgram #lights camera sing your sins #thanks for the question! im glad you asked on here too because i probably wouldve held back on ao3 #also right after im done posting these i am sitting down and writing my mv machine post!!! no one else will care but i keep wanting to!!! #outside of the au fuuta would think kotoko getting hit Was deserved but i think hed think twice about it #hes starting to pick up on the whole cycles of violence thing: es hurting kotoko for hurting fuuta for hurting killcheroy who was doing har #but he cant fathom why amane gets caught up in all of this and hes LIVID #it draws him closer to her even without the religious aspect #they both just want to protect the other in the way they think is best :') #and yeah even in canon i think kotoko isnt too phased by the hit -- her language is force after all #she may not think she deserves it per se but she respects es for showing their power like she did #and hey who knows! maybe fuuta comparing himself against the girls is what finally kicks off her transition <3 #fuuta kajiyama #amane momose #kotoko yuzuriha

[cosmicrhetoric]

this morning has been so laughably crazy LOL

#couldnt get shit to work on the day of a big work release so i drove an hour into the office and didnt tell my team #bc they live way closer than i do and have shown up when ive done this before #and maybe i should have i just didnt want them to also come in #but then as i am getting my shit done the guy im waiting for a call from WALKS IN and sees me in office and well #we get what needs to be done done but now im like god my coworkers are going to be like why didnt you say you were coming in WE wouldve come #and i dont know how to say that i didnt say anything cause im wearing jeans and flip flops this was supposed to be an in and out situation #i fr thought no one would be here #well. im stuck now lol #i shouldnt have worn sandals

[basilibino]

Season 8 was like 6 years ago(I feel old) and I know ppl have differing opinions on the Mr Echo thing (but it was intended, made it to storyboard and blocked animation and then dropped, soooo) but. I can see his recruitment p easily tbh. Bc the whole reason Dr J was in that lighthouse was because he was resurrected, forced there, and ordered to build Skulkin vehicles by Samukai. But Samukai in the flashback we see has already been deposed as leader of the Skulkin/Underworld. Which means the orders to do so most likely came from Garmadon.

And since Mr. E is one of the head honchos, he's likely an early arrival to the team, so I don't think Harumi has a whole lot figured out at this point, she's just got her Trauma and some Bad Influence Friends and an obsession with Lord Garmadon. So. Like. Plausible deniability road trip that she's just visiting important markers of Ninjago's recent past, all of which involve Lord Garmadon in some meaningful way; its sightseeing, its cathartic, and it gives her time to develop her dream Motorcycle Gang/Resurrection Cult. She's not looking for anyone at the Lighthouse, but she is looking for vehicle blueprints so she can be the Koolest leader on the block. But oops she looks in the basement and there's an Echo.

And she's flipping out bc??? A Ninja???? In the Lighthouse basement??? I mean it makes sense that it would be this one but???

Except this rusty old robot has no idea what she's talking about with this Ninja stuff, he's just waiting for his dad to come back.

And Harumi pauses.

Because how long has he been waiting? He's not sure, he had no proper way to measure time in the basement, and he doesn't have the best view of his clockwork heartpiece. But it was after his father saw a strange ship docking; Echo was worried it was the People who had locked up his father in the first place, but instead his dad sounded happy when he saw whoever was out there. It could have been a front, though, as clearly it was never safe to let Echo back out. Then Dr J popped down briefly, while everyone above was resting, to tell Echo he was desperately needed elsewhere, that it wasn't safe to bring Echo, but that he'd be back in no time.

And the pieces are fitting together for Harumi. And she's like. Your dad's dead, bro.

And he's like. What? Did he die doing what was needed of him?

And she's like. Oh, no. He died a few years later.

And he's like. Why didn't he come back for me????

And she's like. Probably because they kept him away.

And he's like. Who's they?

And she's like. The Ninja I was talking about earlier.

And it surely can't be hard in universe to find pictures of Zane and Dr J post s2-pre s3, so she pulls one up and shows Echo who is freaking out bc why is that one kind of like him and Harumi explains that that was the droid his father created first, that he became a Ninja, and that hes probably the one who took their father away and kept echo waiting for years.

But Echo has doubts, shocked as he is abt a new older brother, he wants to believe the good in the situation so he's unsure. But Harumi mentions that the Ninja's failures to uphold more than their self preservation/interests has led to uncountable losses and devastation in Ninjago time and time again, before delving into her own story. And she seems so kind, and so hurt, and I do think there's a genuine connection btwn these two that forms from this shared emotional torment that they decide came from the Ninja, and now Echo is more receptive.

And then Harumi gets to start her Garmadon pitch because wait! If Echo was made here, then that could only have happened because of Lord Garmadon. And she reiterates that he's the reason she and her city could have even survived The Great Devourer. And maybe Echo's family-by-creation left, maybe they were untrustworthy and lacking, but that's OK bc if you look at it all a certain way, Garmadon is more of a father to Echo than Dr J was. And Echo is a vulnerable, overwhelmed mess who just found out his dad fucked off for years without him and also died, and also he has a brother??? Who their dad clearly seems to have favored??? Did they even know about Echo??? Did they delight in their life free of him???

Basically. Kinda Spinel-core but getting abandoned and left completely alone does that to you. Especially when the first person to find you after being abandoned is a deeply hurt and misguided teen who is probably kinda desperate for someone, anyone else to see the Ninja the way she sees them.

#i was thinking abt the idea of citrusshipping #and how it could have flowed into Mr Echo. with morro as the vengeful influence tinting these #one sided experiences to associate ninja with loss #but theni was like 'wait a sec tho bc Harumi does that also and its her gang called the sons of garmadon #and if youre very carfeully squinting and cherrypicking out pesky details and nuance. like harumi would be. #echos existence is thanks to Lord Garmadon. and there is no better replacement dad than garmadon. you should be a son of garmadon. #and echo would probably listen and she could get him out the lighthouse and off the island' #and anyway i kinda ship Harumi and Echo now? #i like citrusshipping its funney but i think i actually ship this dynamic now #its. fucked and manipulative but its also like. genuine and just. two scarred young people and harumi gives echo her distorted view #of the world as the gift of her love #so its like she wasnt trying to manipulate echo. not like she was trying to manipulate Lloyd. #but she did take someone in a v fragile state and begin shaping his worldview to match hers. unconciously but still done. #like i can also see her bringing him to the mainland and she and UV and Killow are his tethers which means everything he sees radicalizes #him further...and draws him in closer to the fold #anyway if he and harumi smoochie kiss then shes why he got rebuilt in Crystallized. also i think mr F stands for 'Mr Fun Guy' #echo zane #harumi jade #ninjago harumi #quietmystery? #idk what the ship name would be but im here for it #mr e ninjago #mr echo #echo/harumi #tbh i said i kinda ship it now but it could also be friendship #sons of garmadon #...ok til abt the morro-echo-harumi trio hcs and Yes #this is just more of a like. canon compliant ish take where morro is still gone from the narrative #love the idea of the 3 in a vengeance trio tho

[echoesofadream]

so many books on my tbr and also so many books i have started but not finished and im thinking about reading dostojevskij instead

#yes it IS to get closer to theo #i felt this way when i read tgf last time too. and read like first 100 pages of the idiot actually but then stopped bc illiteracy etc #but im thinking i should take advantage of this desire to get to know my theo more personally and read some russian literature #just like he in turn read it to get closer to boris #swag #i should! im rlly close to finishing little women #eel book may wait #other books may wait as welll #and the goldfinch will be like my bible now i read it on a whole othr dimension #will keep it on my nightstand and read excerpts for the rest of my life wont stop me from reading other books #that is if i get it for my birthday (doubtful but i will wish for it). i only have the same library copy now as i had in 2019 #(as in i borrowed again didnt steal it from the library promise) i never buy books but if i am to own one it should be this one #i read at a snails pace but want to read so many things this is difficult but lets not stress it should a fun thing not stressful #if i read a little everyday or try to #then 'completing books' and checking them off my list and feeling idk productive/accomplished or something doesnt matter #it will be like a lifelong open book instead #if that makes sense #that ill never be done with #and thats fun

[eldesperadont]

CM PUNK GIRLIES (gn) genuinely need your help, can you send any religious looking Punk photos/moments etc to me - either in dms, as an ask or my email ([email protected]) working on an art project and searching for references,,,

#would appreciate the help cause im getting sick and my deadlines getting closer #its technically the 31st of dec but i wont have time for it from the 17th onward so i wanna get it done beforehand #percht.txt #cm punk

[simcardiac-arrested]

i need to put that stupid meme post on the shelf so bad but like i get it. it's may. Education sucks. i get it. i kinda dont want to be held responsible for my academic obligations for real

#i must give to the people in their time of need. i should not take away their reblogs #But then again....... what have the people ever done for me? spat in my soul and flaunted about how they dropped out and i should too? #all of you fucking bourgeoisie college dropouts #Sorry im talking like harry right now it's because im playinfg disco elysium and he's possessing me #crammerposting #lowkey do get closer every day to turning reblogs off but like i get it i do

[zaynes-left-chesticle]

If this POS didn't take 25 seconds to fly around and light everything on fire... 🤬🤬🤬🤬

I understand you're, angry but SO AM I!!!

#im seriously going to throw my phone through the concrete wall next to me #love and Deepspace #if it wasn't for the 8 seconds it takes at the beginning just for the m'f to land and even LET ME HIT HIM #and the 25 second shield block while he flies around and vomits fire everywhere this guy would be SOOO DEAD #F U C K. T H I S. I C E. T R I A L. #once again zayne is just standing there watching me fail at life #ash battle cries #istfg the closer I get to beating this level the more the game sabatoges me with glitches and stupid time-killing battle sequences #I've leveled up one of my 5-stars a couple times today so TUESDAY.... I NEED YOU. I'm done looking at this freaking level