#im finally out of classes tho!!!!

[ihatebnha]

how is everyone doing?

#dash is kinda dead rn huh??? #im finally out of classes tho!!!! #just gotta finish up my asl work and then im done done DONE #not sure what i wanna do first #watch spy x family or read a novel or work on a fic or WHAT #but im 'cited #wby all tho??? #tell me :))) #i thought i could do an ask game but i'd rather work on older asks #*when i work up the nerve for it #but eeeee #hope everyone is well!!! #not writing #caitie thoughts

[yrdnzz]

> the scent of a goal.

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#yrdnzz art #blue lock #blue lock fanart #isagi yoichi #bllk #isagi fanart #been really burnt out lately so . this is all i got bro just smth i drew MONTHS ago and just colored in class to Feel Something #im working on comms and some of the requests in my inbox tho #rin req.... chigiri req.... kainess comm.... #once i survive finals its over guys trust me #anyways as always THANK U GUYS FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORTTTT imma get to replying to things soon #love yall <3

[aropride]

#text #polls #im rly curious abt this #i havent painted in foreverrr :{ i took an oil painting class that i loved but working with paint that never dries was difficult #but also helpful to be able to wipe it off even like a week after i fucked up lol #i liked it tho !! i wish id gotten to spend more time on my final bc it was so fun but i wasnt quite done #literally went in with a paint pen like last month to touch up some stuff #might go try and finish it fully but idkkkk. i dont have oil paints so id have to do it in acrylic and idk how easy itd be #ANYWAy #ive never worked with ink before and i only have worked with oil paint in that class #but the other three ive used a lot and when it comes to on Paper and not canvas #acrylic dries fast which is difficult for me #and watercolor dries slow bc. thats water. and it doesnt always go where i want it to #so usually i prefer gouache bc its a little thicker but not too thick and it dries quick but not too quick. a happy medium #just like goldilocks #on canvas tho i usually prefer acrylic #i think bc i get scared to use up my gouache paints on a bigger canvas #^saying all this and i havent painted in months. </3 #im not even particularly good at it i just like it. makes me happy #waugh. its nice out today maybe i'll go out and paint :} it miught rain tho #so who knows

[bmpmp3]

man in his mid 20s who says tee hee

#art #traditional art #watercolour #oc art #ocs #oc group: lia crystal darling #oc: bibi #I DREW THIS a while back u can see the date in the corner LOL but i didnt scan it because it was like #a tiny little drawing from a tiny little watercolour paper pad and i. lost it JHKDSDds i forgot i had it #BUT I FOUND IT AGAIN so i scanned it finally ~ #today i had a slightly wretched critique in one of my classes. kinda incomprehensible. oddly harsh with very little actionable advice #i think ive been really lucky in school with critiques at least post secondarily. most have been very useful and fun and interesting #even if i dont find all the advice useful usually i can at least glean something like a communication issue or something im having #but this one was wack as FUCK only advice i got was basicaly all the work u did sucked u should just redraw year old unrelated work instead #my professor seems to think im on the right track tho i think it was just the TAs who came out the gate swinging LOL #theyre like my age so maybe theyre just overwhelmed about trying to lead a critique like this i think theyre new at it #so i'll try not to be too discouraged but MAN.... so now. i need to post drawings of my anime boys to bring me back down to earth #look at my anime boy. he even has hair covering one eye <3

[ikeasharksss]

1 final down. 4 to go

#it went well!! it was for stagecraft #i studied a lot but also started late but the study guide the prof gave me was Literally The Test. like some questjons were changed bc the #class didnt understand them on review day but other than that The Study Guide Was The Test #there was 1 question that i just couldnt fucking answer tho so rip me #then i got a churro waffle from a truck on campus that was lit #art history final tomorrow!!! the honors lounge will be giving out hot chocolate so mb i'll snag some of that #n e way niamh marie updates #why did i take all my stem gen eds in 1 sem im so stupid #its ok tho next sem im taking my last gen ed (that i can only take spring sem of my soph year) & then a bunch of classes im super excited #for!!! yayyyyy #ok NOW thats it for niamh marie updatss

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ok. this is the fucking bullshit thing abt grad school. u go to fucking grad school bc u r a fucking tryhard nerd freak #who is either naturally very smart or ur so fucking anxious u r incapable of allowing urself to get a bad grad #and then u go to fucking grad school and everyone's like: man fuck ur classes. if youre getting streight As then u aren't focusing on ur #research. and theyre right. but u still cant fucking let go of the idea that if u get a bad grad the world is gonna fucking end and u r a #bad person. u didnt try hard enough. all this to say i have a final project that i put way too much energy into and not even in a good way #i would just open the document. start sobbing. and then close it and spiral abt how i didn't want to work on it. so its bullshit #i mean. its a good project idea ans i probably sound like i kno wtf im talking abt bc i do. i worked on that topic for 4 years but like #i could make it wayyyyy better. its bullshit. i didnt even number the citations to give more page space. i made section headers. i didnt #wrap text. i could add like 4 more lines of text if i wanted but i think im not gotta bc fuck it. ugh. i dont even. i fucking avoide #stochastic stuff altogether which i kno im gonna have to fight abt but like fuck it who cares abt randomness. i just wanna focus on the #predictably aspect of community composition. fuck u. i shouldnt have picked this topic. i mean. i had to bc its like the one microbe thing #i could do but its also like the exact topic that makes me wanna rip my hair out and start screaming. like jesus christ who tf cares? ugh. #i think id give myself a B if it was an undergrad class. but the standard is higher in an all grad class. ugh. i hate this. i should just #send it abd be done. i dont even kno when its due tomorrow. before class i guess. idk i felt like garbage today. fucking vertigo bby. i feel #ok now tho. so maybe the allergic reacting is over???? fingers r still arthritisy tho. jesus. im falling apart #ive got a pretty good sounding excuse for being lazy tho: owo i had an allergic reaction to my antidepressants 🥳 but nah no excuses we run #this body into the ground. like the good old days. #unrelated

[todayisafridaynight]

mine thing im crazy about today: the strained grin he gives when pretending like hes not about to attempt murder on his subordinate hes literally What did something good happen :)

in his defense (the only one he gets) kinda stupid to be talking shit about the chairman for being young when the chairman of the company YOURE in (whos 2 feet in front of you and known to be nutty) is younger lol

ITS LEGITIMATELY SOOOOO GOOD mine's the most valid person on earth for stabbing a wank right after his Cinnamon Apple (platonic) just presumably kicked the bucket and this twat's cheerin bout it. WHILE SAYIN HE WAS TOO YOUNG TO BE IN THAT POSITION OF POWER BUT THEN THE NEXT BREATH SAYIN HIS BOSS (WHO IS YOUNGER) SHOULD BE NEXT IN LINE ☠️☠️ absolute kissasses the lot of em..

#snap chats #omg i was thinking of mine today tho cause i was having one of my misanthropic monologues with myself again #overheard someone just casually talkin bout keepin certain dudes around just to use them for certain stuff #and i GUESS thats commonplace and. normal to a degree. but im still not used to hearing people so openly talk about using people like that #IN ANY CASE.... i love that scene tho lmao.... hes so cute.... when he's obsessive <3 #i was gonna say he'd burn down a hospital but bruh he destroyed an orphanage like. i think we know how serious he can be LMAO #HE'S SO WICKED I LOVE HIIIM #anyway need you guys to stop me from going to the city tomorrow to get more pork floss im finally just about out :( #fun news tho my evening class tomorrow isn't in person... hehe..... #i might do comm work with that time 🧍‍♂️maybe..... idk i can prob get two of them done tonight and start the last one in the morn #idk thats for me to figure out ANYWAY. i love mine <3 #i have to post about my other fave freakazoid hang on sorry everyone twitter got me pressed as per usual

[wasteland-lover]

pics from like two days ago

#RANT -> #now that i FINALLY got my wifi installed lemme yall yall what happened🤦🏿‍♀️ #so like an hour before i took these pics i was on the bus going back home from class right? #but since everybody and they mama is getting off from class too the bus was packed asf #and im like the last person to get on and there were no seats left BUT this one guy decides to get up and give me his seat #so i don’t have to stand #and im like okay he’s just being nice whatever whatever #and when the but gets to my stop i obviously get off so i can get my ass home #but lemme tell you #as im literally going ok the stairs to get into my apartment #tell me why this nigga i see this nigga from the corner of my eye tryna wave me down😐 #he was calling for my attention and everything but i didn’t hear his ass bcs i had my earbuds on #anyways he was standing at the bottom of the stairwell like a dumbass and goes onto say ‘oh hi i just wanted to tell you that ur cute🤓’ #and then he asks for my name and shit and then tells his #even though my ass did NAWT care to know that shit #and then ofc im like ‘what grade you in?🤨’ #come to find out he’s a SENIOR?? #after that i basically was like hell nah imma freshman dawg💀 #and cuz this mf was hella lame he left and said sumn like ‘oh well have a good one even tho i still think ur cute🥹’ #like bro you followed me all the way back to my building just to waste my time tf wrong witchu😐 #me. [🧍🏿‍♀️]

[lucifer-kane]

Are there any fictional characters you think you resemble, either in appearance or in personality?

Interesting question, I do enjoy stuff like this. Hmm. I don't... really think so? At least not that I've come across. I would like for some characters to look or have a similar personality, it would be neat! I think the most I could think about, but it's really only one thing, is Warren Godby (Red Valley podcast) and Lloyd Allen (Shaperaverse) in terms of their anger issues and how they deal. Other than that? Especially personality and how my autism shapes it, it's. Rough? It's something.

I feel like unless I headcanoned a character (since I primarily listen to audio drama and most of those, characters don't really have canon looks) to have similar features to myself, none of them would really have my body type/appearance. But that's more a thing of the lack of fat people in media, even trying to find real people who have similar body types to myself is hard

#my face is very... small? my features arre very close together it seems to me #especially when it comes to like. my mouth to chin ratio. not a lot of space between the two #idk if this is what you wanted or if i described things well enough! #i generally also don't have a good personal view of myself but that's mostly the autism #it's also hard to find autistic characters who aren't like. smart. im not smart! and im not saying that as a diss #im not smart i have hellish memory problems and the best i can do is parroting things that i remember well bc of hyperfixation #even then it's all so stressful. the only reason i got the grades i did in school was the classes i had that were remedial #i failed two seperate science classes (granted that was mostly bc of the teacher but also the science classes i had to take were hard) #tho i had a much better time in anatomy than the ones i took before then switched to anatomy sr year to fill out my final science class #despite the councoler being like 'idk i think that'll be too hard for you' and granted. it was #i passed but it was bc the teacher was fun adn cool and stuff and /helped #okay i didn't mean the tags to get like this im sorry ksldjfklsd

[orcelito]

Determined to finally get my license within the first few months of this year. Gonna get my permit renewed next week. After I get my license, I will look into buying a car... which... ugh. But with my tax return, if I find smth relatively cheap with a decent payment plan, I think I can do it

I just think that the independence of being able to drive myself places will help me a lot. The rest of the things will follow.

#speculation nation #i also need to get on adhd meds. im. gonna make that a goal for kickstarting in the next few weeks. #i took fall semester off for recovering from fhe summer. and i think spring is likely gonna be off too #bc it's... pretty close to the start of the semester & im still not enrolled in any classes 😔 #so long as i enroll in summer tho there will be no problems overall #and i think itll be worth it to work on getting my life on track b4 trying school again and crashing and failing. again. #i really want to get out of this rut. ive been here for Years. #i want to finally finish college. but i need to work on my brain first. #adhd meds will help with that... being able to drive will help with my independence... #i can do it. im gonna make sure i do it. 2024 is the year of Unfucking My Life. watch me Go

[buggbuzz]

hhg when ure a very hyper and chipper chatterbox in most circumstances and u tend to make good friends with more reserved and untalkative people but then a lot of the time you end up overstimulating them just by existing near them,, sooo fun

like this hasn't happened recently but i was just reminded of it and now im thinkin of it. and like its a weird conundrum bc me being hyperactive isnt influenced by my energy or emotions very much, its kinda just how i am in most situations. so ppl (understandably) assume my behavior means im full of energy and im like no bro i am dead dog tired 90% of the time.

what do u even doooo abt this like my friends and i have talked and they dont want me to not act like myself like they feel bad abt it. but also i feel bad for overstimulating people and making them upset cause thats no fun. im just real tired of everything abt me always simultaneously being both WAY TOO MUCH and not nearly enough for people.

#adhd #vent #tw vent #neurodivergent #im procrastinating working on finals and its making me stressed so now im talking abt anything BUT tjat #im FINE btw this isnt often a problem #tho i have one best friend that i look up to and another that i want to support and theyre both those kinda people and i feel so bad #also my research partner is really really cool and i look up to em a lot and respect how smart they are like crazy #but again very reserved and untalkative and sooo stressed out cause they got too many classes #and they the type to go mute from stress #and i feel so bad for talking their ear off whenever i see em but i just think they're so cool!! #and im also subconciously tryna cheer em up or at least make them less tense by having friendly conversation #but i think i usually make em feel worse even tho they never seem frustrated with me :((( #we're definitely friends tho like they seem to like me too i just think theyre very cool #can u tell theyre almost 2 years older than me and smarter too LMAO #buzzing

[skitskatdacat63]

Hmm might be able to post Malaysia 2009 by tmr morning. I always feel a bit cagey abt posting old stuff during a race weekend tho. Bcs everyone(including myself) is so focused on 2023, but then here I am like "hey did you guys want content from 14 years ago....?"

#friday morning for this wknd is pretty safe bcs the FPs arent even till the afternoon *for me #honestly feels so weird that this race is gonna all be at ideal times for me #even the FPs are after my classes are done #tho my partner for some project was like oh hey are you free to work on it this wknd? #me: ...no #almost said yes and then i remembered that miami is actually at a good time #one i wont even have to wake up even slightly early for #but yeah #i didnt realize this race was completely red flagged and stopped #which makes me want to post it bcs i dont really at all want to wait till after sunday to finish a race that doesnt even restart #so itd be better to finish it off now and then be able to start a new race after miami! #sry i think im just overly methodical abt this kind of thing #but its also a distraction from the fact that im disgustingly deep in finals hell #so id rather plan out posting than think about that LOL #this wknd is gonna be hell for me: #watching the whole entire race wknd bcs its good timing but also having to finish a million assignments #gonna be fun...*i cry to myself* #catie.rambling.txt

[ironmanstan]

feel like ten doctor who rn

#interpret as u will #im losing my MARBLES its fine #i have finally given up on twitter i cant post in my silly circles anymore im so sad but anyway #cannot bring myself to hate my graphic design prof or my class bc i understand the purpose and if i understand something #then like #and if its logical and makes sense and i agree #then like i cant get mad #makes me so insane but whatever #im the guy getting bad grades but helping my classmates not fail in her class #and then everyone doing better than me in everything else #m so normal im so sane i need to stop shooting myself in the foot #ptsd killing me tho #your brain will feel like it is on fire and everyone makes you angry bc u feel like everyone is out to get you #AND u are in a constant state of underlying fear and paranoia. have fun #the meds are working tho i am staying saner than i was a few months ago. gbless #i just have to get through next week <- i say this every god damn week #the gamer speaks uwu

[andromedako]

hai [holds up peace signs before i am crushed by a comically large boulder]

#emil.rtf #im so bored. its final week of classes tho so! #ill probs be back after either my antibiotic situation gets sorted out or school ends. whichever comes first #i just wanted to pop in and say hi :]

[immamapletreekid]

it has been so long since a game has done this level of irreparable damage to my emotional wellbeing

#yes this is about persona 3 i am no longer the same person i was before this game #it has permanently altered my brain chemistry. reorganized every single molecule in my body #it has fundamentally changed me as a person #ive been doong horribly in school bc i literally canmot focus in class #all i can tjink about is p3 and how quickly i can rush tjroigh assignments so i can go back to my room and play persona all night it #is not healthy i need summer break for a reason and thay is to be able to let out all this energy so i can #function properly in daily life #ivr half a mind to make little digital p3 emote sticker thing doodles so that i can plaster them on my notes #i think if i have a drawing of aigis next to my linear algebra notes i will have more motivation to read them #going to make so many aki ones... #all of this is if i have the time and energy tho. i hate school so much #rambling about stuff #literally been listening to tje p3 soundtrack everyday when i study #its that bad. it really is that bad. i need to start taking school seriously i cannot fail my classes i do not jave tje money to afford rep #ating any classes #also coping w how hesvy the p3 story is compared to the other games ithink... idk man im thriving off of tjr everybody lives no one dies au #and imean i get thay that kinda goes against the whole tjeme of tje game but like. let them be happy ;O; #maxing all my social links bc i love them all so much tjey are bffs forever. sees bffs sees bffs i love sees #im not even that far into my playthrougj yet ive yet to meet aigis but that is coming soon!!! #going to hug her so hard when she finally shows up #ryoji too ;w; #celebrating every mochizuki monday so i actually get out of bed and go to class #fuck linear algebra i might actuslly fail linear algebra i have no clue whats going in linear algebra ryoji mochizuki would never

[sadisticyouko]

apologies for my recent inactivity everyone ! this new job I started is actually keeping me busy for once ! lol, I’m real close to having something posted soon tho, but this is just a general fyi that my new job actually expects me to work !

#who da thunk lol #yea this job is basically an internship that I’m SUPER nervous about 😭😭 #there’s so much to learn and so many classes #and apparently if I fail any of the courses at any point I’ll be out of a job 🙃 #the final test is something like 180 questions and they legally can’t employ me if I fail it BRO IM SCARED 😭😭 #I also have to wear office attire which I think is lame 😒 #I’m hoping it’ll all pay off tho ! #just gonna be a little less active while I adjust to the new schedules and pressures and etc #send me good vibes guys 😭 #sadisticyouko rants #not writing