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kitamars · 2 years

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a well overdue swap au doodle dump from twitter bless 🙏 as you can see there's a bit of a bias here but who doesn't love an excess of buny

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oatbugs · 1 month

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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months #to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them #in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought #i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are #and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it #its worth missing i think #i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over #(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think #i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat #they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand #how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much #i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around #something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode #arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully #last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing #and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets #and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably #have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused #blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like #i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much #my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to #music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads #i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says #what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.

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puppyeared · 1 month

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i think the reason why im so drawn to spirit tracks and pkmn scarvi is that having the legendary/princess as a companion rather than a goal that marks the games completion makes me feel satisfied the way i would after helping a friend

my brother always teases me about how I still havent finished botw after almost 7 years bc "id rather be out picking flowers" which i wont say is untrue. and yes i know Zeldas been holding off ganon for 100 years, yes i can get some sort of idea what her relationship with link was like by recalling memories and going through her diary. ive always loved botw for its unique storytelling and setting which makes it stand out, because it lets you get to know who you're saving.

but because theyre memories, it only works if theres something for the player to investigate that already happened. its retroactive (but effective nonetheless)

on the other hand, spirit tracks does something similar but instead of having the player try to piece together memories and interpret them as a spectator, you actually have an opportunity to get to know zelda yourself by talking to her and working together. besides making it a gameplay mechanic, giving the player control over how they interact with zelda makes it so much more personable.

and I find that making the goal feel personal instead of an obligation gives me more of a reason to work towards it. I know what kind of person botw zelda was but as the player, shes still very much a stranger to me. but spirit tracks zelda? thats my friend!!!! she invited me to go to the beach after we get her body back!!! i dont want to whip her to make her move faster thats mean :(

you know how hostage negotiators are trained to introduce themselves and get to know the person theyre negotiating with because its harder to hurt someone when you know what their favorite food is? its kinda like that, because it feels like im helping a friend than being told or led to do smth

and although i havent played scarvi myself, i feel an attachment to koraidon and miraidon even just watching playthrough clips because its like!! thats my weird scaly dog!! it loves sandwiches and we're friends!!! you know!!!!!!

#i dont normally write long posts like this but i think ive been trying to put this into words for a long time and it finally happened #my cloth mother spirit tracks zelda and my wire mother lttp zelda #ACTUALLY ANOTHER THING when i was a kid i always felt guilty when i had to catch the legendary at the end of the game #because to me it was like 'i know none of this is real but if i capture you and have you under my thumb am i robbing the world of something #normal thoughts for a 10 year old to have #when i talked to my brother abt this he was like 'i mean yeah the point is to dunk on the NPCs what were you expecting' and i mean i think #i get that its supposed to feel rewarding because the legendary is THE reward. but it doesnt feel right and i dislike he feeling of pushing #others down to get ahead. i guess u can argue sun/moon does smth similar where you have nebby with lillie #but lillie still ends up handing nebby over to the player and i STILL feel bad because im like shit man you raised that little guy #and koraidon/miraidon feels less like a reward but more like overpowered motorcycle lizard that is just so oupydog. and i love him #and in spirit tracks i went out of my way doing some of the side quests bc zelda asked nicely and honestly that was enough for me #i think all of this boils down to.. i feel very protective abt things i care abt so stories that give me a reason to care hits harder #this can also go the other way bc i CRIED when i finished links awakening because i KNEW every person and im responsible for #literally the end of their world. like. there was a family with 5 kids. marin loved singing and cared about me. she was my FRIEND #i just. ugh. i have too many feelings rn. i kinda wanna draw more spirit tracks link and zelda i think that wld make me feel better #yapping #diary #loz #pokemon

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jojodelaguerras-wooden-stick · 1 month

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Sometimes I think about how Trina is the only woman who had to deal with these men for as long as she had to

#not ignoring charlotte and cordelia but like #trina dealing with their bs for 2 acts #its in the opening song too #with what i assume trina is singing slavery because shes like their babysitter unwillingly #and then leads to im breaking down #also the fact that trina doesnt establish that shes a jew until the end despite being “in the room” for the whole number #and throughout the story you expect Trina to be the one who has to handle everything since its alr established that #these guys are idiots and messes #maybe not jason but as a mother trina has to take care of him to #she literally doesnt get a break at all not even from the audience #falsettos

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iqmmir · 22 days

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Helo mimination on adventures of mimi today i got locked out of my house because my brother thinks im a loser who cant be friends with our neighbour

#.mimiming ❜#i was in my neighbour's house rekimdling friendship 🩷 my brother thought i was out to visit my one other friend who lives in walkable #distance . locked the door and gave the key to the security . also i didnt have my shoes so my friend's mother had to go and get the key #i also made plans to meet with another friend but i feel guilty leaving miku all alone #shes also alone with some guy whos fixing her ac so she cant come ever either #sigh . ill see if we can meet up after my parents come home #we probably can . because we are . well .#we have nothing to do #also helo miu 🥰 🥰 🥰 🥰 🥰 🥰 🥰 im gonna eat lunch and then text you back immediately trust #also i would have texted earlier before socialising but i was sleping (listening to your snork mimimi plalist btw... if you even care)

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teabutmakeitazure · 2 days

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me: there's cinnamon in the tea? ugh I don't like cinnamon in tea.

"you're so picky. you have to go to an unfamiliar house, so what're you gonna do if your mother-in-law likes cinnamon in tea? don't have such preferences. it's not attractive on a girl 😄"

yeah I'm busting my ass off and greying my hair and losing weight at an unhealthy rate for my degree so that a lady who I have never met in my life can dictate my life choices before I even meet her. okay.

#just because you're in an unhappy marriage doesn't mean everyone has to suffer for marriage #this probably isnt relatable but i hope people understand why sometimes i writethe shit i do #in twisted but tender the conversation reader has her mom after childe'e visit was a real conversation i had #and then they ask why i dont like the motherland #like yeah. okay. i suffered for 7 years to get into a top 30 university and am still suffering for an engineering degreefrom there just so-#-that random women who didnt even bother to read a book in their entire life because their sole purpose was to get married can tell me what-#-i should and shouldnt be doing and shame me for wanting to live for myself and not some man and his mother whom i have never met in my life #this is why i like war criminals and mentally ill and traumatised men #yeah he'd lock me up in his basement or something but at least he'd LIKE me and not treat me like a maid like the rest of you #good god man get a life and stop ruining mine #this wasnt the only thing she said #she continued to talk about how im too independent and should be eating everything and cooking everything because i wont know what my-#-mother in law and husband would like so i should be trained and not fail in that #i would love to cook for my husband and feed him and take care of him but when u shove it into my face like that I'd rather not marry at all #delete later #20k aventurine fic might take some time #sorry for the delay guys #zuri rambles

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steeltwigz · 6 months

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See a viscera playlist: Yahoo! Songs about tearing apart!

[Open the playlist. Underwhelming pop music about giving away your body in the name of love. Close playlist.]

#i want songs about teeth and claws and bass and drums and screaming!!!!!#i dont remember how that meme goes. uhm. its like #[see body horror playlist]: but is it about gore and teeth or is it about obsession?#[playlist maker]: its a body horror playlist #[opens the playlist. its about obsession]#NOOOOO. i want playlists about werewolves and bones cracking and blood spilling! not these soft rock painfully underwhelming barely comprehe #nsible songs about giving yourself away to your crush. GRRRRRAGH. i want a song where you turn into a giant bug! where you get turned into #an arcade cabinet! a song that describes the pain and horror of a werewolves first transformation!!!!! monster music!!!!!!!!!!#sad boy soft rock about how your crush cannibalizes you is sooo. Underwhelminggggg it hurts. we Get It. you want to be consumed by love or #whatever. WHO CARES. 100 werewolf transformation spell !!!#i want heavy metal ballads about how you become something undecipherable! not how you're soooooo softcore depressed little special guy :((((#you have a crush? thats cool. i have eight legs and twelve eyes and claws that can cut through steel and three rows of teeth.#i didnt click on jt cuz my headphones died but what the fuck is meatcore also. that showed up in my scrollbar. yall will out anything in #front of -core and think it means anything.#'im sooo body horror visceral meatcore! [listens exclusively to mother mother and those stupid playlists that are always titled like.#soft boy rage.]'#KILLING KILLING KILLING KILLING #sorry #no offense but your music taste is so under stimulating i kind of. want to tear my eyes out. is that meat viscera gorecoded boy rage enough

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cowboy-robooty · 10 months

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mark my fucking words papa robooty is drawing tonight

#i have to set myself up to public humiliation to get my ass up and hold dat damn pencil #bora chan has left me (because i kept squeezing her head in the car) so now i have time to draw again #who will sing marukaite chikeryuu on the hetalia cd with me now........ shes so cruel and mean to me... (she sobbed in the airport and #cried in bed and made me almost crash my fucking car because she didnt want to leave)#at least she did not molest me like my mother implied she would #on god guys before she came over my mom (who keeps ignoring im gay but thats a whole nother enchilada) literally was like 'i know you hate #sex and believe in true love and literally have only cared abt friendship ever...... but youre a boy and shes a girl.... you know even if #you wont do anything... women these days.. they can be aggressive as well....' AND I WAS LIKE FUCKING WHAT?#MY BEST FRIEND IS NOT GOING TO MOLEST ME YOU FREAK #my mom is a crazy mf she on that bpd coke hyena (cocaine)

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widevibratobitch · 2 months

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#im so tired of this lalalalalalalalaa #something is Wrong lol #i really need this therapy on wednesday but guess WHAT im not going. im going to a funeral instead 🤡#and ill be singing in that stupid fucking church because have to but i dont fucking wanna i hate doing it and i hate churches #all i feel rn is the overwhelming urge to selfdestruct and like obv im not gonna kms now #but im so fucking angry that im not even *allowed* to do that anymore. like it was such a comfort all this time to know that i can just Quit #and now i cant because guess what someone has to take care of my mother 🫠 and im so fucking tired of being someone people depend on #to handle THEIR feelings and THEIR emotions and just take it all with humility and acceptance and kindness and never snap and bite back #like i dont WANNA hear about your dead husband i dont wanna hear about your stupid fucking boyfriend #i dont wanna hear about the new guy/girl who's hitting on you because you're so hot and perfect #i dont wanna be responsible for how people feel. i should just shut up and take it and be humble and never ask or expect anything back #but when is it MY turn to call at 1 am crying about how im tired and want to kms #or to start expecting shit of people and allow myself to get properly angry at them for not meeting those expectations #or to braggingly 'complain' about something the other person clearly lacks without any consideration for their feelings #or to just openly cry and say deeply personal shit without any filter not caring if that other person is clearly uncomfortable af #because *i* need it right now and i need someone to listen and let them worry about how to even respond to that stuff #im just so tired of people expecting shit of me im tired of being made responsible even tho i clearly cannot handle that responsibility #i wanna be mean i wanna snap and get angry and openly say that i dont give a shit and am tired and cant listen to this rn #but i cant because i have to be a motherfucking mother theresa and never dare to demand something for myself #and idk where that comes from. idk if it's coming from the fanatic catholicism of my childhood or my mother or just from myself and idc #i just feel so horrible and guilty and wrong for wanting anything for myself #and it once again feels like im making myself the victim and the tortured martyr here when i should just shut up and take it #i just wanna lie down and die and not care about who'll get angry or judge or blame me for it im tired and i dont know what to do #i want someone to take care of ME and reassure ME and make ME feel like i matter and that they really will help me if i ever need it #and that they'd be kinda sad if i were gone not because i had a role to fulfill that i failed at by killing myself but because i am a person #<- math calculations flying around my head as i come to the terrible realisation #of just why exactly im so deeply obsessed with my voice teacher (aside from her being literally the most beautiful woman alive lol) 🤡#like babygirl stop being so utterly overwhelmingly kind to me my knees are weak i would do anything for you queen and I MEAN IT

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the-ipre · 2 months

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You can save one character (from any media you like) from their canonical fate. Who do you pick and what fate would you rewrite for them?

"padme died of a broken heart" george lucas im gonna kill you for this one

i recently read the padme trilogy which made me absolutely Insane. i think padme should be presumed dead, then take her twins, ask Yané and Saché (two of her ex handmaidens, one of whom works in the Naboo government and one of whom takes charge as a foster parent, they are married and in lesbians together <3) to raise Luke and Leia because she currently Is Not In The Space To Do So, and then join up with Sabé (ex handmaiden, the one who was her shadow and filled in for her the most, they are truly So much homoeroticism and tragedy) and her lover Tonra to work on freeing slaves from Tattooine, which is what her original goal had been but was stifled by trying to go through governmental channels !

and then fraught polycule of Padmé Sabé Tonra as they Do the work except Padmé has been in the senate all these years, learning each other and what has changed and what has stayed the same, watching her children grow up as their Aunt Padmé, beginning to shift into resistance and rebellion work as the empire spreads but not doing it from inside the senate but instead from on the ground with other people

this would throw the original trilogy fully out of whack but shhhhh this is my padme survives and experiences life and polyamory au-

#ask #cottagecore-raccoon #i was shuffling through all the fandoms im in and all the guys i have and then i remembered oh she died of a broken heart :(((#thank you this is fun !!!!#and just love and light i do Not think padme is in the spot to be a mother especially not after everything that happened with anakin #she can still be in the kids life while letting them be taken care of by someone who is able and overjoyed to do so

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slimeciclecock · 3 months

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Forgive me for the person I'll become when Missa releases all his new music <- delusional

#been on a missa kick lately which I've never really shared #been getting reeeeally into some of his music and lowkey getting a crush on him 😳🥰#and like. who cares if its been a month or smth. im still very obsessed with that stream he did where he showed off music he was working on #like his voice is insanely good and im going crazy like. to this day i still dont know if he plans to release all that or if that was just-#-scrapped music. with how excited he was when showing music i dont think its scrapped? but idk #dont wanna get my hopes up but. gah #also im just gonna come right out and say it. missa sinfonia is fucking hot as hell #he's so insanely hot and attractive and the music makes him hotter and he's so funny and grhgrgjfrh #ive been a little bit a lot obsessed lately. oh my god how are you so damn attractive #ive kinda told myself that if i ever get a partner the first thing i would do is show him missa and make them fall for him like i did #he's like. handsome like a guy from my culture. does that make sense #missa sinfonia has malay guy swag #i think i can say that here yeah. ive spoken my mother tongue language here #sorry im reaching he just reminds me of someone irl. but also. missa is hot asf i need someone to shake hands with me #frickin. schoolgirl crush on a funny mexican youtuber #ive watched more missa videos than i thought i would and its embarrassing how giddy i would get watching like #i am in my 20s but i am resting my chin on my hand like 🥰#brother I've fallen someone pull me back up i cant do this today

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nightfallsystem · 8 months

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cw very upsetting vent in tags

#tw vent #tw suicide #vent #guys im this close to ending it all #i dont care anymore #i know ill puke my fucking guts out #but if i can get like 30 painkillers ill be free #they cant hurt me anymore if im dead #probably a few other drugs t o deal with everything else #maybe ill fucking pass out #i dont want to live anymore i cant fucking do this #IF MY PARENTS ARE TRANSPHOBIC ONE MORE TIME ILL SLIT MY THROAT #ive WARNED THEM SO MANY TIMES #THEYVE SEEN ME COVERED IN BLOOD #AND HTHEY DONT FUCKING CHANGE #THEY WONT . FUCKING. CHANGE.#well..#as my mother said “i will make you pay”#oh yeah i also dont get why she hates me so much #she talks abt how she wants to make me suffer in a future life and be my child and “give me hell”#boy. i want to. bleed out. so . so fucking badly..#this close to using a new exacto blade #but ill probably throw up due to trauma #I WANT TO RIP OUT MY GUTS I WANT TO TEAR MY SKIN I WANT TO BE NOTHING I WANT DEATH #ill show you what FUCKING HAPPENS #YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES IVE STABBED MYSELF #I CANT COUNT THE SCARS.#AND YET YOU ACT LIKE THIS??#YOU SAY LOSING A CHILD IS ONE OF THE WORST PAINS A PARENT CAN FEEL #YET YOURE NOT BEING VERY FUCKING CAREFUL AT ALL

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skenpiel · 1 year

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WAAAAAAAHH!!!!!!!!!! THEY MADE IT UNREBLOGGABLE!!!!!!!!!!!! but anyway heres the post i thought it was sweet cuz its gotten to the point where i involuntarily scoff whenever someone mentions being gay is about dressing flashy or weird and how its like the Universal Gay Experience

#saying dressing flashy is what geing gay is about is like when people say all gay people like lemon demon or mother mother #like. man shut up. im only letting you get away with saying that stuff if youre like‚ 14 #i dont care abt my looks i only wear whats comfortable -_- also i have social anxiety so i dont want people to LOOK AT ME!!!!!!!!#anyway. im makin this unrebloggable too out of respect for whatever made op turn off rbs in the first place but yeah #i hope u guys have fun dressing how u want and looking awesome. but i cant be bothered to do that #if i cant nap in an outfit why would i wanna wear it........................ -_-

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buck-yyyy · 1 year

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if i got a nickel every time my mother makes a rude comment about the fact that i have body hair and then gets mad at me when i tell her she’s being rude and to stop, id be richer than elon fucking musk

#‘you know there are some things that you’re just not going to be able to get me to stop doing’#MOTHER #MOTHER. ITS MY BODY AND I DONT CARE IF THERES HAIR THERE. STOP MAKING PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE COMMENTS ABOUT IT AND THEM ACTINF LIKE IM THE BAD #GUY FOR BEING HURT #AGHHHH #anyways

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whorenerdking · 2 years

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mom: you forgot to do this one minor thing and because of that I'm going to point out how much of a fuck up and disappointment you are, okay love you :)

me:

#and then she has the gall to get offended when i say her actions are abusive #she's like 'im not abusive!'#and then tells me something fucked up like #i could never be a parent cause id be too obsessed with my phone to take care of the baby and it would die from neglect #like that is something she has said to me SEVERAL times #her constantly mentally and verbally abusing me and then being like #'why dont you want to talk to me anymore???'#'you make it sound so much worse than it is! stop building me up as the bad guy!'#and legit has my fucked up brain thinking huh maybe she's right #and then my therapist appears to me like a force ghost like 'no no stop it'#anyway heres yet another post of me complaining about my mother and reacting with a meme #cause i dont know how to talk about things with making a joke out of it ayyyyyyyy #👉😎👉

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headgehug · 1 year

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retrospectively maybe a big autism moment was when I guess I said I didn't feel an obligation to take care of my parents when they got to That Age because children have no obligations to their parents but that I would do it because I love/care for them etc . (NOT out of the blue we were on the topic) and they keep bringing it up (jokingly, like they do get it) but what was I supposed to say man. like ok dad, like many children I will act only because I feel I owe you for bringing me into the world ? secretly resenting you as a perceived burden? is it not better to know you've done a good enough job as a parent that I care ? hmmmm.

#i mean so many parents get shoved in homes bc their kids are obligated but dont care #why is me expressing this isnt the case bad. shrkskfk. sorry i said i didnt feel beholden. aaaaahg #i guess the implication is that if they dont treat me well I wont be helpful but like it's not on a hair trigger like that #it's just if they Had been really horrible i wouldve cut them off already and thats the rule for all family thats just how it is lol #but then i think about and im like girl you really couldve just said yeah you guys dont have to worry and that wouldve been it #whatevs! girl get a diary #now my MOTHER on the other hand. well. hope she likes bingo. JUST kidding i have to leave some character growth for later.

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