#ignore me i was in public again

[writing-is-a-martial-art]

What do you take me for. No, seriously, what you take me for? In passing, what traits do you decide are those that matter? Do they make you smile or grumble under your breath about kids these days and Internet tenderqueers? Do you account for a margin of error, do you allow even in this briefest estimate the possibility that this is just one facet of a nebulous multidimensional personhood, or would it bring you more comfort to think of me as a background character, face half-erased and one prominent feature exaggerated to distinguish me from the crowd of stick figures? If I got so close I could see the reflection in your eyes, whose reflection would it be?

Would it have my smile? Would it make me flinch?

What do you take me for

#ignore me i was in public again #touching grass is cool but being perceived as a semi-passing trans disabled person is such a mindfuck #we had the loveliest conversation and you could never guess my name right #we chatted briefly about books and you would never guess i have anything to do with sports and shoveling snow in a small village far away #i made up a job for myself on the spot to not have to explain why I'm still in highschool #because otherwise the nature of the conversation would instantly change #you smiled so warmly at the person that you saw and i wish that was truly directed at me #oleg's writing #kind of

[medi-bee]

These are the guys who have total martial control over the center of the galaxy? are you sure?

#my art #spore #grox #spore game #3 foot tall fucked up alien cats #grox really just walk around like O_O . in PUBLIC #i wish spore fanfic was more popular i want to read about their space society. who said that #kicking my feet and spinning and smiling while thinking about alien biology and culture again #im not arguing with an alien with giant baby doe eyes. whatever you say beautiful #hey. gamer grox that bullies and gets bullied by other alien gamers. but that’s just a theory #they are like invader zim to me #have you guys actually listened to their voice files on the wiki #they’re sooo cool. like their voice boxes have been entirely replaced with cybernetics #with ​the glitches and stutters. honestly deserves more attention #if i had meds it'd be over for all of you #ignore my insane notes please #space playstation (completely normal playstation but drawn from memory) #trying to get a feel for how i want to draw these freaks #i say. like i have plans to draw them again #whatever maybe i just wanted to draw little guys. that doesnt mean im going to make a grox oc or anything #wipes sweat off brow #the internet is so crazy you can just draw whatever and post it. and sometimes people will even like it

[whack-patty]

So guess who completely forgot that chocolate milk and strawberry milk is such a big internet thing and made a poll in the heat of the moment and now my inbox is full of T H E funniest tags but also now i can't find any of the non chocolate/strawberry milk debate stuff in the chocolate/strawberry milk flood i am drowning in

GOOD GOLLY

#i genuinely dont mind how bad im getting smoked because it is CO M E D Y G O L D #i will gladly put my dignity on the line in public as long as its a funny story later #the person i was debating with likes to scroll through the tags while im ignoring my phone #and read through her favorite of the mean choccy milk tags #right to me <3 its a good daily routine #anyway please universe do not let this one become a ten thousand billion note one i miss having like 12 notifications all about the blorbos #FR IM SURE I ALREADY SAID THIS BUT IF YOU NEED ME FEEL FREE TO SEND AN ASK and ill see it. late #the seeing it late is unrelated to the choccy milk thing #ive already made this announcement right before the poll thing #im making it again because theres a new reason im not seeing anybodys stuff #it is; being overwhelmed #in a good way i promise its really funny #but also oh gosh i have made a tactical error #i am lying in bed typing this instead of sleeping #if you read this far heres a fun fact for you; the human eye can percieve more shades of green than any other color #neat right #🟩📗🟢🍏🥗🥬💚♻️🐍🍃🌱🍀🤢🌲🌿 #green :^) #ramblin

[larrythefloridaman]

two very different kinds of siblings

#cpuk #took me FOREVER to make mac and al Feel Right to me and just as long to properly execute on the vibe i knew i wanted for goog always #but pretty happy with these! #cpuk alabaster uppercut #cpuk juniper uppercut #cpuk google #cpuk mac and cheese #you ever call a character by a nickname shortening of their name so long that when you have to type their full name again #it hits you all over again how goofy it is. anyway mack encheez would be an entirely normal ace attorney character name #ive been thinking about Al a lot lately. the difference between him in season one and season 2 is interesting to try to reconcile #because in season one its very explicit- he has beef with The Tournament Itself and that was the only reason he was here. #he was an ideological pacifist who was publically mocked and only came to fight in cpuk to prove a point #when a kid from uppercut village was getting bullied because of contestants mocking him and the village. #but when season two rolls around hes a 'cpuk veteran' who's always fighting at locals and bettering the scene. #which leads me to assume Al arrived to CPUK and went 'damn bitch y'all live like this?' and set to work on repairing the vibes #especially since uppercut village has been utterly ignored by the lore since his introduction and with ncct information... #im not sure it... meaningfully exists? its a part of his concept and self that informs his actions but has never mattered. #and as such with the schrodingers isekai way that submission to cpuk works in nccts worldbuilding #i think it might be. just as unreachable as eric is to thera/folk. something from another reality hes just not part of anymore. #in his second tournament appearance he sets a goal of not coming in last and then he's retiring and he doesnt come in last. #but then he comes back. #imagining this dude trying to get a ride back home to uppercut village and the driver needing directions bc hes got no idea where that is #and al realizing he doesnt. know how to get there either. and so the only place he has to go is back to the tournament. #and the sense of community identity so core to himself he's named after it falters and hes left alone #and so he begins to build a new sense of community for himself out of the new home he's been left with. makes friends. adopts new family. #living in honor of the memory of a village that never was. #at least not here. #juni knows the participants of cpuk as family. uncle cha cha. mama hoedown. #in a sense both al and juni are adopted from elsewhere into the family they know. #smthn smthn 'it takes a village to raise a child.' i am speculating myself into getting emotional about funny punch guy 👍

[teruthecreator]

hyperfixating on my own bullshit is so fun its like im having a party for one all the time

#ignorance cloud on #yall arent ready when it finally drops. give me a little more time to get more of it ready but god. god #once i can release my beast to the public then u will see why i am so crayzay about it #on some ssoss type bullshit rn SORRY. SORRY TO EVOKE THE TREACHEROUS NAME BUT LIKE. ITS HAPPENING AGAIN #MICH MADE AN IDEA TOO COOL AND IS NOW OBSESSED WITH IT

[mybrainproblems]

i just wish literally ANY of my debunking posts made it past a handful of likes/reblogs. i'm not looking for plaudits or brownie points on this stuff, but i've spent a not-insubstantial amount of time tracking down the source of some popular rumors/conspiracies and have managed to piece things together by crowdsourcing info from ppl who were There in addition to my own internet dives.

i'm not even really begging for notes tbh, i just that i wish the info could get out there. it just gets annoying to see the same things that are honestly not that difficult to debunk keep getting spread around and see new people latch onto them and spread them, bc repeating conspiracies is more fun than fact checking (unless you're a freak like me who loves a good internet spelunk)

i'm not even mad at ppl or anything bc i get it! conspiracies are fun! i've even bought into a couple! but then when i went to source them, i realized that oop! there's not a good source or it's been taken out of context! sometimes it's stuff that's been distorted via fandom telephone! and sometimes it's a complete fabrication or intentional misinfo, which is wild!

i guess i'm just bummed that The Truth Is Out There and yet we're still seeing the same debunked things circulate within the fandom.

maybe i'd get more traction if i was confrontational about this stuff but i try to come from a place of curiosity and good faith and give ppl benefit of the doubt and assume that others are coming from a place of good faith as well unless/until proven otherwise. i'm also happy to revise my stance if folks can offer a decent rebuttal - for all the research i may do, i can still be wrong! i encourage other ppl to fact check what i'm saying!

there's plenty of stuff that i have theories about that are wholly vibes-based and don't even have anecdata to back them up, so i just... don't talk about those publicly so as not to spread them. or i make extremely clear that i am just spitballing or spinning a word salad conspiracy as a joke.

and yeah, this is specifically about spn fandom but it applies to the real world as well. misinfo spreads so easily and it's extremely hard to stop it spreading or debunk it once it reaches critical mass and/or it gets the illusion of truth by coming from mainstream news sites (or popular blogs). it just feels like ppl are becoming more and more fundamentally un-curious and refuse to exit the echo chamber both in fandom and irl.

#the person who called destiel shippers qfanon post-finale was being a dick but sometimes it doesn't feel wholly off the mark #i also won't bring up anything publicly that i had to dig *deep* to find or could be taken badly out of context #i try to be respectful of boundaries and err on the side of caution #i'm a private person so if i wouldn't be okay with ppl knowing X about me i won't post X about someone else even if they're a public figure #the thing is that i used to be VERY confrontational with ppl and sure i got notes and and ppl ate it up & thought i was hilarious #but it was also cruel and self-destructive and the result of me being deeply not okay mentally. i never want to go there again. #so yeah. i'll taken openness and not a lot of attention over the possible traction i might get from being a raging dick again #no matter how much i want to be sometimes #i've basically given up on posting my debunking stuff bc it's me putting in a lot of effort just to be ignored #i don't really post analysis anymore either bc i swear ppl intentionally misunderstand what i'm saying #truly impressive amounts of ''how the heck did you get *that* from my post?'' or ppl fandomsplain at me ignoring what my post said #i'm just not made for modern soc med :')

[cowboy-robooty]

mark my fucking words papa robooty is drawing tonight

#i have to set myself up to public humiliation to get my ass up and hold dat damn pencil #bora chan has left me (because i kept squeezing her head in the car) so now i have time to draw again #who will sing marukaite chikeryuu on the hetalia cd with me now........ shes so cruel and mean to me... (she sobbed in the airport and #cried in bed and made me almost crash my fucking car because she didnt want to leave) #at least she did not molest me like my mother implied she would #on god guys before she came over my mom (who keeps ignoring im gay but thats a whole nother enchilada) literally was like 'i know you hate #sex and believe in true love and literally have only cared abt friendship ever...... but youre a boy and shes a girl.... you know even if #you wont do anything... women these days.. they can be aggressive as well....' AND I WAS LIKE FUCKING WHAT? #MY BEST FRIEND IS NOT GOING TO MOLEST ME YOU FREAK #my mom is a crazy mf she on that bpd coke hyena (cocaine)

[adore-gregor]

worst feeling

#i hate public transport in my uni city sometimes #when it's so stuffed the worst #especially today it was horrible a normal line is in construction so instead there was just this tiny bus to fit everyone in 😩 #like 4 lines normaly in 1 bus 🤦‍♀️ #there are few things i hate more #it was suffocating #i get claustrophobia i mean not really but yknow what i mean #when you can't move and are pressed against others 😵‍💫 #and it was sooo hot i was sweating sm #like this type of heat is way worse than summer heat for me #i was also wearing an undershirt a sweater and a leather jacket 🫠 #because outside it's not that warm but they always have to heat the buses sm somehow 🥲 #you always wear the wrong clothes for outside or for public transport 🤣 you can’t get it right #and then suddenly it smelled like mold wtf the smells in public transport are sth 🙂 #nah but felt like collapsing like i felt physically ill being inside of this bus #it's so miserable going back i will take any long route or even walk to not have to do this again #rant #ignore lol

[katya-goncharov]

me watching frozen: elsa's ice powers were an allegory for autism actually :)

#to be fair i think this about every piece of media & every character i decide is neurodivergent ever #but like. it makes sense!! #elsa is literally forced to mask bc she thinks her powers are damaging and she withdraws from the ppl she loves because of it #and then when it all comes out and she has a public meltdown she runs off so she can be herself #and her sister has to go and find her and show her that she actually accepts her for who she is and the thing that makes her different #doesn't have to be something damaging that has to be minimised and hidden away. it can be a good thing and a beautiful thing!! #anyway ignore me it's 3:30am and i have insomnia again

[raspberryzingaaa]

The funniest thing about Aaron Minyard is that people think he's homophobic but every scene is like. "Stop being a freak in public wtf im going to pretend I don't know you"

#'im a biter just ask my fiancee' aaron: i didnt need to know that i wish we werent related #'damn hes so hot dont let me get too drunk' aaron: dude wtf #every time its either nicky said something nasty in public or just straight up uncalledfor #aaron is right every time #plus also. i love neil but i dont blame aaron for hating him. #aftg #hi moots ignore me im just talking about this insane series again dont read it you wont like it its got every tw ever #nia post

[kurokeip]

Ouuhhhvbhgh the anxiety of having people perceive me as krk mod... the way I Know people are talking about me and making assumptions about me... the way nobody will believe me even if I post an apology for the Fourth time. But I'll just end up doing it anyways because I Have to

#i wish i never had a public personaaaaa #i just need to stay unlocked until im done producing my little keychains and then i go back into the abyss #its genuinely so tragic bc i reflected and apologized for all of my missteps in like under 24 hours but people are still #posting cropped screenshots. #okay well even if i get a callout again ill just own up to my mistakes again... #not really that hard since it was just bad wording and I know what I meant to say and I Know im not bad... #probably the most annoying thing is the people that dont like me because of my Friends being problematic #which is whatever because ill defend ny friends too i know theyre good people #katsu and shu defender... Ive spoken to them for so long if they were weird or secretly pr0sh.p i would Know. #fuck the enstars fandom blocklist btw they still havent answered my ask where I sent them an archive of shu's apology post #theyre just ignoring it on purpose. 'good will' my ass. thats a normal fucking person #youre just inviting more harassment #i should tag these ummm #vent #i guess?

[foxxsong]

OC Transfem Swag Bracket Application

@transfemswagbracket

Eli, short for Eliza, is my first proper original character. She started out as my muse for a canon male character, but the more I roleplayed her, the more feminine she became until eventually I couldn't view her as anything other than a trans woman. It wasn't long after this that I severed her ties to her original fandom as she'd just developed so far from her source that I wanted her to be her own person.

She's gone through many phases and worlds and stories as my main muse for so long that it's hard to pin down a proper backstory. I love her so much that she's been growing and changing with me for almost a decade now because I just can't let her go. Though I admit, as a fan of dark and dramatic stories, she does tend to fall into the trope of "main character with a tragic backstory" whenever I put her into a new world. As of this moment, I'm working on and off on a book where she is, in fact, the main character.

Some things have stayed consistent though. She's always been transfem since I couldn't just erase all the development we went through together. She was born albino (cliché maybe, but the character she was originally based off of is frequently headcanoned that way) and grew up with a single, emotionally distant yet controlling and possessive caregiver. Whether she ran away as a teen or moved out the day of her 18th birthday varies, but she quickly goes no contact with her caregiver and has to face the world unguided and alone - or with her twin if he's present in that version of her story.

Her life after leaving home isn't easy, though, and it's at this point, sometime in her mid-twenties, that she meets a vampire who courts her in a way she hasn't experienced before. He supports her financially, a secret bid to increase her dependence on him beyond just emotionally, and eventually turns her as well.

While all the hardships she's experienced throughout her lifetime have made her cautious and slow to trust, they've also made her fiercely loyal to those who show her kindness and willing to go to extremes to protect them or anyone she views as vulnerable. She has a particular soft spot for kids and teenagers and will try to care for and/or protect them whenever the opportunity arises in the same way she wishes she had been growing up. While socializing with her own peers, she tends to pick between being notably closed off and intimidating or flirtatiously friendly depending on what she wants, both being shields to protect herself from vulnerability. With friends and younger people, though, she's sweet and funny and somewhat motherly, though she tries not to be overbearing about it with younger folks. She has an unfortunate tendency, despite her caution, to fall in with bad people or into bad relationships because of the familiarity they bring.

I'll leave the details of how I prefer to handle vampirism in my worlds (or really any further details) for if anyone wants to ask, but for now, art!

#transfemswagbracket #idk why all the tags i put here initially are gone #but basically please be nice i am Sensitive about my OCs #this is just under the level of being too vulnerable for me in public to do it #but i really really want to try #long post #anyway I'm highkey thinking about starting to roleplay again but i have NO IDEA how to get back into it on here #do people still ignore female muses? #are multi-muse blogs still unappealing? #are oc blogs still shunned?? #help

[digifag]

sacha…

#the wolfs howl #thoughts in my brain #b4 i start btw this is not a rant in defense of scott at all i do not like him still #but some ppl really blow his politics out of the water compared to what he’s done like #yea we’re gonna ignore the 50k he donated to trevor project in favor of focusing on the varied 30k to various political candidates #its ALWAYS the homophobia. always always always #its never the fact hes outright stated hes pro life; never the potential racism of who he donated to; never anything like that. always - #- the homophobia. which is still bad yes! but u could argue much worse things like w some of the artists hes hired n paid!!! #fiszi was so much worse than scott ever was. and she was gross w it w grooming n transphobia (she was also! FIRED later on!!!!) #like the ONLY reason ppl care is cuz someone pointed it out in 2020. there have literally been no more public donations since #can u imagine the indie game scene if ppl searched out where every dev and employee donated to?? cuz i guarantee not all of them are great!! #my biggest gripe is ppl comparing scott to jk. #riddle me this. is the outwardly proud transphobe whos also very racist and incorporates that into her writing and uses her platform to put- #-minorities down the same as a guy who donated money to a political party in 2020. and doesnt use his platform for that shit. whos openly- #-supportive of his fanbase and acknowledges he wouldnt b where he is without his lgbt fans as well #and again. glances at the 50k to the trevor project he donated #why the hell would he put all that money to a charity for lgbt ppl if he was wholly homophobic. itd be like if jk started giving donations- #-to trans organizations to fund binders and hrt like??? #AND AGAIN. PPL FOCUS ON THE HOMOPHOBIA ABOVE ALL ELSE #he didnt donate to xyz BECAUSE they were homophobic. not every political figure is gonna be focused on gay rights theres sm more going on w- #-this country rn like #THINK for a second #also the fact that ppl were surprised the christian cishet white man from texas was republican is still kinda goofy to me like no duh hes- #-gonna be a republican ?? #idk!! hes still a shit person obv but the way ppl are like ‘yeah hes a homophobic bigot’ is kinda lying at that point #anyway<3 posting this is probably dangerous but idc. have more critical thinking than hes homophobic because he donated to some ppl u dont- #agree with #politics goes so much farther than just gay rights man #anyway #rant

[sakebytheriver]

I'll be honest I do hate that genre of post that's like, "the actor vs their characters" or "can't believe these parts are played by the same person", because like, it's almost as if they're an actor playing a character that is not who they are as a person, you know like an actor does, for their you know, job.

#ignore me #i do blame the influencers for ruining public perception of the career #like how can a person who is so nice and sweet irl play villains? gee idk bro maybe because they trained to act opposite of how they are #how can the same person play such different roles? gee idk bro maybe because they once again trained to do that #youre all brainwashed on celebrities turned actors who have no idea how to actually do the craft #and see a person who actually knows what theyre doing as an outlier when they used to be the norm

[stonerzelda]

I love my job but i rally will never understand the phenomenon of when some coworkers/people that work in different departments alongside u like. Decide they dont like u lol. Like i get along with nearly everybody so so so well but there are these 2 ladies that have been so needlessly cold/rude to me and for what. Why would you create a hostile work environment on purpose like does that not just make your own life harder lmao

#theyre nurses too like....idfk what it is theyre treating me like an idiot that doesnt take covid seriously??? #i am literally the only person i know that still masks up in public + wven wears gloves if im going to a place that has high touch areas #yet ive been reprimanded twice for wearing gloves in an elevator (i didnt argue bc it was a fair assumption that i was working w cleaning #chemicals even tho i was actually wearing a fresh pair cuz i didnt wanna get my bleeding fingers to stain the sheets of the beds i make #which was pointless to argue w cuz i DIDNT WANNA BE RUDE LOL) #and then again on friday for wearing a cloth mask which Again was fair bc i shouldve been wearing a paper one #but ive been double masking with the paper + cloth now and this bitch is literally ignoring me when i greet her or wish her a good day #like she Rolled Her Eyes at me when i greeted her today WTF?? i still dont even know her name lol #she didnt even introduced herself or say hello or welcome like. she and this other nurse have just decided i suck infinity #i straight up Do Naught Understand like wtf do u gain from being an asshole. i didnt argue i thanked them both for their reminders like. #ok guess ill go fuck myself dam!!!! #ennyways a little worried now cuz i kinda got annoyed when she did that to me today i was just like 'ALRIGHT😐' and kept walking myself lol #whatever rant over sorry its just on my mind cuz its just so unnecessary #theyd know i take this shit seriously if they spent more than 15 seconds acknowledging my existence :/

[apollos-boyfriend]

my other cousins are getting here soon i think, which i am actually extremely excited for, because i’m like 70% sure their parents (or at least their mom) is somewhat transphobic. last time we were here her oldest still deadnamed me and called me his female cousin (there’s a difference of gender in portugese), and when i confronted his parents on it, they explained that it was “too hard to explain it to him since he knew me pre-transition” despite my other cousin, who was the same age as him (aka like, 3) had no problem. he didn’t know me pre-transition. he was 2. he can’t remember shit from back then.

anyways they have another son, who i only met when he was less than a year old or so. so i’m super excited to see if they pull the same bullshit again. uh-huh, i get it. you can’t explain that i’m a boy because your six-month-old remembers me when i wasn’t. except he doesn’t because i’d already started transitioning when i met him. it’d also be especially funny because i’m so far in my transition now. yeah, i’m sure that explaining why his supposedly “female” cousin has a deep voice and facial hair is a lot easier than explaining trans people, susan.

#icarus speaks #transphobia #<- just in case #ITS JUST SO FUNNY TO ME #i had a breakdown last time i was here bc her son wouldn’t stop deadnaming and misgendering me #and she sat down and gave me a whole heart to heart talk #where she told me that when she was in a hard spot she turned to jesus and he saved her #and that i should consider the same #and at the time it was devestating #but now it’s just SO funny to me #she really tried to convert me after her son (and her influence) worsened my depression #my other cousin had NO issues #hell. i doubt he even fucking remembers what i looked like pre-transition #because once again. he was like 3 at MOST. #the logical part of me wants to believe i’m wrong and that they’ve changed #but i think it’d be kinda funny #hi yes i am your female cousin. ignore how everyone calls me by masculine terms and how i literally look like a cis dude. #misgendering doesn’t hurt me anymore it just makes me stronger. everyone in public thinks you’re insane