#i had a breakdown last time i was here bc her son wouldn’t stop deadnaming and misgendering me

[apollos-boyfriend]

my other cousins are getting here soon i think, which i am actually extremely excited for, because i’m like 70% sure their parents (or at least their mom) is somewhat transphobic. last time we were here her oldest still deadnamed me and called me his female cousin (there’s a difference of gender in portugese), and when i confronted his parents on it, they explained that it was “too hard to explain it to him since he knew me pre-transition” despite my other cousin, who was the same age as him (aka like, 3) had no problem. he didn’t know me pre-transition. he was 2. he can’t remember shit from back then.

anyways they have another son, who i only met when he was less than a year old or so. so i’m super excited to see if they pull the same bullshit again. uh-huh, i get it. you can’t explain that i’m a boy because your six-month-old remembers me when i wasn’t. except he doesn’t because i’d already started transitioning when i met him. it’d also be especially funny because i’m so far in my transition now. yeah, i’m sure that explaining why his supposedly “female” cousin has a deep voice and facial hair is a lot easier than explaining trans people, susan.

#icarus speaks #transphobia #<- just in case #ITS JUST SO FUNNY TO ME #i had a breakdown last time i was here bc her son wouldn’t stop deadnaming and misgendering me #and she sat down and gave me a whole heart to heart talk #where she told me that when she was in a hard spot she turned to jesus and he saved her #and that i should consider the same #and at the time it was devestating #but now it’s just SO funny to me #she really tried to convert me after her son (and her influence) worsened my depression #my other cousin had NO issues #hell. i doubt he even fucking remembers what i looked like pre-transition #because once again. he was like 3 at MOST. #the logical part of me wants to believe i’m wrong and that they’ve changed #but i think it’d be kinda funny #hi yes i am your female cousin. ignore how everyone calls me by masculine terms and how i literally look like a cis dude. #misgendering doesn’t hurt me anymore it just makes me stronger. everyone in public thinks you’re insane