#ignore me being on this blog rn btw .....

[mrs-monaghan]

Hello Shaz

I would love to hear your opinion on 3D and all the talk around it

My thoughts on the talk around it is; "wow, well this is a load of garbage" (no offence to any friends I may have who don't like the song I just disagree that its a terrible song)

Alright. 3D. Let's talk. My thoughts. First, what's with the fucking homeless trousers??

I hate rich people 😭😭😭😭 if I wear this people will wonder why I didn't go back home to change after I fell in mud 😪

Anyhu, before i even say a thing. We should probably all try to remember that JK said this

(Thanks @chicknbunny13)

Yeah sure, even if he doesn't write a song, he may resonate with it. But not everything he does is a reflection of his actual life. This one, is for the Jikook antis btw. This is why my anons are still off. People, I dont have the energy for antis rn. JK sang 'girl' so what? This topic is super old and tired and consider it officially retired from this blog. I'm sooooo over it 🥱🥱🥱🥱

Now that we have that out of the way let's tackle the fact that our JK is a grown, grown adult. I don't need to bring back the live where he told people he's an adult and he is almost 30 and he will do what he wants to do. And if he wants to sing about this, that's exactly what he will sing about.

Oh my,

Even Jimin knows all about it

Tweet

BAHAHAAHAHAHA!!!

Let is be known i am choosing to take that sentence literally. I think JK just means him, the girl, with champagne and confetti. I really don't think it means anything else here. But, seeing as this is another sex song, I won't put it past him.

Anyone else notice a recurring theme here?

Okay then. 😳

Also shout out to this random kid with the horse

I can't be the only one who has no clue what his point was 😂😂😂

While we are on the champagne topic,

I mean....

Make no mistake, SEVEN and 3D are singing about the same thing. If SEVEN was in your face, 3D is subtle. But they are both just talking about sex here. Which is why it doesn't make sense to me why people are so upset??? As a person who likes Harlow and has heard his songs before, this did not shock me one bit. There is nothing wrong with this song. It is meaningless and shallow but guess what, thats the type of music the GP is listening to rn. I understand why Asians have an issue with this line

And I can respect that. I don't have to understand it, but if Asians say its offensive, then its offensive. In which case I think that's just ignorance on Harlow's part. The people behind the song and JK himself are not going to okay something degrading. So it is of my opinion that people are reading too much, way too much into something that aint even meant to be deep.

It's a song, about sex. The only thing deep about it, is the holes that will be getting penetrated.

This song doesn't require to be analysed. Okay, maybe when trying to decipher the analogies being used but that's it. JK has one agenda and one agenda only; release music that the general public will devour, get his name out there and be a huge pop star. And it is working.

Cue Boracity's new video about each member and who their target audience are for each solo project

JK did not write these songs. If he did I'm sure they would have more meaning. But that's not what he's aiming for rn. Right now the man just wants to put out something that he knows will sell. Wants to put out something that will be a hit. And 3D is exactly that. Just like SEVEN. Mans was asked for the meaning of the song and by his answer, I'm not sure even he knows.

What??

Did anyone understand that???? If you did, break it down for me coz I did NOT understand that 😂😂

This song has no meaning. Its shallow, catchy, easy to remember and move to. Enough with trying to complicate shit! It ain't that deep. Period.

JK cared more about the choreo.

While Jack is calling himself a whore for wanting 4 women, JK is busy dancing throughout. So I will listen to JK and enjoy the song and choreo. Because there is nothing in the lyrics and there was never intended to be.

Idk why y'all mad when we stan a consent king:

Personally I dont have time to be angry because 1) i see no reason to be, and 2) i am too busy admiring JK's body proportions 🤤🤤

Damn, Jimin's man is hot!!!!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

#jungkook thirst trap #3d jungkook #3d jk #jungkook 3d #ask shaz #bts ask #jungkook #jeon j #bts #jikook #kookmin

[liquidstar]

This is such a tangent btw but on the topic of guilt tripping and reblogs... I remember a few years back there were some terrible fires in Greece (and again this year, entire island villages are gone now) and at that time I had family who were caught in them. I can't describe the desperation I felt with these horrible things happening to my family and loved ones in my country. And I remember being frustrated and desperate with how no one around me in America really seemed to give a shit. I remember blogging asking people to PLEASE care please share something please reblog this link for mutual aid please think about the stories and fires etc etc etc. And the thing is I was very much in a state of grief myself, maybe not every word or action was perfectly reasonable, because I don't realistically expect everyone everywhere to care about every tragedy in the world. You can't. Emotionally it's just not possible, especially with all the stuff going on in the states rn too. Yeah it's a lot. It's not like I blog about every tragedy that ever happens either. I understand.

HOWEVER what I also remember was at this time there were a couple mutuals very clearly making vagueposts along the lines of "remember not everyone has the energy to care about everything in the world uwu" while I was posting about family who died and family who were drifting in the ocean for hours as their homes and loved ones burned. Listen. You have to understand sometimes that when a person in grief and frustration with things going on in their countries and communities impacts them very personally beg you to care... It's coming from a place of needing to see that care in the world in general. They're not holding a gun to your head Specifically saying you have to reblog the posts, if you don't have the energy just ignore it.

You don't have to go out of your way saying "um actually I can't care about the horrible stuff you and your family and your country are experiencing rn. I'm too busy focusing on my own stuff so can you be quiet or more reasonable with your grief thanks." Like. Just keep it to yourself then??? Have some fucking sympathy for other people and understand that maybe it's not always logical. The same way you don't have the emotional energy to think about every tragedy in the world, people who've been impacted by them often don't have the emotional energy to handle that alone and may seek somekinda community or solidarity. Idk. It's not about forcing shit on you sometimes it's not about you

#part of me thinks the 'we don't have time to care about everything all the time' has set us back a bit because it gets used as an excuse #bc most of the time no one is like asking you to become a hardcore advocate for every cause ever they're just saying like #hey reblog this donation post. and like I'm going to be real how much possible emotional energy is that really taking from you #compared to the actual activism the statement was meant for and such. like come on #surely less than complaining about people having the gull to ask you to give a shit right? #you can still have sympathy for multiple things without necessarily devoting a lot of your energy to said things you know? #doesn't mean you have to surround yourself with them to become the perfect most progressive activist or whatever #but you can like. idk. express sympathy or condolences in passing every now and then. like people normally do. idk #instead of being like 'how dare you ask me to care! there's issues in my own country i have to blog about!' are you for fucking real #but yeah enough time has passed that i can think more rationally about this and now know that that was a careless response #exactly the type of people you were afraid of being the representatives of the worlds apathy in your greif etc #but there are also people who do care is the thing #and obviously for the record I'm not mutuals w the former anymore bc like Christ

[butch-reidentified]

thank you for your reply!! i hope it's okay to send you an ask instead so i don't impose on that other post any further haha. but you know what, i never even saw it that way "they're also using it to try to make black women (and ESP black teen girls, who are uniquely vulnerable and socially isolated) feel explicitly invited in." because this is so true, i observed it. there are a lot of younger black girls who get caught up in the online-discussions about "attraction" as it relates to black women and it's brutal. the attacks come from all sides, within the community from black men and women alike, from racist white people, from other women (regardless of ethnicity) so i get that instead of realizing this is racism and ignoring or defining their own black womanhood instead of letting it be defined for them, they understandably look to distance themselves from it entirely. it's traumatizing. and then you have the idea of non-binary with a community of people already there just waiting for you and go for it. you absolutely have a point.

for me personally i think i just realized the amount of misogynist stuff i have to swallow and accept to identify as nb + the idea that i'm supposed to internalize the racist actions of others as some kind of personal flaw didn't sit well with me. it also plays into this idea that many women are groomed into, that if there is something wrong, it's internal and YOU have to fix yourself. not the outside world might need to change to accommodate you as a woman, you have to cease being a woman since you don't fit some misogynistic racist patriarchal ideal. i know there were black women who claimed that people didn't "read them as women" because they never held doors open for them or helped them with their luggage and thus they concluded they were not women. and i just couldn't accept that, why give up control and agency like that? (not to mention people do these things for me and i'm dark brown and live in lily-white europe, like? it says nothing about you as a woman at all.)

and about your addition on tifs and blocklists, you know it's funny. tumblr is full of altright and super racist blogs, there is a corner of tumblr like that. i have never once seen people on this side of tumblr (political or just random blogs) make blocklists for those blogs. because it's not needed because anyone who finds that content knows to block it or just stay away. it's universally bad and easily identifiable. for radfem and rad leaning (etc...) blogs however, this doesn't apply. the posts are simply about womanhood and female reality and it rings true for many if they take their time to read them. and effectiveness lies in their truth, so they need to be blocked.

ngl this made me cry

of course it's okay to send me an ask! or dm, or anything! please please know you aren't imposing if you were to add this to the post - and the "haha" honestly stung because it just (and I already know I'm not gonna be able to put this into words the way I'd like to rn), it's female socialization, yk? and I won't begin to try to imagine what that's like when you factor in antiblackness and specifically misogynoir, but I make it a point to call this out because SO many asks I get start with an apology for existing, for reaching out to me. and it hurts, it enrages me that this world has taught its women & girls to do this, to feel this way. I LOVE getting asks and messages from you gyns, truly. it's my favorite. what you wrote here is so meaningful and raw and important, and I honestly think every word of it belongs on that post. you have a right, every right, and you deserve, to speak and be heard. truly heard. you have every right to reach out and make connections and build sisterhood. please do.

I would love for you to add this to the post, and I'd be honored to reblog it and boost YOUR voice fr. I'm honored you wanted to talk to me about this ❤️

btw, your url is just flawless

#mine #ask #radblr #non anon #whengodwasawoman

[cyncerity]

ok this isn’t really a post about the situation but it is a minor update to how i’ll be handling a few of my aus:

the whole rant is under the cut but tldr: the aus i talk about here are Store Shifter, Dad’s Troubles, Flubber, and Epic. Store Shifter and Dad’s Troubles are getting left alone, Flubber is getting a minor recast, and Epic is getting more majorly reworked (mostly character wise, kinda plot wise). As of right now, Wil/crimeboy centric fics are on pause. Not cancelled, but i’ll see later down the road if they need changed or if i can learn to separate the character from the creator. I will be updating the Epic au soon with said reworkings cause i really really really wanna finish that story. I have yet to start and actually finish a chaptered fic and I want this to be my first.

most recently i’ve been posting a few updates on mainly the Store Shifter and Flubber au, while i’ve been kinda working on the Dad’s Troubles and Epic AU in the background.

For the most part, these aus will remain unchanged because you know who either isn’t in them or isn’t a main character. For the Store Shifter, i’m not changing it for now because he isn’t and was never planned to be an important character. I’m just gonna ignore him in that au. Dad’s Troubles he just straight up isn’t in, so that one is unchanged.

Flubber au is a little different: i’m just recasting. He doesn’t have a huge part, but it is a lore important one, so from now on in that story the main antagonist will be Dream (1: he’s easy to stick in the “Tommy’s antagonistic boss” role and 2: i need at least one au where Dream is an antagonist lol). So yeah i’ll make a more official post for that au later.

The main reason for this post tho is the Epic AU, which is one of my personal favorites and i have so much that I want to talk about it for and even a whole bunch of new characters and concepts and world building that I want to post about. However, this au faces a problem for me at this moment: it’s crimeboy centric.

As of right now, I do not feel comfortable updating any of my Wil/crimeboy centric aus/fics. This is not to say I’m discontinuing them, i’m personally very attached to my own fics and a lot of them were written to either help me feel better or to help other people feel better, so I don’t feel right just throwing them away. Also, i will never be deleting my fics or shutting down this account, so I don’t want people to worry there, either. However, I don’t know how comfortable I am with writing for c!Wil rn, especially since this situation is still so fresh and plenty of people haven’t shared their experiences/responses (not to say that I expect anyone to; i don’t expect everything to be handled publicly over twitter). I think in time i’ll be able to separate the character from the actor; unfortunately i’ve been through this before. i’ve seperated characters who were far more like their creator from said creator who had done far worse things (if anyone on this blog has watched TribeTwelve, you know exactly what I’m talking about).

However, even if I eventually decide that I can write c!Wil while separating him from his creator, i don’t know if i’ll ever feel fully comfortable incorporating him in stories with a bigger cast of characters given the cc responses to his actions. Any stories where I have him interacting with people like Ranboo, Tubbo, or especially Niki will likely need to be changed because i don’t feel comfortable portraying them like friends anymore.

I’ve kind of done this before, honestly, i just never posted about it last time: when beeduo first stopped talking publicly, i stopped writing for beeduo. To this day, i have a fuck ton of beeduo requests in my inbox that i never got to and may not ever write because i didn’t feel comfortable writing their characters being close when in real life they may have had a falling out or now hated each other (so, so sorry to the people that sent those btw). Over time, most people started to realize that it was because of the crazy amount of shipping. It was bad during the dsmp and only got worse when Ranboo came out and all the speculation over Tubbo’s sexuality hit its peak when he’d made it very clear that crossed his boundaries. After realizing their silence was likely just them trying to shut up a more toxic part of both of their fanbases, i became a bit more comfortable writing them as friends again. I still haven’t made any beeduo centric fics or stories since then cause i don’t know the full story of what happened between them, this is all just speculation, but i at least have them be friends as supporting characters in aus i’ve already made.

All this to say that the way i handle the rest of my aus really depends on how things play out more with the situation. Again, it’s still new and i’m still gathering my thoughts. I can think about it more clearly now that i’ve gotten over the shock, which is why i’m posting this, but not every decision will be finalized immediately.

However, back to the Epic AU, it will be getting a rework in a lot of ways. I’m changing up the cast, and i’ve decided to cut Wil entirely because 1: i’m impatient and this is an au that i really wanna start up again and keep working on right now and 2: in the au i have him being friends with Ranboo and Dream and Tubbo and again that’s just not something i feel super comfortable with rn. So, i’m recasting and minorly changing the plot so i can update that one soon cause honestly i just miss it. I’ve still got so many asks and art requests (Becky sent me an art request like almost a year ago now and istg i’m gonna fucking draw it if it kills me) and there was a whole nother species i teased a bunch and then just…never told you about.

So yeah expect an update on the Epic AU soon and thank you for reading this entire fucking essay. As a little bonus for taking your time to read this, i’ll give you a hint for the next au im working on: karlnapity and vampires >:)

Eat, drink water, and get a good nights rest, take care of yourself <3

#cyncerity #mcyt gt #mcyt g/t #cynpsa #mcyt g/t community

[lycheesgowoooo]

Helloooooo People~!

"...What? Don't tell me I'm out of money AGAIINNNNNN.....!?"

(Currently being run by Qi) Name Pronounciation- Meabh- pronounced Maeve

Nicknames that are accepted- Vivi, Vee, Pretty (Boy((Chrysalis only)), Woody.

Voice claim- Heizou, Genshin Impact

Birthday- 4/1 (he doesn't know so he guessed)

It's me! Back with a different oc named Meabh Pytka. Meabh is 17, and in Yokohama on the run from his parents. He looks... different than "the norm" He was born an albino. Red eyes due to lack of melanin, paper white skin and hair. He's now dyed his hair and wears contacts. He works as a cat-sitter for a rather rich family now, he's very very very happy to be looking out for cats on a nearly daily basis.

(To all people that rped w/ me before the update, its the same person but diff looks and name. Same memories, same events, same everything, just new looks and name.)

Ability- Fiskerjenten.

About- With his ability, he can summon a bout of up to three wood creatures that do his bidding as well as turn into one as well. The source of his own transformation is his jewelry, without it, he can't turn into one of the wood creatures. The wood creatures have heightened natural skill like speed and strength as well as sharp teeth and claws. Using it for too long results in bleeding ears and more aggressive hallucinations and asthma attacks if used for very long.

Have fun with Meabh Pytka!

Horrors of the Nights Drabble Series- Pilot

Scapegoat- https://www.tumblr.com/lycheesgowoooo/744623679266258944/verlassener-d%C3%A4mon-how-did-you-survive-the?source=share details on Veve

Meabh is very prone to voices and Hallucinations(general cw for this blog btw), whispers of a past he'd rather forget. He's 5'6, cis male, and effeminate when it comes to clothing, especially considering his androgynous type body. He usually hangs around wherever he lives at the moment and his lil sister, Bella.

Current poll- none rn

A brief something something on what he wears- (ignore the outdated name)

"Awwwww! Come on, just one game~!"

dividers by @cafekitsune (dividers((barely any)) on this blog from them, they're great!!!)

#bsd oc rp #bsd rp #oc rp #new rp #bungou stray dogs

[rollercoasterwords]

I saw your post about angst earlier and I thought "atydsp was the *angstiest* most miserable book I've ever read" (it's a compliment btw) and then I remembered that YOU wrote it. So, you being an angst lover and the writer of the angstiest thing I've read, I wanted to ask you for recs(?), If that's ok(?)

Just, what are the angstiest books/fics you've ever read? Like, stare-at-the-wall-and-cry-silently-for-hours, feel-numb-for-days, make-you-want-to-scream-like-your-first-born-died, kind of angst. And, if you want, even throw in there films, music, poems too,idk.

It's all about the feeling. I just want to get my soul ripped apart and bleed-out on the floor again:'(

If it's too much or if it's weird, I'm sorry and feel free to ignore me pls<3

look at me. look into my eyes. you are my favorite person on this website right now. i LOVE this question omg ok buckle up i'm making a list

rae's angstiest-of-all-time recs*:

*with the caveat that this is a subjective list, these are just things that made me, specifically, feel like crying and screaming and staring at the wall for whatever reason. not all of these are stories that end in tragedy; some have happy endings! but if it made me feel like my guts were being twirled around like spaghetti on a fork at some point then it made the list <3

fics:

hackery, by orphan_account i will keep yelling at people to read this until the day i die it is SO good and literally under 2k words u can finish it in like five minutes. go read it rn PLEASE i'm begging

a great, big tragedy by zeppazariel @mayzarbewithyou for all crimson rivers angst enjoyers <3 the au what-if-regulus-died ending

let the ghosts sleep tonight by outlaw_baby dorlene oneshot set during the first war SO beautiful i reread this all the time

zwischen immer und nie (between always and never) by sudowoodo an albus dumbledore/gellert grindelwald fic about the summer they fell in love. was recommended to me by a friend who knows i love angst and thought i would appreciate it. they were correct.

notes on a resurrection by newleaves perhaps my favorite fic of all time and one that was also recommended to me by a friend! this one has a happy ending but BOY does it take you on a ride to get there

that's the art of getting by by sarewolf @sarewolf one of my favorite fics ever <3 another happy ending but plenty of angst before we get there <3

choices by messermoon @little-shit-soph i mean i feel like i don't even need to say anything about this one but. yeah if ur looking for tragedy and angst this is a good place to go lmao

books

the feverwake duology, by victoria lee i don't think i've talked about this series before on my blog but it is one of my FAVORITES of all time oh god. it's so so so fucking good dystopian sci-fi magic plague war just. SUCH a cool concept and SUCH beautiful writing i've read it three times and might need to reread soon lol

teeth, by hannah moskowitz gay mermaid love story but like. in the absolute most fucked-up way possible. i love this book SO much hannah moskowitz is just one of my favorite writers of all time

a history of glitter and blood, by hannah moskowitz my favorite book! another story where you get a happy ending but the angst u go through to get there...exquisite

human acts, by han kang made me cry like a fucking baby. this is historical fiction based on very real events and interviews with people who experienced the gwangju uprising + massacre in south korea in 1980.

the song of achilles, by madeline miller another one that i feel like i don't even need to say anything about lol

crush, by richard siken poetry!! here's ur poetry rec. the richard siken hype is not a lie this book will gut you

the animorphs series, by k.a. applegate i am being 100% serious this is one of my favorite series of all time and i read it for the first time as an adult like. this is not childhood nostalgia it was too scary for me as a kid. genuinely changed the way i think about writing and truly is one of the best war stories i have ever read. the last book is gut-wrenching in a way that very little else i have come across is.

the hunchback of notre-dame, by victor hugo for the classics enjoyers <3 victor hugo is one of my favorite writers i was really into his books in high school lol

the man who laughs, by victor hugo not as well-known as his other work but i wrote a big research paper on this book one time so it holds a special place in my heart just bc i spent so much time with it

tv shows

banana fish (2018) outing myself as an occasional anime enjoyer lmao. i watched this bc i kept seeing people talk about how tragic it was and then i saw my sister watching it and i looked up a plot summary of what happens at the end and i was like huh that sounds interesting. and then i sat down to watch it KNOWING what was going to happen and i still like. was screaming crying by the end.

the haunting of bly manor (2020) just re-watched this show like two months ago and it is 2/2 on making me cry so!!

movies

children who chase lost voices (2011) this movie has a happy ending but like. idk man there's this one specific scene that just GETS me every time. always feel hollowed out but like...in a good way after watching it.

brokeback mountain (2005) i mean...do i need to say anything about this one? gay cowboy tragedy my beloved <3

the last unicorn (1982) watching this movie as a kid is i think what altered my brain chemicals and made me an angst enjoyer. so! had to put it on the list <3

and of course on a final note--as these are heavy angst + tragedy etc etc if u know there are things u need to watch out for please look up trigger warnings before diving in! they all contain content that is upsetting in some way...hence the angst. hopefully that doesn't even need to be said but. well an honest hard-working angst farmer needs to cover his bases sometimes doesn't he

also! tysm for the angst praise lol SO happy to hear that atydsp is one of the angstiest things you've read truly the highest form of praise 2 me <3

#ask #fic recs #atydsp #book recs

[catragemiau]

I'm getting fucked up on rum and rewatching Good Omens 2 because I hate myself

SO

Have I ever told you how I hate and don't understand alcohol (I'm drunk rn btw OH THE IRONY) I didn't but I want to abuse the blogging heart of Tumblr to write my rambling down

Expect a lot of typos and incorrect usage of words, I'm awful at English even when I'm not myself.

I've always been amazed by alcoholics. The alcohol, even the best one, has DISGUSTING taste and smell but the thing about it is that it makes your head feel funny and apparently that's enough to ignore the awful sensations you get while drinking it. I'm not particularly into "symbols" and "signs" but A LOT of different little things has convinced me that if I ever start drinking, I'll become an alcoholic.

I started drinking when I was at my internet friend's place in the capital city after I got dumped around 8 months AND half-year ago by two different people who didn't even considered me as their partners lmao. Being asexual in a country with obsession with sex and patriarchy is INTERESTING but that's a discussion for another day. I drank some disgusting cyder and got fucked up after one? two cans?? And then I went to sleep during Terminator 2 because I wasn't used to consuming alcohol. At the age of 22 I think.

I started ordering cocktails at a karaoke bar we were visiting pretty often with irl friends. Apparently they were quite shitty since they were using cheap alcohol and were VERY weak to hide the awful taste. I was okay with that, I didn't know better.

At some point I got acquainted with rum. I think it started with cocktail drinks at that karaoke bar. And at small parties my friend had when he still lived in this city. I can't say I felt in love with it but it's the type of alcohol drink I'm most okay with. Tastes and smells like shit but at least I can bear this type of shit.

For an alcohol beverage, rum is most bearable for me. It STILL tastes like shit but for alcohol it's actually quite good. Now's the time I actually start my rambling about how I don't get it.

Alcohol tastes like shit. Absolute. Abysmal. Shit.

And I still don't get it. After drinking good and AWFUL alcohol.

I'm supposed to be an alcoholic and I'm still convinced if I was normal mentally, I'd be one. But I'm not. I hate how alcohol tastes. And still I'm drinking it, even right now. I FUCKING LOVE RUM I hate rum fuck my life.

I like cocktails when they're made of good and best alcoholic beverages and a shit ton of flavoring agents to kill the taste of alcohol. I like mint cocktails, I LOVE MOJITO. How could people hate mojito??? What's wrong with them. STILL, even if I like cocktails, they're shit. They taste like shit.

I'm amazed by alcoholics. I'm amazed by my friends who can get shitfaced by awful alcohol and then do it again in a few weeks or even days. They can suppress the feeling of tasting shit to get funny feeling in their head. To forget. I don't get it. I wish I could - it would've made my life so much easier, but I can't. It all tastes like shit.

I don't know if I'm autistic or not and I can't even get checked in this country. But I know for the fact that alcohol is SHIT. I can't get addicted to it even if I want to. Even if it makes me feel how I wish I could feel everyday. How I should feel to make my life easier because caring about everything that happens in my life is awful. You know that killing people is bad? You can get in jail here if you say it out loud. Discussion for future when we're legally allowed to talk about it when it all ends.

How can people drink cheapest shittiest alcohol just to forget things? Just to not feel? Do they do it consciously? Do they do it because they forgot why they even started it? Do they do it just because they can? They don't ask of themselves that much, that's for sure.

How can people do things with addiction when it hurts you at first? Do they just not care? Do they not feel the pain that comes with the first step? How do you ignore it? Experience or brain chemistry?

Y'know, I actually love singing. I forget I do but I still do it when I don't feel like shit. Or when I do feel like COMPLETE SHIT. I feel 120% when I'm drunk and I wish my friend would have more parties which end up in improvised karaoke night just so I could express myself the one of two ways I love to. But he's in another city and visits us once half-year. Other than that I'm rarely invited to anything. And I tend to have conflicts with my friends because I'm very demanding of them and of myself but I don't talk about it. I don't like to show it but then I do show it and fuck up everything. Being friends with good people is hard.

Will Wood writes great music. I need to buy a piano to remember my music school times. I still wish my parents would gave me away to guitar or violin teachings but piano is good too.

It was supposed to rain today but it didn't.

To my sober self: stfu. Don't delete this. Learn to deal with cringe.

And you, the follower I've seen for a while or a random person that just decided to waste their time. Tell me about your favorite drink. I love to taste new things. And I probably love you <3 Keep it up. You have to.

#cat says #cat rambling #holy shit I legit need to get drunk more often #there's no Adderall instead we have A LOT OF ALCOHOL

[collectorcookie]

Current things tag meme!

Thanks for the tag @clockworkspider! Now, lets see

3 ships: you know what, i'll give you three ships of each game i'm into rn

Enstars:

Polytrickstar(platonic/romantic): because duh. Look anywhere at my blog. I love them dearly. They never leave my mind. This very much includes anzu btw

RitsuMao(romantic): i have a weakness for childhood friends trope and for nonhuman x human ships so this is obvious (yeah i know ritsu isn't actually a vampire but like the whole being closer to humanity vs being shut away from humanity is strong in here)

IzuLeoMako(???): i don't even know what to say about this, this is just three cars crashing into each other and i can't look away. Yes HoroHaro fundamentally changed me as a person, how did you know?

Mahoyaku:

Arthur and Oz(familial/platonic): i would die for these two. The fact that oz lived for centuries but never really got to know the world he lived in. And then him taking care of arthur caused him to slow down a bit and appreciate his surroundings. Arthur made oz see the world for the first time.

CaiOwe(romantic): they have eachother's eyeballs. I can't stop thinking about that. Is this not romantic to you? It is the pinnacle of romance to me. Yes, i am entirely ignoring the fact that they don't even get along. Also, i like it probably because cain is definitely high up there in terms of faves

Snow and white(familial): I am in pain. Japanese media will never let twins rest. I knew that white died but i didn't expect THAT'S how he died or how he feels about being a ghost. AND SNOW UGH. I'll just leave this for you:

last song: dreamlume by cloves reyes

currently reading: the mahoyaku etude series

currently watching: nothing

last movie: enstars road to show

currently consuming: food wise i am drinking tea with milk. Media wise, well, enstars and mahoyaku. Tho i haven't been reading much enstars wise since trickstar climax happened, i'm just waiting patiently for knights climax and mao's event on engstars.

currently craving: food wise, not much. Emotionally, i kinda miss having a tutor who would hold me accountable when it came to studying. I suck at holding myself accountable.

tagging @enchantedmirage, @vampyreki, @mutsuowo, @nimue-hidden-lake and anyone else who would like to join is also welcome! (And don't feel pressured to if you don't want to)

#tagging game

[theshadowrealmitself]

So! I tried to follow this recipe https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/foodisadelight/711063743408308224 that @foodisadelight sent me (thank you again)

However!! I am very very bad at following recipes on the first try! Very bad! It’s a combination of stressfully trying to follow recipe for the first time + not being able to stop the desire to add in more ingredients, so this is what I ended up doing:

Started browning the meat, realized I was supposed to cook the onions first in oil, panicked and added in the onions (not even the full amount of onion I needed btw, cause I don’t like onion so I only added in the tiniest bit), continued browning the meat on low to give the onions time to catch up

Didn’t buy beef broth, instead boiled some beef bouillon in 1 and 1/4 cup of water (how much bouillon powder? No clue, didn’t measure, a habit I picked up for this recipe only for some reason)

Cut up one red bell pepper and one green bell pepper, into super super tiny bits so I didn’t have to deal with the texture issue of biting into chunks later on (did have to deal with the texture issue of tiny bits of bell pepper getting stuck to my hands as well as the awful feeling of juice drying on them 😭)

Chopped up a poblano pepper super finely as well (I am aware that’s not anywhere in the original recipe but I couldn’t help it)

Also bought a small container of already chopped hatch peppers

“Measured” out the spices (didn’t use a single measuring utensil except for my heart) (also added in a few spices that weren’t in the original recipe like dried basil leaves and crushed rosemary)

Realized I bought the wrong size can of tomato sauce, scraped out about half for the chili

Bought red kidney beans and pinto beans

And fresh cilantro

Put in half the ingredients in the rice cooker, realized I didn’t see how many people this is going to serve, it does not fit in the pot, so I keep the rice cooker on “warm” for those ingredients while I clean out the big pot for my stove top

Add in the second half of the ingredients, like the diced stuff and half of each can of beans, to the big pot, slowly get the first half of the ingredients out of the rice cooker

Remember that this pot is the one without a fitting lid

Cry

Put on the really large lid and hope for the best

And finally! Sit on the floor and figure out if I’m really okay with going to sleep with something still simmering on the stove? (Original plan was to ignore recipe’s cook time and simmer it overnight so I started cooking this when it was already late and now it’s even later and I’m tired), still haven’t come to a decision

(I swear to god I’m a decent cook, I’m just always really bad at my first time doing new recipes 😭😭)

Edit: after some googling I have decided to move it to a crockpot so I can sleep, I really hope it turns out well because it actually smells fantastic rn

#no fandom #cooking #fucking up every step of the way #food mention tw #ask to tag #also cutting everything took me forever #I should followed the warning on the original post and done it all before #would’ve tried to make it spicier but I’m the only person I know irl who likes spicy and I did NOT wanna have to finish the post by myself

[nono-bunny]

why do people on tumble think everything is gay. like every time two characters of the same sex are close yall be like, they're in love they're soul mates. Wishful shipping?

Wow, this a pretty funny first ask to get! Hi!

So.... Couple of things here, I suppose!

First "people on Tumblr" is a funny label to use considering you are literally on here as well, and I'm guessing found my post about the "gay Barbie movie". Just... kind of a lack of awareness here lol

Secondly, I was talking about Barbie and the Diamond Castle, a movie that as a kid literally opened me up to the possibility of me not being straight- grew up in a queer family, btw, but that was the movie that made me go "women??? 👀" so when I am talking about that one I am quite literally talking from personal experience even before I was ever on Tumblr

Thirdly... Why the fuck do you care whether or not I see some relationships in Mattel's kid oriented Barbie movies as straight or gay or... literally anything? Tumblr is kinda all about shouting your thoughts into a void where like minded people are hanging out. If you happen to hear something you don't like, it's legit the easiest thing ever to just block and move on rather than come at someone anonymously in the asks... Unless you are literally just asking, in which case, the answer is already in the question, I suppose: "wishful shipping" for fun, because it doesn't hurt anyone and shouldn't be any of your business or concern you if you disagree with my takes (unless they make you uncomfortable for some reason...)

Assuming you found me and that post through the Barbie tag or something, let me just tell you this: Barbie Roberts would be SO disappointed in you rn. There may not be any canon gay relationships in Barbie as of now (to my current knowledge at least), but with Barbie!vloggerverse being the current long running iteration and front runner, and from how I've seen the way she consistently advocates and gives a safe space to talk for a lot of marginalized communities... Barbie is 100% not someone who would ever tolerate coming to someone's asks and questioning them on an entire site's tendency to talk about queer shit when that site has a very heavy queer demographic in the first place, like... What the fuck?

I also personally don't even like??? Ship exclusively queer ships, which your ask does kinda seem to imply. Scroll just a bit on my blog, or heck, even look at my bio, and you can see I'm very into romance in general. I don't see it anywhere and everywhere, which seems to be a common sentiment when people don't like a ship, and some friendships are just that in my eyes as well: friendships. But some dynamics seem to lean into the romantic vibe more than the platonic one, and that's when shipping happens, regardless of the gender of the characters or whether that'd make it a gay ship or not.

That being said, my takes on the "gay Barbie movies" are not uncommon, here or elsewhere, because whether by accident or otherwise, they tend to be REALLY rife with queer undertones and metaphors, and people notice! Queer color coding, an indifference by the main characters to the "default" opposite gender love interests, popular queer ideals of living (fucking!! Cottagecore girlfriends cohabitating together in the middle of the woods!!!)... Maybe one or two would go unnoticed or ignored, but the movies I've talked about tend to somehow have all of these and more, so... Is it really that big of a surprise when people take notice? There are movies where I ship the Kens and the Barbies, just as there are movies where I ship the Barbies with the Barbies (or Raquels, or Teresas, or any other female Barbie characters) because it all depends on the way things are portrayed! I don't automatically go into a movie thinking "hmm I wonder which gay ship shall I invent out of thin air today!" because, evidently... I'm not the only one to see that at the very least the potential for these things is there!

I think I'm going to go rewatch Barbie in the Diamond Castle now. Because I enjoy it, and I ship the two main characters, and it's a great movie regardless of whether it's gay or not! It is gay though, and you'd be hard pressed to find anyone who disagrees with me on this on Tumblr.com

#barbie #barbie movies #lgbtq #barbie is literally a doll you use to play out your own stories shut the fuck up #my barbies were gay and straight and bi in equal measures why shouldn't the Barbie Cinematic Universe barbies reflect that

[kennyisaloserr]

LAST UPDATED ;; 10 / 08 / 23 !

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" YEAH ... IM TIRED GUYS , THINK I'M GONNA GO TO BED . . . " /Q

WAVES HI HELLO HII !!! im kenny ! you might have originally known me as slime (@vicchaos) ! ive decided im going to recreate my blog , brand and new . and this is my intro !! :3

;; ABOUT ME !!

my name is kenny !

i use he / they pronouns & im a transmasc omnisexual ( fem pref ! ) :3

my birthday is 04 / 01 ( april 1 ! ) and i am a MINOR ( age range 12 - 15 )

i love south park !! im also a previous dsmp fan ( previous since it sadly came to an end )

i also like total drama , stranger things , et cetera

i love singing , drawing , and im also a gachatuber !

;; WRITING INFO !!

my blog is SFW !! requests are open :3

fandoms i will currently write for include only SOUTH PARK and DREAM SMP ( only some characters , mainly being c rather than ccs ! )

i WONT write ; NSFW , fandoms i dont know

i wont post fics all the time , but ill try and post some occasionally :3

i WILL write ; south park fics , dsmp fics , angst / fluff / hurt+comfort , ships

pls dont request nsfw fic prompts ... i will just ignore !

;; CHARACTER CRITERIA !!

i will write for any south park character ! adults , kids , etc .

regularly , i will not age them up or down , ages would range from 6 - 13 if i were to change their ages though

any characters that are not on this list , you can request ! i will only write c ! smp members

the only characters i will NOT write for dream smp wise are ...

- dream

- george

- sapnap

because of problematic issues .

- punz

- boomer

- antfrost

- connor

- ponk

- michaelmcchill

because ive never watched them and dont know how id write them

( list may be continued if recommended certain characters)

;; BEFORE YOU FOLLOW !!

✩ i am a MINOR !!

✩ i use tone indicators

✩ i make kys jokes and have south park humour ( lmk if uncomfortable !! )

✩ might take a bit to respond to dms , etc cuz of my timezone + lack of social skills

✩ i might be dry sometimes but im sorry if i come off that way !! /gen

✩ i use a typing quirk ( have not adapted toward many of them , the only one i have is spaces before punctuation )

additionally ( i dont think this counts as a typing quirk but i add it just incase ) , i sign off of all my posts . originlly i used ' -slime ' , now i will use ' -kenny ' :3

✩ i misspell words sometimes

✩ i use silly emoticons !! ( ^_^ , :3 , :] , etc! )

;; DO NOT FOLLOW / INTERACT !!

✩ basic dni !! ( nsfw, homo / trans phobes , racist , etc )

✩ kyman / proship

✩ TW // self harm twt / sh tumblr + eating disorder twt / ed tumblr

✩ dteam supporters ( sorry old dteam moots )

✩ hellparkies

✩ if you dont use tone indicators

✩ 20 or over ( unless sfw ! )

;; MAIN TAGS !!

all my posts will be tagged accordingly ,

#kennys-thoughts - random posts

#kennys-reblogs - posts i reblog

#kennys-askbox - asks

#kennys-fics - 5+ paragraph fics

#kennys-ficlets - 4- paragraph fics

#kennys-art - my drawings :3

( fics will be tagged fandom accordingly as well ! )

;; MY OTHER SOCIALS !!

my twitter !

my youtube !

my discord !

more links might be added but this is all i can think of rn LOL

;; EXTRA / END OF POST !!

thats it !! if u follow me on my old acc ( again , @vicchaos ! ) pls refollow n btw I WILL FB EVERYONE :3 unless ur weird or follow my dnf / dni criteria i will block u

OTHERWISE SOUTH PARKIES AND DSMPERS PLS INTERACT AND YAYAY HOPE I CAN MAKE BACK MOOTS BYE BYE WAVES TO U !! ^_^

-kenny

#kennys-thoughts #south park #dream smp #blog intro

[ask-jimmonday]

pinned post!!

hello :) this is just a little askblog made for me to infodump about + draw blorbo from my brain over and over. i hope u enjoy <3

basic info:

his toyhouse page with The Lore (<- a little bit of a mess rn oops)

each ask will be answered in character with a little sketch ! if i stop answering for a while its likely due to burnout or wrist pain (or im just thinking a little too hard on How to answer lol)

i will not answer any explicit NSFW questions (small jokey stuff may come up though)

his backstory includes several triggering themes (listed at the start of his toyhouse page) that Will likely become relevant on this blog. they'll all be tagged per post and you're free to filter as you please

he's basically my Fandom Everyman if tht makes sense, he was made to be a background/npc type of character so i kinda just shove him into whatever fandom i like (main examples being psychonauts and bugsnax) you're welcome to ask him fandom-specific questions for the varying versions of him if you want :) or even just request different designs for him in whatever media u wanna see within reason lol i will absolutely ignore any nasty shit

not sure what else to put here. idk ill edit this as i need to go wild 🐟👍

owner of the blog / character is @snailcubezz btw hiii

#🐟 oocposting #psychonauts oc #bugsnax oc #jim monday #ask blog #oc ask blog #idk how else to tag this #tbh i don't expect this to really get anywhere #also i should add tht his toyhouse framing him as an exclusively PN oc is Outdated and i need to Fix That #ive just been sooo eepy lately

[gangrenados]

Hi my love!! I've been binge-reading your blog like crazy lately and I really appreciate your work 💘 Idk if you're taking requests but if you are, I'm craving angst content so here's something that's been MARINATING in my brain for days;;

Reader and Dick have been dating for like-- 4 years and she has grown really close to the batfamily, specially Jason. They're like besties, but, since our boy hasn't received this much attention/affection and tenderness throughout his life, Jason ends up secretly falling for Reader and the feelings are consuming him.

One night, after a rough patrol, Reader is helping him with his wounds and he just can't take it anymore. She could be lecturing him on 'being careful' or something and he tries to kiss her. She backs away like "jay no-- you're like a brother to me😟" and the rest is up to you KSJSJSJDKDK maybe they agree to never tell Dick and pretend it never happened?? Or maybe Jason finally tells someone about this secret bc they're noticing how reader and Jay are not as close?? Or or maybe Dick could be planning on asking Reader to marry him and Jason is like 🧍🏻‍♂️

also side note;; reader could be slightly older than him?? Idk, in my head he's like 23/24 and Dick is nearing his 30s so... yeah, it's up to you😁

sorry if this is too long and specific btw and if you're not taking requests, feel free to ignore this ♡

have a nice day/evening, corazón ❣

– Nyn

Hi! sorry, rn I'm not writing long fics since I'm quite busy, but this how I think things would end in this scenario:

Jason would feel like trash in this situation, he's the problem, he was about to homewreck his brother relationship. What's his best solution to this? runaway and never look back.

He'll sututter an apology on his way out, shaming and cursing himself internally; Jason also begs you to forget about this, just pretend it never happened.

If he ever tell anyone about this it might be Roy, he doesn't want advice, he wants someone else to confirm the he fucked up. Ry would listen tho, he would be there for Jason, but yes, he did told Jay that he indeed fucked up.

His raltionship with Dick would be distant too, Jason feels shitty when he's around and I doubt he would tell him, perhaps eventually, but jason needs time to fully process what he's going to say.

He doesn't want to come up and be like "I have a big fat crush on your girlfriedna and I was this close to bang her".

But if Jason does tell Dick, he's ready for whatever his brother might do, a punch, scream at him, etc. He'll not fight back, he deserves it.

I don't think he would attend the wedding tho, that's way too much pain.

#jason todd imagine

[mebiselfandi]

I just read what u wrote when u reblogged my response to ur ask and I was gonna reblog it again and give my own input bUT u deserve love in ur inbox from me 💕💕💕

Okay so when I saw it was gonna be a long reply, I got so excited that I turned off my show to read it. I was smiling the entire time and I had to bite my lip to stop from squealing cause I love making u happy and I love that I made u feel happy with that silly lil song!!! 🥹🩵🩵

I'm def thinking of u to that song as well, my precious diamond. Don't apologize abt ur wifi being sus! It happens. It's an honor for u to even acknowledge my posts in general 🫣 I love and respect u too much to even think abt complaining abt u "taking too long" to reply or see my stuff 💙

I missed you so much too :') gosh I love the way my heart begins to beat faster and the butterflies I get in my tummy when I see that u post or like my stuff (like rn!) I'm doing so good now esp cause u liked the song I dedicated to u 🥰🥰🥰 never ever ever forget ur importance to me 🫶🏼🫂

Big heart just for Y O U 🤍🤍🤍

Omg heeey Val👋🥰

I took a while to respond and it’s not cause I was ignoring you or whatever, I just get very shy when you talk to me like this then my brain goes splat cause idk what to say🫣

But just know I read this a million times and giggled like a maniac every single time.

Like when I say I am giggling blushing kicking my feat, I really am. Lying on my bed trying not to scream too hard cause omg you’re such a sweetheart trying to make me happy. You’ll make me cry fr if you keep that up🥹🥹

How could I not acknowledge your posts, what!? Your whole blog is amazing! You’re amazing! I’m more surprised you like me this much😭😭 feels like a dream I’m trying not to wake up from.

And never forget your importance to me! I was so shy to approach you at first cause I was just thinking woah she’s way out of my league but you were even nicer than I could have ever imagined. I don’t know what I did to be lucky enough to consider you my beautiful rose but I thank god, the universe and every star I see that I can.

I love you so much and I’m glad our paths crossed🥹

Second pic is us btw💕

#val ❀ #my beautiful rose🌹 #I scream everytime I see you come in my inbox/come online #fwis

[9t4nek]

@goldie90  hi lol, i saw the "drama" in the self ship community rn and since apparently your asks are off? i’ll post this because i still wanna say something

i read the callout post, the asks you got and your replies to them, to get both sides of the story i guess. and when you say you “rarely post slightly suggestive content” like you did in one answer, that’s just a lie. me and a lot of people have seen that kind of thing from you multiple times, out of nowhere in the self ship tag. (i don’t post self ship content here. doesn’t mean i don’t go through tags and stuff, this is a main blog)

and so many people made great points, that is NOT the same as harrassing you. the anon that talked about sexual trauma, which you completely ignored? the one before that was SO polite to you, tryign to explain why you shouldn’t put that stuff out in public with no warning? making fun of soeone’s age is not the move. being 32 doesn’t automatically make you mature, i promise. in fact, disregarding people’s GENUINE CONCERN makes you quite immature. i’m not trying to belittle you, just saying what you should already know.

i don’t care about you having a proship friend btw, you can call people caring about your friendships too much immature, sure. but not the ones that make good points, like minors definitely seeing your horny posts. even if they’re not frequent, if you put them in the self ship tag, people WILL see them, get grossed out, get actually triggered.

mature would be caring about that even a little bit

[storyofasub]

hey there, i hope youre okay. i havent been here for a long time but i already noticed a lot of people in the tumblr kink community seem to love to witchhunt, whether the reasons are justified or not. you did nothing wrong by writing stories about your experiences. i just wanna say hang in there

Thank you, I really appreciate you and everyone who’s reached out with kind words and reassurance. 🙏🏽

The kink community is the last place I thought would silence and bully someone because they didn’t like their version of kink. But mentalities and people have changed here. I really am ok now, thank you for asking. I just needed to make sure the truth was out there for those who wanted to know it, who wanted to make an informed decision on this. It was never going to make a difference to those who opt for manipulation to reach a specific goal. Which applies to our whole world of kink really. It is incredibly easy to be abusive within a community that plays with something as potentially volatile and dangerous as power exchange. That’s why openness and understanding should be so so important for us, and why this hurt me the way it did.

Hey, I also really appreciate you messaging off-anon. Part of the issue has been the deceit and accusations of who is saying what from behind anonymous screens. So I really appreciate you. (I appreciate all the anons too btw, love you guys lots for taking personal time out to reach out without expecting recognition 🙏🏽)

As a side note: I’ve just discovered that someone’s made a whole blog dedicated to independently fact checking and notifying the people who have spread this story of the truth in a respectful way, and I just can’t explain how much that has touched my heart😭😭I know that group has most likely already decided they should be blocked or ignored for being a ‘fake’ account, and I don’t think I’ll even name the account here rn because I don’t want it to look like it’s me behind a dummy account promoting it. But I just wanted to take this moment to say thank you so much and how can you be such a selfless person to commit to doing this without me even knowing who you are?! Thank you thank you thank you wow 🙏🏽💜

#hope i get to know who you are one day