#if you feel that its best to unfollow me then that is your choice

[melmonquartelz]

This is a genuine question so pls dont take it so personally or get mad but why do you constantly use the pentagram in your drawings. It gives off a icky feeling to be using such a symbol as if its something cute and for aesthetic. Like. In one of your drawings you made the star a heart and I'm sorry but thats very icky no matter what your reasoning is. I'm not trying to be mean so again pls dont reply rudely but I just think using it so carelessly in drawings and putting it on your sonas forehead of all places is very concerning and could be disrespectful and honestly if it continues I'd rather unfollow and stay away from your content cause you even put it in videos

I do it because yes, I am a Satanist The upright pentacle I use is because it is a symbol of protection. It's 5 points are also connected to the elements of Earth, can also be connected to the body, plants, colours etc. While the pentagram (The upside down one) is usually seen as a place of evil, the upright one is usually seen as a good one (If there's any out else reading this that's more knowledgeable in the pentacle and/or these religions I'm praying I'm gettin' my facts right)

I've done my research but sadly I'm not the best at explaining </3 In no means do I want to offend anyone with it and I don't believe I am doin' anythin' offensive? If you'd rather stay away from me and my content because it offends you then that's your choice! My content isn't for everyone

I might as well answer them both at the same time

My art is also an expression, it's my choice and my religion. I can tell we both are in different circles and that's completely fine! As long as we're respecting each others religions then I see no point in starting something. As I said, whatever I do I don't mean to offend anyone. I'm gonna continue to do whatever I want since it's MY content and MY art, if you don't like it, cool!

Also I thought this may happen LOL As to the sexualized nun outfit, I actually didn't intent for it to be that. The concept before that drawing looked more like a nun and when I realized that that's when I changed it to what it was now. So it was unintentional for it to look like a nun, I was more goin' for a kinky bride thing

[cinamun]

Hello Cinamun! I wanna start off by saying I love your blog very much, and your story is my favorite on Tumblr so PLEASE don’t block me!! But, I have to wonder if you’re starting to add drama just for chaos sake? We’re still in the middle of all the stuff with Dira/Ryker/Rah that’s unresolved, and now Jayce, who we’ve only seen as loyal and honest is gonna have an affair? It just feels like a bit too much. Can anyone be happy and secure for once? Does everyone have to go through pain and struggle every time? Hope is dealing with grief while being a first time mom of twins, and I have a soft spot for her so maybe I’m biased but I think she deserves a happily ever after. Black women deserve peace and happiness, along with all the BS we go through, there’s room for both. I really appreciate you as a writer. I just don’t want you to feel like you have to give us non-stop trauma just to keep up with the story.

Hey friend! Thank you for the kind words. But now, let us ask ourselves some questions, shall we?

"and now Jayce, who we’ve only seen as loyal and honest is gonna have an affair? It just feels like a bit too much."

Firstly....

Why do you think this man is going to have an affair? Why do you automatically assume that? ESPECIALLY after all of the qualifiers you gave him. Its only too much if you're *making* it too much.

Hear me out....

If you're new here, yes, it might seem like "too much" so I ask, too much of what, specifically? Implication? Subtext? Friend, that is THEE best part of writing. Your head is spinning so when and IF a shoe drops, you never see it coming. So again, "too much" of what, specfically?

"Can anyone be happy and secure for once? Does everyone have to go through pain and struggle every time?"

Nope, you're not new here and I can tell because you started with "please don't block me" so you MUST know that I get your second question all the time. So you're not new here you just rebranded to fucking troll me, and I hate that, but I'm gonna entertain you while I wait for my flight.

If you think pain and struggle is coming because Jay ran into a student in a coffee shop on campus, you need to ask yourself why you assume there will be "pain and struggle" every time. I enjoy mindfucking you, it might not be painful or a struggle but you might be shook and question your life choices when I'm done.

As for your last few sentences, I am a Black woman so I write about the experiences of Black women. You're anon so I don't know if you're a Black woman, I don't assume the identities of my readers.

Myself and a bunch of IDENTIFIED Black women readers have been over this topic already, about Black women deserving joy and our happily ever after. It is absolutely true that we do. So for you to assume the characters in this story wont get their happily ever after because they are Black women says more about you than it does about me as an author and Black woman.

Initially I was going to block you because if you want happy shit in every plot, every arc, you can find that on other blogs. I write real shit. I don't sugar coat a gotdamn thing. But I decided to just let you make the decision of unfollowing me if its "too much" for you. I am actually writing what I like to write about and if that's non-stop trauma then so be it. If people don't like that then its on them to stay or go. Fortunately, I am NOT writing non-stop trauma and anyone who feels like that clearly isn't reading the same story as the rest of the room.

Would you like your wings to go?

#this topic again? #we were doing so good too #oh well #story stuff

[swords-of-a-soilder]

Just Shapes

I'm just venting here, I'm not asking for advice if anything the most I'd want is a supportive word or two.

A random day in 2022 I was playing the Sims on my mother's laptop, I had a lot of mods of course, a few risky ones in including.

I had a queer couple, that I loved playing with, but suddenly whenever they got intinment, they had a moodlit in which they express not being intersed in each other.

It felt like my entire world had fell apart, I was in frantic tears trying to fix. I would constantly jump back and forth from create a sim trying to figure out what mod was breaking their relationship.

I eventually fixed it, but once I did, once I looked back at these sims again, they became shapes, pixels on a screen they weren't real they were never real.

I close that save, then never opened it again.

Perphas I'm parasocial in what I'm about to say, but the reality is we're all parasocial it's why certain careers exist. streamers depend on the viewer being parasocial, our enjoyment is what pay them.

Its just some people take things too far, and it gives parasocial behaviors a bad name, I knew the qsmp characters were different from their actors(streamers) that played them.

I'm not the type of person who thought Philza minecraft was my best friend but q!Philza was someone else entirely. Someone I felt close to, someone who's journey I felt apart of; Those eggs were just as much my kids as his own, I felt like a resident.

With Forever's removal and q!forever with him I became painful awear of what I was watching.

The series that keep me company when I quit my abusive job and was seeking new ones, The series that made me forget the pain of being hit by a car, the series that made me forget the Sexual abuse I expressed at my newer job that I shortly quit after.

The pain I felt over and over non stop, the continuous cycle of trauma I was able to process slowly without feeling alone. Living in that tiny space, with nothing to eat but determine not to go back to my abuser, at least with them I wasn't alone.

Perhaps I'm parasocial for feeling like a resident, perhaps I'm parasocial for loving Chayanne and Tallulah like my own children, perhaps I was parasocial for cheering for my team in Purgatory.

But it meant so much more to me than just a Minecraft roleplay server, it was my entire life. And now it's just shapes, pixels and shapes on a screen.

I think back to Qsmp 2023 and it's there, the joy, this overall sense of Happiness these people I know and care about, I made a Tumblr account just to see more art of them, I engaged in headcannons, joined discord servers with other residents we were all residents.

Whether you were a crow that sat top q!Philza's head, the voices in q!Fit's head; your art sat in the museum, your head canon's adopted into canon and your jokes acknowledged.

We were residents, without ever stepping foot on that island....

Now Tumblr still recommends me clip, There are some people I forgot to unfollow or choice not to. They show me the new Island and new creators, they tell me about the new mods and new characters.

They show my children, they show me my friend q!Philza, they show me all these things I love but..

It's Just Shapes...

Now in it's current existence it's just shapes, pixel on a screen actors In a play, I see nothing but the actors behind it, nothing but improvised roleplay, nothing but a video game.

Shapes.. and it drives me insane that some people don't understand that, and it comes with the neurodiversity I Know. no one ever talks about how painful hyperfixation death truly is.

Its made worst by seeing how the fandom, the other residents have started turning on one another. Residents bite and growl at me like I'm a villain came to kill them, I was one of you!

It wasn't my choice but it's one I'm glad for, seeing how cruel We've became. It isn't even the same island anymore, they left me behind on the old one.

And that's fine, the new one is just a pixilated mess to me.

#qsmp discourse #vent post #qsmp #ace says shit #i feel like people are gonna assume inwas one of those annoying chatters from this Post #for the record #i didn't even use the chat feature most times #I was a vod watcher for most of it #so when I started catching lives I didn't talk much #i don't care either way #just putting it out there #Youtube

[bobcatmoran]

Ok. So. It's been awhile since I've done one these, I've gotten a decent amount of followers that I'm reasonably sure aren't bots, and it's time for Yet Another Intro Post.

So. Hi. I'm Bobcat. I've been going by that Nom de Net for over 20 years at this point, and it's Bobcat Moran and variations thereof on various social media sites, with the latter part to differentiate me from all the other folks who've decided to name themselves after the Super Secret Code Name of the cat-derived character from a novel featuring an expy of themselves that their best friend wrote in middle school.

Just me? Okay.

Anyway. I am very much an Actual Adult (she/her pronouns), living in the upper Midwest of the US, working at a job whose mission is to prevent any invasive species from coming into the country and trying to mitigate the effects of those we already have. Sometimes this involves being a literal treehugger, because hugging a tree trunk is the best way to get your measuring tape around it to get its diameter for surveys.

I've been fannish on the internet since the early '90s, and current fandoms include Les Miserables and tokusatsu, but my tumblr, if you haven't noticed, is a mishmash of whatever I find interesting/funny.

My askbox is always open, my tumblr is a friendly space for all letters of the LGBTQ community, and if at any point you feel the need to unfollow/block me for whatever reason, I promise I will not be mad. Please curate your online space to your own choice. Likewise, if you want me to tag something so you can block it, please let me know!

[bestfriend491]

Hey everyone. 👋🏾🫤

How are you all doing? 🤍 How has your day been? Have you eaten today? I hope everyone is alright. 🫶🏾

So this is just gonna be a little post to get some much needed things off my chest. I don't want to make it too long but a lot has been weighing on my head over the last week so I can't be too sure. But either way, here we go...

For the past 5 months, I've been blessed to be able to contribute to the Black Panther Fandom on here (specifically the Okoye side of it), and the love that I have received has been tremendously heartwarming and something that I am so grateful for. 🥹💕

Nothing bad has happened in particular, but in light of some things I've seen on here lately regardingthis issue, I think it's time for me to do some sharing. I don't like people knowing my business but I do think that its only fair that people know the bare minimum about me. So here I go ...

I am 15 years old.

By that fact it is clear that I am a minor.

It's not really a big deal, as I have never interacted or created any adult, explicit and 18+ content on here but for the sake of my own sanity and having a clearer head, I think it's best if people know this.

If this fact makes you uncomfortable and you would prefer to no longer read, follow, or interact with my content; that's okay and I wish you well, but I'm still going to be making my fair share of content.

I just don't want people to come to a conclusion about my age now and then have to face backlash and be attacked in 5 years time when people see that I'm barely an adult by then and realise that they were once reading a minor's work.

Again, I want to emphasize how much I have avoided reading, writing, and interacting with grown 18+ content.

I am a child and I know that. I have, however, recklessly followed account's that might not be comfortable with someone my age seeing any of their content (SFW included) but that was at the begining of my tumblr journey and I have done my part in correcting my wrong choices and apologising to the respective people.

I'm really proud of what I have accomplished and pushed myself to do over this past nearly half a year, and because I feel like I've acted quite appropriately (despite the above mentioned) I really don't think that I have done anything wrong because I haven't placed anyone in any potentially risky situations.

Of course, I realise that even with me never writing 18+ content and never plannning to, some people still might decide that it's time to unfollow and again that's completely okay. I really would prefer for you to do what you think is best for you.

I plan to post this weekend and continue posting regularly from then on.

That's all, really.

Bye 👋🏾🥹🤍

(PS.- Keep it cute if you have something to say to me in these comments or in my ask box. I am a soft soul that has easily provocable anxiety but I also have enough self-worth, self-confidence, and intelligence to know that I haven't done anything crucifiable and I won't be verbally assaulted by anyone if they're having a bad day and want to take it out on somebody.)

#talk to bestfriend491 #black panther2 #black panther #confessions #okoye x reader #okoye writer #wakanda forever women #wakanda forever #queen ramonda x reader #nakia x reader #keep it respectful #i love yall

[deathbxnny]

Hi there, first i would like to say is that you dont need to apologize for not posting. I get it, i know what it’s like to just procrasinate and just get the anxiety of the possible disapointment i would get. That’s something im sadly familiar with but hey at least we can suffer together? (I hope that is comforting. But the point is, you shouldnt apologize for that. That’s something a lot of people go through yet something that’s barely talked about. It’s normal, It’s okay to not be okay. You’re not alone in this) it’s also okay to not want to write our request, you should write whatever you want and whatever makes you happy! If writing your personal one shots does that, then go for it! I like the one shot poll idea, i would love to see what kind of stuff you would make, since i miss that.

I also wont lie there might be people not liking that idea but oh well then. This your blog, yes its a bummer that their request arent going to be made but what are they going to do? You’re the one who’s making it and you also have the right to not make it as well. And there are still other people who can also make said request, so it’s not the end of the world. And if people are going to leave or unfollow the blog, well that’s their own choice, just like whatever you want to do with this blog is your choice, things change and that’s normal.

Again, if writing personal one shots will make you feel better then do it. This is your blog, a blog that you can do whatever you want to do. You deserve better and im sorry for what you’re going through. I hope things will turn for the better for you. Take care of yourself bxnny

(I also want to apologize for being absent lately. Final exams came and it was hell. I procrasinated hard to the point i started studying around like 6 pm. Today was my last day of final exams, idk how i did but im just grateful to be done with it. I wont lie that im not scared of the results but whatever it is, i’ll just have to accept it, whether i like it or not)

- Flower Anon 🌸

-----♡

Hello there Flower Anon!

Don't worry about having been gone for a while too, I understand and am very happy to hear from you! I also really appreciate your support and insight, as it helped me collect my thoughts alot.

Also, I absolutely understand what taking finals feels like. It's honestly a very freeing feeling when you finally realise you're done with everything. I very much procrastinated on every single on of my finals and get it. But alas, what's done is done and I very much lived by the saying "It is what it is" during finals weeks lol.

But I seriously wish you all the best and sincerely hope you make it through your finals successfully!<33

-----♡

#bxnny-talks

[veganfairie]

[tw: some mentions of past eating that could be considered disordered]

hey! another finnish vegan here!

I guess I'll just write some of my thoughts here.

- I hate it when I follow someone here and then they post pictures of "meat", or as I like to call it, mutilated corpses, especially when that particular person makes great art or writes amazing stuff or something, and I have to unfollow them

- I love how much better my relationship to food has become since I became vegan! Previously I had to force myself to eat, and when I did, I saw all those animals that had to suffer in my mind's eye. Then I realise I hurt others more than myself by this, and stopped eating animal products. Now I make food at home for my parents and myself all the time, sometimes several times a week! I actually enjoy food! I didn't understand why people said food could be good and enjoyable back then, but now I go to school lunches and eat my tofu or soijarouhe (don't know what that is in English, possibly soy groats) and actually think "this is so good" and then I eat my bread with hummus on it and for a few moments I think life might be decent afterall, you know. I even toyed with the thought of becoming a chef to a vegan restaurant when I get a bit older, but that wouldn't really be for me. I want to be a veterinarian, so maybe, just maybe, I could try to make the life of animals better. Or even ease some of the pain of those who are coming to their ends.

- Personally I don't understand when people say they couldn't be vegan because of cheese, or seem to think I made some kind of sacrifice when I gave cheese made from dairy up. I didn't. I just saw all of those pictures taken from the farms that "produce" milk by exploiting and hurting poor animals, and I felt no regret, ever. I don't really use vegan cheese much, pretty much only as a topping for pizza on special occasions. (Obviously I'm applauding for all the vegans who did struggle to get over (dairy) cheese. You did the right choice and I'm so proud of you!)

Thank you for being here, you know. Really.

Also, a question for you: Do you think it is right to call an animal "se" (it) in Finnish when talking? As background information for those who are not Finnish, in casual talk people often call other people "se" too.

I don't think it'd be wrong to do that, but I avoid it myself. All animals are "hän" (a third person pronoun, gender neutral) for me. Maybe they wouldn't be, if everyone or at least the majority of people understood their inherent worth as living, feeling beings.

Thank you once again!

hehe moi!! ihana tavata sinut myös!! 💗💗💗

🥩 - ah yes i also feel bad seeing mutuals post meat pictures. :( any time i see pictures of animal products or hear people talking about preparing them i remember all the ways animals are currently hurting. im sorry to hear you experience this so much. its good to hear you try your best to keep your space happy

🍎 - omg i love love love that you feel better about eating now !! 🥰 disordered eating is... hell. i have heard this is the case for SO many vegans. so nice that something we can do to help other animals also helps us and the enviroment. ding ding ding, you just won peace at heart. ❤ i got the job title of a cook before i went vegan and working at kitchens is fun besides the fact you are forced to taste meat dishes at work though unless it's a vegan place and i HATE it. 😢 becoming a vet is amazing omg, that takes some serious skill! a vet and a vegan fit together perfectly. you will be perfect for the job because you truly care 🐷🐮🐱 i wish i could make something soijarouhe based for you ahaha

🧀 - i agree, after i connected the dots and went vegan all of the arguments i made as a meat eater sound SO weird to me. i like how cheese tastes very much but because of the animal suffering involved i never really missed it again after going vegan. "taste or life?" is the best way to put it! but indeed vegans who struggled to give up cheese or really miss it are absolutely legends! :D

🐷 - okay so my situation with finnish pronouns is pretty weird 😅 basically, i have always used "se" for everyone. my family and friends all use "se" for everyone. it just comes so naturally ehehe... unless i'm talking about someone in front of them, then i'm more... alert? animal rights is such an important subject to me so when i talk about it i'm very alert as well. i do often use the "hän" pronoun for the reason you mentioned. sp it can help others consider how other animals are important individuals too 😁

💗 - thank you too lovely anon. for your interesting ask and the kindest words 💌

#we just got a letter

[diabolik-boys]

Hi admin, I'm a few days late, I needed to find the right words

I enjoy your blog very much (And I think you're sometimes too nice to rude messages, but I like that you stand your ground)

Your dedication to keeping the characters in-character shines through. It's visible even in short posts, and I greatly appreciate it

You are not a content machine, you're a real person behind this screen, and there's a lot of work that goes into what you do. Art is often times work. And work takes energy. You're dedicating energy to this blog, and your work isn't something to be brushed aside as "mindless content"

I know how hard accepting your own work can be, even when others praise it. So if someone saying "Your work is good!" doesn't feel genuine, I'll say its fun. Fandom is supposed to be fun, and your headcanons, your rp interactions, your meme/template responses, they're all fun and I enjoy seeing them on my dash

While "fun" may not be the best way to describe recent personal posts, I'll say that they don't make me want to unfollow you. Is that the right word choice? I don't want you to "stop talking about depressing stuff and get back to posting content"

And while I know there's not much a stranger on the internet can do through an ask, I still hope that you can have a steady recovery, and positive experiences will come your way

This was such a nice thing to read for the start of my day today... Thank you so much for taking the time to send something so thoughtful and kind as this for me.

I appreciate your words very much... More often than not, I'm constantly worried about my writing for my blog and if I'm making good content. But having messages like yours make me feel better...

Thank you. I worry sometimes about making a post about my mental health and how I'm not doing well will deter people from my blog. But having people like you supporting me throughout any lows I have with my depression helps tremendously. It makes me feel like I have close friends even if my followers don't know me personally. It's very kind of you and many others to send positivity my way.

Thank you again. I hope you continue to like my content in the future. - Admin Azusa

#admin #text #sfw #ask #diabolik boys #diabolik-boys

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

Did you catch the latest translator drama after Jimin’s live? That one account that didn’t choose the best word choice and caused the masses to misinterpret Jimin’s words about the fan who was 5 during BTS’ debut? How do you usually approach things like this? Do you unfollow and block right away in these types of situations or do you need more substantial proof of translators being antis to take action? The translator in question has had a ‘history’ of questionable translations so I understand people not wanting to continue following them. But I also am one to not always unfollow at the slightest ‘mistranslation.’ I recall you saying that if people saw your following list, it may look to some people like you’re an anti. I feel the same way only because I require more substantial proof of wrong doing or intentional offence before I unfollow. A lot of the “report & block” call to actions seem trivial in my opinion and I try to do my own research to see if there’s more to it. But I respect everyone’s choice to follow/unfollow/block anyone they see fit.

Yes, I did see some stuff going around and how that translator had some questionable tweets in the past. I personally don't follow that account, but I saw other people retweeting in real time during the live, so to me, it was mostly about refreshing my feed from time to time so I can catch up with whatever Jimin said, regardless of the source. I won't go and check the following list of every single account that I follow. I don't care.

I would say your approach is similar to mine. I definitely don't care what a report account tells its followers to do. When I see the replies with just the word "Done", people just executing the order, it angers me a bit, and then I move it. Because it encourages people to not make their own judgement and also turns them into watchdogs and informants. In this current twitter culture, a following list is automatically considered endorsement list. When any sane, mature person can have various reasons for being up to date with what certain people say.

I certainly don't go on a blocking spree, twitter is not important to me as it is for other people. If course, my experience and engagement with that platform is different, so I can only talk from my perspective. If something simply annoys me or I'm tired of seeing, I mute it and move on. I'm not fixated on it because I'm not an active participant in the community. Which is a main reason why this issue gets so much attention. It matters to the people who are part of it. For me, twitter is nothing but a source of information. I watch drama from the side.

The best thing you can do is just think for yourself and make decisions based on your judgements. That's just your business, no one else's.

#bmt asks #army translators #army report accounts

[golbrocklovely]

I disagree with your previous statement. A “influencer” is there to not only entertain but to provide influence, its in the title. You dont just get 100k+ people following you for nothing.

I believe a influencer or person who chooses to be a public figure, giving their two cents on a war that is actively happening in another country, or speaking of a natural disaster in another country is not comparable to a 50year old health right currently happening in one’s own country because this is a human right that we have the power to truly change unlike a foreign war. Anyone with a uterus or someone who is a partner to someone with a uterus and is pro choice should be talking about it. This isn’t about “you can google it yourself”, its about getting the word out to your 100k+ followers that if we do this we can be of great influence to our nation. Cant go out to protest?, protest via social media, here are links, here are pressures you can place on your state representative, here are ways to protect yourself from getting arrested and go undetected, here are ways YOU can contribute (sale your art). Here share this, donate to my stream which i will then donate to a prochoice health clinic. Simply saying “don’t expect it from them” or just “unfollow” isn’t the way, then why on earth do they have a massive platform (having that many followers just because is not normal) and are allowed to make an income off it if you are just going to stay quiet on an issue that can affect 90% of your audience perhaps not today but in a few years. If we tell these influencers “hey you have a big platform, can you talk about this and get the word out”, i see nothing wrong with that and if they dont then to me personally it means they dont give a fuck and or are pro-life.

Blm, asian hate, understandably some wont get involved because they don’t belong to that specific race, and sometimes even as an ally you may come off in a negative way while actively trying to understand the hurt from this specific group of people while advocating for them. However, this right here is talking about not only a women’s health issue but one of our biggest rights in this country, 50yrs of it being taken away that can lead to other things being taken away which should be a huge deal to everyone. Personally it feels like a slap in the face to ignore it and talk about something so baseless and materialistic and for the only options to be unfollow or look it up yourself.

i mean, they get called that, but i don't think it literally means they must influence those that follow them. i think it's more the other way around: that because they have a following, they have the ability to influence those that following them, whether or not that was something they wanted in the first place.

but no one signs up to be an influencer. it mostly just happens. they don't sign up to gain 100s and 1000s of ppl to follow them to tell them about what's going on in the world or in their country. there are some political and news commentators. but snc are not those. none of the ppl they are friends with are those. which is why i don't expect them to say anything. i would hope they would want to, but i also understand why they may not (whether that's bc maybe they have dealt with someone who has had an abortion and don't want to speak on it, maybe they don't know enough to say anything, maybe they don't know what to say, ect)

personally to me, i don't expect ppl to use their platforms. while i would love for some to at least speak out, as long as it doesn't seem like they side with the oppressors, than that's probably the best we're gonna get in some instances. and i've learned to accept that bc it's not worth the strength it takes to get angry at these ppl bc they aren't the problem. there is a bigger picture to focus on.

most influencers are entertainers. they are here to entertain us with their content. and to say they HAVE to educate their audience is not something i can agree with. it's not their job to tell their audience what's happening in the world. they are not new sources, they don't know everything that is going on, they don't have to be fact checked to say something off the walls or stupid. it is up to us individually to educate ourselves.

they got their following from the content they make, not the political stances they might have. i don't think remaining silent means they are pro-choice either. again, i think there is a bigger picture that needs to be looked at, and it doesn't include calling out influencers who make tiktoks lip-syncing and shaking ass. they aren't the problem. it's the old fucking white men in power that are the problem, and the overzealous religious crowd that just sees anyone that can have a child as a walking womb. those are the ppl that need to be targeted and yelled at. those are the ppl that need to be silenced and taken down a peg.

blm and stop asian hate is in the same ballpark as roe being overturned. it's intersectionality at it's finest. while some might not have felt comfortable speaking up or knowing what to say when all of that was happening online, it all lines up in the end. i agree, this effects everyone, way more than most realize. another anon, that i haven't answered yet, said that snc probably haven't said anything bc of their privilege, and i think that's 100% right. i don't think they realize how deep this runs. and while i would love for them to say something or to wake and see what's happening, again, i'm not gonna hold my breath. they aren't the ones that caused this to happen, they aren't gonna be where my anger goes towards.

if you want to be angry at influencers that don't use their platform to talk about this, that's fine. you have every right to. and you can go on and call them out for it too. i'm just not gonna be one of them. it's not a materialistic or baseless argument, but the fact of the matter is, you can't change who doesn't speak up. all you can do is speak as loud as you can, and hope someone hears that can ACTUALLY change things, like politicians or those that apparently still need to be persuaded.

#ask #personal

[queenof-narnia-blog]

Dec 20, 2023

(Caught you w/ new fb account ~ created just for her)

Paulit ulit tayo kasi kahit na nahuli na kita at lahat mas pipiliin mo pa din maglie. Kaya yun yung pilit ko iniintindi. Akala ko tapos na e. Akala ko yung sa babae mo tinapos mo na lahat the moment na nahuli ko kayo. Pero hindi pala. Tangina!!!!

Habang galit ako, mag friend request ka dun?

Una, pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat is mambabae ka at makipagkita sa kanya or kanimo man ng hindi ko alam. Tapos dinagdagan mo pa ng paulit ulit na pagsisinungaling. Worst is, tangina alam mo na nasaktan ako sa mga nabasa at nalaman ko.. tapos makikita ko.. sa kabila ng mga luha ko at halos mamatay na ako sa sobrang sakit ng ginawa mo.. pinipili mo pa din siya. At wag mong sabihin na hindi kasi choice mong mag explain muna sa kanya bago sa akin at uulitin ko ulit.. tinawagan mo siya nung nalaman ko pero ako never mo tinawagan. Tapos malaman-laman ko nlg ngayon.. meron kang ibang fb unang sinearch mo ay siya pa talaga at meron pang friend request. Tangina ang gago naman nun. Dadahilan ka pa na matagal na yung fb na yan at kung ano ano pang dahilan.

Nakakagago yun.

Sobrang sakit.

Pinatawad kita ng paulit ulit at lagi mo sinasabi last na last na. Pero hindi pa naman talaga. Kasi araw-araw may nalalaman ako na panibagong kasinungalingan.. tapos sasabihin mo wala lang yun or magdadahilan ka.

Hanggang ngayon, ayaw mo umamin at parang mali ko pa na sinasabihan kita ng mga gantong bagay pati ibang tao dadamay mo pa sa mga lies mo. Its not good Mykel. How dare you na mag send ng request sa taong dahilan kung bakit tayo ganito ngayon? How dare you to send her a friend request when you knew, I caught you cheating with her? I was crying the whole day of Dec 7. And here you are, busy still trying your best to win her back. I thought, everything was finished between you two nung nalaman ko.. pero hindi pala. Hinahabol mo pa pala siya. Kaya hindi sa wala lang yun. Kasi alam mo sa sarili mo yan. Lagi mo sinasabi sa akin na naawa ka na sa akin pero ganun pa din naman ginagawa mo. Tinanggap kita kahit na lumandi ka sa iba.. pero yung ngayon?? Need pa nga kitang sabihan na unfollow mo siya sa Ig na dapat hindi ko na dapat sabihin yun kasi matik mo na.. pero ano ginawa mo? Wala. So, anong suyo sinasabi mo? E halos ako nga nagtatadtad ng text sa iyo para lang maka pag usap tayo.

At total, naiintindihan mo na din naman kung bakit ayaw ko na.. at sabi mo nga, ayaw mo na din ako pilitin na balikan ka kahit na binalikan na kita nung isang araw. Hahhaha tanginang yan. At wag mong sasabihin na lalong dumadami kasi natural lalong dumadami yung mga nalalaman ko sa iyo. At dba nga ayaw mo umamin na meron ka pa palang isang fb pero wala e nahuli pa din kita. Kaya sabi ko sa iyo yung mga tinatago.. malalaman at malalaman ko din naman. Kaya di ko alam bakit mas pinipili mong mag lie kesa magsabi ng totoo. At mas mabuti na din na malaman ko na ngayon kesa sa susunod pa at tumagal pa yang fb mo na hindi ko alam e mas lalong masakit na yun. Nag delete ka ng mga convos so di ko na din naman malalaman pa yun. Konsensya mo nlg..

Hiling ko lang maging honest ka sabi mo naman oo hinding-hindi na at magbabago ka na pero heto tayo ngayon same shit. Tanggap mo naman na ayaw ko na sa iyo at ayaw mo na din na bumalik ako sa iyo. So, the feeling is mutual. I guess this time its finally over. Masaya lang ako ngayon kasi habang tina-type ko to. Ni isang luha walang pumatak. Hindi na ako magmamaka-awa sa iyo na maayos to. Again, I'll let you go. You can fix yourself without me. Nakayanan mo naman na hindi mag text sa akin lalo na nung November kaya alam ko okay lang sa iyo lahat ng nangyayari. Iloveyou but it's over. I will no longer tolerate your lies. At hindi ko matanggap na gumawa ka ng fb tapos i-add mo yung babaeng yan. Sana maging masaya kayo.. for sure naman kahit paano e nag uusap pa din kayo. Alam ko yan imposibleng hindi kasi nasa same team kayo. Kaya mag ingat ka nlg at ingatan mo sarili mo.. andito naman ako palagi. Di ko sinayang at lalong di ko itinapon na parang basura yung relasyon natin. Until the end, nagtry ako na bumalik sa dati. Pero hindi na talaga.. mahirap pag may lamat na. Ayusin mo nlg sarili mo para kung magka jowa ka man ulit.. hindi na siya masasaktan ng ganito. 🙃

#thoughts

[fantrollology-bios]

ashes to ashes, dust to dust, the guys are fuckboys, the girls are sluts

Last Updated 4/6/2023

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Art by fnatrolls!

— intro —

Your name is IONYLL ORDAVE. 

You are a member of the LUCID, an interdimensional society granting its followers gifts like THE ENERGY OF THE DYNASTIC, PANSOPHICAL VISION, and IMMORTALITY as aids in their everlasting quest to, uh, what was it again? Whatever, blah blah blah! The most important thing is that you escaped the stupid cold and boring grub caverns and now you wield MAGIC. The real shit, too. Forget lowblood psionics (lame) or highblood durability (yawn)! And what, all it cost you was your LEFT EYE? Oh yeah, and a bit of your SOUL. Whatever the fuck that really means. All you have to do is recruit more beneath you and you rake in even more fantastical abilities; though TBH, you’re pretty cool with what you’ve got. 

Getting out of the ground had its struggles but you’ve landed yourself a pretty sweet deal. You live with your moirail, PJ, in his hivestem situated above his little soap shop. He doesn’t even make you pay rent! Probably just because you are so fucking awesome. Plus, he rakes in enough cash scamming richies anyways.

In your free time you work on your abilities, attend whatever social events you get so much of a whiff of, and doll yourself the fuck up. You’re pretty fond of cosmetics, though you’re not the best at them, and love watching tutorials and following all of the hilarious internet drama in the community. You’re not, like, invested, but if NYXELF MACOPI doesn’t release an apology for killing SEPHOR AULTAA’s auspice within the next week you’re unfollowing. So unnecessary.

— basics —

Name: Ionyll (Io) Ordave Pronouns: She/her

Orientation: Bisexual, tends to crush more on guys

Age: ~11 Sweeps

Height: 5'4"”

Location: Townhouse apartment above a soap shop on Alternia

Occupation: Unemployed

 — alternia —

Caste: Jade, #004C34

Lusus: None, grew up in the caverns.

Weapon of Choice: Magic

Abilities: Various dark magic abilities

— personality —

Sign: ♊ Gemini

Likes: Makeup, her magic, boring men who make her feel special, partying, doodling her eye on stuff, pampering herself, The Bellhop

Dislikes: Criticism, people who are prettier than her, ‘24 hour lipsticks’ that are NOT 24 hours, cult obligations

— plot —

Current Status: Smoking weed in her underwear

Goals: Sexy and free

Open Hooks:

    ●   Her backstory has a lot of pieces but I’d love to flesh out the details. If you have a Jadeblood cavern that she could be a former member of, let me know :-)

    ●   Even better if you have jadebloods from that cavern who would have known her     ●   Not directly associated, but if you’d like to have your character be a member of the Lucid I am open to that! Let me know :D

Past plotlines:     ●   Leaving the Caverns & Joining the Lucid - No content yet!

— relationships —

Romantic:

    ♥   Matesprit Name - #None - [N/A]

    ♦   PJ - #Scams R Us - You don’t like mentioning it, and neither does he, but PJ kind of scraped you up off the sidewalk. You question a lot what exactly about you charmed him, but he really makes it seem like it’s everything. It’s super lame, but you don’t know where you’d be without him. It’s nice to have someone you can be completely yourself around, even if you don’t really know who that is.

    ♠   Kismesis Name - #None - [N/A]

Platonic:

    ●   The Bellhop - ????? - ?????

    ●   Bealxi J - #None - Fellow party girl and one of your besties. If PJ won’t take you somewhere, you can count on Bea!

— links —

Playlist ● Character Tag ● Art

Interest Tag ● Asks

#io

[muji-milk]

hey! same anon who said that the quotes around affirmation felt very terf-like. first i wanted to say that your response is exactly why i wanted to give you a chance to answer, but i was just letting you know how the way you wrote it came across to me (who is admittedly an american and maybe there’s a text difference for how things are written. we use quotes to dismiss an idea or to indicate sarcasm) and offer a reason as to why those people may have unfollowed without waiting to hear more from you. i think having a healthy conversation around how we treat dysphoria is important!

anyway! i think maybe the disconnect lies in what we call gender affirming care. i’m sure that’s the technical term for what results in medical transition in the UK, but it should be more general! i would absolutely agree that your experience where you sought counseling and worked out what your gender was and that transitioning wasn’t for you totally counts as gender affirming care. you weren’t pressured to transition and you were allowed to explore what you felt and what you needed. i have a friend who went through the same as you and feels better without having transitioned. i agree it’s also a shame that we have no way to keep track of people who have done this.

in a perfect world, counseling would be the best step for a young person who’s figuring out their gender. in fact, that was a requirement here in the US for a loooong time before someone could see an endocrinologist for hormones. to reiterate my point from my last ask though, not all counselors are one in the same about how they counsel people. i say this 1. as a trans person who (briefly) went through conversion therapy as a teen, and 2. as someone about to graduate with a masters in counseling. they drill into us in my program that we aren’t supposed to let our beliefs change how we counsel someone, but it does happen. so, just like many of the medical clinics here in the US that would turn away young ppl trying to transition, i also worry about how many of them would be affected by counselors who would steer them from the help they need. i hope that made sense, i just wanted to kind of add that to the conversation.

Tbh i tried to italicise the word affirmation but tumblr mobile kept fucking it up 🫠 so yeah the marks were just emphasis.

Like you said in a perfect world there should be more steps of evaluation. (Honestly, in a perfect world no one would be trans but that's another thing to discuss) but if we're talking about improving the current system, it should really be reframed 'gender related care'. Or gender considerate psychoanalysis. Or gender focussed counseling. Any of these terms instantly imply a more neutral and comprehensive approach.

But yes despite a rebranding or the terminology its still soo hard to get true impartially from anyone involved! Even you being trans, if you become a professional counselor that would create a personal bias within you. Just as being a woman or man, being rich, or black or old, etc, would do.

Regarding the approach to treatment of gender dysphoric youth, time is the biggest teller. Not statistics about trans peoples deaths and lives (which we don't even have enough of to draw conclusions. Its still a fairly modern thing!), not the opinions of your parents, not the advice of an affirmation clinic or a conversion therapist; but most importantly, not even your own feelings can be said to be true and trustworthy and permanent. People change their minds every day about trivial things and major issues, you feel like a different person every year, you learn and grow and its a humans' lifelong task to find and understand oneself. So, like you, I'm also worried about those being steered in a particularly firm direction at a young age. Whichever that direction is! Neither affirmation or conversion therapy should be the only immediately presented choices because you can't know how the individual's inner feelings will grow and change as they get older. That's why words like 'affirmation' and 'life saving' and even 'living your truth' are so loaded; they constantly present that one route as the best option and the younger you start the better, the way you think now is how you'll think forever, and you'll just die otherwise.

#but about myself: i didnt receive counseling related to gender #i never actually mentioned it to her #it was like over a year after i changed back to myself and it was no longer struggle for me by then #so i wouldnt count thay as gender affirming care #the literal definition of GA care: to support an individuals gender identity when it conflicts with their assigned birth gender #soooo that isnt a neutral approach to dysphoria.......

[butchviking]

About losing followers though… I know a lot of people in these spaces don’t want to want the procedures but still have gender dysphoria, sex dysphoria, and/or body dysmorphia (including ED origin) who just cannot stand to hear or see anyone talk about getting top surgery because it sets them off.

Unfollowing for many may be less a negative comment on you and more a personal choice for them. I know I considered it and eventually decided I was in a stable enough place and it would be good for me to see your different choices and thoughts and ground myself step by step in how they don’t need to influence me, make me get stuck thinking about it, etc.

My own body dysphoria around my chest has gone down mostly to this rare rare low point from a lot of different interventions between trying out not wearing a bra and doing tanks instead to addressing my body issues around fat to quitting disparaging remarks and working out core muscles instead of feeling “weird and lumpy” about myself or seeing removing the “offending parts” as the solution to my sensory issues and troubleshooting harder. No idea if any of that makes sense but on the off chance it helps anyone there it is.

Again best of luck no matter what

oh no i know i was just being silly! i am not offended by losing followers on tumblr.com i promise u <3 i know many of them may not want 2 see these conversations fr personal reasons, & tbh any time im posting a lot & losing followers i kind of just assume its mostly a case of 'hey, what's she talking about now? didnt i follow this blog for feminist posts like 3 years ago? all she talks about now is weird shit and my chemical romance. im out.' lmao

thank u fr sharing yr experiences tho; i hope its helpful to some ppl reading. there really are a lot of other ways 2 cope w dysphoria i want 2 be very clear on that, extreme measures aren't the right call for everyone nd there's often much better, safer ways to manage.

#ask #anonymous #tsposting

[jokeson-u]

unfollow me if you think sex work should be illegal. dont act like being anti prostitution is some feminist ideology when its nothing other than your own internalized misogyny telling you that you know better than sex workers and feel entitled to their autonomy. sure, some sex workers end up in the line of business bc lack of choice. so focus on criticizing lack of job opportunities and why that is. focus on rehabilitation for homeless people before they turn to sex work if that really concern you. but dont demonize a valid, legitimate line of work because you think you know best for all women. guess what? women are capable of making their own choices! for a lot of sex workers, their job IS liberating an powerful to them. stop projecting your hatred towards sex work when its just a thinly veiled excuse to hate sex workers.

[impscar]

Hey, I noticed you following me a while ago and I try my best to follow back as many of my followers as possible. I didn't follow back right away because I noticed you're a minor in your bio...Well I forgot and followed back anyway just now. I don't really mind minors following me(most of the ones following me now are from when I was under 18 or I was just not paying attention and it just feels weird to ask now o_o) as long as they understand I might rb somthing suggestive, It doesn't happen often at all, and they know it's not for them(yet, be older <_<), never anything actually explicit tho as like a middleground. I'm 20 and If you want me to unfollow I will. I just wanna know so I'm not crossing anything. I hope you have a nice, safe, currated experience👍

hi thank you for asking I really dont mind adults following me, my blog is for everyone, I just dont like super explicit/18+ blogs following me. I meant 18+ as in like, nsfw. it's fine if you stay followed or unfollow, its ur choice ig man