#if space didnt listen

[poneglph]

Shout out to space for listening to my nsf/w teach hcs really taking one for the team

#if space didnt listen #then i would he forced to post them here #and none of you want to see that #its so awful

[greencarnation]

eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him

#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds #but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve #when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was #but ok listen #its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him #episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun #episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind #and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people #episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing #all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror #like obviously we know why but amy didnt #this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry #and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate #you would make a good dalek ect ect ect #anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go #i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great #doctor who #eleven #amy #eleventh doctor #matt smith #dr who #dw #i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him #eleven was careening completely out of control #how long til doctor means warrior indeed? #mine

[reegis]

hi if you still want doodle requests.. something involving cinders and rose.. please..

just some beautiful brides enjoying their wedding… what could possibly go wrong….

#the mechanisms #ouatis cinders #ouatis rose #once upon a time (in space) #ouatis #listen ik they were having a rushed Secret Wedding so probably didnt get fancy dresses. BUT. #have u considered i love them & they deserve it? #asks #my art

[jojotier]

Okay but like I wonder if earth c has a genre of media thats just modern retellings / retellings/ Reimaginings of the events of the game but like the denizens of earth c treat those events like we treat mythology.

Like imagine if you will. Youre like, Dirk or someone right, and you hear about this niche indie folk group called the Machinations or whatever who pretend to be immortal space pirates. theyre supposed to do a lot of tragedies. Not really your scene but whatever.

Then you learn that apparently the bit of the game where you chop your head off and ship it to Jake for a smooch is a bonafide Myth, with all the Trappings of religious ceremony and discourse. Very weird to think about, but again, whatever.

Then you learn that the Machinations have Retold This Story. In song form. And youre like okay wait what bc theres an entire subset of people going wild over it so you listen and the song is a jaunty electroswing deal where a half feral Brittish man pretending to be you sings about needing a lil love to heat up along with the heat of the literal volcano

So you are now realizing theres an entire album of these things reimagining your creation of the entire universe as a 1920s esque bootlegging operation gone horrorterrors with cosmic horror somehow and you gotta wonder. What goes through your head there? Hope no one knows yet? Indifference? Annoyance that the sole rap number on the album was given to Jane and Gumshoe Gunshow ? like what do you as god do when people are writing highly marketable fanfiction about you

#homestuck #dirk strider #dirkjake #i was listening to mechs albums again gjksfk #idk man listening to an album about arthurian knights but as tragic space cowboys and trans mordred kinda rewired something #i just didnt wanna use the real name of the band bc like gjkskfi those were real people #this is just a silly thought #anyway listen to the bifrost incident

[mistykaru]

i got stuff from the csp asset store and i wanted to play with it so this is a mess but i did have fun and i kinda dig the vibes

#andreil #aftg #the foxhole court #all for the game #i just thought the lil computer window borders were so cute #also okay listen my vision: #lmao i just wrote college au and completely forgot the canon story is in college pls #but like alt where neil does the photos bc he gets a camera #art majors???? #idk what's going on my vision is gone i am blind now #it was like a we pass each other on campus and a double take with warning signs is happening #i just thought the warning signs looked kinda cool #i also wanted the wavey thing to be a heartbeat w a skippy in it but i didnt know how to make it look nice it wasn't cooperating #and honestly i was getting tired of trying to figure out what should go in the space #i am not an aesthetic person idk how people do the fancy lil edits all the time #i draw i dont do graphic design i dont have the frog within necessary #myart #anyway im running away now bc idk how i feel about this bye

[nyxie-e-e]

GAVIN QUOTES THAT I HAVE ROTTING IN MY NOTES APP BECAUSE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

S/N: He (along with Milo and Guy ofcc<33) is the reason why I know what healthy love looks like

- [ ] “How should I fuck you tonight?”

- [🥺 ] “What I want right now is for you to be happy”

- [ ] “You can do anything you want to me, Deviant”

- [😍 ] “Call it arrogance but i know my appeal just as i am”

- [ ] “I don’t want easy. I want to be a person. My own person”

- [🥺] “Being alive and living are two different things”

- [ ] “I might not check the box for every single person out there but I don’t want to”

- [ ] “You get to decide which parts of yourself you get to share with other people”

- [ ] “I don’t take that trust lightly and it is reciprocated”

- [ ] Thank you for trusting me… and for letting me know that I’m fucking another guy’s charge”

- [🥺😭♥️] “You can set the world down now. That doesn’t make you a failure that doesnt make you weak there isn’t a finish line you didn’t get to, there is just your life stretched out ahead of you. There are people in your life who care about you”

- [🥺😭♥️ ] “We’re here for you. I’m here for you” *hugs* it’s gonna be okay you’re okay. You don’t have to be everything for everyone. You matter to and it is not selfish to admit that”

- [ ] “This is not you breaking this is you taking control. This is you redefining your circumstances instead of letting them control you”

- [ ] “It’s time to start living”

- [ ] “I know I’m awful but would you want me if I was anything else”

- [🥺 ] “You’re not alone. You don’t have to do this alone anymore”

- [😭 ] “You honor me by letting me see this side of you”

- [😭😭 ] “Because i don’t want the words the impact you’ve had on my life to go unheard”

- [☺️] “You know all of these things but i like saying them”

- [*crying cat meme*] “Cherished words that carry my love to you and hold you in blissful rest”

- [🥺] I want you to have peace, so my words bring you peace. It’s that simple and it’s nice for something to be simple for a change

- [🥺 ] But you held on. You made space. You asked me to step into that space.. no one ever asks me for that

- [🥺♥️ ] “You are loved and loving and what you do matters so very much”

My love🥺

#I honestly never thought I would simp so hard for him LMAO #when I first listened to him I was like 😐 #but now I’m like 🥺😩😭🥰😍♥️ #y’know? #I relate to freelancer a lot and there’s just something about Gavin’s words and the way he carries himself that just does it for me #OMG I CANT BELIEVE I DIDNT ADD THE SPACE BETWEEN MY STARS QUOTE AAAAA THAT ONE TOOO^^ #ALSO ALSO WATCHING WELL IG LISTENING TO HIM BE HIMSELF FULLY WITH THE DAMN CREW IS SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL LIKE AAA HE IS SO PLAYFUL & FLIRTY #I love his confidence so much #I also love how gentle he can be though 🥺 #THE WAY HE CONFESSES HIS LOVE 10000000 TIMES IS JUST AAAA I LOVE ITTTT #OKOK THIS IS GETTING LONG #redacted asmr #redacted audio #redacted damn crew #redacted freelancer #redacted gavin

[rotshop]

better to reign in yuri than serve in yaoi or something who gaf

[ details / close ups under cut ]

#space funeral #rpg maker #art.jpeg #tw eyestrain #tw eye gore #tw eye horror #tw bright colors #i gave up on the background tbh i meant to take a break but i just wanted to be done with this already #i started this in december for a mutuals contest and didnt finish in time because i had other thangs to do #and just kind of. procrastinated. listen i love art. however this was agonizing #thank you and goodnight

[clits-and-clips]

Spiralling AGAIN would you believe it

#txt #trying to figure it out #i tried to be there for jim and listen to him and be a good partner #but he barely opened up #i didnt know he wanted to leave me #he chose to open up when i was mad #so i didnt respond #so that i didnt yell #not that that is his fault #i should have done better #but i couldny #in that house #i was so overstimulated all the fucking tome #time #like always #and i didnt even realise it #until he kicked me put #out* #and now im just guilty over everything. #why wasnt i better #why cpuldnt i be better #its not fair that he didnt tell me #3 months and you really couldnt tell me what was on your mind #thats unfair man #i was trying so hard to be better #to do better #giving him space is almost impossible #hes my best friend and my soul mate #i dont want to talk to anyone else tbh #so being ignored is like a knife to my chest and idk what to do about it and this is my last tag i can put it and i just dont even know

[sentientstump]

this has been the Labyrinth of Puzzles!!

original

#i didnt think that i would draw the liminal space of a background but hey listen- #i should really start thinking beyond lineart. everyone ive seen thinks about the background beforehand and im here like #haha random colours go brr until like... they almost barely fit the vibe yknow #pauseunpause #ethoslab #vintagebeef #team canada #artstump

[deafeninggardenerpanda]

*twirling my hair giggling fluttering my eyelashes* heyyyyy any of the cool gsa kids want to talk to me tee hee

#i should start trying to establish myself in the space more #(i say while only drawing 50x context removed doodles) #(and then jumping between 50 different niche fixations) #hey but listen to this though. you will get More gsa doodles if you ask questions how about that #im like that dude who would make an ask blog. if i didnt know what was best for me LMAO #kirby #sir falspar #sir dragato #krbay #kirby right back at ya #my art

[glitterghost]

There is something so special about delving into a new thing™️ on your own. Stewing with it, and soaking in everything it is. By yourself, with limited outside influence. It gives you this ability to discover it and get to know it in a familiar way that you can appreciate. It solidifies your love for it. So when you do eventually jump into fandom (if you decide to), you have a solid foundation of its worth. The value you gave it. And in a way, it's something no one else can touch because it's so close to your heart, wrapped in your protection and love.

Idk, I just think it's kind of important to experience that, to have something others can't take away from you. Because at the end if the day, it's the worth you gave it that matters most. 🥀

#bad omens #sleep token #i really did this with bad omens #i didnt know anyone really that listened to them and rant posted a lot on her about my feelings with it #thehalvesthathalveyou was my first friend in that space #i have a few more trusted ones bc they gave the casual safe space feeling for me and they were mutuals with my first friend also #fandom spaces can be so hard to navigate and i really feel like its important to sit with things if you can #idk it just makes you love whatever it is so much more #maybe that just me but who knows #nevermind me im just having feelings #here* curse not being able to edit a preexisting tag

[kaphzzz]

Day 6 - Wide open spaces

#rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #my vp #rdr #rockstar games #arthur morgan #yeehawgust #yeehawgust 2023 #yes i did listen to the song #but i already envisioned a close up of his eyes #but it didnt quite turn out that way and now it just looks like the hole in his forehead is the wide open space #im sorry #lol

[cornerfolks]

to clarify some things just because

this is a funny

i cant claim to know what the inspirations for myhouse were aside from, very obviously, house of leaves

yume nikki itself is inspired by lsdde, but i feel like its usage of wordless Suggested storytelling may have influenced my house, where you can try to piece together a story just from the spaces you travel- in yn you have multiple worlds like that, the first that comes to mind being the hit and run.

lsd dream emulator i feel may have influenced my house Independently from yume nikki, particularly with the way levels interconnect and loop back around on one another in a 3d setting

P.T. definitely belongs here like obviously but consider this: i forgor. and itd look weird if it wasnt a triangle. realistically, its Probably an even bigger influence than house of leaves. i mean, it's PT. its PT.

the complete absence, aside from HoL, of house-centric media is not an oversight because despite everything, myhouse really isn't about the house. the "haunted house" isnt the house itself, it's the doom map of the house- the building is irrelevant, what matters is that its the space Tom created. the reason the house's layout repeats itself everywhere isn't because the house matters, it's because that was the layout tom created in the original map that steve decided to update. do you understand THIS? the house isnt alive, the myhouse.wad is alive. there is a distinction and the distinction is crucial. the analog to the house on ash tree lane isnt the house itself, because there is no real world physical house present in the story, since its only about the mod based on said house. the analog to the house on ash tree lane, to This House (skinamarink acknowledgement), to the monster house, is the map.

thank you for coming to my tedtalk. its 6:30pm and i just ate subway after i started my day at 5pm having gone to sleep at 6 something am with a full xanax following a night of drinking red bull. i need to take my magnesium pills to balance my energy.

btw the gay monster house is something i'm doing myself stay tuned for that.

in truth i dont even know if we can legitimately consider myhouse part of houseposting... but i will anyway because it carries the same spirit. even if its about a doom map. like in fiction its about a doom map.

#myhouse #myhouse.wad #myhouse.pk3 #if you people saw the original post youll see this too because we're all housefags who are in the tag looking for content that understands #it. and isnt just like WOW. LIMINAL SPACE. speaking of i think the inclusion of the backrooms and the pool area are a detriment to the mod. #at least the backrooms is a funny easter egg bc you literlaly have to noclip. #nothing major and i guess i only think that because i know about the annoying liminal space trends (emphasis on trends) i love that kind of #imagery and was interested long before their explosion in 2020. same with the backrooms. i was there in like 2018 thinking about the post. #before it all went to hell. #then again i experiened the same thing with analog horror. #perhaps nothing is sacred. #at least our little houseposting corner seems safe because to even care at all you need to understand its nuance #though that didnt stop people from ignoring what made the backrooms creepy and just adding levels and monsters to make an scp ripoff i mean #there is literally a wiki with like numbered articles and shit. its wild. #anyway. if youre reading this all the way down here hows it going? good day so far? do me a solid- go listen to a quick one before the eter #al worm devours connecticut. maybe you already know it but its one of my fav songs ever from one of my fav albums from one of my fav artist #not have a nice life in general though they rule but rather dan barrett who also did giles corey and black wing #did you know hes bisexual? its awesome. he made a song called guilt is my boyfriend. its really good. under the giles corey name

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I just wanna listen to music ragged with rage and emotional desperation. But it's kinda hard to search for that sorta thing.

#bc i guess i just Associate that sorta thing with screamo and i dont like screamo #like funeral or brutus both by the buttress are sung with so much rage and i want that #i too want to rage. i didnt get a lotta sleep last night #bc sometimes i make bad choices lol #and everytime i search like songs to rage to its like. no. u dont get it. i want songs that make me wanna start screaming and wacking #things with sticks. ya kno. a very common and universal feeling #listen. i apparently deleted a bunch of info off a backup hard drive today. like bro y didnt u tell me to b careful??? #i picked it up like ok i gotta make it work on this old ass computer. time to clear the disk space and reformat #so rip whatever was on there i guess. no used crying abt it now. that bitch is empty #hhhhh ive got that i didnt sleep feel where ur brain feels like its peeling away from ur skull #i need to go run. burn away my ✨️ RAGE✨️ #just gotta wait like an hr 🙃 unless i get call3d into a meeting rip #unrelated

[lottalove01]

rant <3

#so i told my friend im thinking abt engaging more in my christian community again starting w going to church more and visiti g exchanges etc #she kniws abt basically all my other friends being more than less religious and active in their respective communities #+ my family being religious even during soviet times and she even kniws abt the orthodox side of my family #so this shouldnt surprise her this much #why is she trying to talk me out of it saying christianity is evil and she cant agree to creationism like ok bitch me too #she acting as if im gonna become some republican american blonde woman or an primitive medieval peasant wthhh #and like i get it she and her family have always been agnostic and she doesnt have any personal experience with believe and faith #but that is even more reason to shut the hell up?? especially bc i just told her as like a life update i didnt want to start a discussion #w an agnostic no less #ppl like that make me so uncomfortable and then she kept saying things like this person is godless as a joke like stfu??? #and kept bringing up she csnt believe in god at random times it made me so umcomfortable #especially bc now i feel hesitant to invite her to hangouts w my more 'strict' friends like idk what she thinks abt them and i dont want to #expose my friends who have to listen to enough shit to someone like that like i want my home to be a safe space for my friends #anyways thats the same girl who keeps telling me she doesnt think im white and when i tell her her saying this makes me uncomfortable #shes argues its ok bc she is not white herself ok wth im literally german/slavic how is that not white im crying #cant really articulate what exactly makes me uncomfy abt this but feels like she wants to enable me its really weird #also with tge christian stuff like ive always been religious she kniws abt me reading religious texts its so weird to me #why are you my friend if you disagree with a foundamental part of my life #maybe she thoight i was an ok one bc me and my familys approach to believe and faith is very relaxed but wth man

[oswlld]

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#me listening to ttpd: okay how can i still make this about whouffaldi #everything is about whouffaldi. in case u didnt know #situationship of all time and space #ignore me