#idk why rachel is so happy about this lesson but

[angelhummel]

#glee #incorrect glee quotes #kurt hummel #incorrect quotes #rachel berry #mason mccarthy #madison mccarthy #jane hayward #roderick meeks #mine #my edits #my quotes #idk why rachel is so happy about this lesson but

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #020

(so i have barely been conscious today and I am too tired to even try to think of lyrics to put here so fuck it, this is from waaaay earlier this morning)

What is a topic you are uncomfortable with discussing with most people? My writing/RP, 120%. You are fucking LUCKY if you know about that shit. The people who know about it probably barely surpasses being able to count on one hand, if you count my past therapists. What is something you dislike about the dating world? I mean to be totally real, I don't have a lot of experience with it. I've never really dated around; I've only had three even remotely serious partners, and I had a long history with two; the other was, I will always say, like magic with how quick we connected and fell for each other. I felt very strongly for all of them, and each relationship was different. Jason and Sara failed for unique reasons, so it's really impossible to bunch them together into a shared lesson I learned from them or something. Is there a habit you’re currently trying to kick? ACTUALLY I literally decided today (or maybe yesterday?) that I want to stop peeling/picking at my nails. It's just not pretty to look at and I will do almost anything to boost my self esteem rn ok Have you ever dated someone with very different sexual tastes than you? No. Well I mean, not that I KNOW of. I've only gotten sexual with two partners. Has anyone ever been extremely jealous of you? Do you know why? I almost laughed, and then I remembered well actually, yes. Before Jason, Juan was very openly trying to date me, and his ex (I... think????? what the hell was their relationship???? fuck buddies????? bro idk) Rachel knew and was NOT fucking happy and basically harrassed me. I am FULL aware she friended me on FB to watch if anything happened between Juan and me, and boy when that relationship status changed to "taken" (for less than a day), she was on my ASS. Literally snatched my arm in the lunch room to claim she and Juan had ~gotten busy~ like two days prior or whatever, maybe even the night before. I later learned (from her) that she'd nearly punched me in the face. SO I broke up with Juan because of a mix of believing her (I absolutely do not now, in retrospect), knowing he had a rep, but also because I was NOT getting into that shit. THEN Jason comes along, and guess who I discover his serious ex was while on our first date outside Sonic? Rachel. BOY LET ME TELL YOU it was the biggest "are you actually fucking serious" moment of my LIFE like I went FULL SILENT and had to take a minute lmfao, and then Rachel hated me times like ten because she and Jason had remained friends on social media until our relationship became posted there and she had shit to say and Jason was hearing none of it. Fast-forward to now. Rachel is a FB friend again and she's been happily with my old school bud for many years and are engaged. Hell, I'd go eagerly to her damn wedding if I was invited. People. Change. She is great and I love seeing her post life update stuff. Forgiveness is a beautiful thing. What is the most meaningful gift you’ve ever given? Honestly, probably mine and Jason's first anniversary gift: a hand-made book of pictures and such of us and well over a hundred (maybe even 200+, idr how far I got) reasons I loved him. I worked very, very hard on it for a long time and even after what happened between us, I hope he has it to remember. If memories of me make him happy at all. Which I would understand if they didn't. What was the angriest your parents ever were at you? I don't know about my dad, but two instances come to mind for Mom: when I briefly ran away from home as a kid or when I texted her back "fuck you" for being extremely insensitive. That ride home was NOT FUN. It might actually be the fight where she tried kicking me out of the car, I can't remember. Do you feel as though someone "won" in your last break-up? No; I don't believe either "lost," either, though. We just simply weren't good for each other romantically. What ever happened to the first person you ever loved? I don't know. It's a painful and scary thing to not know, but I will say it again and again and again: it's better we don't have contact. I mean I THINK Jason's brother or brother's wife is on Mom's Facebook (it's how she learned about his mom) so she'd probably learn if something truly horrible happened to Jason, but. What is the biggest difference between you and your best friend? Girt is WAY more hardworking and determined than I am. That man will bash his head against a fuckin wall til it gave way. What is something most people are turned on by but you’re not? Porn. Like I just DO NOT wanna see two random people get busy. Has anyone in your life changed drastically (for better or worse) since you met them? How? My dad, for one. Rachel, from earlier. Myself. I don't feel like explaining. Is there anything you wish you had done with a current/previous significant other? Uh, sometimes I wish I hadn't been abstinent and fully "known" Jason for lack of not knowing how to put it BUT when I consider the realism of just how fucking head over heels as well as just stupid I was, I would NOT be surprised if I had winded up a teen mom, because I was also pro-life then. THAT woulda been a goddamn hellfest. What song reminds you of good times from high school? Don't even try to convince me otherwise, "All Signs Point to Lauderdale" by AD2R is THE High School Vibe. Like the lyrics aren't very positive but idc man it makes me Remember and feel old. Do you own any jewelry made out of shells? No. Have you ever made your own website? Multiple times. Do you like men who have a sensitive side? I personally do. Have you talked to your special someone today? Yeah, we talk every day. Have you ever tried to get someone into a certain band/artist? Yeah, and it worked. *finger guns* Have you ever carved you and someone else's initials into a tree? I have not. Do you like Dairy Queen? Yep. Have you ever used glitter as one of your makeup items? Oh yes, silver glitter was literally The Thing that was dabbed onto your eyelids for dance recitals, lol. Have you ever owned what would be considered a "farm animal?" No. Does listening to music while you work help you? It very much depends on what I'm doing. Are you normally the one who initiates a kiss? Eh, it can really go either way. FIRST kiss, I dunno. For like Girt and me where it's very normal I'd say he prooobably does it more, but there's definitely not a strong leaning. Is there a song in a different language that you can sing? Well, probably. I know I can kinda sing SOME parts of Rammstein's songs okay, but factually, no matter how long I studied it and have heard it over the years, I *speak* it so rarely that I'm DEFINITELY not experienced with SINGING it. I've also noticed that I overthink the FUCK outta German pronunciations and then butcher it when I try, lmao. What was the most expensive thing someone bought you? That would either be Jason buying me a really nice gaming laptop or probably some other electronic device from my parents, idk. Do you have any currency that’s not your native country’s? No. Have you ever tried to write something humorous on a test for bonus points? No. How do you feel about bands that use pyrotechnics in live concerts? WHALE insane pyrotechnics are literally's Rammstein's Thing so I have to be in wild support, lol. But for real, be careful w/ that shit. Don't James Hetfield yourself. The person who last spoke to you in person, what is their name? Donna. The person who last texted you, tell me their name? His real name is Donald. What was your favorite class to take in school? Of all classes I've ever taken at any education level, Art and German. Would you ever consider joining the Navy? Even if I didn't have mental health issues that stop me from being accepted in any military branch, I wouldn't. Have you seen the movie Inception? I haven't. Have you ever dated someone with red hair? No. Do you know the first word you spoke as a child? Yes, "Dada." The last person you kissed, have you held their hand? Yeah, a lot. I love holding his because he has Big Man Hands and mine are all small and dainty and it is Best Feeling. Are you any good at video games? Well, I was. I don't play them NEARLY enough now to have the same kind of quick reflexes and everything. Has an ex ever liked you when you were long over them? I mean, I suppose it's possible, but not that I know of. Fred - annoying or funny? OH MY GOD I forgot about that mfer. I liked him. I know. My little sister and I watched him. Oh god. Have you ever ordered something from a different country? Yes. Do you own any Tupac albums? Honestly, I can't even name one of his songs, so... Who last grabbed your butt? WOW I actually don't know the last time that did happen. An old friend and I used to spank each other all the time in just a purely playful way, but she never actually *grabbed* me, THEN it woulda been weird. HOW DO I NOT REMEMBER IF MY CURRENT PARTNER HAS DONE THIS????? bro this body ain't 26, my knees and brain say other shit. Do you sleep in a bra? HAIL no please don't do this to urself Has your ex ever gone out with someone close to you? No. Has anyone close to you ever been suicidal? Yes. What are you listening to at this moment? "Blood, Milk And Sky" by White Zombie. Who was the last person in your bedroom, besides you? My mom. Are you friends with someone who’s autistic? I am CERTAIN there are more people than just her that I'm just not aware of, but my niece is autistic and she is certainly my friend. <3 Do you ever have movie nights with your significant other? Nah, we actually don't watch movies much. We watch TV shows a lot together, though. Who was the last person to call you fat, if anyone at all? Well, me. Besides me, no one else that I recall has ever directly called me that except some mean kids when *I* was a kid (a swing broke while I was on it and apparently that only happens when you're fat and not because the playset is old and well-loved). Doctors have made me aware that I am and all, but not by calling me that, you know? What color skin does the last person you danced with have? She's Caucasian, pale. Are you afraid of being kidnapped if you go outside at night time? Well, that's one reason. I just don't trust people. The best field trip you’ve ever been on; where was it to anyway? So two are tied, tbh. I'll go with the one that happened first, 4th grade: a trip to Beaufort, NC, to the island there that is full of wild horses. Yes, seriously. And we almost didn't go; it was actually the back-up plan to go to that island instead of one I can't remember with a lighthouse. The ocean was very aggressive that day with a storm, and the site of the lighthouse was simply too dangerous to get to by the boat, so plans changed to go to the horse one, which was closer. It is amazing how immaculate my memory is of that place, primarily the back side of it where I wandered around the beach collecting sea shells. The ocean was fuck-ing BEAUTIFUL with the fierce waves and the stormy sky and just oh my god I would kill to go again. The very next school year is funnily enough the one that ties it: a trip to the Asheboro Zoo. This one is simpler to explain with that I simply love (good) zoos and it is so far the only occasion in my entire life I saw meerkats (they got rid of them for some reason I don't recall). I spent my ENTIRE disposable camera shots on these fuckers lmfao. Have you ever wanted to be in a band? What position exactly? HA a bitch wanted to be an electric guitarist, but never to a very serious degree. When did you last spend the night at someone’s house? Uhhhhh... wow, have I done that since going to Sara's???? I don't think I have. Do you find any of your friends’ parents creepy or really mean? Oh my GOD okay we're not friends anymore of course but Colleen's father-in-law gave me the CREEPIEST motherfuckin vibes and I do not miss seeing him. Do you like pickles? I love pickles. Which two bands would you love to see playing on tour together? Ozzy and Metallica. Mom and I wouldn't make it out of that concert alive. Do you watch The Walking Dead? No, but I have avidly watched let's plays of every season of the game, and I played S1 myself as well. That game makes me CRYYYYYYYYYY buddy like I think every season got me, the first one of course more than any other. Would you want your child to go to the school you are going/went to? If I had kids, I would 100% want them to go to my elementary school because they were fan-fucking-tastic and very loved, but I'm not overly attached to any other schools I attended. Hell, quite frankly, I probably WOULDN'T want them to go to my high school because I wouldn't want to go there for anything. Though I guess it would be pretty fuckin cute for my kid to walk down the same halls that their dad and I talked in and stuff. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW but imagine them sitting at the same lunch table seats Girt and I first talked at SCREAMS When is the last time you slow danced with someone? <3 ugh Do you have a celebrity crush? GOD I have fucking three serious ones, please extract my heart from this wretched body Do you think corset piercings are disgusting!? Now look I LOVE piercings and all, but those gross me out and seem extremely dangerous. Your body, get whatever the hell sorta piercing you want, but you sure won't see me with those.

#survey #surveys #random surveys #random questions

[sugarcarnation]

Hey sugar 💖

P + Q for the ask game?

hey 💛 thanks for the ask

Q - a ship you’ve abandoned and why

i already answered this here and basically my answer was i can’t think of one

P - invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas)

i’ll use this is an opportunity to talk about my totally self indulgent klaine sunset boulevard au

im not sure if y’all are familiar with the musical but if you are then you might say sugar this is not a happy musical and also the relationship between the two main characters is extremely unhealthy why would you want that for klaine?

and then i’ll say you are correct but hear me out. it’s actually an au in which they put on a production of the musical

in case anyone is interested here is a short summary that i stole from here

Norma Desmond, a one-time famous silent-screen star finds her life down in the dumps and becomes a recluse. Her crumbling Sunset Boulevard mansion where she lives with her butler, Max, has become her self-contained world. Protected and isolated from the world by Max, who was her director and husband in the past and still loves her, Norma believes she can make a comeback.

She meets Joe Gillis, a small-time writer who wants to break into the movie industry. She has him move into her mansion so they can collaborate. But when Joe meets studio reader Betty Schaefer, Norma becomes jealous, descending further into madness.

and now here are my notes about the au i made some time ago

-it’s an enemies to lovers au because i say so

-there was no glee club (and not everyone went to mckinley)

-kurt and blaine are both at nyada (i guess nyada puts on a production of this? with an all male cast? idk i just want this to happen)

-i couldn’t help myself and there are a lot of characters in this au

-we have kurtcheltana

-they all went to mckinley together and became friends

-im pretty sure without glee all their lives were kinda bad (sorry about that)

-but now they’re all kinda in a mindset of it’s a dog eat dog world out there

-what im saying is that im making them a mean girls trio

-because they’d be terrifying and i wanna see that

-kurt and rachel both go to nyada but i’m sure santana still has her dancing lessons there and just randomly appears so people know them around there

(-because no one can stop me there’s probably some pezberry)

-enter blaine

-idk he’s a nice dude? i don’t think blaine could be too mean to anyone

-i’m pretty sure him and kurt have their rivalry over pretty much every accomplishment they could possibly achieve at nyada

-basically it’s probably just that kurt started to feel threatened, started their rivalry and blaine went along with it

-but still. it’s enemies to lovers. blaine can’t be too innocent here

-ive decided that he lives with tina, sam and artie (i felt bad about not taking artie to new york so he is also here)

-none of them went to mckinley

-artina is a thing here

-they went to different schools and met when they were competing against each other in one of those brainiacs things (the one from night of neglect)

-they did an enemies to lovers speedrun that was really just them competing against each other and then reluctantly acknowledging the other ones talent after the competition

-cue friendship and after that dating

-blaine still went to dalton but he knows tina (childhood friends? maybe?)

-they all go to new york together (artie does the same thing as in canon, tina does acting. but like on screen acting)

-they somehow ended up with sam as a roommate (he also does the same thing as in canon)

-there is samcedes here

-mercedes is gonna be the link that connects the kurtcheltana trio and the blaine/tina/artie/sam squad (but i think it’s gonna be a while until they figure that out)

-none of them know her before new york

-she’s also doing the same thing as in canon but i made her work at the spotlight diner as well (because she looked really good in tinas fantasy)

-kurtcheltana work there too

-the kurtcheltana trio answers to no one but mercedes jones. that’s just how it is

-elliott is gonna be here too but idk what he’s doing yet

-anyways i think i’m done with the characters

-so obviously kurt and blaine end up both getting a part in sunset boulevard

-kurt is norma (because he sang as if we never said goodbye on the show. and i wanna see him be all dramatic)

-so blaine is joe

-over the course of the play (and rehearsals and whatever) they’ll eventually become closer

-but first there’s a lot of drama and tension

-it’s great because norma and joe have a very dramatic kiss at the end of act 1

-kurt and blaine are gonna have to rehearse that scene so much

-so joe has another love interest in the play

-that could lead to some drama. maybe there’s something going on with blaine and the actor of joes love interest

(-or at the very least kurt could think so. whatever it is he’s not amused)

-idk any details but this au is dramatic (of course) but mostly just kinda fun

-a lot of friendship and character development because i love that

-and kurtcheltana as a mean girls trio

#asks #kurt hummel #blaine anderson #klaine #glee au

[mocnliights]

hello i resisted for as long as i could but have finally picked up a second muse

* adeline rudolph, cis woman + she/her | you know rosemary koo, right? they’re twenty-three, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, their whole life? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to breathin by ariana grande like, a million times this year, which makes sense, ‘cause they’ve got that whole bright smile for strangers and close friends alike, town spirit that can only be held by a former cheerleading captain, and naive dependence on parents thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is september 25th, so they’re a libra, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( kit, 25, est, she/her ) 

THE BASICS  .

full name : rosemary minji koo . etymology : rosemary ( latin / dew of the sea ) , minji ( korean / sharp intellect ) nickname(s) : rosie or rose ( what most people call her ) , minji ( not exactly a nickname ; it’s her korean name so her dad’s side of the family calls her minji )  birthday & birth place : september 25, 1997 & irving , north carolina sexual orientation : heterosexual/romantic hometown : irving , north carolina current residence : finally out of her parents’ and living at port apartments occupation : intern at her parents’ law firm , weekend shifts at the local flower shop education : bachelor’s from unc in political science positive personality traits : easygoing , generous , cooperative , sociable , bubbly , exuberant , empathetic negative personality traits : dependent , cowardly , sheltered , cautious , spoiled

THE SUMMARY .

tl;dr : could be called irving’s golden girl , idk you tell me . everything has always come easy for rosie --- her grades , money , friends , popularity . saying she’s had a comfortable life is putting it very mildly . as long as she met her parents’ expectations and pursued law to follow in their footsteps , she was content . she had , what most people would perceive , as the perfect life from the outside looking in , which is exactly what her parents wanted . she’s much too dependent on her parents’ income and shelter for a twenty-three-year-old , and she’s only now starting to think she has to get out from under their roof after recent bombshells in their family .

think rich , spoiled naïveté minus the high school bitchiness of rachel green combined with the beloved small town girl of rory gilmore and you’ve got rosie .

THE EXPANDED BULLETS .

the koos ( and i am just now realizing both my muses’ surnames start with k , this was not on purpose dajskdl ) have been in irving for generations . they’re a staple of the town , have always had a pristine reputation , and expect nothing less from future generations

while some relatives ~ could not be tamed ~ and rebelled , rosie never minded . she loved irving and was happy to do what she had to do to meet her parents’ expectations

an only child in a well-off family , nothing seemed off limits , even if she didn’t ask . when she went through a horseback riding phase , she didn’t need to ask twice for her parents to take turns driving her out to nearby stables to train . when she wanted to take up flute instead of piano , which she’d received classically training for since she was three , her parents obliged ( but in addition to her piano lessons ) . when she wanted to give gymnastics a try , she barely mentioned it at dinner before her mom was calling around to find the best gym in their vicinity . you get the picture

not just at home , but everything just always seemed to fall into place for rosemary . she got good grades without having to study too hard , she was named cheerleading captain in high school unanimously , people generally seemed to like her and vice versa . and as long as she stayed out of too much trouble , her parents weren’t as overbearing as people might assume

maybe that was why she was okay with doing as she was told . her parents let her be for the most part , as long as she committed to studying law or politics in college to follow in their footsteps

pregnancy tw : all was good and well until she realized she was late one day in her junior year . she’d just recently lost her virginity to her high school boyfriend , a decision she hadn’t made lightly given her parents’ religious views and how they’d raised her . and now she was pregnant with a whole future ahead of her that didn’t include a teen pregnancy

abortion tw : unknown to everyone except the good people at planned parenthood and her mom bc she was a minor , rosie did the only thing she thought was viable at the time for her reputation , her family , her relationship with her parents , and just about everything . she made an appointment , went through the meetings under the harsh lights , and terminated the pregnancy as quickly as she could

senior year went ahead as planned , prom queen and her secret buried deep

she stayed in state and attended unc , majoring in political science for her parents despite not having any real interest in law , before returning home after graduation

without a real plan , she moved back in with her parents . she didn’t mind at first when she didn’t have to pay rent and they still took care of her laundry for her . and as expected , she started an internship at her parents’ law firm without any complaints

what rosie didn’t realize was that while she was away at school , her parents’ marriage had started to crumble . they were able to put on a front and make it all seem good and well for her when she was home from school , and for the town the rest of the year , but the truth was they were sleeping in separate bedrooms and they barely got through a conversation that didn’t end in a screaming match

they had shielded rosie from the truth , that her mom had been unfaithful . multiple affairs at different points in the relationship , using business trips as facades for a weekend getaway with her latest infidelity . it wasn’t consistent , but there were enough breadcrumbs that her dad pulled at a thread and the truth came out

while her dad was able to stay together and act like everything was still the picture perfect , wholesome , white picket fence family that the koos portrayed to the rest of irving , rosie couldn’t take it . she stayed at home long enough to save up enough money to finally move out and try this life thing on her own

she still isn’t sure how to quit the law internship , how to fully take control of her own life , but she’s trying and making small baby steps . she’s working on her relationship with her parents , especially her mom , but they are certainly tense and she isn’t feeling the best about things atm

#irvingintro #pregnancy tw #abortion tw #i caved #i typed and then hit post so ...... ...... ........ i'm sorry #𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐤𝐨𝐨 ♡ ━━ about . #cheating tw

[gleeincorrectquotes]

agree | I get that | somewhere in the middle | nah | disagree

Okay Rachel was awful i fully agree like

But hold on Imma be real edgy a sec and say... I don’t fully blame her for the way she is? Like to an extent by season 4 shes an adult and responsible for not maturing like at all and still being ...her.

But her environment has gotta get some of the blame. She seems to have a pretty happy home life but her parents aren’t the most parental, y’know. They clearly never taught her about like social awareness or prepared her for the real world of criticism and not everyone thinking everything is about her? I know cruel lessons to teach a kid but this is literally how Rachel Berry’s are created.

This is added on by Will (arguably her closest other ‘parental’ figure)  basically spending weeks feeding her ego then at random times deciding to be part of the “everythings not about you Rachel” club. He was pretty hot and cold with her. You can’t give her every solo at every competition then be surprised when she, like the spoiled child she is, expects it to be handed to her from then on.

Not to mention she has people constantly critising her appearance (Mercedes, Tina, Mike and Matt are the only characters from s1 i don’t remember attacking her looks and 3 out of those 4 had like a line between them in season 1 so...) The only thing she knows they can’t kick her down for is her voice so like obviously she’s going to constantly be trying to show it off at every opportunity. 

I am not defending her at allll like she was racist, surprisingly homophobic for someone with gay dads, incredibly self-centered and just plain annoying like 90% of the time.  But idk the guy she’s in love with laughs when she gets bullied, she’s had pretty much every anti semitic nose joke thrown at her face, her birth mother literally took one look at her and said “yeah I don’t want this one” like ouch. Again though, I still agree she’s horrible and since the show never really delved deep into why Rachel is the way she is most of this is just speculation and proves nothing other than my ability to ramble on.

#asks #rachel berry #anti rachel berry #not incorrect quotes #glee

[mythical-fangirls]

Was possessed with the urge to write this out

Aphmau’s Mystreet But Ein is raised as Aph’s lil bro because idk, his mom died and his dad is an asshole and because canon is an illusion And because this has been trapped in my brain for days

Aphmau would be more aware of her werewolf heritage and in high school specific that yes, my dad is a werewolf but I got my mom’s human genes

Second year

Alpha Aphmau: All of you BETTER play nice with my baby brother

The werewolves: You have a brother???

The Werewolf Trio: Yeah, a half-brother who’s a werewolf. So he’s going to be in our werewolf class

Ein is not the omega nor the alpha male because his sister forbade it. No one can pick on her brother but her and maybe Aaron

In first year, during a lot of events Ein is just there watching and knowing all the tea

He still dyed a bit of his hair blue because Aesthetic

He once turned to his wolf form and bit Gene during Aphmau’s first year

He still buys his hair dye from Hot Topic and constantly awkwardly have to deal with Gene who keeps asking for pics of his sister

Aphmau’s aware relatively early on that she was marked by the Alpha Male/Omega Aaron as the Alpha Female, because she grew up with a werewolf little brother so she knows a bit about werewolves and it’s one of the reason’s she intentionally signed up for Werewolf Class

Every birthday of Aphmau’s, there are two cakes. Red velvet because its her favourite, and another non-chocolate one for Ein

Ein also knows about Aaron being a werewolf in High School but he was raised with Respect and Manners so he keeps his mouth shut, but does tell Aaron when he and Aph start dating

Ein had a baby crush on Kawaii-Chan and Laurence at the same time

When Aphmau was turned into a werewolf for a week, he helped her adjust to all the shedding

Aphmau: Wait, you use a different shampoo for your fur??

Ein: ... Yes??? Fur and hair are very different, that’s why you don’t use human shampoo on dogs! Have you been using your regular shampoo??

Aphmau:... Yes

Ein: Use mine so there’s less shedding and mom doesn’t have to buy another bulk set of lint rollers

Second year is really calm and stuff, outside of Aphmau getting challenged by Maria everything’s chill

Ein also gets challenged a bunch because everyone thinks that Aphmau tagged him as Alpha Male but no, I’m just her brother

The Alpha Male Aphmau chooses is still Daniel because Shenanigans happen during the games

When he graduates, Aphmau assigns Ein as Alpha Male because they’re graduating in a year or so anyway so they have time to properly scout for proper replacements in the next year or so

Mystreet S1

He either owns his own house on the street or rooms with the Knight Boys or with Aaron to give Aphmau more of an excuse to visit him without causing someone to freak out

S2

He was with Travis at the start but he heard Aaron and Dante talking about a thing and grabs Travis and Celestia and Laurence so they don’t get left behind

He helps Aphmau with mom freaking out

Makes sure everyone knows that his sister cannot swim and neither can he (cue group swimming lessons to help their friends learn how to swim)

Garrence because why not, except they’re still in the “we’re totally just friends bro” phase and Ein and Zane are already Tired, but its better than watching Dante try and fail at flirting

S3

Is Suspect of Gene with Zane

He lives with either Zane, Garroth, and Laurence, or Dante and Travis

Was not transformed into a baby during the Halloween special and made sure Aaron doesn’t eat any chocolate

Post-S3 Pre-S4

He’s just along for the chaotic ride until pain

S4

Idk who’d take his place honestly, with that in mind let’s not

They clean up the lodge and the weirdest thing that happens is a ghost that either gets exorcised or is sent to another place to haunt

They find the potion place and the notes on forever potions, Lucinda takes the book home

Ein befriends the local werewolf pack and asks them to avoid certain roads because of people coming in with this lodge getting repaired

All just happy and fun times, until he off-handedly mentions a weird book about Forever Potions they found to Derek and Garte does shit really start hitting the fan

Then Travis briefly acts off enough to have the warning bells ring in Ein’s head

Oh yeah, Ein’s “werewolf” pack is just the Mystreet crew, they don’t really get it for the most part but they try! (Outside of Aaron and Aph, and Aaron’s werewolf genes & instincts are happy for the familiarity)

S5

Starlight happens but more because Aaron and Ein worked their asses off (because Ein wants to help his future-brother-in-law have the perfect proposal setting and mood because his sister deserves the best)

However, Derek and Garte bring their families plus friends of their family along as well

They tell them a month in advance

Aaron & Ein:...

Ein: Well, at least you can use the money to just buy the rings and eventually fund the wedding, right?

Aaron:... Yeah...

Vylad’s there, oh and Garroth and Laurence are now dating and help set up Zane & Kawaii-Chan

During that one episode where they encounter Kai, he and Ein almost throw hands because no on insults his sister like that but him and maybe Aaron and Katelyn and Zane and-

Aaron asks his family and Ein if its okay for him to turn Aphmau into a werewolf

Aaron: I don’t want to risk her getting hurt because I lost control

The Lycans: We understand, and we give you permission as long as she’s okay with it

Ein:

The Lycans:

Aaron:

Ein: I thought you were just a normal werewolf, maybe a bit weird but the Ultima? Never in my wildest dreams

The Lycans:

Aaron: Fuck

Two days later

Ein: Okay, I’m calm now, yes you can, as long as you tell our mom and get her permission too and also tell Aph that she won’t be able to have red velvet anymore because of werewolf allergies

A day later

Ein, to the Lycans: Oh yeah, remember that Aphmau technically has werewolf genetics because of our father

Derek, having certain pieces clicking together: Just out of curiosity, what’s your father’s name

Ein: Zack *gags*

Derek, internally: PANIC 

Ein helps Aphmau adjust to her new ears and tail, and also makes sure she learn how to hide it as soon as she can

Oh yea, Garroth isn’t turned into a werewolf because Aaron has no reason to lose control because of Ein because Ein’s his soon to be brother-in-law

Starlight is fine but the Adulter Adults are preparing for a storm, Hyria is also there because they needed a powerful witch to prepare for the storm

Things are all fine and dandy until the end when Zack, Elizabeth, and Micheal make their resurgence and ruin shit

S6, now I haven’t fully watched When Angels Fall but I think I understand enough to get what’s happening

With the extra prep, Rowen and the Guardian Forces are informed of the situation to come, Toby has a small team that have been giving a special immunity to Micheal’s control

Starlight is still on high alert, Melissa is shot by one of Micheal’s puppets, Rachel helps the other werewolves in the island escape and leaves with them hoping to be able to see her family at the end of this

On the cannon, through a lot of work and trickery, Micheal is yeeted between Travis and Terry on the platform between the canon, he’s turned into a relic between yeets

The Guardian forces take the relic with Holla’s help and information

The cannon sinks, Zack and Elizabeth are arrested, Garte and Derek do a bit of time for their previous involvement, leaving their fortune to their wives and children

Her Wish

Since there was less disaster in this timeline, its a large Christmas Family gathering featuring Everyone

“Reenee” gets a different excuse to spend Christmas with them

Ein, Lucinda, and Kim hellp her buy a present for Aphmau and Aaron

Ghost/Emmalyn recognizes her and tells the others buy they all keep quiet about it and let her have her time with her all of her family for once, even if they’re different dimensional counterparts

#aphmau

[howwonderfulisthemoon]

Glee spoilers

So i recently finished Glee i want to talk about it. Ofc i love it

First of all i love Sue for using ship names and speaking of Sue thank you for trying to destroy that Glee club. Made them stronger and more amazing and powerful and i love you

Will Schuester thank you for those really important lessons. This video his students made was so real. He really taught me all those things he taught Glee club

Finn god ily im so sad and proud and happy at the same time. Giving that amount of inspiration is so great. And Cory always in my heart

Klaine im so happy for them yas my endgame AND YAS THE BABY

Rachel im so happy and proud of your work and that your dreams came true and that Tony omh but really Jessie. Ive never really liked him, i know he did all those things for her but come on. He wasnt the one. I actually would prefer Rachel being single and just having real friends. Ive never liked Jessie, ugh. Kinda hoped for Faberry at least more of their friendship. AND THE KLAINE BABY ILY

Brittana my girls im so happy for them also endgame

Quinn I really hoped for you to go Santana Lopez and be gay but i quess that wasnt for her. And as far as she and Noah looked amazing together there was still like a thing which wasnt really like right (?) idk i think i prefered Quinn single too but idk. Mark always in my heart. And why there was no Quinn in 5x13 excuse me wtf like the most important episode and also at Brittanas wedding. I missed her from so3 to so6 like there was really a small amount of her in those 3 seasons. Also toxic by her was so hot that oh my gosh i mean im so gay for dianna agron and im having such a big crush on her wow. Was really happy that usually there was one person who showed her right way and it was Rachel and im really happy that they were close friends bffs at the end and even there was a line „me and Rachel still email each other each weekend” aww. Although really hoped for more Quinn with Rachel those last seasons and overall missed Quinn. They really focused on other Glee members. But idc I love her so much

Mercedes omg with Beyonce so proud and happy of you.

Artie yay happy for you. Tina so annoying god but happy that she ended up with Artie. Sam ily happy for you. And basically all other characters in Glee. Thank you

I could write about Glee so many things but the most important things are there. I like really loved Glee and i wish i have those things in my life

I Love Glee

#glee icons #glee cast #rachel berry #lea michele #finn hudson #cory monteith #quinn fabray #dianna agron #kurt hummel #blaine anderson #santana lopez #brittany s pierce #artie abrams #mercedes jones #love #glee quotes #tv series #series #show #tv show #will schuester

[kronos-the-timelord]

do all the things !!!! from the admitting stuff post !!!!!!!! I dare you !!!!

i’ll do it,,, i’m not a weinie >:l

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? - it was one of my parents so no 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? - no 3. Have you taken someones virginity? - ???? idk???4. Is trust a big issue for you? - kind of,, i was raised to always be wary of ppl, but my friends are some of the ppl i trust the most5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? - no but he’s coming back to the states tomorrow!!!6. What are you excited for? - my bf coming back7. What happened tonight? - i ordered pizza and took a nap8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? - no, but i do get really worried for them bc ppl suck and are horrible9. Is confidence cute? - fuck yeah!!10. What is the last beverage you had? - water11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? - i trust more women, but the guys i do trust are mostly family and then like 3-5 friends/boyfriend’s family 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? - i only own skinny jeans13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? - hang out with my boy and his family14. What are you going to spend money on next? - probably a background check,,,, im not explaining it further15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? - it was my puppy,,, so no,,, but i do give him many cuddles16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? - probably,,,, hopefully,,17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? - tbh @memeathon and @keencheckerboard bc i see them a lot and ive known them for a while,, theyve heard and seen some things about me18. The last time you felt broken? - uhhhhhhhh,, not really sure,,,,, my memory is bad 19. Have you had sex today? - nope20. Are you starting to realize anything? - nuhuh21. Are you in a good mood? - yes22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? - fuck yeah, sign me up 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? - yes24. What do you want right this second? - more reeses 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? - i think the fuck not,,,,, no26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? - yes, but i wanna dye it27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? - no,, i gotta giggle,,i can’t just laugh at myself28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? - my giant dog was curled up on the smallest section of the couch so my mom could cuddle him 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? - my boyfriend ;-;,, he goes to school in england so he’s been gone most of the past school year30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? - i think it depends on the second chance,, like anyone besides someone who cheated, rape/molested, abused, ect. i feel like can get a second chance31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? - no :0,, it was my boy!! i love him!!!32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? - yes,,, he’s known for like 3-4 years33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? - kind of,,, i prefer to drink water, but sometimes i just need that bubble34. Listening to? - noises on my street35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? - yes!! i love pencils,, but ive been using marker pens lately36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? - he’s downstairs being cuddled my mom bc he’s a cuddly puppy37. Do you believe in love at first sight? - no,, like its more of attraction at first sight,, i wouldn’t call it love38. Who did you last call? - my mom39. Who was the last person you danced with? - i think it was one of my coworkers actually,,, we get bored sometimes and just jam at work when we’re doing nothing else40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? - he’s a v cute puppy,, he needs to know he’s loved41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? - i was actually about to go eat one,,,,42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? - yes!!!43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? - oh,, yeah,,,, definitely,,,,44. Do you tan in the nude? - i don’t tan45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? - no,, in fact, i would give him more smooches46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? - no47. Who was the last person to call you? - my manager Rachel!!! shes great and i love her48. Do you sing in the shower? - sometimes,, not lately tho49. Do you dance in the car? - no,, sneezing is difficult,, dancing is more so 50. Ever used a bow and arrow? - yes!! it was one of the years i was at girl scout camp!!51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? - about a year ago,,, it was for my senior pictures52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? - yes, but they’re great!!!53. Is Christmas stressful? - yes and i hate it 54. Ever eat a pierogi? - maybe??? idk55. Favorite type of fruit pie? - apple56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? - obstetric nurse!!57. Do you believe in ghosts? - yes,, too many weird things have happened to me and my family to not to 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? - yes,, when i was younger i used to get dreams that like, predicted, what was going to happen the next day,, like one that i remember is in 3rd grade is my friend was standing in front of the lockers in a blue shirt (i knew he didnt have one) and the next he came in and showed my his new shirt (blue) that he got after school that matched the lockers59. Take a vitamin daily? - no60. Wear slippers? - sometimes,, but i made them my outside slippers,,, ones that i wear when i dont want to wear actually shoes61. Wear a bath robe? - no, but ive looked at them before,, i want one62. What do you wear to bed? - t-shirt/tank top and either shorts or just my underwear63. First concert? - uhhhh, i think it was one on vacation,, but they were a band that dressed up as the beetles and played their songs64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? - ive sold my soul to target65. Nike or Adidas? - adidas (its my bf favorite brand)66. Cheetos Or Fritos? - cheetos67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? - sunflower seeds68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? - look what you made me do69. Ever take dance lessons? - i took ballet when i was younger70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? - not really,,71. Can you curl your tongue? - yes72. Ever won a spelling bee? - i got 3rd place in the one during second grade that was only for the second graders and v unofficial 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? - yes74. What is your favorite book? - the reciever of many series that @kata-chthonia has written,, its really good 10/10 would recommend 75. Do you study better with or without music? - its gotta be instrumentals or i do have a playlist that only has an africa cover my ninja sex party and i listen to that on repeat76. Regularly burn incense? - no,, but i burn many candles77. Ever been in love? - yes78. Who would you like to see in concert? - no one,,, im not the biggest fan of concerts79. What was the last concert you saw? - my highschools band 80. Hot tea or cold tea? - hot tea!!81. Tea or coffee? - tea!!!82. Favorite type of cookie? - chocolate chip83. Can you swim well? - yes,,, not commonly known fact but i wear a size 11 shoe (they’re actually bigger than my boyfriends and i think thats hilarious) so my feet are kinda like flippers84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? - yes, but not for long85. Are you patient? - yes86. DJ or band, at a wedding? - probably a dj bc its cheaper, but a band sounds fun!!!87. Ever won a contest? - yes, but it was a v tiny one on amino that im not part of any more 88. Ever have plastic surgery? - nope and dont want it89. Which are better black or green olives? - black,, but i do like the purple ones90. Opinions on sex before marriage? - im cool with it,, just depends on the ppl91. Best room for a fireplace? - living room92. Do you want to get married? - yeah

#here you go #its about me #yeah

[onegirllis]

SPOILERS FOR EP 3

So let’s summarize it. 

Rachel’s father gets weird text message.

Rachel reads it and drags Chloe to the overlook, having only one quoater (because reasons)

Rachel sees her father kissing other woman.

The Tempest play – super important, mentioned idk what for.

Rachel is connected to fire. She burns down half the state. No one dies, no real estate was destroyed. It’s a magic fire.

Other woman AKA Sera stalks her all the time and she is super happy. Chloe has weird dreams about her father. That was supposed to cope with his death. it doesn’t. 

The only way for her to cope with his death is to understand he was lying to her whole life (but we don’t know about what, because reasons and becasue he is.. you know.... dead) and wearing his clothes.

“This game helps people to cope with grief”. Logic.

Wearing dead people’s clothes is an important theme in the franchise. You have to wear something dead on you.

Rachel gets hush money from her dad, because she supposed to be hushed about something we don't know about. Don’t worry, we will never know.

Rachel’s father is punishing his daughter with (dot.dot.dot.) we don’t know.

Ah, later we learn that the hush money was for Sera.

The Tempest play – super important, except the proposal on stage – nothing interesting, keep clicking.

Rachel randomly decides to leave Arcadia because she loves Chloe. Chloe is not sure, so ask for a kiss or the bracelet or a tattoo. Kiss doesn’t matter, because it’s the first and the last kiss she will ever get, tattoo never gonna happen (really) and the bracelet is the only way to actually connect the dots.

If Chloe loves Rachel and they are both gay, Rachel will never meet her mother. Logic. Gay people are dangerous and bracelet is a magic item to un-gay them.

Rachel learns that Sera is her mother and her father forbids her to meet Sera. Because heroin is like flu. Makes sense.

Sera was using drugs. Drugs that Rachel’s dad paid for. As a DA. You’re following me?

That’s the hush money 2.

David is kinda gay, because the longest family dialogue in episode 3 is about him and his friend from the army. He gives Chloe the photo because reasons.

Truck Mechanic simulator 2017. AKA collecting the bottles In LIS 1, aka the truck works. And probably the gas is a gift from the crow.

Rachel wants to contact Sera, forgetting she knows her number from episode 1, since she read her father’s text message.

Sera stalks them all the time, so that shouldn't be a problem in general.

Chloe asks Frank for help to contact Sera and he agrees because he refused in the episode 2. Logic.

Rachel and Chloe meet Damon on the junkyard, where Damon learns Rachel’s name. Since there is only one Rachel in Oregon, he KNOWS that’s the DA daughter and wants her to tell ALL THE SECRETS OF THE DEPARTMENTS.

15 years olds know that stuff. They always do.

Damon says bad word about Sera that Rachel never met.

Rachel decides to beat him to death with a plank. It’s getting weirder.

Plank vs. Knife MMA ends with Rachel dying. I mean not yet, but we learn that Rachel is an alien and has very important artery in her arm. She almost dies.

Extremely weird scene of Frank checking out 15 year old girl.

Chloe does GTA and brings Rachel to hospital.Rachel bleeding like crazy doesn’t die becasue reasons.

When Rachel gets stabbed, fire dies instantly. It supposed by supernatural, but let’s forget about that.

The crow got completely forgotten in the meantime.

Rachel in hospital still doesn’t remember about the fact she has Sera number, and is not aware that Sera stalks her (Elliot also stalks them, so it’s a nice crwod following them around) so asks Chloe to break in to her father’s office (official DA office is in the house, really) and check it. Becasue reasons.

Chloe breaks in into the DA office, finds the key, finds secret drawer, finds secret shoe box and finds secret phone, mercifully still turned on.

Then she has weird text message conversation. The only good thing about this is the person she talks to, responds faster than Max.

This person tells her what to do – like find money, find evidence, find person who snitched at me.

Poor Chloe is running around the DA office almost burning it down. Whatever she does she has to succeed, so it’s a filler AKA bottles on the junkyard 2.

When she finally is done, Elliot the creep appears and tells her that Rachel is a bitch, presenting himself as a biggest bitch and locks her in the DA office in the Ambers’ house. That’s exactly how stuff works.

Chloe calls the police and it’s seriously the first time in this franchise that somebody did it.

The police picks up but Chloe can’t really talk so she kinda says kinda not that the creep is here and she’s locked into the DA office.

The ultimate way out is to throw a statue though the window. Then everybody runs away. Logic.

Chloe got an information that Damon (the one with knife) kidnapped Sera and wants some ransom (hush money no 3), but he was actually hired to kill Sera by Rachel’s dad. 

Damon thinks he talks to Rachel’s dad, but it was Chloe. What a plot twist.

So Chloe takes the money and goes to the burnt mill to save Sera that actually everybody wants to kill.

So Rachel’s dad paid this woman hush money (he also gave Rachel hush money even if she didn’t know anything to be hush about), then he kissed Sera, then he informed everybody that Sera is Rachel mother, then he decided to kill Sera hiring a hitman who he was about to arrest.

Because DA. Because reasons.

Chloe got hit in the face and dies. No, she doesn’t but almost. Then we learned (but we can’t see) that Frank kills Damon. I mean he did kill him, right?

Why did he kill him? Because Chloe? Who was sleeping with Frank in this franchise?

Sera explains Chloe that she went through all that shit not to see Rachel, because reasons.

Chloe can give the bracelet and then Sera changes her mind and will see Rachel

If you are gay, no mothers will visit.

Chloe remmebered she has a plant she has to water but the plant will die anyway.

Sera tells Chloe that Rachel can’t know about this.

Chloe gets back to Rachel and

- tells Rachel - then her dad destroys photo from Paris and family is unhappy and Rachel is devastated, but they still don’t leave Arcadia because reasons, even if they have money and the truck. Ah, and a reason.

- lies to Rachel - then Chloe is completely devastated. They don’t leave Arcadia because reasons being happy.

Depends on the gayness Rachel may see her mother but no one does friendship route because no, so no one actually got this except a few youtubers.

This game supposed to show us how Rachel became drug addict and why was she reckless years later. Breaking news – 3 years later we see her super happy and not on drugs.

She doesn’t even smoke.

William is irrelevant, there is no super powers, fire is irrelevant, The Tempest is irrelewant, the stars are dead, Samuel is irrelevant, David can be a bitch but actually he can be nice with his gay army photo, Chloe will dye her hair twice in the episode, Rachel never expresses her feelings again, because she forgot about being gay.

And after all that shit and Rachel’s dad being super protective and hiring hitmen all the time, we got a scene in the darkroom. Because your choices matter.

the lesson: Everybody lies and no one can be happy even if you lie. If you don;t you will be unhappy anyway. Ah and gay people don’t see their parents

The end. Logic.  I was compalining about LIS 1 plot holes

#before the storm #spoilers

[butterfly-punk]

92 Questions Tag!

TAGGED BY:  @illnessandinjury

Last:

. Drink: coke

. Phone call: my parents 

. Text message: karalyn!! (who tagged me in this!!!)

. Song you listened to: Good Times by All Time Low

. Time you cried: i don't cry often tbh but when i found out one of my high school friends died my heart broke, and then i heard a SPECIFIC SONG that reminded me of it and I CRIED. it was a month ago or so i think 

Have you:

. Dated someone twice: yeah, just once! 

. Kissed someone and regretted it: I've actually never kissed anybody???

. Been cheated on: nope! 

. Lost someone special: not really anyone i was super close to

. Been depressed: oh heck yeah

. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I've never gotten drunk!!

List three favorite colors:

. Keith’s lion red 

. Lance’s lion blue

. burgundy  

In the last year have you:

. Made new friends: yes! 

. Fallen out of love: ....yes.

. Laughed until I cried: not really! i don't think I've ever done that..? 

. Found out someone was talking about you: not in a bad way i think 

. Found out who your friends are: oh definitely.... 

. Kissed someone on your facebook list: nope

General:

. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: hmm like 75% or more probably 

. Do you have any pets: no pets!

. Do you want to change your name: not really! sometimes I go by Rae online and I really like it, but I still like Rachel too. 

. What did you do for your last birthday: I'm not sure if i actually did anything...

. What time do you wake up: about 9am or so :/ 

. What were you doing at midnight last night: talking to my friend karalyn!

. Name something you can’t wait for: THANKSGIVING BREAK

. When was the last time you saw your mom: about a month or so ago idk actually

. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: jeez... i guess i wish i realized the person i was in love with for 2 years wasn't ever gonna love me back. it’d save me a lot of time. 

. What are you listening to right now: Let’s Talk About Your Hair by Have Mercy 

. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: not personally no. maybe a patient at the pharmacy i work at? 

. Something that is getting on your nerves: GETTING HOME AFTER BUYING FAST FOOD AND REALIZING THEY MESSED UP UR ORDER 

. Most visited website: Youtube!!! and tumblr lol 

. Mole/s: one on my neck!!

. Mark/s: I have a v noticeable birthmark on my left palm and anytime anyone sees it they're like “oh u have some dirt on ur hand” and i gotta be like “no thats just who i am as a person.” I also have a small scar under my left eyebrow that i think is cool.

. Childhood dream: veterinarian! which is v ironic considering now i hate anything medical related 

. Hair color: brown! 

. Long or short hair: short! kinda like a pixie i suppose! 

. Do you have a crush on someone: ye :3 

. What do you like about yourself: i actually like myself a lot. i think I'm cute, and an okay person, and no one will ever think I'm as funny as i think i am, and I enjoy spending time with myself?? 

. Piercings: just 2 ear piercings in each ear

. Blood type: A+

. Nicknames: Rae, Rach 

. Relationship status: single!

. Zodiac: aquarius sun, aries moon, aquarius venus 

. Pronouns: she/her

. Favorite tv show: VOLTRON 

. Right or left handed: right! tho occasionally i will literally forget that I'm right handed and will try to do something with my left hand and will be like “WHY ISNT THIS WORKING RIGHT-- oh fuck wait its cause this isn't my dominant hand” 

. Surgery: nope!

. Hair dyed in different color: my hair is my natural color! for the first time in my life actually, i usually dye it blonde! 

. Sport: i love tennis tbh and i took private lessons, but in high school i did marching band WHICH TOTALLY SHOULD BE A SPORT OKAY 

. Vacation: IM GOING TO NEW YORK IN APRIL FOR AN ART HISTORY TRIP AND IM SO EXCITED OKAY I LOVE MUSEUMS 

. Pair of trainers: like... tennis shoes? I've had the same shoes for 4 years tbh and they're still in decent condition. 

More general:

. Eating: nada

. Drinking: water?

. I’m about to: procrastinate on my homework in any way possible 

. Want: to not have to do any more homework ever 

. Get married: maybe eventually idk 

. Career: im a student my guy 

. Hugs or kisses: definitely hugs 

. Lips or eyes: lips 

. Shorter or taller: taller? I'm kinda short tbh. but i honestly don't care either way

. Older or younger: probably older 

. Nice arms or nice stomachs: arms i guess? i don't really have a preference 

. Sensitive or loud: sensitive!

. Hookup or relationship: oh relationship definitely 

. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant! 

Have you ever:

. Kissed a stranger: nope.

. Drank hard liquor: yep

. Lost glasses/contacts: no, i actually haven't! which is a miracle in and of itself 

. Turned someone down: lmao yeah 

. Sex on the first date: I'm asexual my guy 

Personal:

. Broken someone’s heart: yea oops 

. Had your heart broken: oh fuck yeah i have 

. Been arrested: nope!

. Cried when someone died: yep

. Fallen for a friend: oh heck yeah. 

Do you believe in:

. Yourself: for the most part! 

. Miracles: yeah!

. Love at first sight: yeah!

. Santa Claus: lmao no

. Kisses on the first date: possibly, but ive never kissed anyone so id be super nervous 

Other:

. Current best friend: Karalyn (thanks for tagging me in this!) and Shelby! 

. Eye color: Blue 

. Favorite movie: Hector and the Search for Happiness

TAGGING: anyone who wants to do it tbh!! u can tag me in it id love to see it. 

#tag game #questions tag #personal #long post /// #yeeeee

[fystarlust]

1-100 ❤

1. What’s your middle name, and do you like it?Rachel, its okay HAHA2. are you artistic?depends what kind cos i cant draw for shit but i can do makeup??3. Have you had your first kiss?yes4. What is your life goal?be happy5. Do you have any experiences with a famous person?i mean ive seen 5sos 1d and mcbusted in person if that counts6. Do you play any sports?horse riding, i want to play more though i actually really like sports7. What’s your worst fear?demons8. Who’s your biggest inspiration?jacksepticeye9. Do you have any cool talents?my makeup looks great sometimes10. are you a morning person?yes11. How do you feel about pet names?theyre cute to a point, im not about that 'cupcake sprinkle sugar bean' life12. Do you like to read?if the book is good yes13. Name a list of shows that have changed your life.none have changed my life thats a bit far14. Do you care about your follower count?i used to but not anymore15. What’s the best dream you’ve had?i recently dreamt my gf was back home again16. Have you ever kissed someone of your same gender?yes17. Do you have any pets?yes, 3 dogs, 4 cats, 1 horse and soon to be 1 hamster18. Are you religious?no lol19. Are you a people person?noooo20. Are you considered popular?considered by who HAHAH bc my gf thinks im pretty cool 💁🏼21. What is one of your bad habits?biting my nails22. What’s something that makes you feel vulnerable?during and after ive had a mental breakdown23. What would you name your children?Lily, Ava24. Who’s your celebrity crush?taeeeee25. What’s your best subject?nothing academic rip26. Dogs or cats?dogs27. most used social media besides tumblr?youtube28. best friends name?ellie29. who does your main family consist of?idk what main family consists of but i see all my family a lot so my mum, brother, dad, grandparents, aunty, uncle, cousins30. Chocolate or sugar?both31. have you ever been on a date?yes32. Do you like roller coasters?some types of them33. Can you swim?ye boi34. What would you do in the event of an apocalypse?i would be a badass mf and protect my loved ones and animals35. Have you struggled with any kind of mental disorder?yes, am currently struggling with a few and likely always will be36. Are your parents together?no37. What’s your favorite color?baby blue38. What country are you from/do you live in?England to both39. Favorite singer?bts40. Do you see yourself being famous some day?nope41. Do you like dresses?yes but i need to work on my confidence when wearing them42. Favorite song right now?deeessspaaacito43. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?yes, very44. How old were you when you first got your period?1245. Have you ever shot a gun?nope46. Have you ever done yoga?yes47. Are you a horror girl?if this means horror film then yes48. Are you good at giving advice?kind of? with some things im not though49. Tell us a story about your childhood.near my house me and my friends had this den that was like a cave in the ground and it was sooo cool we spent hours in there everyday and its still there50. How are you doing today?im okay51. Were you a cute kid?not to be up my own ass but yes52. Can you dance?secretly yes53. Is there anything you do that you can’t remember ever not doing?looking after animals54. Have you ever dyed your hair?nope too scared55. What color are your eyes?blue56. What’s your favorite animal?ooooo i cant pick one i have so many57. Have you ever made a huge fool of yourself?lots of times, ellie n jess know this best58. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?its complicated but kind of59. Do you have good friends?wonderful ones60. Are you close with anyone of the lgbtq+ group?yes61. What’s your favorite class?in college it was Zoo Management62. List all the tv shows you are watching.RuPauls Drag Race, The Walking Dead, Your Lie in April63. Are you organized?yes64. What was the last movie you saw? Opinion?i cant remember65. Which tv character do you relate to most?not a tv character but Ryan from BuzzFeed Unsolved is literally me as an asian male68. What are some things that stand between you and complete happiness?my hell brain69. If you received enough money to never need to work again, what would you spend your time doing?travelling with my gf70. What would you change about your life if you knew you would never die?god idk71. What would you do differently if you knew that no one was judging you?iDk72. If you could start over, what would you do differently?i dont like these deep questions73. Would you break the law to save a loved one?yes74. When was the last time you traveled somewhere new?the other week when i went to Wadswick 75. When you think of your home, what immediately comes to mind?my dogs76. What have you done to pursue your dreams lately? How about today?i applied for a hnc77. What did you want to be when you were a kid?a vet78. If you dropped everything to pursue your dreams, what would you be risking?everything?? i dont knOW79. When did you not speak up, when you know you really should have?when i was being bullied, shouldve beat that bitch into the dirt80. Describe the next five years of your life, and your plans, in a single sentence.travel and be happy and be with jess and around animals81. What would happen if you never wasted another minute of your life, what would that look like?well id get a lot more done82. If you could live forever, how would you spend eternity?id spend it with jess then when she died id kill myself HAHAHAH that sounds so dark83. How would you spend a billion dollars?travelling, on a house, animals84. If you could time travel, would you go to the past or the future?the past, i dont wanna see the shithole of a future until i have to85. What motivates you to succeed?literally nothing86. What dream that you’ve had has resonated with you the most?a lot of them cos theyre v realistic, i dont like it87. Would you rather live in the city or the woods? Why?woods BUT not a creepy woods where id get killed, just a nice forest, and because i hate how busy cities are88. Do you believe in life after death?im not sure89. What teacher inspired you the most? How did they?none they can all suck my ass90. What’s your fondest childhood memory?the one about the cave den91. If you could have dinner with any one person, living or dead, who would they be and why?jacksepticeye bc i luv him sm92. What would you have to see to cry tears of joy?when people come home from fighting abroad to their kids or dogs93. What is the hardest lesson you had to learn in life?idk how to sum it up94. What do you think happens after we die?i have no idea95. What would you do if you would be invisible?pretend to be a ghost and scare people96. What’s something you can’t do no matter how hard you try?DRAW97. Would you want to choose the sex and appearance of your offspring?no i like surprises98. How did your first crush develop?i cant remember99. Is there a feeling you are trying to ignore? What is it?yes always lmao, paranoia, anxiety, worry100. Do you live or do you just exist?so deep oooOoOoooO i dont care

[artsyyloser]

Nobody asks me this so I’m going to answer them all for fun

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

yes

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

yes 3. Have you taken someones virginity?

no 4. Is trust a big issue for you?

kinda 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

not in 3 weeks :( 6. What are you excited for?

painting :) 7. What happened tonight?

I went to watermelon social which was kinda a big step for me 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

nah, live life 9. Is confidence cute?

yes 10. What is the last beverage you had?

water 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

3 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

all my jeans are skinny jeans 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

idk 14. What are you going to spend money on next?

idk 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?

yes 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

yes 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

Rachel/ Aster 18. The last time you felt broken?

last month 19. Have you had sex today?

no 20. Are you starting to realize anything?

caring what people think is exhausting 21. Are you in a good mood?

yeah 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

sure 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

yes 24. What do you want right this second?

a kiss  25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

i dont even want to think about that 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

yes 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

yes 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

the lemon man 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

yes 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

yes 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

not at all 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

yes 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

rarely but not never 34. Listening to?

pll 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

yes?? 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

yes 37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

idk 38. Who did you last call?

my boyfriend 39. Who was the last person you danced with?

idk 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

i love them 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

idk, a while 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

no 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

24/7 44. Do you tan in the nude?

no 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

no 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

no 47. Who was the last person to call you?

my mom 48. Do you sing in the shower?

no 49. Do you dance in the car?

i try not to but yes 50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

yes, camp in middle school 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

over a year ago 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

sometimes 53. Is Christmas stressful?

can be 54. Ever eat a pierogi?

no 55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

cherry pie 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

vet, author 57. Do you believe in ghosts?

no 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

yes 59. Take a vitamin daily?

no 60. Wear slippers?

no 61. Wear a bath robe?

sometimes 62. What do you wear to bed?

shorts and t shirt 63. First concert?

never been to one 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

target 65. Nike or Adidas?

nike 66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

cheetos 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

sunflower seeds 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

our song but that ties with a lot of others 69. Ever take dance lessons?

yes 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

yes, police officer 71. Can you curl your tongue?

yes 72. Ever won a spelling bee?

no 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

yes 74. What is your favorite book?

best bad luck i ever had 75. Do you study better with or without music?

with, except when doing math 76. Regularly burn incense?

no 77. Ever been in love?

yes 78. Who would you like to see in concert?

nobody 79. What was the last concert you saw?

none 80. Hot tea or cold tea?

cold 81. Tea or coffee?

coffee 82. Favorite type of cookie?

sugar or meringue 83. Can you swim well?

decently 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

yes?? 85. Are you patient?

sometimes 86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

dj 87. Ever won a contest?

no 88. Ever have plastic surgery?

no 89. Which are better black or green olives?

no opinion 90. Opinions on sex before marriage?

to each their own 91. Best room for a fireplace?

living room 92. Do you want to get married?

one day

#just for fun #lms if you read

[lunnonbridges]

2019

saw Rachels tumblr post wrapping up her 2019 so ima do the same thing lol ty for the inspiration rachel <3

2019 was wild had some amazing highs and some devastating lows but i mean that happens every year lol.

school: completed my favorite clinical ever in the ED wow i could go on forever about it because i enjoyed it so much and i learned so much and wow ED nursing is amazing and so crucial i can’t wait to work in the ED again in a few years (hopefully) overall i enjoyed school surprisingly i love nursing and i can’t wait to finally use my BSN, RN in action in a few months. i!! am!! a!! college!! graduate!!! passed NCLEX too thank god (no real lows in the school department actually)

work: got to put my RN license in action working as a flu nurse haha i thought it was gonna be more intense but it was actually pretty chill just giving shots lol im not afraid of giving shots at all now because i did it literally for a job lol. got hired to be an oncology nurse at swedish which was nice :) the not nice thing was having my license delayed though which means now i am not working as a nurse T_T but i mean at least i still have the job--just got delayed but nothing to beat myself up over it. glad i found a full time babysitting job to fill the void in the meantime though :) winston is a very cute baby and i love him a lot and i am excited to see him again ahah hes such a darling and pay is enough for me to pay rent and some but rip savings haha

family: feels kinda the same? i’ve always been decently close with my immediate family i guess but going to the wedding and seeing everyone for the first time in a while was weird--i am def the most liberal and like out there out of the entire family i would say like what i believe in and what i hold important etc but i mean thats also not a bad thing--they focus too much on religion and like conservative ways in my opinion and i am too scared to talk about that stuff with extended family lol bc they are so stuck in their ways and i dont want more lectures lol i dont go to church in seattle but i go to church when i am home lol all convos at home become church related somehow and i hate it honestly...i don’t want religion shoved down my throat anymore please!!!!!! it is so suffocating

fitness/body image: started gyming a lot this past summer and continued it until december loll bc i got busy with life but i gained a lot of muscle mass and started feeling good about how i looked for the first time ever really (so sad i know) gained some weight too but that’s ok bc muscle mass. hopefully i can go back to the gym in january so i can work on getting slim thiccc lol i’m such a twig. i am not worrying too much about weight anymore because it is just a number! but i do relapse sometimes and worry too much over how i look--it is a work in progress

friendship: for the most part good or actually honestly all good because the only friend i feel like i kinda lost is Jason? but i mean hes off doing his own thing with his own friends and SO so its ok. if he’s happy im happy for him! maintained friendships with everyone i was close with before and even caught up with some old friends like alice, esther, rowena and i even met up with priyanka once although she never hits me up anymore lol i tried ok she is a busy person. got pretty close with like albert and will especially the past few months and everyone else really through talking to them about my struggles and issues and i know they all care about me truly <3 i love my friends and i am very grateful for the bunch of them. still close to michael and michelle! and i became close to michelle kang thanks to rachel <3 hehe i love rachel she keeps it real for me and is there for me regardless i love living with her and being with her and she just gets me ya know? ily lots rachel wifey <3

relationships: wow where do i even begin....life was going well with jason and then it just went downhill and i am writing this post as single as i can possibly be HAHA we broke up in sept after 3 years but no hard feelings right? hes with someone else and i am content/over him for sure---i was losing feelings which is one reason why i called it off lol but ya he taught me alot but at the same time a lot of people don’t think he was the best for me lol...they all tell me i could do better/glad i am not with him so interesting to hear this now tbh we had some issues and they couldn’t be resolved properly...hope he isn’t mad at me or anything idk....i can say confidently that i am over him 10000000% and i won’t look back. downloaded dating apps in seattle lol and i got wrecked for 2019 HAHA met a really nice guy and hit it off well and i was really liking him but ya tldr did couple-y things and were even exclusive just to have it called off bc there was no attraction and surprisingly i’m not mad at all even now! it hurt the first few days but im over it now. thank you next! (if youre reading this please know this is true and i do want to be friends and this time apart with me being in the bay has helped a lot--took my mind off of a lot of things lol i just want whats best for you!) i know hes looked at my tumblr before lol thats how close we were imo since only a select handful know of this page... he was the first guy i was amazed at for his maturity and levelheadedness actually so kudos to him! not many guys are like him so hopefully the next is just as mature lol i am talking to some guys super casually tho but ya i gotta just focus on myself and friends/fam instead of boys lmao...i am extremely afraid of being vulnerable and opening up and even truly liking someone again because they always leave and i always get hurt and broken lol hopefully i learned my lesson this time haha boys are scary and i have 0 expectations anymore ha ha ha! im open to dating not too sure about being tied down though idk if the right boy comes along so be it!  i dont want to come off as like dependent and insecure and always needing a boy with me for validation--i dont want to jump from 1 boy to another boy so fast bc my heart needs time to heal and recover lol i am baby heh 

this is a very long post so ima write my 2020 goals on a different post aha overall 2019 sucked kinda but also didn't suck lol hopefully 2020 is better haha

#personal #text

[eirosbraindump-blog]

BRAIN DUMP ENTRY #1

November 8, 2018

Thursday: around 10:30 in the morning

Hello, Joe!

It has been a long time since I called you that. Usually I would just slam words and feelings at you and have forgotten the reason why I named you Joe. i wanted to have someone whom I can always rely my stories to, and that is my journal, it is you Joe.

I wanted to have a friend whom I can trust the secrets of my life with, because as of now I don’t think I have one.

Side comment: Fuck, this is very unusual of me to do journaling early in the morning because most of the times I do this at night pero kailangan ko na magreflect. I need to do something productive because I think I’ve been wasting a lot of time.

______________________________________

Around almost 7 in the pm. Lol haha. Whut???

OKAAAAAAY, so it’s basically NOV. 9, I got distracted by movie watching yesterday and left this one hanging. I’m such a fool. I haven’t done anything productive and I’m pissed off with myself because even journaling, di ko matapos tapos. Sooooo yesterday I just watched a couple of movies (not that important) and then drowned myself on the internet, AGAIN.

Thoughts raging, scribbled memories and fucked up mind. That is basically who I am right now. I don’t even know what to write. I got a lot of thoughts going on in here.

I made iced oreo coffee btw. I’m proud, though i still have to perfect it. but I’m proud. Hehe

So back to my magulong sarili, I watched a movie a while ago. Crazy Rich Asians. It’s a good movie though, while watching that I have a lot going on in my mind. First, I got jealous with the girl because how can she be that lucky! Like oh my gosh Rachel, u got a crazy rich man like that who really loves you and then you only gonna turn him down! She is really a strong woman btw. Nick’s family hates her and she just got along with it. SECOND, arrrgh that movie made me feel how single I am and it made me miss my fckin ex-boyfriend AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH. As much as I wanted to forget that asshole, I can’t. because you know what? He gave me two years of happiness that I can’t just forget, bet nobody can do that to me, even my family. Though I appreciate them, every moment of my life I’ve loved my family especially my parents. But there’s just something with Kiko that really made me who I am today. When I met him it was like I finally knew who I really am. I found myself you know? I learned so much for the past two years that I’ve known him. It taught me so much lesson. Life taught so much. I became to appreciate little things because of him. Although I know that we’re not that lowkey to everyone but our treatment, the way we treat each other is kami lang ang nakakaalam at kami lang ang nakakaramdam. Damn you, kiko. I loved you. I really did love you so much it came to the point that it broke my heart really bad. I still love you up until now though, but I don’t think I’m in the right position to love u like I loved you the way I did before.

Kani-kanina lang, I’ve watched a video about journaling, I forgot the name of the girl but there’s this one thing that she said that I can’t forget (though she just re-quoted it, she’s really not the one who said that, I think.) “Forgiveness is the way/road to Happiness.” I don’t think that I have completely moved on yet, I’d just lie to myself if I said that I already did, but I don’t know if I have completely forgave you, and I know that I have been a bitch at times to you (on social media) and to your girl. But that girl is really being a lowclass obsessive bitch she’s really like nagpaparinig sakin na parang mas affected pa siya kesa sating dalawa. Aarrrghh. I cant just be happy for you yet. You really broke my heart Ching. Anyways, as I was saying, that girl on the video also said to write a letter of forgiveness to someone because it will help yourself to freeload your bothering thoughts. So I decided to do that, not just now because I cant promise myself (yet) that I won’t get affected just by seeing your random jejemon-ish pic with the girl i-was-once-got-jealous-into-but-you-said-to-me-don’t-because-she’s-just-a-friend-who-turned-out-to-be-your-girlfriend-today together with you.

Aside from hating and loving my ex at the same time, I have more randomly important life-related thought still going into my head like: what am I going to be after graduation? because I never saw myself being an employee. I don’t know, whenever I think of what am I gonna be, I just see me walking with confidence together with high-fashioned business clothes with high heels and sunglasses inside a random office building. Maybe I’m gonna be a ceo or something. Haha. And then there’s this purpose chorvaness of me. like, what is really my purpose in life ba? What is my actual calling? Am I gonna be like this forever?

Eiro, you know yourself better than anyone else. I can see who am I on the inside, but theres this one thing that I can’t see that people can see: who am I on the outside. Let me give you an example kung gaano kagulo ang personality ko (idk if personality is the right term but. . .) 1. Before sembreak came, I was like ‘oh I should do something productive on sembreak, like I should re-learn photoshop, read books, learn something new and blablabla.’ Some of that happened syempre kasi I was in the urge of reconstructing and discovering me diba? I re-learned Photoshop but I stopped when I got proud of the first project that I made. I didn’t even bother continuing the second project. And then I read a book naman although–haha, I stopped, I don’t know why pero gabi ko kasi binasa yun tapos kinabukasan I didn’t bother to touch it. I cant say that it’s the same old eiro kasi di naman ako ganito dati. You know what? I’ll be harsh to myself, I became a fucking ningas cugon na!

(break muna nandito na parent ko hehe)

Bello. It’s NOV 13 na and I can’t even get this fucking done. It’s around almost 10:30PM so maybe I’ll be like medj sabaw na hahahaha. But I need to get this done you know?

So many things have had happened this past days. Im afraid that my parents are losing their sparks for each other, and I don’t want to let that just fade, so I always make a way to remind them the reason why they stayed at each other’s side. My mum can be stubborn sometimes and my dad is a big pain in the head. Theyre both a pain in the head.

My relationship with kiko is a big blessing in disguise. Yung mga lesson na natutunan ko is naapply ko sa mga magulang ko. And I’m proud of what I did to both of them. I have so many problems in life and I don’t want my family to be one of them. Aside from my friends, sila na lang ang pinagkukunan ko ng lakas at ayoko naman na pati sila ay maging dahilan ng pagsuko ko. Lord please give me strength.

My parents are okay now. I guess the advices that i gave to them works. I love them so much and it hurts me whenever I see them into cold war.

So yesterday, I have this kwento. I dreamt of kiko. I dont want to forget that dream kaya I immediately get my phone and wrote down what happened. Here’s what I wrote:

“11/12/18 4:47am grudgy and sleepy. but idon wanna forget this dream that i had. i meed to write this i had a dream i was with kiko we are on the fx daw and we were standing i know right haha basta fx yun you know dreams are weird sa pagkakaalam ko we were going to sm north edsa and i was hugging him while standing. and he keeps giving me forehead kisses. puta namiss ko yun. pero may isa akong nagawang mali, binitawan ko siya. kumalas ako sa pagkakayakap sa kanya sa kadahilanang majudge ng mundo. were fckin doing pda on that ride. i hate myself for that. binitawan ko siya pota (nakuha tuloy ng iba). then i woke up. Lord, please stop giving me dreams like that. iniisip ko tuloy na sign siya or something. lalo po akong umaasa. please sana yung nangyari po na yun panaginip na lang na habang tumatagal nakakalimutan. i am happy Lord kasi having a relationship with kiko taught me so many lessons that i can say i already applied to some. i see it as a blessing in disguise. pero, how long will i keep hurting Lord?  -your broken daughter,Eiro.“

Yeah, I kinda forgot that ganyan pala yung mga sinulat ko.

Kiko having a girlfriend is a big slap on my face. I think I lowkey gonna accept pa if he broke up with me just to save the relationship, kaso hindi eh. Pinagpalit ako friend. Agad! Alam mo ba yung feeling na parang wala ka ng karapatan na mag selos at mangamusta man lang sa kanya kahit gusto mo kasi alam mong may nagmamayari na sa kanya? Yung parang ang only choice mo na lang is mag move on at parang wala ka na sa lugar masaktan? Though I’m really moving on, may mga times lang na pagdumadating yung mga dates na  ay kinalaman sa kanya is biglang bumabalik lahat ng sakit. All I have to do is wait for that day to be over. And it is so dumb of me because I didn’t even noticed that 4 fucking months have passed and the pain that I am feeling is the same like it just happened yesterday.

Anyways, you know I really need to stop talking about them no? kasi it’s bad for a moving on Eiro.

So It’s almost 11pm and this time is way passed my sleeping time. I just got a lot of brain dump going on that I need to write or else I think I’ll get crazy.

Kinakamusta ko lang naman yung sarili ko and I just really wanted to finsh this entry. And also I am requiring myself to reflect weekly, if not, monthly. Just so I see my improvements and how far I’ve come.

Another side story or cause di ko lang maisingit sa iba hahahah. I am so much thankful for my friends. They really helped me cope up with my problems and helped me get up in my broken situations.

And oh my gosh, nakakainis pala kasi Kiko is using our slangs when we were still a couple sa new gf niya. Like omg ang lame lang at nakakainis kasi. Di ko maexpress through sulat yung nararamdamn ko pero its like a big “PUTANGINA BAKIT?” to my face.

I know bashing them and ranting here are useless, pero kasi it helps me cope up with my problem. Kailangan ko lang mailabas to and to let myself believe that I’m the better one. Friends also said to me that the best revenge is to show them that you are not affected kasi pag pinakita mong apektado ka, ikaw yung talo. And to show kiko that you improved and that youre even happy without him is the best that you can give to him and to yourself.

Girl, I. AM. SERVING!!!

You got served mf a-hole together with your bitch! Jk I still care for you, Ching.

Oh right, shit. With these raging thoughts and feelings, I really need to write a letter to Kiko. Di nga lang yung letter of forgiveness hehe.

So I think that’s it for today, I still have a lot going on though. Hehe

- Confused Rose

[spockkers]

ALL THE ODD NUMBERS BRO, LET'S GO -respectfully, plant-dad-sulu

THANK YOU FOR THIS PLANT DAD SULU LETS GO i just realized this will be 50 questions fuck

1. What are your hobbies?already answered 

3. What makes you laugh?like literally anything 

5. What is your biggest goal?be ISA certified

 7. Do you believe in an afterlife? not really? sometimes i believe in reincatin but it changes

 9. What do you like to do on the weekends? on the weekends i knit a lot and somethins i go downtown and just poke around

 11. What is your favorite TV show now? star trek voyager 

13. Tell me one surprising fact about you. a surpising fact? i have 7 tattoos? does that count

 15. What were you like as a child? quiet as fuck. my parents hate noise 

17. Who has had the biggest influence on your life? i think i already answered this 

19. Talk about a challenge you had recently and how you overcame it or how you plan to.uh? distance between me andsunny? planto overcome: graduate and move in together wherever he goes to school (or doesnt, thats cool too) but my field is hiring almost everywhere so it should be easy to get a job and even if i dont i can get a minumum wagge job for a bit, i wouldnt mind. 

 21. Talk about a favorite childhood memory.me and my sister pranking the neighborhood. there was this pipe underneath the road, and on one side was the neighnordhood pool, so my sister and i went to the opposite side and wold play the ice cream truck song to get everytony to come up to look for ice cream but there was no truck

 23. If you could give your younger self one piece of advice, what would it be and why? punch your bullies. just do it. its worth it.  

25. Who is your celebrity crush? alton brown.

 27. What is your favorite music genre? I DONT KNOW. i love alternative and 70s folk. someone help me

 29. What would you do if you won a million dollars? first i would save half of it. second i would give some to friends for “loans” that they dont have to repay. third, after graudation get a house? idk 

31. What is your dream vacation? i dont really know? something with sunny, really, i dont care a whole lot about the locatino. but if by myself, the mounains. appalachians. 

 33. Where did you grow up? duluth GA 

35. What is your favorite book? uh. cats cradle by vonnegut 

37. Who do you look up to? me 

39. Are you a picky eater? i dont think so 

 41. What beverage do you consume most often? water. i drink SO much water. 

43. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? FUCK NO. (sunny is far away and we have not met, therefore i have not kissed him and the last person i have kissed was my ex from two years ago)

 45. Do you plan out your outfits? nope haha 

47. Talk about the last dream you remember having. the only one that i can immediately remember was that…geez i talk about sunny a lot. sunny was at my apartment, expcet it wasnt my apartment, and there was a leak? idk exactly but people were trying to repair it. it was weird.  

49. When was the last time you cried and why? like 10 minutes ago, i was watfhcing a disney viedeo and im drunk so you cant blame me 

51. Have you ever been to a concert? yes! my frist two concerts were billy joel, and then ive been to a lot after that. 

 53. Have you ever flown in an airplane? yup. to new york, arizona, and paris 

55. Are your parents or guardians strict? yup. im a good liar cause of it 

57. Have you ever been in love? definitely yes

 59. Did the one person who hurt you most in your life ever apologize? who hurt me the most? either way i could take this question, no. 

 61. What are some of your turn-offs? being rude. giving up on easy things (simple homework, for example). not actually talking to me.  

63. What are you thinking about right now? answering all these questins. and how i wanna go to bed and how i want sunny here 

65. Do you ever illegally download entertainment such as music, movies, etc.? yeah pretty much all my music is illegal 

67. Do you believe in karma or predestiny? maybe? i do believe in karma. i put a lot of good karma out, and one night i got a lot of good karma back to me, so i think there kinda is.  

69. Would you rather live a shorter life but be wealthy or live a longer life and struggle financially? depends on if im happy. i will struggle financially all mylife if im happy buy if im rich and sad, its not worth it.  

71. Do you believe in ghosts? not really 

 73. What was your worst experience while under the influence of drugs or alcohol? me and ben both threw up one night. that was awful. the only time ive thrown up after drinking. 

 75. What do you daydream about? livingin florida 

77. What would you change your first name to?nothing? i like my first name. if i had to change it, rachel, cause i happen to respond to that name.  

79. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? optimistic. definitely . 

81. What is your dream profession? city arborist, risk management 

83. When was the last time you tried something new and what was it? ummmm today i went into some new stores i had been wanting to go into?  

85. What excites you about life? graduation and seeing where i end up 

87. What is one life lesson you learned the hard way?UGA still gives parking tickets in the summer

 89. If not now, then when? what is this asking. after i graduate college

 91. What activities make you lose track of time? drinking 

93. What is your biggest regret? nothing, fuck you.

 95. Are you a messy person or a clean person? messy 

97. How tall are you? five foot seven 

99. Do you prefer sweet or salty? both. i got cheezits AND oreos the second to last time i went grocery shoppinh

[lizzanny]

1 - Who was the last person you texted? My boyfriend 2 - When is your birthday? Feb. 13 3 - Who do you want to be with right now? Usually my boyfriend or friends 4 - What sports do you play? Snowboard, skate board, kayaking, biking etc. 5 - Who is the first person in your contacts? Serina Adler lol random 6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment? Ohhh shit um, northern wind by city and colour, but I have a lot of favorite songs. 7 - If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with? My boyfriend or my best friend or dad because he would help is survive lol 8 - What do you feel right now? Good, kinda stressed with life but nothing I couldn't fix to be a happier person. 9 - What chocolate is your favorite? Dude any chocolate 10 - How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have? I've been four relationships, four guys. 11 - Why did you create a Tumblr account? I love photography and quotes and expressing myself through them and using my creative mind. 12 - Who is your favorite blogger? Allie 13 - Where do you want to be right now? Hawaii, Oregon, Anywhere in Europe, Iceland, New Zealand... omg I can't decide. 14 - What do you want to be in the future? Happy, loved/in love, independent, surrounded with friends and family, good job, cute little house with lots of plants and a cat or doggy. Oh and a VW bus traveling. 15 - When was the last time you cried? Why? I cry way to much, I'm a big baby and very emotional 16 - Are you happy? Yeah for the most part, deff things I wish were different or that I can change, I'm happy but I have a lot of goals I need to accomplish 17 - What do you miss? Miss when life was easier and less stressful, miss being a kid, miss certain people who are no longer in my life. 18 - If you were given a chance, would you like to have a different life? That's a hard question, maybe some days. 19 - What was the best thing you were given? Love 20 - Who was the last person who called you? Joe 21 - What is your favorite dish? Pulled pork 22 - Who is your bestfriend? Rachel 23 - What is your biggest regret? Cheating 24 - Have you ever cheated on your partner? Yes sadly and I regret it everyday of my life. 25 - Who do you spend crazy moments with? BFF 26 - Name someone pretty. 27 - Who was the last person you hugged? Bf 28 - What kind of music do you listen to? A lot, mostly indie and indie rock 29 - Are you over your past? Nah 30 - Who is the last person in your contacts? Whyyyy does it matter 31 - What kind of person do you want to date? Kind loving loyal trustworthy driven smart happy fun creative adventures etc 32 - Do you have troubles sleeping at night? Some times 33 - From whom was the last text message you received? Baby 34 - What do you prefer, jeans or skirt? Ehhh dress lol 35 - How’s your heart? Could be way better 36 - Did you ever have a girlfriend/boyfriend whose name starts with a “J”? Yea my babbbby 37 - Do you like someone as of the moment? Yeah 38 - What would you want to say to your latest ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend? You're a heart breaker 39 - Do you have any phobias? Yeah , heights, deep water 40 - Did you try to change for a person? Sadly yeah and it didn't work though 41 - What’s the nicest thing have you given to someone? Love 42 - Would you go back to your previous relationship? Ugh bad question 43 - Are you in a good or bad mood? I'm good 44 - Name someone you can’t live without. My dad 45 - Describe your dream date. Laying under the moon 46 - Describe your dream wedding. In the woods with flowers everywhere 47 - How many roses did you receive last Valentine’s? Omg so many haha 48 - Have you ever been kissed? Omg no never 49 - How long is your longest relationship? 4 years 50 - Do you regret your past? Some of it, lesson learned 51 - Can you do something stupid for someone else? No 52 - Have you ever cried over someone? Yeah 53 - Do you have a grudge against anyone? Nah whatever, girls suck tho 54 - Are you a crybaby? 55 - Do people praise you for your looks? Hahaha no 56 - Did you fall for someone you shouldn’t? Yup 57 - Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret? Um yeah but lesson learned 58 - Do you like getting hurt? Who does? Lol 59 - Does anyone hate you? Provably 60 - Did you slap anyone whose name starts with an “R”? No 61 - What hair color do you prefer? Mine 62 - If you can change anything about yourself, what is it? Hair, skin, more street smart Longer hair, fuck bad skin I want it to be flawless 63 - Do you love someone as of the moment? What? 64 - Have you ever thought of killing yourself? Fuck no, selfish 65 - Do you have issues with somebody in your school? No 66 - Can you live without internet? Yeah 67 - What’s the song that remind you of your special someone? To many. 68 - Are you good at holding back your tears? Not really when I'm sad I'm sad, let it outtt 69 - Are you a crybaby? 70 - Have you ever experienced being hysterical? Idk 71 - Are you a KPOP fan? Huh? 72 - Do you study hard? No I should be instead of this tho 73 - Have you ever sacrificed something important to you for someone you love? Yeah 74 - Did you ever had a kiss under the moonlight? Yessss 75 - Have you ever ridden a boat? Heck yeaaa 76 - Did you have an accident last year? lol yeah 77 - What kind of person are you? I like photography, being in love, and simply beauty that's all around us. 78 - Have you ever thought of killing someone? Wtf no 79 - Have you ever been jealous? Yup 80 - How can you prove your love to someone? Make them feel good, happy, faithful, honest, loving, be there for them etc. 81 - What are you thinking right now? To much shit. 82 - Who is the 6th person in your contacts? Angela? 83 - Do you have any memories you want to erase? Oh for sure. 84 - Have you been hurt so bad that you can’t find words to explain how you feel? Yup. 85 - Did you ever badmouth someone? Yeah sadly 86 - Have you ever had an argument with someone? Sadly yeah 87 - Do you have trust issues? Fuck yeah 88 - Are you broken-hearted? Yeah sorta 89 - Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love”? My family, past/present people loves. 90 - Do you think all the pain is worth it? Haha no. 91 - Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”? Fuck yes. 92 - Who do you want to marry? someone who truly loves me, someone who I can trust not to hurt me, someone who I can be myself around who won't try and change me or judge me. Someone who helps me be truly happy. 93 - Do you believe in destiny? Yes 100% 94 - Have you ever thought “I already found my soulmate”? Yeah but I was wrong I guess 95 - How do you look right now? Just got out of the shower so wet lol 96 - Do you believe that first true love never dies? Yeah I think so, even if they hurt you extremely bad you always care about the person. 97 - Have you found your true love? Yeah I think so. 98 - What should you be doing right now? Studying, looking for better job or better apartment. 99 - Name one of your ex-boyfriends/ex-girlfriends Billy 100 - Did you ever feel like you’re not good enough? Sure, sometimes