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#idk whats so good about sex genuinely im just not interested i dont get it
ncteez · 1 year
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heyy before i proceed to my ask, i just wanted (needed!) u to know that your writing is absolutely exceptional, my god. the inability to write anything dull, u just seem to make everything so so interesting, every fic is so well-crafted down to the littlest details. we can tell ure very. meticulous, it shows in your works !! especially with writing mark.. jesus chrys, the way u write mark lee is just so him. u do him justice every damn time. i feel like you’ve heard this more than once already but it’s true! like in the middle of reading a mark fic written by u, i get the feeling like u personally know him😭 i mean yea it’s still fiction but it just gets to me,, i read a line or a dialogue, pause and my brain goes ‘oh that’s him alr’. that beauty of a human being deserves to be written like how u write him. u just. get it. i have no better words to describe it, honestly but your writing moves me, it touches my heart n every other part of me in more ways than one, idk it’s JUST TEW GOOD i can’t recall how many times i’ve been gobsmacked reading a fic by user ncteez. there’s no way i’m reading all this for free, like I should be paying for this sht bc this is what real writers are #to me. and ik manyy other ppl thinks the same abt u. i dont usually go here but ure the first ever fanfic writer i ever followed and one of the few i rly admire. your way with words, your humor, even your openness and approach to certain tropes and dynamics idk i just think ure someone who’s full of wisdom ig. and i wish u all the best in life, dearly.
that said, i don’t think i’ll ever get tired of re-reading delphinium. i will say, personally, i see mark as a either a dom (granted bc he’s a leo), a switch or (slightly) a sub just not a hardcore sub (that’s before reading your fics and a few from others then realizing i actually enjoy this mark—a lot) innocent!mark and a religious one at that. i indulge in that a little too much, i fear. despite the plot, i genuinely think this is how mark’s gonna be if he ever falls n feels for someone and gets in a relationship. cliche but every time i go back to read it, it rly feels like reading it for the first time (well the second ig bc the first time felt like i’ve been opened, torn apart and thrown up n down n across the room throughout both parts) but my point is! the feels just never go away. it’s truly one of the best fics i’ve ever read in my whole entire 19 yrs of living and one of the markiest fics ever made, it’s all too perfect. which leads me to my very first ask; i was re-reading delphinium pt. 2 sometime a month ago i think and when it got to the part where he’s fingering for the very first time in his life, and finds himself a natural, quick learner then y/n goes it’s dangerous that she gets to call him her boyfriend, i thought oh it’s going to be rough if he ever eats her out.. i’ve been dying to know how mark gets to learn from y/n and how he gets to have enough experience on his way to become the sex god he is. how their relationship blossoms from then on. it’s all in my head but i’m sure however ure gonna write it, it’s going to be the perfect mix of fluff and spicy (and pain mayb). ik you’re not interested in writing for nct anymore and are focusing on svteez but if you ever consider on writing maybe even little drabbles on it, i’d be thee most delighted human being hh
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p.s. i re-read delphinium at least twice every two or three weeks srry i just can get enough of it
im gonna cry :)
you think i have the inability to write anything dull? ૮ ˶´ ᵕˋ ˶ა i– really really am so appreciative of you right now. it feels like you can see how much thought and work goes into my writing PLEASE. Mark is someone I really love to write for because I feel i can see everything in my head so clearly, and I can also hear his voice so so clearly too! i’m really glad that my fics make you feel this way ;o; because i get so much feedback that’s strictly about the smut but rarely about dialogue or plot and i get really excited to read the feedback you’re giving me right now :D (don’t get me wrong, any and all feedback is super exciting for me!!!)
“i can’t recall how many times i’ve been gobsmacked reading a fic by user ncteez. there’s no way i’m reading all this for free, like I should be paying for this sht bc this is what real writers are #to me.” 
STOP IT ILL CRY SDJKFHDKSJ, but rly there have been times i’ve considered setting up a kofi again just to give people the option to tip me but im ngl, i havent bc i don’t want ppl to think I just….expect money for my fics yknow? Even if i sometimes work for days, weeks, months, and years on them. 
“i dont usually go here but ure the first ever fanfic writer i ever followed and one of the few i rly admire. your way with words, your humor, even your openness and approach to certain tropes and dynamics idk i just think ure someone who’s full of wisdom ig. and i wish u all the best in life, dearly.”
i am so fucking honored to be the first writer you’ve ever followed and one of the few you admire, i hope i can continue to release works that make you feel this way :) even if i’m not writing for nct anymore, I do think i’ll always loop back around to mark at the very least, bc i rly rly do love him. I wish the best in life for you, pls. 
AS FOR DELPHINIUM. MAN, that was my first ever written mark fic and it solidified my love for sub-idols in fics. I understand seeing him as a dom bc he’s a leo but in my experience, leos are only dominant in other aspects of life :o mark is a confident bottom <3 
“i dont usually go here but ure the first ever fanfic writer i ever followed and one of the few i rly admire. your way with words, your humor, even your openness and approach to certain tropes and dynamics idk i just think ure someone who’s full of wisdom ig. and i wish u all the best in life, dearly.” 
you can’t tell, but im kissing you rn. I will possibly write more for delphinium in the future because I do often think about how that version of mark would taste a pussy ngl. Like, and I mean, i would want him to learn //all// of the things, including reader letting him take the control for a little bit to see how it would go. I can’t promise you that it’s in the near future, but if you stick around, even just for my svteez content, delphinium mark will make another appearance at some point on my blog :) 
i love u so much for this, btw.
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nonclassyparty · 2 years
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also please tell me that san "fucking up" in act 8 won't be him cheating on boyoung... if it's that kind of fucking up then there's truly no hope for him and he won't deserve y/n OR boyoung.
idk is it just me or do i hope for happy endings for all involved parties? i think y/n and mingi would be happy together, if they could get past their current feelings towards each other. because let me just say this, y/n and san don't belong together. it's one of those things where you just know two people aren't right for each other, they're not the one for each other. and i think that's where the heartbreak is coming for y/n, the fact that she desperately wants to be the one for san, but she's not. boyoung is.
i'm not sure what exactly is gonna transpire between the current act 3 and the letter y/n has written, but considering what you said about boyoung not being one to do anything wrong at all, i genuinely think that it's not fair for y/n to assume boyoung's got a superiority complex. if anything, y/n might just be projecting her own complex. i know this story is supposed to be mainly focused on y/n, but i think boyoung has a lot of potential and room for growth/development. maybe now she's all timid and shy, but i really do hope she can learn to grow into a more confident person that doesn't allow bullshit from anyone, including y/n. i just think a story is more interesting when every character is fleshed out really well. i also hope boyoung learns that she deserves more than what san can offer her (i'm guessing his fuck-up in act 8 might still have something to do with boyoung, which is why y/n mentioned in the letter that they were broken up), and i hope that san understands what a good thing he has, and doesn't let his past get in the way of his future. i truly do hope they can be happy together, regardless of what y/n and her vanilla-sex hating ass might think.
if it seems like i'm harping on y/n too much, my apologies 😭 i don't truly think i'm on anyone's side tbh, my only wish is that each major player get the character development they deserve, including y/n. i think you're a really capable writer and i'm excited to see what comes next!
there will be no cheating because he really does have feelings for boyoung 😭
also boyoung IS insecure. while writing this story, i really tried to make her be the most stereotypically shy, timid, sweet good girl she can possibly be to fit the overused trope and most of them have major confidence issues. and sure, she might have things going on that we dont know about but i personally dont care much 😭. if i open wattpad and go through the good girl/player trope, any backstory of the female oc will fit as boyoung's backstory as well and since in act 3 san let yn know how he actually felt about her and she'll sort of back off from him (and im not saying give up on him completely but she'll be focusing on other things in her life)- there will be no need for me to work on boyoung more since yn wont have any altercations with her that would require boyoung to have any character development (it might sound lazy but im personally just bored of her character so i dont want to spend more time on her than i have to 😭)
i think the letter sorta led all of you in the wrong direction which is definitely my fault since im the one who wrote it but its going to be fun when you guys find out whats ACTUALLY going to happen lol
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fangtastic-vampyra · 8 months
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TAKE ONE...... RECOVERING FROM COVID/UNPLEASTANTRIES....
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i love this shirt, forever, <333
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CAT EYEZ sunglasses
AND DONT KNOW WHETHER IM A BOY OR A GIRL, I THINK IM A CROSSDRESSER, IDK, HAHAHAHA.
(z courtesy of reminders of Louis..this retrograde umm.. He is always typing that way, (z instead of s) I am so glad I met him, he's my EX but I keep thinking about him, like we wanted to be each others primary, ) idek, I really thought our relationship was so innocent and cute, but meanwhile, Im trying to find my next meal and he's painting his nails and wont' buy me a drink when we go out.. idek.. but it was cute, and I would have married him..a few men i would have.. idk.. i think though, genuinely, im with or know or am about to find him. a few wanted to put a ring on it, but things just didnt work out, and havent popped out any kids yet... so >_> idek... hoping im not but i feel so weird rn.
even though im like mid sex change umm, no one talks about this, omgg..theres literally NOTHING, is it embarassing to people like fo srs i think its very fun and interesting.
tbh tho..im nonbinary (but i dont often remember when i act like a girl um) but i hate ugh... ugh hate being female soo soo much, it it wasnt the oppression, the overbaring patriarchy, and men literally hitting on females, like...idek... i wish i was a lesbian!!!, but im not, though i find i do want women to like me, but like, as a friend or a maaayyybe a bit more, like to have a good relationship with other women and to encourage having female friends with each other-- instead of worrying about stupid dudes that hurt us.. ugh...
idk, >_> I wasnt uh, lesbian with Livvy, Im a TRANS GUY.
LIKE ON HRT, THREE YEARS, PRETTY MUCH NO GOING BACK NOW, BUT I DONT THINKI WANT TO BE LIKE, A 50 YR OLD DUDE, MAYBE ILL STILL LOOK GOOD THO??,
Louis made my life beauitufl, I am enjoying the Dark side .... Industrial, REAL FUBAR SHIT THAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED that he has pictures of, and struggling along.. Louis only got SSI too... Brenden gets child support for Jette and he is about to get hired as a maintenance, he is always running around cleaning.
TRULY-- I like people that liek downers cause Im so nervous. And MYSELF? i LIKE THE NEED FOR SPEED. But..... I dont do speed! Only a few lines. Yaknow. Literally. A few. Years and years and years and years. And I got on meds, and Im becoming a lot more wholesome. TBH. asking mum how shes doing and what she thinks of stuff and sharing recipes with her, like a FAMILY. They started the drugging out shit though, and i dont mind a drink here and there, im mostly a cig smoke these days, and cloves, i took a few puffs of weed and got nervous like and was hungry three hours later and felt bad like it had something wrong with it, idk do not want them to the point that they get violent, but you arent suppose to go over your limit with anything! Mum would come home and bark out orders and tlel me what im doing wrong, like she gave me three compliments in my life..the v2k (fake schizo voices cuz im a targeted individual) ... said.. she abandoned me in a parking lot!! pfft. Brendan said dont pay attn to that crap.
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I love the energy and all and I don’t want to offend but as a Muslim girl i can tell you that it is literally haram to identify as anything other than your god given gender. Like I’m not trying to be rude and I’m glad that there a respectful supportive people out there but if you’re looking at the Quran and other islamic book you’ll find stories about how its considered haram. Accepting the islam religion means accepting everything and dedicating yourself to it you can’t just pick and choose.
omg my first anon hate hahaha
i know im not obligated to answer hate but im going to anyway bcuz of i have things to say (sparkle emoji) (im on pc and dont have the energy to find an emoji keyboard)
okay first of all nowhere did i say that I identify as Muslim. i get that it was ambiguous tho so its cool. to clarify,, I am personally not Muslim but I kind of have to act like one so I don't get kicked to the streets or some shit lol and maybe I'm a bit of a coward idkkk but anyways
I would be interested to know what other Islamic books ur talking about btw, but I'm pretty sure the quran doesn't mention being trans anywhere at all. in fact I'm pretty certain, I've read it multiple times with translation and commentary interpretations and anyway being trans wasn't really a 'known' thing back then? bcuz obviously patriarchy and gender roles n segregation blah blah was wayyyy more yk. shit I forgot the word. uhhh yk like prevalent?? ofc the quran does mention a shitton about gender roles,, so yk men r the breadwinners, women raise the kids and keep house and be good wives etc. and also remember the big important fact:: GENDER AND SEX R DIFFERENT THINGS!!! meaning technically u cant be 'born' a gender (omfg my keyboard hates me imagine a question mark here) ur born with certain genitals and society assigns u a gender based on that . sounds a bit fucked when u put it like that actually but anyway back when the quran was being revealed this wasn't a known thing cuz yk they didn't have studies on this stuff,, and yea ur probably gonna say 'but the quran came from allah and he knows everything' well the fact of the matter is he either forgot or smth idk I don't speak for God but trans people definitely exist that's a fact we know so yeah. oh I should come back to my point which was, even with the quran saying those things about what ur supposed to do based on whats in ur pants which is crazy outdated anyway it doesn't take gender ≠ sex into consideration either soo ye that's the most it could've said about being trans and that not very valid anymore rip and that's not even mentioning non-binary people
and anyway Islam is literally all about acceptance and respect and everything so idk it would probably be better if u didn't go around telling ppl they're 'literally haram' for being trans or gay or any typa queer bcuz its literally not our choice (insert question marks) believe me I would fucking love to be comfortable in my 'female' body but I cant no matter how much I try to force myself so I'm sorry dude. no one would choose to be stuck in a situation like this. personally, I believe Islam needs a super massive reformation. well not Islam exactly, but a lot of things said in the quran r outdated wildly now, while a lot of it will also always be relevant, eg. everyone being equal and yk give to the poor etc. i have absolutely nothing against Muslims (I have it against my family for being so forceful about religion - different thing) yall r super cool and ik being a Muslim girl isn't easy believe me, but genuinely seeing Muslim people around and yk, just existing in wider society outside of Islamic spaces makes me feel so proud of where I came from even if its not been the best experience. have u seen the show We are Lady Parts (question mark) its about an all female Muslim punk band and there's only six episodes I literally watched it all today but the message of it is what I'm trying to get to you. u don't have to be the perfect pious wife to be considered a 'good Muslim',, there are so many ways u can show faith. you don't have to be a big strong man who can handle all pain with ease while single-handedly providing for a family either.
anyways peace out that sure was a journey lol and I definitely have forgot some of the things I wanted to say but yea that's all don't forget to like and subscribe <3
(colours r to make it easier to read for people with shorter attention spans,, they don't have any other significance)
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antiloreolympus · 2 years
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10 Anti LO Asks
1. Ah, yes. Hades' dog. Cerberus. Guardian of the Underworld. And over there, we have Hades' other dogs that serve as a comic relief and/or to make Hades look like a dog dad.
Mushroom, Russell, 𝒞ℴ𝓇𝒹ℴ𝓃 ℬ𝓁ℯ𝓊, J.P, Fudge, ᵐᵉˡⁱ, Fudge and ʙ ɪ ɢ ᴊ ᴏ ʜ ɴ.
Rachel literally cannot come up with original names for anything. It's so sad.
2. rachel is so bad at actually aligning the gods to proper colors and symbolism that dionysus will probably be neon orange with purple splotches and she'll claim its some genius "twist" on semele's human skin and zeus's ... whatever he is. also no leaves or grapes because that doesnt fit the ~modern aesthetic~
3. have any of you guys watched OSP? RS "borrowed" most of her ideas from them too, especially in regards to her depiction of Hades, Zeus, and Demeter.
From OP: RS probably got most of her ideas off of tumblr tbh. She was on tumblr for a long time so it wouldn’t be surprising if it rubbed off on her.
4. LMAO that's also it like basically every god including hades was in some way related to different times of fertility. zeus was both biologically and nature via rain, demeter was for mothers, food, and the earth, hera for the period cycle and motherhood, and the list goes on and on. even as that other person said the "maidens" also were fertility, artemis and hecate especially. if anything being a fertility deity is one of the least rare things to be, but why would rachel know that 🙄
5. correct me if im wrong here, but didnt most ancient art of persephone depict her as "queenly" so ... as an adult? like she was supposed to look similar aged to hades and the rest of the olympians, not so young like rachel depicts her. idk where she thought the queen of the dead should be a airheaded teenager, but whatever.
6. what i dont get is virginity as a concept is so misogynistic, yet rachel plays into it straight where no one questions why theres a whole society and scholarship around it, and persephone seems perfectly fine to keep it intact. until she all of sudden only has sexual feelings for hades, tho hades even shames her for seemingly not wanting to have sex (and also calls her a fertility goddess, so is it rare or not?) and i just, idk the whole idea is so dumb?? rachel why would you do this
7. if rachel's fans actually suggested/voted she add in persephone be assaulted i might throw up. why would anyone purposely ask for the lead character to be sexually assaulted because rachel wants her story to be more "serious" when she clearly cant depict it right and is using the actual assault in a disgusting way to push her romance along? if her fans suggested that theyre genuinely unwell. thats not ok.
8. IDK to me I think LO fails is because Rachel desperately is trying to make literal gods #Relatable and I just think that's not how the gods should be depicted? I'm not saying they can't have issues or flaws, but she doesn't even allow them that? They're all just boring archetypes? And because of this "Just Like Us" depiction is makes times it tries to be Fantasy (the AOW, Royal hierarchy, the Pom, Kronos, etc) it just doesn't mesh well at all and makes the world confusing over intriguing.
9. Honestly season one LO is kinda good? Don't get me wrong it DEFINITELY has it's flaws and shitty ideas but overall it was interesting and very cute in some episodes and there were more than 2 central characters. I agree with anon from previous posts that LO would have been so much better without "adult themes". Her take on toxic relationships and personal freedom would be enough in the light rom-com atmosphere and collage life(like it meant to be from the start). Ugh I'm so sad when I think about it, LO is such a shitshow in season 2 
10. Alright I'm seeing a lot of controversy I guess? Over the "sexy plant watering scene" and I'm gonna add my two cents on that as well as some other things of note.
1. The "Persephone waters plants in sexy lingerie" is a weird scene - because of the framing. One anon was wondering what's wrong with watering your plants in your undies - its nothing, theres no issue there. The issue (to me) is the way the narrative frames the scene: Thetis accuses Persephone of murder and of wanting to be romantically involved with Hades (despite knowing of his relationship with Minthe) and the scene shifts to Perse watering minthe the plant in lingerie. The reason it comes off as weird is because A). This is Thetis's recounting of events, so its not accurate and B). It feels as though the Only reason this shot was in the comic at all was because RS wanted another "girlboss" moment with Persephone looking sexy and being nearly naked (once again) and flaunting her power over Minthe via watering her while wearing lingerie as a way of saying "look who has the power here. I'm wandering around the place that could've been yours AND im f*cking your boyfriend/would-be husband"
(It feels like in Thetis version Persephone is some kind of sexy seductress villain but really RS just wanted to sexualize Perse again).
2. The narrative sometimes frames things oddly and that causes a disconnect. Like the scene (not sure which chapter) where Hades takes Persephone shopping and though she doesn't feel comfortable / doesn't want to have sex with him, she still asks him "dont you want me" and (again, to me anyway) it feels as though theres this gross unspoken message there of Persephone saying "dont you want me (even though im damaged goods / have been damaged / been used by somebody else) even though Hades has no knowledge of Persephones SA. It comes off as the only thing shes worried about (despite the SA just happening a week or so ago) is whether or not this new man who she barely knows will still be attracted to her / will want her after finding out shes been r*ped.
3. The more I read LO the more it feels as though every single character is really just an OC of RS's wearing Greek deity skin. Like as though RS wanted to tell a specific story but knew it might not have done well in its own so she slapped on a "Greek Myth / characters names" to boost the comics attention without actually doing any research into the culture. The characters feel as though they have Nothing in common with the actual Greek deities their supposedly based on and considering the few myths that Hades and Persephone Do show up in and in relation to LO's plot, I just dont understand Why their called by the Greek deities names. When was there Ever a myth where Persephone was on trial for murder? When did Hera - thw goddess of marriage and fidelity ever cheat on Zeus (espeically with his brother, Hades?) - (And yes, I know its a "modern retelling" but I feel as though there is a way to do that and incorporate themes / stories from the actual myths without making up nonsensical plot lines) The only reason I can think of for why their Greek deities is popularity purposes.
4. A while back someone came into one of my posts regarding my confusion over LO's trial plotline and they said that RS admitted she did not fully plan out the trial plot and is really just going week by week at this point (and I don't know if thats true or not) however! If it is true, then that feels like a huge oversight on her part as a writer. Most writers I know (myself included) like to have an outline for some plot points, maybe the beginning and end and then you fill in the gaps along the way. And I'm not saying you have plan out every single step to every chapter, but it seems like it would be a good thing to at least have some kind of idea or general direction for what happens during this arc in the story rather than flying by the seat of your pants, yeah? Wouldn't you want to have something a bit more concrete in mind when doing a so-called important story arc ?
5. I know this has been harped on again and again but, why why why would you have Persephone start off as a barely legal teenager whos just going into college vs the much much older business CEO who has rage issues and is into impressionable young women?
6. On another note: why does Persephone act as though being from Sicily is like the equivalent of someone from Georgia or Texas moving to New York as though (despite being a goddess) she acts as though she might be mocked for being some kind of "Greek god country bumpkin"?
7. The strange reinforcement / idea of a person (Perse in this case) Only being allowed to be attracted to her future husband and not being allowed to have any other connections or meaningful relationships, or experience especially considering her first "romantic" relationship started off with her being SA while on the flipside Hades (despite being hated by the underworld denizens) has connections and meaningful relationships outside of Persephone. Persephone has a strained relationship with her mother and her roommate / has little to no friends. Hades had Minthe, Hecate, the underworld, his business And his brothers to rely on. (Persephone doesn't seem to have much of a life outside of Hades while the opposite is not true).
8. I'm genuinely asking here - what do hades and Persephone like about each other? (Aside from each other's bodies). Sexual attraction is a thing but does Hades even know basic things about Persephone? Like her goals in life or ambitions, he'll her favorite food or color? (And because we Know their fated to be together / will get married) - Does he bother to get to know her friends or her mother (in a non antagonist way)?? Does he support her in any other way that has no relation to him and his needs?
9. In the printed novel version theres an extra chapter that (I think) is supposed to be Heras introduction / birthday party and Hades and Minthe show up. Hera has a vision of Hades getting married when he hands her a coat and she seema awfully excited about it - but why would she be? The chapter states that she cant see whos under the veil and considering hes currently dating Minthe wouldn't it be fair to assume hes marrying Minthe in this vision? And with how much Hera despises Minthe why would she be excited for Hades to be married unless she was 100% certain who he was marrying was not her? Also why would she be excited about him getting married if at that point, they were still having an off and on again affair? It just seems to raise more questions honestly.
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Could I ask what your sexuality headcanons are? I love comparing mine with other peoples’!
Ok second half of this; this is just like. non-students who i Actually have thought about HJBAFV not at all a comprehensive list. Again disclaimer i write all these chars as bi in my fics, also i am bi myself so the vast majority are also bi, and also leaving a lot of these vague so u can imagine ur favorite ship or urself or w/ever
ok lets start this off with Aizawa. I think....... hes another one who's rlly unlabelled, doesnt super care to think it through and define it, but calls himself gay bc his interest in women is very, very rare and it's just way easier to say than explain all that. Definitely do buy into the idea that he had a crush on Oboro in hs but i do NOT buy into the easermic agenda sorry. Definitely not someone who goes looking for dates, but doesn't say no if someone asks him and hes interested (also im not gonna give her a whole section but i saw a hc a while back that the Ms. Joke stuff is literally that shes a lesbian and hes gay and shes fucking with him and i love that so much i just wanted to put it out there)
on the topic of the erasermic agenda: Hizashi's pan and knew it before HS, had a sudden & intense crush on Aizawa for the first month they knew each other and then immediately got over it in favor of a similar sudden, intense, and then immediately fading crush on Midnight. Hizashi and Aizawa r just rlly good friends imo; maybe they messed around for a bit in their twenties but it never went anywhere serious. He dates around a lot, not even necessarily to settle down just to have some fun
Midnight is aro/ace but does get in qprs & gravitates towards women wrt that. Most people dont read vigilantes but theres a woman in that, Kazuho, who i imagine she's been in a long-term qpr with; her relationship with aizawa and hizashi leans a little more towards a qpr than a normal friendship, too, but it's not rlly defined that way
All Might is married to justice queer but v much not interested in relationships. He and that one guy from the first movie are ABSOLUTELY exes and i won't hear otherwise; it's the only relationship he's ever had, and they broke up bc he had to go back to japan. He was heartbroken but did eventually get over him; his lack of romance afterwards is from genuine disinterest and not being hung up on his past. I can see him finding someone else in his later years, after he's retired. Definitely feels like he's not worthy of it tho
Hawks is bi but unfortunately didn't get to figure that out until like Now in the timeline...... if youll let my dabihawks history shine through i think dabi was the reason JHBASFGJHB he was basically brainwashed by the commission to become a hero so he didnt have time to Figure That Shit Out; he knew he was into women bc that was easy & what the commission expected from him but then he started this undercover assignment and met dabi and realized Oh...... Fuck. Hawks is hard tbh, bc i think between the control that the commission has over him and his own convictions as a hero he doesn't pursue any romance (tho he does get crushes or find people attractive) and most of his flings are done to keep up his prettyboy act, not out of genuine interest in being a fuckboy. Can't imagine him having a relationship until well after canon but I do see him being interested eventually
Onto the villains, Shigaraki is unlabelled but probably would call himself queer if asked. Definitely admires women more but isn't very interested in romance; AFO actively encourages him to pursue the things interested in so imo if he were he'd talk abt it more lmfao. I kinda see him as demi as well, not the type to fall immediately but requiring a friendship beforehand; tho unlike Bakugo as i said in my last post I dont think it happens suddenly but rather slowly. Y'all know im a big fan of shigaraki being absolutely whipped for his s/o so i do thing hes a big piner, tho he's also pretty bold and unashamed of his affections. I'm a big fan of him falling for a member of the league or a civilian; definitely can't see him falling for a hero unless the hero was already halfway to turning sides already. I think he's also attracted to intelligence and someone who pushes him to think more abt his ideology...... maybe im just projecting at this point JSHDFBVAJKSHD but my point is that the gender of his partner is definitely the least of what he considers/notices
Dabi is bi and, here's my bold take, demisexual; not interested in sex unless its with someone he loves. Absolutely doesn't even think abt romance for most of the years where he's on his own. He's got revenge to plan. By the time he joins the league that hasn't changed much, and he's demi so he's not interested in sleeping around, plus he rlly denies any attachment to people at all. As I said in that other ask tho I do rlly like the idea of him with Magne, so I think they have a fling for a bit before her death :( it's one of the things that leads him to isolate himself further, unfortunately, even from Jin and the other League members with whom his relationships aren't romantic. I can see him dating someone post-canon bc i think hes gonna be redeemed lol. It could be someone he knew before but they probably didnt date again bc he was v guarded; i think magne was rlly the only person he dated
Magne is pan and heres the kicker: I think shes t4t, which led to a little moment just before she and dabi got together where he was like "she wouldnt be into me :/" but she was into him anyway so all was good. She got around in her circles, mostly casual stuff tho she yearned for something more serious.
Spinner's bi & trends towards women but does occasionally get things for men and they're almost always intense. He thought he was straight for a while even once he joined the league and then suddenly got a crush on Shigaraki (around the time of MVA) and realized otherwise LMFAO he's definitely a hopeless romantic type, the whole mutant prejudice thing makes it rlly hard for him and i can see him being rlly happy with another mutant-type; i feel like as he matures he starts to gravitate towards them
Toga is canonically pan to my understanding, iirc her interest in Uraraka and Deku is the same (and romantic) in canon tho i might be wrong. Poor girl just needs therapy. I like the idea of the two of them becoming her friends over her being involved with them but i totally can get behind her having a thing with Uraraka (and maybe Tsu) at some point post-canon (presuming she gets redeemed), tho I think a qpr between the two/three of them would be longer lasting. And again presuming she gets therapy i can see her settling down with someone, gender irrelevant
Jin is unlabelled bc he hasn't much thought abt it, definitely had a thing for dabi and for hawks which does make me sad on both counts. I think he likes women slightly more abstractly/aesthetically and gets crushes more on men,. The dabi thing fades as they get closer and start to view each other as brothers. In his later years he doesn't rlly care about romance, I think he enjoys the experience of crushing but doesnt like dating people; his found family in the League is far more important to him. But i can see him falling head-over-heels for someone quite suddenly and having a bit of a whirlwind romance. Also someone for whom gender isn't much of a factor
Mr Compress is also queer and also hasn't rlly thought abt it. Definitely leans more towards women; he's like 30 but i like to think he also goes for older partners, 10 or 15 years his senior KJBADSJFHB idk he just has that Vibe with the way he calls himself an old man etc. A lot of the league i cant see sleeping or dating around much, i feel like they prioritize each other, but I do think mr compress gets around more than the others. i can see him having a bit of a fuckbuddy who he catches feelings for
Kurogiri is fun; as Oboro I do think Aizawa's crush was reciprocated, tho he wasn't around long enough for them to act on it :( he's bi, tho kurogiri isn't supposed to have personal interests. I like to imagine the brainwashing isnt as good as AFO wants it to be tho so I like the idea of him falling for someone anyway. I also like the idea of the heroes managing to undo the nomufication and I 100% can see him, aizawa, and someone else (someone he was involved with as Kurogiri) ending up in a triad as a result of aizawa and the third partner helping him through the aftermath of all that shit
Lady Nagant is a manga-only minor character but im in love with her so imma talk abt it. Shes bi and leans VERY heavily towards women, probably spent years questioning whether she was rlly bi or a lesbian before finally having a fling with a guy that she genuinely enjoyed. Has only ever been in long-term relationships with women and I v much think she has a gf at home who stayed even when she was arrested 🥺
Finally imma talk abt Natsuo bc i love that boy. He's one of the few unmarried chars with a love interest and he canonically has a gf. I do see him as IDing straight in canon ngl, but the kind of straight where he might actually be bi but his preference leans so heavily towards women and he grew up in a bad home so he just doesnt rlly think abt it bc hes v happy with women anyway. In shiganatsu thoughts shigaraki is the first man he has a thing for; i rlly can see the two of them in a triad with a woman specifically, who helps the two of them find each other and is the one who initiates bc its definitely a weird situation for natsuo
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22 - how many breakdowns have you had about your identity
like, today or?
fr tho ive had a LOT. as a childhood abuse victim im constantly terrified its just trauma and im not actually ace- but ive decided that like, the idea you have to divorce your trauma from your sexuality when theyre gonna be inextricably linked for the rest of your life is stupid. im like this, im not gonna start being like this, so fuck it. also, ive had many many phases of trying to put myself under a microscope and trying to see whats "genuine" asexuality or not, and its not worth the pain to please others who wanna pick apart if your identity is "real" or not. im me, and im what i say i am. i take other people's word for it, so they should take mine.
24 - a character that you think is aspec/is confirmed aspec
CHARLIE FUCKING KELLY BABEYYYYY i love him especially because he's just like me in that he's got childhood abuse trauma and is confused about what he should or should not like and is sex repulsed which makes it more confusing</3 it isnt 100% canon but he said in a deleted scene that he hates the idea of sex unless its with someone specific and that shows in his relationships for the ENTIRE fuckin show, the only times he's had sex theres been some level of dubious consent (putting it fucking lightly) or he's used his body to get something he wants bc thats how he thinks it works (sorry ruby taft you didnt deserve that lol) he's actually a really fucking interesting character in this aspect and i need to pick it apart sometime bc its a very good case of okay youre a victim but also you dont get an excuse to behave like you do
25 - do you have any other labels/identities (if you’re aro, do you have a sexual orientation, if you’re aroace do you have other labels, etc.)
generally when i introduce myself i say gay/mlm, sometimes i panic and say im bisexual bc i dont have a sex preference just a gender preference- sometimes i assume strangers will not understand that- but really idk if im mspec or not. i really think i did like a girl ONCE, but when it came to the romantic and sexual, yea i cried n ran away. i really think i did love her, but i couldnt figure out how- until i learned the term QPR and was like ohhhh shit yeah
the ace part again is sorta disputed, i am sex averse sometimes but not all the time, and i do have romantic attraction for male partners, i have had sex with male partners, but its more of a manifestation of feelings rather than literal physical attraction. i would say i have felt that before, at least i think, but it takes a lot of time and comes in intense bursts. i lean towards the term demisexual, but i feel like theres been a few instances of being into strangers, but theyre VERY few and far between.
so yeah- im mlm, a trans man, for sure alloromantic and some kind of asexual XP
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hello! i have to ask: what do you think about supernatural au's where monsters don't exist/monster hunting is not a thing? do you think the characters could even exist out of that realm? i honestly have conflicting views on this because on one hand i do enjoy the character dynamics but i also feel it would be wrong to just take away something that is fundamental to this show, idk though
i LOVE this question. thank you. im going to write a very long post now
obviously there are infinite ways to interpret a story, right? but sam and dean (and castiel too of course) as characters are completely inextricable from their backstories, and their backstories are inextricable from themes of transience, poverty, loneliness, violence, familial duty, masculinity, otherness, american protestantism, horror, humanity, and monstrosity. i dont think that it’s Wrong to take away the monster hunting as an element in the story, but i DO think it would be bad storytelling to do so bc the fact is that these characters w these personalities wouldnt EXIST without a few VERY crucial plot points/themes. and thats a GOOD thing!! say what u will abt the writers (and i do. i do) but the early seasons do an EXCELLENT job of building characters who are inseparable from their stories, characters whose every action is reflective of the Story itself in a bigger sense, characters who are interesting because of the way that they’re used to tell that bigger Story. there’s a sense of cohesiveness between character and theme and narrative, and removing one of these aspects would lessen the other two. that is the mark of good storytelling (that, in my opinion, distinguishes seasons 1 and MAYBE 2 from all the rest; although funnily enough i think castiel’s arc in s4 is the best example of what im talking about outside of s1-2. but anyways).
without these crucial themes and narratives, who ARE sam and dean? why do they even matter? what’s the value of them as characters? aus that strip away all those VERY important themes and plot points strip away the actual artistic value of the characters, and reduces them to objects of the audience’s emotional whims. the only reason u have any affection for these characters in aus is because you know and understand the source material, and you remember why those characters STARTED to matter to u in the first place. this is something that happens in a lot of fanfiction i think: the most essential themes of the original work are ignored for the sake of emotionally expedient scenarios where both writer and reader can clock out of having to do a bigger analysis of the story and just focus on, for example, a certain ship getting together and/or having sex, or a certain character getting a happy ending. and like i wont deny that theyre fun to read! they are essentially transplanting already-developed characters from their already-developed stories into a new fun scenario without the themes and narratives that actually made the characters compelling. and sure, sometimes a truly good author offers us a compelling new set of themes and narratives, ones that are interesting and make us think, but i’d argue that the characters in those rare good fics are 1. not...really the same characters from the show, since the story they’re in has been so completely transformed 2. basically shortcuts for the author to cut their teeth on writing original fiction. in any case, a vast majority of fics that remove the themes and narratives of the original story DONT offer a truly satisfying replacement, so the point is almost moot.
my answer, in short, is that aus without monster hunting destroy the character-theme-narrative cohesion that all good stories require, and by extension doesn’t require either author or reader to think critically about the story as a whole. you know that joke that goes around about supernatural just being a crate full of toys that we’re all sitting around and playing barbie dolls with? that is what the fics ur talking about basically are. it isn’t seriously engaging with a story as a piece of art, it’s grabbing a few barbies from a box and putting them in different clothes. and i think the fact that supernatural does fall apart both thematically and narratively so early in its incredibly long runtime is what allows people to treat it as a box of dolls, because most of the time it seems like the writers themselves treat the show as a box of dolls instead of a story that deserves respect and care and thought. so i actually do understand the urge to play with the barbies, so to speak, and to a certain extent i dont even think it’s a bad thing. but i DO think that sometimes, especially online, ESPECIALLY with a show like this where the lines between genuine engagement with the text and playing barbie dolls gets so blurred, people actually start to lose track of which is which, and THATS what irritates me. people start to view the ENTIRE STORY as just a way to see their personal favorite character do what they want that character to do. the character (and their emotional attachment to said character) becomes the whole reason for the story, instead of the story being the reason for the characters. playing barbie dolls is fine! but it DOES need to be balanced out with actual engagement, with literary analysis, with criticism if the story needs it (and my GOD does supernatural need criticism!), and there needs to be an understanding of the difference between genuine analysis and personal loyalty to a character. 
like, not to be a snob or anything, but it is important to engage truthfully and fairly with a text. things arent good just because you want them to be good, and stories can only offer you genuine satisfaction and critical/artistic growth if you truly engage with them. engaging with supernatural means thinking/writing about monsters and the Other, and to remove monstrosity as a theme and narrative hollows out the story completely.
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PLEASE tell me about the alien plant girls im so gay for anthropomorphic fem plants
omg thank you SO MUCH for asking and i apologize in advance for the infodump because i have been thinking about these alien plant people for literal years now, i love them so much. I first started thinking about these guys a little after TFA, because of an oc i was working on for a lil star wars fic that i have mostly abandoned by now--so sorry to the like 3 people who were reading my sidon ithano fic but tlj/tros really killed whatever passion i had for the franchise for a good long time :/ but Mando is great so i've been thinking about them'st again...
anyway i am sticking this under a cut because a) im very attached to these characters and if someone steals my shit i will kermit and b) sweet jesus this got so long, i am so sorry
in the SW universe at least, these plant people (that i still for the life of me cannot settle on an actual name for) were the primary inhabitants of a dwarf planet way out in wild space; they had a pretty symbiotic relationship with a race of sentient insectoid people (basically human-sized bees) who could travel between the planet and their home on one of its three moons (affectionately called the Honey Moon). what the plants didn’t know was that the bees were also able to travel to different planets, and had been doing so for a couple centuries before everything went to shit--but we’ll get to that in a bit.
the plant people weren’t particularly interested in the galaxy around them--they had a decent understanding of astronomy and cosmology, but little cultural interest in journeying to the stars. since the planet was pretty small and distant from the galactic core, it was pretty rare that a visiting ship would even pass them by, and scanners didn’t register them as genuine life-forms separate from the natural flora, so even if someone happened to end up out there it’s not the sort of place anyone would really choose to land. on rare occasions, a pirate or smuggler would try to hide out on what they thought to be an unoccupied planet, and would return to the Outer Rim with tales of mobile, sentient trees and bizarre, organic cities found on some uncharted world; likewise, occasionally a plant person would turn up at the local bar with tales of crashed space-ships and strange aliens that seemed almost like people. neither would ever be taken seriously.
the plants aren’t a particularly verbal people. they understand spoken language (a somewhat-modified Basic, at least, which is what the bees speak hmm i wonder where they picked that up from) and many can talk, but most don’t really bother learning to do so. mostly they rely on an ESP-like combo of pheromones and body language, highly attuned to the point that it’s essentially a kind of telepathy. i think i mentioned in the tags on that post that my character Antheia is sorta kinda a jedi? for these people, force sensitivity tends to manifest as an extra-extra-sensory-perception that causes you to be hyperaware of every living thing in your environment, not just the other sentient ones.
this made her uhhh extremely off-putting as a youth, easily distractable and often disinterested in the other people in the small community she grew up in, where she was already pretty disliked to begin with. there’s quite a lot of diversity among the plant people (a wide variety of skin tones/textures and body types, though few if any secondary sex characteristics; four limbs are most common, though occasionally some have two or more sets of arms; different types of leaves/vines/blossoms/etc in lieu of hair), and though they have a barter-based economy there’s still a lot of classism that’s mostly based around lineage (and thus evinced by one’s appearance and the traits one manifests). to protect (or attempt to bolster) those lineages, prospective parents can apply for a spot in a nursery, where their offspring are propagated and tended--mostly just through infancy before going to live with parents, though sometimes longer, and the very high class have private nurseries that will do all the rearing so they don’t have to.
But, on very rare occasions, certain wild plants will spontaneously develop sentience, and even more rarely will survive on their own long enough to find their way to a community. Hundreds of years ago (or “before the bees could speak”, which is their version of “once upon a time”), these spontaneous growths were revered and cherished, and whoever was first to encounter one would see it as a great honor to be responsible for their care and upbringing. now, with a much more striated society, these “weeds” (derogatory) are considered inferior, feral, dangerous. fortunately for Antheia, the man who found her, tangled in marsh reeds under the light of the Honey Moon, didn’t buy into any of that bullshit. he was a really sweet dad, very attentive and doting on his increasingly-strange adopted daughter; they were very close. but the older she got, the more her unusual ability developed, and the more he realized he was well out of his depth to help her understand that part of herself. eventually, she’s sent away to a kind of temple/convent for other people like her, where she’s trained to hone and control her extra senses, rather than be overwhelmed by them.
many years later, the sudden appearance of several large starships in their atmosphere turns their society on its head. it turns out, the bee-people have been traveling to other planets, forging alliances, brokering deals; they claim they just want to facilitate inter-planetary trade. Antheia is among the first to mistrust these invading aliens and their fleet of well-armed droids who seem hell-bent on mining their planet (which is, apparently, rich with cortosis, which--thank you wookiepedia--is apparently capable of repelling lightsabers and blasterfire alike). She flees her convent, joins up with an underground network of resistance fighters, discovers that her hyperawareness makes her a truly formidable force on the battlefield, and helps lead her people in defending the sovereignty of their home. And then things take a turn for the worse...but we don’t need to get into that right now.
ANYWAY.
my other oc, Shoal, is from the same planet but not even remotely star-warsy; either from a different time period well before the droid incursion, or just like an AU of my own stuff, idk. but she’s great, i love her deeply even though i dont really know what i even want to do with her yet. i mostly just was thinking about what a normal, average person in this world would be like, but then i got too attached. she’s also one of the spontaneous “weeds”, a semi-aquatic plant girl that washed up on a sandbar that occasionally connects a small island with the mainland when the tide is out. she was sort of “found” by multiple people at the same time, since they were making their way across to go trade goods at the mainland market, so to avoid the confusion of who should be responsible for her, she’s just sort of raised by the village as a whole. they name her Shoal, since that’s where they found her (it started as a joke, but then no one could agree on anything else to call her so it just sort of...stuck).
she grows up without realizing that it’s a pretty unusual upbringing. as a teen, she gains the reputation for the island’s best fisher (it helps that she can breathe as well underwater as above, and she’s always been a good swimmer). one thing that’s pretty consistent among all the plant people are their teeth--they all have long, sharp incisors and canines because sexy and also as more of a defense mechanism than a dietary one. they don’t eat much, typically absorbing nutrients from the sun/water/air/soil (mud baths are such a beloved experience, like for the most part they are very dignified people but find them some good mud and they will wallow for days) but when they do it’s pretty meat-heavy. they don’t really enjoy the process of eating very much, especially because they don’t have much gut bacteria so they typically have to swallow some stones to break up their food and nobody wants to do all that. but, at least in the coastal towns near where Shoal grew up, fresh-caught fish is considered a delicacy, and they can trade for quite a lot in return.
as she gets older, though, she starts getting restless. she loves her village, but it’s all she’s ever really known. also, it is so hard to even consider dating when literally everyone your age is practically your sibling, i mean, yeesh. so one day she just packs her bags and says her goodbyes and waits for low tide, then sets off to find her own way in the great wide world. she stops wherever she can, sees everything she can, but eventually settles down working at a tavern in a medium-sized town that’s mostly acclaimed for being a crossroads between bigger and better places. she likes it there, likes getting to know lots of new people and hearing about someone else’s travels more than she actually liked traveling herself. after a few years, the tavern-keeper retires and decides to leave the place to her, and she finds she’s become a permanent fixture in this new community. that’s really all i have for her so far, and i have no idea whether i’ll ever actually do anything with this character lol, but still she is very precious to me so i hope i find a story she’d be a good match for sometime soon.
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You can ugnore this if your botherd by this but do you have any way / info to know if your ace i think i may be and i dont really have irl friends to ask to know and im a confused asf 23 year old
I am not bothered by it AT ALL! This is just my experience and my opinions on it, so take what you want and leave what you don’t. 
Short version: i know I’m ace because that’s the label that I chose for myself. It just describes me the best. If you feel like it describes you, then rock it! If it changes, it changes! 
LONG version under the cut.
I remember making up crushes when I was real little because that’s all the girls wanted to talk about. They wanted to gush and talk about boys and I was just like “okay but what if we were MERMAIDS in a ZOO and we were trying to get OUT??” (lol yeah I was a whumpy kid too)
Then in like, middle school/early high school, I was just like “welp, I guess I’m just.. really picky? I have high standards? Yeah that must be it. Just waiting.” 
I had a friend who wanted to find me a boyfriend, and i gave her a very long joke list with like “his last name can’t rhyme with my first name” and “he has to like the tops of muffins because I like the bottoms and we can just buy 1 muffin.” and shit like that. I wish I still had it, it was hilarious. 
There was a point where I thought that something was truly wrong with me. Culture has connected love with sex so constantly and deeply that it made me think that I was incapable of love. Yeah. I thought that because I had no interest in sex that I was not able to love anyone and should like, idk go live in a hole or something. (Still might. Sounds kinda dope ngl)
That’s bullshit, btw. 
Then junior year of high school when I was dual enrolled in college. I was chatting with a friend, and we both mentioned that we had never had crushes/a relationship. A person behind us tapped me on the shoulder and was like, “Oh, are you asexual?”
Cue the “wat” meme. 
I questioned it a lot. Constantly. For like, an entire year. I saw a post floating around about accepting ace people and I legit cried because it still doesn’t feel real sometimes. I had people tell me the like “oh the A is for ALLY” and a not-funny-at-the-time-but-now-is-funny interaction with a very.... toxic LGBTQ person who said “I have a very good gaydar.” And I just thought apparently not cause... I am sitting right next to you. 
[I’m more than happy to talk with you in dms if you’re comfortable with that. I have... a lot of unfounded insecurities about my sexuality, mostly due to that person.]
So here’s a couple things. 
- You can be ace and still have crushes! I have had 2 crushes in my life. I didn’t do anything about them (just because one was when I was in like 5th grade and the other was because I was going through a lot of shit at the time), but it was like oh wait THIS is what people see when they see an attractive person??? Ugh I don’t like. Well actually... ?????? FUCK WHY AM I BLUSHING
- You can be ace and still recognize attraction. Like, I recognize that I feel attraction to male presenting people. Everyone once and I while, I look at a person and I’m like. “yeah. I could see being a relationship with you. Oh! I need to buy milk.” Whenever I see a video of That Type of like, dorky/stupid/goofy male-presenting people I’m just like “okay I either want a boyfriend or just like more friends??”  
- You can be ace and still feel arousal. I mean like, yeah. It’s a biological thing. I mean, you’re human. You’re not a plant or something. 
- You can be ace and have had/be currently in a relationship. Again, Human! Humans make relationships! And if you try and tell me that a relationship is 100% about sex I will fight you. Humans express love! Asexuals love people!!! Again; not plants or robots. 
I feel like my sexuality is just a range of “Meh?” to “nah” 
This is next line is my personal opinion. I am not making a statement about Asexual people as a whole or anyone that I have talked to about this. 
I feel like my sexuality is the least interesting part of me. It doesn’t make up my identity, but it sure explains some behaviors/tendencies in my life. I’m proud to be Ace and I’ll tell anyone who asks, but I genuinely forget about it like 90% of the time. 
It just slips my mind because sex/attraction is just such a small part of my life. And I LOVE that! When I finally accepted it, I actually came out of my shell more and felt like I could finally interact with people more genuinely. 
In the end, it’s okay if you are and okay if you aren’t. There was a point in my life when the label gave me a lot of anxiety, but now it gives me comfort. If it makes you anxious or uncomfortable, then put it away for a while. You don’t have to identify with labels. You can just be you for a while. Or forever! 
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