#idk what im rambling abt now

[robotpussy]

#polls #personally i dont like it but thats only because i dont like fandom. the type of stuff that gets the most attention #in fandom usually just annoys me idk. how to explain it in a way that wont come off as me saying #fanfic or whatever is evil its just the fact that it just bombards alot of the conversations? #i prefer it when the thing i like has 10 fans and theyre all on one message board or forum #like for example mtvs downtown is getting popular but apart from annoying #'me and the mid nerd guy i copped by being weird and sexy' posts its not awful.... #but then smth like... clone high or smth i suddenly cant remember ppl just got so annoying abt that show?? #like i cant stand it i dont even bother watching it anymore plus its just weird to me now like i can't watch it regardless #im just rambling but personally i do not like it. like i dont want what i like to get a revival #i dont want anything new! i just want to enjoy the thing and move on 😭 #fandom seems to prioritize shipping and memes over evaluating or simply just enjoying something! #this goes for anything. music film tv books....

[jils-things]

by the lighthouse.

dividers

#alright i suppose i should tell what's up lately! im mostly posting this like a mini update or whatever haha #so - since i made that last post on my disappearance i worked endlessly to finish my animation project and thank goodness it's finally over #i had to take a break from trying to be social here and just stay in my own space and i did that by having a smaller side blog to ramble #the project was very... tiring - definitely took out so much energy from me post physically and mentally and i was just frustrated everyday #so i just took my time to be alone with a few close people and i like to think im okay now? #i like to think so - since i was able to deliver a few commission drafts today so i'm relieved that im back to my usual pace #I'll post a few of my doodles here i did during my project just to fill the void haha #i've acquired a minor familial from another video game and i care for him a lot :] idk ill bother to talk abt it here but yeah thats funnn #also indulging a lil bit of t.n.m.n content as of late also thanks to my friend who knows abt it hehe #soo yeah! I don't know if ill be active like the usual but know that i'm doing alright now! hope everyone's doing okay too xoxo #ill probably still stay in my smaller blog for a little longer but will occasionally pop in here! #sooo yaaa #~ art #♥️ memoryshipping #also yea i think no.rton only had like. 10 days worth of being the blog brand here until i switched back to the usual guy lmaooo sorry 😔

[klonoadoortophantomile]

okay fuck it actually heres a drawing from the other day

#probably all ill post maybe idk im not sure tbh……. #scribbles #klonoa #popka #uhh nothing much to say abt this tbh thats why im posting it XD so uh heres some rambling ig #i feel like ive been drawing a lot more oc stuff lately which is cool ig cuz i barely ever draw original stuff #but at the same time it Sucks cuz like. idk theyre some newer ocs i kinda feel weird abt sharing for some reason #like idk i feel like theyre lame 😔 plus im still figuring out a lot of stuff for them so idk maybe thats part of it #uhhh also uh i feel like ive been getting like? actually really fucking good st art ? and like i feel like this every #few months (which is a good thing it means im improving / enjoying how my art looks) but like.. idk it judt feels more legit this time like #idk idk it doesnt really make sense but im having fun with art and thats good #i drew like. seven full drawings yeaterday for artfight im still like . stunned by how i managed to pull that off without having #drawings i ended up hating . like even with some that were an absolute pain in the ass to draw they turned out so cooollllll #okay ill stop rambling now idk what im trying to say

[puppyeared]

i feel shy talking here when i dont have anything worth sharing but i cant help feeling like ive said things in the tags that could be brought up in court

#im joking #i think i just get embarrassed saying smth that most ppl can see out in the open. its like when prey animals are grazing in a pasture #and then they hear a twig snap yk. im like that. but talking in the tags is more comfortable because it just feels more.. hidden?? quiet??? #its kind of like how i prefer responding thru asks than DMs.. idk if it has something to do with space or less pressure #i also use these as an excuse to ramble a little abt recent events so. ive worked a little bit on shuffle and prestos backstories ^_^ #i was thinking abt giving them a shared past where they knew each other as kids and forgot but i also though hmm.. idk if it would drive th #story i want bc i think itd be better if they bonded over similar experiences instead of the fact that they knew each other before. i get #that reconnecting and reconciling your idea of someone now and then is a good concept but id have to think abt it.. i dont want it to feel #like they owe each other to be friends again just bc they were as kids. ive experienced that a lot and all it did was make me feel guilty #so i think id want to write it as u can be friends with someone who had similar experiences and make u wish you knew each other then #i also know theyd hate each other but idk HOW. i suck at writing conflict so idk if theyd try to make each other eat glass and why #idk if itll ever come up but id also like to see if theres a way i could rationalize why they have animal ears.. normally i say aliens #but ive had an idea for a species and background for that too. although its very abstract and it probably has a lot of holes #smth abt peoples souls attaching themselves to smth they identify with.. although i dont know to what extent like if it can #be called a sona or if it can even be smth mythical like a unicorn or god itself.. its very weird rn #yapping #oc talk

[drippyboycunt]

also being on testosterone is great and i'm happy with all the changes but lately the fact that i'm starting to no longer "look like someone who is attracted to women in a gay way" is really weighing on me lmao

#like you're telling me the only thing i liked abt being a woman (liking other women) just has to die now? #i mean i still feel that i like women in a sapphic way and idrc who is uncomfortable with that in general #but i do respect ppl enough to not interact with their posts bc like i am a man somewhat #that's another thing abt being on testosterone #idk if my gender is really just getting weirder or if im at a stage where i feel very alienated from both male-ness and female-ness #like i know im not a woman but maybe im less of a man than i was before #a guy? a dude? absolutely #but Man? what does that even mean #i used to say it means whatever i say it means and sure that's still true but something is different #personal ramblings

[doodlboy]

Thinking abt ice king sm rn

#like ik we call original ice king the fat ver of the simons we know now in f&c bc of the muumuu thing but like- #we know what he looks like under the muumuu #he's fucking emaciated most of the times we see under it #that aint me saying IK shouldn't be fat bc i love that idea #I'm saying its really fucked up how thin he is. did ice king eat?? did he even need to eat at all? #like he's literally a blue skeleton. was the crown just- keeping him alive to the point where he just didnt need to eat anymore #so he just started wasting away? that's..really fucked up in all honesty #i wish the revert 2 simon wasnt just *poof* bc that shoulda been a thing that was mentioned at least in passing #unless it was mentioned and i just missed it in my rewatching of AT #idk #im just thinking abt simon rn #i hope he turns out okay in f&c #elliot rambles #ice king #simon petrikov #fionna and cake #adventure time #disordered eating mention #just in case

[fruitybashir]

writing sentences and having to pause to pull my shirt over my mouth and scream a little, this is going to be the death of me.

#ok now THIS is about the next chapter. which is coming next week not this week but on god. im not making it out of this one alive. #im trying to think of what i could post on sunday tho? like if i post anything about the next chapter then im limited in what i can post #over the course of next week in terms of like. #theres only so many snippets i can post without spoiling big things in the chapter so if i post snippets on sunday that means ill post less #during the week actually leading up to next chapter so. idk. :/ #i could post the excerpt i showed to people in queue maybe? but then again i did say it was a queue exclusive so thats also eh. #i could also just post nothing but I FEEL SO MEAN FOR SKIPPING SUNDAY IM SORRYYYYY #rambles #if theres anything you wanna see just lmk or we can just have a little chat abt the fic in general or predictions or stuff like that idk #like its really not that deep its still just a fanfic but im gonna miss all the usual interactions on sunday/monday its gonna be so quiet 💔

[cherry-bomb-ships]

Bro I can't already have a song I associate with... him 😖💖😖💖😖

#i mean it's literally a ppg crossover thing a k pop band did #some of you prolly know what I'm talking abt from that description alone but yrrg. yEAH #its cuuuuute man idk idk!!!!! #anyways im taking a nap now cuz i woke up at 3am. and im falling asleep with this song on loop... ough #ruby rambles #🧬.crsh

[sillybouquetoflillies]

i keep thinking i rly didnt go thru that much growing up, but idk, everytime i tell someone abt my life, they say i did and kinda just like sit in shock abt it. am i just internet brained or smth, or am i just dramatic?? i rly dont think ive earned a lot of the symtoms of someone who was traumatized that i have. or maybe i havent been in a safe place for long enough to process things??? i dunno. maybe someday far away in the future ill figure things out

#i let myself sit n accept that i did go thru smth.. maybe that i didnt totally remember or that i blurred out the details of n idk #i keep feeling like an imposter n like i shouldnt be feeling it. i didnt rly like how ive been acting #but like also i let a lot of stuff out of the box in my brain doing that n idk how 2 put it back or deal with it #so now i just feel like a half untangled mess with 0 stability bc in that 'growth n discovery' period i realized almost everyone in my life #wasnt someone i wanted 2 keep around #so now its rly just me n my bestie that r close n i keep everyone else at arms length #how tf did i get on rambling abt this omggg #ugh i am srsly such a mess n i cant find the root n i think thats whats freaking me out the most #i hate not being able 2 explain why im feeling a certain type of way or justify it in anyway #i just wanna feel okay n stable n be a fun person 2 be around again!!!! #i wanna be completely independent but like.... everything is so expensive n i have no interest in anything that would pay well #i wish my sw stuff would take off but i think im too messy 4 ppl 2 wanna stick around n also i dont think im super attractive unfortunately #I DUNNO #i dont have any answers atm n its freaking me out #i either wanna figure out how to be okay with not having answers or to get the answers and solve my problems #n i also dont wanna depend on other ppl 2 solve them for me #i just wanna be a whole.. well rounded person who can take care of themselves n do what i want #while also being a cute puppy thats rly rly rly fun 2 play with n is super helpful n supportive 2 the ppl it cares abt 🥰 #i am so sick of these silly dumb messy fears n emotions that keep me stuck in boring ruts #i wanna go out n have my own fun n be my own person n stop being so scared of everything!!!!! #its okay if things go bad!!!! its just more stories 2 tell ppl!!!! ppl love my stories!!!! ugh i just needa put myself out there #i just needa find smth fun 2 do that keeps me around fun ppl #i just dont know what yet #concerts r fun but idk no one super interesting is touring here rn n i need smth more frequent #ok i think this ramble is ovr #im rly sry if ur reading this!!!! i love u vry much n hope ur having a wonderful day!!!!!!!!!

[real-life-cloud]

im GOING to write today ........ i WILL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#the sky speaks #i havent used twitter in so long and lemme say i missed using tumblr like twitter. just putting my long rambly notes into a single post #anyways onto the rambling #i havent been writing or drawing like at alllll #too busy #also was so sick #but now that i have my new job and i know what my schedule is gonna sorta look like #3 days at joann 2 days cleaning w mom and 2 days nothin #PLUS i dont have to spend money on therapy til after the new year now #and mom is coming home and she seems rly optimistic abt sobriety #im feeling like i can finally create again !!!! #i have 2 creative presents i need to do before christmas #but aside that and 1 prompt still in my inbox (that i rly wanna do anyways) everything else i wanna do is all for Me :) #im kinda put out bc a lot of stuff i wanted to do this fall got shelved.. i wanted to make bday art of kirishima xinyan and kazuha. #i wanted to open comms. but im way too rusty w art rn to be confident doing that. maybe after new years? #god i wanted to come out to my parents properly. the day my mom went to rehab was national coming out day. #it was also one of my last therapy sessions. i came out to her instead #i still managed to do stuff tho. started my new job and got together with friends TWICE !! and i've kept up w doing my moms job alone #idk where im going w this anymore ive lost steam. but yeah. i wanna write today! idk what yet. i hav so many wips i could work on..

[whumpshaped]

Hello! I just wanted to let you know that I really enjoyed glitching. It’s a bit embarrassing to say, but I barely interacted with it in any way that you could see because the format made me feel guilty about reading whump in a way that I hadn’t felt in a long time. That’s a compliment to your writing! Glitching was about being an accomplice and moral choices and I got caught up in it that I stopped participating in the polls after a few posts. I really liked it though.

Since you couldn’t see the likes that I very much wanted to give the series, I’m sending my thanks directly. You are really good at writing, and your specific style is one of my favorites on this site. Your writing is just brutal in a way that a lot of whump writing isn’t, and your characters are extremely compelling/whumpable. I can’t describe exactly what I love about it, but I do love it. You also made glitching really quickly, which is impressive. I’m still in awe of how you made all the different endings for the finale. That must have taken forever.

Was Glitching always going to end the way it did? If the audience had voted to kill Seth at the earliest opportunity, would that have happened? Are there any other pathways that you had planned out that we didn’t get to see? Basically, I loved Glitching and I want to hear all the behind the scenes details that you are willing to share.

Thanks again!

aaaaaaaaaa thank u SO much for this. long ass response under the cut !

this is honestly.... mostly all i wanted to achieve w glitching. (my first objective was to create a whump cyoa story where the options were all bad, bc in all the other ones ppl kept picking the good ones and i was like :| but my whump..? no whump..?) several times i felt like maybe the second person pov is too much and its too real and itll turn everyone off... but then i thought. thats. kind of what i want. i want it to feel a little gross even if its fiction. i wanted to make ppl feel conflicted.

so please dont feel bad about not interacting! i understand how it could feel rly bad and guilt-inducing. im glad u made the decision to stop interacting when u did, its NOT embarrassing in the slightest. this message means a whole lot either way.

hehehehehe im GLAD theyre brutal! thats very much the style i wanna be known for lol and the style i enjoy! i want stuff to be gruesome and disgusting! i want it to be brutal and unforgiving! i want violence! i want gore! and also thank u, im glad my characters r whumpable. especially w glitching, i saw that when other ppl put their cute ocs in situations no one wanted to hurt them, so i was like ok whos my most vile most hated most disgusting oc whom everyone would Love to see be punched in the face- in general i love making my ocs whumpable and pitiful. i love a pitiful little guy

i stopped writing glitching when my exams started at college, and iced it after maybe chapter 8 or 9. then i picked it back up again after i got a 20th message in my inbox abt how ppl miss it, and it successfully forced my hand to finally sit down and just Write. (i do have to be forced to write a lot of the times. it doesnt work for everyone, but it does for me. obviously i can never get in the zone if i dont even open the document yknow. thats why i write a lot of shitty drabbles! it keeps up momentum!) and then i just kept writing. and writing. and writing. trying to get a chapter out every day because i knew what i wanted to do and i wanted to finish it. when it comes to the finale, iiiii decided i wanted to do that whole thing literally 2 days beforehand. my friend told me "wow these options r all good" and i said "i know i kinda wanna see all of them too". and the idea was born. the seed was planted. the bug was in my fucken ear.

so the next morning i checked the poll on chapter 13, and saw that of course the option to keep seth alive was winning by far. so i wrote that in advance. then i started writing out the endings for the finale. i managed to get maybe 3 of them done. then the next day i finished the other 6, tweaked the earlier ones, all that. i uploaded them all, posted everything privately, fiddled forever w the links (which i knew were likely gonna break anyway-) and THEN WHEN THE TIME CAME I WANTED TO MAKE ONE LAST EDIT AND ACCIDENTALLY POSTED IT. so i had to unprivate everything in a fucking frenzy like OH MY GOD PPL WONT UNDERSTAND I RUINED IT I RUINED EVERYTHING. but anyway yes it took me like 2 days of writing and editing but the response was soooooo worth it. ppl were so so so kind to me. it was honestly amazing.

one thing abt me, i started planning my stories At All in the last few months. before that, Nothing. and especially w smth like glitching, where the audience's decision influences the next chapter and i cant plan ahead, i didnt even bother. whatever the audience chose was always gonna happen. if they chose to exit the stream on the very first poll, i wouldve ended it. im serious. i thought abt pulling "you try to exit but it doesnt work" but then i was like. no. ppl can have one (1) chance to turn their heads away if they want, as a treat. i wouldve written a chapter about the debilitating guilt and lifelong "what if" feeling, and that wouldve been it. as for the earlier murder options, yes! i wouldve gone thru w it at any time. starting from maybe the 6th chapter (or whenever i brought in the murder option) the audience held the power to end the stream and seth's suffering. they chose not to. but they couldve.

one option that i wanted that never got chosen was the baseball bat. im obsessed w beating someone to the point of broken bones w a baseball bat. so when the ending was getting nearer and nearer, i thought about simply disregarding the last poll and writing a single chapter where the host goes "i respected the choices u made up until now, but this time, im making the decision". but i was like. no fuck that. this is an interactive story all about being able to choose ur own decisions. i just asked the audience to supply me w puppy seth commands, citing how it was interactive. i couldnt just go and ignore that two chapters later, yknow? plus as u said it kind of all hinged on the feeling of "i did this. im responsible". so if i took that responsibility away in the last second IN THE MOST IMPORTANT DECISION OF ALL it wouldnt have been good enough

most of the time i just kept giving the options i really wanted to write, and eventually, ppl picked them. it was a good story in the sense that the order didnt matter too much. i could give the same options, and the host was still able to carry them all out.

some more behind the scenes- i thought about revealing the host's identity multiple times. i thought about making them someone the audience already knew (like ren, my friend's oc who greatly inspired the character from the very first chapter), or someone who couldve been vaguely familiar but unknown (a former friend of pumpkin?), but in the end i just settled on the mystery. especially since i decided to give it a paranormal twist. i couldve NEVER made a better reveal than the mystery itself. never ever. some things dont have to be revealed.

but yeah! thats that. i rly enjoyed glitching, i loved the response i got (it was by far the most popular story ive ever posted on here w the most tags and comments and asks), and i loved how i managed to do the finale. it was concise, i can say i finished another story, and its just all around a great time. thank u so much for ur message !!!

#and im the same way w dollhouse now for some reason #i dilly dallied w it for maybe like a year now but i think i wrote like...... 6-7k words in the past week #or more #and im abt to end the epilogue #and im just so happy w myself #i want to do accountability like this too. just sit down and write a 10-12 chapter miniseries #instead of forcing it to be what i Think a story is ought to be like which is idk 300 pages and 30 chapters #ANYWAY #sorry u told me to ramble and thats the secret code to pandoras box #u cant close it now sorry #asks #joyshaped

[puppyeared]

Xin Ya is so cute and well designed! more a question than a comment but I just love your style

thank u!! im currently redoing bits of their backstory and design so hopefully ill get some more art of them up soon

#ive already shared a bit of it with crow but rn im reworking their personality and backstory #mostly bc ive decided to change it a little and made baby xin real. so they do start off as a tiny little guy #and then grow at a normal pace. also took out the trauma so they dont know anything abt the circumstances of their creation #but now ive replaced it with bigger trauma >:o) hehehehe #i dont really have anything to fixate on and lmk kind of died off in my neurons a while ago so im just drawing whatever comes to mind #idk if id call it an artblock though cause i have the itch to draw but im not really sure WHAT to draw. maybe ill make character designs #for fun and post them here... or maybe ill work on my oc stories idk............ #although i have been meaning to make a voice claim video for xin and an animatic idea ive had for months but idk how long that will take #im rambling but yes!! thank u for the kind words!!! it makes me happy to hear ppl love my designs hehehe #if i got myself to draw more furry art im sure i could have a lot of fun with that.. or opened myself up to the idea of multiple sonas #god i have so many ideas for sonas.. id love to make myself some sort of badger or stoat sona cause they look cool #yapping #ask

[captainshyguy]

i finished she ra!! i really enjoyed it!

i really liked entrapta and scorpia character wise so like. expect a slew of art reblogs lol

#of the other characters too i imagine- im just gunning for them first #luke rambles #entraptas tag has a lot more ship art thn i expected but honestly like. i know fandom i can see what set them off lol #a little unsure abt how i feel abt it personally BUT i do know i love the dynamic platonically! #which makes it a little hard to decide what art to RB GKDSNGGNDKJGDS #like i see sweet hugging art and im like 'oh thats cute! friends :)' but i know the artist did not mean it that way #and most people woulnt ither KFSNSDJGGJDJKGDS #spop #idk im rambling either way if u see huggy entrapta and hordak from me then now im sitting here like 'frmends :]' #bc the older i get the more niche i get with how i enjoy character dynamics KJFNSJKKJDGSDS

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#just an observation bc im avoiding working on stuff but i draw a lot and post basically everything i draw thst gets finished #and its v funny to me how u can tell how out of focus i was based on the quality of the drawing #or like when i post something and its like ok some of that was good but u def gave up halfway thru one of those lol #inconsistency i funny like that. its also funny to me that now a days i get comments like COLORS!!! #which is funny bc i notoriously haaaaaate coloring. like i will sit around whining and complaining when im home with my parents bc i dont #wanna color. its just so easy to fuck things up when u draw traditionally and it takes a million years so its a big ask lol #but i guess i dont hate is so much right now bc i kinda just slap whatever colors i want together like fuck it we ball #and thats kinda fun. reckless i suppose #its agony when u wanna try to do shadows and lights tho. like finding references ugh #or wanting to draw big ideas but then its like oh god its gonna take so long and if i dont do it all in one sitting i might die #im a lil better abt thst now bc it would b impossible but in my head i still hate it #ugh. all i wanna do is draw. theres another universe where i went to art school. or just like took art classes. and i wanna say id b happier #but thats def a lie XD i like learning too much and i dont have the attention span to hardcore learn genetics outside an academic #environment. and i got way too excited abt exploring the genetic traits of my cyano species #like i can make genetics trees for traits and look for. fuck. i forgot the word. how tf did i forget the word. oh god. horizontal gene #transfer. jesus christ its like theres a hole in my brain. well. i guess i did get only like 4hrs sleep. ugh im rambling. #i need to finish getting ready for Monday so i dont have to tomorrow and ill have time to draw. prob wont stop me feeling nauseous abt #teaching tho. OH FUCK. i just remembered i have a new office space now to decorate. fuck i need to hang up pictures and stuff #what would b the funniest way to put narut0 on my deskspace? idk ill have to think abt it. oh god im not ready #my head is like a handbell. one of the big ones when u ring it and it hits soft and u can feel the vibrations. someones wrung my head lol #unrelated

[ev1lmorty]

feel v mean calling out soecific meta but im still kindve fuming over a post i saw w a bit too much engagement a few months ago implying erick couldve never gotten physical w emorty bc if he had emorty wouldve not put up w him as long or wouldve easily been able to defend themself actually it was a poll like. rallying abt what kind of abuse everyone thought emorty had endured like placing bets on how badly rick brutalized him. have we lost the fucking plot lol

#the way u can tell a lot of meta treats morty abuse as some sort of voyeuristic hobby #god i have bitched abt this on my priv so often i forget if ive said it here but i wish ppl could go #yeah i want to fuck rick n i acknowledge he is an abusive figure in his familys life or he didnt ysed to be this bad #but he allowed himself to let go of reality n become this person #like rick isnt just abusive in bed dominating ur reader in planned consenual dom settings. lol. anyways #idk i wuv rnm for having a portrayal of an abusive relationship i can actually fully relate to including the complicated codependent #feelings n having to navigate when things improve n the person gets better n what ur supposed to do when yr basically #left to pick the pieces up urself n how much of the tradegy behind their actions help n how much doesnt matter #im rambling now bc its v v late #also like enabling family when ur created in abuse it keeps going n going ppl no longer are able to acknowledge beths complicity #n jerrys apathy despite being the family scapegoat n at a similiar position to morty but its the quiet parent who tries to stay down #who enables it the most etc #summer loves her brother but gains something from the dynamic if she engages in the toxicity i could go #on #but it still comes back to rick.

[fourteenthz]

I am greatly enjoying reading your ffxii tags

Crying and screaming abt this ask. I'M SO GLAD they were entertaining somehow!! I feel like most of it is me rambling but damn it, that game is so good. I have my final thoughts drafted to this day bc I felt like I was posting too many text posts abt it so LMAO this ask made my day. And month and year etc etc. TYSM 😭💞

#i just noticed my last post was before eruyt IM SO SORRY #the drafted thoughts i did kinda of overwhelmed post the final so its really rambly and lengthy lol but !! if u care to hear what i thought #abt stuff after golmore jungle here goes lol I'll try to be short: mt. bur omisace is really fun and the turning point there is really well #played!!! the stuff in the arcades draklor laboratory quests is like one of my favorites part of the entire game probably right after eruyt #which is not to say much since I'm insane abt balthier and fran but I genuinely loved everything abt the arcades part #the dungeon was fun the fight with sid just isn’t better than the other sid fight lmao #i genuinely think its the most fun boss in the game excluding some of the espers but again i might just be biased. i just love balthier #so much his character is so well written and well rounded everything that resolves around him is fun and also thank God for fran #the next part i felt like it was pretty rushed tbh like i adore the story points in it i love ridorana but you get to pharos #and its like a long ass dungeon that i really felt lost half the time with it's placement in the story tbh #idk i just really liked every dungeon in that game up until that point so I was like. what is this lol but they gave me #that gabranth and sid scene right after and gotta be honest. i forgot abt my anger so fast LOL genuinely. so good. #its what i said early i really like the story points in that part but the dungeon felt really short tbh but ugh framfrit and sid. that vena #part. that shit was so good lol i prefer that gabranth fight over last one but the ending for his character was also SO good I was like #alright u get a pass for a A+ fight too. i just like him too. the scenes with vane and larsa is TOP TIER too. that shit #scared me so bad i swear that kid was dying i was fearing for my life. its so weird the way thag i genuinely think vane loved larsa #he's just not normal abt anything ig. now i cant tell u if I was a bit over level at that part or not lol but I felt the vayne parts rushed #too. the start of when u first fight him vs that last phase. idk maybe i think i wanted more interaction between him #and the party since the banter on this game is phenomenal. but yeah i think that's the main gameplay points lol #now useless stuff bc im emotional abt them but kiss me goodbye to end that game? kinda weird bc i just think #ffxii is the most platonic of all ffs (even if I adore balfran with all my life and well vaan and penelo are there too) #and its by far one of my favorite things of that game. but also i cried while penelo was speaking over the song so who am i to say anything #really. i just think the chorus is so ashe and vaan coded. i really wanted their relationship to have more screentime #bc i feel like theres few scenes compared to the amount of similarities they have. also i was sad abt her alone THEY COULD'VE ADOPTED #SIBLINGS COME ON. now i only have 3 tags to talk to u abt my feeings abt balfran so. hear me out. phenomenal. show stopping. #they didn't need that last scene but they did it for me I'm literally in love with them. i love xii story so much but the development of th #relationships are is my fav part and they are really up there. i knew i liked them when i was a kid but didn't thought it was THAT much. #perfect duo really. i have nothing to add to them but also anyone feel free to ask me abt specific parts of this game. I'll go on for days. #ask #gyroshrike