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rosicheeks · 1 year
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(This is a resubmission. I sent my original ask I think back in November and I haven’t been able to find it so I reread your FAQ real quick and deduced Tumblr must have eaten it or I won’t find it)(sorry if it has been posted and I missed it)
AITA for kind of leading on my friend who is now my boyfriend back when he thought he was my girlfriend?
(also this isn’t a fandom at all if it got mistaken for that, this is my life somehow)
I dont remember the fake names I used so let’s go with TJ for technically partner, and El and Leo for my sister and her boyfriend.
The long and short of it is, I’m a gay man. Always have been and probably always will be. TJ, Leo and El and I are all pretty good friends even before this.
What basically happened was I had bought tickets to see a movie with a guy I liked, who cancelled on me last minute. It was a movie TJ (at the time identifying as female and had not realized he was a trans man) really wanted to see, so I brought TJ. On what I assumed was a friendship thing.
That’s kind of where it started. From there, there were several events that this guy I liked kept cancelling on me, and as total coincidence I swear, were things TJ liked doing. Movie, zoo, Italian restaurant one time, etc.
(Honestly it got to a point that it was obvious the other guy and I weren’t going to work, so there weren’t any hard feelings there)
This went on for a few months before Leo mentioned how cute we were together. I wasn’t sure what he meant and he and El admitted that they thought that TJ and I were dating, that I was actually bi and had decided to go out with TJ. (Who just for the record is Leo’s brother so he saw how happy TJ apparently was lately)
Anyway all that freaked me out and I didn’t realize that TJ and the others thought I liked TJ like that. I mean at the time I thought we were just really good friends, and it’s not like there’s anything about TJ at the time that would have made him a bad girlfriend, just that I wasn’t interested in girls.
Until TJ came out to me as trans. I hadn’t known whether to tell TJ the truth or not, and then when he came out to me I realized how much he trusted me and I couldn’t. Hurt him like that.
But now he’s like, literally the hottest guy ever and I’m honestly really glad I stuck it out because now we’re definitely dating and I’m the luckiest guy ever.
But I still wonder if I was the asshole for never being honest, and if I still am for still not telling him the truth. Like, if I WAS honest, maybe I wouldn’t be dating him now. Idk.
Am I an asshole?
(ps: @throw-it-out-boys is my throwaway sideblog for this, so I’m tagging it so I’ll get a ping if this one is posted. In theory)
What are these acronyms?
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starscelly · 27 days
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first yapping post in a while that’s just about ME and not these fuck ass men because it’s MY blog. but it’s also abt them. and my mental relationship with them. vent? explanation??? something???? 👇👇👇 it’s long
i’ve been in such a weird funk lately where i keep being like. scared i don’t like hockey as much anymore LOL which is absurd because you all follow me. but i’ve had such a hard time watching games??? like i get annoyed with myself because i’ll tab out to gif things instead of watching or scroll tumblr instead of watching or rewind to clip something instead! of! watching!!!!! which is bad!!! i used to be sooo good at watching hockey like so locked in and i could tell u every little thing that happened (for like one day after bc my memory is rlly bad but ykwim) but now i’m like. my attention span is so bad. and i feel this weird. it’s not pressure? but i have this compulsion i guess to clip and gif EVERYTHING now which is just. not good!!! like it makes good silly content and i like the archive of it all but!!!!! when it detracts from my enjoyment of the game idk what to do. like i LOVE gif making but i don’t want it to take away from my Love of The Game…. idk. i also get weird abt it like omg people probably expect me to gif this …. which is probably not true like you’re all normal and i am not famous and also i’ve said sooo many times people can just ask if they want certain things giffed. it’s just. i think it all ties into a general theme of recently i’ve just been on tumblr waaaaay too much. like it makes sense bc it’s the only social media i actively use but :///// worried. abt myself lol.
on a lighter note i do think watching tonight’s game was rlly good for me in comparison to how most of this season has been. i was watching the wings and sens and bruins games earlier which i haven’t watched a non stars game in a While and i was like. wait this is so nice when i’m not constantly on my phone posting abt it. like i’m paying attention. which like NO SHIT!!!!!! but i’m just a guy (gn) in my 20s please…. how am i to know anything …… so i kinda set my phone aside during tonight’s game and only picked it up during commercial breaks and didn’t clip as much random shit and it felt better i think. idk
so maybe less content from me? but also probably not?????? like not considerably less you’ll just get like 3 gifs per game and not fucking. 6. or get some later. or something. idk. we’ll eat hummus and figure it out i suppose …
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whatiwillsay · 1 year
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Tea Time Anon
note: in this post i refer to tumblr user Spade-Riddles as "ttb" the whole time (her suspected old blog's nickname was ttb). wherever you see me say "ttb" i mean tumblr user Spade-Riddles.
alright, guys, i got the ok from the original tea time anon who found me and told me about how they tricked ttb into thinking they were an insider.
i'm sharing now because the damage she's done to queer people in this community is insurmountable and the idea that little baby kaylors are thinking about missing out on the show of a lifetime because they want to skip eras tour because they're sad about karlie having another baby with josh is just breaking my heart. ttb has been leading people to believe that kaylor is still together and saying her "insiders" have proved it to her and every time karlie does anything with josh all those people get upset. it's not fair for this woman to mislead people and ruin their taylor/gaylor experience by getting their hopes up that karlie and taylor are just around the corner from coming out when obviously that couldn't be further from the truth. i mean it's insanely obvious to me that karlie and taylor have long gone their separate ways and are no longer involved at all but i digress.
i held back on sharing this for a while because while ttb is kind of humorous to watch she IS dangerous and i just didn't want the heat from her. her (or her followers) have harassed, stalked, and outed multiple gaylors in retaliation for speaking out against her:
but i think it's time i get over that. i don't think they'll find my identity and even if they do whatever i'll be alright.
so long story short- someone reached out to me to tell me they were tea time anon and that they did it to see if they could get ttb to believe them as an insider source. i got the code they used to verify themselves to her and to prove to myself they weren't pulling my leg sent in a message about the coney island bridge because cara's birthday was coming up and the bridge says "happy birthday". i capitalized ISLA in the word because cara likes that name. it was a bit of a laugh but mostly i just had to send something to prove they weren't just pretending to be tea time anon.
here's some of our convo (make note of the dates):
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so those are all from april 6th and as you can see here's the anon i sent in posing as tea time anon that was posted on april 7th:
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and here's a message from the next day- tea time's reaction to it and me mentioning why i capitalized isla:
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and at some point, one of us (idk who) went back and told them yes the baby is named isla:
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so yeah... if you're reading this and you've ever thought ttb had legitimate info from her myriad of insiders from Spade to Tea Time Anon to that flag person who's sending in stuff these days now you know... she just doesn't. it's people making stuff up or fanfic-ing or trolling.
let me just say i do think all of this is childish and i don't encourage this kind of thing but sometimes childish stuff is gonna go down in fandom spaces. it's just the name of the game. i've had my childish moments and i'm not exactly proud of that, but ttb misleads and harms so many innocent people, especially so many innocent young queer people it's time someone shined the light on just how misinformed she is and provided hard proof that yes coincidences happen. just because a fake insider mentions "isla" and taylor wore isla boots or an isla ring 3 years before that doesn't mean they are legit.
i encourage everyone reading this to try and learn how to enjoy gaylor without plummeting into complete conspiracy theories. there are a lot of healthier and more realistic ways to appreciate taylor's music from a queer perspective than what they get up to over on spade-riddles.
and another reminder that ttb is dangerous. she (or her minions) harasses and outs people who disagree with her. if you're a fan of hers, please be careful. never share your identity or personal details about your life with her or her henchmen.
AND FOR GOD'S SAKE IF YOU HAVE ERAS TOUR TICKETS GO AND ENJOY IT DO NOT SKIP THE SHOW OF A LIFETIME JUST BECAUSE KARLIE KLOSS IS OUT HERE LIVING HER BEST LIFE! YOU WILL FOREVER REGRET NOT GOING.
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play-rough · 4 months
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I'm just rly curious bc I wasn't super into agere b4 reading ur fics, so plz dnt feel pressured to answer if u don't want, but how did u get into agere? now that I've read ur stuff I jst wanna keep exploring the topic yknow? thx for reading this!
Oh idk I have always liked reading about vulnerability and caretaking and those are both key ingredients to a good agere fic, but I actually haven’t read too many of them in the grand scheme of things. I have been on tumblr for a long time so I’ve always known about agere just bc I’ve seen posts in the wild n shit, but I was always kinda like *eh* not for me, but I think that was because i hadn’t realized that it was basically all about caretaking which is my shit, plus it just happens to feel healing on a few of my childhood wounds. I don’t actually regress, but I have seen the term Age Dreamer thrown around and under that umbrella term is someone who finds comfort in the idea of regressing even if it’s without actually doing it, so I guess that would be me. Took me writing one fic to realize that agere is both very fun and comforting to write.
The idea of Dazai having a bad drop into subspace and then Chuuya being all nice and taking care of him was something I liked reading about but I’m looking to read a smut fic maybe like, every once in a while, so i would skip through the sex and just read the aftercare akdkdkskks but that was like my ‘i don’t realize im basically looking for agere’ era and i must have just read something that eventually made me click on the accursed Non Sexual Ageplay tag, and really from there I don’t think it clicked into my brain that agere was something that brought me comfort until I read Stargazinglys fic so I guess moral of the story is everybody say thank you to Stargazingly
Really long winded way to say I wanted super sappy baby Dazai fics and there was barely any and I was like gotta do everything myself around here
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lottachaos · 4 months
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MY BLORBOS (MY MAIN THING YEEHAW)
I have made picrews of my Blorbos I would post art but my sketchbook is in a different room and I am lazy
Veryn, the main one, who is also my persona:
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Matthew who is Veryn’s boyfwend:
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Hes really tan but I can’t always make him seem that way
anyways gonna rant now
veryn is a gremlin who is a lot like me in real life but more my my ideal version of myself. He is high energy and chaotic and loud but he can be serious when he needs to be. He has chronic RBF (Resting Bedroomeyes Face)
Matthew is chill and quiet and worries and lot and does this cute little worries gentle smile that veryn freaking falls for. He seems like he doesn’t do any chaos crap but then he goes and does some wild thing and you realize why veryn fell in love with him. He is covered in scars bc of various stuff he accidentally got involved with.
veryn lives half in the woods and half in an appartement. He has wings. Sometimes he has horns and these dark on his face and shoulders but that only appears when he’s in very stressful situations.
Matthew lives in an appartement with his sister who is named Katie and has a job or goes to college, I haven’t decided which yet
they are both in their young twenties, no more that 24.
Matthew somehow gets some sort of forestry Wiley thing like veryn has but idk how. All I know is that he gets this long whipping tail with a tuft at the end which is the thing in the back of one of the picrews of him.
Matthew is covered in scars bc veryn is in the middle of this big situation where he’s fighting against these magical eldritch entities and Matthew at one point finds him in the woods fighting them and tries to help and then gets beaten up and bitten by magical snakes and almost dies. That is where most of his scars come from (he has a scar that looks like a dinsosaur on his left side just beneath his rib cage. It’s called the dinoscar) but some various other events give him lil other scars
Veryn is much better at defending himself because he has been having to fight for much longer and so does t have as many obvious scars. He does have on long one on his neck because enemies tries to slice it at one point but he lived.
Matthew usually wears a black turtleneck and this tan cardigan looking jacket. Some of the picrews I used didn’t have that option so I had to make due.
Veryn usually wears a bright green shirt about the color of the “Draft saved!” Pop up that happens in tumblr when you take ages to write a post. Then he wears a brown jacket on top and black or brown pants and some brown boots. He basically dresses kinda like a redneck but when you see the clothes on him you cannot see anything but skinny gay forest being.
Oh yeah Veryn’s wings look like the brown variant of a tawny Eagle. Basically. Except a little more brown and a little less white and dots/stripes.
I stayed up till one am last night writing a (rather spicy) fic for them. I will share SOME of it here in a different post. I will also show some art of these two in a different post. Stay tuned, anyone who’s interested!! Eventually I will probably make some sort of book or smth about these two. Yes Ik I use tropes and it’s not super realistic in a lot of ways but I understand that and I don’t really care because I’m just making the story to be however its best to me and cringe culture is dead .
CRINGE IS TEMPORARY BLORBO IS FOREVER!!
Anyways, there you have it. I’ll post more later. I’m so excited I’ve finally put info about them all in one place bc I rlly needed to do that. k bye
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smplyanimates · 7 months
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Hi guys :D
Quick post to clear things up:
My old phone died, and I thought this account died with it until today I found out I could still access it. I don’t really want to come back to Tumblr, though. Reminds me of Gabe and I miss him so much, I can’t get on this app without remembering him and wondering where he is at the moment. He hasn’t contacted me at all, so I hope one of y’all have better luck.
Also, I don’t like this account. It’s old and has very shit art I wish I could take down. I’ve improved a lot during the few months I was gone, so I didn’t want to leave this place with nothing. I’ll leave this account active but I won’t use it as much. Already made a new one I’ll start using by next week (Rn I have exams).
Few things before I go:
- Will not be gone from Tumblr completely, just this account. Already made a new one, here’s the name: @smplyverse
- No, I will not abandon DivideD. I’ve worked too hard on it and I refuse to let it die. Will probably get a reboot at some point.
- I’ve also started getting into Among Us (you could probably already tell) but I won’t post any of that here. Just know I’ll also be busy with that.
- To Niko, idk what the fuck happened to you, but hope you’re alright. It’s been rough, I can tell, but that’s life and we can’t really do much about it.
- To Derek (SonicBoom10), haven’t known you for that long and I don’t really consider us friends, but I’m still using your character in my stories so that constitutes a goodbye.
- To Michelle, you are the only one who’s been constantly checking up on me and having fun with me. I really appreciate it, sorry for being gone so long (hope I didn’t give you a panic attack or smth).
- Finally, To Gabe, hope you’re doing well. I’ve heard bits here and there about your personal life and your online hiatus. I get it, take all the time you need, I just hope I see you again…
This is probably my final post on here, so later guys…
~ Jacob R. ~
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louisisalarrie · 24 days
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hey hey, hope you're well and those nasty hate anons're leaving you alone!
i've been thinking about the harry coming out as bi theory from back in 2015 with xander (i saw a post on tumblr a few days ago lol) and there is a lot of talk about how louis wouldn't come out without harry but like, would harry really come out without louis?
it seems so... unbalanced? one sacrificing ones own freedom for someone who would be willing to come out with someone else? idk if i'm reading something wrong or misunderstand something and maybe i'm projecting my own issues onto this situation (i've been in this same situation before and it ended badly for me so)
anyway, if or when L&H (together ir separately) come out, i personally only see it happening with a big bang and tell all. with all the shit going on the past 14 years, all the influential people involved,, like i guess what i'm getting here is, do you (with your knowledge) think theres another way? one that could be happening relatively soon (like next 5 years) or is it gonna be a retirement thing? meaning when they've retired theyre just like "yo btw"
another question: do you think they want to come out?
Heya anon!
First off, and most importantly, i am so so sorry to hear you had a negative experience like that. I hope you know you’re wonderful and loved and deserve the very best 🧡
And secondly, welcome to the show!
That post that you’re referencing, i do strongly believe that theory. It makes perfect sense as to the shift in Harry’s behaviour, and confidence, and i think it fits really well into watching him grow over the years, and how mgmt we’re gonna seed it. And then… it all just stopped. Anyway, it’s a great post if you haven’t read it!
So, let’s discuss this from the info we have, and the knowledge we have of Louis and Harry as people, and their sticky situation. Coming out is different for everyone, and everyone has their own time when they’re ready, and i am in no way invalidating anyone’s personal experiences with coming out with this post. I’m not going to assume exactly what they think and want, but i will put my two cents in and base it off what i think is best for them in a career sense, and their relationship to be strong after the official come out.
Okie dokie, with that in mind, let’s get right to it!
Louis did wear a big chunk of their relationship being closeted through Simon. I am in no way saying Harry had it easier, but Louis was older, and Simon saw that Harry would hang off Louis’ every word and action. He saw the dynamic, we all did, and if you were in Simon’s situation, you’d get Louis to sort it out, right? At the nip of the bud, you choose the 18 year old to get the 16 year old to do what you want them to do, because he looks up to Louis. Louis can guide him by being older and wiser and more of a dominant personality. The obvious choice was Louis, and starting there. And Simon did.
That day after the wonderful gay club show, Louis was flown out directly to Simon’s place in LA or whatever mansion he was in at the time, and chastised the fuck out of him. Hes said that before. Harry and Louis were all over each other that night, and they were so damn happy. But Simon doesn’t fly them both out to settle this, he just flies louis out. He puts Louis in a position where he’s telling Harry what to do, rather than chastising them as a team (which im sure he did at other times, but anyway, this is the stem).
So, sweet little Harry as he lives and breathes, is trying to be all in for Louis, and Louis is making sure he doesn’t overstep the boundaries. We’ve seen it a heap of times, and that’s really important to note. Louis did the denials, Louis had the long term gf, and Louis dealt directly with Simon, more so than Harry, i imagine. Harry had to have the womaniser image so he was always busy with that, and Louis had to have the commitment so they were never single at the same time (until all of the members were coincidentally single at the same time which was amazing hahaha).
So, we can already see the imbalance there, with proof. Anyway, as Harry grows into a more flamboyant person and starts wearing gucci and louder colours etc., people are already questioning his sexuality. He’s this sexy, charming man, with an image of already having a lot of partners, so it was easier to believe if he came out and was “experimenting”, rather than being in a long term het relationship. You get what im saying?
So, out of the two of them, it seems more likely that Harry comes out. He gets a lot of press, larries are getting excited, but also, Larry gets mentioned a few times in the media around 2015, during this Xander and H thing. And while Harry is the “frontman”, gets all the attention and we can already see how much of a superstar he is and mgmt/the Azoffs can see a very successful solo career for him, he’s allowed to be a bit ambiguous. Bring up the ratings, keep things fun and sexy and exciting. Even during One Direction, Louis just wasn’t as popular to the GP. so, it’s an easy choice. Harry.
(Also Harry is louis’ baby and he’d want to protect him at all costs and let him be free over his own happiness)
My bet is mgmt wouldn’t let them come out together at the same time bc that’s too much of a scandal, but also it exposes them. It’s a compromise. But, it doesn’t end up following through and Louis’ stuck with a stunt until the time is right and Harry is continued to be seen with every leggy gal who needs a bit of promo. The narrative was changing, and the seeding for Harry back then has even worked now. He’s so much more free. So, yeah. He’s a lot more free to do what he wants, and he also doesn’t have a kid tied to him. Unfair? Yes. But i believe Louis did do this whole thing for the sake of Harry, and mgmt wanted it to be Harry.
Now, about how they’ll come out… i mean… a tell all would be great, but they’ll be sued by a million folks who still hold a great deal of money and power over them. I truly don’t think a tell all will happen for a long time. It doesn’t seem plausible to me right now. And the thing is… if mgmt hadn’t have dealt them any stunts, and let them be single the whole time, they could’ve come out way sooner and been like “yeah we’re dating and we didn’t want to make it public” and get away without the whole forcible closeting thing. It would’ve been a smart move. But it’s all in the name of PR, and relationships and sightings of the boys with girls make money.
Anyway, who knows. They might break and just say fuck it and do it. But with budding careers, they need to be smart about this. Harry is at the height of his career (i think his absence from everything right now is very smart btw), and Louis is on the rise. They have to end the bbg thing (I’ve talked about my theories on this before and how best to end it, and i think i should probably send it to mgmt to save their asses), because I don’t think Louis would wanna be tied to that for the rest of his life.
However, Harry and Louis are enemies to the GP right now. So they’re gonna have to seed a friendship, then a relationship, and it’s gonna be a much longer process than a big bang. Depends on how savvy both their marketing teams are. But also, Harry is kinda.. halfway out? People don’t really believe he’s straight. Hes not yet given himself an official title to the public (he doesn’t have to), but he’s got one foot out of the closet. Louis is still stuck in fucking Narnia at the moment.
So if Harry wants to wait until louis can come out and they do it together, that’s great, but absolutely nothing about louis’ sexuality has been seeded. I think even at this point in his career it’s not gonna get much attention from the public, and bbg is still hanging over his head. So it’s kinda like… Harry is halfway out with a hell of a lot more freedom but hasn’t officially come out, who knows? Maybe he is waiting for Louis? Or he’s just enjoying the ambiguous nature of it all. He doesn’t have to announce anything and he’s on top of the world. Most people are seeing him for who he is.
Louis is just so focused on his career right now that I don’t think he’s pushing for the same amount of freedom. He’s trying to make a name for himself and a solo career that separates him from the idea that he’s “riding Harry’s coattails” or whatever tf people will say if they came out as dating. So I think he’s super focused on doing what he loves, and yeah. He’s not as fussed right now. And he’s still in a sticky situation with bbg, so he’s doing what he can to hint at us that he’s still there and thinking about it and it’ll happen, but not right now.
I truly think they both do wanna come out, even if it doesn’t seem like a priority for Louis rn, and Harry is kinda halfway there. It’s a weird little awkward timing for them I think. And don’t get me wrong, I want them to do whatever makes them happy and what’s right for their careers, but until we get some serious seeding and not just stuff larries pick up, it won’t happen.
Unless yeah, a big drop of everything and they expose everyone. Stranger things have happened. But it jeopardises their careers and networks big time.
Anyway, this turned way longer than I thought, and I probably repeated myself a bunch bc im exhausted from work, but if you have any specific questions about what I said, you’re more than welcome to send through! These big topics are always hard to grasp anything. Damn, im still rambling. Sorry, and thank you anon! Big love to you x
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bigstupiddummie · 4 months
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making a post in the tags to “call out” a person is so dumb and childish and stupid, so i won’t put this in there. however, the admin of @wavehq is full lying on my name these days even though i haven’t talked to them or anyone else involved in there in like 6mos. and i rly want them to stop.
i don’t have my old discord account w ss. if anyone else has ss with me in them, u can add them to this post idc how ugly it makes me look. i talked a LOT of shit ( and pertaining to this story, about sel esp ) and called ppl some nasty names and any ss will incriminate me of that. so me talking shit isn’t a ‘gotcha’ anymore. i talked shit and called sel names, as well as k, and i know sel called me names, and im sure everyone else did too. whatevs.
yk what i never did ? i never made a “manifesto” about my ex friend, or priv-retweeted their personal ooc twitter account to mock them. i never helped create and work on an rpt blog, then went and consoled the person being mentioned in nasty messages in the blog on some “oh im so sorry this is happening to you ˙◠˙” shit when it was them the whole time. the worst i did was “fuck her, he’s a cunt, fuck them”, but dream, you lied to me a Lot!
and you’re lying in defending yourself by saying i “heavily hate” sid or anyone. i never have, never did, never will. the last thing i said to sid in like July was “hey, heres my ooc tiktok, im deleting discord. if i never hear from you again, take care.” and then i left rp and the rpc entirely. haven’t talked to or even perceived any of you in months.
you want to believe i’m “bringing this up now” to start stuff or something, but what stakes do i have in any of this? you and yours drove me out of the hobby i’ve loved since i was 12, used an rpt blog to force me to defend myself against your ugly claims at a time you Knew well and good i was absent and dealing with a family death ( and then came in my dms to comfort me ??? you and k both. ) . i lost all of my best friends of several years. trust me, i want no part of the rpc anymore. i don’t want back in. i don’t want to engage. this is a nothing tumblr account that ill never use again. consider, instead, that another person close to the situation and i shared similar experiences and realized there were too many untruths and inconsistencies to let it rest, rather than just ‘starting stuff’ to start stuff.
“sid says steph crops screenshots to make them look incriminating” aye , but i definitely gave my entire discord login out, more than once, and encouraged my friend at the time to go ahead and look for themselves ( they declined at the time. i can still give the login i really do not care. though idk if the login will work anymore bc the accounts been deactivated for, uh, 6 months.) i cropped ss where earthp members were telling me how K is making them uncomfortable and how they were worried lenny was being dragged around by K, that i did do. and i STILL let k know that that’s what they were saying. i can’t stress enough ive got Nothing here that im fighting for i just think its ugly to lie for so long to everyone
“steph heavily hates sid” i do not. note the last thing i said to sid, up there ^. we did follow each other on tiktok then, and then we didn’t speak for 6 months. as of this morning, we are no longer tiktok mutuals - so it goes. sid never owed me anything. i don’t hate them. they know ( and yk what, so do my irl work managers!!! bc this shit affected my actual real mental health!!! ) that the day things went down, i left work early sobbing full blown emotional episode, writing paragraphs in desperation, to the point of overwhelming them and myself. i loved them dearly, called them my ‘spouse’ and best friend everyday, etc. though i don’t know now if they knew more about you than they let on. anyway……. please don’t just be declaring shit about me like it’s fact ?? i don’t hate anyone. not even you dream! just stop lyinggggg i hate that
ye all made me feel like i was crazy and losing myself in my own paranoia omg??? and ye were in your private chats afterward going “well deserved!!!” who even are you what did i do to you omgggg are we not in our late 20s with lives and careers ?????
if this is all bc of heddie/reddie and avengefm ? its ships dude it’s dolls it’s not real and to commit so much energy and emotion to lying to protect ur ships/rps is troubling at best. and if its not about heddie/reddie, then i haven’t a NOTION bc you and i, even when we were friendly w each other, were not close enough to create a bond to break??? i didnt do anything to you but welcome you into my writing spaces and engage in yours to the best of my ability. i was transparent with you when my activity struggled or i needed a break for mental health reasons… but what you had done with your friends is what ruined my mental health ?… go figure ….
i know who was behind that blog because they came clean and told me your connection to it as well. i know sel said nasty things about me too - we’re human and humans love talking shit. but no one else ever took it as far as you did, dream.
i don’t want anything from you! just stop lying on my name i don’t “heavily hate” anyone. outside of my shit talking from 6mos ago, i haven’t said a word against anyone but yourself; i’ve called you a liar, here in this post, because that is what i believe you are.
nobody in my entire life brings up what happened in everwell more than you and k. i owned up to every part i had ( whether directly or by my unavailability, all of it ), i deplatformed and cut out my two best friends ( people i had had in my HOME and had met IRL they were real people to me!!!!! ) and apologized personally to everyone affected, while picking out a funeral outfit and consoling my crying family. these are all my cards on table. you don’t have to respond either. just omg quit lying about me and the way i feel and what my intentions are - if a mf wants to know what im thinking and feeling, they can just Ask me.
and k i don’t want anything from you either! your names in this post because you were involved, and you know your involvement with that blog and how you also came to console me after. outside of that, i do not think of you and do not care what you think of me.
sid, i don’t want anything from u all either and i meant it when i said if i never hear from you again, take care bc i did care for u lots and also invited you into my home bc you were a real person to me. just know for a fact that anything dream says i’m saying about you or feeling toward you is just pulled out of thin air for whatever reason.
i always thought ye all were great writers!!! and so did snags and lex, way back when it was about writing for the love of writing. i would say all the time “omg dream is so funny” “omg k is cracking me up”, and they’d agree. hell if they’re at all in the rpc anymore and see this - hey guys! sorry shit got so ugly. you’ll never guess who was behind it.
i left the rpc and got mental help. i hope ye can get some help too.
* this is dream bringing sel into the Issues and tying her directly to k, btw. you keep saying you didn’t bring sel into the k stuff, but “they’re besties” “she and sel” “they want peach to drop eddie so sel can pick up eddie” this is where we’re getting that from, bc you keep saying you only referenced sel’s activity and didn’t connect her to k at all. i cropped out sids response. i can add it if need be but it’s just sid believing you.
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this is me texting my irl work manager on the day sid and i last spoke. i was distraught and emotional and crying but ok yeah i “heavily hate” sid when the way everything went down broke me to bits OKAYYY
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the censored names are the names of my irl managers like it was So Serious so don’t try putting words in my mouth about sid.
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this isn’t to disagree with anything you said but i wanted to compile a list of everything that happened in the past 24 hours
sans wins the tumblr sexyman poll
toby fox replies to said poll with a fanfic he wrote about sans and reigen
dan and phil video where they talk about people approaching them for threesomes apparently?? i haven’t watched it yet
the queen dies
trisha paytas gives birth
plus just for the dsmp fandom quackity posted a new lore teaser featuring ranboo’s limbo and ranboo changed into what looks like a revival skin
all in all its been a long day
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i think there’s more like a famous dog on instagram passed away? but idk much about it. yeah it’s been nuts. still a pet peeve of mine that people are calling this a second november fifth though. i know i sound pretentious but it’s not the same. i think the difference is most of todays things are events confined to internet or fandom spaces that happened to happen on the day the queen died, whereas on november fifth it was like three different massively historical/significant real world political things happening simultaneously with the destiel thing and like a bunch of other stuff. today was crazy, but on november fifth i invented new emotions. yk?
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nottabee · 1 year
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Lotf drama or whateva
Gonna take my chances and rant here about what’s been happening ever since that one fateful post on 9:23 am 
Shit be crazy, ngl, and some fanfics are gross, especially the ones cyberlandworlds pointed out. I’ve seen it before, and I don’t think there was one time I didn’t cringe with disgust and disbelief at it 🤦
About the ORIGINAL fanfic, yeah, it’s pretty weird and imo it’s disturbing and grotesque. That being said, these fanfics have existed for a long ass time, idk why now it’s being a controversy when we all knew they existed, we just ignored them and made lotf tumblr nsfw intolerant. One of the first things I realized whilst pursuing the lotf fandom tag on ao3 was that the works with the most kudos were majority E or M rated, and/or had extremely nsfw tags/descriptions. And honestly, let’s not pretend like some of the most influential users on here haven’t given fics like Descent or Retribution kudos in the past, or liked post speaking highly of its. Those are disgusting ass fics too. (i’ll preface this again by saying it was in the past, these individuals views today have changed it seems)
Which is why I think this drama is stupid. Because trust me, I think the last thing ANY of us want to see is pedo shit on lotf tumblr. Leave that to the ao3 people, if they’re so inclined, and block the disturbing content, so we can have a happy pedo-free community and content to clear our minds (aka I want to forget I ever saw some of those fics)
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Hey babe, first, wanted to let you know that it hasn’t stopped raining in my town you know since when? since you posted that midwestern Clexa fight, coincidence? Don’t think so 🤨
Second, been bombarded with that ops show too and I agree 100% with you, both in the copaganda aspect (they lost me at the mention of marine’s and middle east terrorism)and the thing about this new ships. I want to stop a moment in the answer you gave me a time ago about this wn comeback, so, even if they write them well (at first), never forget who’s behind these shows and suddenly this thing we haven’t heard about gets popular cos it has a wlw couple with amazing chemistry, they get increase in viewers so they explote it to promote their next season and then what? Sound familiar? We just can’t trust them anymore.
Third, I super totally agree with you on the Clexa lightning in a bottle. As one of the newer Clexa fans (next week will make one year since I saw the second season and told my sister “I’m sensing a little bit of the gay vibe in here, wonder who of the two will die”) I’ve seen already most of the shows one sees named in the conversation about wlw couples and let me tell you, only this one got me hooked both from the beggining and way long after its ending (hell it got me into tumblr and twitter, things I’ve never done before and I even bought a book about it “El legado de Lexa” to know more about this shitstorm her death caused). Whatever IT is, they have IT. I honestly prefer reading fics about them than get invested in a new show.
Fourth, do you really wouldn’t recommend Clexa to new fans? I mean, yeah we got hurt but they’re more than their sad story, they’re this whole community and I think that’s a beautiful thing. Personally? I wouldn’t recommend the loo but I’d tell them about Clexa warning them beforehand so they can decide for themselves? There’s this dialogue on a media fic comparing someone with a really good book that you can’t put down or let go, that even if it made you suffer and you know the ending, the feeling you got reading its unique and you just wanna keep back to it, and that’s this thing to me.
Finally, I love how you apologize beforehand if your opinion that you posted in your personal blog offends the people who asked for it and came to said blog willingly and with the intention to read it. You humble polite kiddo *pats you in the head affectionately*
Sorry about the long rant 😬, en resumen, this new show? not sure I’ll watch it, Clexa is the “el que no conoce a dios a cualquier santo le reza” of ships, I’m leaning more into the recommed Clexa side of things, we love you and your opinions.
And we need the reconciliation so the sun can come up in my town again.
There's a lot here 😅 not complaining tho!
Ok so the first real thing I gotta answer is about would I rec theloo and Clexa to people who haven't heard of it. My honest answer is would I rec Clexa fic? Yes. The show? Maybe, but it'd come with A Lot of caveats 🥴. Because the thing is, and I may be alone in this thinking idk, but I'm not really sure if someone can appreciate the entirely of Clexa and Lexa, and Clarke in particular, as characters or why their dynamics and eventual love story were so amazing if they didn't watch the show. While the Clexa movie is fantastic at showing their chemistry, there's things that happen within the show that effect them and speak on who they are as individual characters that aren't ever really included in the supercuts because they aren't together in them. Which I agree with! The thing is already 3+hrs long lol. But it does matter for context and it does hold weight in their story, both together and individually, so I would have to say to really get them you have to watch the show at least up until 307. I know there's people who write fic who haven't watched the show at all and I just... no shade! But I can usually tell. Cuz it shows.
But in that same breath the show got so fucking stupid and nonsensical I, in good conscience, have a very difficult time telling people that they should watch that hunk'a shit 😒 Season 2 was its best, let's just be honest, and season 3 was JRot's bullshit Frankenstein creation that he used as a way to shoehorn in this fucking AI plot from a movie or show (I can't remember which) that didn't get picked up but he was just convinced it was brilliant. He wanted to be GoT meets Star Trek or some shit so badly I just know he was pissing himself watching dailies. So overall it's such a double edged sword because yes I want more people to love Clexa, but at the same time the show overall is so gd bad I don't wanna put them through it.
About the Ops show, someone said it is copaganda which I expected, and not even actually enemies to lovers?? Which baffled me but apparently one of them is undercover and using the other one to get to their father or something? That's not enemies to lovers 🤨 that's manipulation. Which ok fine I'm down with that in fiction but if one party is unaware of your nefarious ways and is just interested in you then that's not... that's not EtL. That's just I was trying to trick you and caught feelings/I had feelings and then found out you were a liar. False. Advertising. 😤
Lastly, I'm a midwesterner we apologize for everything 🥺👉👈 knocked into a chair with my knee today ans accidentally apologized to it before realizing myself 😔. But really it's mainly because I know how easy it is online for people to think everything is a personal attack on them or their tastes when it's not, so I find it's just safer and more pleasant to remind people that I am just a person stating their own personal opinion, and it's really not ever anything to get upset about 😅
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Hey guys! Gonna give a lil update (both a mini life update and a update for the au stuff):
Tumblr is still messed up for me (currently posting this from pc) so I’m guessing it has to do with the bells they added to the dash considering that’s when it happened, so I’m assuming it’ll be back once they take them away, but if not I might have to go to staff or something we’ll see 
Anyway I got hat game on my pc for Christmas! but it sets my laptop on fire and runs very badly lmao so I’m probably gonna see if I can get a gaming computer for my birthday so I can play it properly 
Also sorry for not being very active lately, we went on vacation but I got sick afterwards and then a big snow storm hit, so just got a bit overwhelmed from all that happening one after another lol, I’m not sick anymore thankfully but the snow is still around 
In au related news as y’all know I’ve hit some art/writing block lately, so I’ve not started on the next prologue chapter just yet but thankfully I did get the plot of it figured out in a discord call, as I had been struggling to think of how it would play out bc it’s gonna be a A B plot situation, but I finally got a way for it to work out nicely ^^ so I got a little outline of the events jotted down, just haven’t started on the actual thing yet 
So after that chapter the prologue will be finished and so things can flow into the main fic, speaking of the main fic you’d assume I’d start working on chapter 2 after finishing the prologue and you WOULD be right, but I recently decided I want to go back and edit/rewrite chapter 1 just bc my writing improved so I wanna add extra scenes or better descriptions etc etc so it’s getting a revamp but not an outright rewrite just bc that thing is way too long to redo it entirely 💀
Also on the topic of writing i kept having the issue of thinking all the chapters outside of snatchers prologue chapter (heartburn) where all not the best writing, especially compared to aforementioned snatcher chapter that had way higher writing quality, I originally just chalked it up to being in the zone™️ when writing that one, but I realized I think it MIGHT be because it’s the only one not being adapted from a comic, all the others had comic or tumblr related things tied to them, but the snatcher fic was all it had going for itself, thus it had more descriptive words or spent longer on events etc because it didn’t have anything to go off of, where as the other fics ended up accidentally feeling more akin to scripts to me in how they did descriptions, ESPECIALLY forget me not because it’s literally just word for word event for event the same as it’s comic form, not sure if I’m making sense but what I’m getting at is that I’m glad that after this next chapter we are in completely new territory! No comics or ask blog stuff is tied to any of the chapters to come, so perhaps this will mean their writing will improve because they’ll only have the words to rely on, like I said idk if this little rant was necessary I just enjoy talking about my writing process is all 
But uh yeah tldr: next fic chapter will happen eventually, after that I’m going back to redo the first main fic chapter, and sorry I didn’t get to do any holiday art but maybe I will last minute do some doodles I dunno lol, OH, and I still gotta figure out a follower milestone event bc I’m super excited about it!^^ like I said of anyone has suggestions I’d love any ideas! 
Happy holidays! :3
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punkwixes · 9 months
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i guess a better life update is like
so i’m graduating this spring. it took me a while to get an internship + i got rejected from the first one i applied to. that was okay, though, because it was smth specific that only took One student in each department, so like 4 students total, and you had to specially apply to it. i found another internship actually working for the school itself, which i’m pleased with. it’s very close to my home, and i can get there easily. they’re very casual about dress code too, so i dyed my hair again earlier this month :3
i quit working for the nursing home like 6 months ago, after almost 6 YEARS of being employed there. it was pretty on the spot lmao. we got new management that sucked + a resident started screaming at me and i was just like. well. i’m done.
currently: unemployed! or “full-time student” according to, like, my taxes or w/e. contemplating applying to some stores in the area but not too worried about it. money isssss pretty tight rn, but luckily i was able to save a LOT over the pandemic so i’ll be okay until i graduate and have to start paying back those student loans. i would like to think i’m pretty good at budgeting and money management, luckily.
ummm wedding is happening in may of next year, hopefully. move is happening ????? idk whenever it works for both of us. it’s gonna be scary but i can’t complain or worry about it too much because my wife already did that move Alone, so , like,
made this post because i was just thinking about like, idk what the gap will be between graduating & moving — not really worried about it Too much, because i know that’s smth we will figure out later haha. but i was thinking about how it’s smth we will figure out because i am Acutely aware of what happened when shit got bad in june 2017, where i was going “i’ll be moving out soon, i can’t get a job NOW!” and then i didn’t move out till december 2017. but then i was thinking about how i haven’t really talked about my life Extensively here since all that happened — maybe a bit, but most of it happens in dms (hi jess) (the ONLY person i use the tumblr messenger for) or in my discord server(s?) lmao.
and i realized that i have a lot of people (relatively, i guess.) who have been following me since i was like. 15? 16? and who maybe saw all that go down but don’t know what’s happening now.
anyways. on that front. my parents and i have… idk. kind of a relationship? not really sure. they have more of a relationship to me than i have to them, which is funny. they text me about every other day, but i don’t really answer that often. they know if they make negative commentary abt anything i’m doing they’ll just lose contact with me for good. they know i’m gay & that i’m getting married, and they’re Forced to be supportive Or Else, which i also find funny. they’re not attending my wedding though, On God.
had a weird thing happen a while back where my mom apologized for like. a lot of stuff. for the homophobia, for Some of the physical abuse she did, for some of the physical abuse & other abuse my dad & brother did to me. on their behalf, i guess? idk, being apologized to doesn’t really mean anything to me — or it didn’t, for a long time; i’ve only recently had Moments where someone apologized to me and i felt that it meant a lot — so i just felt weird about it. she was crying really hard, so i know that she knows that it was Bad. i still wish i could impart on her or on other people who don’t believe me Exactly what it was like, but i can’t.
for a large part it doesn’t really affect me, other than like, a desire to bury my head in the sand rather than Confront anything negative. so like. it doesn’t make it better but what i’m trying to say is like… idk, i’m doing fine, it could be way worse.
i guess i’m just biding my time until graduation. i almost wish i was working, because it feels like time passed a lot faster when i had work looming over me every two days. my class schedule for the next week is… fun…. i have a class from 2-4 and 6-8 on mondays, and then class from 6-8 on wednesdays. my fourth class is just my internship credit, and i don’t really need any more classes [that are offered in the fall].
so i’ll have plenty of free time, which is nice. i want to do more around the house, helping w upkeep and stuff. i have housemates & friends who i Love, which is not smth i would have expected like five years ago. so. time flies, i guess.
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this is kind of random, but poking around on the glee subreddit recently, I saw quite a few names from people I recognize from tumblr. And I'm just kind of curious what the final straw was for you finally giving up on that place? I think for me, it was their Pollyanna-ish need to sugarcoat how ugly things became bts. I mean, those people will still lose their minds if it's suggested it wasn't "scheduling conflicts" that kept Dianna out of the The Quarterback or that Lea/Naya weren't besties.
Oh kind of random is my jam. I've talked briefly about leaving the sub before but I guess this is my opportunity to fully ponder. Tell all! *NOT* clickbait: why I left the sub! Lmao
I wanna reflect on your final straw first because I find it interesting. It's not something I ever paid much attention to but you're apt with the Pollyanna-ish need. On the one hand, I get it when people are fed up with discussions around BTS drama and the lives of real people that we'll never get to know the intricacies of and the full truth. On the other, such is the nature of forums that popular topics will get rehashed and people will have differing opinions. My problem was with the users who'd be so quick to dismiss everything and it was like they wanted to shut all discussions down. Idk if it's still the case now, but if you were on the sub last year you know what I'm talking about. And it's like, dude, just block the thread of something you don't have to engage. Buuut I also get what it's like when you look at every second post and thread and feel like blocking them. The sub becomes not such a great place to be at that point.
So, interesting point, but my final straw was a little different. If I had to pinpoint one exact thing then, well, I guess I could but it feeds into larger problems so I'll explain those too. One thing that broke the camel’s back? IIRC, I took a bit of a break at the end of last year and when I checked the sub again I saw what was not the first but not even the third or fifth post that basically boiled down to “Santana deserved to eb outed/Finn wasn’t THAT wrong” or something of the sort. I cannot emphasize enough that I firmly believe this is the single worst Glee take to have and I genuinely have no interest in talking to anyone who holds that view. At best they’re incredibly ignorant. And I got tired, you know? And this is where I started to see this was part of a larger problem, because like I said this was far from the first time I had to see that with my own two eyes. That is the nature of a forum and I used to appreciate that, the discussion, the engagement. But it’s different from a platform like tumblr where you can curate your own experience.
The joke goes, fandom is you and the five people you haven’t yet blocked. And though that’s obvious hyperbole, the older I get the more I vibe with it. I got tired of so many users on the sub and started blocking more and more. Not for sharing opinions, no, but for their behaviours and style. It got incredibly repetitive, which, makes sense for a fandom that’s so old and inactive. But I feel like there’s so much to explore when it comes to Glee and fewer and fewer of those convoc were happening on there. That’s a big thing, no actual convos anymore. Just those elimination games, oh god. And not to be a hypocrite because I myself conducted one but that was what made me realize how they’re no substitute for things I actually enjoy about fandom. It wasn’t a great experience organizing the Solos Showdown, tbh, and that came down to users. Not to shit on all of the sub because there were and am sure are wonderful peeps on there. I miss quite a few of them. But on a platform like Reddit, on a forum, you have to deal with it all and I just didn’t want to anymore.
Another thing is that I had been wanting to take a break from the sub for a long while before I actually did but I felt stuck with it if I wanted to be part of the Glee fandom. There was a period of time I really, really enjoyed on there but it was relatively brief and after that I just stuck around because, for some reason that is now beyond me, I thought Gleek tumblr was all but dead. It’s the great luck of things that just as I finally started withdrawing from the sub because the overall bad vibes were too much that I magically found Glee tumblr. I had been following a handful of people but, seemingly all of a sudden, in December 2021 it was like something clicked. I still don’t know why to this day but I just, started getting asked about Glee. And started a wonderful opportunity to be able to talk about Glee in a different way with different people and start putting thoughts together more cohesively. I also got back into giffing (hugely thanks to @sohoseance‘s Paintbox project, shoutout 💖) which is so unique to tumblr and was another reason to become more active on here.
Once I was active with Glee things on tumblr, it was over for the sub. Why stay on there and constantly roll my eyes when I can just chill here, curate my fandom experience, hang with the two dozen or so people I know won’t have outrageous and blood-boiling things to say? Opinions can differ and I have much love for mutuals with different faves but they won’t be regurgitating the same old shit. I’ve always been a tumblr fandom girlie ant the sub just feels like a detour I briefly took in 2021. Now, don’t get me wrong, I am grateful for a lot of things. The sub basically saved my sanity in 2021 and there were wonderful users on there, some of whom I now call friends. I did my singing statistics series on there, which I for some reason still hesitate to migrate onto tumblr. I liked the forum aspect of reddit for a brief while there and I liked some discussions. But it’s ultimately a different platform and one that I don’t think is sustainable for how fandoms, for me personally.
I’m sure the answer is in there somewhere, but TL;DR the final straw was realizing that I’d always have to deal with shit on the sub and the good wasn’t outweighing the bad anymore, not nearly. And because I found a community on here, I no longer felt like the sub was my only option for fandom needs.
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scalefeathers · 2 years
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well huh.
So I never claimed to be good at these here socials media, and, case in point, I didn’t realize until yesterday (because I hadn’t thought to check) that my blog wasn’t showing up in search suggestions, nor were my posts findable through tag searches. (Many thanks to @bluedaddysgirl for noticing this, and bringing it to my attention!)
Turns out I had a couple reblogs (one from 2015, one from 2016) that had been flagged for ‘offensive content’ (one of which absolutely was, being a reblog of an Oglaf comic from before the Great Tumblr Porn Purge; the other one was imo debatable but certainly not worth fighting over). Anyway, I have since deleted the offending reblogs, and lo and behold, I and my posts are now searchable!
I’m mostly feeling baffled and bemused by this, and by how difficult and not-obvious it was for me to (A) figure out my stuff was being squashed, (B) figure out I had flagged reblogs, and (C) figure out that these two things might be related. (Technically this is still just supposition; I still haven’t found any confirmation that reblogging offensive content could have this kind of impact. Tumblr’s FAQ mentions that *posting* offensive content may get your account marked as ‘explicit’, but that doesn’t seem applicable because (1) these were reblogs, not posts, and (2) I was still able to use custom headers and avatars, which explicit accounts are not supposed to be able to use. So idk, but I’m tagging @support just in case; y’all lmk if you want me to provide screenshots or anything. I know I’m kind of oblivious a lot of the time, but I still feel like there’s room for improvement with the UX here. God, can you tell I work in tech?
Anyway, I’ve got no idea how long this was going on, but it does make me feel a little better about not getting more notes on my work these past few months. (Yes I know notes are not an objective measure of quality or worth, but try telling that to the dopamine-producing parts of my brain). I’m not sure what to do now. Should I re-post the artwork so it will re-surface in the tags? Should I make a post tagged with my main fandoms being like ‘hey, btw I’m here, come look at my stuff’? Should I just carry on as before? That’s probably what’s going to happen, but I’m open to suggestions.
TL;DR: if you’re following me for my art, it might be worth going through the ‘my art’ tag, there may well be stuff in there that you missed! and if you want to reblog said stuff to help it get some extra exposure, I certainly wouldn’t mind!
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