#idk Im rambling I said Im normal

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

I've been chewing on what fears the bg3 characters would be because I do that with almost every piece of media I like now.

Gale is the Beholding (hubris, pursuit of knowledge above all else, his ex can literally see everything he does in/with the Weave). You could make an argument for Desolation b/c of the orb but I think that's secondary. Wyll is the Hunt imo, but the Desolation works for him too- I think his situation is similar to that Hunter we meet whose name I'm forgetting, whose inciting incident has to do with the Dark. I thought the same thing about Karlach but I think she's Desolation instead of Hunt, both aesthetically and because she was actively betrayed and is, you know, dying. Shadowheart is the Dark. Halsin could honestly be the Lonely: he's pretty isolated from the people around him emotionally. An island unto himself etc etc. Lae'zel is the End imo. You'd think she'd be Hunt but End fits into Vlaakith's whole deal (victim of the End, avatar of the Hunt?). Astarion could be either the Buried (since that covers abuse as well, he was literally kept underground/out of the sunlight, etc etc) or the Hunt. I'm a bit undecided there. I don't know enough about Minthara to make a call on her and I don't want to just say Web because of Lolth. Slaughter, maybe? Since that fear covers war. Jaheira and Minsc are Hunt too, I think (there's a lot of Hunt but that comes with the territory when you're adventuring).

Gortash is Web and you cannot convince me otherwise. I think Orin is Slaughter but, honestly, Durge seems more associated with the Extinction to me because of Bhaal's end goal. The Desolation and the Lonely tag-teamed Ketheric's ass but he's an avatar of the End. Dame Aylin is an avatar of the Hunt, victim of the Dark, and Isobel is an avatar of the End a la the main End avatar we see (Oliver? I really need to re-listen...)

There's obviously a lot of overlap and bleed because there always is. I've been wanting to make art based off of this but it's not happening anytime soon so I figured I'd shout about it into the void a bit lol

#as far as tavs go: #dora is probably hunt? unclear #peri's stranger #corentin specifically is slaughter even though i know i said durge was extinction #candor is web tbh but a victim of the vast #io is...none? honestly? they were just a Normal Person before pre-tadpole #luka's end obviously #undecided about solace. theyre a victim of/marked by slaughter & desolation even though theyre a tempest cleric #buried? perhaps? im chewing on beholding for them too b/c of reasons i cant quite articulate rn #anyway #my post #jay rambles #bg3 #bg3 companions #bg3 characters #the magnus archives #tma #i dont think orins stranger despite being a changeling because that just enhances her killing #like. nicola's pretty damn murderous too but that's just bc she is #while orin uses her shapeshifting as a tool to kill *better* #idk if that makes sense #dribbles is stranger though (the real one AND the doppleganger. dont trust clowns kids)

[emerdoodls]

does anyone else with aphantasia ever say "i always pictured..." then realize you never pictured that bc you don't ever picture anything and you also thought that picture this was a metaphor so you don't say it in a literal way but everyone else will take it literally and ask you what you mean bc "don't you not get the pictures in your head??"

#aphantasia #i think about it all the time #i thought people were lying when they said they could see pictures when they read #i loved reading but didn't get pictures or a movie so maybe i just like looking at words??? #rambles #i wrote my college essay on aphantasia idk why tho there are more interesting events in my life #aphantasia is so weird #especially bc i dream and i have pictures when i dream but not when i think #on the subject of thinking does everyone have to like try to hear a voice in their head or is that normal #im not entirely sure theres anything in my head #maybe it's just brain soup

[kaseyskat]

my Thoughts on like, normals character and where he's going btw are highly based on his own flaws and like. idk ive kinda seen both sides (normal is a baby and must be protected versus normal needed this ego blow because he was getting too into his head) and I think it's maybe more nuanced than that? cause the thing is. normal is RIGHT to think that his side of things are the morally correct side. he's the one whose seen what the doodler wants and fears and where it came from, he had more perspective on the quest than any of the other teens and I'm not arguing otherwise because it'd be silly. it's HOW he's going about it that puts him firmly into the, "teen character is going to fuck up because they're a teenager" category: as much as he does genuinely try, he's not good at connecting to other people and he does put himself on this pedestal of "i know better and therefore im the best" that isn't exactly the MOST healthy mindset, as a self-proclaimed leader.

that being said, I absolutely understand where he's coming from in this episode in a very. he is hurting and lashing out kind of way? we know why scary is acting the way she is (her own past with her dad + willy trauma=she's still looking for the trauma that justifies her inner darkness) and we know why link is acting the way he is (he's hurt and scared and he never asked for this and he just wants to ensure that he's not the one actively hurting people, he never forgave himself for the casualties of ep2 and the last thing he wants is to add more) and one of normals flaws is his pride, the way he's so sure of what he's doing, he's the best for this and of COURSE it's the right way, he knows that!!!

but he can't empathize with scary right now. very specifically he cannot empathise with her because he can't trust her. and if he can't trust link he can't empathize with him either. normal does view himself as the reason the team is together, and I think that's why he was suddenly on board with kicking scary out when before he was so deadset on helping her: if he personally can't trust anyone, does he really have a team he can lead?

that being said, the shots taken on him recently have been sooo low in comparison. scary has done nothing but bully normal since they reunited. link has been sassy and snippy with normal even since ep26 and it's only gotten worse. normal and taylor don't really have much of a relationship outside the teen friendship circle in general. hermie is angry at normal- and I kinda agree with will that it should NOT solely be up to the players to remember anthony's fucking npc, as funny as it is. as much as I want normal to listen and understand and empathize with scary and link both, it IS a little frustrating when in comparison normals been fucking tanked at every opportunity by the other players- and link's line to normal after he found out about hero actually made me so upset on normal's behalf like dude.

I'm still on the boat that normal should get and deserves a mild villain arc. I desperately want him to team up with hermie and go to the goofs realm alone. I think it might be good for him- both to have a solo adventure with hermie and to have a solo adventure in general, so he can find out why he loves having friends so much. and I think him going through a villain arc would be so narratively compelling, because again, he's not WRONG about the path they should be taking: it isn't underestimating links personal trauma to admit that normal is actually right and he's just so bad at following through. it's just kinda a little tiring sometimes when normal actually does his best to keep the group together and it doesn't work (looking at episode 27 in particular) or when he tries to bury that oak family generational anger the way sparrow and henry do. let him be angry!!!

#kasey rambles #dndads #dndads spoilers #normal oak #THIS ISNT ME HATING ON THE OTHER TEENS BTW #like the whole point of this season imo? is to show that despite having the same goal #they all have such vastly different ideas on how to get there #its such a stark difference from s1 and i love it so bad #that they all have motivations and reasons and they've all been done a little dirty #but sjfjkgkflgb id be lying if i said that normal isnt a point of contention in the fandom from what ive seen #he kinda reminds me of marcy wu in that regards #itd be wrong to say that normals anger and sass in this ep wasnt justified just like #itd be wrong to say that links actions in breaking the pic and spying on scary werent justified #its a part of who they are! theyre fundamentally so different and thats okay!!! #link is angry with how normal's plans have only seemed to hurt more people and he is VALID for that anger like it makes sense! #but that doesnt mean normal isnt justified in being hurt that link broke the pic #also link snipping at normal about him being unwanted right after the reveal... i would've reacted so much worse than normal tbh #but idk idk im just rambling. a little drunk. drunk nyx having big feelings

[snailcubezz]

rlly miss being in active psychonauts servers but i can't vibe with a lot of the ones im already in </3 SAD!

#🐠.txt #i mean the active one tht i mod in is nice but like #idk its mostly 14yos i don't know how to talk to them /hj #i mostly stick to the oc corner of that one #and the other ones im in r full of Way Older Fans like the DF server #who r mostly more casual fans in a way or have vastly different interpretations from me #and i cannot autistically ramble in there without feeling at least a little insane and weird for it #ANYWAY. that being said this is me saying Pleaseplease give me yuor discords i want to be not normal about this game again

[thestamp3d3]

i cant get over how absolutely insane satosugu is...gege was born to write yaoi forced to write shounen

#sorry i remembered hidden inventory arc n im insane about them again :(( SAD LITTLE GAY PEOPLE IN MY PHONE!!! #nah but it just...OUGHHH they make me so upset!!! #its just they way they start out immediately understanding each other bc gojo has been alone on a pedestal basically his entire life+ #but then he meets geto who treats him like a normal dude!!! not a weapon!!! and just watching them annoy each other as normal teens + #makes me emotional bc theres so much cruelty and just DEATH in their world but at the least they have each other to get through it!!! #theyre the strongest together after all right!!! then toji happens and gojo starts to perfect his abilities with him automating infinity #and then the gap between the two just gets wider and wider...until the final confrontation where the one who understood gojo all this time #not only leaves him but calls him arrogant at the same time showing gojo the ONLY person who he though understood just..doesnt+ #and hes left alone again in the same place he was years ago...AND OUGHHHHH #idk i watched a video analysis of hidden inventory where the guy said geto was just as egotistical as gojo except in having a savior comple #and tbh i never though of that before!! but looking back it makes sense with how he spoke to riko + the way he slaughtered the whole villag #to not just save the girls but also prove to himself that he could make the world he wanted #the guy in the video put it basically that since the gap between gojo and geto was so wide geto would rather be the best villain+ #than second best hero and that makes a lot of sense since his ideals/goals as a villain go against his usual rational behavior #he KNOWS its probably impossible (for him at least it wouldnt be for gojo which he admits) but he has to do it for himself #sorry im rambling but AHHHHHH how tf did gege write this??? its such a small part of the story but its arguably the catalyst for everything #aside from plot wise it simply just is impactful emotionally! gege had to go thru a toxic codependent homoerotic friendship to write this+ #theres just no other way #jjk #jujustu kaisen #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu

[dietbeverage]

Sometimes I remember a conversation I had with my mom around the time they were learning about my younger sisters adhd and she said "a lot of people with adhd need to do something to occupy themselves to help their brains think. A lot of them doodle or bounce their leg or do something like that in class and it helps them focus." And I remember thinking yeah I do both of those things but I'm built different lmao I just do those for fun and not bc of adhd. Girl...

#my posts #adhd #the mental gymnastics i would constantly go through in my head to like other my sister and reassure myself that i was normal #is completely mind boggling to me #i even remember saying to my sister once in a really mean conversation #that she was just like me in whatever quality and she just had to get over herself and deal with things and not be such a baby about things #like i was so close to getting it #but i didnt have the knowledge to understand that i was just way better at masking than she was #and even my parents didnt #i had a lot of problems as a kid around being different and not fitting in but i could never really wrap my head around it #my mom also said once that kids with adhd mature a few years behind their peers #and i thought 'yeah not me haha im totally normal' #narrator: she wasnt #idk in a lot of ways my self esteem was really fucked with throughout my adolescence bc i knew i wasnt normal #but i was smart and somewhat emotionally intellegent #so my social ineptitude was like this odd thorn in my side that i couldnt understand #dunno just rambling today i guess #sorry allie for treating you like shit

[elliotcuevas]

ok extending on the canceling gartic, this day alone has been so overstimulating (mommy issues go brrr) that im gonna have to take a break from online social events and general posting 4 a customized break :(( i barel even have the same 2 write this either.... i will still b around (liking, commenting) but i will be inacctive mostly,,,, sorry for short notice

#as i said ill be back to normal by next friday i hope!!!! #but dont count on it though #school starts on the 14th and i am NOT ready at all blehhhh #ramblings #kinda vent ish #idk im so tired

[oddogoblino]

Sometimes my paranoia makes me really overthink why someone could've possibly blocked me but then I have to remember how the reasons can go as small as just not liking the ship someone else reblogged once.

#oddito ramblinos #like- im so paranoid about doing anything remotely problematic that it legit makes me scared of reblogging normal aaa body support stuff #my entire decisions on what is and isnt chill to reblog/like is based like 40% off of the ppl i follow. #like ofc common sense is a majority but that 40% that has no idea desperately tries to find social cues from others on if smth is good #said social cues being ofc- reblogging things #some things im confused about still but silently nod along to whatever ppl i am friends with say when theyre more knowledgeable abt things #like that ableist rickroll...i had no idea until someone i follow reblogged an awareness post.. #i am so scared of being wrong - not for the act of being wrong but of the consequences of what im wrong abt #said smth abt my ship that someone else who ships it doesnt agree with? Idk they might yell at me and say terrible things!! Who wants that? #note i am perfectly fine just existing and this is a weird issue to have- i have just always been a paranoid being and know it's paranoia #idk why im rambling its 6 am

[fertbutt]

forever sick and tired of the way tiktok teens and society in general treat homeless people. yes, I'm sorry the man thats been violently rejected from society and denied his human dignity was rude to you that one time, but jesus christ please just have an ounce of empathy. homeless folks are, surprise, actual people, with personalities and preferences and dietary restrictions. homless people are allowed to not like certain foods. their control over their lives has literally been stripped away from them, atleast give them the choice of what they eat. all of the comments on this post are people fantasizing about harassing a disenfranchised person because he was mean. just because a homeless person wont play into your weird savior fantasy doesnt mean theyre undeserving of food or money or even just basic decency. always remember that we are all just a couple bad days away from being just like them, on the streets with literally nowhere safe to stay, being judged by well-off white women masquerading as progressive activists and expecting you to act like theyre mother theresa.

#this is rambly its late and this upsets me so much #zoomers are NOT inherently any better than previous generations #idk what to tag this #im not gonna tag it whatever #im not homeless. obviously #you can tell from the post #i dont have any skin in the game #or at least not any more than anyone else has #(since again any of us could become homeless suddenly any day) #so forgive me if anything i said is weird or innacurate or anything #but this specific topic frustrates me a lot so many people are so stupid and heartless #also in this specific situation you are again denying this man a choice in what hes eating #like you dont know this man. you dont even know what he can or cant eat let alone what hed like to eat #you couldve maybe ASKED HIM like a normal fucking person #but instead you decided to make the choice for him? despite being a complete fucking stranger? #yeah if that might be the only thing he eats that day maybe he should get an input dumbass...

[bubblellop]

i judt finisihed watching fionna and cake ur all utterly fucked

#bubble rambles #my way of saying thst im about to reblog a lot for a while ig #i still dont know whether im goimg to reblog normal fc stuff or kjust spam art n shit of thst one version of marceline im sorry #idk which side of me will win #migjt also just be a lot of simon i love him i lovr him so much hes like a wet papertowel im obseesed wit htat old man #ok im gonna say it hes really gender to me . who said that.

[oh-gh0st]

thinking

#ghosts rambles #woke uo. i am somewhat awake #ive been kind if realizing how im starting to prefer drawing ghostoro instead of shinushi… like #i dont want to stop drawin shinushi all together but i dont think i developed their dynamic enough to be appealing to me #so i draw ghostoro instead because i gave them the “normal couple” dynamic. like theyre not overly in love w each other but #<- they still know that the other loves them compassionately. regardless if they say or show it which leaves room for experimentation #and the fact it has more like plot development to it??? CHARACTER PROGRESSION. THATS THE WORD #ive said what ghost’s purpose was in oso san before but ill say it again. they help choro be put into his place and humble him So much #come 5 years later hes a completely changed man #maybe because they bounce off of each other well. both are short tempered but one knows how to control it and the other lets it get to him #IDK… ive been seeing it a lot more lately #again i dont wanna stop drawing shinushi buts its like. i need to work on it before im passionate ab them as much as i am w ghostoro

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

seeing posts on my dash about go s2 like gripping my phone grinding my teeth staring wide-eyed and unblinkingly into the void snarling and hissing and spitting refusing to watch it like as long as i don't watch it season 2 isn't real it can't hurt me they lived happily ever after

#a biscuit's rambles #i am so normal about this #no but im genuinely scared to watch s2 #ive seen so many mutuals emotionally destroyed #im sticking to fanfic #that was written before the s2 release #SEASON 2 ISNT REAL IT CANT HURT ME OK #I AM FINE EVERYTHING IS FINE IM FINE #i want to watch it kinda bc ofc itll ve fantastic but as i said. idk if my heart can take it atm #good omens #good omens season 2

[deeisace]

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#big ol tmi right here stop reading if you're not afan of scary medical stuff #well. potential scary medical stuff. im scared but idk what's happening #basically. the only thing that's changed in my life is that im on the depo injection right #and now (here is the tmi) every time I masturbate it's. blood. instead of the usual. like the black bits you get with a heavy period too #which i think i remember knowing is like womb skin bits. the black bits in period blood #anyway that's gross #and im scared #i looked it up and like one website said ehh you're fine that's a normal side effect and one said Go See A Doctor Immediately #so uh. yeah. #im hoping it's fine. but im gonna go to the injection appt to talk about this instead of having the injection. #i haven't spoke to anyone about it yet im hoping typing it here will kinda make it easier to say on the 19th #like ill think it's over wait a couple days ahh y'know and then after or sometimes ill notice like an hour later #ill bleed overnight and sometimes the next day again #by 'ill think its over' i mean the light-for-me periods i get on the depo #unless im supposed to have stopped entirely and the whole thing is due to the same issue idk #i don't know the signs of cancers other than breat cancer - it doesn't run in the family apparently but we are all at high risk #they were gonna do like top surgery on me as a kid just in case but they ended up not #i wish they had tbh itd save a great deal of bother #sorry anyway im big stressed and im in period-level pain and all my joints are bad again and everything #so im rambling now cs im scared #i can do injections but im very very scared of like. exams and stuff. especially this kind

[brie-draws]

mitsukuri appears sooner in the drama than expected according to the preview, surprised his hair is that silver, if a bit subdued/since cosmo's hairstreak isn't rly that noticeable compared to the manga lol, though his and kotos are pink now which is still fitting for the series i think tho even as a clip on or temporary spray i kinda wish they made it more obvious since it is kinda a plot point versus "anime chara in live action doesn't have bright blue hair" which is a bit more understandable

Yeahyeah!!! I'm honestly happy how soon he seems to show up-- but I'm biased because he's how I got into the series lol. I am wondering if they'll actually get into his arc or not because it's really good right now, but it is ongoing, so. I am sad they didn't make the streaks more obvious-- when the first promos came out I complained to friends because they were not visible at all and I was like "Thats important to the plot!!!". Idk, I'm also just not used to how drama adaptions do things like this, I'm used to stageplays/musicals where designs are 1:1 [I get the taking liberties for practical/commercial reasons and whatnot dgmw].

#i remember my 1 friend who does watch dramas n stuff said its normal to change things like that even if its a plot point #they theorized its to reach a wider audience but. drama adaptions arent my world so idk #even stage wasnt my world until that same friend LOL #and believe me ive been fantasizing how a gachikoi stage would go #[praying for a gachikoi stage and an oshi no ko stage in the future] #anyway im rambling again in the tags sorry JDHJKFDGHJK i get passionate about this hehe <3;; #brie replies #anon #asks #not art #wait one more thing. i legit thought they were purple streaks-- maybe i need my eyes checked--

[maiteo]

one semester with a normal professor im truly begging. just one.

#i don’t think this was supposed to be a tag ramble but *anon voice* I’ve got a lot on my mind #my maiainstem pics are back hehe classes start aug22 we dont know where we’ll live yet but they said our asses BETTER be at class🤭 #no one at gt is normal not even me but idk I still hold out hope #why thee FUCK did one of my *potential* professors (whose class I genuinely need) send out everyone on the list/waitlist a python link thats #MANDATORY if you wanna be on his list for next semester say SIKKEEE RN im so mad i even spelled fuck correctly ahsjsndsj #we have to code a program to be in his class he’s so sick for that like and the gc didn’t even open yet but ik it would be crazy in there #the anxiety is already creeping up bc im gonna be full time on campus & atlanta is already in a danger zone for the monkeypoxx mess like PLS #not even my meditations could get me out of this I just need to scream or sum or go to ocean n ponder since I wont be able to once im home #anyways…hope everyone is having a good day if you read all that mess slay😘❤️‍🩹

[noxtivagus]

afternoon happy random rambles c:

#🌙.rambles #i am. so good at talking to myself #honestly i talk to myself quite a lot huh idk i generally have sm on my mind #i love convos abt stuff like this but idk how do ppl even bring up n initiate convos esp abt these topics #with apollo sometimes we just randomly bring it up n talk for hours but idk how to do that for others #like idk i'm the sort of person i think that seems normal on the outside but fuck no i'm weird #THAT SAID THOUGH i don't care i just wna be myself in this world :c #realizing once more that i am a rather serious person. NOT BORING THOUGH I HOPE #random but i rmb when first meeting w some ppl earlier this year i rmb in call #i don't remember context but i think i said a word n people's reactions were funny #i think it was 'affinity' ???? #anyways that makes me remember i'm a person that. idk my vocab is. #i use words in normal day to day convos that most ppl around me dont use ;;;; #one thing i love abt tumblr is that there r sm creative ppl here #i'm not used to knowing creative ppl irl Sigh #i love both the intricate n simple details in life but b #im not used tho to environments fit for ppl like me ig #thinking rn abt how yh i'm really a creative person at heart but i've also always been #intelligent w stuff like memorization analysis uhh maths sciences languages n academics in general #wait i rmb now back to interpretation yes #i love that sm. like yk w music w art w theatre w literature #n that's personally a core theme in my own writing. that i try to implement at least #i love thinking abt how the own things i write r up to interpretation for others #perception in general too is smth that sparks so much curiosity in me #speaking of which i wna make that gforms soon #i wna ask ppl ik questions c: just out of curiosity bcs goddamn i rlly love learning #there's no end to the things to learn in this world. to be created too #n i'll develop these skills n gain more memories until i ultimately get bored to death or smth #hehe 🫶🏼